#I am but a puddle of emotions

[botanicallyinclinednerd]

Screaming and crying over Pete telling Steph to let him die to save her and the world, and then the next words, the opening lyrics to Cooler Than I Think I Am Reprise, are "You can call this luck, that's my perspective."

Pete considers it lucky that he is the thing Steph cherishes most. Because that means he can choose to die. He can save her, make sure she lives. Make the decision so she doesn't have to.

If it were anyone else, if she cherished someone more than Pete, then it probably would have been her singing the song to convince him to give her up. And he wouldn't have been able to argue back very strongly, cause what is he going to do? Tell her to murder this presumably innocent person that has nothing to do with any of this?

No, from Pete's perspective, being the thing Steph cherishes most is the luckiest thing in the world right now, not because he doesn't lose, but because Steph gets to live, and that's enough of a win to make his impending death worth it and a turn of luck.

#i am laying in a puddle of my own tears #lautski #pete spankoffski #peter spankoffski #steph lauter #stephanie lauter #npmd spoilers #npmd #nerdy prudes must die #nerdy prudes spoilers #im so emotional about this song

[timothylawrence]

I think I missed you.

I think I missed you too.

#borderlands #borderlandsedit #rhys strongfork #sasha the kid sister #rhysha #rhys the company man #tftbl #tales from the borderlands #gamingnetwork #gamingedit #dailyvideogames #dailygaming #vgedit #hey guys . i have to go lie down now . this made me very emotional . #There's a theory that says you don't exist unless someone calls and you respond -> dissolves into a puddle #ewbiegifs #I HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE THISSSSSSSS!!!! i am shy augh

[intoapuddle]

btw the fact that they didn't react strongly to the toenail biter just tells me this is something one or both of them does and i need to just write this down to get it out of my head or else it will haunt me forever and i will die "so he's flexible" yes a lot of people CAN do it but they WILL NOT why was toe socks worse than this I'M APPALLED

#puddle talks #sorry i am havign waves and waves of emotions about this

[alsopartgekkos]

What he lookin at [aka I join how to you draw Sebastian consistently???? club]

#hogwarts legacy #sebastian sallow #gekko draws #i have a whole bunch of unfinished stuff and at this point idk where to start even #also using my tags where I should not but thnx again for all the raffle reboots and kind words #I SEE EM ALL AND AM A PUDDLE OF EMOTIONS

[nodirectionhome-ao3]

Okay so editing now and I think A Tide in the Affairs Chapter 2 is the angstiest thing I've ever written in my life. I'M SO SORRY IN ADVANCE GUYS.

I promise the fic won't be entirely like this😅

#a tide in the affairs #james lives au #chapter 2 #i am literally a puddle of emotions on my friend's couch right now

[loverboybrightsideghost]

la cage aux folles musical. that is all.

#WHERE HAS IT BEEN MY EJTIRE LIFE #i need to find a slime tutorial ASAP #listened to both the 1983 and the 2010 albums and i can't tell which one i prefer #i do like that the 2010 one also had more tracks so i had a better idea of the characters and their interactions when they're not singing #and maybe that's why that one made me more emotional #but regardless. fucking awesome i need to watch it NOW #genuinely song on the sand look over there with you on my arm making me almost cry #ESPECIALLY the 2010 version bc of the aforementioned more tracks/talking in the songs #so it's just like oh. oh oh oh. gay love is real and beautiful and possible and is everything. i see. no im fine just gimme a moment. #also kelsey grammar sounding hopelessly in love just made me go and turn into a sentimental puddle of slush #oh and of COURSE i am what i am. like fucking hello. god. #bluebird.txt #la cage aux folles #the musical OF ALL TIME!!!! #the best of times is now bitch. so love and love as hard as you know how 💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼

[lavampira]

I knew involving myste in this sidalia fic because of the timeframe & setting was going to be an emotional gut punch but I am well and truly spiraling over alia trying to console the inner childlike grief that she hasn’t pieced together is of her own making and the fact sid is helping and protecting it solely because alia wants to help said child and maybe a little that he was a traumatized child who grew up into a protector of traumatized children

#it’s not a novelization of the quests but touches on inbetween moments in flashbacks of alia’s feelings & sidalia getting together #and i am so beyond gone. an emotional puddle. boy howdy if i can finish it before i travel next weekend y’all will see soon #do not question where my brain is at rn just follow my adhd train of thoughts boy ! #dani.txt #oc: d'alia liveq #alia/sid #drk spoilers

[alphawolfstabs]

I was watching tv with my mom and I took a very short 20minutes nap and I’m so exhausted

I’ve been up since like.. I think roughly 2pm YESTERDAY with a small three hr nap in between, now including the 20 minute nap

Let’s see if I can actually lay down rn and sleep bc I’m so UGGGHHHHHH

#I feel like I’m walking through mud #yk?? #like #that’s how tired I am #I’m just slugging around #I wish I was like.. able to sleep like a normal person #not to mention the strange stress I’m under?? #RAGH. #what do you do when someone put a lot of stress on you? #I dunno #what do I do? #well I suck it up bc emotions are complicated #if I can’t sleep #guess what? #I’m gonna exist in the floor in a puddle

[inundatae]

I do think a lot about how a creature that's 500 years old can remain so stagnant for centuries. That it takes until now for Neuvillette to start... slowly developing some personal growth. Not quite there, but taking those small steps towards something.

Simply to me, five hundred years is a very, very long time for someone to remain the same. But it's hard for me to grasp the idea that for an immortal being that their concept of time is different. Perhaps five hundred years passes in a blink of an eye to him. And Neuvillette is very much a creature of habit. If he refuses to allow himself to form personal attachment, rarely travels beyond his home and his work, then where would the opportunities be for him to change?

