#I DONT CARE ABOUT EART

[automationsfascinations]

i just cant believei t s ahpneed chtris was jsut suscj a genuine gudf ands i sidonto nkwo wnwaht else ot tihink because gei dmu wokf sare nt adadtualju making anyhing but nmuy mind is veitpini ingot her naid tindoenst matter what im really in intehre an di ihsjt amiaej ia woid cbut chir as the most benuoenie man on eart ai cant belive ige is gone. i hav ebeen crying on and off now nad what really gets my now i s that he was just such a good gu. i think im a good guy but nothing like that.

i cant understand toatllynwhy im so cold and harsh and calculatibe but obcoioulsy ints for something adn my suster us jinda of like that too . but wht way i am i s the way i am. no one evr showed me the love i wanted i guess. no one seemed to care about me. but i was provided for, there was jsut some traumea. its okay. its just trauma. its just an experience. it all addded togerhet. i can find peace. with kat or not. ic ant belie i hust forhot her name. I keep thinking her name is heather, which cleeratl shows what kind of stage i am in. theres still time or us to be fone. this time she lieks me more than heeather did. is it a good thing that she dont like me ? Mayb.

the psychic don had been right so far... he ewas right about the battles with women. he was right that iwork best alone. he was right htat i wouldnt hurt nobody. thata i have adhd.

[artinasciences]

to stop powerful war machines whether they are r.o.v.s , driven by people, or autonomous

hi I know people , think not only men have thought of how to stop powerful war machines whether they are r.o.v.s , driven by people, or autonomous. in the movie Star Wars- empire strikes back their gluey teen boy models in future billionare movies with few female characters, princesses or not, fly around large war machines driven by people with cables and bring them down. duh. it is like those machines were white flamingos with four legs. and, and you should never start a sentence with and it is not funner enough? did you want to write or video message about these ideas. that is not a mean science contest about patents that go nowhere and are put into a category of national securities only? I'm not sam & I am, that is I am me, not sam or thee.

if you put or putt, though I'm not sure where golf is involving theirselves, besides that,s where boaters sleep while awake from bugs in a board room , though in the bushes without not only mosquitos eating Doritos with Seawolves and or maccnices named pondwolves portland , or dia pond divers not into mostly male rock groups and one woman or frmale drumming or whatevering aye?- retrieving  spheres with dimples in a driving range pond.  there is carbon fiber watering tubes ( that is not repulsive bymork and mindys show and there is not only nano , theres e micro thers very small fun particles ? extensing in scopes without poisoness mouth wash or male dominating hip hop rap rock) cabling in nasa experigalaxie or most likley experimental videos. videos on video showing several whatever stronger than steel cables, suposelywhteveringly. these technologies mixing with lead or theirselves as a whatevering cage around a killeer robot , an isle , a keel? no! silly string in peoples possession ( with heavy weight net floating fast from female sources with heavy weights around each net to bring that killer robotdown or at least sto it near its struggling tracks on or off tracks, & r.o.v.s with carbon whatevering tibe sillystrings or thicker cables not the size or bricks , they couldn't fit thought the nets entangle the net saws or silly string snippers & also tru ti to entangle the motion wheeles shoelded by heavy metal , mostly a male music genre that i dont care is stopped along with rap hip hop mailestrome smyths yhths? no the meadia ive seen on mttv, and now back to how coukd people stop killer autonomous robots on eart's surfaces? . these robots will have  silly string clippers or scissors stowed in their tank like bodies to clip very strong silly strings , thussy you should existensing with silly strings that jam not only their movement machine joints , though as welling their radioscopy eyes and snipper  silly strings openings..

have fun at & after work , these problems are so mean you have to try to existensing in fu at work as welling. you could video message me if you could figure that in an existensing fun that is 90% fun & in my existensing that is mostly not violence, though in the media thats where money goes and it shows , though is it a deep fake violence war movie with new technology?. i was watching videos and mostly photos without music palsof the ukraine and russsia fighting and they appear to be real violence and women don't bwear fun clothes there and look scared on youtube. i perfer to galnce at theirselves , though scaced, than warmonger male leaders in their polical talking and then sending war machines , though they are neither much fun. write me about heavy net weight deployers landing on war machine on earth's surfaces or similar ideas about stopping flying war machines and landing them back where they came from without blowup bummers and a bunch of hummers and tanks going to investigate. have fun after work

[obliviouskeiths]

the way that voltron really over estimated how important the plot was to us like... the show became so plot driven when the plot its self was so cloudy, overly complicated and not fun to follow...just...

#like bruh ITS SET IN SPACE!!! #EXPLORE THE ALIENS!!! #LIKE S1 & 2 DID #I WANNA SEE MEMORABLE CHRACTERS UNIDUE CULTURES NEW ALIEN DESIGNS PLS!!!!! #I DONT CARE ABOUT THE ATLAS #I DONT CARE ABOUT EART #I DONT CARE ABOUT THE NEW CADETS #I DONT CARE ABOUT CLONE SHIRO OR WHATEVER THE FUCK THAT WAS #I WANNA HAVE CHRACTER DRIVEN STORIES WITH DIFFERENT PLANETS GODDAMMIT #ugh im so...mad #like its been 1year ishould let it go but i just. #im rewatching atla and im Thinking of rewatching v*ltron #then i rembered how much i Hate it #enyways #ew.x #just a ramble #voltron #vld

[screechingtrashcalzonewombat]

"Apopalictic Astral Asending" Reavaluate disassociate my self worth...

The galaxies have birthed an uncontrollable being ....

I've feel as tho Ive seen myself split in two ..

Witch side do u wanna see if ur lucky I'll let you choose .

Cause in the end I loose..

One of hate one of love could both be from up above..

Or down below ...

I've began to show signs of delusions as half my mind goes an tells me it's only mild confusion. As my body fights my brain an heart to escape theys terrible illusions.

Yet the other half tries to start a fusion of body an mind an all the suddently my thoughts are no longer mine..

But a evil so Divine that its wound it's way threw time itself I've fealt the damage the energy dealt. I've yelped in anquish an pain been stuck for 7 long years in the rain with nothing to gain .. I can barely fathom to explain im not fully on earth I'm on another astral plane but i fear i flew out of my lane I've gone insane never wanted fame Ever fealt like bat man I mean oops Bruce Wayne. Nah fuck hes spoiled a wet rat infact I'm more like hulk duck when I'm near i wearly see I'm drowning inside my mind but no one can hear my dear I fear I've lost control again but cant compute I've been booted out of the system I've clawed hit an kicked to try to get to the top but i outta of known I've been ripped an thrown from my throne ive been shown what this beast can do but who woulda thought a demon bought my soul ..a jackal a goul.....you'll see me shift into numbness I suposse it was my own dumbness for being to open now cause of me my body an mind are broken an stole. as I weep an shutter an i try to speak but only stutter I found myself weak in defeat ....as ik this demon reaching its peak will plunder an pillage the town I've found I'm bound to this beast nowhere to run not north south or east I can run it will feast on my soul until the end of time ..

For diamonds cannot compare to the rarity of a soul nor a bowl of Ruby's an jems rolled in gold .....

A bold statement you say........

.. theres no ray of light here they stole it away buried it in your mind but how can u define being locked trapped in yourself ...

You've dealt your own fate ...

Wanting ansers u dint deserve ..

Did you like your just dessert's...no?

Dose it hurt ..... After you itll kill children's childhood freinds like bernie & eart ....whent bizzirk an bashed there brains makeing bloody rains

curking on everyone with cutlery forks an knifes* slice *cook big bird with chives after I've shanked him 900 times... 100 more woulda been devine serve him drink to dry alone cooked an ripped him to the bone but not quite alone u may not be home inside but u can still watch...I thought I taught u better than to close ur eyes dont beg or look surprised look away an I'll adopt another stray to do the same a slow sweet death cure's my hunger anyway

.the wines innocents blood bitter sweet to the taste of the tounge

no one thought it capable I seemed...looked ...so young..

They dint know it had just begun it wasn't me but the evil half committing crime with glee an fleeing repetavidly revealingly images to my mind of times & crimes so sickening I thought I'd die forever scetched seered into my mind .binded with no power as one towers over you using your power you cowar for how dose one define the disasbalment of there an every defined mind while ur inner demon dines on flesh making a mess of your vessel you cant even wrestle your way to the light to stay only break down in defeat that your so far away you've became an internal mess cant even stand on ur feet the beast has u chained in defeat u cry an apologize looking for answers as of how to stop.....an then...you hear a voice .." you outta stayed silent instead of talk back. U shouldn't of complained do u still think ur life used to be pain...... . Ur a sack of shit ur wit is less than that of an ant not to rant but I'm not done yet I have ur soul now I'm never letting go no no no I have plenty more so much to show many souls to reap an emotions to subdue after all u said yes.....

...did you forget ur the one who started this.

mess ......you dressed your mind with fantasy an fiction word to the wise never mess with other worldly friction an your itching for a way out but I doubt ull get there before the end of time .after all you had a devil an an angel on ur shoulder an you chose wrong this time. Only took 666 times but I'm patient an always waiting for 6 years hating an burning flesh waiting for a prayer a call after all Lucifer was once an angel an the most beautiful you just dint get to see from what angle he had beauty wrath an determination but u humans resulted in his isolation incarsorason. So now we will end up being humanity's enialation when were done there entire selves with evaporate for the demons have released self hate to pro create creatures in confidence we annihilate the fate of the human race at least the trace slight like us able to bust threw dementions so weve mentioned a start to find the inordinary soul an heart ......humanity was doomed from the start.. you stole our purpose our reason to be......humans sit in sin an glee.

Your humanitys Pride is overbearing never genuinely caring ..

Greed is sweeping the nation its reached ever state an it's got a hot heaping plate of corruption for mankind's consumption greed is grotesque in its steps of the darkest quest to corupt ur mind an want. .want..want until that's all you are is wanting more

Lusting over losely draped garments you've tarnished ur soul .

Envy of what you do not posses but for all you know that information an life would make you a mess but ud still test ur envious tendencies.....

