#I am an object of Concern

[dimsilver]

ladies!!!!! I get to see my family in like 2 hours!!!

#also the man in the airport next to me is meticulously designing and ordering an engagement ring over the phone :) #oh nvm it’s an anniversary ring #and there’s a dog #and I got cajun fries #HAHA now a couple next to me is talking about how the guy got held up for forever in TSA because a bag full of sauces exploded over a candle #that was also in the bag and TSA was deeply concerned about the mysterious gloppy object #and the girl is wearing all black and she said they asked her whose funeral she just went to #am enjoying the way they tell stories to each other

[fourcorpsmen]

Don’t worry (CRUNCH) Lois. I’ll have you there in plenty of time. Just (CRUNCH) bite off some pieces, and sharpen them (CRUNCH) with my fingernails-- and they’ll make perfect nails.

#clark kent #lois lane #superman #kal-el #clark #lois #comic #i am very concerned with how many objects clark has eaten in the golden/silver age

[gideonisms]

Astral projects myself into a future that's better so I can have any motivation whatsoever to improve my life rather than continuing to girlrot in a sexy fashion ♥️

#the problem is i know exactly what to do to get somewhere objectively better and i am certain i'm capable of it #but. and i cannot emphasize this enough. every past success at living a normal life has FELT excruciating #i can do it it will simply feel like walking over hot coals the whole time #sometimes that's better than descending into the depression pit sometimes not. depends. how much debt am i in at the time #living in a society is a type of torture and i'm really going to be doing it the rest of my life. that has sunk in this year #but i have to be alive so i can do my hobbies and activities and read some books and talk about them with my friends and have a beverage #so i just have to live in a society #so that means i have to accomplish goals. but logic will only get you so far in that respect #i did finish the degree and etc but like. wouldn't it be sexier to lie here and maybe take a long bath #until someone tells me i have to stop or face legal consequences ♥️ #like don't get me wrong i'm trying to be concerned it's just not happening

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

i'm partway through piranesi and i did not expect piranesi to be such a fucking fantastically written autistic character holy shit

#piranesi #piranesi tag #THOUGHTS THOUGHTS THOUGHTS THOUGHTS THOUGHTS #going to finish the book before i go into them but like #this isn't even a headcanon thing as far as i am concerned #i don't know whether susanna clarke intended it by name or just knows very very very intimately and with love how autistic people tick #but she has written an objectively autistic character and done it so SO WELL #and the gaslighting narrative is just amazingly well done it is AMAZING #AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH #piranesi spoilers #piranesi (C)

[charliespringverse]

i don't make art for people to enjoy i make art for people to comment "i hope you're alright" under

#got this comment on a fic the other day and i haven't stopped thinking about it #like when i look at the work objectively it's like Yeah Okay I Seem A Bit Mentally Ill #but it's deeply funny to me that somebody thought to be concerned instead of just leaving kudos and carrying on #but also: yes sweet commenter i am Fine i'm back on my meds & have been mentally ill so long i'm just bored of it by now #jay screams into the void

