#I am legit out of my mind excited tho like holy shit

[charlie-artlie]

The boys are back in town…🎶

[ID: a animated gif of Magnus, Merle, and taako from the adventure zone balance arc. All three boys are in the process of falling over, and everything is drawn in a blue/purple color scheme. Taako is a thin tan elf with a big tall wizard hat, puffy white shirt and pink skirt. He has curvy fantasy boots and has fallen flat on his face. Magnus is a light skinned man with dark short hair and a beard, he is wearing a white tank top and jeans and boots, and is currently falling backwards with all his limbs flying in the air. His tongue is also comically sticking out. Merle is a short fat tan dwarf with a dark grey beard and man bun and found glasses. He is wearing a baggy blue shirt with a pink belt and is falling sideways with his arms trailing behind him, where’s he’s holding his bible. Emphasis lines jiggle around them.]

#the zone cast #adventure zone #taz balance #taz imbalance #the adventure zone balance #arts #it has been a long long time since I’ve done gifs so this was a lot of fun! #I am legit out of my mind excited tho like holy shit

[majicmarker]

so i’ve had a lot on my mind lately — the good, the bad, the ugly, you know the drill. i’m used to the bad and the ugly, but i think (and ofc by my therapist’s rec) i need to give a little credit to the good, too. not to mention the good is largely comprised of people, and those people deserve a sports stadium wave, yk? idk shit abt sports, whatever, but i know what the wave is and it’s like the grandest gesture i can think of, SO

listen, y’all. to get real here, i hate fandom. my time spent therein has been hit-or-miss, but the misses got me hard and contributed to some major self-loathing, etc etc. we’re not gonna get into the specifics, i don’t owe that to anyone, but suffice it to say things got Rough.

but so much of it can be so, so good. and rn i want to keep on my rose-colored glasses, and the rosiest parts for me have always been @kitten1618x and @mygutsforgarters

(quite a few others, too, but i no longer have everyone’s info. and some ppl are newer friends, or relationships that have moved more slowly. i have mad love for u guys too, obvs, but ik melissa and gus irl so we know each other More and they’re who this post is rly about atm. pls know i don’t want to harsh on anyone’s feelings)

the tl;dr version of events is i met them both via fanfic. i happened upon theirs like “bitch!!!! **i** wanna do this, they’re bomb as hell” and then i made them be friends w me. they’ll tell you they wanted to be friends w me first, but that’s not important bc **i** am the one making this post, so they can both like,, suck it.

ANYWAY.

@ melissa : so bitch listen. here’s the thing abt melissa…… i found her while browsing jonsa fic back when i cared abt GOT, and she brought me back to what i loved so much abt romance when i first started, way back in junior high, what’s up. i bad a fascination w historial romantic epics for a loooooong time — those formative yrs, amirite ladies??? — but girl i could never write it so well as melissa. immediately she struck this balance between the drama you expect from historicals and the levity of a good romance, and i was just like, “hand to god this woman must be published already, surely???”

(she’s not, but that’s ridiculous so we’re gonna skip that)

(also she’s busy?? we’ve been friends for like six years and i will never know how many kids she actually has, but the point is she’s a goddamn superhero and i’m obsessed w her, MOVING ON)

i just Had to be her friend for two reasons: 1) she’s too talented, and b) i have said that abt 2 ppl my entire life and she was the first, so i was like, “AH YES MY HOLY GRAIL”

so ofc i slid into her DMs just as effectively as that one guy i had a crush on when i was sixteen and he’s still shooting me texts every valentine’s day bc of the societal pressures i guess (it is Far Less Effective these days, he’s my age and therefore too young for me, gross, but i digress), except me and melissa go way stronger.

she reminded me of why, half a lifetime ago, i started writing romance — bc it’s fun, bc i want to. bc i can do absolutely anything i want, bc who else is gonna read it but me and whoever i share it with? it was all up to me what i wanted to do with it, and i could do anything. nothing really mattered but what i wanted, and i hadn’t felt that way abt anything in such a long time — let alone abt something i used to love so much.

melissa’s writing is so beautiful, it’s everything i wanted to achieve when i was fifteen and never got around to perfecting. and i’m totally okay w that now, bc what do i need to do myself that she’s not already doing/wants to do in the future? when i found melissa’s writing i found a missing part of me — a part i’d maybe lost, maybe i gave it up, idk, but it was totally gone until i found her fics and they fucking clicked. i had to reach out bc there was a part of me that was a part of her, and she helped me find that again w/o even knowing it.

so i found melissa via GOT, and from the start she’d been trying to get me to write some bethyl. years and years, she dropped not-so-subtle hints — and by “hints,” i mean legit directives that i watch just enough TWD to write her some beth/daryl fic. real crafty, she is.

eventually the stars aligned: i was bored w the same dynamics i’d been writing for years, i wanted smthn new, i was restless, i was line editing a bethyl fic she’d written, and — again — this shit clicked. her fic made me want to explore this dynamic i’d never done before, so i watched the prerequisite episodes (no more than that tho, i super hate the show and i’m begging y’all to not @ me abt it anymore). i found smthn that i’d been missing, smthn that challenged and excited me and brought me back around to why i love romance and, more importantly, why i want to write it myself.

so as i was starting to write bethyl, i was poking around the ao3 tag to get a feel for what had been done, what hadn’t, anything i might be missing. and goddamn BAM —

@ gus : this is where u enter dramatically thru a red velvet curtain that i don’t wanna touch (Metaphorically bc you do romance better than me and i’m cool w that bc your talent simply Cannot be touched, and Literally bc i hate velvet) — i was like, “please for the love of god let her want to write contemporary romance, i need some good fckin food”

i happened upon “doo wah diddy diddy” first. ofc the summary hooked me, forget my usual hard no against pregnancy fics (i have issues w pregnancy and that’s all anybody Needs to know, back off), but This Bitch !!!!!!! has a way with words and i wanted to be friends w her straightaway. lmao too bad for her, now she’s stuck w me

gus’s fics gave me what i wanted without having to write it myself. her style is so distinctive, she hits the notes between porn and Actual Affection that is missing from uhhhh, every romance i’ve tried?? (why is everyone so intent on the sex part?? fckin chill. at best it’s unrelatable and at worst u sound like u’d rather wear someone than fuck them, check urself)

she writes w such care, she wants you to know what she’s doing here, and what she’s doing here is combining the physical and emotional needs of both characters w/o infringing on anyone’s comfortability. you root for these characters bc they simply want to be together, no strings (and if there are strings, damn, they talk abt it).

gus makes you believe in love in the modern age. like, not to sound like one of those ppl who post fckin “no one in this generation knows how to love!!!1!!11!!” memes on facebook, those are dumb, but gus’s writing made me think “yeah man, love ain’t dead, it’s just abt how we approach it.”

(if y’all haven’t guessed yet, i have some hang-ups abt relationships. i’ve goddamn earned those. but melissa and gus both brought me back to where i needed to be — in this place where, yeah, we’ve got some shit to deal with, but we all still deserve the things we want, and those things are achievable. i could not have gotten here without them, so jot that down.)

gus is Real, she’s funny, she’s unapologetic in the way she writes. ofc she has her personal hurdles, but who doesn’t?? and tbh nobody writes a sex scene like gus does. physical, realistic, but balanced w the emotional depth that makes you root for these characters bc you can Feel how much they want each other — not just sexually, but in the less-erotic aftermath of that passion. it continues to blow my mind, bc i’ve never seen anyone do what she does. i can’t even pinpoint the specifics, bc she just… Does It. and you’re reading it like “yeah bitch that’s it,” and That’s It.

it’s fckin wild.

these two — my best friends, the lights of my life, both of whom always make me crave chicken tenders at THE most inconvenient hours bc somehow we always talk abt chicken or ice cream or ultimately DQ, but they're both so hot idec — have something special.

i really, really want them both to know that: it’s not just in how they’ve treated me as a friend, but who they are as people, in their creative pursuits. i’ve never known support the way they’ve shown me; i’ve never known this much enthusiasm or investment or belief that i can do what i want with my talent. i want them to know that i feel the same way abt them and their works.

sometimes, when i look back at their writing that completely kicked my ass, i still can’t believe that they’ve become two of my best friends. it’s totally bonkers. they’re This Talented, and they wanna be friends w my spastic ass? GIRL. i’m out.

i’m not always the best at being present, at giving people what they need when they need it. but with everything that melissa and gus have given me in the past few years, i need them to know this — honey!!! i need all y’all to know this, bc i know fandom shit is hard, but you should know some of these friendships are so, so worth all that bullshit, so —

they have so much to give, so much to say, so much to offer. i could not have kept going without them. i couldn’t believe in myself without the faith they’ve given to me. i hope that i can always give that same faith right back.

and that, babes, is what real soulmates are all about.

#i just love them whoops my hand slipped #the majnificent adventures #gus tag #@ melissa wtf is our tag we had like five #how do i not remember five things #anyway i got into my feelings tnt don’t @ me

[sukirichi]

[ BROKEN RECORDS ; asks ] 

💌 — love letter from @kyriaan​

from track 007. 

Okay okay im still kinda meh'ish' but i really wanted to answer you so 😭 ill try to compile both my answer to your answer on my love letter and my hyped review on track 7 <3 so yeah another long ass rant from me 😩💕Suki... Suki pls I totally forgot Tsumu had a crush on us Suki... And then poor Tsumu ir there sulking cause he still likes u- JFBFBDVDVSJCHDHSIA omfg i wanted so much to hug him my baby I like him so much 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and he was trying so hard to behave while just sitting there sad fhfhfvbbshsjfhbdjaofhffhsoshd TSUMU YOU'RE STILL IN MY TOP 3 BABY 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂 

And then you throw the whole dancing scene with suna and I dont know whos on my top 3 anymore 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 SUKIIIIIIII THAT SCENE ALONE GJGJBFBSJCNFNKSOSNF OMFG IM FALLING SO HARD FOR SUNA I THINK? I think my top 3 had 4 dudes in it cause 3rd place has Suna and Atsumu tied?? Hfhfbfbfhdhsja I CANT PICK?? BUT BUT I WAS FEELING STUPIDLY DOWN WHEN READING THAT AND THAT SCENE ALONE MADE ME FEEL SO SOFT IT WAS SO CUTE AND OMG IF SUNA DID THAT TO ME I WOULD DROP ON MY KNEES AND ASK HIM TO MARRY ME CAUSE OMFGGGFFFF DUDE EVEN WENT AHEAD AND SAID THAT WHOLE 'HES GOING TO BE ONE LUCKY GUY'

Oh shit im crying again that scene lets me emotional 😭😭😭😭 someone get me a sunrin irl pls

Anyways the way that suna knows y/n is just.... FUCKING END UP TOGETHER ALREADY FOR THE LOVE OF GOD JUST JBVSHSJBEHSISJ

Also how powerful are we?? HOW FUCKING POWERFUL ARE WE TO SCORE SUNA KITA AND TSUMU?? ARE YOU GONNA TELL. ME IF OIKAWA MOFO TOORU APPEARED HE WOULD ALSO BE ON HIS KNEES FOR US?? (okay no wait... No nooo i would legit drop anyones ass for tooru hes that powerful for me like sorry suna was fun but TOORU)

Yo nah but the whole Kita sex scene- let me breath bestie LET ME BREATH CAUSE I WAS HOT BUT AT SAME TIME I WAS FEELING GUILTY 😂😂😂😂 ESPECIALLY WHEN HE WAS FEELING DISAPPOINTED NEXT DAY LIKE KITA PLS BABY WHAT WERE YOU EXPECTING?? 😬😬😬😬 But at same time his 'ill fuck the thought of him out of you tonight' I ALMOST MOANED YASSSSS TELL ME DADDY HOLY SHITTTTT

👀👀👀👀 Still not a kita simp ✌️✌️🤏✌️

Okay Kita deserves the best tho I mean okay he went there as a y/n mom's plan but he did ended up helping alot... Especially cause he knows no matter what y/n heart will always be suna's and pls give Kita the best ending possible cause he deserves someone who will trully love him and show him the world cause mah boy deserves it

*breaths in breaths out* i hated this scene- not in a bad way but shit i hate rejections... To the point im kinda afraid of confessing now cause i despise the feeling of being rejected... The best i can descrive it it like this coldness in your chest that descends your whole body and then you feel frozen in place.. Thats how it feels for me I hate it I absolutely despise it- its also the feeling i have when in a really bad situation and ugh...