Glutton glutton what have you gained it's not knowledge no for it's to plain rather glutton uve found a urge that wont go away....

Wrath an vengeance blood draw too no one stops till some dies him or you....

Sloth last but not least cant forget you cause uuuh wait what that fuck do u do....you sleep an sulk sit slither out of simple tasks an that's why ur not 1st no ur last like humanity just ask ....

So soon the day will draw near the the number 4 is what you should fear our dear old freinds were sending up for a visit so they can reddit ur fate for each a horse an a trait the first out the door with bow in hand riding a white horse with bow in hand

..

Conquest the start of the final test leading the restthere dark version of light on a white stallion he leads the way an soon will follow hades anyway.

War was next on a red steed he rode prepared to purge an quench new blood for the wars an battels would just begin brother against brother an close of kin witch to win?

Famine foe of all on a black horse with the courses hair so fair merely bone but dont let his appearance fool you hes for he is full devouring your greed taking away everything you want or need an now ur rationed to nearly starvation stretching farther than destination world wide sensation...

Pleage reaper of souls slowly apears steadly trotting riding a very sickly steed looking pale an almost gruesome green with sores an sickness best keep a distance. For he shall be the bringer of death an reap you all one by one to the four you shall fall...

Will you be spared are you true....

Are you happy with your life what did you do...?

Rapture no you still must die.....

Say good by to this earthy chapter theres so much more that manifest after.

But only your earthly husk must rust an fall your all energy of grate mass....

It's time to take the task of self evolvment an enjoy an enlightened installment

this world was just step wrench ur third eye wide open an accept the token of eternal life.

Grinded it to atoms a flash of dust all together ur a self fulfilling must memory pass u in a rush.....

. sudently ur bodysuit is gone ....

But it dint felt like it quite belonged.

You were 7 grams of light matter to be exact an sudently you've cracked the atmosphere ..steering energetic waves my metal psyche caves to the new information flying threw stars consolations.

Suddently speeding at the sound of light the stratosphere seems to disapear ..

My fear is gonewithout a trace an freedom transferred in its place

but am waved in infatuation to find out about out true destination...

Restoration of the soul the goal of a higher self being achieved as I crash into the sun 1500°

I feel a warmth like no other each being hues of light I might of missed earth if not I heard a voice but a mental push no need for speech just thinking it shall be done said by the the brightest in the sun.

Rejoice at last but ur journeys yet to pass ..

This is merely were you start ....

Our flames grew high with frantic waves not wanting to give up the new life we were just gave

Suddenly our flames grew dim as we felt a swirling deep from withn sudently the surface of the sun turned to tin an bent in a cracked an caved with itself our time an space sending us ascending in alignment the same assignment.

Because the sun has begun to change ina twisted way a black hole some could say.

As all of our astral beings were ripped an tore apart at the seams we all merged an formed one all knowing creative being an sudently everything I've know has little matter I'm past a point of human chatter i understand infinity the holy trinity I down in the milky way an experienced every life I've relived it twice I've spliced my genetics into over 2000 million beings I've seen good an bad in between experienced every tragedy to build my strength an studyd every thesis an theory thread an chain nearly drove my vessel insane even took knifes threw my veins in anger yet it failed I was just a trailer.ive seen love hate an anger

Comprehension compasing many others I have love an understanding past many beings there anger seems to brush by me cause I'm with 2000 souls an minds that have formed one to reach a state I can medidate in the milky way an force your negative away .

Our astral self has accumulated complete power an understanding by costuming to our full potential our old body's merely a rental.

Gentle at first then bursted into power showered in knowledge I know now much that I wondered before but now I want more an I've thought till I an 2000 shared beings head hurt cause my girth of knowledge will now never be enough it's tough cause now I must find .... how to ascend again but for now i must defend my vast mind defind crime ...?

Keeping 2000 vast voices locked away so I can focus an try to learn anyway leaning in to vast places is I the 1st 2nd or 3rd or other many plains I cant quiet place I'm traveling threw them all searching for everything I couldn't before .

This life isent like the countless other this life I like it has interesting teathers

I've surpass Angel's an there feathers an vison of a hawk.

I've surpass demonds and there demonic temping talk ..

I've walked on water as I was ripped apart an I felt my self rebuilt every cell of my being got hit with rods of power lightning not even myself can fight me god like abilities the universe as built in me theres ben a spiritual shift a tilt in me somthing generations of DNA sprawled out in a numerical display my old life experiences is the price I pay so that I can be god even if only for a day

I think I'll sit an think somewere in the outter spink of the universe I've cursed myself with knowledge an now I'm aware step into my astral space....

If you dare...

[kidgrimm]

My arcana OC and @nyasra.tumblr's oc Hazen. They stole lucio's "alpaca" i imagined it went something like this,Ahem.

/Alice sits by her shop window squandering over a magic spell book when hazen falls in through the open window next to her/

Hazen: I HEARD LUCIO HAS ALPACAS! WANNA STEAL ONE!

Alice: /chucking book over her shoulder/ *BEEP* YES!

/Grabs Hazen by the wrist as they both run out excitedly/

/By the time they find Lucio's Weird ass Zoo its gotten dark. The stand atop a hill looking down at the barn and stables. Its silent. Alice cups her chin looking down suspiciously./

Alice: hmmmm...i sense badd juujuu in my bones....

/before alice can turn around to tell Hazen her feelings he's screaming,barrel rolling down the hill without a care./

/alice gives a low grunt,placing herself on her side on the floor and barrel rolls down after him. She withholds her shouts of joy as if noone has heard Hazen's prior to this point./

Hazen: awe,... that was the saddest roll ive ever seen in my life.

/alice dust herself off and picks of the long blades of grass stuck in her hair./

Alice: wait, i gotta bad fe-

/before she can finish her sentence,hazen spots what seems to be an alpaca and rushes over to it,jumping the fence without a hitch. It's alone,in the middle of a stable,earting grass./

Hazen: OMG MISTER ALPACA!!!!!!!!

Alice: HAZEN WAIT!

/The animal puffs and flares his nostrils. Its not a fluffy calm alpaca, but now an aggravated and spooked llama.The llama Lunges towards Hazen but alice pushes him out of the way, giving alice a swift kick in the face sending her forcefully to the floor almost knocking her unconscious. The llama goes to lunge at her again but Alice is able to act quickly as Hazen Yells her name in warning. Alice throws an extended hand a cast a calming spell on the llama. It pauses and walks away. Hazen runs over to alice./

HAzen: ALICE ALICE!! ARE YOU OK!!?!?

/Alice just starts screaming in panic,hazen brushes her hair out of her face revealing a swollen shut eye/

Hazen: ALICE PLEASE STOP SCREAMING YOUR SCARING ME!

Alice: IM SCREAMING BECAUSE IM SCARED!

/they both start screaming in unison together. Alice pulls her lids apart./

Alice: OMG IS MY EYE STILL THERE?!

Hazen: I DONT KNOW ITS TO DARK TO SEE!? DOESNT THAT HURT?!

ALice: EXTREMELY!

/their horrified screams continue/

/scene change/

Hazen: and thats what happened.... we just sat their screaming for about 20 minutes till we calmed down.

/Asra and julian stare at the pair. Asra shakes his head trying not to laugh. Julian on the other hand looks completely horrified./

Julian: WHAT HAPPENED?!?

alice:ji-jilly he just told you what happened.

/pause/

/julian just starts screaming in panic ,leading alice and hazen to scream with him. Asra calmly walks over to alice and heals her eye which finally makes her stop./

Alice- oh thanks She-ra

/hazen cups his hands together almost in tears,greatful alice was able to be healed. Julian on the other hand seems a bit jealous./

julian: well i could have done that.

/all 3 agree he couldnt/

#arcana #thearcanafanart #the arcana game #the arcana #the arcana julian #the arcana asra #the arcana oc #the arcana mc #the arcana apprentice #apprenticealice

[livelovelaug-h]

Coma days

Day 2 - continued

Dean x reader --- spoilers if you havent seen the season with demon dean. And seasons 12. This is very angstyyyyyy omg

Day 2 -

I didn't sleep of course I mean who could when they feel empty. If I can't cuddle you when I sleep then it's a no go for me.

“Hey” Sam said.

“..Hey”

“Did you sleep?” I shook my head no.

“You should try Soon But uh, Jodi texted me saying she's coming Soon.”

“Okay” he got up to use the bathroom.

It doesn't even feel like 24 hours since you've been here.

“Y/n sweety Jodi's coming soon”. Nothing. Of course.

I didn't even notice Sam leave the room and come back. “Here's some breakfast you need to eat.* He stares at me after speaking.

I stand up and go to the bathroom. I come out with Sam still standing there.

“Dean you always do this. You can't just go on a hunger strike because something happens”

“Sam not now I'll eat when I'm ready”

“Fine. I'm going to go shower”.

