#I FEEL SO BAD AHHHH

[alouvrr]

eye of the vulture king

#ahhhh I feel like I drew buddy too innocent here. wish I could give more indicators that he is being manipulated #but all the stuff I drew felt too cheesy! #my art #buddy dawn #kristen applebees #fantasy high #fhjy #d20 #unironically that one minute segment changed my feelings about buddy so bad. evangelicals who die without questioning their faith #make me feel so tragic #trauma bonding w these two would be fun but also consider: he meets helio in the afterlife and see what a wreck his religion is and #wants to help helio out lmao #would be fun

[i-ges]

I’m back! Time to re post this now thats it’s finished finished.

#qsmp #q!slimecicle #slimecicle #charlie slimecicile #qsmp juanaflippa #juanaflippa fanart #qsmp fanart #slimecicle fanart #GOD I MISS HER SO MUCH #I was rewatching slime’s VODs from the beginning #and now that we know her death and Tillin’s was not his fault #AHHHH MAN #I think it only feels bad because now we know how much we’ve lost #like before I was like eh these eggs aren’t gonna last #they’ll all be ded by the end of the month #but! we’ve had so many cute memories #and the knowledge that we’ll never get that with Flippa #my art

[red-prince]

This race is the definition of this season for Charles

1. Miraculous pole position

2. Ferrari’s strategy fucks him up

3. Zero support from his teammate

4. Bad car and bad strategy = low position

#ahhhh so frustrating #i feel bad for him #he deserves at least decent strategy #f1 #formula 1 #f1blr #formula one #f1 fandom #charles leclerc #f1 love #scuderia ferrari #ferrari #austin gp 2023 #us gp 2023

[gohannygo]

Emerie lore speculation post?!! :O

Okay guys this is my little gift to myself for finishing my school work on time. Also like low key regardless if you agree or not, drop your Emerie predictions/thoughts in the comments— because for whatever reason my brain has attached itself to her, but she has like 5 mins of screen time and vary little discourse surrounding her :D

Okay guys I’m get real with you, I don’t think Emerie was created as an enhanced clone, or with some kind of special ability. I think she was made to be as plain and reg-like as possible.

Based on Nala Se’s reaction to Omega’s blood being sampled and tested, we can assume she knew and maybe even was responsible for Omegas ability to support an M-count. What I think happened was, Nala se was like “Oh oops it appears I have gotten emotionally attached to this child so I’m keeping her as my own, but I dont wanting any snoopers out there to trying to figure out whats so special about her,” so she created Emerie as a decoy of sorts. Essentially a female version of a reg to send out to the world to prove that theres no reason for anyone to inquire about Omega because look how regular female clones are. Like in a super heartbreaking way, my theory is that Emerie was essentially made to have no identity. To be an obedient little placeholder to take attention away from Omega’s existence.

Wow thats cool but why does it matter?

OKAY so throughout the premiere we saw that maybe there was some trouble in Tantiss paradise for Emerie. Shes been content(?) with complying and doing what is asked of her up until this point, but we saw her be willing to break rules for Omega’s sake, and we also saw how shaken she looked when Hemlock was like “Return to the lab, Dr. Karr”. She also looked like she was really pondering things at the end of episode three when she discovered Omega’s ability to support an M count transfer.

I think maybe during the rest of the season we’ll see her start to grapple with what she really wants to do here, as (I believe, in her own little way), she now has a sister she cares about and wants to protect. I think Omega, through her doll making and Batcher taming, has shown Emerie a little bit of light. That clones can have their own wants, and makes choices based off of them. But really, I don’t think a person who has presumably grown up being conditioned to follow rules and see herself as property would be able to quickly break out of that rigid structure shes used to and make a personal choice to try and keep Omega safe in a significant way.

What? Okay please just bear with me. Wording things is not my forte.

I think Nala Se will see an opportunity to further get in the head of an already torn Emerie. I think she might reveal her original purpose of essentially being made to protect omega. And emerie, who already sort of sees herself as a tool to being used for some greater purpose, will then feel almost like shes been given “permission” to disobey. Sort of like “Oh damn, not only is this something I want to do, but more importantly it was the purpose I was designed for yassssss”. I think she will continue acting as normal but will basically be a shooter on the inside for Omega and it will build up to her sabotaging further experimentation done on Omega if shes captured.

Idk if this makes sense or is dumb. But I just think it could be a cool avenue. Because we’ve seen clones grapple with what theyve done under imperial command and have seen some of them change their ways which is awesome. And, I think it could also be cool to see a character whos been so shaped by her upbrining, and doesnt have that soldier-ly sheer force of will to just defect. I think it could be cool to see someone go about a change of allegiance in a more roundabout way where they basically have to reason themselves through it because they arent equipped to do it any other way. But yeah its 2 AM now so goodnight.