The suna part made. Me feel this no matter how many times i reread it the feeling doesnt lessen it keeps being there cause (okay you probably are tired already of me saying this but) Suki I feel like I cant put it in words how much of a fucking good of a writer you are. Ill go ahead and say you are by far my favorite writer the fact i always feel so engaged and the fact i always feel like im there its just- it blows my mind.

I felt like suna was personally rejecting me and i hated it- i swear the moment he said prove it I almost screamed HOW? My brain had to take a moment to just slap me and say: 'kya you reading this is not happening chill-' cause i was already sobbing uncontrollably... I even whimpered the dont leave me 😬 my sadass went to bed feeling so sad thanks to suna... Man i wanted so much to hug him and i swear i would give him as much love as he gave y/n cause well i kin suna alot in this series cause im like that im a giver i treat others the way i would like to be treated (reason why ive been down lately ✌️) and i cant blame suna for finally setting boundaries- his call tho 'do i not stand a chance with you anymore y/n? Are you really not capable of falling in love with me?".... Oh suna... We are in love with you.. We always were we're just fucking stupid 😩

Also mari pls go jump off a cliff <3 youre in need dear cause sleeping with other man just to separate suna and y/n <3 i want so much to punch her 🙂🙃

Now for the love letter part (im so sorry for this being so long ✌️)

You said that if we asked suna he woukd say that he genuinely loved mari okay... Ill go ahead and say yes he liked mari he even learned how to love her and he genuinely cared for her BUT and heres where my personal view comes in so maybe ill be biased here still for me that was just a he loves her as in he cares you also love your friends and care for them but he didnt love her- and by this I mean- he could never be fully committed for her. Yes he loved her and he felt happy with her but like track 7 proved everything he would do in the back of his mind was y/n he deeply wished Mari was her and for that he just loved Mari cause he learned how to care about her- but he never forgot who he trully was in love it. Also the happiness he experienced with Mari was pretty much the one I experienced the bliss of having someone there and that bliss also made suna turn a blind eye to all the red flags from Mari cause to him all the jealousy meant she cared and thats toxic but suna was so desperate for some sort of 'she cares' that even all the possessiveness was bliss for him... And that makes my heart clench for suna...

'suna had to put an effort for the relationship' and saddly i feel like mari didnt... Mari didnt care mari was there because she was a fangirl of suna and got lucky, the way she just discarded him so effortlessly that proved-screamed how much she loved him- she didnt. She was just possessive over him she liked the whole 'hes mine' dynamic and suna was the perfect boyfriend cause he was giving her the world... What he wanted someone to do for him.

Also yeah suna and y/n might have been spurred from them being fuck buddies but well love doesnt really have an agenda- they just clicked, understood each other and had chemistry yeah they had tons and tons of sex but feelings started not because of sex but thanks to their deep connection... Also that dsncing scene in track 7 that alone spoke for their whole relationship- that alone is enough to defend their feelings for each other- yes it might jave started just as fuck buddies but ended up in them loving each other deeply and that is enough love after all doesnt need a perfect start. It can start out of the most stupid ways.

You said life with excitement and fun wouldn't be permanent or real.. Honestly i think it could be.. Cause i mean when you love someone that deeply your life always feels exciting even with the littlest things and that the purest kind of love. Even just going for a walk at the beach would be fun for them or even staying up watching movies i believe suna and y/n would always find a way to make their lofe exciting without much effort.

Also it kinda makes me. Sad when i see some anon saying that y/n and suna relationship are toxic? It makes me. Confused maybe because I was in such extremely toxic one (girl i sweat if you search for toxic relationship my ex's face will be there as an example 🙄) that Mari to me screams toxic! Possessive, manipulative, jealous and a few more if I think closely about it while with y/n and suna they are just two idiots that are hurting each other cause they're just that: idiots one that is afraid to get hurt and the other that keeps hoping- dont get me wrong what they're doing is not healthy but i dont find it toxic honestly

Sorry for the extreme long rant 8D I tried to keep it short but you always make me so hyped to talk about your works 😩

Hfbfbfhfhfieia

[ from saeren ]

NAHHH CUZ I LOVE TSUMU SO MUCH HERE HE WAS SO PRECIOUS. I didn’t write too much about them in college but Atsumu was so cute when he crushed on YN. he was always sending her memes and cute texts like “have you eaten” “good morning” and she’d feel so awkward because she doesn’t know how to let him down easy without hurting him. either way tsumu would feel hurt. AND YES PLS HE WAS SO SAD I MEAN, HIS CRUSH AND HIS BEST FRIEND NEARLY HAD SEX RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM SO THAT’S GOING TO HURT

SUNA AND ATSUMU TIED?? tbh I loved that dancing scene bcos suna is one of my faves and I really wanna do that with him hehehhehe. NAHHH PLEASE SAME IF SUNA DANCED WITH ME AND MADE A WEDDING PLAYLIST I’D BE LIKE boy what’re u waiting for let’s get married now !! n yes he said whoever YN will choose in the future will be one lucky guy IM SOBBING RN

naur cuz. there’s something about dating your best friend. I’m not saying a boyfriend wouldn’t know you as well but there’s something different when you’re best friends first. they could literally share eye contact and have a long ass conversation just from that. their connection is different.

HAJKALA AS FOR THE POWER, BR! YN IS A VERY CHARISMATIC AND FRIENDLY PERSON !! she’s like one of those people you meet that not only are they attractive as hell, but they’re also super approachable and down to earth. that’s why she’s so popular + she’s flirty and can make a stranger feel welcome or comfortable in the first meeting. SGSHJAK I WAS ACTUALLY PLANNING TO ADD OIKAWA HERE BUT I WANNA MAKE IT MORE INARIZAKI CENTRED

the seggs scene with kita SOBSSSS he’s such a soft dom IDC he knows where the clit is, he knows how to hit it. he’s a “your pleasure first before mine” type of guy. kita is perfect, PERIODT. HE GIVES DADDY VIBES HUH AHSKAA HE’S SO SWEET YET SEXY IM IN LOVE WITH HIM ISTG IF SUNA WASN’T OUR BEST FRIEND THEN I’D RUN FOR KITA ALL THE TIME. and I agree, kita deserves the best !! and don’t worry, I actually plan on giving kita the best ending, I promise you he’ll be fine (slight spoiler there)

 YESSSSS OMG I’VE BEEN REJECTED BEFORE AND THAT’S EXACTLY HOW I FELT, MY BODY WAS SO COLD AND I WAS SO CONFUSED LIKE IT MAKES YOU THINK. am I not good enough, did I do something wrong, do you not wanna give me a chance or try it out but ofc I’d never say that out loud. AND KYAAA AAAH IM YOUR FAVORITE WRITER??? NO CUZ YOU’RE GOING TO MAKE ME CRY. I remember ur asks way back reckless era and you used to tell me that my writing made you picture the scenes easily and you felt you were there in that moment and I’m just so grateful thank you so much <33

NO BCOS WHEN SUNA SAID “prove it” I was like. this is it. that’s his hot boy shit moment. man’s has had enough of being thrown from one toxic relationship to another and he also deserves his good moments yknow. and you kin suna here?? BESTIE IM SORRY TO HEAR THAT, SUNA’S BEEN THROUGH A LOT HERE AHSJAKA. that’s true about suna tho !! he’s definitely affectionate + a giver. he’s happy being the one who gives most of the time but he’s a human as well, ofc he’d want to receive the same amount of love back. ALSO HIS PHONE CALLLLLL ugh tbh that part was the one that made me the saddest bcos he’s just. he wants to know if there’s really no more chance. all this time he never gave up. but he’s also tired so if yn says ‘no more’ then he’ll give up. its his way of respecting himself too ahsjaka

YOOOOO I AGREE WITH THAT. he cares for mari as a person but not 100% as a lover. but ofc he’s still thankful for how happy she made him because she was there at his worst. and that’s true, deep down suna still wishes that it was YN who’s right beside him. he will always ALWAYS want her back. he learned how to love mari in a way that was more out of mutual care but not in the way he loves YN. no that’s reserved only for YN – she will remain no 1 in his heart. AND YESSSSS the reason why suna overlooked the red flags was bcos to him, its something that was supposed to be “normal” like no perfect partner existed. he thought mari’s attitude of pushing YN away was normal, and its normal to want your partner’s best friend keep some distance but not to the point of mari’s place where she literally wants the two of them to cut each other out of their lives.

and aww I’m so happy that you realized how I wanted to portray suna and yn’s relationship. they’re….like the definition of youth in its freest form. they were fucking around and doing stupid things, but they had a connection. they had something deeper than just sexual intimacy. even if they never dated or even if YN never proposed the idea of it, they would’ve actually been still great friends. and oooh I actually don’t remember saying life with excitement and fun wouldn’t be real HAHAHAHA so I can’t comment further on that. but I think when I ‘said’ those I probably meant that it’s not always going to be all rainbows and unicorns in a relationship. there’s no such thing as a relationship that’s always happy and sweet 24/7, but ofc it can be sweet and it can be pure even with the little things <33 they just need to work on it.

hmmm tbhhhh… suna and yn are toxic in a way that they refuse to let each other go when they clearly can’t meet halfway. toxic doesn’t have to be limited in just being mari-like in which they are possessive or manipulative, because then if we’d drive deeper into yn’s personality, then she’d be stringing suna all along and that’s unfair of her. she knows suna wants more and yet she remained being friends with him, which totally isn’t a bad thing, but it’s because she keeps flirting with him and is so romantically comfortable with him that she doesn’t realize it’s hurting suna because he’ll give double meanings to that. their relationship is ‘toxic’ because they’re not entirely good for each other, they’re not that ready to be with one another yet and neither is the world letting them be in peace, so forcing their relationship to a point they’re hurting another is the toxic part.

[ from @kyriaan ]

Ah also not me feeling all proud and mushy cause my analysis made you mind blown fjfbdnsjdkpa 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 I guess its also because i see this story as a really big mirror of my own toxic relationship sonits extremely easy for me to get it... And oh boy the way i kin suna here

But dhdhfjdospdhfbsoa 🥺🥺🥺🥺 i feel happy now *huggles*

[ from saeren ] 

and aah yes ofc, I’m really happy whenever someone can see the underlying details I scatter throughout the story !! yeah omg same hahahaha broken records is also half inspired by the toxic people I’ve met. I kin kita here tho and I’m so glad you’re happier now !!

#asks with naoya's trophy wife #series ( broken records ) #tw: toxic

[analyzingadventure]

Oh boy have I not watched Psi for a long time, oh man have I missed out on Some Stuff (I’ve only heard the names of like three Digimon mentioned but oh man did those names alone come with Some Package)

Let’s watch episodes 25-31 then and catch up!