“Cool” I say.

~~~~~ I have my head in my hands and I'm look down. I shouldn't have been so hard on him. It's like I know he's gonna be on my back and it's annoying like it's only day 2.

I ate the one granola bar about half an hour since Sam left. The one nurse comes in.

“How are you doing Mr. Clarke?”

“As good as I can be.” I fake smile.

“Her vitals are kind of low I'll be right back.”

‘Low?’. Great. just peachy.

The doctor comes back in with the nurse “is she going to be okay???”

“Well her heart slowed down and it's making the lungs work harder. She might need a breathing tube.”

‘Could this day get any better?’

“Why is this happening?”

“its like her lungs and body are shooting down from all the things she's suffered. we thought this might happen.”

“what can we do”.

"Not much sadly we'll have to see but we can do...."

Or Maybe I should find a healer. I don't think this praying stuff is gonna work. Ha healers.

Flashback - Dean just got stabbed by metatron.

"NOOOOOO"

Metatron disappears. "Dean!! Oh my god" You went over to him.

"no no no noo no." You cried.

"CAS!.... CAS! HELP"

"y/n. It's ok-ay-y.. I lov-"

"no! Don't say that. "

Sam comes over.

We need to get you up Dean. You guys stood dean up and he was quitting saying his goodbyes. Just like that. No fight. "maybe we can take you a to a healer."

"n-o... sweeth..eart. no h-healers"

"Fine. Just die then." You grind your teeth saying.

He's dead. He died on that table. You haven't left your spot in about 10 hours. Sam walked you towards your room where you lightly were hitting his chest. "Sam no! Stop. Stop"

"y/n I know I know" he cooed you and you spilled a your tears out. For hours. Sam even joined you.

End of flashback

“Jodi, hey”

"hey Dean" she hugs me. "I heard the news. She's gonna make this. You have to keep your head up." My eyes tear up. Let's go get something to eat.

"no I have to st-"

"dean she'll be fine. You need to get out of this room. Sam will come back and be with her"

Flashback-

Dean's pov.

"Sam will come back and be with her." Cas says.

"alright let's hit the road".

~~

An hour earlier~~ "c'mon y/n you always do this"

"fine Dean then go! Don't care about me or us." I try and touch her arm.

"DONT!. You never care what I want. You never listen and I can't do this anymore. If you want to go on a suicide mission then fine."

"I can't change your mind but this is my job"

"change my mind ??? It's not your job Dean there's other people that can do this or help"

"yeah because your friend was just so trustworthy." Dean says.

"wow that was low. Let's think about your helpful friends"

"none of my friends went behind my back and stabbed me."

"no just your mom" you say.

I clench My mouth. "that's different"

"oh yeah so different. We almost all ended up dead."

"we'll no ones perfect"

"clearly"

"see this is the problem with you?"

"problem ? what problem?"

"you and your attitude."

"no Its not. I'm not the one here who wants to kill myself and screw everything up."

"screw everything up? Who was the one who screwed up the hunt and almost got herself killed but instead someone else took the bullet? Or what about the time you went with Sam to end the trails. How do you think I felt then? "

"it was my job" you mocked back. "It was a taste of your own medicine."

"yeah real mature."

"not so nice when the other person does it ? Huh? Only deans way. That's it. "

"Yea maybe because I'm the only smart one here."

"not really because if you had stayed dead the first I don't know 3 times then some of the things that happened wouldn't have happened."

"it probably would have. did you forget Sam started some of the things to or were you too busy having sex with him?"

"You love bringing that up don't you. we were broken up Dean. And at least I didn't fuck up my relationship by sleeping with someone while they were still dating."

"you love bringing that up" he mocked.

"or I don't know beat someone up for no reason."

"but I thought you said that wasn't me it was the demon" he half mocked.

"I hate you and I'm done here."

"there she goes. I knew that was coming. Leaving just like she always does."

"oh yeah cause you never walked away while having a fight."

"I have but I at least came back. But no your gonna just leave forever. Until you come crawling back"

"maybe that's because i don't want to ever see you again. And please I wouldn't come back if you were the last person on earth."

"good don't come back."

"I wouldn't dream of it!" You screamed.

End of flashback

"Are you ready Dean?" I squeezed my eyes shut.

"uhh... Yea. Yeah let's go."

And that was just day 2.

#supernatural family #sam winchester #dean winchester #supernatural #spn #supernatural fanfiction #misha collins #jensen ackles #jared padalecki #y/n #castiel #dean x reader imagine #dean x reader insert #dean x y/n #dean x you #dean x reader #dean winchester x you #dean winchester x reader #dean winchester one shot #dean one shot #one shot #supernatural one shot #jodi mills #kim rhodes #dean fanfiction #spn fanfic #spn fanfiction #angst #dean angst #supernatural angst

[majros-mishaps]

well, while everything’s going to hell anyway. guess ill jump on this lore-flouting bandwagon too

despite what i said before these two have actually been a thing for a very long time. i kept it on the downlow because idk. afraid of opinions on it, but at this point......... whats the point of worrying lol

if i had all the time in the world to do what i want to do....... id do so much with their story. writing it out doesn’t feel sufficient but it’s about all i’d ever realistically have time for. im so frustrated. i wish id used the time i had better. i wish things werent ending.

details under the cut if anyone cares rofl

Some years before in-game present day, Orfreya was given a mission to infiltrate the arkship that Majro had been stationed to, upon which intelligence pointed to many Dominion citizens being held aboard. She was to figure out if they were defectors, or legit being held captive, and respond accordingly. She got herself “captured” and in the process, met Majro and his Gunhammers.

blah blah they get to talking more and more after she pretends to defect to get more info and they discover that they are actually incredibly compatible like maybe soulmates???? but Her Mission!!!!! she asks him to disappear with her, leave everything behind. He’s like “nah why would we do that everything’s peachy” and she’s like “wooooow” and then gets herself extracted by the Dominion to complete her mission, which gets all of Majro’s mercfriends killed in the process. All except Troxog, anyway.

majro cant decide if he still loves her or hates her. (it’s more the former than the latter, unfortunately, because he’s an idiot)

the middle pic is part of how i pictured their story to end. they reconcile one last time and then part ways, because theres no way its gonna work out with the whole War thing going on. not to mention just. too much baggage.

(.... and then they both mutually decide that wasnt good enough and agree to spend one day as beloveds on some faction-neutral resort satellte or something and THEN its’ really over ROFL)

the last pic is just. i was feeling very k/ingdom h/earts while listening to The Walk by Im/ogen H/eap idk

#my art #cross-faction #wildstar #draken #aurin #majro #majro skyfern #orfreya #orfreya spinerender #tideturner orfreya

[astarwagner]

Ameur Part 4

"But why?" Max had asked. "I cant 'elp 'ow I feel. I dont want to 'urt anyone but I cant ignore it. Zere's just somezing-" "I dont want to hear you raving about her!" "Maxine I still-" "Still what? Love me? Want me? Care for me?" "All of zem." "What do you want Fleur? Because I just want you." "I dont know what I want.. I'm being pulled in two different directions." "So what, you want me to compete with her for my own girlfriend? Do you know how stupid that sounds?" "I know, but I cant 'elp 'ow I feel." "You said that already." "And it still applies." "We've turned down so many people wanting to be with us because we are together, what makes her so special that changes that?" "I dont know." "Bullshit." "I dont! If I did maybe I'd understand why I'm drawn to 'er but I dont and you cant be mad at me for having feelings." "I have a right to be angery Fleur. You're leaving me to go after someone you dont even know." "I'm not just leaving you! I told you I need time to sort out zings." "In her arms." "In my 'eart and 'ead, she doesn't even know." "Riiiight, just like Jasmine doesnt know, and Marny doesnt know, and all of her friends dont know.. like I dont know." "Why are you being so 'urtful? I told you ze truz. I didnt go behind your back because zats not 'o I am." Max ran her hand through her hair. "I wouldn't have thought you would do this before coming here either.. so maybe neither of us know you very well." Fleur sniffled. "I'm not apologizing. I 'ave done nozing wrong."

Amara listens intently to the conversation. She is glade to hear that Fleur has feelings for her, but she also does not want to be the only reason Max and Fleur break up. Though she also does not know how much they have gotten to know each other over the course of the months they have dated. She does not like hearing Fleur in distress and conflicted, but at the moment there is nothing she can do. As much as she does not want to admit it, Amara does understand where Maxine is coming from since she has been the girl to have her girlfriend cheat on her for months with another.. one girlfriend did with another girl and the girlfriend that fallowed with a boy. She does not leave her hiding place just yet. She wants to know if Fleur or Max have anything left to say. She does feel a little bad for ease dropping,the part that deals with her honor, but on the other hand, her curiosity is winning.

"Haven't done anything- Fleur you cheated on-" "No!" Fleur was upset now. "No I never cheated. I do NOT cheat.. zats why I'm telling you." "Your heart cheated, your heart fell for someone else." "But I 'ave not done anyzing.. doesnt zat count for anyzing?!" "No." "I understand why you are upset but I 'ave not acted on anyzing and you are treating me I 'ave slept wiz someone when I 'ave not! I 'ave not done anyzing but be 'onest wiz you." "But why HER?!" "What does it matter 'o it is? We 'ave to deal wiz zis. Zis is 'appening whether you want it to or not. And stop blamming 'er she 'as done nozing but be kind to me. You are ze one 'o 'as not learned to keep 'er 'ands to herself. And 'ow dare you blame me of cheating when you were ze one 'o." "I know, we've already talked about that." "No, no no no. You dont get to decide what we do and dont talk about right now. You are zrowing everzing in my face so you 'ave to 'ear it too.. I wasnt ze one 'o took 'er ex on a trip around pari. I wasnt ze one 'o was caught by ze headmistress in a compromising position. I 'ave forgiven you for so much and you 'old somezing I 'ave not even done against me! 'Ow do you zink it made me feel to find out from Jessica..." Fleur breathed in a shallow breath. "No dont come near me." Fleur scolded to an advancing Max. "Ow could you, after everyzing I told you about 'er! After everyzing you knew. The headmistress didnt name names, but I should 'ave known 'o ze ozer girl was when I saw zat smirk on her pointed fucking face! So you don't get to play ze betrayed card 'ere. You tossed zat card out when you touched 'ER! You dont get to talk about being cheated on!" Fleur's voice was shaking with anger.