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i spend so mad god damn time bitching on this website. its bc i dont talk to ppl. whens the last time i had a non functional conversation? #uuuuhhh last weekend or maybe the weekend before that? so like i gotta complain somewhere. so if i stop complaining u can assume i made #friends lmao. ugh. its just. im worried. im worried abt how this semester is gonna go. how this phd program is gonna go #bc i spent the last 2 years destroying myself. realized ive gotta stop doing that. haven't figured out how to stop and now im gonna triple #the amount of pressure im under while trying to do things in a more healthy way. its just like. it objectively doesnt seem like a formula #for good things to happen. im more worried for how catastrophic its gonna b on my brain than i am abt the things i think most ppl would b #concerned abt. like im not worried abt planning and executing a project or teaching beyond fear of the unknown #its like. ive done these things before. theyre difficult but u make due and tackle the problems. but when it comes to: how to maintain a #healthy school/life balance? i dont even kno where to start with that. i just dont bc when u have a learning disability things just take #more time but like how much time is too much? where does it end? i dont kno how to manage it and i dont wanna hate my project by the end #of this. i want to b excited and not paralyzed bc im afraid i cant change my behavior and its gonna kill me #and im worried bc im meeting with my advisor for the 1st time since march before i agreed to join thr lab and have i prepared for this #project which is almost complete unrelated to what i did in my last lab? no bc ive been managing data and im still not done managing data #bc i cant focus bc i collected that data in a way that was actively self destructive. and i mean i kno itll b fine. thr guy seems nice i #just hate that im showing up devoid of enthusiasm bc its all been drowned out by the fear. and thats also gonna make teaching a problem #bc its hard to b excited abt things when there's a hole in your chest and ur desperate for someone to tell u how to fix it. but idk helping #ppl does usually make me feel better so maybe itll b a good thing. forgot how much i feel like im dying when i sit in meetings and #classroom tho lol. god its been 2yrs since i was a student. classes feel like such bullshit now. and yet if i dont get all As i might die #my students better b good. i have the 1st lab section bc thr lead ta couldnt do that time. so im the trial lab and i start fucking Monday #who tf does labs the 1st week of class? ugh. also its an intro bio so like 2/3 of thr class r freshman. lil bby 18yos and some r non bio #majors. and ive been warned that sometimes there r problems with ppl who don't believe in evolution and cause problems. pls let my classes #b good. im not that worried. its just gonna b annoying as fuck. im not good at being authoritative #ugh. i should b reading papers so i dont look like too much of an idiot tomorrow. itll b fine im just an anxious freak. a lil over a week #until i can try to find a therapist. probably seek medication bc i dont kno how else to stop this bullshit. annoying. i grew up with a dad #who gets anxious abt the idea of taking too much medication when he tskes a single ibuprofen. in this household we feel pain and then we #die miserable. this is all his fault. we have the same brain.im just a lil more irradidic than him #its so funny i say that bc im like the least irradic person ever. i do the same things every god damn day. im just irradic in terms of #sometimes i feel like my brain is on fire and im a cry bby lol #whatever. enough bitching. ive got papers to read. or maybe ill just go to bed and read them tomorrow 🙄 #unrelated

[drewsaturday]

fun to realize the reason i get so insecure about other people doing ~my ideas~ first for fanworks is that all i am is ideas. yeah two cakes theory but point is if someone else does that particular thing first it will be better than mine, even if mine would have its own uniqueness to it, so all i can really walk away with is "i did it first" in the inevitable case of comparison. without that there's nothing jsl;dfljsdf.

and while you can't prevent that from happening in FANDOM of all places that is why i like to keep my ideas to myself when possible. if someone comes up with that same idea on their own fine, but if they get that idea from me running my mouth about my wips and they do their version first (which is like! still allowed even if there are levels of courtesy for how you go about it) i will be mad at myself for stripping myself of my own ability to then continue my own due to knowing my own issues and obstacles with it, because i still don't know how to play nice and it is on me to deal with that.

i say all this knowing fandom is supposed to be fun btw.

#txt #i think while i do worry about plagiarism accusations bc fandom is fucking crazy #i tend to also mask these concerns with that lmao #bc it feels less self centered and insecure to say 'i just dont want to be mobbed :(' than #basically sounding like a five year old whining that someone else brought the same toy to the park as them #but because i AM okay with it in the sense of people saying im where they got that idea from or connecting me to it in some way #(or obvs like... someone gifting me a work based on things ive talked about! also rad! or even just asking first etc!) #that's why talking so much about plagiarism also works lol #like just give me Something to have that ties me to it that lets me pretend i have good contributions to a particular space #ultimately it's my own bullshit to get over bc i feel like i need to justify my place in a fandom by filling a niche or contributing #Something unique if it can't be Good etc etc but that's also kind of dumb bc it's not that serious or at least it shouldnt be #i just cant rly contribute much in terms of community events or quality works etc but i do have good ideas! #and i am trying to let go of everything i just said even though i am still clinging to it by my nails #again i know fandom should be fun and i rly need to just do more with original works at this point but likeee.... #we r here . #also im not trying 2 fish for complimence just objectively #i value all the skills ive learned due to fandom inspiration #but bc i am split cross quite a few and i have certain health issues that #limit how much i can practice or learn etc #other ppl are inevitably going to be better than me in their area of focus! #and i want to be more okay with that

[hella1975]

hot sexy ladies covered in bugs in YOUR area

#just cut the grass. there’s a heatwave. it’s muggy. we have an acre of grass to cut. im sweating from concerning places #and genuinely believe I’ve discovered types of insects not yet known to science #the way bugs will flock to sweaty skin is so predatory actually. like am i just an object to you. what about my thoughts and feelings #hella goes home

[the-meme-monarch]

darkners have food and drink that they can consume BUT light world liquid would fuck them up severely. if it flooded darkners would very much die