So just to recap, last time Agumon evolved to Mugendramon, fucked some shit up because Taichi totally 100% legit died, temporary evolved to WarGreymon I think (I can’t remember man lmao) and beat the shit outta DoneDevimon

25! Dive to the Next Ocean!

Uhhh who the fuck yeeted ElDoradimon into the sky

This is so bad

They should die so hard

OHHH CLOUD CONTINENT IS IN THE SKYYY YESSS I LOVE THAT

Have I mentioned how much I love seeing the kids interact with their non-partner Digimon (and vice versa)? Because I do, I love this a lot (even if it ain’t much)

Ohhh Mugendramon was so sexy... I wanna rewatch episode 24 but I really need to catch up on this first

ElDoradimon’s gonna die from that fall, right? His joints are gonna get pulverized

Zurumon! :D I love these lemon jelly goops

HIKARI!!!!!! Baby!!

I wish Taichi and co would be like, trying to even think about how they’re gonna survive the fall- like I know Leomon saved them but they couldn’t like plan to just Get Saved, IDK it’s kinda off-putting how they’re so calm

Leomon to the rescue tho! Finally!

Patamon is so chumby, v good

Holy shit Leomon punches HARD, a single punch just straightened out ElDoradimon in one go, holy fuck

Finally they’re worried about dying from the fall

What happened to the Agu and Gabu being too exhausted to fight (I’m sorry this is just a massive pet peeve for me, ‘esp cause there’s like no reprecussions for the Digimon for pushing themselves here)

(Like it’d be one thing if they managed to evolve out of desperation but this ended up being like bad for them and force them to take longer rests later or IDK kill them, but when you’re just like “I’m too tired to fight- oh wait my friend is slightly in more danger now than before, I guess I can fight again”)

(This is an issue with most MotW shows and even some shounen series (I’m looking at you Bleach) so it’s not unique to Psi, p sure Adventure had this issue to some degree too, but still man, it’s a massive pet peeve and bothers me so much)

26! Break through the sea monster barricade!

God I love that the Cloud Continent is actually in the sky

Quality content (slightly cursed maybe)

Seadramon! Honestly I really love Seadramon?? Like it’s such a simple, minimalistic design but... IDK man I love Seadramon, it’s such a cool Digimon

OH SHIT IT EVOLVED! :O

I’m sorry I am just so not interested in the real world crisis (in the show), it’s... I’m sorry it’s so Mundane and I’m here for the Fantastical

WARUSEADRAMON! THE SLIGHTLY MORE GOTH SEADRAMON!! YEAAHHHHH

God I wish Psi just had perma-evolution, so many of my issues would be solved with perma-evolution

Aweeee yeah, MegaSeadramon’s here too, now we got both of them, yeeeeee

I love how Hikari is just quietly judging the other kids

Y’all okay with talking about Taichi being in a different world right in front of Hikari? I mean She Knows Things and they all just got taken to back to that world but still like, should you try to be more inconspicuous maybe

Oh my god how many times have they used that clip of Falcomon throwing bombs in this episode- four? That’s a lot yo

Taichi’s gonna get vored again, press F for him

The water is so deep how is Zudomon standing- oh I need to stop asking these things

HIKARIIIIII SHE’S HEEEREEE YEEEEEE

27! To the New Continent!

"Hikari, who called you?” “I don’t know :)” Honey that is so ominous I love you

AGUMON COMFORTING HIKARI AAAAAA I LOVE THAAAT

YESSSSS I LOVE THIS

This image has heavy Digimon Kaiser energy in it

I love how Psi!Jyou is like a try-hard in trying to help (while OG!Jyou was always struggling with figuring out what the right thing to do was etc)

Is... is the enemy a Tortamon? Oh yeah it’s Tortamons

OH WOW THERE’S A LOT OF THEM

OH SHIT IT’S AN GROUNDDRAMON! OH GOD THIS IS GRUESOME

Ikkakumon’s gonna get vored, F

You know I never thought Grounddramon would be so chomby based on the Bandai art but I guess Groundramon’s a real chomper

“Everyone, give Angewomon your power!”

GIGA DESTROYER AAAAAAAAAA

OH IT’S THE BASTARD!! DARK KNIGHTMON!!! THE SEXY BASTARD!! The one I’ve heard an interesting theory about... But I ain’t saying anything fornow

PATAMON EVOLVES??? (On command which is kinda bs)

ANGEMOOOOOON YEAAAAAHHHHHH

NEW ENDING TOO, YAY

Ohhh this ending has such nice, soft but jolly energy c: Also yay Tailmon

28! The Children’s Fight for Survival!

BTW Patamon with angel wings was a lowkey hilarious visual, 10/10 would laugh again

Still don’t like how we just got Angemon on demand like that

Oh yeah, out-of-context I heard a theory that DarkKnightmon is Tailmon and hearing Dark Knightmon’s voice, yeah I can see that (not to mention their facination with Hikari)

Oh man those are some Big Wings

Whu happen, did the kids get yeeted back to the Human World?? Oh no they’re still here

I bet Angemon’s dead again lmao

LMFAO JYOU FINALLY GETS TO CATCH A BREAK--

NANIMON NOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Oh Patamon’s okay- REALLY TIRED (thank you Psi) but okay

I NEVER DISLIKED NANIMON UNTIL THIS VERY MOMENT

I AM SO UNCOMFORTABLE

PLEASE GO AT LEAST 500 METERS FURTHER AWAY FROM JYOU, PLEASE

Hikari being worried for MetalGreymon ;__;

Aweee yeah HIkari’s special Evolution Powers are still here! GET ‘IM WARGREYMON!!

Whoop Hikari got spirited away, F (she’ll be fine, SkullKnightmon ain’t gonna do shit to her, I’m sure)

Hikari volunteered to go... ;_;

29! Escape the Burning Jungle!

THERE’S MORE OF THEM

I mean at least they’re all just chillin’ and enjoying the bath instead of just staring at Jyou. I’ll considder that an improvement

YEAHHHH MEGADRAMONS!!

Ooooo a single lil Lopmon, I wonder if this will be an important character later

I like Woodmon, Woodmon are cool and chill

YEAH, DEFEND THE SMALL AND INNOCENT!

WOODMON NOOOOOOO ;A;

NOOOOOO A BUDMON DIED!!! NOT THE BABIES!!!

What do you mean MetalGreymon hurt when the tiny Allomon bit him ON HIS METAL ARM

I- I need to stay quiet or else I’m gonna end up with too many questions. I mean I already have too many but the less I question it the better

Woodmon, Budmon, I love your energy, please aim for Tankdramon’s eye, you could blind that fucker with ease

PARROTMON?!

30! WARGREYMON AAAAAAA

Man I have been quiet through this entire episode so far lmao

ANYWAY CROSSMON! HELL YEAH have we seen Crossmon animated before?

GIGA DESTROYER AAAAAAAAAAA anyways I think this is the first tme we’re seeing Crossmon animated (unless my memory is garbage, which it might just be)

Aaaand Taichi is dead

OH, HIS CREST IS THERE

WHAT’S THIS

WHAT’S THIS

Agumon....... I love you..........

Man this animator is making Crossmon look vaguely too humanoid for my taste.... And MetalGreymon’s super fucking jacked yo

NEW SONG YEEEAAAAAAAAAAAHHH

OH THAT’S SOME SEXY SEXY ANIMATION

OH WARGREYMON’S HUUUGE BRO

HOLY FUCK GAIA FORCE ANNIHILATED ALL OF THEM (but didn’t cause any environmental damage? Handy!)

Lopmon’s totally like Cherubimon or something, right? Reborn Cherubimon, right?

31. MILLENNIUMON

HERE IT IS, THE HEAVY PACKAGE I MENTIONED, THE EPISODE TITLE THAT MADE PEOPLE LOSE THEIR MINDS WHEN IT GOT ANNOUNCED

WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING PSIIIII where the fuck are you going yoooooo

God WarGreymon’s so fucking big holy shit

OH YEAH LOPMON’S TOTALLY LIKE CHERUBIMON OR SOMETHING (I mean it’s not a plottwist by anymeans lmao)

LMAO Skull Knightmon looked away when Hikari noticed them looking at her lmao tsundere ass fucker

Wait the temple was also on Cloud Continent??? Like that whole area was still a part of Cloud Continent?????????? The geography of this world confuses me yo

BAKEMON!!! THERE’S BAKEMON!!! I LOVE BAKEMON SO MUCH!!! GIMME THE GHOSTIES!!!

NOOO MILLE WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO TO MY BAKEMON BABIES!! FUCK YOU LEAVE MY GHOST BUDDIES ALONE

YESSSS CHERUBIMON

OH IT WAS MILLE WHO STARTED THIS ENTIRE FUCKING MESS IN THE FIRST PLACE, HUH

WAIT FUCK MILLE IS BEHIND THE ENTIRE BS IN PSI

...AGUMON CAN EVOLVE TO MUGENDRAMON, WHO IS LIKE, KEY COMPONENT #1 TO MILLE

OH GOD WHAT DOES THAT MEAN

AGUMON EVOLVING TO MUGENDRAMON WASN’T JUST A CUTE REFERENCE TO THE DARK MASTERS, IS THERE GONNA BE THING WHERE AGUMON IS USED TO RECREATE MILLENIUMON??? (And they have to get Agumon Out Of There like they had to extract Tailmon (and Meicoomon until they gave up) out of Ordinemon in tri.???)

ANGEWOMON!!! THERE SHE IS!!

PSI SAYS OFANIMON RIGHTS

Oooo we’re on Eternal/Mugen Continent... Oooo :oc

I like how Sora is the Dedicated Character who will be there when we get like Backstory lmao

METALFANTOMON?! :O YEEAAAHHHH (Ngl when I saw the pink scythe for a moment I was hoping for Jokermon.......)

Oh wow that’s a lot of MetalFantomons

Man Kabuterimon sure is flying quietly (I mean adding the flying sound effect probbaly wouldn’t add much here but... It’s so quiet)

OH SHIT WE’RE GOING TO ULTIMATE ALREADY

I am gonna say, because Psi is constantly moving, like there’s constantly an oncoming threat and the characters never get to take a fucking break (that’s longer than 5 minutes), it just... Because there’s no contrast between danger and peace, it makes the non-stop danger feel far less dangerous imo

DOGGO DIGIMON!!

KOMONDOMON!!

OH SKULL KNIGHTMON HAS MILLE

OH FUCK DUDE

There is one more episode out but sadly I can’t watch it yet because region lock. I do know there’s an interesting, familiar face in there tho and I’m excited for that!

I... I... I can’t believe he actually said that...

“They’re cool pants!” KOUSHIROU LMAO

Anyways, episode preview!

