#I FUCKING CRIED HE'S ADORABLE

[upsidedog]

god the scene in season one where jonathan comes home to joyce and lonnie on the couch drinking together is harrowing. it makes me want to cry just thinking about it, your brother is dead, your mom is horrible mental state and is now also introducing your abusive father back into your house. what a fucking nightmare.

#i think it’s unproductive to try to determine whether joyce is a fully ‘good’ or ‘bad’ mother especially without acknowledging the #intricacies of grief or abuse or how victims go back to their abusers or how your son is stuck in a hell dimension but i think it’s obvious #she was at least being a bad parent to jonathan all of season one he was absolutely put through the ringer and joyce even temporarily #letting lonnie back in is just the cherry on top #anyway season one is sooooooo damn good it’s so fucking good it’s actually a good show in season one #i adore the funeral scene where dustin goes ‘wait till will hears jennifer hayes cried at his funeral!’ so cute so funny #and nancy. NANCY. the angels wept! #the scene where steve tries to get her to go to the movies vs the first ep… she is not a frivolous high school girl anymore. that can’t be #her life

[introspectivememories]

four months into getting to know each other, shouto finds him by touya-nii's shrine. his little brother gently sits down beside him and offers a small prayer.

"yumi-nee-san," natsuo wonders if his little brother will ever drop the second honorific, "said you were the closest to him," shouto says quietly.

after all these years and the use of past tense still makes his heart break. 'you are the closest to him' he wants to correct but that wouldn't make sense anymore. touya-nii hasn't been talked about in the present tense since before middle school. does shouto even remember a time before nii-san's dea-, disappearance?

"yeah, i was," he says, eyes never leaving the photo. it's the one nii-san took for sixth-grade picture day. kaa-san had got him all dressed up and he had hated it. somedays he thinks if he looks close enough, he'll see the displeased pout on nii-san face. "why?"

his little brother says nothing for a long time, back ramrod straight. natsuo has no idea what's going on in that head of his. shouto has so few tells that he's practically a blank slate. natsuo hates his father.

then slowly and so quietly, he has to strain his ears to catch it, shouto stammers out, "do-, do you think he would have liked me?"

natsuo's immediate reaction is to say 'yes'. yes, of course, touya-nii would've loved you. yes, of course, touya-nii would've crossed the heavens for you. yes, of course, he would've loved you shouto; you're his precious younger brother.

but he remembers the way nii-san used to spit out shouto's name when he was a kid. the way his brother's mouth wrapped around it, the face he made, like he had just eaten something disgusting. he remembers the way touya-nii had become almost crazed by the end, hellbent on proving himself the rightful heir to their shitty father's legacy. he remembers the way touya-nii had said, "i just need to prove that i'm better than him,"; the 'him' said with such bitterness and contempt.

he knows instantly that touya-nii would not have liked shouto. that this house and his father would have twisted any ounce of love, nii-san would've held towards shouto, into jealousy and hatred.

(this house may have ruined all of them but it only ever broke two of them.)

natsuo can't say any of that to shouto. his kind little brother who forgave him for not being there. his amazing little brother who falls in love with every cat he sees. his wonderful little brother who has a wickedly dry sense of humor. his soft baby brother who loves him and yumi-nee with a passion. his tender-hearted baby brother who still worries if his long-gone older brother would've liked him.

no, natsuo can't tell shouto that nii-san wouldn't have like him. shouto will internalize it like he does with everything else that hurts him. and there is already so much that hurts shouto, he will not add to that list. his baby brother smiles these days, nothing big like his green-haired friend, but quiet, lovely, ones all the same. shouto talks more these days. they have dinner together when natsuo is home. his baby brother laughs now. it's a miracle like nothing else in this world.

shouto is the best thing to come out of their house and natsuo will die before he ever hurts his little brother. so instead, he curls an arm around shouto's shoulders and pulls him into a loose side-hug.

"of course!" he lies cheerfully, ignoring the ache in his chest, "touya-nii would've loved you. you're his — and our —precious little brother after all. there is no universe in which he wouldn't have loved you."

the tips of his baby brother's ears go red and his pleased little answering smile makes the ache of lie go away. natsuo will tell a thousand more lies if it means shouto never stops smiling like that.

