#I KNEW BUT I STILL HURT

[sysig]

So much experimenting to be done, where to even start (Patreon)

#Doodles #Handplates #UT #Fellplates #Gaster #Papyrus #Sans #Mostly silliness :) Mostly :) #It's still fun to draw these two Gasters next to each other hehe ♪ Even interacting! #They're more similar than I think either of them would admit haha - ''No clearly we have very different ideals'' sure but you're both Gaster #I like the idea of classic being So Annoyed at any iteration of himself thinking positively towards humans haha #I mean it would probably hurt - that's a big piece of his trauma! - but on the surface it's just Ugh I can't believe this -.ó #I feel like they'd have a lot more common ground when it comes to their experiments tho - not a perfect Venn Diagram but enough! #Maybe even just different enough to offer a new perspective - enough to give them new ideas! Uh oh that's never a good thing lol #I do love Fell!Gaster just so pleased to be having a conversation haha so smiley - classic still not smiling but interested! #Cute face <3 #It was after making the Toriel comic that the thought Really occurred to me - like obviously I saw so I knew they were still in the gowns #But it took a bit for that to strike me as odd since I mean that's just what they wear! That's normal! For Handplates anyway #He talks a lot about isolating whatever it is in Monsters that Make Them Like That - what does that entail #Gaster no seriously what are you doing to them don't just smile actually reply #And as much as I like the boys being a bit more Fell-ish I've always been of the opinion that no matter what they're brothers! #They love each other <3 And in Fellplates they'd have to rely on each other even more than regular Underfell #If anything would cause some codependency it's the Handplates setup - no matter what version you throw at it! #They're still both delicate little things - they need each other to survive ♥ If Gaster is sometimes kind to them well... #Similar to Mercyplates but Not Quite hmmmm #At least sometimes doing cute and harmless things tho! Studies how they react to flowers and teaches them to make chains hehe ♪ #There's also that Underfell thing of Sans calling UF!Papyrus ''Boss'' rather than ''Bro'' yeah? Doodling ideas around that haha #An opportunity to teach! Sans only came away with the basics tho it probably annoys Gaster lol #The idea of them doing cute harmless little things and /that/ being what gets under his skin hehehehe #And ending with a Babybones! :D Surely he'd have no problem being attached since they're meant to be good...? Surely

[fourteenthz]

— DOGS ARE LIKE THAT, SO LOYAL

The lord of night, the one eyed demon, and the MAD DOG OF SHIMANO. (insp)

#yakuza #yakuza 0 #goro majima #mine #gamingnetwork #gamingedit #vgedit #dailygaming #userliliana #mrdekarios #yakuzaedit #userlockescoles #yakuza 0 spoilers #useravallachs #userwolfkissed #mikaeled #userdina #rambling now bc EVERYDAY I WAKE UP #and think that he knew his only way out of yakuza was with makoto until she was hurt and then he just concluded there wasnt a way out #aka when he said he could protect her from them until she was like “its not enough. I need them dead” and he kinda just started to accept #imagine you only know 1 way of living until you find a new home. and then the new home isn't safe anymore #so you just think that it must be a you problem and then you go back to your unsafe home from before #what I want to say is that majima always cared. that post. shelter dogs are still dogs. #everything he is and what he becomes is because of the ppl he met along the way and I just LOVE. #*points at the codependent man* MY BABY GIRL. #I put makoto on the first gif at first but I was like wait maybe not. maybe I should lean on the yakuza life. #holding my shoulders like 'not everything is abt majimako' but in my heart it is. #so I decided to be at least a bit more sane and normal abt it anyway. pls look at the insp link majima enjoyers pls. #posting this as a commemorative ill-start-kiwami-today wish me luck

[ssstrawberryflowers]

old men who have seen it all and know so much helping two beings who don't understand what love actually is have a genuinely caring relationship. or something idk

#ultrakill #minos ultrakill #sisyphus ultrakill #v1 ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #gabv1el #minos x sisyphus #i would fucking tag whatever minos x sisyphus' ship name is if i knew it!! #suggestive #my art #i have not beaten either P1 or P2 i just want to draw more stuff #the cold is still here and i'm like. probably gonna crash soon. #good night sweet dreams #my nose and throat hurt :(

[hellishfig]

just finished www #23: on your way, and i have many thoughts. all of them make me want to cry.

