#I JUST FOUND IT

[ley-med]

I had a week long vacation not long ago, so I finally have enough energy to talk to non-medical friends once again. And I just realized once again, I'm not sure how to talk to them.

They tell me all the things they participated in, and I'm truly happy for them, all the while thinking I would never have half that much energy. They ask me how I am, I tell them I'm good, finally had a vacation. What did I do? Oh, literally nothing, tried to sleep off the worst of the exhaustion and tried to avoid interaction with other humans. How's work? You know, just the usual, it's good. It is good, and I love it, but how could I tell them all the horrors witnessed? That's right I don't, but what else do I have left to talk about? Most of my fun work stories are tainted with the shadows of tragedies... And unfortunately, I wouldn't trade it for anything.

So I just read their cheerful message and leave it on read, contemplating what to answer. And just hope they won't take offence to my agonizingly slow replies...

#medblr #medical life #sometimes it's so isolating #but it also brings along the tightest of communities #one of my work besties just messaged me #to talk about a very gruesome case that left them not okay and they needed to vent #listening and comforting each other is easy #holding up a normal conversation? #seems impossible #this post was written a while ago then sat in my drafts for several months #i just found it #and realised how actual it is at the moment #thank god for my work friends #they are indeed more like family #i love my other friends too and hey im trying here #but sometimes it takes enormous efforts to not just let it all drift apart

[jonathan-cranes-mistress-of-fear]

Escape from Arkham Asylum || Scarecrow Miniature Concept Art

#Jonathan Crane #Scarecrow #The Scarecrow #Escape from Arkham Asylum #looks like an rpg game #I don't know much #I just found it #and had to share

[maybejuel]

Just wanted to inform everyone that there is a pumpkin variety called "Baby Boo" and yes, I will be growing that next year.

#joker out #baby boo #pumpkin #gardening #I just found it #I wish I could be growing a lot more this year #But I don't have space and time is running out

[ofthecaravel]

you dont go to parties chap 4 spoilers without spoiling anything

#posting it tonight methinks #gvf #shut up karou #you dont go to parties #can you fuckin believe that last one like i didnt even make that #i just found it

[i-spilled-my-soup]

I NEED TO PLAY COLUSSEUM DOLLHOUSE

#I JUST FOUND IT #WHY #SOUP LORE #SOUP DESPAIR

[fandomfoundmyart]

liked by strangerthingstv??

hmm, interesting

#dont take this seriously #i just found it #and thought it was interesting #yeah #byler

[innerchorus]

First the Zahhak dubstep, and now the Zoroastrian death metal?

#honestly forgot i had saved this image lmao #i just found it #(i haven't listened to this yet but i'm gonna give it a try!) #sacrifice au

[not-the-organ]

Ok so blood loss Soul is very funny however! Hopefully we do not need to see it again. I’m on my way with a first aid kit.

#This thing probably would’ve been useful #Like a lot of times? #But oh well #I just found it #I think it’s a first aid kit anyways #The sticker on the top feels like a plus sign? #I think? #So hopefully I didn’t grab something random

[simplydm]

The first fanfiction I ever wrote was about fred (like the old yt guy the one w the high pitched voice and the movies w John cena as the dad ??) asking me to be in a movie with him

#I just found it #it’s not good

[kaiscreamingloaf]

Clem: *accidentally eats something too spicy so his eyes start to water*

James: Clem, look at me, it's okay. I would die for you. I love you so much. You're the best person I know.

Clem: I'm not crying?

James, hugging Clem's head: Shush, baby, it's okay. Marcus is here and he loves you with his whole heart.

#it's not my dialogue #I just found it #AND THEN IMAGINED THEM #is this sm incorrect quotes

[chickenstuffedwithmozzarella]

.

#someone lost his credit card in my shop #I just found it #and instead of buying a pod ticket to see Harry for my and my friends #I contacted him so he knows it’s here #tell how I’m not the BEST person #eifuvbeiufvbiejfvbieubfñ

[jadequarze]

Just a fun fact but i named my tiefling warlock Zherillius wayyyyy back in 2018. I called him Zes for short. He was the love of my d&d life and i think he would be honored for someone else to use his name 😁

That's SO COOL! Go team Zheril!

#asks #all-made-of-stardust #this is a very late reply #im sorry #tumblr ate this ask #i just found it

[therelentless]

ooc;; i guess i still have this icon....

#{ house meeting! } ;; ooc #i just found it

[chamaleonsoul]

the good thing: I just dreamt with Calum and we were very in love

the bad thing: we were playing some scary videogame & there was a screaming woman ghost and now I don't want to sleep

#this has been in my drafts since sept 2nd 2021 jshdhj #i just found it #i remember this dream it was fucking terrifying #personal

[solarmidnight]

Run headlong into a problem I never thought I'd have.