#LANCER SOG…… #I’m thinking abt this bc ag #again i Hate it when people call scc or queen robots (/lh(but still)) bc they. just arent. they’re people as far as they’re concerned #THEY KNOW THEY ARE OBJECTS queen says she’s a computer and kk says he’s a cd player but they weren’t bu #they weren’t Built like that they just look humanoid bc that’s the form the fountain gave them. do i make sense #they drink milk and acid bc dark world food like darkners themselves Aren’t Real (susie says it feels like nothing she eats there matters ) #their forms Arent Real. they do not look like that For Real.in their own little universe thats just what they look like they were not built #they were built IN THE LIGHT WORLD bc they are electronics. they were manufactured. yknow. but in the dark world they were ‘born’ like that #no one cares and I Should Not Care but i am thinking about darkners logistics forever and always ok #IN THAT SAME VEIN OF SHIT THAT DO NOT MATTER THAT I CARE ABOUT SO MUCH. i don’t like the goopy rouxls interpretation. he’s made of paper #he’s a card there’s no reason for him to be goopy. #i know it’s bc how his mouth is drawn but still #that’s why i interpret it as a scratch on his card #he is two dimensional #anyway good morning #was this my first post today i don’t remember #deltarune #words from the monarch

[12freddofrogs]

Very weird to be in that stage where a show is grabbing hold of your brain, but you haven't finished the show so you cant interact with fandom because spoilers, and you're watching it with someone else so you can't even just keep watching until you finish

#i am enjoying watching it with a friend and tbh having an assigned 'we'll watch it now' time is prob my best chance of finishing #on my own steam i'll probably burn out in s4 or something as per usual #but like its - i figured it would be a fun little zombie supernatural detective type thing #i thought it would be fun but was not expecting to start brainstorming fanfic ideas #granted who knows in advance what shows are going to be blorbos #but like! the charismastic asshole villain has amnesia! everyone is aware he has amnesia and are just kinda like #'we kinda pity you but you still suck' #and when he's just like 'okay?? why??' they were more than happy to give him an overview of the past two seasons #so now he's just like 'oh. okay. i. guess i am a serial killer that i cant remember. how do i deal with that?' #and idk how its going to end but i have a half-drafted plot of him getting his memories back steadily and is just like #'you know i didnt feel bad about it while doing it #but if you want to get some persepctive on your life develop amnesia and look at it from purely objective standpoint.' #or other plots like the time the love interest got arrested abd was being very very concerned about potentially starting an apocalypse #he didnt want to! he desperately didnt want to! but it was a risk #but yeah if i open a fanfic it'll probably say 'oh so how X died in the series finale' or something #and then i'll just have to accept X is dead

[mumpsetc]

have you considered that t*ylor is a terrible, manipulative person who shouldnt have his words trusted at facevalue?.. doesn't mean he was gonna stay on. and also that the ii team has an anniversary coming up in two days. ofcourse there was gonna be celebration items. they didnt design AND produce it all the day after t*ylor made the statement in his unapologetic video [not trying to sound aggressive towards you, i just heard abt a lot of people hurt by him]

I Don't Want to Dismiss Your Feelings Outright, But There is Value in Critically Analyzing His Statement Instead of Completely Ignoring It. I Am Not Defending Taylor Nor Do I Agree With a Good 70% of That Video But Also If We Are Going Off of Second Hand Recounting I've Heard Plenty of Less Than Favorable Things About the Key Three Myself. Also I'm Not Doubting the Plushes and Merch Were Coming On the Anniversary, Paintbrush's Was Teased a While Ago, I'm Saying Them Leaking Early is Awful Convenient Considering Everything. I'm Not Defending Taylor in Any Sense of the Word But I Am Urging a More Critical Eye Towards the Business Practices of AE Because It Is a Business at the End of the Day, and They Will Not Be Made or Broken Upon the Posts of One Embittered Tumblr User. This Isn't Meant to Be Rude But I'd Urge You to Atleast Think About Why You Defend Them.

#Also You Dont Have to Censor His Name This is Not Twitter #And I Am Going to State Very Plainly In the Tags So This is Not Taken Out Of Context #I Do Not Support Taylor Not Do I Support AE #AE Is a Business and Should Be Held Accountable for Promises Made and Actions Taken #Do Not Go Around Screenshotting This and Claiming I Am Pro Taylor. That is a Misunderstanding of My Posts and Sentiments #Thank You for Being Concerned Enough to Send But AE Doesnt Need Your Help Because They Aren't Your Friend Because They Are a Business #And They Have a Brand to Protect #Sorry Again if I Sound Rude or Anything Here It Is Not My Intention I Am Just Talking Very Bluntly #Oh My God I Meant Nor Do I Whatever #Objective Criticism #I Guess It Goes in That Tag Uhhh

[mean-scarlet-deceiver]

I'm not here to tell you your business, but I think that your instinct that the Truro story needs delicate handling is a good one, and I would encourage you to think about it a bit more before deciding if that's where you want to go with it. I think you want Duck to confront his feelings about diesels, and that's a story worth telling. I'm just not sure Truro is the best vector. I get the sense that you're unsure about the idea and need someone to tell you "you can do better". You can do better!

