#I am eating SO MUCH glass

[dicklessthewonderclown]

so you’re telling me that we could have had destiel in the winchesters and jensen as batman in gotham knights if the cw hadn’t done such a godawful job at scheduling???

#i am eating so much glass #i am going insane #please god #supernatural #gotham knights #the winchesters #destiel #jensen ackles #misha collins

[yangjeongin]

HYUNJIN ESQUIRE INTERVIEW

#hwang hyunjin #hyunjin #stray kids #bystay #createskz #staysource #malegroupsnet #a9gifs #*gif #*ccarly #*hyunjin #*carly:hyunjin #i don't want to talk about these. proceeds to talk about these #i actually rly like the coloring but god. i had to work so hard for it. these took so much longer than they should have #because for w/e reason my coloring made the bg decide we were in a 16 bit video game suddenly it was awful #so i had to STRATEGICALLY DENOISE these i am #going to eat glass. nd also go to bed gn #long post

[alatariel-galadriel]

"It was the sort of power that could end worlds. There was nothing in the world beyond Yuuta's reach with a power like that.

But it simply could not heal."

@polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup 's Sea Glass Gardens has bewitched me body and soul, I cannot put into words how deeply this fic has entrenched itself into my brain , it is absolutely incredible!!

black and white version under the cut

#wooo it's done!! #it took over forty hours of work and half my sanity and i'm so incredibly pleased with it #hopefully tumblr does not eat the quality too badly #listen listen listen though i am OBSESSED with Sea Glass Gardens it has me in a complete chokehold #90% of my brain at any given moment is thinking about it #it's just AHHHHHH #i wish i could coherently put into words just how much i love it it is SO incredible #sea glass gardens #jjk #Art from the ally #okkotsu yuuta #fushiguro megumi #fushiguro tsumiki #nanami kento

[toacho]

I love her more knowing that she can just eat punches.

#I was expecting that Creature was going to intervene and catch his hand or something but honestly I am SO happy he didn’t and just kind of- #-stared instead. Reading the description underneath the panel explained why I liked that fact so much perfectly djdndj #Anyways — gay win — the old butch eats punches like a tank! #the glass scientists

[blackmetalsnake]

I just watched the last episode of the Fellow Travellers.

I'm dead. Thank you.

#fellow travelers #OH MY FUCKING GOD 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #now this is my favorite series #BUT IT HURTS SO MUCH #WELL. I EAT GLASS AND DON'T REGRET #I also see parallels with what is happening in russia #we have huge problems with aids treatment #our people don't have enough medicines #and I remember news about how buses with free hiv testing and free contraception were attacked by all kinds of scum #do you know why? simply because these buses were from lgbt activists #and all these raids that are now happening in our gay clubs because the new homophobic law #am I really living in the 21st century?

[miabrown007]

going crazy about kaz brekker hours

#HE'S JUST *screams into a pillow* #Inej wants him to be better she NEEDS him to be better and shed his armour and be emotionall vulnerable and honest to her #and every time he tries it life delivers a right hook into his solar plexus and knocks him to hell and back #and time and time again he is made to come to the incorrect conclusion that being vulnerable and soft and caring about anyone ever #is a mistake and a weakness that he isn't allowed that he doesn't deserve #and his only way of getting what he wants and keeping the people he loves safe is if he becomes something that can't love them #like life just continues to punish him for having any kind of feelings #and he can only love them if he kills the part of himself that loves them. like COME ON MAN #i'm literally unwell about this kid (KID HE'S FUCKING 17 LET HIM LIVE) #someone sedate me (well actually don't i need to start reading CK tonight) #Kaz I Am Ruin And Ruination Brekker #and it's so tragic because he has come such a long way during SoC and when Inej asks him to be hers you know he can't do it. he would like #to but he's unable of it like his walls are still built up so high. #and it's fair of her to ask because she needs that and keeping her always at arms length is not viable of Kaz but also that's all he can #currently give her. that's his all and it's not enough and my heart is breaking for them ohmygod #they make me think so much of felonies love square I'LL EAT GLASS #okay. anyway. finished six of crows. i'm normal about them. #mia's reading

