#I am disappointed every time

[uncanny-tranny]

To any disabled person undergoing tests to find What's Wrong: I hope your results come back the way you hope and that you receive the help you need. I hope you are not denied care, I hope you are taken seriously even after this, and I hope that you will be taken care of compassionately

#disability #currently going through something like this for myself and while i doubt there's anything 'wrong' i still did it #people are always weird about people who are disappointed or devastated about 'normal results' but... #...it's because normal results don't mean much when you still have the issue at hand... #...if my test came back that my back is physically normal that doesn't indicate that i don't have back pain does it? #because i am still in pain so often even if i have a 'physically normal' back... #...just as an example but i don't think a lot of abled people 'get it' #also like... if your tests are coming back 'normal' every time that might give your care providers pause... #...and they might just start infantilizing you or treating you like a hypochondriac... #...'are you SURE [problem] isn't just anxiety?' 'are you SURE you're actually experiencing [x] or are you exaggerating it?'

[everysongineverykey]

very pleased to report that i tried literally counting sheep last night and got my first full night's sleep in like a week in a long period of sleepless nights!!

#not sure if i should say 'this works guys!' because while it worked for me #i'm not sure if it'll work for everyone #but yeah! focusing on counting sheep gave my mind one thought to focus on #so it could drown all the others out! much more effective than just trying to 'think of nothing' which i CANNOT do #and as i got further i began spacing out the counting. i listened to my heartbeat #and after like ten beats i'd count the next sheep #and in between the counting i found my mind drifting sort of aimlessly #vague noise i wasn't fully consciously thinking of #which i think is generally a good sign for me. cause i'm losing control of my thought processes and slipping into dreaming #but every time i'd count another sheep it was fascinating. #'one hundred and sixty sheep' and just like that the background noise was all gone. and my mind was quiet again. wow. #anyway i had a full dream for the first time in a while. my cousin was there. i missed school by accident and was disappointed. #love you all💙 sweet dreams and restful nights on planet earth even though it's ten am for me

[dear-ao3]

tomorrow is my last day interning in nyc and i am incredibly sad about this but this does mean tomorrow night i get to photo dump on here cause i don’t have to worry about revealing my location anymore

#as someone who has always been in love with nyc it did not disappoint whatsoever #to date it’s been the best three months of my life even if i did have to wake up at 5:30 am every day for it #and i will miss all my little friends #i say little i’m the youngest one there #and YES i will see everyone next month when i have to come up to test and i’ll be bringing them all pierogis but hhh #i want to stay hereeeee #but alas #i have a two year job in a different state #:/ #upsetting to the max #this is the most information i’ve shared about myself in a long time on here oops #not a tag #from saph

[ilostmymojo]

Hello, Pikmin community, please accept my humble offering.

#my art #pikmin 3 #alph pikmin #charlie pikmin #i only feel brave enough to post this bc it's a shitty redraw of a meme with a simple artstyle #im obsessed with the little blue dude #every time he cuts off charlie's flirting with brittany to insert himself fills me with glee #alph is gay #i played the first three games for the first time in the span of a month #i am sick in the head #dont follow me expecting more art youll be disappointed #update: thanks for all the notes #everyone who liked this is smart and hot

[voltrohgodwhat]

Context:

#NO #mom no #ily but NO #oh no #this was not the first or last time I was grilled about what I am writing and I have to come up with something different every time #“Oh you know. Stuff.” #a tragedy #a literal tragedy #horror you wouldn't like it #it's not finished #a space opera???? #disappointing my family goals #I cannot explain to her that my current life purpose is just inflicting sadness and pain but for just one dude who isn't even mine #she would be sad #vld #voltron #voltron legendary defender #writing #although the coffee table book would indeed be mine

[yea-verity]

wheel of time when will my gawyn casting news return from the war

#every day I check the tumblr tag (most reliable wot news source) and everyday I am disappointed #just one leak #wheel of time #wot on prime