Bonus: Here is an educational diagram I made of Emerie being “sent elsewhere” circa twentysomething BBY

#the bad batch #tbb #tbb emerie #tbb omega #emerie karr #And I feel like she has potential to be so girl coded in a ‘what am I outside of the purpose I’m meant to serve for other people’ way AHHHH

[rainymoodlet]

Kiss Me in Komorebi+ 🌸

[ A Picnic... ]

For more information about what Daniel is telling Julesx2 here, please go and read either the summary on KMiK's info page, or (if you'd like a more in-depth version), you can check out Daniel's full biography here!

Part 2 of 2 💐

@mattodore @morrigan-sims

#ignore the color-changing text hrggg #ts4 #ts4 story #ts4 screenshots #ts4 bachelor challenge #ts4 challenge #;kmik #sim: daniel #julian vance by mattodore #julien west by morrigan-sims #|| #look at their feet all tangled up in one another bwuh ;u; #i miss them already omg it's been so weird not summoning them with the teleporters #but AHHHH LOOK AT HOW SWEET AND NICE TO HIM THEY ARE :') #(and it stands to be said... who did dan kiss out of pressure? who did he want to kiss for real? 👀) #i wouldn't say dan 100% was pity-kissing people #but he was definitely kissing some contestants because he felt as though he 'should'/didn't want to not kiss them and have them feel bad #like josiah and ivor weren't ready but would he have gone for it??? #would he have kissed julian or fabian or suraj or daithi for real?? or was he doing it because he 'figured they deserved one'? #time will tell 👀 #they genuinely love him so much and it shows :') they are so good for one another and i hope that shows through how they speak when togethe #i cherish them so much i hope y'all know omg

[pebblezone]

Thinking so hard about sertegra dancing fic that has not yet been created

#hellsing #hellsing ultimate #seras victoria #integra hellsing #sertegra #a #okay so hear me out you got fancy balls n shit integra was definitely taught how to do that stuff #so like idk how it gets brought up but seras like damn you gotta teach me 🫢🫢🫢🫢🫢 so like ong they’re close it’s so intimate ahhhh #and maybe it’s a little bit of a flop and seras feels bad for distracting integra from work but like #integra’s like I don’t care if it’s good when it’s with you because I’m dancing with you oooohhhhhh #you get the vibe that’s my brain I am not inherently a writer #😾mutual pining for REALsies #the mortifying ordeal of being known (attempting to accurately portray personality) #AHHHH anyway uh on a mission to find my personal favorite album for each year which is requiring me to listen to a bunch of random things #so I can be as Right as possible like some are easy years nothing will top them but like 1956? shit I’ve no clue what exists then #so then I have to learn but like God Damn so much Music exists it’s crazy I will never listen to everything that exists in my life time Damn #on a lil Chet baker run what a funky lil guy

[skitskatdacat63]

Can someone assure me it's okay that I haven't finished any drawings in over a week 😭😭

#apathy :) #its like. impossible to assure myself its okay to take a break #yknow you see other people post so frequently #and you somewhat feel like you're falling behind #i cant keep up waugh #lol tho i wonder if I'll have a sudden desire to draw once finals week starts in a couple weeks #i assure you that when i have to work on a bunch of big assignments #my brain will suddenly be like DRAW DRAW DRAWK #its just annoying when you have a good amnt of freetime and you cant kick your brain into gear #I've been sketching but ahhhh just a lot of concept stuff #i have an idea for a chibi comic but i want to pair it w a full drawing #so uhhh thats never happening dhfjkg not happening for a bit ig #i need to come up w more chibi comics #easier and faster to draw and they dont kill me :) #it just feels lesser idk why #tumblr is my diary atp sry djfkkglg #i used to write down on paper or my notes app when i was in a bad mood #but god that shit is sooooo bitter and i cant reread it at all #theres smth about knowing im putting myself out there that keeps it a bit calmer #and it feels more comforting :) #catie.rambling.txt

[hansoeii]

so…now that you’ve watched ted lasso, are you by any chance on the roy x jamie and/or roy x keeley x jamie train?? curious to know and also if you would ever draw them. so excited to see what beautiful lasso content you may bring us in the future!!

god I want Roy x Keeley x Jamie so bad you have no idea!!! I need all of them to hold hands and be happy. I honestly don't think any of them can live without the other so a throuple is the only solution.

I'm very busy these days so I don't know if I can find the time to draw them, but I'd love to!