[im-still-watching-anime]

i am officially, FINALLY all caught up again in both the manga and the anime for bsd and OH BOY there are thoughts and opinions but also WHO CARES because my tags are finally FREE to be unfiltered

#hnnnnnn #i am SO happy #i am BEYOND happy #i love the arc even if i complain about it a lot #but i am also hnnnnnn…….displeased……..with a few things #the anime fr about to catch these hands #i already KNEW they were rushing it from the few episodes i had watched #but the anime is usually SO good at pacing #that i fully trusted that certain things would be slowed down for significance/impact/etc #but instead the pacing just stayed WAY too fast for me #and they ended up cutting SO many small moments that had SO much importance like im going crazy about some of them #some of the lines they cut……. #or even adjusted slightly that it drew away the impact #ugh i KNOW there was a LOT to balance and a LOT of content to get through #but i am a little disappointed that so many emotional scenes were what ended up suffering for it #this is why i don’t usually like reading the manga for animes i watch #i always end up getting disappointed by the limitations of adaptations #that being said though regardless of general limitations i don’t think some of the rushing is above criticism #and i am going to go and eat glass while seething over the particularly offensive rushing/cuts😤 #OKAY DONE that’s the last i’ll say about it i would just go crazy if i didn’t vocalize it somewhere #in general i was VERY happy with the arc in both the manga and the anime i have SO much love for it #definitely a favorite for me #and THAT concludes my very vague no spoiler review #i swear one of these days my self control is going to snap #and im just going to start posting my full essays and content analysis shit about everything i watch here #but for now we’re safe and all my rants will stay spoiler free tag paragraphs instead godbless🙏

[mobiusmcqueen]

at the end of the game when kratos opens the last mural and sees that he is worshipped and loved...

at the start of everything odin told him that he wouldn't know what godhood was like because no one ever prayed to him, he only destroyed. but now he earned it and if he chooses so it is a path he can take-

honestly at this point i don't even need my heart it's been completely destroyed

#HE'S GROWN SO MUCH #COMPARE THE KRATOS IN THE FIRST THREE GAMES AND AND THESE TWO #HIS ARC IS BEAUTIFUL #I AM PULLING MY HEAIR AND EATING GLASS WTF #god of war #kratos #god of war ragnarok

[fictionadventurer]

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#okay i promise i'm going to get off tumblr and actually get something decent done #but i just have to mention that i started reading 'thief liar lady' #the cinderella retelling where she's pulling a con #which i did not have high expectations for because that concept screams 'we're going to prove how dumb the original cinderella story is' #so i have to give it credit that so far it's pleasantly surprising me by pulling back every time it's about to do something stupid #within the first page or two we have 'they say the slippers were glass and the carriage was made of a pumpkin which is so dumb' #which seems like standard cinderella bashing but it's also framed as an explanation of the magic system #as in 'this is a waste of magic based on the rules' not 'this story is stupid and my 'real' one is better' so i can live with it #we have the enemy prince she's trying to con but he's not a dumb strawman royal #he's actually a sweet guy and a shrewd diplomat #all the royals are actually getting credit for talents as well as flaws #no strawmen in sight (i still shudder to remember 'just ella') #it feels like real politics #and there is *so much* politics and i am eating it up #(which makes me realize that one of the reasons i love cinderella retellings is that there's a lot of potential for politics) #we did have a scene where she goes into the throne room and meets a strange disheveled nobleman lounging on the throne #which made me roll my eyes because you could not have had a more obvious 'meeting the ya love interest' scene #but then there's a scene where she's like 'i don't care about embroidery' #and i internally groaned #but then she's like 'but i do like the embroidery circle because it's relaxing to be away from the men for a while' #so to my delight i could cancel the 'not like other girls' alert #the queen is feminine and her social skills are presented as a vital political skill #the swearing is really stupid and out of place and brings the book down #and i know that there'll most likely be something that makes me stop reading it before the 25% mark #but i do want to give the book credit for pleasantly surprising me #i'm liking it more than i otherwise would because of all the ways i was expecting it to disappoint me