[camellcat]

gwen cooper. gweeeenn cooper. idk who the hell she is or anything about her but I can't stop rotating her around in my brain like a little creature that needs to be examined. I love u freak girl <3

#I can't wait finish dw so I can wake up at 4am every morning and watch 2 eps of torchwood bc that's how I enjoy starting off my days #I want it to fuck me up like dw does but a little differently #I want it to hit 6am and be going through The Horrors as I take my shower and get ready for the day #I seriously don't know shit about this show but I have heard it will emotionally wreck me and I am expecting that #I will be disappointed if it doesn't #and then I'll also be be losing my mind the whole time bc I'll finally get to see gweennnnnnn #I've started recognizing her face in different shows dsjndj #I'll see her and go “GWEN COOPER?!” and hoot and holler even tho I don't know nothin #ferdie this is ur fault I want you to know that #gwen cooper #torchwood

[hollowflight-propaganda]

I think it's time I change my bio to say it's been 11 years since I started to watch Ninjago.....

Gosh. Where's my senior discount on the lego sets, huh?

#I actually don't remember exactly when I picked up ninjago. I just know that it was april or may cause it was nearing the end of- #the school year #anyway this show feels like it's my best friend in all honesty. it's been with me for so long and at my loneliest #and to think that I've grown up alongside it. it's so weird #I have such a clear memory of like when just about anything happened for this show #s3 finale? I was sick but I still tuned into watch and CRIED #s5? I watched nearly every episode when it aired on cartoon network in my parents room cause my dad was using our other tv at that time #s8? watched it weekly in my grandparents basement and It Was A Ride #s11 finale? got to the episode at like. 6 am before I had to go to school and felt utterly disappointed there was no kai and zane fight #seabound? watched it weekly that one spring and IT WAS ALSO A RIDE #and that's not even touching the hours upon hours of fan works I've looked at #just. it's been such a long time. over a decade of my life that I've been attached to this show. and at the same time it feels like no- #time has passed at all #I actually first watched the show cause some classmates were talking about it and I wanted to be friends with someone so bad so I started- #to watch it and I Very Quickly surpassed their love of it #what a ride huh? now we're at a point where I can look this show and say it's genuinely good (THANK YOU DRAGONS RISING!!!!!!!!!!) #ok I'm done reminiscing. time to think about the newest scenarios in which to make kai suffer >:) #ninjago #phoenix prattles

[cutiequisitor]

#SIGHS LOUDLY #IM STILL UPSET AT MYSELF FOR CONCEIVING THIS AND TAKING THE TIME TO MAKE IT #every time i see this thing that i made i am filled with a disappointment beyond that of any asian parent #anyway im sorry for this but now you have to suffer by looking at this too #project wingman #crimson 1

[keeps-ache]

there are a couple changes i would make to the keyboard if i could:

wiggly exclamation mark

bleeding heart emoji

varying snake emojis (more poses would be fun)