As Amara listens on, Amara beings to feel angry and even more disliking for Max. Since Max has apparently cheated or done something close enough to it, Amara does not feel so bad about listening in and even flirting with Fleur. Her offer to Fleur before she went to Potions is now even justified.. to Amara at least. Even if she has not known Jessica long, she has seen how Fleur reacts to her, how Jessica treats Fleur, and how Jasmine hates Jessica too. So Amara knows that the other blonde had a hand in whatever happened between her and Max that was found out. Amara knows that if she is seen in her position when this conversation ends by either of the girls involved it will put her in hot water, so she looks around for a hiding place out of the way that will still keep her in distance.[/quote]

"We already talked about that day." "No we didnt because I didnt want to, and I still dont want to but I'm just making my point clear. You 'ave done worse to me than you ZINK I 'ave. If you still want to be wiz me, and not just because someone else does, zen you'll just 'ave to try, same as everyone else. I'm not denying advances from zose I like any more." "You mean Amara." "As far as I'm concerned that stopped being your business when you accused me of cheating... You want to date me again? Win me again, but no more free passes or starting over." "How am I supposed to compete with someone who already has your affections and interest?!" "She isnt ze only one 'o does! Why do you keep ignoring what is clearly in front of you, if I didnt 'ave feelings for you I wouldnt 'ave even told you. I would 'ave ended it and gone to 'er.. but I'm not ignoring anyzing any more." Fleur returned the lilly to her. "Zank you for the calla and casa lillies, zey really were beautiful.. but I do not zink I want to wear one in my 'air any more." "Keep it, it makes youre eyes shine." "No, but zank you... I zink I shall go to lunch now." "Do you want me to change tables?" "Where would you go? To 'er table? No.. but I would like you to switch seats with Marny." Max nodded understanding the meaning of it. "Ok." Fleur walked up to her and gave her a kiss on the cheek. "I wish it did not 'ave to 'ad go zis way." Max nodded and kissed her cheek back. "Me too." Fleur left the garden and returned to the hallway, casting a spell to dry her face of tears she entered the dining hall and sat next to Jasmine. "Marny, you're sitting on my ozer side from now on." Jasmine's head snapped at the comment and without a word hugged her bestfriend. "No, no I'm alright Jasmine, do not let 'er know she 'as effected me and Max." Jasmine nodded and let go. Max slammed her fist on the stone bench of the garden, she wasnt very hungry.[/quote]

After Fleur leaves for the hall and Max still remains, Amara just stays where she is. Might be a bit weird for me to go back into the hall after having already finished.' Remembering that now Max has to earn Fleur back and that Fleur won't be denying advances 'I can use that unknown flower as a way to court Fleur. And not just for a way to cheer her up.' Amara decides to go to the library real quick and see if she can find the flower in a botany book. 'Might as well find out what a choosen is too.' Amara then takes off to the library making sure to go a way that will keep her from being seen by Max.

Rai and the others see Fleur enter without Max and looking..upset... ? 'Why does Fleur look upset' Aurora sends Amara knowing she probably went to find the blonde. 'Fleur and Max had a fight and the result leaves me an opening to pursue Fleur without being guilty. They are pretty much broken up.. max has to earn Fleur's affection back.' Amara sends to her friends. 'I'm going to the library to look up that flower. Tell me when Fleur leaves again.' ;Got it.' Amara enters the lidrary and goes to the magical plants and herbs section and begins looking for books dealing with plants, specifically glowing ones.[/quote]

Fleur's eyes drift over the table of the house that separates her from Amara's table and finds her absence I bit saddening. Jasmine picked up on it. "Before you look in the bitch's direction, yes she is here. I had a little... talk with her." Fleur nods happy to not have to even see her. "And Amara WAS here but she kinda snuck out a bit ago, dont know where to.. maybe to get some extra credit, and I dont mean in class." Jasmine winked at her and Fleur couldn't help the small smile that crossed her lips. "We-" Fleur started. "We already know hun.. we know you well enough." Jasmine interjected and Marny nodded. "Im sure a certain girl from a certain school would be happy to tend to your wounds." Jasmine smiled softly at her. "And we're always here for you." "She and Jess-" "Yeah, we know hun." "You know?" "Yeah, come on and eat something." Fleur picked at some fruit, her eyes returning to the empty seat at Amara's table.[/quote]

Amara's friends keep an eye on the Beauxbaton table.

Amara pulls out a book and flips thought it not botheing to go to a table. She stops on a page with the flower. "Etoile brillante nuit. Shining Night Star. Fitting.. both names. The french is ironic considering it's located in scottland." Amara reads about the flower and then puts the book back. She would look up chosen, "But I don't know were to start. Plus I have a girl to court." Amara then leaves the library. 'I found the name.. It's french and means shining night star.'[/quote]

Fleur shoved some rolls into her back before standing, squeezing Jasmine's shoulder softly before she makes her way toward the entrance to the dining hall again. Jasmine sighed and watched her slip out of the room in silence, quite a few heards still turned from watching her leave. Marny raised a brow at Jasmine who simply shrugged.

Fleur couldnt take the staring, the whispering.. boy news traveled fast around here.[/quote]

'Fleur just left the hall.' Kei sends his sister. 'Don't know where to though.' Aurora adds.

'Thanks. She is probably heading outside.' Amara makes sure to avoid the garden that Max was in when she headed off to the library. Best not to run into the other brunette. "Now where would she go. Obviously she would avoid where she had her conversation... fight with Max."[/quote]

Fleur found the spot they had sat in during COMC and had lay down in the grass, her eyes closing as she took deep breaths to collect herse;f[/quote]

After thinking for a moment she smacks herself lightly on the forhead. "Course."Amara then starts to head to the covered bridge and stone circle. Her destination is near the forest. When she reaches the top of the slope, Amara scans the area and sees Fleur layign here she though. 'Where we were during COMC' Amara then walks down the slope a ways before vereing off to walk to Fleur. "Hey there." As if on cue a light breeze starts to blow and messes with her skirt and the messy hair.[/quote]

Fleur had spread her cloak out under her and was laying on top of it. When she opened her eyes she saw Amara walking toward her, the wind making her look almost majestic.. "If zis is a dream, I dont want to wake up." Fleur's eyes found Amara's mouth and she swallowed, wondering if they were as soft as they looked.

Jasmine groaned as Jessica came up to them. "So where are the happy couple? Trouble in paradise?" Jessica snickered softly and Jasmine used all the control she had not to grab her blond hair and beat a hole into her face. Marny however DID trip her on her way back. Marny gasped and asked if she was alright, even making a gesture to help her up, which Jessica denied. Once Jessica was back at her seat Jasmine gave Marny a little high five.

Luna watched the display and couldnt help the small smile that crossed her lips, as mean as it seemed.

Max paced the garden growing more and more angry, but she wasnt clear on WHO she was angry with.[/quote]

"It's not a dream."Amara says with a smile and her head tilted to the side. Her eyes quicky wakes in Fleur's position and Midnight howls in appreciation. No tought thinking of what she would love to do to the blonde and soft looking body. I wonder if it is as soft as she looks.' 'Down you. We can't do any of what you are imagining. Not until she is dating me and comfortable with being intimate. I'm not going to makes the same mistake as Max. I am not going to act like a wolf in heat. ' Even when you are?' 'I have self-control and i know you do. 'Fine.' "What are you doing all the way out here?"Amara Amara asks playign dumb, but Fleur does not know that.

Rai watches the exchange and smirks at what Marney did. Hse hen looks and Jasmine's back as if willing the other to look her way. Aurora scans the Ravenclaw table and her blue eys stop on Luna.[/quote]

Fleur looked up at her. "Zats exactly what a dream would say." Fleur said in an airy voice, clearly not completely awake from her nap, or honestly believing she WAS still dreaming. Fleur sighed out softly. "We got in a fight... a lot of 'arsh zings were said that 'ad never even been talked about before. I guess I never realized 'ow much she 'as actually done zat 'urt me." Fleur sat up so the other half of her cloak was open for Amara to sit. "I wanted somewhere zat gave me good memories, and being so far away from everyzing I know, zis is ze place I was drawn to."

Jasmine smiled at Marny before she kissed both her cheeks and picked up her bag to walk over to Rai's table. Taking the empty seat. "Hello Ungodly Goodlookings." She greets them again.[/quote]

"Hello" Rai replies with a smile. The others also greet Jasmine.

Amara smirks at Fleur.'But I can flirt and be suggestive.' "If I were a dream I would not be just standing here. I guarantee." Amara says remembering the Fleur is not going to deny advances from her. "Glade to know that I give you good memories.. or a place where we spent time together." Amara sits down in the open space beside Fleur. Making sure not to get to close so that her.. unusually high body heat is not felt. "So you had a fight with Max, then." Amara glances at Fleur and then looks away "You don't need to be with someone that hurts you."[/quote]

Fleur seemed to finally accept it wasnt a dream. "I guess if it WAS a dream we wouldnt be talking about such sad zings.. or talking at all." Fleur nodded at her. "Zat moment made me 'appy because at zat moment zings just felt.. warm, at 'ome... if zat makes sense." Fleur looked at her when Amara looked away. "I know, but when she wasnt 'urting me she made me very 'appy.. I like to be 'appy and I liked 'ow she made me feel about myself when I was out wiz 'er... Its not very easy to let go of somezing.. zats why if we do go back out she 'as to earn it again. Start from ze bottom all over. If she does not want to zen she is not worz ze time and I will go wiz someone who is willing to take ze time zat is needed... if zey happen to find me at ze same time Maxine is working 'er way back zen what can I do? Turn my back on somezing zat might make me 'appier because someone else is trying to make me 'appy as well? I would never be able to move on zat way. I am not a tart but I do like to feel wanted and appreciated, and not just for what zey might get to touch down ze line."[/quote]

"No. It makes sense. Who doesn't want to feel at home and warm inside.. or with someone. If you can't be comfortable with someone then their is no foundation to build on." Amara says in reply to Fleur feeling home and warm then. "I like to think everyone wants to feel wanted, loved, and appreciated in some form. If not then something is wrong with them." She adds. She then adds "Some times when we hurt someone it is unintentional, but other times it is on purpose. Either way one or both.. or however many are involved are bond to get hurt by the action. It's just a matter of pushing though it, getting stronger, and moving on if necessary." After a moment she asks "Just out of curiosity, how long were you and Max together?" From what Fleur has said, Amara comes to the conclusion that they are practically broken up. She will take Fleur to the flower then the time feels right.[/quote]