ame knowing as soon as she got back to the cottage that her actions had burned a bridge, not just with the citadel but with one of her best friends, and yet still needing to complete her tasks as the witch of the world's heart. the spirits she awakens so as not to leave the cottage untended or unprotected, and the way she asks and does not take. the note she leaves, should her friends make it there.

eursulon in the fire, followed by the man in black, who is a brother in the way all spirits are brethren, but not the sibling eursulon seeks. leaving through the burrow, fighting monstrosities, and seeing the citadel raze cities to ruin beside a jungle of rot. finding the tree. his tree. the tree that is emblazoned on his shield, his coat of arms, what he fights to protect. and inside... his sister. a family she made for herself.

and suvi. hurt but still afraid that ame will die if she stays. determined to not let that happen. conversations with steel where she says that another wizard said that the wizard sly lied, or did not tell the full truth. commiseration, but suvi holds back the full truth, and suspects steel of doing the same. an airship to fly north. to protect ame, yes. but the mage armor mean that no creature or spirit or witch will ever be able to touch her again. broken trust, if not broken love.

and through it all, the thread that the citadel represents a threat to the world's heart itself, and to all spirits beyond. the council of elders wishes to neutralize that threat. grandmother wren did not.

questions moving forward: what is the true purpose of the war on gaothmai being waged by the empire? why does kalaya's family look like suvi? is suvi going to have a villain arc? i have my theories, but i'll get into those in other posts.

thank you to the worlds beyond number cast and crew for giving us this incredible story. i'm so excited to see where you take us next.

#i was surprised but glad that suvi was upset with ame but still wanted to protect her #i was glad that ame knew she had done something hurtful to her friend #i'm SO fucking glad that eursulon found his sister! #i was sobbing throughout that whole scene with kalaya #also AME LEVELED UP! LEVEL THREE WITCH BABY! #and suvi had the fun empire music behind her... god i hope aabria gets to play villain arc suvi. that would be so hot #but also i want them to be ok and happy. conflicting interests #it's wild to listen to a dnd podcast that is straight up a drama #like it's funny in moments when they have a chance to be together and not stressed #but overall it is an epic where every player is taking the story seriously in every moment #that's the craziest part. there are so few bits #but it's amazing #worlds beyond number #wbn pod #wbn spoilers #the wizard the witch and the wild one #wbn: www #wwwo #wwwo spoilers #ame wbn #ame the witch #eursulon toma #eursulon the wild one #suvirin kedberiket #suvi the wizard #the wizard sky #erika ishii #lou wilson #aabria iyengar #brennan lee mulligan

[spocks-kaathyra]

do u think that um. yk Julian was having a rough time in the later seasons. and ofc he wants to talk abt it, wants someone to help him process it, wants someone to just listen. but it's not easy to talk abt. and he wants to talk to Garak, wants Garak to know what's going on in his life, wants to be vulnerable and be met with support and care. but Garak is so emotionally unavailable and so unwilling to break his pleasant facade and so unwilling to deviate from their little social script. he was taught never to show care or vulnerability. and Julian gets so tired of playing their little game when, god, there's a war going on, his life is falling apart, can't Garak even acknowledge how bad things are for both of them? he doesn't need witty retorts, he needs sincerity. and Garak can't give him that. so he withdraws from their friendship. and it's not that Garak doesn't care. it's not that he doesn't want to help. but sincerity and vulnerability were beaten out of him a long time ago, and he doesn't know how to take off his mask. even just acknowledging genuine emotion is practically impossible for him. and maybe that's why ASIT is the apology that it is. it's saying, here, I've learned to be honest, I've learned to be vulnerable. I know the harm I caused you by refusing to acknowledge pain, so here's a whole book of me acknowledging pain.

#this is entirely projection idk if this is at all supported by the text #for the record I am garak here. gosh who knew it could hurt the ppl u love when u refuse to be emotionally vulnerable at all? #god I don't know. it's so hard. how do I look someone in the eyes and say I care. I love you. I want you to be okay. tell me what's wrong #I don't know how to deviate from the pleasant little social script we've rehearsed so many times #even when I know it's all a facade. when we're both refusing to acknowledge the emotional undercurrent of it all. #I want to help you. but that would require me to confront the impossibly big feelings I have abt it. and I can't. I just can't #I'm sorry #sigh. god knows if garak can overcome his repression then I can too. give me another few years. if you're still alive by then #ok to rb LMAO #narcissus's echoes #ds9

[harmonysanreads]

Aventurine? More like ANGSTTURINE.