#I already feel so bad for working on a tedtrent illustration rn when I have other responsibilities that I keep procrastinating on #But ahhhh #Ted lasso

[faunandfloraas]

Jeongin having almost no votes on that poll makes sense to me, not because I think he'd do particularly bad but because I'm utterly certain if he ended up stranded with one of us he'd just up and leave and I wouldn't blame him

#he'd be like No. Sorry. Good luck. Bread baii. #seungmin is honestly a wild card bc he didnt get scared much in the haunted ep and he can be calm and level headed #so theres the chance hes actually a decent choice #but then I remembered him asking lee know if he could pick the cabbage with gloves and lee know was like ? Yeah... and i go Hmmm. No. #changbin is strong but also he's a lil city boy and he's a bit of a scaredy cat- hes gonna AHHH and im gonna AHHHH #and the creature will get us... But to go out in the strong arms and against the changbiddies of seo changbin? not a bad way to go #han is clusmy as hell and i think our personalities are similar so together? we'd die near immediately. #maybe by accidentally walking off a cliff or something not actually related to ghosts or strandedness #felix would be crying and freaking out and then I'd get annoyed bc crying makes me Uncomfy and i'd snap at him and then i'd feel SO bad #i'd have to give myself up to the entity as apology for being mean bc who could go on after that? #Hyunjin is gonna scream and im gonna follow suit and we're gonna get taken out also near immediately #but maybe he'd let me wear his versace glasses for a minute #so yeah lee know to me is the best bet 👍 im still goin chan tho #regardless of if you get off the island or not: You- yes YOU- will be attacked and cancelled by stay twitter no matter what #im avoiding go to clean out my uncles house can you tell

[letdibtravel]

put him in Johnny C's house!!! (AKA FROM JtHM!!!)

idk what to call this one cuz I haven't read the jthm comics yet 😞😞

but it's really low quality cuz I couldn't find a good picture

Tbh IbisPaint made dib low quality when I put him into IbisPaint as well and I fucking loive it

#dib membrane #invader zim dib #dib invader zim #dib iz #iz dib #dib #dib membrane iz #iz dib membrane #invaderzim #invader zim #IM SO SORRY I COULDNT DO A GOOD ONE FOR THIS ONE AHHHH #GUHHHHH #I feel so bad ugh gdhdjkwgejbdbdvej

[little-shiny-sharpies]

New frames of them got me beating the executive dysfunction slightly!!

#oc x cannon #self shipping #self ship #god I hope we get a decent final battle with everyone doing stuff #mostly I want my baited dynamic between them though bc they deserve it #Modern blizz would never make me a real character I’d fail the bechdel test so bad that twitter would complain about me #I should draw me more often I’m so fat and muscular I make them feel like they hauve codvid #you guys don’t know how bad I want to nibble on his ear though it’s all I’ve though about for weeks #and I want to snuggle Wrathy so badddd he needs so much attention lm gonna lick his cheeks and kiss hum ahhhh #💙✨this must be magic✨💙 #🖤👑do you trust me? 👑🖤 #shiny scribbles

[bpdohwhatajoy]

If you need a sign that it gets better here it is.

I sincerely mean this. You have to understand where I’m coming from. I’m mentally ill and traumatized and I’ve been like this for most of my life. So much of my life has been bad day after bad day. When people would tell me shit got better I’d get mad. I would get mad over the word happy because I thought the capacity to be happy had been removed from my brain. I didn’t think it was possible. I genuinely thought I would never get better and I believed it to my core. If you put a gun to my head and said to believe it I would’ve gotten shot that’s how intent I was on this. But if it could happen to me it can absolutely happen to you and it’s never too late for things to get better.

This doesn’t mean things will never be sucky. Of course they will. That’s life. But fuck. I used to have mental breakdowns constantly. I would be in abusive relationships that tore me apart. I lived in so much fear. I was so sick with anxiety. I would tolerate mistreatment from partners and friends and even people I hardly knew. I’d people please to no end. I’d overextend and be everyone’s therapist meanwhile I was drowning with no one to help me. I couldn’t set a single boundary without immediately feeling immense guilt and retracting whatever it was. I let everyone’s opinions on me inform me on who I was. I couldn’t cut anyone off or leave. I’d tolerate so so so much discomfort for the prospect of “love” that was actually abuse. I let things destroy me. I put myself last just like my abusers did. I didn’t stand up for myself. I’d ruminate on my past constantly. I couldn’t let anything go. I read old messages from shitty people like it was my morning news. I was so incredibly hopeless and alone. In all honesty I thought my last abusive relationship would be the end of me. I didn’t think I would survive it or the aftermath when that hit.

But it snapped something in me. That and being played by someone I trusted who betrayed me and took advantage of me. After that I vowed to never again tolerate the shit I had in the past. I gradually started to learn and apply shit I hadn’t ever before. I started to stand up for myself. I started to learn how to stop overextending as much. I started to protect my peace. I started to spend time on myself rather than shitty temporary fucking awful waste of time people. I started to trust my own intuition over what my abusers tried to convince me of. I learned how to cut people off, something that for most of my life I couldn’t fathom. I started to let people have their own opinions on me and not let it ruin my day. So what if someone thinks I’m rude? So what if someone doesn’t like me? I may be more alone than I have been in years but it feels much less lonely than having a bunch of shitty people in my life who are toxic and not genuine.