"Since April." Fleur answered. "It was ze first of April and I zought she asked me as a joke so I agreed to go on a date wiz 'er. It wasnt until ze next day came and she asked me when we were going to go on a date I realized she wasn't joking. She asked me every day for a week every time she saw me before I finally set a day to go on a date wiz 'er." Fleur was smiling remembering the day. "On our first date she asked me all ze simple questions. My favorite color, flower, number, season, all zat stuff. Zen she took me to Ze Eiffel Tower and 'ad everyzing zere I 'ad told 'er. I admit it was a bit corny looking back but it was beautiful. Calla and Casa lillies everywhere, purple ribbons, she even 'ad Jasmine find a cheesecake from ze united states." Fleur's smile dropped. "I found out I wasnt very special in zat regard, it became 'er usual wiz girls. She'd find out what zey like and set it up zere, ze people at ze tower knew 'er by name. I did not like zat. To do ze same zing wiz every girl?"[/quote]

Amara silently sits and listens as Fleur tells her about Max asking her out, their first date and then finding out that the date was not as special as it first appeared. Amara keeps Fleur's favorites in mind for further use '17 is her favorite number, favorite color is purple, food is cheesecake, Calla and Casa Lillies are her favorite flower.' "Taking girls up to the Eiffle Tower must be a calling card or something. Despite that it would not make one feel special after finding out that you aren't the first to experience it that way." Amara replies. Looking to Fleur she does add "I don't repeat first dates, I try to make them special for each girl I have dated." Amara is thinking of the sunset being apart of her first date with Fleur. "I have something I want to show you. It's in the forest, I found it during first break." Amara then stands up and offers her hand to Fleur.[/quote]

Fleur smiled over at her. "I 'ad a feeling you didn't. You seem like ze type zat makes memories wiz each person, not ze same memory but slightly altered." Fleur watches her get up. "Ze forest? Isnt it forbidden? And in ze middle of ze day? Wont someone see us?" Fleur bit her lower lip softly thinking. Fleur's curiosity WAS getting to her though, Fleur's hand grabbed the cloth of her cloak and her other hand took Amara's. When she was on her feet she wrapped the cloak back around her shoulders and secured it.[/quote]

"Where is your sense of adventure." Amara replies with a smirk and a raised brow. "I'm a LionWolf. It's part of my job description to go to places I'm not suppose to." Amara leads Fleur, by the hand, into the forest after quickly making sure no one is around.. like Hagrid. Once in the forest, she leads her though it easily re-tracing the route she took earlier. Being in the forest reminds Amara of home and she says as such. "Being in the forest reminds me of home. I spend a lot of time in it at home."[/quote]

Fleur pulls her cloak closer to her once they enter the forest, not wanting to get scratched or anything. Fleur has to go a bit slower due to her heels. "I dont spend alot of time in forests and you seem to 'ave better skills wiz directions zan I do." Fleur chuckled softly. "Just make sure we dont get lost please?"[/quote]

"Trust me. We won't get lost."Amara says. She helps Fleur over any loga that happen to cross their path. Even though the forest looks a like no matter where you go, Amara knows that there are different scents and she uses them and herthe other wolfto senses and forestthe knowlwedge to navigate. Amara pauses at an intersection for a moment before turning left. After walking a bit further, Amara stops in the clearing she ended in earlier. "Close your eyes."Amara says gently. She does not want Fleur to see the flower just yet.[/quote]

Fleur looked around the forest. The balcony of the trees was so thick it made the forest dark even during the middle of the day. Fleur followed anxiously as they moved deeper into the woods and further from where she knew, but she trusts Amara and so followed close behind, being led by her hand. When asked to close her eyes Fleur scanned over her face before clicking her tongue and closing her eyes. "Should I put my 'ands out too like a child Chere?" Fleur teased.[/quote]

"That's not necessary just stay put." Amara says before walking to where the flower is. Amara kneels down and picks one of the flowers before walking back over to the blonde with flower in hand. Amara stops once her body is inches from Fleur, her heat radiating across the small distance and onto the blonde. Amara takes one of Fleur's hands with her own heated ones and has Fleur's hand facing palm up. She then places the flower in Fleur's palm, the colors of the flower contrasting to Fleur's pale skin. Amara then whispers in Fleur's ear "Open your eyes." Before moving to look directly at Fleur. She still has Fleur's hand held in hers. "When I saw this flower I thought of you."[/quote]

Fleur feels the heat of Amara and smiles. When her hand is taken she opens it in a cup, feeling something land into her hand lightly when she hears she can open her eyes. Fleur's eyes land on the sparkling flower and her lips spread into a smile. "It is beautiful." Fleur breaths out, smiling up at her. "And now I will zink of you." Fleur picked the flower up and carefully slipped it into her hair where the lily had been before. Fleur pat her hair gently. "'ow do I look?"[/quote]

Amara lets go of Fleur's hands with her calloused ones. Her palms are calloused because of the years of fighting and sports.Scars that are covered and her rough palms are the only things that mar her smooth skin aside from her tattoos. She watches with emerald eyes as Fleur places the flower in her hair. She does smirk at seeing where it was placed. The blue of the flower enhances and matches the blue of Fleur's unifrom and eyes. "Beautiful." Amara says simply with a grin. "It's called shining night star or etoile brilliant nuit."[/quote]

"Shining night from my Knight in Shining, suiting." Fleur chuckled at her own play on words before looking over Amara's face with a smile. "I love it, zank you." Fleur took her hand again and kissed her palm gently before she lowered their hands but cupped it to hold in, their palms pressing together.[/quote]

"So. I'm you knight in shinning armor." Amara smiles when Fleur kisses her palm and presses their palms together. "I'm glade you like it." Amara takes entwines their fingers and starts to lead them back out.[/quote]

"You could very well be." Fleur responded with a smile before she was led back out, helped over the knocked down trees once again. When they left the woods Fleur looked to her. "ow does ze flower look in ze sunlight compaired to ze darkness of ze woods?"[/quote]

Amara looks at the flower in Fleur's hair. "It's still pretty, but can't tell if it is still glowing. Though it does seem to sparkle like it's covered in diamonds and a few other jewels." Amara says with a smile and squeezes Fleur's hand.[/quote]

Fleur stopped walking. "I dont want to go back to ze hall, I dont want to see Max or Jessica right now." Fleur's finger stroked the flower in her hair. "Oi!" Fleur said suddenly before removing it from her hair and letting go of Amara's hand to pull out her wand. Fleur casts a silent spell on it before sliding it into her hair again. "Now you wont 'ave to worry about getting caught getting anozer one, zis one wont wizer." Fleur takes her hand again. "Where shall we go?"[/quote]

"I would not mind getting another if you needed one. You may have a collection by the end of the year." She says teasing. Amara smiles at that Fleur says. "You do that will all the flowers you get?" she asks. When asked where to go, "I don't know. I don't have another class for a while." 'Just being with you is enough.'[/quote]

"No, just ze ones important to me zat zey dont wizer." Fleur answers her with a smile back. "Lets find somewhere pretty." Fleur smiled brightly. "Somewhere for us." Fleur liked the idea of having a little get away with Amara. "I dont have class for a while eizer."[/quote]

"Well that makes me feel special." Amara says with a smirk. "Hm.." Amara tries to think up something as they head back to the castle, but does not plan to go in. Once they reach the Stone Circle, Amara looks around and heads to another part of the over look that is not directly in sight. She stops at a good spot that gives a good view of the forest.[/quote]

"Well it is so beautiful and you went zrough so much trouble to give it to me I want to make sure it lasts." Fleur smiled brightly as they walked toward the circle. Fleur caught a glimps of Max before Amara lead her away to a spot out of the way. Fleur smiled liking the view of the overlook. "All we need is a bench and zis would be perfect." Fleur smiled at her warmly.

Max had seen the two of them come back up the hill again, her eyes instantly found their joined hands and her blood began to boil, when Fleur turned she saw the flower in her hair and that was it for Max. She punched the stone closest to her in anger before storming away and into the hall. Grabbing Jasmine's arm she pulled her out of the hall. "What the hell is going on?!" she demanded.

Jasmine yelped suddenly as Max dragged her away from her seat and out the hall. Pulling her arm from her. "EXCUSE ME! Some manners would be appreciated.. what are you talking about?"

"Why is Fleur with that girl from the other school?! I knew she was up to something. Friends my ass."

"The last time I saw Fleur she was still fighting back tears because the two of you broke up. She ran out of the hall with a few rolls in her bag and I havent heard from her since.. Amara hadnt even come to lunch, None of us know where she is."

"She's making nice with Fleur thats where she is!" Max flexed her hand.

"What did you do?" Jasmine asked worried.

"I hit a stone in the circle when I saw them. Holding hands and Fleur had some weird flower in her hair."[/quote]

Amara did not see Max because she did not care about her. Her only focus is on Fleur. "We could always spell up one, but I don't really think one is needed." Amara replies. She sits down on the ground not worrying about getting any dirt on her uniform.

Rai watches as Max drags Jasmine out of the hall and this force does not sit well with Rai's inner wolf. Rai stands up and walks out of the hall. She walks up behind Jasmine and says into her ear "Amara was at lunch, she just left after she finished eating. I think we need to spend some time alone." She also wants to show that Fleur is not the only one spending time with someone from Salem. "I can explain to you some things, Amara's intentions, where she got the flower, so find me when you are done here." Rai kisses Jasmine's cheek then walks away from Max and Jasmine.[/quote]

Fleur removed her cape to lay it on the ground in order to sit on it, leaning against Amara for warmth.

Jasmine smiled brightly at hearing Rai's voice and Max just lifted a brow. "Do you mind? This is a private conversation." Max said annoyed. "Which you FORCED me in to, dont scold my girlfriend for checking on me." Max scuffed. "Girlfriend, you havent even known her a day." Jasmine was not taking this. "Look my love life is none of your business, and as far as I'm concerned neither is Fleur's any more. You want it to be your business, get her back. But she has the right to HOLD HANDS with anyone she wants. As for the flower so what, its a flower. DEAL. Fleur is trying to find happiness, if its with you or not. So try to win her back but dont you DARE ruin her happiness if its not with you, thats as bad as Jessica." Max looked hurt. "No way." "Yes way. Either try to win her back like a gentleman or butt out." Jasmine turned on her heel and walked away to find Rai, as she left she said. "Now excuse me, I have a girlfriend to find." Jasmine walked back into the hall only to pick up her bag and make sure Rai wasnt at her table.