#PLEASE THEY MAKE ME INSANE!!!! #and the thing is natsuo's not wrong. touya really would've loved shouto in literally any other universe #also natsuo who fucking /adores/ his baby brother so much #shouto laughs and natsu's like: the second coming of jesus christ could not compare to this #100% natsu is shouto's overprotective brother #it's the like 15 years of suppressed older sibling instincts coming out #someone fucking looks are shou wrong and natsu's all up in their face like: what's your fuckin issue with my bro dude?? #natsuo for once being thankful that he got endeavor's height and build #fuyu: i thought you said you didn't like looking like dad? #natsu: that was before i found out i could use it to intimidate people that looked a shouto wrong #fuyu: natsu you think every1 looks at shou wrong. you tried to fistfight a baby yesterday #natsu: yeah well it shouldn't have cried when shou held it. did you see how sad shou looked???? #fuyu: never pegged you for a brocon to be honest #natsu: you take that back rn #todoroki shouto #todoroki natsuo #todoroki touya #todoroki fuyumi #todoroki family #bnha

[kyuoki]

please take this davy jones plushie from the thing I am working on cuz that's all I have to offer rn 🙏🫶

#working on a pmv/animatic kind of thing and forcing myself to actually do something is less fun than imagined #but you gotta do what you gotta do to keep yourself going #art ain't arting #so i had to smack myself and force my depressed ass to do it u til the year is over #lol i just absolutely love this part of the drawing cuz i mean #LOOK #he looks so fucking adorable #i want a plushie like this one tbh #*cries in a corner* #davy jones #potc #my art #KSiP ⚓ PoTC rp/fic

[reggiestein]

Nobody talk to mr for the next few days ill be too busy thinking about licorice cookie love test type

#licorice cookie #cookie run #cookie run kingdom #crk #NOBODY HAS TALKED ABOUT THIS #NOBODY #NOT 1 #THIS IS THE CUTEST FUCKING THING IVE EVER SEEN #LICORICE IS CANONICALLY CLINGY AND EXTREMELY LOVEY HOW ARE YOU PEOPLE IGNORING THIS #LICORICE WOULD CANONICALLY TRY TO TEXT HIS EX😭😭😭😭😭😭 #HE WANTSRLOVE SO BAD PLS HELPPPP CRIES CRIES CRIES #oh my god im obsessed w this so bad #i always thought i was being biased for thinking hed be super clingy #hes adorable i hope he gets mentally well

[neo-shitty]

the dead man didn’t have to look that hot 😫

#lmao i forgot i had this in my drafts #this is about anime ok… ik how weird it seems but bear with me #YUKI YOU WILL BE MISSED #THE PIERCINGS THE UNDERCUT #all this time i thought he had black hair i was mistaken??? he looks like some guy from haikyuu actually #just cant pinpoint who #i was talking abt given btw #its like my first BL anime lmao and i think that’s mild compared to others 💀💀 but like #i’ve only watched 🤨🏳️‍🌈❓ animes (*coughs* bsd-ish/banana fish) so seeing them admit outright theyre gay just :9 i never thought they actuall #do that HAHAH i thought it was all tension builds and yk assume what you want… i stand corrected and i found this might be the beginning #of my descent into BL madness… i get the hype now for fucks sake #THEY WERE SO ADORABLE!!! #given was such a fair mix of everything—easy to watch and all #when mafuyu sang i nearly cried 🙂 the pain he must’ve been keeping in after what happened i hope he knows it wasn’t his fault #i wish we explored more on his past but i think that would’ve made the series hurt more #on a lighter note—the other band members and the one-sided thing going on was just a funny side plot #uenoyama’s coolness dwindling when he realized he was catching feelings and his inability to handle them HAHA #THE LAST THREE EPISODES WERE JUST GOLD TO ME they were like full on angst and then downright hilarious #i loved it #5/5 #i might eventually bump it down to 4s or 3s when i begin to move on from it but it was good to say the least #and not a waste of time hehe #toff.txt

[summerof336bc]

GOT TO SEE THE CHOSEN IN THE THEATER. IM OFFICIALLY INSANE

[id: a post banner that reads "i'm not christian (just mentally ill)". the background is Leonardo Di Vinci's "The Last Supper". end id]