#thy brain is mush #on the verge of a breakdown #wtf was that ending #what on earth is even going on here????????? #i knew it was going to happen to aventurine but 😭😭😭 #was i prepared? kind of #did i still feel like my heart was being torn apart? yes #did i hated it so much but couldn't complain because this is written so well?? of course #does it still hurt? hahahahahahaha #seriously... i'm going to make sunday suffer don't ask #shaoji cooked so hard he cooked us all in the process #how do i even recover from this #if any of y'all want to cry with me plz #harmony suffers #hsr spoilers #hsr #harmonysan.txt

[beaulesbian]

Shanks always said that if the path to what you want seems too easy, then you're on the wrong path.

#roronoa zoro #one piece #zolu #monkey d. luffy #oplaedit #it's about zoro drifting on the sea without a purpose to the point of letting the marines capture him. but still having that dream #and with luffy seeing a chance to actually accomplish that. by his side. and by the end of s1 they have a whole crew! #its about zoro being always lost but within a few days of knowing each other the directionless sense points him towards luffy. #its about zoro seeing how serious luffy is about his own dream. how stubborn and determined he is to become the pirate king no matter what #and how luffy and zoro knew each other only for a few hours/days but already understood so well what the other is about!! #like zoro knowing the garp thing wasn't that big of a deal if luffy didn't want to tell them at first #and luffy knowing enough about dreams to not discourage zoro from fighting mihawk. not standing in the way of his dream. #and how much it hurt luffy to think he wasnt a good captain.. but he had zoro! like in the early days - #it was just the two of them (even if more here but lets just say.. zoro was always the first. the anchor. the stability to luffy) #why am i emo about opla again #uhh captain and his first mate #one piece live action #mine #gif:one piece #gif:opla #opgraphics

[whosectype]

Only way to cope with MAG 200 was to draw a portrait of my favorite character, obviously

#I know I barely finished it like 2 hours ago IM STILL IN PAIN #I talked it with 3 different people and I’m still left sitting here contemplating everything #THERE WAS NO OTHER WAY AND I KNOW THERE WAS NO OTHER WAY BUT #STILL #IT HURTS #ONCE ELIAS NOTED MARTIN WASNT IN THE ROOM #I KNEW IT WAS OVER #WAHHHHHHH #I want to cry but my tears are STUCK #IM JUST LEFT WITH THOUGHTS #RAUGH #ahem anywho I should tag this properly before I go through the five stages of grief again #Tma #the Magnus archives #tma fanart #the Magnus archives fanart #martin blackwood #martin k blackwood #the Magnus archives spoilers #TMA spoilers #<- cupid if I see you interact with this post I’ll smite you #My art #mag 200 #the lonely

[robotpussy]

beyond the spiderverse shouldn't come out until 2030 imo the animatiors and editors need to fucking rest

#they literally finished the edit DAYS before the premiere. the character designs weren't cleared until months before the premiere #i knew working on that film was no smooth sailing job (like most animation) but the fact that they're still #making edits of this movie is scary. i hope the people that worked on this build a union because pascal and phil lord #had them working like anything. the intense crunch sessions are making my chest hurt

[coachbeards]

I think something that bothers me about how the writers handled Rebecca’s actions was that,,, not only were there no mentions of it afterwards save for like two jokes…but nobody was upset with her after she apologized. everyone moved on? The people who knew, anyways. There weren’t any consequences for her, really. higgins, julie, ted, keeley, they all moved on and acted like it wasn’t a big deal. whereas Jamie’s entire three season arc is consumed by his s1 actions. he had to fight tooth and nail to get back into the team’s good graces, to prove himself to the coaches and keeley and everyone. Even in s3, the coaches are shown to not value his growth and keep thinking of jamie “prick” tartt instead of seeing him as someone capable of being better and different. idk. It just bothers me that in a show about forgiveness and being better, rebecca only had to apologize and everything was forgiven, while Jamie literally could not Not be defined by how he was

#you know what I mean? #like if you watch s2 and s3 only then you’d have no idea what Rebecca did in s1 #WHICH WAS HORRIBLE?? #but she was hurting!!! yes she was! and im not blaming the character im upset with the writing #same with Nate’s arc like he had to fight to fix himself and apologize and make it up #ted literally told beard to apologize and forgive him bc ted did that to him 20 years prior #but Rebecca just. apologizes and that’s it! never talked about again! #I think that would’ve added depth to sambecca. if Sam knew about her trying to sabotage the entire club!! #roy should’ve known. beard should’ve known. jamie still doesn’t know she sent him back to man city not ted #but there was NOBODY even a little upset with her that she tried to ruin the lives of several people?? #I think they did keeley a bit of a disservice by having her forgive her off screen and have her not be upset anymore

