my grandma used to recite the saying "is it better to have loved and lost or to have never loved at all?" and every time my answer would be that i would have rather not loved at all.
she would smile then, and say "then you did not love". i didn't understand what she meant. of course i had loved. i had a broken heart, didn't i? i had the scar to prove it, the inability to eat. i had loved and wished i hadn't. i loved, i thought.
and then i met you, and i fell in love and then i lost you and now i understand because i would feel this pain over and over again just to love you for five extra minutes. i would fix my heart and hand it back to you without hesitation. "look! it's all better now! you can try again" i would tell you, i would cry it out hysterically while waving my taped heart in the air. i would love you a million times knowing i would lose you and i would not care as long as i got to do it. i have loved. i have loved so completely.
mae // what a bittersweet thing to understand.
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There's nothing in the world that can match the feeling of soft love.
Of being loved kindly, purely, without expectation or guilt.
The kind of love where two people heal each other simply through proximity.
Where it's enough to just hold them, and be held by them.
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I don't want a relationship with someone where we just sleep together.
I'm a hopeless romantic. I want someone I can spend my life with, regardless of the ups and downs. I want to be with them on the good days but on the bad as well. I don't just want to share in your smiles and be absent for the tears. I want to be someone you can lean on when things are rough.
I want to wake up next to you in the bed we fell asleep together. I want to spend lazy days with you, hectic days, days full of sunlight or rain, cloudy days, winter days, summer days, days full of laughter, or days full of tears, days of mourning, of just full of all our fears. I want to spend them all with you. To see you grow and grow alongside you.
I want to fill you with love not so that you'll forget the days without but so that when you do look back they don't hurt to think about. I want to go on adventures, big and small. I want to try new things and explore with you.
I want to love you and be loved by you.
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“we accept the love we think we deserve” drives me insane, drags my sanity to the moon, through hell, and to saturn and back, and alters everything inside me on a molecular level. i just can’t stop thinking about it
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Pinning this so I will see it all the time.
This year I will;
- Weigh less than 50kg/110lbs (skinny for my height, I'm tall)
-STAY skinny.
-take good care of my looks. Nails, hair, skin etc.
-exercise almost everyday
-stay on track
-get this done and be a thinspo
-be a size 0
-study properly
-take walks everyday
-at least 10k steps a day
~have a skinny 2023~ 🍓🍓
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i dreamt of you last night and i know that for the next few days i am going to cling to every detail of it until my mind inevitably erases every piece.
Mae S.
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Do you ever want to be held so badly that it eats away at you and you constantly feel the intense urge to cling to your loved ones because you crave physical intimacy so much but have no idea how to ask for it?
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