Aaaand nothing of value was seen there. I mean I do know what Patamon probably evolves into because I do follow the Digimon Twitter so like, I saw the relevant art they shared but ye

Anyways  a lot of these episodes were dull as usual, I didn’t feel like I missed out on much tbh aside from the sexy animation and the lore

This really drives it home to me how not having a villian of somekind just constantly present and active really makes a story so much more flat for me... Like I ain’t gonna argue Devimon or MetalSeadramon were interesting villians, but even just seeing them planning their next moves outloud and talking to their minions drove home what kind of people they were, and they weren’t even the most Packed-With-Personality villians in Adventure.    And while SkullKnightmon is there... they’re just kinda standing around. I don’t know much about them really and it makes me sad

(Look I’m sorry I’m a filthy villian-stan and not having interesting villians to stan makes me sad)

Anyways, as always, I am definitely looking forward to whatever the fuck Psi is planning on doing because 1. Holy Shit It’s Milleniummon and 2. Holy fuck we got WarGreymon and it’s only episode 31, what the fuck are they planning on doing with the rest of the series and indeed 3. Patamon evolves into what

#Psi reaction

[ghosty-schnibibit]

late liveblog b/c i took the time to listen to the first ep over again :P

hey travis? hey- hey travis??? three in the morning travis?????

for real tho i am extremely excited for the new ep, and finally found some time to listen to it!!! this time i won’t have to avoid tumblr for like a week lmao

i can hear the excitement in travis's voice to do the "previously on the adventure zone" message and it fills my heart with happiness

god this music is just so good

how the fuck is that right??? i've played a rouge before and she in no way had a +8 to stealth

let him have this justin

the spectral cat from last ep!

i love argo so much holy shit

that is indeed very upsetting

awww, poor bud :(

oh baby, oh fitzroy my dipshit baby

"it isssss... cat" i love him so much

... argo has never seen a cat before??? poor baby

is he legit afraid of the cat

the voice is already slipping lmao

oh that's adorable! campus kitties :D

that's not a real thing fitzroy

so like a campus card, fun! i had the same thing at tcc lol

i think so? if i remember correctly from the past ep it's shared

"gary doesn't have time for love" :'(

he saw that one post i'm dying

it sounds like trav asked them beforehand, that's a neat way to plan for interactions before they happen and i like it

the dread pirate mary berry

"crush the beef" what does that mean fitzroy

what is this voice clint, you did not have this voice last ep, you've gone from vaguely ned to vaguely merle's fake scottish accent

"this turns to ash in my mouth" i love this

thank you griffin for this in character backstory opportunity

"to be by his side... kickin'" sounds to me like everyone's argo revenge plot theories might be correct

yummy! :D

mind chefs

fitzroy my sweet dipshit

he's a sweet sweets boy c:

"he's a failure" yes and i adore him

... god this class is just me all over

riveau, cool, thank you for the spelling notes

oh dang, that's a cool mechanic, i can see this wielding some potential narrative heaviness later on

i'd say about... a minute is good

i am so nervous for argo holy shit

argo's laying it on thick enough that i genuinely cannot tell whether or not clint got a good or bad roll

that was indeed a seventeen! go clint

... argo :(((

i legit cannot tell if this is argo bluffing the prof or if this is just clint being clint b/c merle and ned both pulled the "so am i getting paid now?" bit multiple times

i trust justin to not make this audio poision

owl professor :D

the dramatic music travis holy shit

so basically the middle ages lmao

"the golden age of accounting" t r a v i s

i can hear justin nearly combusting in the bg trying not to laugh and i am right there with him, this is such good world building but holy shit travis

basically reaffirming from last ep that the entire premise of this arc is the entertainment industry in a post scarcity economy, cool cool

oh my god this is such a mood

i adore bud so much

"sweet bird in heaven" pfff

so this prof is basically capitalism personified... thanks, i hate him

bud is 18 y/o me in my required "intro to college skills" class r/n

i am dying inside, this is so close to my own high school and college experiences, i feel like screaming on bud's behalf

I'M HAVING AP CALC FLASHBACKS TRAVIS, PLEASE LET IT E N D

"and you know what? i believe in you" i don't believe in me right now trav, i'm a 22 y/o adult and i have no idea what most of these words mean

oh god i just got the mental picture of all the other people in this class watching this exchange and it brought new levels of hilarity and abject horror to the situation, jfc i am d y i n g

this owl really is a personification of capitalism, huh? grasping at straws and concocting elaborate fantasy scenarios, desperate to prove that his system works even though it necessitates loss and goes against humanity’s inherently cooperative nature

travis this has gone on for like 15 minutes real time, f r e e  m e

"why did the mind make acorn?" i have never related to a taz pc more than i have in this moment, holy shit justin

sign! me! the! fuck! up!

yes i did trav!!! i loved it and i'm loving this! i am so proud of you!!!!!

aww, poor dude :(

fun! this sounds like a really interesting idea

fitzroy continuing to be salty about his name lol

i want to see the skeletons do the charleston so bad, but more then anything i want rainier to be my girlfriend

poor argo lmao

awww, fun!

f u r b y

nice! :D

JESUS ARGO

nice rolls all around!

go bud!!! ^u^

i don't see how that would help argo???

i'm liking a lot of the skills travis is adding

yes! block for my gf mapleboy!!!

"im feeling dastardly" fitzroy baby, you're allowed to use magic, what you’re doing isn't cheating you absolute dummy

WAIT WHAT

this is badass holy shit, i love these teachers

jesus fitzroy my dude

funky twenty! nice

natural twenty! even nicer

aww, sweet sacrifice boy

fitzroy nearly killed him holy shit

festo???

oh fun! that sounds adorable!

oh god, nm, this character is so weird

jesus christ i am so creeped out

oh my god fitzroy what the fuck, you turned a woman into a fish

aww baby :(((

i am fucking depressed now holy shit

okay, i like festo now

that was a cute lil noise

awww!!! magic pet, i am so excited to see what fitz is going to pick

lil crab buddy :D

poor fitzroy holy shit

oh it's the rouge professor! 

i do not like the creepy whisper voice travis, this is legit creeping me out

i am so fucking worried for argo

who is mariah??? oooh i am so intrigued

rain and stone... this is so interesting holy shit

awwwww!!!!!

"this is nothing" pfff

my sweet boys :')

i! am! so! freaking! pumped!!!

this was another really great episode! i know we’re still in set-up territory as far as how the plot is progressing but i’m already so intrigued in the world trav has made. there’s already so much mystery and foreshadowing going on, both in regard to the world and the character’s motivations and i am here for it! 

i’m actually typing this around 5:30 am and queuing it for later so it doesn’t get buried in the tag, but i cannot wait to see all the art of this ep, especially of snippy lol. see you guys next right thursday~! ^u^

#taz #the adventure zone #taz spoilers #taz graduation #ghosty liveblogs taz #i'm gonna try my damnedest not to be late next time but it couldn't be helped

[luobingmeis]

a few things abt that episode:

i was listening to it with my best friend while driving around and, honestly, thank god bc i wouldn’t have been able to listen to that by myself without freaking out a lot

(i say as i debate listening to the episode again in the darkness of my bed room with all the doors closed)

if you told me back in the end of january that taz would actually get super scary, i would not have believed you

yet, here we are, and here i am

listening to that episode while driving around the beach at dusk in heavy fog (like, almost-can’t-see-in-front-of-me fog) really helped set the mood of me being scared shitless

every single thing that aubrey and ned said to each other is fucking echoing in my mind

that flashback fucked me up

50% of me is like “oh duck was such a good mood-lightner from aubrey and ned” but also 50% of me knows that duck’s section had some of the most......... disturbing parts like what the actual fuck???

also minerva’s return had me fucking laughing in shock oh my god my girl!!!! i just relistened to the first five episodes so minerva is fresh in my mind and i seriously forgot how much i loved her

can we all agree that ned talking to incomplete “dani” and decomposing “boyd” has actual legit horror-movie energy

speaking of dani, it really stresses me out that no one knows the exact location of the real dani, mama, and barclay

also can we talk about how this monster has actual sentience and reason??? like it finally gave up trying to be someone else and literally basically told ned, “my job here is done, thanks for doing your part, i’m curious as to why you’ve done x, y, and z” like that’s fucking horrifying my dudes!!!!

also im really not over minerva rn omfg

ALSO LEO WHAT THE FUCK

i thought different things were going to happen in that episode, but i am so fucking in love and excited and also fucking terrified for what’s to come

also tho aubrey’s speech like holy fucking shit

and ned’s too oh my god

i could go on for so much more but i think i might actually relisten to the episode rn (and, if not tn, then tm morning on my way to work) so i hope to have a more thourough post soon ajkskjfjkf

#taz amnesty #taz amnesty spoilers

[matronaa]

Jungkook “fuckboy?” drabble

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader

Word count: 1,637

Genre: Fluff/mentions of smut?

Okay look its about 1 in the morning while im writing this and i just got done literally scrolling thru @jungshookz  e n t i r e page and honestly ive been delusionally laughing over her stories for like an hour and a half like the tattooartist!jungkook fic legit killed me i love it  and i’m probably going to force my friend to check her out because legit i love it so much and she seems like such a funny person and if she sees this 1) ily and ur writing and i wanna be friends but idk how to start a conversation because im a awKwARd bEan and 2) im sorry for probably spamming ur notifications with likes okay i couldnt help it so now im inspired for the first time in a while to write but im way to loopy to put together an actual fic so enjoy this ig

Okay i should stop rambling (okay just note that im so sleep deprived that i had to google ‘words for excessive talking’ to remember the word rambling because im an idiot and i cant think and ooo its 1:11 am rn make a wish b*tches)

Okay im sorry ill begin~

A/n all of this is completely unedited and if bad grammar annoys you srry not srry

Lets talk about what fuckboy!jungkook is oki

I feel like in reality there are just a bunch of rumors about him but hes so smol and hes the quiet type so he doesnt have the energy to dismiss them

Like im sorry soft jungkook is way to good in my mind rn okay #cuddles4days im not in the mood for him to strangle me with his amazing biceps

Anyway

you never rlly met him in the 4 years of going to the same highschool as him (since you’re in those smart people classes like humanities) until senior year

You and him had the same AP Lit. class lmao english class is  l i t

Which surprised you bc of the rumors like i thought he was a badboy ?? arent those normally idiots ??

Nah my bby is a smart nugget, he just likes to look hella bf 25/8

First day of school cliche where you show up late to class and have to sit next to him because i  d i e  for those plots okay

But you dont know thats him because you’ve never seen him, so you’re confused on why most of the girls keep glaring at you

But soon enough you catch on and you’re like fml

And then the professor is like “where you are sitting is your assigned seating for the rest of the year” and you’re like f m L

He ends up introducing himself to you because i mean like table buddies

But hes really nervous because hes a cute little bean and you’re hella cute cuz lets be honest ur probably wearing like basic black leggings and a hoodie with your hood over your head to hide the bed hair you didnt feel like brushing that morning

Oh, just me? Okay…

He likes ur name because it rolls off the tongue and he thinks it suits you even tho he doesnt know you

Yet ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

You dont really think hes a fuckboy because he seems so nice and he has the cutest lil bunny smile sEE

That is until after school u end up getting to ur locker late because u left something in one of your classes

And u see him pinning a girl against the lockers down the hall

And ur like well shit nvm

And u quickly get ur shit and go because das  a w k w a r d

But then he sees u run off and hes like awh crap i dun fucked up

A few weeks go by and u notice he barely really comes to class so u usually sit alone

On days he does come his chair seems extra close to yours and he’s basically smothering you

But u dont mind because he smells nice

And on the days he does come you get kinda excited because

1) you get a partner who doesnt expect you to do all of the work

2) this boy cute when he gets all intelligent

Ur  like “yes pls continue speaking about the essay we are writing that i have no idea is on because i kept getting lost in the sound of ur voice”

He notices when u zone out because you start staring at his lips when hes talking and he thinks its the cutest thing

One day u get assigned a week long project and ur close enough friends with jungkook to basically scold and force him to come to class all week

But only if he can force u to come to his house to work on it after school

Which you’re low key nervous of because ur going to a ‘fuckboy’s house’ by yourself

And u dont wanna do the dirty because ur a pure child haha not for long

But you agree anyway

And honestly even after the project is done (which you got an A on) you continue going over to his house because his bed is comfortable and he always has snacks