Mmm, I appreciate the well-intentioned action. But I was not all that specific either about my idea or why I'm hesitating. And therefore I don't know what you mean by "do better."

Right now I only wishing that I had not aired the idea in public so long before I can bring it to completion and polish coz—yeah. The different forms prejudice and complicity can take, and the difficulty in confronting prejudice that's not directed at you in a way that doesn't make it about you... that all makes for a heavy, complicated theme.

That heavy, complicated stuff is exactly the sort of thing storytelling is good for, though.

So, while putting it down is going to be a struggle, and although at some point I'll probably bring on some betas specifically to try their hand at sensitivity and anti-bias reading, I'm not inclined to nix an idea that has so much potential (both in-universe and thematically) just because it's difficult.

#it will also have appropriate tags on it if i get it down in fic form #which maybe i'm gonna need now and in any further mentions of the project blogside #prejudice cw #racism tw #i was *also* hesitant because i'm not eager to spark weird discourse about whether it's Morally Wrong to... characterize real-life vehicles #with serious flaws #but honestly that's been done already #and i am much less concerned about defaming an inanimate object to a couple hundred readers #than i am about getting the finer points of prejudice and anti-prejudice down properly #so yeah i've already put that concern to rest the fictional character can act like many a human does #if i were to demonize CoT as a caricature villain just for drama that's one thing but i want to explore a conflict that i think resonates #with anyone who has been disillusioned by a hero figure irl

[pepprs]

meant to post abt this yesterday and ik it’s kinda mean but i think the counselor i have rn is the worst one ive ever had possibly even worse than (or tied w) the one i had over the summer who kept ending our sessions well before the full hour was up when i was going thru a horrible time and kept spending the sessions mostly talking abt herself and her own problems. actually no now that i write that out she was probably the worst (though she was one of the warmest / nicest and our personalities meshedreally well so i feel bad saying that she was the worst). but the one i have now is so…. lke idk. my experience w the worst counselor made me rly want to work w a clinical intern again bc i wanted someone who would like. actuallytake things seriously and give me the time i was paying for and spend all of it talki ng abt the things i was paying to talk abt and draw from the most recent / cutting edge info instead of entirely personal experience (WHICH AGAIN I FEEL SO BAD ABT BECAUSE. my work is all abt healing each other by sharing things like that and i realt did like her but it just wasn’t appropriate i guess bc it was a counseling relationship!) but my current counselor is so… rigid and restrictive. like i think he is trying too hard to apply what he’s being taught and he seems like nervous and talking out of his ass and he masks that by taking up SO much space and spending like 3 minutes responding to every one minute i talk and literally like strongarmimg the convos and deciding what we’re going to talk about and moving us on to a new topic abruptly before i feel ready to move on and like taking time out of our sessions to do paperwork / admin stuff so he doesn’t forget later (and a lot of the time i think he’s doing it while im talking bc i see his eyes moving around his screen and the light on his face like he’s not even listening to me). and it fucking sucks. i want to crack him like an egg so bad and make him realize it doesn’t have to be this way but i know that’s not my responsibility and in our session last night i basically gave up trying to create enough space for myself and just let him steer things bc i was having side effects and it was just rly unsatisfying