[clareguilty]

Everything i love requires so much moderation bc im extremely sensitive to substances so i cant drink too much tea without getting ballzed off caffeine and i cant drink too much whiskey or wine bc i have the alcohol tolerance of a small amimal and i cant have too many drugs bc the hat man wont even fuck me :/

#also i cant eat too much food in one sitting bc again i am like the size of a widdle bunny rabbit #the kind that is so so soft but will break its own spine when frightened #this universe wants me to limit my pleasures and to that i say NO and drink my third glass of sweet tea #the heart palpitations are my friend actually #clare screams

[soldier-poet-king]

Two chapters into this is how you lose the time war and I already can feel that I am going to be SO normal about this (a threat & a promise)

#fran reads #anyway it took me eons to read this #bc i have an insane guilt complex and a homophobic trad living in my brain rent free #for the longest time teen me was like NO i cant read queer stuff. i shant. /dramatic sigh/ #and then obvs i got my head out of my ass #but for years it was just. idk. much more comfortable with m/m then f/f in fiction #idk if its just bc its so much more prevalent. or bc my brain hates Gender #(or realistically. its bc there's a degree of separation and i cant let myself PINE about WOMEN holding HANDS god forbid) #anyway. we have broken this barrier. i am here like #oh man i love me my lesbians. insane women in love fr. #it just HITS DIFFERENT #anyway. ANYWAY. i can already see how this book is going to end in tragedy. i am biting and eating glass #(also ofc always just thinking abd wizard gfs like #pf brainrot is real i am thinking abt THEM 24/7)

[spineless-lobster]

Oh, me? I’m just thinking about how the Captain went from calling Kitty “Katherine” to “Kitty” as their relationship grows and develops, nothing much really

#CHEWING AND EATING GLASS #I LOVE THEM SO MUCH I HOVER OVER THEM MENACINGLY LIKE HOW THE SUN HANGS IN THE SKY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #THEY ARE MY UNIVERSE AND I AM AN ASTEROID #IDK WHATS WITH THE COSMIC ANALOGIES #SCREAMING SQUEALING GIGGLING KICKING MY FEET FACE IN MY PILLOWS VIBRATING WITH JOY #bbc ghosts #the captain #kitty bbc ghosts

[still-got-no-idea]

did a thing (April 9th)

...not as bad as i expected? like my stomach's not happy and my cheeks kinda hurt, but like- it tasted fine. kinda liked the taste

bubbling threw me off, but also just... not bad. i'd do it again

ANYWAY THAT'S HOW I STARTED MY 10 AM-

(I shoved this into my drafts and forgot about it. Here now to say: i made battery acid spaghetti. I liked the taste, it made my stomach feel a bit weird. It hurt a bit, but it wasn’t too bad. I wouldn’t make it again, but I would drink it again. Not recommended though)

#aster talks #irl things #context: battery acid spaghetti #to be fair i tried to do it before in my own mouth which just didn't work as well as doing it in a glass #so i knew my stomach would be less than pleased #it isn't too bad though #maybe eat something neutral after #definitely eat something before #i had pizza for breakfast. so that's my context for food #i'd give it an 7/10 #not for everyone but it doesn't seem that bad #“don't do this” then i do it and am like “i get why we shouldn't. but also i'd do it again" #oh god i did this on April 9th #anyway. my stomach wasn’t very happy. wasn’t too bad #didn’t hurt that much. just probably shouldn’t do it again #I’mma post this now lol

[sysig]