And his mom loves you

Like legit on days you dont go the next day you do she’s like “wheRE WERE YOU”

When the semester is over the professor lets you pick seats but you both enjoy each other’s company so you stay seated together.

finally ur at his house one day and ur just laying on his bed scrolling thru insta and he’s sitting on his bean bag in the corner on his phone and u look up at him and realise

Shit

You like him

Like a lot

And u mentally face palm because this was not supposed to happen

But it happened and you’re too far down the hole to climb out

Sometimes u end up napping at his house after school because his bed is more comfortable than yours and one friday night u wake up in his arms

And its like the best feeling ever

Its so warm and hes so cuddly hes like latched onto you

You stay under the warm blankets before you question when he even got in bed since he was playing video games before you fell asleep

And then his phone lights up and ofc you check it for him bc ur a nosey bitch

But not before you observed how adorable he was while he was sleeping

Nope not creepy at all

its his friend tae texting him (you didn’t really know his friends since you had different friend groups)

You check it and its smth like “stop staring at y/n while shes sleeping and reply u creep”

And you’re like w a t

So you scroll up and see that while u were sleeping jungkook went on a full rant on how cute u are and how whipped he is

And ur like holy fadoodles dis boy likes me

And so u decided to text tae like “this is y/n, does he actually like me”

Which turns into you both having a convo on how thirsty jungkook is until he wakes up

Hes like wtf r u doing and he snatches the phone and reads through your messages with tae while u like sit up to stare at him

And he’s still half asleep so it takes him to realise whats going on

“Omfg y/n i can explain-”

He starts rambling about how long he had been crushing on u and that he didn’t want to tell you because you seemed uninterested so he kept it a secret and never told anyone

And honestly he was freaking out because the onE tiMe he tells anyone that he likes you, you find out

But while he’s rambling you’re coming up with an excuse to text your mom that you’re spending the night at his house, so you just say he’s not feeling well and his parents are gone for the weekend.

Lmao she doesnt care she’s just like “lmao ik ur lying but have fun dont get pregnant”

Or Maybe thats just my mom idk

You have to shut him up by snatching his phone out of his hands and kissing him

When you pull away you’re just like “you talk too much lmao”

You explain to him that you like him too and u just get under the covers again and snuggle up next to him, and he wraps his arms around you

And you stay like that for a while before hes like “its late you should get home”

And you tell him you’re staying the night whether he likes it or not

And he is so down for that

But then you end up just spending the weekend there because why not his parents love you

And every night is just filled with cuddling, watching netflix, making out, late night snacks, etc.

Saturday night he gets a lil touchy and soon enough ur like straddling him and grinding your hips against his

But then he’s like “Ive never done this before” and you c o m b u s t

Ur like aren’t you like the school fuckboy how have you not done this

And he tells you its all just rumors and hes too lazy to set the record straight

And you basically decide to take things slow that night since it was you’re first time too and honestly it was so cute

It wasn’t really steamy rough sex it was more soft fluffy love making that is filled with giggling and exploring and appreciating each other

That was definitely the night you fell in love with him

Which is big because you thought love was gross

The next day you’re cuddling and he’s like “you know ur my gf now”

And ur like duh

You start going on cute dates after that like going to cafes or amusement parks

He loved taking you to the beach during the summer because u looked gr8 in a bikini

You found out you were going to the same college with was fantastic, so you decided to rent an apartment together nearby the campus instead of living in a dorm.

Which normally you’d be against because moving in together so quickly ?? but you felt different like this relationship was going to last

UNTIL HE CHEATED

Lmao jk gotcha bitch

My baby is too pure and innocent to cheat

Well innocent until you both get into bed and then oh lord it gets steamy

He wants to experiment with like e v e r y t h i n g and honestly you were down

But ofc you set some boundaries.

There were lines he couldn’t cross

I mean sometimes he tried but you shut that down real quick

Overall your relationship was perfect and you couldn’t ask for a better boyfriend

I mean he brought you pizza rolls and dr pepper to ‘study dates’ how could you not love him.

Oml it took me over an hour to write this its like 2:30 am why am i awake anyway imma go to bed now, idk ur name jungshookz but pls write more fanfics i need more to read late at night okay gnite

#jungkook #bts #btsjungkook #Jungkook oneshot #jungkook fluff #jungkook smut #bts one shot #jungkook x reader #jeon jeongguk #im so sleep deprived #why am i awake #imagine #bts imagines #jungkook ima

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HOLY SHITTT I JUST READ CH 3 OF VOID FOR THE FIRST TIME & I LOST COUNT OF HOW MANY TIMES I HAD TO SCREAM INTO MY DUVET!!!! This chapter was so fucking incredible, the tension was palpable, not only the sexual tension but especially when they were trying to capture the asteroid! I felt like i was watching a legit ass scifi film, the way you described everything created such a perfect picture in my head. Damnit Bee if you ever write a novel i'm gonna go broke from traveling to your meet & greets!1

My friend! I have missed you!! This chain of messages had me giggling and clapping with delight! More messages and thoughts below the cut.

myjeansareonfire said: If you ever considered becoming a screenwriter i would work on that film in👏a👏heart👏beat👏 i would do that shit for no pay hands down 🙌🙇 the scene where they were about to go out on the space walk had me so anxious dude i felt like my heart was racing as much as the oc's.. I'm lowkey claustrophobic so picturing her suiting up into that heavy suit was really getting to me 😂 and then when she didn't want to go back in after experiencing freedom.. I felt my heart pounding, legit 2

myjeansareonfire said: I really can't figure out hoseok but i'm gonna throw out some theories & say that 1) he's just disciplined as FUCK and is hella good at controlling himself & staying professional (cuz he knows that if he allows himself one small slip up then it'll cause a domino effect) 2) he isn't attracted to her?????? Tho.. That scene in the greenhouse where he had to dig his hand into his thigh says otherwise 👀 (or does it?!) 3) he's gay which statistically would not be very unlikely 3

myjeansareonfire said: But if he is OOOO WHO THIS BOY GOT THE HOTS FOR?! 👀👀👀 prob all of them who am i kidding right 🙌 also i'm super curious if hoseok had any.. Thoughts about the oc when she kept bumping into him while they were trying to catch the asteroid? Or was he too focused on the task at hand? Cuz the oc seemed to be very focused. And girl i was so sure that jungkook was gonna get the same storage thing that oc's sextape was on to keep filimg & that she thought she deleted it but she didn't & then that 4

myjeansareonfire said: They were all gonna accidentally watch it or something aksjdjakdh but while we're on the topic of jungkook! I'm really really looking forward to the scene where she cuts his hair!! I feel like it'll be so cute. & just something that's been on my mind, assuming she's going to eventually hook up with all of the crew members in one way or another, i'm super curious about how that would come about with namjoon. He's so no nonsense& professional, as he has to be. It makes me feel like it'd have to 5

myjeansareonfire said: Happen accidentally. Like.. He walks in on her hooking up with someone else, or masturbating somewhere, and then she goes to talk to him about it & apologize and then one thing leads to another and then boOm eventual hook up. I feel like namjoon would be really troubled after it first happens tho and would beat himself up over it a lot. Also!! Dude my nerves were so high when they were in the airlock that when jin asked her to switch lines i got so scared!! I started thinking of all possible 6

myjeansareonfire said: Things that could be wrong 😂😭 i feel like i've never been more immersed in a scene than i was when reading that one. I felt like i could truly feel everything the oc was feeling.. And then some. Lmao I'm sorry these mssgs were so all over the place!😂 i just typed out everything as it came to mind 😅 this chapter was amazing and you blew my socks off as always bee!! You're amazing & i love you!! 💖💞💕💖💞💖💕💖💕💞💞💖💕💕💕 can't wait for the next chapter 👏🙌 7 (final)

myjeansareonfire said: (Wait wait i forgot one thing!! I just wanted to mention that i had to keep reminding myself of the tags cuz i kept picturing there being a leak kr a tear in one of their suits & then their bodies being sucked out into space like human goop!!! Very gruesome in my head & i had to keep being like NOPE no one is gonna die this isn't that type of story 😂😭 i was VERY anxious akshgdsj okay this was the last mssg i promise 🙏)

Thoughts:

1. I love you and your amazing enthusiastic comments.

2. I would love to write a legit ass scifi film. We’ll see where life goes, hahaha. I would probably have to stop writing quite so much smut. You’re a sweetheart!

3. I love that you were so moved by the meteor capture and spacewalk sequences!

4. I like all your thoughts about Hoseok. I have some future scenes from his POV that may clarify his thoughts, but for now I’m enjoying the guessing. 

5. The sextape is still out there... 👀

6. Jungkook’s haircut is in chapter 4! I’m very excited about it.

7. I agree, Namjoon will be tricky to get on board. 

8. No one is going to die!!! Hahaha! It’s not that kind of story. 

I LOVE YOU!! 💖💞💕💖💞💖💕💖💕💞💞💖💕💕💕 Can’t wait to hear more of your thoughts on the next chapters when they come out. 😘

#void #myjeansareonfire

[pagogotrash]

My opinons on Voltron Season 7 (even tho no one cares :))

First of all I’d like to say that I will NEVER EVER send hate to the creators or VAs of the show if I don’t like something. It’s childish, rude, and disrespectful. Even though there were a few things that I wasn’t a fan of in this season it doesn’t mean that the creators deserve to be treated like shit or that I’m going to leave the fandom over it. We were told that s7 would be brutal and I genuinely love the show and the characters, so to leave after all the time and effort that I’ve put into it would be dumb. 

NOW, onto the good stuff!!!! ( - = stuff I loved, **- = stuff I didn’t like ---- so that you can skip over some of my negativity if you aren’t a fan)

- LOVE COSMO WITH ALL MY SOUL HEART MIND AND STRENGTH AAAAHHH

- Hunk’s development was AMAZING!!! I’m proud of my soft boi

**- can’t believe they killed off Adam after hyping up the fact that Shiro was in a relationship with him and didn’t even give him time to mourn or anything it seemed like a throw away 

- Romelle is the most adorable thing I’ve ever seen!!!! AAAAHHH!!!

- Space mice were amazing and adorable as always

- Poor poor Coran, he has gotta learn to be subtle and pick his battles 

- Lance and Keith interactions were GOLD

- LANCE PICKED KEITH AND KEITH PICKED LANCE KHBSIBCICBSCIUBC

- Lance saying “like mother like son” made me laugh I love them

**- ok wtf was that Allurance that was just thrown in there like are you kidding me?! If Lance is happy then fine whatever makes him happy, but it’s such an overused and uninteresting trope, hetero or lgbt+. Like WOW ShE DidN’T ReALizE shE LOveD hiM aFTer aLl THiS tiME?! I still love the show and everything, but it just seemed so bland. It was soft, yes, and if Lance is happy then I’ll let it slide

**- Kaxca?! Really?! There was NO build up to that!! Like at least give them some build up or development or something, like there was NO warning wtf, I mean I thought they were gonna be siblings that’s how far off my expectations for that pair were!

- LANCE’S FAMILY HOLY SHIIIIITTTTT!!!!!! “Uncle Lance!” broke me!!!! Also Lance’s nephew saying “you haven’t grown at all” was SAVAGE!!!! I SCREECHED!!

- HUNK’S FAM!!! Made me sad that they weren’t there but I’m glad that he saved them in the end

- Veronica is my new fav character ngl. She was the epitome of bad ass and she was so fucking awesome. I LOVE her! I actually started screaming when I thought that she had been killed. I was SHOOK TO THE CORE!!!