#entries #IT WAS SO FUCKING GOOD. im sooo excited for the full release of s3 #i cried probably a grand total of 6 times. it was AMAZING!! #i loved the sermon on the mount montage..... #uhm. i really like judas!! hes funny #THE CONVO MATTHEW HAD WITH HIS PARENTS . SOBS. #when he talks about how hes always felt different. yeah....... #also andrews apology to mary made me cry.... #simon-peter & eden are so cute (CANNOT WAIT UNTIL SIMONS NAME CHANGE) #zee & matthews partnership will be! interesting im very excited for when they split up #THOMAS & RAMAH. ARE EVERYTHING TO ME. THEYRE ADORABLE OH MY GD!!! #what else....oh! gaius & atticus. rotating them in my mind. #atticus is...interesting. the way he lied to quintus! & hes being nice! whats up with that! #gaius' convo with matthew was so....let them hug already please #OH. little james & jesus' convo about him getting healed. i SOBBED. that was. #so deeply personal to me & i really REALLY liked that scene. it was. ough #lastly it was a bit fruity. why were judas & phillip on top of each other hmm nathaniel?? #john why did you say YOU'D marry thomas hmmmm???? #anyways. the chosen good. #chosen posting

[kellterntempest]

I need to corrupt him so badly

#I want to [REDACTED] him until he cries. i want to [REDACTED] and make him feel things he never felt before. Ill treat him sooooo good #adoring fan #sorry telepaths #starfield #i want my captain to have a fucked up weird codependent relationship with him. you know. #moine

[meatriarchived]

it's a yearly tradition, something that happens once a year for the both of them. fresh dinner put onto the table, fresh meat done to perfection, sweet and warm cookies for their dessert. a yearly tradition where luda & johnny celebrated their birthdays together -- beside tommy, who helped them both with the small set up. it isn't much, but there is also a little gift box sat in luda's spot, waiting for her to open. a recent victim had a wad of cash for johnny to pick at -- & upon roaming the town, there was a small necklace that reminded him of her. silver, with a small heart locket, that he's already put two photos of family inside of (making sure to leave nancy out of it, knowing how much the two bickered & argued ). it isn't much by any means, but it was a little something. he waits for the woman to return to the table, glancing between her & the gift. ❛ happy birthday, aunt luda, ❜ his drawl is sweet, he's smiling wide, boyish, like the little boy he once was, always so excited to celebrate with her. he points to the small gift box. ❛ ain't much, but i got y' somethin' ... i hope y' like it. saw it & thought of ya, aunt luda. ❜ | @johnnysslaughter

the hewitt home, on most days of the year, lay silent, with most of its rooms without occupants, its yards and gardens empty save for the lush green leaves of vegetables growing in spite of the texas heat.

its living room barren, save for the creak of floorboard by the idle rocking of a chair, sat upon in the late afternoon hours leading into nightfall. or the sound of radio or old television playing muffled and quiet in the room next door, accompanied by the mutters of one other soul in the home.

save for one in particular every year.

where sure enough early in the day, there's a knock on the side kitchen door, and johnny steps in, lugging in armful of preparations for the day, sweet child-like grin across his face as he greets her and sets down what he's brought to bring her into a hug.

( she, of course, had to brush off flour from his shirt - making cookie dough is rarely a clean feat to accomplish. )

with his arrival - as he has done every year since he was young, once they discovered their birthdays' were so close together - the hewitt home livened up considerably. thomas emerged from the basement door upon hearing johnny's voice carry throughout the home, to lend a hand where needed, to greet his cousin, and to sneak bits of cookie dough, as he always has, when his mama wasn't looking.

( it was always nice, seeing the two of them mess around. luda was fond of the fact that thomas had warmed so easily to the sawyer boys and to sissy when they all were younger, and that it stayed strong even after all these years had gone by. )

the hours ticked on, getting dinner prepped, cooked and finished, getting table set nicely ( the boys' had sent her out of the kitchen for a moment to do so; to make it look real nice for when she returned ) before thomas stepped out to fetch her again. and as she came round the table, to her usual seat, luda looks down at johnny and returns the smile, and can't help but to give his cheek a gentle grandmotherly pinch and pat of his shoulder, "why thank you very much, sweet boy, and a happy early birthday to you, too." she smiles more at him before easing down into her seat, scooting in as he motions to the little box laid out in front of her.

she gives him a look over the top of her spectacles, "oh, sweet boy, you didn't have to go on 'n buy somethin', not with how hard you gotta work." his arm gets a light tap of her palm, playful disapproval on her face, but as she brings the little box in her hands, she tells him a thank you, and opens it carefully, to not drop it or whatever may be inside.

and her features soften upon seeing the little heart-shaped locket inside, and she cautiously takes it out of the box, smile growing more across her face.