I’m okay being alone if it means I have my peace, something I used to be terrified of. I’d tolerate mistreatment if it meant I wouldn’t be alone. I smile and laugh easier than I used to. I have fun. I experience joy. I see beauty in the little things like the night sky and the moon or the waves of the ocean or the feeling of fresh air on my skin. I put myself out there more and people actually like me for who I am. I don’t mask nearly as much as I used to. I embrace my interests and parts of me I used to adamantly suppress. I don’t need anyone to make me whole. I’m whole on my own. I don’t think pretending to be something I’m not so people like me is worth it anymore. I don’t let little things destroy and completely color my day anymore. I don’t constantly read old messages anymore. I actually deleted a bunch of old shit from my camera roll for the first time ever days ago.

Like I said I’m not perfect. I still have bad days. My esteem has a ways to go. I still feel dissatisfied with my life at points. My mental illnesses and trauma still act up. I struggle. But my god. My growth is genuinely incredible when I sit back and look at the big picture which I guess I haven’t really done before now. I’m excited to see what progress I make even further as I continue to grow. I’m so different than I used to be and I suppose that’s part of why I’ve lost so many people. They can’t handle me actually setting boundaries and standing up for myself. They banked on my tolerance that’s no more. You will lose (toxic) people when you start becoming healthy which is something no one told me. But it’s so worth it. It’s so worth it.

I’ve made it through so much horrific shit. So many close calls where I nearly took my life or contemplated it. Yet I got through it all and not only that but I changed for the better. I lived to see it get better. If you’re struggling to find a reason to stick around, live for the possibility that things can get better. If they can get better for me, they absolutely can for you. Live for the possibility of joy, ease, beauty, and a life you like.

I made a post on here that blew up awhile ago that said that I wished I killed myself at 15. I disagree with that sentiment. I would’ve missed out on so much growth. I would’ve died without seeing it get better. I wouldn’t have accomplished so much. I wouldn’t have made so much progress. I’m glad I didn’t die at 15. I’m glad I saw things out and I’m on the other side of that despair with a smile.

#ryan.txt #healing #positivity #feeling so sentimental rn?!?!? #imagine showing 16 year old me holy fuck. #this is so #yeah #I’m gonna say it #I’m so proud of myself #so beyond fucking proud #still working towards a life I like but ahhhh yeah #it gets better #I really did think it was such bullshit for so many years #it’s not #this blog truly is like an archive of my journey like holy shit look at my old posts if you don’t believe how bad it was for me #it’s so crazy to see the growth through my posts alone #I’ll see people rb my old posts like holy shit #suicide #recovery series #recovery journey

[all-thestories-aretrue]

I feel so bad!!!! I accidently hit the romance option with Gale and now he's expecting me tonight. But I also made plans with Shadowheart because she's who I wanted to romance!!! And now I have to disappoint Gale and I didn't even really mean to agree in the first place. This is horrible!!! I feel so bad!!!

#bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate 3 spoilers #bg3 spoilers #the guilt!!!! #i didnt mean for things to go that far i just agreed bcuz i didnt know shadowheart would give me the option!!! #i feel so bad!!!! #ahhhh

[dookins]

I immediately saw a pattern and had to solve it! Not everything was legible to me but I think I did a pretty good job!! The ye olde English bits made it tricky but when I got to the end I couldn’t help but laugh. Kudos to the spindle horse ‘runemanji’ linguist.

From Stolas’ book in the AMAZING NEW EPISODE of HELLUVA BOSS SEASON 2 EPISODE ONE!!!!

#helluva boss #stolas #asmodeus crystals #runes #helluva boss runes #I remember so many of these from my Wicca phase #fuck little Fizz you were a perfect treasure #ahhhh I feel so BAD for Stolas!! #Stolas #blitzø #fizzarolli

[skitskatdacat63]

is there an easier way to find your art i been scrolling for so long 😭😭😭

God anon I wish, I literally struggle to find my own art bcs the tags just refuse to show half of it 😭 I was thinking actually of making a masterlist of all of them to make it easier to look at, but I felt it seemed too self indulgent. Would that interest you? 🥺

#i literally have to go find the date of it by looking at my gallery #and then go manually look at my archive #i like to reread tags okay dont judge me 😭 #but ahhhh honestly i feel bad bcs my tags dont show the majority of the art #ex. i think the only one the matador tag shows is just some process post so its so???????? #but ahhhh please reply and lemme know if you would want that!!! #as i said it felt a bit too self serving lmao 😭 so thank you for the incentive and interest honestly #catie.asks.