- Keith and his mom are SO CLOSE NOW!!! I love it so much!!! Krolia is such an amazing character like holy hell.

**- kinda upset about all the queer baiting that they put out there. Like teasing us about klance (and there being a reASON FOR EVERYTHING AND THE BONDING MOMENT) and Adashi, it was just kinda disappointing

- Always knew Ezor was into girls!!! CALLED IT!! I actually thought that her and Axca would get together (another reason that *potential* Kaxca shook me) but I do like Zethrid and her together, badass ladies

- Have I already mentioned Cosmo? Yes? Well I’m gonna SAY IT AGAIN I LOVE THAT SPACE WOLF!!

- Allura giving up her tiara for Shiro took me by total surprise, but it really shows how far she’s come like holy crap I’m proud

**- In the feud episode I was so sad that they wrote off Lance as the “dumb” character again. I thought we had moved past this and established that Lance is valid and important and smart. It made me upset that yet again he’s written off as a throw away dumb character 

- loved all the references to previous seasons like keith and lance carrying shiro -> keith and lance carrying Coran; Pidge’s hand motions with Keith-> Lance’s hand motions with keith; Keith and the druid who had hurt his hand 

- Loved the Plance when they were going to interrogate Pidge like I know I don’t really ship it, but I was living for that scene like YES MY SON PROTECT THE PIDGEON!!

- the Langst when they all thought Lance had died gave me chills I loved it, I live for that shit

- the animation and music as usual was impeccable and stunning OH MY LORD!!

- THE VLOGS THAT THE PALADINS SENT HOME AAAHHH!!! LANCE AND HIS FAMILY AAAAHHH!! ALL OF THEM AND THEIR FAMILIES!!!

- The episode where they were lost in space had me SHOOK. Loved seeing how all of them reacted and loved Hunk’s reactions (both comedic and inspirational); wasn’t a fan of keith and lance fighting, but I saw that as Lance being defensive and hurt and lashing out at keith because he hated that Keith had left them before so KICK

- Will keep shipping klance religiously no matter what, NEVER GIVE UP! KICK!!

- Kaltenecker is an Icon as always

**- The fights at the end kinda got repetitive like save earth, oh no something happened, connect with lions, yay we won, oh no something happened, connect with lions, yay we won, etc.

- BUT the fights had me on the edge of my seat regardless and I legit thought that they were gonna kill the paladins and I was like *GASP* NOOOOO!!

- SHAY CAME BACK!!! YEAS BITCH!!!!

- Cosmo and Veronica?I already said them? Oh well, I LOVE THEM AAAHHH 

- Loved Shiro’s development, so proud of him!

- Loved keith and shiro’s backstory, it was incredible (he learned the jump from shiro I’m crying)

- Soft Klance Looks™

- AGAIN LANCE WAS KEITH’S FIRST CHOICE ABSJCSBISB

- Lance’s face when he nominated Keith in the feud episode was SOOO CUTE HBSDKBSBSCB

- Colleen and Sam Holt are a badass middle aged couple I LOVE THEM!! Colleen would not take no for an answer YES QUEEN!

- That punk bitch James made me wanna slap his bitch ass face, but he did help save the earth so like I guess he’s alright now

- Shiro’s new arm is like kinda ugly, but I am happy that he got an arm back, ya know?

- Iverson apology to Keith was great and a really awesome development, but I was kinda hoping he’d apologize to Lance too, he did kinda degrade him A LOT

Altogether, I loved the season, it had me on the edge of my seat the whole time and although I was really disappointed in some aspects, I still respect the creators and VA’s and I’m excited to see what comes out in the next season. Still praying for Klance but my faith is slowly slipping (still gonna ship it tho, nothing’s gonna stop me). 

#vld spoilers #vld s7 spoilers #voltron season 7 spoilers #voltron s7 spoilers #voltron spoilers #voltron #vld s7 #voltron season seven #voltron season seven spoilers #voltron season 7

[franeridart]

I honestly LOVE your bakushima kids, but did you have any ideas on what the rest of the bakusquad's kids would be like if the others did have kids? If you have thought of it, would the next gen of bakusquad be friends like their parents or not so much?

Thanks!!! And to be completely honest with you, the only other kid I have for that specific AU is the todo//deku one :0 not cause I haven’t thought about the bakusquad ones, but cause I still haven’t managed to decide which ships I wanna go with? Do I do kami//sero or kami//jiro or kami//mina? Do I do mina//jiro or momo//jiro? how about sero//mina? I like so many ships for the squad that I can’t manage picking just one haha but what I already have decided is that whoever Kaminari ended up with his kid is Tai’s best friend. I dunno who that kid is, but they’re best friends 👍

Anon said:Hy i have a fan account on ig it’s @o.urarakaa i want To know if i can repost one or your art thanks 🙏

Ahhhh sorry, but as it’s written more or less everywhere on my blog I don’t allow reposts of my stuff - thank you for asking, tho!

Anon said:Have you ever considered MomoJirou????

I have! Have also drawn it and posted it in the past, actually!

Anon said: FRAAAAAAAN! I love your art from the bottom of my heart and every little doodle makes me smile and gasp in awe because they’re beautiful. And since I love it so much, I often comment under it: Is it troublesome for you or I can continue? Idk, maybe it feels exaggerated or repetitive or annoying and I wouldn’t want to bother you :3 Have a lovely day and thank you for sharing your art! (Your KiriBaku give me life)

No no no it’s super totally okay don’t worry about it!!! Actually thank you so so so so much for always taking your time to let me know you liked my stuff!!!!

Anon said:legit crying at your latest comic. its too fucking soft and adorable i cannot handle it. you’re amazing. thank you for everything you share with us

;O; thank you so much???? oh my god!!!

Anon said:I’m always awkward w/ these BUT!!!!! I JUST NEEDED TO TELL YOU I ABSOLUTELY ADORE YOUR ART AND YOUR ART STYLE SO MUCH!!!!! I always look forward to any new art you post (even if it’s outside my fandoms!!) and I always SMILE/GET MEGA EXCITED WHEN I SEE A NEW ONE!!!! I personally really love your Kiribaku ones though sO THAT NEW KAMIJIROU ONE ESPECIALLY SENT MY HEART SKYROCKETING!!!!!! I sincerely love you as an artist so please know that!!!! Thank you for drawing!!!!!! They make me so happy!!!!!!

HOLY SHIT THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!! this seriously means the world to me, I’m so happy I can make you enjoy even stuff out of your fandoms!!! Seriously thank you for sending this ask, it made my day ;O;

Anon said:What do you think of Bakugou/Shinsou? I stumbled across the pairing recently, and it’s a bit of a rairpair, but it’s so cute???

It’sssss not really my thing actually - well, generally I’m a picky shipper with Bakugou anyway, not gonna lie, but the only interaction Baku and Shinsou ever had made it pretty clear Shinsou can’t stand him and I usually don’t ship Bakugou with people that don’t like him ??? I’m more drawn to his canon happy relationships honestly haha

Anon said:Oh my goodness, you’ve opened my eyes on the similarities and contrasts of both kiribaku and kamijirou (also, Kamijirou is one of my otps, thank you so much)

Haha that’s cool to hear !! They aren’t exactly similar as ships, but they are fun ships to put next to each other cause they contrast in some pretty funny ways imho! :D

Anon said:That’s so cute fran, how do you even come up with these comics they’re perfection

Thank you!!!!!! And I’m gonna be honest with you, that kamijirou one came up mostly just cause I wanted to write the “you’re an asshole how do you have a bf”/ ”for one, I’m not an asshole to my bf” exchange lmao

Anon said:your comics (bakushima in particular) make me so happy, thank you so much!!!!!!!

YAY!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!! I’m glad I can help you be a lil bit happier!!!!!!

Anon said:I love ur art!! I hope u had a nice day!!

THANK YOU! I hope you’ll have a great day too!!!!!!!

Anon said:R u a cat person or a dog person?

Generally a cat person, but just cause I have two cats and love them with my whole heart haha I love dogs a lot too, tho!! Always wanted one ;u;

Anon said:Hi! How was ur day?

Weirdly tiring, but generally good! I hope yours was a good one too!!!

Anon said:Okay but like… I am 100% a lesbian but your art of Tyki and Wisely is so gorgeous that it makes me feel just a little bit straight. Like, wow.

Holy heck, that’s high praise!!! Thank you so much???? :O

Anon said:Your krbk concert art makes me weep. It’s so beautifullll.

SOB thank you!!! This means a lot to me cause that AU means a lot to me, so really, thank you so much!!!! *hugs*

Anon said: I’m laughing, your Shinsou’s are both the most beautiful and the most relatable. I really love the colour scheme.

THANKS!!! Purple is one of my fav colors so I always have lotsa fun with its shades!!! :D

Anon said:i would love to see more bakucamies from you! their friendship is lit

I love and live for all Bakugou relationships, so more of that one will happen for sure! She made him laugh after all, she already owns my soul for that ;^;

Anon said:How do you feel about the other noahs?

Jasdevi means the whole world to me and I miss them more ever passing day, Neah and Mana are my kids whom I need to protect I really just wish for both of them to be happy though I know that’s probably not gonna happen ;;, Road!!!! is!!!!! My girl!!!!!!! Love her, like her better when she’s not hurting Lavi but generally I’m always happy to see her, I have conflicting feelings about Feedra, Sheryl is slimy and I can’t trust him, everyone else wasn’t around enough to know for sure how I feel about them honestly, I’m interested but not particularly invested :0

Anon said:You’re my favourite noah:)

This is??? A weirdly cute ask??? Thank you!!!! :D

Anon said:genuinely shrieking over your doodle of tyki. i love him so fucking much and aH,,

I’M GLAD TO HEAR THAT he’s!!!! so great isn’t he ;O; *sigh*

Anon said:Fran, did you know that I’d die for you and your art?? And also I just really love the extra little things you put in the tags when you post things, idk it makes me really happy to read those little tidbits and for me it just really completes the art,, also your ocs are actually the cutest things I’ve seen in my entire life ((I may or may not be gay for like half of them))

THANK!!!!! YOU!!!!!!!! the oc thing especially, that means the world to me oh my god ;O; still can’t believe people actually like them aaaaHHHHHHHHHHH

Anon said:A concept: someone getting flirty with Kirishima and a jealous Bakugou

A good concept which I’m always up for, but to be honest with you I’m more of a fan of the other way around :O like, Kiri is so good and bright and friend with everyone, jealousy might as well be something Bakugou’s used to by this point - but Bakugou, people tend to avoid him or think of him as rude and annoying, Kirishima wouldn’t be used to jealousy at all you know? So I like it that way around more haha

Anon said:Hi! as a fellow artist I just wanted to rant bc I thought you might understand how I feel. my art never comes out looking right and it’s just so frustrating ugh is this what you call artblock ;; I just want my art to look good sigh

I wouldn’t call it an artblock, it’s more like… like your mind is one step ahead of your skills, I’d say. If treated right, you can turn that feeling into improving your art! What is it that you don’t like? Can you break it down to smaller things? Is it the line work or the coloring style, or even just the way you draw eyes or hands or noses? If you can focus on the smaller parts of what you don’t like in your style you can then look up a way to do the same thing that you do like, and practice that till you’re satisfied with it! One small thing might not mean much by itself, but putting all these small things together is how you make improvement happen :D 

Anon said:Perdona se non scrivo in inglese, ma sono un totale disastro. Volevo solo dirti che ammiro tantissimo il tuo lavoro ed è un balsamo per l'anima quando appare in bacheca.