question mark with a little heart for the dot bc, well,

more explosions

and that is all thank you

#just me hi #i need these a lot #wiggly bc it makes a lot of sense #i am saying something but with a sort of ~~~~~~ to it!! #/bleeding heart because the other night (it musta been about 3 a.m.) i was looking for an emoji to really get my point across and i sadly #realized that i had imagined the existence of it. the disappointment was immense <//3 hfhs #/SNAKES. need i say more? :> #do i know a lot about them? not yet. am i scared of them? yes. but i love them a lot thanky #/i am asking a question but it's with love #<3 #/explosion emoji my beloved #we NEED to diversify hfhsvb #a mushroom cloud would be cool :3 or one that clearly has shrapnel in it #or one with a little heart that's like the exploding head emoji. because it's like that #i'm mentioning hearts a lot bc the heart is willing but the brain is. trying #//anyway in the other newsings i'm remaking those pi.e refs again lmao 👍 #ik they're only so many months old but man i changed some of the designs a bit during those months hfhs #funny how i made refs because i thought 'oh i haven't changed their designs in forever - it's not like it'll happen anytime soon yea?' #and then.......... #oath's design has changed the most minimally during these - how many ? two‚ three-ish years - so i thought Ahh nothin'll happen #but Then-- #aura has morphed So many times - she was at least 3 different people before i actually Got her so hfvhs <3 #kinda knew that would happen. but she's actually changed the least so Lollll #hid's usual look has not changed at All - only his actual form‚ which i tweak every second day or something #and i've neglected kira so badly fvfsh - so now i've added and removed and swapped things for her in worldrecord time ! i think i've got he #in a way i like though so :D #but bc of all these changes now i gotta make new refs bc they are Inaccurate #not a big deal. but oh it IS #wonder how long it'll take me this time lol :) only one way to know ehegh #//anywho ciao ! i've got the things and stuffs to be doing.. ooo toodles :33

[thebirdandhersong]

It is some consolation that one day this will not make me bristle

#i am aware that im v tired and sleep deprived and about to be on my period so take everything i say with a grain of salt #also i hate being awake at 1am and i have a bajillion things i need to do that i havent started yet #and im planning 2 birthday things tomorrow #and i have 5 birthday dorm cards to write for tomorrow which is going to take foreber #forever #and hours of class to slog through #and i just want to curl up in a ball and weep!!!! #dont dangle the confounded treat in front of my eyes and then stomp it into crumbs while i watch! #dont make me think im loved and then Do This! #i am so tired! even though i know theres so much to be thankful for! #i am planning two birthday parties because i love you guys #but when MY birthday rolls around i am locking myself in my room i am leaving this place i am not going to tell anyone #i am Not going to sit around like a little girl with such sickeningly high hopes #and watch them be crushed AGAIN! #I will go OUT and not come back to the dorm until evening because i cannot STAND to be disappointed again #just like every other time! THIS MAKES ME SICK #my heart is so tired :) esp after the boy thing

[thresholdbb]

Thank you all for letting me go absolutely warp-10 buck wild today

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#personal note #every day is threshold day #threshold day #star trek voyager #it was fun I had fun I hope you did too #also there are new people here #lol hi #I am like this all the time but to less of a degree #you will likely be disappointed but I won't argue with you unless you have terrible logic so welcome #I am the most into voy but I've seen most of the rest of it a lil stuck in 90s trek def lost in the delta quadrant though #my personal is @suboficialflores I am less wild over there #also I tend to ramble in the tags sorry #melts into oblivion #and threshold day comes to a close in my time zone I CRY #see I do keep it reigned in I could be like this all the time but... restraint #I still managed to work a half day too

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[felizusnavidad]

nina rosario is the most relatable character ever bye

#i am literally losing my shit every time i listen to any of her songs #breathe? #hey guys its me the biggest disappointment you know??? #also when you're home? #i swear to god i cry like a baby everytime im listening to this song #ugh #why am i even doing this to myself on a sunday afternoon #also mr miranda stop writing songs that make me cry pls #this man ruined my life i swear #hshshdhdh #in the heights #but sincerely can you hear me?*

[xdeewolfx]

vrchat doodle dump

#am i really about to tag every single fandom any of these avatars belong to? sure. #rhys strongfork #a duck #iron spider #banana guy #i think thats someones oc. they were super fuckin cool ngl. dragon bull lady beloved #fl4k the beastmaster #handsome jack #helldivers 2 guy #dr coomer #lethal company masked #jason voorhees #vrchat #posted these on twitter and i remembered partly why i stopped posting art to twitter. engagement there is disappointing. #xdeewolfxart #my art #shameless tags time #artists on tumblr #doodles #doodle dump

[lemonsweet]

Stop giving every character sharp teeth or tentacles for no reason find a new thing

#i shouldn't venture into tags but i have a curious mind and i am upset and disappointed every time

[crossbackpoke-check]