VUXisms (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Or if you prefer my very Normal Collection of ZEX stimming lol #I'm not choosing to read alien behaviours through a neurodivergent lense you can't prove anything #Okay you got me yes I am lol - in conjunction with my ADHD Max HC (which I am only more convinced of lol) I went into this with #Really any kind of self-soothing behaviour fascinates me :D And ZEX definitely needs the soothing ;; #But it's not just the stimming! Though I did keep pretty diligent notes about that lol he's deeply interesting to me! #He's a texture person! Part of that is due to being VUX and having very processed food but if it fits it fits! #I'm also a texture person - again I have too many notes relating to ZEX lol #I also find it charming (or sad - whichever is applicable at the time!) when ZEX eats in ''odd'' ways haha ♪ #Eating without utensils - you can always just wash your hands you do you <3 #The weighted blanket lol so - I had a very normal and measured reaction to ZEX enjoying full-body pressure lol #Solely and purely intellectual! Of course! VUX enjoy swimming! Full-body pressure makes complete sense! #And he's a tactile person on top of that - pressure good for multiple reasons! I really do think he'd sleep better with a weighted blanket ♪ #Back to stimming! I really loved the scene of him opening the water bottle and his therapist being So Impatient with him about it lol #Let him figure it out! He's very intelligent! Very skilled at finding weak points and exploiting them hehe <3 #But then he runs his finger on the lip of the bottle! Wine-glassing it while he talks hehe <3 I love him #Humming!! Another stim I relate to! Not so much now since it was ''encouraged'' out of me so I may be doubly biased towards him using it hee #Too delighted to focus on utensil lessons and yet he's still clever enough to pay attention to multiple things at once hehehe ♫ #And then aside from his actual biggest stim he plays with his hair quite a lot - in various ways and to different ends :D #Running his hands through it to self-soothe or tugging on it to express - I kinda read it as him trying to move his head feelers around haha #Not quite the same but something! #Oh and then his biggest stim - just looking at humans lol it is very dopamine-delivering <3 And he has dopamine now! Very powerful :3c #Hhhhh human chemistry for VUX behaviours <3 It's so interesting to me hehe ♪

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Me, explaining things in a way that's completely incoherent: I don't understand what you find so difficult to comprehend???

#i think the problem is that something in my brain structures information in a way thats hard for other people to understand #it may be a dyslexia thing. but it is the most frustrating thing to be misunderstood without any #idea of howbwhat ur saying doesnt make sense. like. look. fucking. its right there. laid out in a way that looks like an absolute disaster #bc u would think with as many control issues id b extremely organized but no. i kno where everything is #but its in a pile. aye. this project is such a clusterfuck #this is how my brain collapses. what sort of shape will i b in by the time we finish? (ie my birthday lol) #let's not think abt it. it wont b good. #everyday i get texts and emails and i have to put my head down and take a deep breath so by brain doesnt explode. the amount of psychic #pain i am burdened with when i open my manuscript doc is shocking. #is this my villian origin story? ive lost the ability to not look like im in pain while im in meetings. if u pay close attention u can see #the misery behind my eyes. my boss is gonna turn up the 23rd and b like: ready to go get icecream to celebrate #ur paper and phd accptance? and im gonna b like: i would rather eat glass #if u try to rope me into a surprise party i might walk out. excpet i wont bc im not that much of a brat #theres nothing to celebrate. just let me lay down on the floor for a while #unrelated

[basementxdweller]

thinking about that time i was asked "who molested you for you to turn out this way" on here. something something that action had consequences

#dolly gross posts #internally for me it did anyways #me when the repressed memory resurfaces. its fine. its fine. its fine. its fine. #at leastnow when i think abt it its like. ah okay. that happened to someone else and not me so its ok. #and i simply ignore the fact that it happened to my body. it doesnt matter. yay <3 #also im still not fully convinced that what happened to me was in fact molestation. shrugs #its like 'well they were also a child so it doesnt matter or count' and 'it isnt that big of a deal even though it very much feels so' #they should invent childhood experiences for me that dont make me feel like i have to preface everything i say with #'okay so heads up this is probably heavy and weird and will sound venty even though i dont really mean for it to' #also. idk. ill probably delete this later #because i swing wildly between being like #'this is something unfortunate that happened to me as a kid but i dont really care and it doesnt really matter' #and #'if i think about this i will want to eat glass & cry & cry & cry & cry & cry & cry and mourn who i could have been had it not happened' #they should invent someone i can talk to about this without feeling like i am lying or a bad person or making things up for attention or #making them uncomfortable or feeling like they dont understand #idk. i need to go psychoanalyze myself so i can make sense of how i think #this needs a cw probably #cw vent #cw molestation mention #i guess #shrugs