Max walked back into the hall after Jasmine, sitting down at the table instead of walking back out, she ate slowly, each motion showing her tensity.[/quote]

Amara smiles a little when Fleur sits down and then leans against her. The cold weather of Scotland not bothering Amara because of her higher then normal body temperature and just being use to it because the climate is similar to both where she school is in New Hampshire and her home in Oregon. "You warm? Because I have no objection to being you heater."

Rai ended up in a secluded nook after leaving Max and Jasmine. She does smile when hearing Jasmine's foot steps approach her position. She is leaning back against the wall with hands in her jacket pockets."I was hoping you would end that fast and come find me."[/quote]

Fleur leaned against her more for warmth and closed her eyes happily enjoying the time."I ave a feeling warmth will not be somezing I will ave to worry about around you."

Jasmine smiled at her and leaned in to kiss her cheek. "I dont usually end things that fast." Jasmine winked at her before nodding her head. "Lets find somewhere comfortable."[/quote]

"Well then I must be pretty damn special." Rai says. When Jasmine suggests going to somewhere more comfortable. "Lead the way." she says with a smirk.

"My heat is natural if you were wondering." Amara replies to Fleur's comment and her snuggling against her. "Tell me something about yourself. I don't care what." Amara suggests.[/quote]

Jasmine took her hand and led her toward the library. Going to one of the more secluded areas of it she sat on the couch and smiled at her. "There we are, out of the way and more comfortable than being on one of those hard benches in the halls."

Fleur shrugged a shoulder. "I dont really know what to say, I'm much better at answering questions about myself zen just talking. What do you want to know?"[/quote]

"What don't I want to know is more like it. I want to know everything." Amara comments. Being who she is, Amara is not a good conversation starter or question asker. Probably because she has a hard time opening up to people. "What's one of your hobbies?"

Rai smiles when she sees Jasmine lead them to one of the secluded areas and sit down on the couch. Rai sits down beside her girlfriend. "It is definitively more private and comfortable."[/quote]

"'obbies? Well lets see.. I like to paint, very calming." Fleur smiled at her. "And I like to read if ze story grabs me." Fleur leaned against her more, relaxed.

Jasmine nods and runs her fingers through Rai's hair. "Very cute... how long have you had your hair?" Jasmine grinned at her, her eyes sparkling[/quote]

"Well, I like to draw and take pictures when not playing quiddich or some type of muggle sport." Amara replies. She leaves out her hobbie of training.. both marital arts and general. Amara plays soccer and softball when at hope and she at one point also did basketball along with track and field. (Yep. I hadeto toss in BILB) Amara figures she should enjoy Fleur leaning against her while she can.

Rai raises her eyebrow at the strange question. Her hair is currently just past her shoulder blades. "About the same length as it is now." she answers.[/quote]

"Ask anozer question." Fleur smiled softly and closed her eyes taking a breath in.

"You've never had it longer? How short have you gone?"[/quote]

"To my chin." Rai answers. She plays with Jasmine's hair. Rai's silver, orange and black uniform work well with her tan skin and bark hair. The polo is loose but still shows that her chest is nice sized.

Amara smirks when asked to ask another questions. "Why don't you ask a question."[/quote]

Jasmine smiled and leaned into her playing, also leaning into her. Jasmine's smile grew as she took in her scent, it was almost enchanting. "So you dont really change your hair up much?"

Fleur thought of what she might ask, a very serious look crossing her face as she thought. "What do you plan on doing after school?"[/quote]

"Track dragons." Amara replies straight forward since it is something she is proud of. Even if it is a dangerous profession. Amara though does not specify the type of dragon.

"Not really. Never felt much need to. "Rai replies. "Do you? Change your hair alot, I mean."[/quote]

Fleur's eye brows raised. "Dragons?! You dont hurt zem do you chere?"

Jasmine smiled and lifted a shoulder. "Sometimes, when I want a change.. mostly color though.. I like to wear wigs too, wigs are fun."[/quote]

Rai smiles..or rather smirks as she plays with Jasmine's hair. "Some how that does not surprise me." she comments.

Amara noticed that Fleur called her chere which she knows is 'dear' in French. Amara likes being called that. "No. I try to do it without harming them if I can..." Amara pauses before saying "But some of the more dangerous ones..the more aggressive ones..ones that will not hesitate to try an kill me upon sight I may need to hurt a little, nothing major though." Even though she is specializing in frost dragons, she can track other kinds and it is those that she may need to hurt. Her Frost dragons don't require that most of the time.[/quote]

Jasmine grins back at her. "I think you might enjoy some of my costumes too, like Baby Doll from Sucker Punch."

Fleur smiled hearing she tried not to hurt them. "Good, long as its just to protect yourself." Fleur breathed in her scent and her eyes fluttered momentarily[/quote]

"What do you want to do?" Amara asks looking over at Fleur. She commits this to memory so she can draw it one day. Amara tentatively rests her hand that is closest to Fleur on the blonde's back hoping that she is not being to bold.

"I wear costumes from time to time. Just not many movie based. The best ones I did were CatWoman and Elena from Zorro. I prefer video game and anime. And I have never seen Sucker Punch. Not my type of movie." Rai says. She kisses Jasmine's neck lightly before pulling back to look back into Jasmine's purple eyes with her deep brown. Rai is part Latina in decent after all. "So, you want to know anything about Amara or myself. I am all yours till my next class."[/quote]

'Find a bed' Fleur's mind purred out and caused a small, dreamy smile to spread over her lips. "I want to bottle zat smell." Fleur answered her. "You're not wearing a scent are you?" Fleur already knew the answer but she had to ask any way.

"Mmm I'd love to see that." Jasmine smiles brightly at her, her eyes raking over her body imagining her in the skin tight black spandex. Jasmine's breath became heavier when she was kissed on the neck. "When is your next class exactly?"[/quote]

Amara can't help but smirk at the dreamy smile that she sees on Fleur's lips. 'Wounder what has her dreamy?' "I don't where any perfume of cologne?" Amara asks. Amara does not wear perfume or anything of the sort. She feels no need to since all wolfin's have their own unique scent.. it differs from pheromones though."You like my scent?"

"Maybe one day I'll show you what I look like in leather and spandex." Rai says with a tease to her voice. "My next class is History of Magic and it's after break. The one that fallows lunch."[/quote]

"Your smell is intoxicating." Fleur admits with a grin and moves closer, almost in to her lap, and takes another long breath in.

Jasmine moaned at just the thought of her in leather and spandex. "Then we have plenty of time to go make Murtle blush." Jasmine winked at her. "Cause I dont think a library is a very good place to do whats going through my head and I dont think we'll have time to make it out of this building." Jasmine's hand squeezed Rai's upper thigh.[/quote]

Amara smriks because of Fleur being practically on her lap which also means that her warmth is radiating more. "And what does it smell like." Amara already knows but she wants to hear Fleur say it.

"Frisky are we?" Rai says even though she knows the answer. Rai gives Jasmine one more kiss that is quick, passionate and suggestive. She then gets up and pulls Jasmine up with her. "Then let's get going. Would hate to waste anymore time in the stuffy library when I can do naughty things to you and get on a ghosts nerves." She says with a wink and a sly grin before walking off with Jasmine in tow.[/quote]

"'eaven and 'ell at ze same time." Fleur purred. "Smells as good as 'eaven and is as tempting as 'ell." Fleur blushed.

Jasmine returned the quick kiss before following Rai hastily. As soon as they got into the bathroom Jasmine's hand made contact with Rai's ass and squeezed gently, her heart starting to pick up pace.[/quote]

"Never heard that before. Always thought it was a pine forest after a rainstorm in summer." Amara says. She does have a slight grin to her lips and an intense look in her green eyes.

Rai does not bother to suppress a moan when Jasmine squeezes her ass. The taller female pulls Jasmine flush against her toned body before smirking and planting kisses from Jasmine's ear to the junction of her shoulder and neck. Her hands find a home on Jasmine's ass where then squeeze. She has no doubt that Jasmine can feel the intense heat radiating from Rai's tanned skin.[/quote]

Fleur inhales deeply, her eyes closed and leaning into the taller girl. "I love it."

Jasmine moaned at the kisses. Jasmine's right hand slid from her butt to cup between Rai's legs. Her left hand slithered between them to squeeze her breast, returning kiss for kiss on any open skin close enough to her mouth to kiss. Jasmine ignored Murtle's cries of disapproval of the actions in her bathroom.[/quote]

"Well. I;m glade you can find some comfort in me." Amara replies. Amara takes in a breath and takes in Fleur's scent. "You don't smell to bad either." Amara tentively wraps her arm around Fleur's wait to make sure Fleur does not get cold.

Rai takes Jasmine's right hand and holds it in her left. "You are not getting that lucy yet." She says into Jasmine's neck her hot breath against Jasmine's skin. Rai moves her lips to Jasmine's pulse and sucks. She moans into skin as Jasmine squeezes her breast. Jasmine's touch setting her ablaze. Rai removes her lips from Jasmine and sends a hard look to the ghost. "What, never seen two girls making out before?" she then turns her attention back to Jasmine's skin. The hand on Jasmine's ass squeezes.[/quote]

Fleur leaned against her, now actually settling into her lap. "I'm glad you like it, its called Pink Sugar, I've been trying to find somezing zat isnt too strong zat I like but its starting to wear off now." Fleur wrapped her arms around Amara's waist hugging her.

Jasmine's lower lip pouted before moaning loudly when her pulse was sucked on. Jasmine ran their hands over her own breast and moaned. When Rai looked up at the ghost Jasmine attacked her neck with kisses and soft nips, her tongue running over each spot after nipping it.

Myrtle crossed her arms and legs and huffed. "This is MY bathroom, find another."

Jasmine mumbled into Rai's neck. "Enjoy the view. I know you've matured enough even as a ghost to appreciate it and we arent going anywhere."[/quote]

Rai nuzzels Jasmine's jaw before moving her head and capturing Jasmine's lips in a kiss. Her hands continue to put attention to Jasmine's ass and breast. The wolfin decides to ignore the ghost and put her full attention on her mate.

Amara nods. "Fleur, where are you from in France?" Amara did not want to assume that the blonde is from France's capital, Paris, when there are other cities, villages, and towns she could be from. Besides, Amara does know that Beauxbaton is in the South of France... somewhere.[/quote]