#purrs #i know it is entirely within my right to address these things both for my sake and for his / his future clients but im so scared lol like i #don’t want to tell him he’s doing a bad job and making it hard for me to navigate but literally when you keep steamrolling and silencing me #and cutting me off and forcing me around… yeah. also he has to record our sessions and show them to his profs / supervisors and it’s so like #idk. ive been recorded in sessions before and im totally fine w it but there’s 2 things abt this specific instance of it thst distress and #annoy me. 1) when we sign on to our session he says like 2 things to me then starts the recording and is TOTALLY fake and forcing it like #hello tess welcome to our session and he’ll repeat some of the stuff he said but in a more like.. extensive way so it just feels rly fake #to me lol. WHICH ALSO REMINDS ME 1.5) not related to the recording but every time he asks me questions he asks like… 3 questions but doesn’t #give me space to answer the two like it’s just a bridge for him as he&/ working his way to the thing he actually wants to ask me and i #fucking hate when ppl ask me questions and then answer them themselves or like don’t want to hear the answer. i had 2 profs like that in #brighton and it fucking pissed me offff so being around someone who does that again is rly agitating ik it’s just a nervous habit but yeah. #and 2) i am kinda concerned that none of my counselors profs or supervisors have seemed to call him on how he doesn’t give me space or let #me guide the convo. like idk maybe it’s just that all of my counselors before him were too loose w me but i feel like it s not supposed to f #feel this rigid and i am kinda scared abt the implications of no one actually watching these recordings and see how i try to speak but he #almost always talks over me and i just give up. lol. i like him he’s a nice person i just think he’s nervous and trying too hard and it #would be passable for like.. the little kid clients who usually go there but it doesn’t feel good for me a 23 year old who has had like what #6 counselors before him all of whom gave me space and didn’t shove me around. i miss the counselors i had from oct 2020 - jul 2021 and sept #2021 - feb 2022 they were the best ever and i am inches away from terminating here and just trying to go to wherever they are full time now #and working w them again bc they rly got me and i didn’t know how good i had it lol. i guess i don’t need someone as good anymore bc things #in my life are objectively better than they were during those times but my mental health is still bad so i would uhhh… like someone good #and don’t think that’s too much to ask and need to get it into my head that i CAN ask it. ok rant over #*no one actually watching the recordings has seen / pointed out to him how he steamrolls me etc etc

[tysonfurybattlepass]

man is it me or is the main objective of deltarune just like. fantasy imperialism

#king spade kind of had a poin- *i am pelted with increasingly damgerous objects thrown by the howling audience* #the entirety of the dark world adventures are just us walking in and going #‘hey i know you guys like live here and have your own society and stuff and arent really bothering anyone’ #‘but some old ass fairytale told me i need to seize your land and forcibly relocate you so everyone better fucking play nice❤️’ #like remember. ralsei is the one telling us what we have to do #and we know for a fact that he is not at all concerned with the wants or needs of darkners #including his own #so uh #maybe we should think about his inherent bias when he tells us that closing the fountains is what we have to do #toby fox is too smart to write this kind of concerning subtext accidentally. there is something off about our goal in the narrative #deltarune #jordan talks

[opheliaoversteers]

beginning of the semester i told my roommate about all our issues w the washer from the past few years, including replacing the inside bc of mold. i tell her i just want her to leave the washer open when not in use so it doesn't mold. she does that. but she also uses the washer once a day every day when she's here (which isn't often) and leaves soaking wet clothing in it for up to 12 hours each time. i didn't think i'd need to specify that that's fucking worse

#ophies thots #y'all i'm so tired of this girl #her laundry has been molding for the past 7 hours and i just balled it up and tossed it on top of the machine #bc i need to do ONE load of laundry and i am HERE #i don't know where she is but oh my god i cannot understand this #also she's been w her bf for a few months and she told me she went to her pastor really concerned they #won't be together or remember one another in heaven and wanted to know whether they'll remember their lives #in heaven. i was like girl what. she was like you aren't christian #you wouldn't get it #nah girl that's objectively Insane. you've been together like three months #also she thinks her bf is considered a virgin again bc he “found god” after being an alabama frat boy

[sexybabystevie]

how you know things are bad - i deeply miss dean winchester

#this is your warning these tags are personal and highly bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #em speaks #spn #no but like he GETS it. he's literally objectively the most fucked up guy ever and he GETS it #he has no self worth and does everything for everyone else and cares way too much about things to the point that he makes poor choices #and he's lonely and he would do anything for the ones he loves and all he wants is peace!! #he's angry and he's passively suicidal - like its the only and most obvious answer to anything - and he had to do terrible things just to #take care of sam when he was only a child!!!!! #god. just god #sorry to everyone here these are the unfortunate reasons why i relate to this man #just a big tbh i attached onto him so quickly because he made very concerning suicidal remarks in s4 and i nearly sobbed because i didnt #know it was capable for me to feel seen by someone who didnt even exist but at least it was someone??? #im pathetic i know #and im rambling i know #but i watched that scene and i got it. and i was in the most shitty mental place ever (which i am. again) and ofc thats why i wanna rewatch #so maybe i pathetically feel a little less alone #:") #anyway this was way too personal and if i can remember then im deleting this later. im sorry if you had to see this #tw mentally ill #tw suicide #tw vent