#so if you ever wondered what the limit is #i just found it #upping from 20 posts to 50 so I can queue again jeez

[tearlessrain]

please help me- i used to be pretty smart but i’m having so much trouble grasping the concept of diegetic vs non-diegetic bdsm!

gfkjldghfd okay first of all I'm sorry for the confusion, if you're not finding anything on the phrase it's because I made it up and absolutely nobody but me ever uses it, but I haven't found a better way to express what I'm trying to say so I keep using it. but now you've given me an excuse to ramble on about some shit that is only relevant to me and my deeply inefficient way of talking and by god I'm going to take it.

SO. the way diegetic and non-diegetic are normally used is to talk about music and sound design in movies/tv shows. in case you aren't familiar with that concept, here's a rundown:

diegetic sound is sound that happens within the world of the movie/show and can be acknowledged by the characters, like a song playing on the stereo during a driving scene, or sung on stage in Phantom of the Opera. it's also most other sounds that happen in a movie, like the sounds of traffic in a city scene, or a thunderclap, or a marching band passing by. or one of the three stock horse sounds they use in every movie with a horse in it even though horses don't really vocalize much in real life, but that's beside the point, the horse is supposed to be actually making that noise within the movie's world and the characters can hear it whinnying.

non-diegetic sound is any sound that doesn't exist in the world of the movie/show and can't be perceived by the characters. this includes things like laugh tracks and most soundtrack music. when Duel of Fates plays in Star Wars during the lightsaber fight for dramatic effect, that's non-diegetic. it exists to the audience, but the characters don't know their fight is being backed by sick ass music and, sadly, can't hear it.

the lines can get blurry between the two, you've probably seen the film trope where the clearly non-diegetic music in the title sequence fades out to the same music, now diegetic and playing from the character's car stereo. and then there are things like Phantom of the Opera as mentioned above, where the soundtrack is also part of the plot, but Phantom of the Opera does also have segments of non-diegetic music: the Phantom probably does not have an entire orchestra and some guy with an electric guitar hiding down in his sewer just waiting for someone to break into song, but both of those show up in the songs they sing down there.

now, on to how I apply this to bdsm in fiction.

if I'm referring to diegetic bdsm what I mean is that the bdsm is acknowledged for what it is in-world. the characters themselves are roleplaying whatever scenarios their scenes involve and are operating with knowledge of real life rules/safety practices. if there's cnc depicted, it will be apparent at some point, usually right away, that both characters actually are fully consenting and it's all just a planned scene, and you'll often see on-screen negotiation and aftercare, and elements of the story may involve the kink community wherever the characters are. Love and Leashes is a great example of this, 50 Shades and Bonding are terrible examples of this, but they all feature characters that know they're doing bdsm and are intentional about it.

if I'm talking about non-diegetic bdsm, I'm referring to a story that portrays certain kinks without the direct acknowledgement that the characters are doing bdsm. this would be something like Captive Prince, or Phantom of the Opera again, or the vast majority of bodice ripper type stories where an innocent woman is kidnapped by a pirate king or something and totally doesn't want to be ravished but then it turns out he's so cool and sexy and good at ravishing that she decides she's into it and becomes his pirate consort or whatever it is that happens at the end of those books. the characters don't know they're playing out a cnc or D/s fantasy, and in-universe it's often straight up noncon or dubcon rather than cnc at all. the thing about entirely non-diegetic bdsm is that it's almost always Problematic™ in some way if you're not willing to meet the story where it's at, but as long as you're not judging it by the standards of diegetic bdsm, it's just providing the reader the same thing that a partner in a scene would: the illusion of whatever risk or taboo floats your boat, sometimes to extremes that can't be replicated in real life due to safety, practicality, physics, the law, vampires not being real, etc. it's consensual by default because it's already pretend; the characters are vehicles for the story and not actually people who can be hurt, and the reader chose to pick up the book and is aware that nothing in it is real, so it's all good.

this difference is where people tend to get hung up in the discourse, from what I've observed. which is why I started using this phrasing, because I think it's very crucial to be able to differentiate which one you're talking about if you try to have a conversation with someone about the portrayal of bdsm in media. it would also, frankly, be useful for tagging, because sometimes when you're in the mood for non-diegetic bodice ripper shit you'd call the police over in real life, it can get really annoying to read paragraphs of negotiation and check-ins that break the illusion of the scene and so on, and the opposite can be jarring too.

it's very possible to blur these together the same way Phantom of the Opera blurs its diegetic and non-diegetic music as well. this leaves you even more open to being misunderstood by people reading in bad faith, but it can also be really fun to play with. @not-poignant writes fantastic fanfic, novels, and original serials on ao3 that pull this off really well, if you're okay with some dark shit in your fiction I would highly recommend their work. some of it does get really fucking dark in places though, just like. be advised. read the tags and all that.

but yeah, spontaneous writer plug aside, that's what I mean.

#I found their original stuff while I was researching various waterhorses and their folklore for no reason #because one of the characters in their original work happens to be an each uisge #and then it turned out it ALSO included a lot of figures from welsh folklore in general #so yknow if you happen to have my incredibly specific hyperfixations you'll love it but even if you don't it's great #I didn't mean to bring up phantom of the opera so much it just happens to be very relevant to a lot of my talking points #I haven't actually seen it in years