Jasmine swooned, her hand on Rai's ass pulling their groins closer, her other hand moving into the other's hair and tugging gently.

"Uzès. It's very beautiful zere. My fazer 'ad a 'ouse built zere on one of ze hills, over looking water on one side and ze town on ze ozer." Fleur answered her smiling into Amara's chest as she buried her face in her scent.[/quote]

"Uzès,I am not familiar with it. Not that I have not been to France before." Amara says. Amara has been to France but it was in Paris, Bordeaux and Marseille... all in the same summer. "I only spent time in 3 French cities." Amara does smile at Fleur buring her head in her chest. "Since I know where you are from... How about your guess where I am from. I won't think less of you if you get it wrong." Amara says. 'You know she will. Who guesses Oregon? She will probably guess New York, California, Florida or some other state. She is French, how much experience does she have with Americans?' Midnight says. 'Shut up, Midnight.'

Rai runs her tongue across Jasmine's lips wanting entrance. The hand on Jasmine's ass movies to cup the back of Jasmine's head.[/quote]

"I'll gladly show you all ze best places to get familiar wiz." Fleur purred. Fleur looked up at her for a moment and clicked her tongue. "Well Jasmine is from ze east of america and ze two of you say zings very differently. And you dont 'ave a southern accent. So I'm going to go wiz ze West side.. maybe Chicago? Am I saying zat right? She-Ka-Go?"

Jasmine gladly parts her lips and greets Rai's tongue with her own, her hips slowly grinding against Rai.[/quote]

"Anytime." Amara replies to Fleur's comment. "Jasmine is from America? Had no idea. Course I have not talked to her... I bet Rai does not know that either.. the two of them are to busy getting hot and heavy, guarantee it." Amara says. Locking Emerald with blue, "You said Chicago right, but that is not where I'm from. Chicago is in Illinois which is like the center of the country." She does not want Fleur to feel like she completely failed "You are right about me being from the west. Oregon is where I'm from. It's on west coast... boarders the Pacific. Myself and a handful of others here are from Newport, Oregon."

Rai's tongue takes the invitation and enters Jasmine's mouth and thus deepening the kiss. Rai moves them back so they are near the wall then turns when close enough so that Jasmine is pinned between the wall and Rai's hard body.[/quote]

'Wouldnt mind some hot and heavy myself.' Fleur thinks to herself and blushes. "Probably not, but I cant really blame eizer of zem. Jasmine has always been zat way and I'm sure Rai finds Jasmine as attractive as Jasmine finds Rai." Fleur felt a little silly for not knowing that. "Or-re-gan. Newport." Fleur nods making a mental note of it.

Jasmine moans loudly into the kiss when she feels her back make contact with the wall. Jasmine's leg slithered up and around Rai's waist as she continues to grind herself against Rai's groin.[/quote]

Rai runs her hand over Jasmine's silk uniform. She angles her head and uses her tongue more to deepen the kiss. In response to Jasmine's grinds and the leg around her waist, Rai moves a leg and presses a toned thigh between Jasmine's and into her center.

"Rai is a flirt and she is very attracted to Jasmine." Amara says. 'And I'm very attracted to you.' "This forest views are like those in Newport. So I guess I am not as homesick as you. Both Newport and where Salem is located have a similar climate to Scotland." Amara tells Fleur. She can tell that the girl is not really use to this type of climate because of the silk uniform and how the blonde is snuggling into her for warmth.[/quote]

Jasmine gasps tearing her lips away from Rai's and moans before attacking her lips again feverishly now grinding against the leg.

"I zink zey are boz very physical people.. maybe zats why zey are so perfect for each ozer. I can be physical as well it just doesnt 'appen as fast as zem." It was clear Fleur was going to continue to another thought but she stopped herself. "It is very cold 'ere. But I dont seem to 'ave to worry about zat around you, and ze intoxicating smell is an added bonus."[/quote]

"Don't you go getting off on my thigh." Rai says while feverishly kissing Jasmine. She pushes against Jasmine's center anyway.

"Well I have heat to spare so you can take full advantage of it. Plus, I don't mind keeping you warm." Amara says. "Get to know me and I'll show you how physical I can be." Amara is reserved and cold on the outside because it is her facade, her sheild. But underneath she is a flirt, fun loving and physical when it comes to attraction.[/quote]

Fleur leaned up and kissed her on the cheek quickly, her cheeks flushing pink before she burried her face into Amara's chest against. Fleur got comfortable on Amara's lap liking how relaxed she felt.

Jasmine whimpered. Pulling Rai by the hips further against her, liking the feel of the cold wall on her back and Rai's warmth on her front.

[dontselloutbuyinblog]

stolen earts part six

mercedez pov 

i woke up from hearing a knock on my door then shook kenny to wake up hey kenny can you get the door i have to use te batrumoom. mercedez says um okay sure ill get it kenny says then i went to grab my cloths and took a shower after about twenty minutes i got out of the batroom i was wearing black t shirt and grey sweat pants. then kenny went into te bathroom i walk toawads the bed to see matt and nick sitting there. hey  guys whats up mercedez ask well we were wondering if you wanted to go to the gym downstairs in the hotel with us right now .nick asks um sure why not  okay lets leave as  soon as kenny gets out so wen keny gets out the bathroom we leave to te gym  we were walking to enter the gym when i get a phone call from my friend jessica hey jess whats up. mercedez says um noting muc i was wondering if u wanted to come over bring some of your friends the i turned to kenny  e babe do you wanna go to my friends house later. um sure what time about an hour or so mercedez says okay then kenny says well we got inside the gym and i started to lift weights when adam walked behind me and grabbed my wasit

what the fuck are you doing adam you know kenny is right there right mercedez says well I dont care do I look like I care? Adam says well he’s coming over you better leave adam mercedez says um okay I will leave as soon as I get you to come home with me adam says well im not leaving anywhere with you and here he is hey babe.mercedez says Hey whats going on with you too over here. Kenny says Well we were just talking thats all adam says well about what ? Kenny says about how she should come home with me adam says well how about you go fuck yourself and leave mercedez says don’t be mean mercedez how about you come with us to mercedsz’s friends house later kenny ask well sure why not ill be there adam says cool see you there then so me kenny nick and matt left to eat and after we ate we went to my friends house hey jess whats up mercedez says noting much these are your friends yes this is nick and this is kenny and thats matt and adam should be on his way so what are we doing mercedez ask lets walk into my game room so we walked into her game room and saw her movie theather next door lets watch a movie later jess well this is my games and do you wanna play truth or dare sure why not so then we heard a knock on the door it might be adam yeah let me get it mercedz says I walked to the door and invited adam in and then I walk to the game room to see them playing call of duty zombies and I sat down and stated to watch then adam walked to my friend jessica and then they started to talk so you know about mercedez and kenny dateing right well yeah I did and I do not have a anything good to say about it adam says why not jess ask well I love her and hes not good enough for her at all adam says really thats not nice to sy hes such a sweet guy to her jess says well she needs to open her eyes and see that im better then him adam says okay im done with your shit do you understand me then jess walks away and sits next to meredez well hello I soo mad girl jess says why are you soo mad mercedez asked well because adam was talking mad shit about you and kenny just now are you serious right now mercedez says yeah I am jess says then I got mad and walked to adam you asshole get out dont talk t to me again you understand me you piece of shit then I pushed him out the door if I hear you talk about me and kenny again I will punch you in the face

[thebtsgang]

Hey are reactions still open? If so, can you guys do Jimin, Yoongi and Namjoon's reaction to their s/o accidentally falling off a rooftop and dying. Is that too morbid???? Im sorry! If you'd prefer, do their reaction to their s/o dying in a car crash. Your guys page is awesome btw!!!

Hey boo, reactions are indeed still open! I decided dying in a car crash was easier to write than someone accidentally falling off, i hope it was to your tastes! Also, please be careful in the traffic, dont dirink and drive (and don’t fall off rooftops lol).

- Admin Alie

Namjoon 

Namjoon had stopped listening to the police officer ever since the one sentence had been delivered, one of the words ringing in his ears. “The car flew off the road, there was nothing to do. When the ambulance arrived they couldn’t do anything but declare her dead.” as they kept rambling on about being sorry for the loss and other things Namjoon didn’t hear, the word “dead” kept repeating itself like a mantra, the word was swimming before him and he closed his eyes to will away the sudden dizzines. He stumbled backwards and was caught by the loving arms of his members that held him close but they brought him no warmth, no peace. Namjoon had written plenty lyrics about heartbreak and love that would make you think he had his fair share of experience but nothing could prepare him from the pain that was losing you. The word dead was soon replaced by the word no as it escaped his lips in between silent sobs. He whispered them over and over again, even after he stopped crying and there were no tears left to shed the words still fell, him being the only one who heard them. 

Long in the future when thinking about you didnt bring as much pain as it used too but rather a bittersweet feeling of nostalgia, is when he began writing again. He wrote you into every beat, every line, every intake of breath and everyone who listened to them could feel the raw feeling hidden behind the charming stage persona whenever he performed them. You were still with him, in his songs and in the picture frame by his bed and in his members love and support. He’d go to your grave after their tour and sit down on the ground, telling you about the people he met and the places they saw and whenever a gentle breeze would play with his hair he imagined it being your fingers as he was lying with his head in your lap like he used to. He’d never forget you

Yoongi

After the news, Yoongi didn’t say anything for weeks. He barely ate usually resorting to pushing the food around his plate and he only slept when he passed out from exhaustion. He didn’t cry, his eyes painfully dry as he watched your basket being lowered into your grave. Bighit had put Bangtan on a break and for once there were no complaints from fans, everyone had loved you and the way Yoongi acted differently whenever you were around. Ever since you entered his life his music had been at its peak, but the second you exited it fell and eventually completely disappeared. His ability to produce music was gone with his happiness and hope for the future replaced with cold sheets and crippling depression. 