"i don't believe i ever told a soul..." she looks to him briefly as she opens it, and sees the photos tucked neatly on either side of the locket - of the family ( at least, nearly all of them ) secure inside its silver frames.

"my mother, jeanine - she had one of these, here. a locket. beautiful, but gold i believe. always did tell me she was goin' to pass it to me, lost it sometime. and after charlie was born," another glance at him, noting the immediate scowl that crosses his face at the mention; she smiles and chuckles at him, reassuring him with another tap to his arm that she won't bring him up again, "how many times i had asked charlton for one. never did..."

as she talks, she holds the necklace in hand, gently passing fingertips along the soft silver heart, unclasping the chain and immediately, she puts it on around neck - as if saying, it's about time. fixing it to make sure it sits just right.

luda stands herself back up out of her seat a bit, to lean over and rest a kiss to johnny's temple, and to give him a warm hug, "i adore it, johnny, thank you," and as she pulls away again, she stops to gently cup his cheeks, "you are too smart for your own darn good, sweet boy, knowin' all too well what i may fancy. somethin' many years late, but, i will treasure it dearly. thank you."

#[ lmh ] ── * 𝐀𝐍𝐒𝐖𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐃. { luda. } #johnnysslaughter #lamb ya'll have no idea that the locket has been a long-standing hc of mine for her for years so when this came thru i near cried for her- #this was so sweet and cute and i loved it :'))) #she simply adores him so much.... hes so feral any other time but hes such a Softie with our mom luda and its so sweet how they bonded #over their birthdays being so close together ;w; #also its funny. i dont have to add any fucking Dire ass tags/warnings to a reply wow what is this sorcery- FKSADB #except yknow........ #hoyt jumpscare /

[siren--squid]

PLAYED ALL OF SOULSCAPE LAST NIGHT...... RAMBLING SPOILERS IN THE TAGS...... :D

#spoilers in tags #BRO THE FUCKING MEMORY SCENES TOOK ME OUT #Chase deserves SO MUCH BETTER than that woman. Im so glad they've separated. i feel so bad for the kids holy crap #i hope they get a happy ending with their father. #Jackie my sweet boy. the dysphoria battle made me cry. those bullies are shit and beating them was SO GOOD. hero boy deserves confidence #MARVIN THAT SASSY CATBOY OH MY GOD...... his memory was such a fun segment to play but ABSOLUTELY painful otherwise #I LOVE HIS FRIEND THO OMG?? #hate those three money obsessed guys tho. would fight them again #honestly i have no words for Henriks memory. that was absolutely heartbreaking. i cried the entire time #the baby crying. the visual of his grief. how shattered and vulnerable he behaves the entire time. #the distorted bloody hospital was such a good representation of that mental state. the graves were so sad #joline showing up was the most heartbreaking and somber thing ever. doc needs a big hug #that was distressingly amazing. #Also cried over Bings memories. that was beautifully done and terribly sad #i understand deleting that memory. and the dialogue at the cabin door absolutely broke me #i knew that forest grave was important. the connections were so obvious. #ROBBIE MEMORY WAS ADORABLE THO. love that empty room scene #true anti also made me cry a little. poor kid just wanted a life. he deserves that so much #the ending did feel a little rushed though. like.. not satisfying in a way? there wasn't enough done it feels like. #the endings always feel rushed tho i guess?? just more with this one. im excited to see if anything ever has a satisfying conclusion #LOVED playing as cat Marvin. vent maze was good #i liked getting a whole map of the place as well?? but sometimes it feels like easter eggs over power plot #they're so fun and so good but also bro im here for story and the amount of things is overwhelming lmao /j #amazing plot and game overall #absolutely stunning

[astrxealis]

super busy but hi i miss ffxiv i played again today raghh happy 10th anniv the rising event makes me cry i love ffxiv :(( but anyway! bg3 thoughts in tags!