And honestly, it's so interesting to think of the brief glimpses of Neuvillette in the flashbacks, who is a lot more... open with his emotions. And it's seemingly the one and only time he's openly called someone a friend. Losing Carole, having to sit there and preside over Vautrin's hearing and then personally having to send him to prison, having the last words he hears of the person closest to him be full of hate. He's been paralyzed for so long and had no one. And to think of all the other acquaintances that he might have been friendly with too, his staff and such who slowly over time began to disappear from his life due to natural consequences. No wonder the only people he keeps close ties with are fellow immortal beings as well.

#❛ㅤ⚜ㅤㅤㅤ✦ㅤ:ㅤwords surge and releaseㅤㅤ◟ㅤstudyㅤ◝ #the ramblings of someone who's watched THAT cutscene one too many times #and is just... fighting off this god damn viral plague that's got me by the throat #but i am so honestly fascinated by the neuvillette of four hundred years ago #and his first experiences of living with humanity #and all the loss he had go through during those early years #if each trial he's presided over has left it's mark on him #god damn what were those early years like for him #god damn i get so emotional thinking of neuvillette carrying that guilt that ate away at him for four hundred years #when he had to send his closest friend to meropide #and then he looks at traveler and paimon and wriothesley and sigewinne #and see all those echoes of the past #lies in a puddle of my own tears

[sleepykittties]

Ss taticmoth

#I am drowning in a puddle of emotion #I love them so much #So many undefinable shrimp feelings #I am so soft for them #Helphekphkelhlep #I am not okay #Free me from work #I need staticmoth #Please #Squishy speaks

[toastsnaffler]

thinking abt the touden siblings got me sniffling and weeping....

#im.too emotional abt them to properly explain #just rly glad to see autistic characters in media that i can deeply relate to and share experiences with. its such a rare thing #and i feel so protective of them i dont give a fuck abt fandom normally but some ppls bad takes lately are getting under my skin #like just say u hate autistic people and leave. stop calling laios a fucking freak im going to kill you with my bare hands #ppl think theyre so smart and funny for making posts like haha hes thr type of autistic that makes everyone uncomfortable and wish he- #would shut up or go away. im going to start hitting u with a brick until ur a bloody pulp #and thw way ppl treat falin so differently just bc shes not a guy. even tho theyre both clearly autistic and struggle socially #like wow thats crazy. do you act this way abt autistic ppl irl too #whatever just liberally blocking ppl abt it i dont fucking wanna see ur stupid posts #anyway.. back to thjnking abt their backstories and crying a little. masculinely of course #man i am soooo tired im so glad its the weekend i want to melt into a puddle and soak into the carpet and stain it forever #but we dont.have carpet.in this flat so.i guess ill just go to bed...... #well maybe a little elden ring first #i would reallt like to draw sometime this weekend too. need to muster up some creative courage #but thats a problem for tomorrow... zzz #.diaries

[ferahntics]

Finished Inki’s reference sheet!

She’s Drawcia’s species, and is a witch blob with a golden heart. Very shy, very modest but a hard worker and always tries her best.

I couldn’t decide to give her the shoal or not, ended up giving it a ‘sometimes she wears it’ xD

#so many inki brainworms lately alongside quiver pls bare with me #i am going nuts jksdhg #also fun fact: strong emotions can also trigger her abilities on accident #so like if she gets super flustered - which is super easy to do - there's a chance she becomes a puddle #purely out of shyness and flattery #inki #mine #my art #reference sheet #kirby #kirby oc #fan character #also i found files of wrestling with color palettes for both inki and quiver jkhsdg #but i already showed so many :'DD #goes to show im an overthinker

[seishun-emergency]

Also guys i fuckign missed my one year of playing enstars because i'm a fucking idiot . so. happy late one years to me (jun 21!!!) AND happy 1 year to the day i binged the entire anime in the span of like. one night an dthen two hours the next day (jun 26/27) this is what started me on what is now a year long and counting spiral . i would get emotionally but its 10 am im not awake enough to have emotions yet

#leo composes #I'M. MOSTLY JOKING ABT THAT LAST PART ir eally am soooo grateful for all the friends and mutuals ive made here.... #the enstars server shan made.... #rae and puddle and reze and khio and everyone i talk to o rmet thru tumblr #running the bigbang has been SO exciting i love. being part of a community and helping that community flourish #enstars has been such a bright spot in what has otherwise been a REALLY hellish year #corny 2 say. or whatever. but its true #not saying enstars saved my life bc it did not. but it did give me a lot to look forward to #a lot of fun things to create! people to meet! #helped me bond more with my qpp since i got them into the game before we started dating LOL #anyways. emotions over i just care a lot abt this idol boy rhythm game and theppl ive met thru it :3

[khaleesiofalicante]

Everyone calls it “rest” but no one really knows, do they?

#I am a puddle of emotions yo #sobh #secrets of blackthorn hall

[mike-el]

IT WASNT TIME THAT DID IT

#idk how to go on #I am an emotional puddle #the last of us #tlou spoilers #the last of us spoilers #I share a thought

[a-tiny-jigumi]

I don't care if it's a "filler" episode?? I think it was a great episode and it is going to lead into the plot. tbh I kind of have a theory about how things are going to work out. But, just kind of annoyed at all these "it's a filler episode so it's not as good".

#Kinnporsche #Kinnporsche the series #ep 8 #their domesticity was so good #and their acting and the directing were amazing as usual #like where else are you going to find two grown ass mafia men calling each other cute?? #And the way Porsche expresses his emotions specifically towards being in love with Kinn #ugh I am a puddle