[theghooligan]

lucerys: *dies*

me, knowing it was coming and still being distraught over it for the next year:

#hotd spoilers #no no no no NOOOOOOOOOOOO #WARM WELCOME MY ASS #YOUR HONOR BUT I LOVE HIM #your honor im obsessed #seriously was dreading this episode #this shit hurted #i knew it was coming and still felt caught off guard #and yet i still love aemond #it’s mostly because the actor is doing such an amazing job #house of the dragon #hotd #game of thrones #house targaryen #lucerys velaryon #rhaenyra targaryen #daemon targaryen #harwin strong #rhaenyra x harwin #jacerys velaryon #aemond targaryen #aemond one eye #team black #dance of the dragons #alicent hightower #viserys targaryen #a song of ice and fire #asoif #ewan mitchell #matt smith

[touchd0wn-boy]

One More Time // blink-182

#insane way to start a song thanks for that thomas #like I KNEW the lyric leak but it still instantly came for my throat #his face and voice throughout this verse too #you can tell this is so so so important to him and it hurts to sing about but it NEEDS to be sung about #blink 182 #tom delonge #uploads

[rftwfic]

Thinking about notoriously stoic Derek Hale being so open and expressive (for him) with his son. Thinking about 19 year old Derek staring at the course catalog at NYU signing up for his next semester classes and putting down Intro to Child Psychology to meet his social sciences requirement because he has the same morbid curiosity we all do of wanting to know why we're fucked up the way we are. Thinking about Derek with baby Eli sitting in a high chair, engaging him and emoting at him because he knows to do otherwise would hurt his pup. Thinking about the rest of the pack being confused because they've never seen Derek like this before and it's kind of creeping them out, meanwhile Stiles, who seems to know more about the Hales than anyone besides the Hales themselves, doesn't know why everyone is so confused, because Derek grew up with a bunch of little siblings and cousins, obviously he's good with kids.

#just some Thoughts #derek hale #eli hale #teen wolf #been thinking about still faced mothers since i learned about it #derek would fight his resting bitch face so hard if he knew it was hurtful for his son

[thelostgirl21]

Are you trying to hurt my feelings?

#Jaskier #Geralt #Radovid #Radskier #The Witcher #I've finally figured out why that scene hit me so hard... #That's part of the reason at least... #Because Jaskier is always at his most emotionally open sincere and vulnerable when he sings... #His only “mask” when he's singing is the fact that he can pretend to be singing about “universal matters” that “could be about anything #or anyone"... #But that's usually when he reveals the most about who he is what he needs and what he years for... #And Geralt essentially told him that the reason the Countess of Stael abandoned him... #is because he let her see inside him and she found nothing of value or worth loving there... #And then he goes and essentially tells Radovid the same fucking thing! #He knew exactly how much it hurt and he still went straight for it! #Jaskier I love you but you don't need to repeat Geralt's mistakes sweetheart... #My Posts #My Stuff

[l0stb01]

just finished the war games. no one speak to me for 3 to 4 business days wtf

#i mean i knew what would happen but that shit still hurted #hate this show why do i watch it #fuck whoever wrote that 'i wont forget you you know' line in particular #doctor who #second doctor #classic doctor who #jamie mccrimmon #dr who #classic dr who #fml i hate this dumb scifi show actually

[skitskatdacat63]

2023 Italian Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso

#I just realized i literally havent posted anything at all about this weekend aside from liveblogging #so i have to remedy that by at least gifing the old man even if he hurt me today #im gonna pretend this race didnt happen tbh #it just didnt do anything for me? i feel like this weekend's flew by in a way no other race weekend has in an unfortunate way :/ #i feel like i didnt even experience a race weekend this wkdn aside from the liveblogging with people and thats kinda sad #i literally fell asleep for like 3 hours after the race hahaha #i knew monza wouldnt be great for aston but ugh hurts still. lets hope singapore is better!!! #i think it kinda just sucks when your fav is kinda just non existenant for the whole race #i had no idea what he was upto at any time of the race :(((( #well at least hes always cute in his interviews #fernando alonso #fa14 #2023 italian gp #2023 monza grand prix #2023 italian grand prix #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1