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #meow :3 #my approval w shadowheart is so high lol ... she & my tav are a couple. of bestiesss <3 #astarion is amazing bcs i got bit the 2nd fucking night of playing and just before that too lae'zel wanted to get in my pants #IT'S AMAZING what the first cutscene i got for long rest was wyll already turning into a devil bcs i had all origin charas alrdy #and then after that ?? astarion bite scene. he didn't even talk abt the stars anymore or whatever he just jumped straight to biting my tav #oh my god and lae'zel wanted to get it on w my tav SOOO badly ... her dialog is so funny i love her #anyway :3 my tav is a slowburn w astarion but they r fr getting there. sometimes rising sometimes going down but it's been rising more #lately and teehee <3 my tav also thinks karlach is the sweetest and ADORES her. you can see him making soft heart eyes at her always. #also got the learning magic moment w gale and god it's so dangerous for me to get gale cutscenes tbh bcs i'm trying not to favorite him here #he has. what. stuff w magic and stars. shut up. i can't handle that rn or i'll fall in love LMFAO <3 #wyll ..... i don't use him in my party good gods and he Still remains the character i know the least even tho i know him a lot more now #but i REALLY like him. i would say he's my 3rd fav after karlach who is after astarion but so are shadowheart and gale and lae'zel... so. #i'm. not forgetting anyone right #but yeah basically all of them r my favs <3 and my tav gets along w all of em p well tbh #he's a good nice person but chaotic (he's my bard baby boy <3) so it's REALLY fun playing bg3 w him as my tav ... apollo my dear #i should make an elf oc named emil. give him brown hair. be even more self-indulgent thru making more & more charas. #btw i saw a painting of apollo online today. as in the god. and almost cried (positively) bcs my tav named apollo looked so similar #amazingly w the slightly curly hair blah blah blah and the general colors. apollo just. generally means a lot to me ok. anything w apollo.

[ryxkenkxgami]

you know if i see one more person posting about fucking rurouni kenshin i might genuinely flip the fuck out on someone

#blocking is just not enough at this point i'm going to lose it #how anyone in the fucking world could be comfortable supporting it after what he was arrested for is beyond me #but i don't want to fucking see it UNTAGGED ever #i don't want to see it period!!!!! get it the fuck away from me!!!!!! #this is coming from someone who cried as i gave away my manga. #like i genuinely adored this series from the bottom of my heart but #it is tainted forever and i will NEVER be okay supporting it ever again #and honestly neither should anyone else!!!!!! #he isn't in jail HE CAN STILL MAKE MONEY OFF THIS FUCKING IP PEOPLE #i genuinely cannot believe how many people just sweep this shit under the rug we aren't talking about like #substance abuse or smth that hurt nobody but himself #if you don't know about what he did i am happy to educate you but i assure you it is NOT hidden info #and if you're comfortable supporting a creator like that get the fuck away from me #what the FUCK is wrong with people #i mean genuinely what the fuck. what the fuck!!!!!!!! #mitzi.txt

[silverselfshippingchaos]

he really said that 💀💀💀 what a man 😍

#have i already posted this clip? idfk man it's 6am gimme a fucking break /lh LMAO #ahsjkahs he's so sassy sometimes 👉👈 it's really funny and adorable and cute.. and extremely attractive- #also he's so strong!!! #i think about him all the time sjdhsjdh i cant wait to play x.enoblade all day #... after i drag myself out of hed #*bed #last night i had a great night! im just.. so tired... #closing night of a musical! we all hugged and laughed and cried and posed and took pictures and all that and it was so wholesome #but.. so much singing and dancing.. almost every day.. and we kinda went all out yesterday- my body is so sore LMAO i dont wanna get up!! #but hey... dont gotta get up when i'm snuggling d.unban yeah? #my plushie of my wifey a.qua also sits on my bed every night so it's so nice to wake up and see her there! i love her sooooooooo much!!!!! #point is. d.unban is the best sjdhsjdj he's strong and loyal and brave and funny and sooooo handsome!!! #he's my newest f/o but he's the only thing on my mind always! #also.. since im all sleepy... his chest makes for a really nice pillow #i refuse to put a shirt on him in my file because. um. hahahaha. 😳 #but it also means im constantly fantasizing about laying on and feeling his bare chest #he gives such good cuddles and he's so comfy too! s/i is always super careful about not accidentally hurting his injured arm #whenever they're cuddling or kissing or doing anything else #she does like kissing it though. the scars are so beautiful. #ash rambles 💚 #also his voice is just so pleasing! sometimes he and s/i (and the other party members) poke fun at each other since s/i is #the only character that doesn't talk in british LMAO d.unban has never really heard anyone talk like her before but he loves her voice hehe #he's just such a sweetheart! and he's sooooo strong too!!!!! i'm always in awe whenever i watch him fight #god i love long haired swordsman so much! shout out to my beloved f.elix! love you babe #anyways good morning and i love d.unban! i'm going back to bed lol #your f/os love you all actually <3