Why I Am Not Coming In To Work Today [abridged], Jess Zimmerman

part one | part two

#toronto maple leafs #HELLO EVERYBODY THIS HAS BEEN MONTHS!!! MONTHS IN THE MAKING BECAUSE i AM UNHINGED AND NEEDED THE PRECISE PICTURES THAT I KNEW I WOULD GET #like. seventy five percent of this has been done since the first time i posted this and while it has gotten better with time because #my narratives simply got more complex and there's so much of this that is For Me but don't worry i will explain but aLSO goddamn mitch coul #you have gotten married any later in the year. also willy you truly disappointed me by not getting an absurd haircut this year (now that #i've said this he's going to debut it on instagram like. tomorrow. but anyway that meant y'all got to enjoy my neuroses of #Loving Tyler Bertuzzi who is a goddamn leaf. the joys of having to wait to post this (was not a leaf at the time i started it) and anyway i #have at length i think had the breakdown about tyler in pigtails girl dad & how i got a bob & then tyler copied me which was rude. that's m #gender. ANYWAY starting from the top we got sheldon keefe documentation which was really just the personal decision that i wanted all the #coaching staff to be the markers in the poem/the bold & also at the TIME keefe hadn't re-signed &we thought it might be everybody out w/kyl #anyway the title of the scrap of an old lover's flannel is literally 'u think this is about sheldon & kyle NO it's about timothy liljegren' #bc. liljegren was on the marlies winning cup team & has had a contentious relationship w/keefe ever since & was healthy scratched in playof #& the narrative is sooooo. also at one point for the ryan o'reilly i was going to edit the stlb out of his grandma's shirt or cover it w/th #childhood dreams line but THEN i found the gio snapped stick one which was too perfect for 'crumbling copy' the ryan o'reilly To Me is so. #ur insane in ways u did not think for that one. like. how soft her hands were. his grandma you guys. he grew up a leafs fan. if he ever get #to lift the cup with her again i will lose my shit. the cup run a movie i remember nothing--OKAY the spezz one i knew i needed him stresse #but also i believe in the spezz/kyle narrative so. it comes up later don't worry ALSO SPEZZ FOLLOWING HIM TO PITT CAME AFTER I MADE THIS bu #the muzz tea one makes me a little sensy bc muzz was out with an injury for most of this season & it was a really scary spinal one & so yea #& then the simmer one just straight up makes me cry bc i love him so much & the work that he does for anti-racism in hockey means so much & #if you have that video open & watch it i promise you will cry i do every time it's so beautiful he had to be on comforted by beauty & sammy #boy is on the a man who doesn't know me because EYE remember the caps goalie tandems. baby lilya. the mo one is a little funny bc it is #solely due to wade's thread about mo rielly the coal miner homestead husband. that's why he moves to omaha also i think it suits him (quiet #OK NOW OLD MEN IN LOVE NARRATIVE this one's in contention for my fave bc it's spezz coping w/retirement fundamental meaningless of existenc #u heard abt tyler already that's for me the minchy picture was just too good i had found it earlier & i spent SO LONG looking for an empty #leafs rink picture for bathtub i have some cool construction photos but i wanted the melting ice ones (thought about tahoe lol) & the sprin #one i manip'd a lot bc i needed a spring picture bc playoffs clinch in spring & that one fit so coincidentally perfect bc it's 7 straight #seasons 7 guys so. :) & i KNEW i swore to god they did more milk advertising i knew i was gonna do this one from the minute i saw the poem #the milk patch & it took a hot minute BUT I FOUND THIS ONE this one's for funsies. AND THE PIC I WAITED SO FUCKING LONG FOR this is actuall #from kerf's wedding but i was like i know on god mitch is getting married this summer & that's about to be the drunkest shenanigans wedding #i'm waiting for the pics. & then i was BLESSED with this one which is beautiful & perfect & LOOK AT THEM. anyway the last one is bc