AHHHHHHHHH ;O; GRAZIE MILLE !!!!!!!!!! E non preoccuparti per la lingua !!! siamo italiani dopotutto, l’inglese non è necessario per comprenderci haha

Anon said:omg you and your all time low references, I love it so much (everytime I listen to afterglow I think in kiribaku bc of your drawing and now I’m going to do it with the last young renegade 💕)

Hahahaha they’re one of my favorite bands after all, I fall back on them a lot lol I’m glad you like that, tho!!!

Anon said:a concept: angry bakugo next to a smol duck

*me, crying* i-it’s beautiful ;o;

Anon said: *sobs* I LOVE YOUR YULMAS SO MUCH T-T

I’M HAPPY YOU LIKED THAT ONE????? Happy yulma is what keeps me going honestly I love them so incredibly much ;O;

Anon said:I ship the squad x Sero’s hammock

So do I hahaha

Anon said:YOU ADDED GLASSES BAKUGOU TO REDBUBBLE THANK YOUUUUU

I DID! Happy you were happy about that!!! haha

Anon said:What’s your opinion on bakucamie? Both as a friendship and a relationship

Absolutely not as a romantic thing, but I love it as a friendship! As I said, anyone who can make Bakugou laugh owns my soul forever hahaha

Anon said:your bakugous are so good!! also you drew my new fave girl camie i love her so much and i espicially love her in your style!!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh thank you!!!!!!!!! I’m glad you like how she came out, tho I admit I feel like I still don’t have her down properly… will have to draw her more :O

Anon said:Your art style is so amazing, and I love your different au’s and Bakushima comics!! Any plans to draw some BakuCamie brotp in the future?

Thank you!!! And I don’t ever have plans for what I draw until I actually sit down to draw it, but more Baku and Camie is totally possible!!

Anon said:hey fran! i adore your art, been here from the very first page of your tattoo au!!!! i just wanted to say 2 things: 1. when baku laughed this chapter i thought of you! and 2. every time i see your todoroki my heart explodes in my chest he’s so so pretty in your style :00 hope you’re having a wondeful day!

YO THAT’S SUCH A LONG TIME!!!! I’m so happy to hear you stuck around this long!!! ;O; and thank you for the compliment oh my god!! ;O; Todo is so damn fun to draw, I’m glad to hear he comes out well enough!!!

Anon said:OH MY GOSH LITERALLY ALL THE BAKUGOUS YOU DREW IN YOUR MOST RECENT POST ARE SO FUCKING CUTE AND PRECIOUS AND PRETTY AND IM DEAD. The colours look amazing! And his facial expressions are so soft and nice. My favourite is probably him with the dog cos his hair look so freakin fluffy and soFT. I also love him laughing because didn’t everyone just die at that manga panel and you make him look extra sweet! I also love him talking to camie cos he looks exciting and a little shocked to have a friend! /// I love the other ones too obviously they’re all amazing! But I just wanted to share my favourites and how much I love them!

SO MUCH LOVE IN JUST ONE ASK!!!! Thank you so much for sending it all this way aaahhhhhhh

Anon said:Hiii, I hope you are having a good day! I want to know if you sell posters of your art online because I would love to have one of your kiribakus hanging on my wall 😍 idk why but your art makes me happy, like your style is so beautiful and your headcanons are so cute so it is like the perfect combination that always cheers me up when Im sad 💕 thank you

THANK YOU!!! And yeah I do, I have a redbubble shop!!! ;O;

#fran answers #i feel #like i lost some along the way #heck #if you sent me an ask i didn't answer maybe send it again? #my inbox is such a mess honestly orz #anonymous

[briteboy]

(circumstantial name by @earnoodle)

IT’S FINALLY TIME FOR THE POST YOU’VE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR (or maybe just that one anon)

there’s a LOT in here, newer questions are generally first so if you asked something a while ago and you’re only interested in that, scroll towards the bottom. also doing wcifs separately (errr i’m gonna try my hardest to ok don’t crucify me)

this mass anons post includes topics ranging from Very Sweet Things Said To Me That I Don’t Deserve, nitpicking stranger things, crying over ramona, lou theories, Cillian Is A Fucking Creep theories (true), and completely unhelpful reshade advice

let’s f0cking do this

You're right, apart from carrying his stupid brain, Santi's head didn't do anything to any of us. I apologize for anon.

I'm pretty sure I said that already but I love Rooney and Santi's relationship so much I literally have no words for it

ME TOO LIKE IT’S JUST SO PURE TWO NOT-KIDS SCARED OF THE ADULT WORLD TRYING TO FIGURE THINGS OUT WITH THEIR WEIRD BRAINS TOGETHER ;__; i love them

YO i didnt know u were a demigirl!! im a demiboy nb Buddies

hell fuckin yeah dude!! we are starting a demi club

Ok but like I really want werewolves. Like I know it sounds stupid but we have vampire and while yes I love my bat babes, I want a giant pupper friend. I have story written out and plans for a cabin to build. Now I’m waiting for EA to give me my big hairy babes.

DUDE i want more supernatural stuff too, mostly witches like I NEED MY WITCHES AGAIN!!! ts3 witches were so good. i didn’t like ts3 werewolves much but i feel like they’d be super cool in ts4, knowing how the vampires came out. i NEED it

hihi! i've been very quietly (??) following your blog for some time now and i just fawn over your characters way too much ?? anywho, i've been wanting to start my own little simblr story but ,, i'm not entirely sure where to even start? i have so many stories that i'd love to get out there, and i have the means.. butt, how did you go about starting out?? so sorry this is so long but i look up to you a whole ton!!! ty ily! :-)

i’m the (??) lmao that’s me always but ahdhghdfkshg thank you so much!!!!! i’m so glad you love them, it means the world to me ;-; and listen, that was me, i had no idea how i was going to do it because i’d only seen ts3 stories up to that point and i thought there was like a set Way to tell stories but i had no idea what i was doing so i was like y’know what...i’m just gonna do it how i feel comfortable doing it and i’m gonna figure it out as i go along. so honestly try to roughly plan out what your stor(ies) will entail and if you get stuck on planning and can’t figure it out, just jump right into it, try to make a few scenes or get the ball rolling somehow, even if it’s just random posts (i mean that’s all my blog was until i decided to commit to santi’s story.) it’s always gonna feel weird and awkward at first, but you’ll get comfortable the more you do it and it’ll figure itself out, trust me!

I read through most of your story posts the other day and now I’m rereading it again just to torture myself some more (and maybe catch up on some posts I may have missed). I honestly don’t think I’ve come across a sims story that’s so beautifully written & includes such evocative pictures as yours. I’m really at a loss for words, it’s all so stunning. & after a nearly two-month long creative block, it’s planted the smallest seed of inspiration in the back of my mind, so thank you for your art.

AHHHH AHSDHKGKDSJG WHAT!!!!! it’s always crazy hearing that 1) people actually care about my stuff, and 2) that it inspires them. like i really cannot believe that, stilL!! thank you so so much, i’m so happy you enjoyed it (as torturous as it was, lmao) it seriously warms my heart that you’re getting your groove back in the creative world, that means more to me than ANYTHING!! good luck with your art or whatever you decide to do with that inspiration!

 can i pls have your editing skill please and thank you

i owe most my editing at this point to reshade so honestly get reshade and u will probably become better than me

o added u on animal crossing and when you added me back i was so happy,, your little person is sooo adorable ((:

OMG!! thank you!! everyone’s person on there is adorable i cry i love them all so much i’m so mad tho it won’t let me add any more friends!!! it probably cuts off at like 100 friends or something STUPID

First of all, I love you. Secondly, I love your photos so much. I'm legit about to just ditch sims 3 for 4 now because of your amazing posts. 😖

LMFAO no but really THANK YOU I LOVE YOU!!! if you can manage playing both i admire u, i’ve invested too much time and effort into ts4 to ever fully go back to any other sims games tbh

The new patch made my game unplayable! I'm crying, I miss my doggos...

NOOOOO!!! hopefully by now you’ve found a fix, i’m prayin for u

long time listener, first time caller yoooo. i like everyone love your stories and your sim aesthetic so so so much and just tbh i was offended on your behalf about that ask from that person wanting to novelize your stories. like you were way too nice. this is your intellectual property and it's fucked up that someone would think it'd be okay to duplicate it as long as they used a different medium. this is prob a bad one to repost just wanted to you to know you're an awesome, singular voice

omfg lmao this is a radio show now *z100 voice* tellem why ya mad euhhh first of all i can’t believe someone even ASKED that, i’m in shock because like what this is so foreign to me. people want to write about MY characters WHAT! like that alone...takes a long time to process. and like i know i should say no but then i feel mean but they’re also my creations so like idk. it warms my heart that you feel so strongly and would stand up for me like that i’m cryin thank u for calling in i love u

I JUST FINISHED YOUR ENTIRE STORY AND I'M NOT OK WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE PUTTING ME THROUGH THAT SHIT IT'S AN EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTER AND I FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE ABUSED MY (NON EXISTENT) INNOCENCE WOW

I’M SO SORRY U HAD TO GO THROUGH THAT ALSO I APOLOGIZE FOR STEALING YOUR INNOCENCE I NEVER MEANT FOR THIS TO HAPPEN OSDAFKJDSK BUT THANK YOU FOR READING I’M GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT EVEN IF IT HURT YOU!!!

I've been up all night and it's now 11am. I'm completely binging on your stories bc I am in LOVE and need a Molly in my game asap. Do you think you'll ever upload her?

omG my freaking story inciting insomnia i’m so sorry for ur sleep schedule first of all, but at least that makes you identify with santi even more omg tho ;___; (how many times will i say ‘omg’ i wonder) i don’t think so because she is so dear to me and makes my heart ache, she is just so special, i dunno if i could ever release her into the wild like that lmao. i haven’t even shared her with my friends (not that i really ever had a reason to) but like yeah. maybe in the future that’ll change but right now, no, i’m sorry <3

To change the topic: Idk if you watch stranger things but I only managed to get to episode 3 of season 2 before I stopped watching lmao it was so bad and Billy (a certified Cunt) ruined the whole show for me

YEAH I DID! omg. i have a LOT of issues with this season (mostly in how badly they tried to retcon nancy and everyone else not caring about barb’s death, how bad the writing was in the realm of nancy and steve breaking up and then her and jonathan getting together...holy fuck it was so uncomfortable with that 40 yr old conspiracy theorist guy i couldn’t even enjoy my ship getting together lmao) also ur right, max and billy honestly did not offer anything to the story...like i loved max too but what was the point...billy acted like their presence and the reason they had to move was so dramatic when it was really nothing...unless they’re saving that for season 3 but like. the whole situation with billy was so anticlimactic. he was like a walmart version of henry from IT. like boohoo ur dad’s an asshole and then he beat up steve. good character arc. i liked max standing up for herself but really...that whole thing was so lackluster, i didn’t care about it at all. ALSO I HATED THAT THEY DIDN’T LET MAX AND ELEVEN BE FRIENDS!! i’m sure it’ll happen in season 3 but like c’mon...that would’ve made the max character feel a little more important to the story. anyway yeah fuck billy and i don’t get why everyone is lusting after him or his actor they’re both ugly! thanks for listening

I just got the sims 4 + city living and I’m so excited! I was really inspired by your stories and style in general... I was wondering what packs do you have and also what are your favourite sims 4 hairs? I’m having trouble finding ones and I love your style!