[jemmo]

YOU CANT DO THAT TO MY SHIN NO NOT MY LIL BALL OF SUNSHINE SHIN

#minato get out here we need to have words #I’m a mess I can’t believe he just flat out rejected him #and shin took it so hard but so well that speech was beautiful I fucking sobbed #the way he held his face so gently and said he was the only person he’d ever love I mean COME ON #and them both crying like fuck I was just chanting in my head go after him go after him #but he didn’t and then I just cried more #i hate it here I just want my fluff back #but I get it minato is a perpetual coward that can’t face his feelings and shin makes him have to face them #and it fucking hurts that he chose cowardice over shin but fuck I get it #i get not being brave enough when shin is all boldness and forwardness and bravery it’s so much to handle and take in and accept #but fuck I hate seeing him hurt like that #and I hate even more that he took it with such sweetness and grace bc it shows just how much he adores and respects minato #respects his choice even when that choice hurts them both that’s fucking true love #and that’s what makes his feelings so much different to how minato feels for Sakuma #that’s the difference between a childhood crush and a true first love you’ll carry with you forever #oh god I love this show #minato shouji coin laundry

[fluffiwrites]

ok i have a genuine question for everyone

is it just me or not 😭 i always feel more comfortable abt tickling with boys & i enjoy tickling boys more??? idk

it might be because of the little bit of bad association i have with tickling/being tickled by women cos of.stuff

I dont know WHY but i just find it way cuter plus alot less uncomfortable like kdkdkdjd

with girls im like yeah that’s normal human stuff but with boys im like THEYRE TICKLISH *metaphorically combusts*

its just way more skrbly

(just clarifying im a lesbian)

(so that isnt why)

(if you were thinking) (which is slightly weird) (is it?) (someone tell me)

MAYBE its the fact theyre supposed to be tough I DONT KNOW help me out does anyone?? understand??

#damn #yk who i wanna tickle now #YOU KNOW WHO I WANNA TICKLE RN #cries #his laugh bro his face when he’s tickled #fucking adorable

[gravy-sammich]

If I look at Kasim for longer than a minute, I start uncontrollably ugly sobbing. 💐😭💕💌

#be kind my neighbor #bkmn #kasim kelvin #bkmn kasim #HE IS GORGEOUS AND I ADORE HIM!!! 😭 #I am never normal about new selfships #I get so fucking weird with new selfships I'm sorry aaaahhh aaaaaaaaaahhhhh #(CRIES) #I'm an overly emotional autistic person that loves fictional characters too much please pardon me

[midnanoire]

I started reading the heartstopper comic after finishing the first season on Netflix and I just now caught up.......

Wtf am I supposed to do now???? I'm gonna have fucking withdrawals.

#Heartstopper #I absolutely adore this series #It's so so so cute #They are all so lovely #(Not Ben or Harry) #(Fuck those guys) #I watched it last weekend and then rewatched it with my mom #She also really liked it and cried when Nick came out #This series made me genuinely want to come out to my dad #But I don't think I'm ready for it yet #He's kind of homophobic so it's scary #I don't think he would react badly tho #I trust him with that #But I don't think he knows anything about asexuals #And I'm scared that he will question me #I'm going on a rant #Anyway this series is so wonderful and wholesome #The acting in the show is fucking fantastic #Nicks actor really stands out tho #But everyone is really talanted #Ben and Harry's actors are also really good #They make you truly hate them #It's a lovely queer series made by a queer author #And a lot of the actors are queer as well #And none of the representation feels forced #It's great #I can't recommend it highly enough