After the news, Yoongi didn’t say anything for weeks. Until he did. He left his room slightly tripping over his own feet and was met with six pairs of eyes when he entered the livingroom. He looked towards Seokjin who stood from his seat at the table and took a few unsure steps towards Yoongi’s fragile frame and smiled gently at him. Yoongi looked him in the eyes and tried to open his mouth, say something. At first nothing but harsh breathing escaped his sore throat but after a few tries Yoongi coughed and felt his eyes water “h-hyung, can you get me a glass of water?” he asked carefully, his voice cracking at the end. The others who had been patient waiting for his words, felt their shoulders sag with relief, some of them even going as far as getting tears in their eyes and noticing that, as Jin went to get him some water, Yoongi finally let everything crash. The realization finally hit him and he fell to the ground, the heartbreaking sobs wrecking through his small, pale body. His arms gave out under his weight and Namjoon caught him, pullling him into his much larger frame and propping his chin atop his head while gently swaying him back and forth while mumbling soothing It’s okay’s and you’re alright, we’re here’s. He was gonna be okay, maybe not today, but eventually.

Jimin

Jimin was usually all smiles and giggles, lightling up the world with his crinkly eyes and all the love he had to share. Making others smile energized him and even though he was easily angered, Jimin was mostly a happy person, that is, until he wasnt. You and Jimins relationship had been secret to the public since he didnt want to disrupt your privacy, so when some drunk ass idiot had run over a red light effectively hitting the young girl carrying stars in her eyes and music in her laugh, Jimin couldnt tell the world. No one had known of your existence or Jimins undying love for his princess, and he was determined to not let anyone know. He ignored his members and bighits pleas to settle down and get over the loss but Jimin wanted to disappear in his work. Jimin resorted to dancing. Day and night, completely forgetting to take care of himself. Jimin never smiled, never giggled. Jimin stared blindly into nothing completelt dissappearing from the world and everyone else. His voice was hoarse when singing, thick from desperately trying not to cry and the members refused to make any music and go to any concerts, forcing Jimin to talk and to feel. It didn’t take long for him to have a mental breakdown. It started with his hands shaking and his breath coming out short. His eart was beating loudly in his chest and sunks into himself, cumbling into a ball on the floor as he tried to focus but all he could he was your melodious laugh and all he could see was the stars that shone brightly in you eyes. It felt as if you were being ripped out of his body, the music turning into painful screams and the stars dying out, leaving him in darkness.

  Jimin didn’t think he’d learn to love again, but he figured he didn’t need to. He had his family, his fans and his brothers that he loved and he knew that you were always there with him. It took him time to learn, it took him time and a lot of late night talks with Namjoon, but eventually he learnt to listen and feel you, when on the stage. He sang to you and the beautiful song of your laugh would ring in his ears, the stars above the arena would be replaced with you eyes and he would smile. You were always there.

A/n: I’m NoT cRyInG yOu ArE

#bts #park jimin #kim namjoon #min yoongi #bts reactions #bts angst #thebtsgang; admin Alie

[kurainburdened]

MUN INFO

Name: Diana (don’t call me kate immediate block ) Age: 20 First muse on Tumblr: Kou from Free ( 16 year old me having fallen in love with the only female character on a show about hot wet shirtless men: hi im straight ) First RP url: gouthesupermanager Why did you pick your first muse?: I just was really upset that Kou who was the younger sister of Rin was constantly looking after his emotional well being. Not to mention she ALSO lost a father but the narrative never acknowledges it.  Latest muse on Tumblr: I made this blog like 3 weeks ago lol Latest RP url: You already know this one but I have a p.okemon s.umo blog for the female protag. Her whole thing is that shes an aspiring magician so her blog name is illunasionary Why did you pick your latest muse?: Because of Lee. I mean Ive been wanting to rp Maya for AGES and when Lee said they thought of picking up Miles I bulled them RELENTLESSLY into making an edgeworth blog Best RP Memory: Oh man I have to say @rivalcalem​ and moons rps...Just any and all of them are so good to me. Ryan is just the sweetest human being on the eart and is always there for me. Theyre supportive and caring and I just...I want all of the happiness in the world for them I just love them so much I get emotional about it everyday how great they are. A close contender would be @prosequies​ because everything they write is so great. Sorry if I’m about to get nsfw but like....maya and edgeworth getting close and caring for each other emotionally and just supporting one another. Thats the stuff man. I adore their portrayal and I adore their writing. And Im so glad i can write with them. Unfortunately talking to them on discord is a STRUGGLE. Worst decision ever but i muscle through it for maya and edgeworth Worst RP Memory: …a lot of it is my fault so i guess I dont have room to talk. I was a kid and dumb and wasn’t a great friend.  What are all the muses you had on Tumblr?:

Gou Matsuoka from Free! ( @gouthesupermanager)

Koyuki a pokemon ghost oc ( @apparxtioniisms)

Ranger Kate from the Pokemon Rangers SoA ( @eleventhranger )

Leaf from pokemon frlg ( @leafheld )

Moon from Pokemon sumo ( @illunasionary )

And this blog

Longest muse?: Mmmm....thats a rough one. Gou I think Shortest muse?: Koyuki I think..... I mean most of them last a year as my like hyperfocus Any advice for RPing?: have fun. go about it on your own pace. block hate.

#OOC 「 Numbuh 7107: INCOMING TRANSMISSION 」

[the-reactionist]

re: the lose-lose game

i poured my hert out down there, i see that i feel shame about being embodied. this is dangerous. i dont feel comfortable among too much of spiritual talking because i m very in tuen with the 3d, wit being a body, not only cosciousness or spirit, nd i enjoy it, its spiritual for me being ble to hide and have private space from gods' eyes. i think many people are unesay with teal swan ebcause of that quality her energetic field has - she is so demandign of herself to be in tuen with the divine that its apallign to anyone who isnt thinking that way about their own selves, and i feel shame that im not divine - mybe i should yet i feel scared because me mind takes it as a rejection; this has to do with many aspects of reality that are in my past - especially the 'mother' i hve had who i think used to eb one tf these fanatic christinas in the middle ages who was clergy and beat themselves with whips to purify from sins,a dn then killed nd tortured women who were erthly and powerful in their alignment with anture - so-called witches, but i detest that word. we have a good word in bulgarian language that means something ebautiful, it sounds like enchantress in english. and taht IS teh essence of nature - enchanting captivating mysical overpowering, lustful, dagerus. a great experience, in short

the truth is i got so much Earth eleemnt in me, that i resist sudden change with all i have. I feel depressed coming to teal tribe because it seems people care only bout aliens and escaping the earthly reality and i cry ebcause of that. i want to have pagan spirituality with opened hearts . this is why i amde this place . i am not fine with this crazy world of constant movement, plane travelling, cars, ships and everything. i want to rest! i need peace! we can communicate and be together spiritually over the internet, we dont have to be rushing like the crazy world eveyone is complaining about, yet is acting in the self same ways as. i have never been on aplane and it;s hard to travel. i am heavy but my eart is light. i ahve too much to guard as sacred dna codes within em to just fly abotu fucking every and any person i see around . its nto mroals, its practicality that makes up my beliefs and desire. i need to have peace. i am Nature.

im grumpy ebcause i cant relax nor can i find a partner to amte wirh and re-create my love in some sustainable form, nor do i desire to runa round the world like a fool, because i am mature, i am old perhaps even. i like peace and i like to speak slowly, take time, go deep into meditation in the body when im telling fbles and legends. i dont want to rush abpout. nothing fast matters. only the slow win in that race - read about achilles and the turtle? i AM a trurtle. i love grandmothers the most, and the tibetan people, they are slwo, they are wise with little wordiness, they are full of heart and meat. they are not sexy but they are godesses, like mermaids are shining in their eyes. fuck this moder day reality. i am not it, ui can not fit in it but I AM ANCIENT. stop fueling the madness and take care of ME - of your natural selves, your pagan inner children who love to smell soil and play in the dirt, and wash their hair in the river, and fall asleep in the snow for a second, and then drink hot tea with rum in the wooden cabin, and contemplate in the overpowering winter gloominess about sparks of hope with tthe flickering memory of spring that your body might not even get to see, because we neevr know just how long we're gonna live... that is poetry! that is ebauty! it doent matter if people like you or despise you, it matters to full a fleshy life and forgive yourself all yoyur mistakes at the end of it. i am very bitter ebcause i am betrayed again by communnity and leader. i NEED instant change now. you have to ban me from teal tribe because i cant take it staying here any longer. i need to put focus on different things and actually live what i feel and believe in, not help others because they are helping em and so supposed on. i am not helped as mucha s i need. i want a life, not a constant conversation about how life sucks. i am feeling so #bitter

you yhave to ralize you're not right in what you do, and tat is hurting others in parts o the globe you ahve never even ehard of. connection is earth-bound. you cant eb escaping the body and nature, and claim you ahve connections with somebody. i want to be released from this place to connect with people that aer actually here, being the most brutal of brutes or the most vicious of liars; i need experience, not lullabies to avoid existence until i ascent to heaven. sorry. im just human. https://www.facebook.com/groups/1237035083109403/

i think other people may e frustrated about such stff s well. i just need teal to stop believing her traumatic prorammng from the tortures period, and be at pece. and be selfish, be happy, be humana s much as divine

#pagan #nature #3d #spirituality #mythology #vikings #traditional #shamanism #practical #magic #natural #forests #mountains #grsslands #gaia #mother #earth #life #living #existence #joy #peace #love

[thegirlwiththesnakestattoo-blog]

if you think that eating healthy is cheap then you never been in grocery store. it's impossible to every human on eart start eating plan based. i'm vegan but i respect when people don't eat the way i eat. why can't vegans just stick to their diet and leave others alone.

1) i buy my own food and meat and cheese are expensive af. im not saying eating vegan is always cheap but not everyone can afford beef either.2) veganism is an animals rights movement. if you dont care about or advocate for animals’ rights, you’re not vegan. you just eat a plant-based diet which is cool, but there’s a difference.

#anon #asks