YAY I’M EXCITED FOR YOU!!! omg aww it warms my heart so much when people say i inspire them because i never anticipated that kind of response, thank you so much <3 hmmm i think i have all of them except glamour stuff and fitness stuff. and pretty much all the hairs i download are here or here. (or the subsequent ‘tf’, ‘cf’, ‘tm’ and ‘cm’ tags as well, according to age)

UHM a 19 year old and a 13 year old? Poor baby Lou... Also youre a brilliant writer i cant

😬😬😬  stay tuned ajasdhjhjsahd thank you so much!!!

My stan levels for you have increased so much? like thanks for being a good ally, clAps for femmesim!

lmao thank you, i don’t really deserve praise tho i’m just passing on the knowledge of those patient enough to teach me. just trying to do what i can with my privilege u know. ily

How do you have teeth showing in so many of your pictures of Lou and Molly, do you PS them in?

i’ve gotten this question before and it’s usually just the poses used! i do have some lipsticks that have teeth on them but i mostly use them for just rooney.

Honestly, a fight between Santi and that new guy (srry, forgot his name while typing this) would be so hot. Like, I hope Santi would win but like just watching Santi fight him for Lou would make me happy!! Also, I live for your stories💞

omG i’m about to call up vince mcmahon they both need to fight on smackdown it’s gonna happen. they’ll both be shirtless too ok and THANK YOU ILY

boi poc can be PREJUDICED against white people but there is no such thing as reverse racIIIIIIiiiiIIIIIiiiIIIIsm

Lemme just say that you must be feeling so stressed rn. I love you and your simblr!!! Your posts light up my day!! <3333

OMg kind of. this week has taken A Lot out of me and i really just want to chill at home and play my freaking GAME but obligations. u know. here’s hoping i get a day off this week. i’m mad i’m probably gonna miss gianni’s birthday too (it’s on tuesday) and i wanted to do something for it!! i’ll probably do it late like i did last year too lmao i’m so sorry baby g ANYWAY u didn’t ask to hear about any of this...thank you for this sweet message i love you <3

why,,,, are people... coming to your blog to discuss race you are a fucking simblr WHAT

the real question is why do people go to you like its your job to educate them lmao like theres so many resources out there

SHAWDY u aint wrong reverse racism is literally a joke i am so sorry you have to go through all of this keep stepping on white feelings we deserve it

I was wondering would u consider Asians to be POC?

yes

I just finished Strange the Dreamer and it was fucking amazing. I cried so much and I laughed and I sat in absolute amazement at the world Laini Taylor has created. 100/10 would recommend

ahhhh i really need to read it apparently!! i’m like 10% away from being done with a dance with dragons (and then i have to wait for the next book like a peasant HURRY UP KING GEORGE) anyway this one is definitely on my list!

omgomg!! I just met this girl in my class who has eyes just like ramona's!!! But like instead of being brown w/ a little bit of blue, they were blue w/ a little bit of brown!!! Dude I was so shook I rlly didn't think ppl had eyes like that!

OMG!!!! that’s amazing! and yes heterochromia is a real thing haha. i’ve only met one person with it and he had the same color combo as ramona too, only his was full heterochromia, not sectoral.

*me in the background screaming* nO yOU LEAVE HER ALoNE baD-DAD-MaN!

ME TF TOO

every time i read some of your stories i get an ache in my heart that doesn't go away until i either cry or sleep so interpret that as you like

OMG ;_____; ok me too tho my heart literally hurts thinking about my characters sometimes...mostly santi...i hate him (no i don’t :{ )

hey uhh idk if you've answered something like this before but do you have a spotify or something bc your music taste is GOLD

THANK YOU!! you were the first person to ask about this haha and hopefully you saw my answer to the other question about it! i just made one and it’s here!

hi hi ! i’m seeing all the drama on da blog and i really want to read the whole story but i can’t get to it on mobile so i was wondering if you could link the beginning and tell me what the best order to read it in is ( i’m so confused because i’ve seen sm people y’all about a parallel story so idk if i’m being dumb !! ) i hope this isn’t any inconvenience also your sims are so beautiful sjajsjajs

hey on mobile the link is just: http://femmesim.tumblr.com/tagged/story/chrono i would honestly just recommend that order haha, it makes things simpler and it encompasses ALL story posts, or posts that give context. there are parallels in my story, lou’s is kind of a parallel of santi’s, only different...well...you’ll see. but yeah sorry this is so late! and thank you!!!

TU HISTORIA ES TAAAAAN BUENA POR DIOOOOS (YOURE STORY IS SOOOOO GOOD OMG) <3 <3 *OO* *cries in spanish*

MUCHAS GRACIAS ENCANTADORA PERSONAAAA <333

lou is wendy right? i mean, a wendy complex is someone who is overly mothering to partners, and lou is already a mother and ik that doesn't really count as foreshadowing but it seems like it could be a link to me. it'd make sense too, considering guys that go after younger girls (ew) are usually immature ie peter pan complex. it'd make the most sense that those two go together then.

heheheheh that is a VERY good observation...that’s all i’m gonna say!!

This has nothing to do with what's happening in the story rn, but whatever. I was wondering if you were going to mention lou's struggles with being a single mom and the stigma surrounding single motherhood? As a single mother myself I'd really enjoy seeing you take on the issue. Personally, my biggest problem was overcoming the generalizations people put on you when you're a single mom. People always assumed that I that I was stupid and uneducated because I had my son when I was 17.

yes! that will definitely come up. i will focus a lot on her struggles as a single mom. so far i’ve mostly just peppered in some stuff about money troubles, and that will come up again, and the issues you mention will be pretty central to her character as well. i’m sorry you have to endure that, it’s not fair. people don’t even realize how strong and dedicated single mothers are.

when you say Peter Pan, do you mean the Disney stuff or the og creepy stuff?

i mean the general themes of the story and how that translates into a peter pan complex: boy who never grows up, feels like he fits in more with younger people (haha...yikes), read the message above because that anon described the other half of the equation better than i could

Wait, hold up. That dude is cute but I feel like he’s coming onto Lou way too strong. I have a bad feeling.. Lou is like 13 there and he is 19 I mean I’ve seen bigger gaps between people, but she is not legal yet.. Where are you going with this? 🤨😅

yyyyyyep that feeling is warranted! i am going a way i don’t think you guys expect me to go...i think you’ll be very confused at the end of this part lmao. that being said, i’m not putting any of this in for shock value or to romanticize inappropriate relationships like this. (i’m probably going to be repeating that a LOT for this story but please just keep that in mind)

Hey mom wanna hear a fun as hell story? I just got back from the ER bc I fell on my razor after showering, and practically cut my nipple in half. (I am in so much pain hELP)

OMFG NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOUR POOR NIPPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’M SO SORRY I HOPE IT FEELS BETTER PLEASE UPDATE ME ON THE NIPPLE STATUS

U gotta watch sense8!!! Apart from the v awkward sex scenes it's v good, has a lot of representation and shit Just watch that shit show, u won't regret it (And if you do I cut your throat oops)

i’ve heard it’s good! i remember when it first came out and everyone was like Wow The Representation so honestly anything with diversity has already got me hooked pls don’t murder me.

I'm calling it now. He's Fi's dad. and he's a FUCKING CREEP!! Bitch you are 19!! LOU IS 13!! BACK THE FUCK OFF YOU PERV!!

no spoilers or anything but honestly i’m with you @ cillian die

Are they gonna fucc, o no

right now? no. that would be Very Bad

bABY ITS COLD OUTSIDE

oh same

Hi ! Your lastest edit (graveyard girl) is truly amazing, how did you make that bokeh behind her ? 😱😍

thank you so much!!! it’s reshade (with matso DOF)!

You've probably got this question a lot of times but i can't find the answer for it. What reshade do you use?

i gotta add this to my faq, it’s one i created myself but i started out with this one (it totally doesn’t resemble that one anymore but i think it’s a good starting point)

how do you make good looking male sims? mine always look the same and kinda girly..

hmmm longer faces, prominent chins and jaws, smaller eyes, bigger noses...generally yeah

What do you mean 9 + alt?

you gotta turn bb.moveobjects on and then press alt + 9 when an object is selected to move it upward. so what i did with those poses i made was, i selected a teleporter and pressed alt + 9 until it was at a spot i liked on the roof. that’s why releasing those poses would be tricky, ‘cause every build is different so there’s no set way to place them, you just kinda have to play around with them

You mentioned GoT so naturally, I have to chime in and express my love for Jon. Honestly, he won me over ever since the first season? I'm at season 5 now and people have already warned me so now i'm silently weeping, waiting for something to happen to my precious bby help

JONNY BOY!!!!!!!!!!! i loved his emo ass since the beginning but his arc with qorin halfhand (was he in the show??) was probably the best arc in book 2 and then his book 3 arc was just...SO GOOD, SO MUCH happens to him and i just felt like i was watching my son go through it all...i love that boy so much ;-; i’m almost at the end of the last book and i’m scared for him because of the one spoiler i know lmao and you’re at that point too so GET READY we’ll go through it together ok

So there's this game I'm playing where someone talking about another character says 'maybe you can break him from his ouroboros of self-fladulation' (I know I probably butchered those spellings but I'm not a bright egg and autocorrect isn't helping rip) and tbh it made me think of Santi. (Also I'mma scream of you get this reference jsyk)

OMG THE FACT THAT YOU THOUGHT OF HIM ;-; and it’s okay u are the brightest egg in the bunch to me. I’M SORRY I DON’T GET THIS REFERENCE BECAUSE I’M NOT A VIDEO GAME PERSON BUT I’LL PRETEND I DO KNOW WHAT UR TALKING ABOUT anyway yes santi is currently in the process of breaking his self-flagellation and embracing the oneness of the ouroboros (as opposed to letting the cycle repeat itself until he’s worn down to nothing)

do you have any favorite pose creators?

answered

do you have any tips for taking good screenshots in game? like how to get the good angles and good quality? i play on ultra but i think when i zoom in and then use the arrows on my keyboard to move around, the pictures gets less clear and looks kinda blurry. how should i do this?

well if you’re already using ultra, there’s not much you can do lmao. sims 4 is just bad with textures in general. it also depends on the objects as well, some are better quality than others. if i zoom in far on a sim’s face, i generally know there will be some pixelation and i can clean that up in photoshop with topaz clean and the smudge tool. i am very reliant on photoshop sometimes lmao. it sounds like you already have the basics of taking good screenshots, it’s just sometimes you have to fight and work with sims 4′s less-than-hd quality.

burn it down by daughter reminds me of santi & i'm in pain

ouroboros!!! death! birth! death again! birth again rinse repeat! also santi breaking the cycle because third time's the charm

The tattoo is an Ouroboros. It originated in Egyptian iconography, and it symbolizes recreation. My boy's recreating himself, I'm so proud.

ouroboros, the dragon eating its own tail. it's a sign of eternal renewal

i saw the post of child molly and just started BAWLING i miss her what the fuck she's my fave character i'M CRYING

ME TOO BICH!! ME FUCKIN TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just read all of A Serious Case Of The Novembers so far and theres still tears on my face. some of the best stuff ive read in a while, great job on everything

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! ALSO I’M SORRY FOR MAKING YOU CRY

every time you write about molly and her in heaven it makes my heart swell, like the characters were answering asks and someone asked her what heaven was like and even though it was so small short lil answer it still pulls at the heart strings, basically what im trying to say is that your writing is so good! <3

omg ;_______; me too, i feel like she has such a simple way with words and although her descriptions of heaven are brief, they are also complex and beautiful, and even just writing it chokes me up ;-; thank you so much tho i’m so glad you like it!!

Molly: out Molly tatto: also out

why did this remind me of this post:

How did you edit in the fire in the last post? Looks cool

i searched things like “bonfire” and pasted parts of it that i wanted on the pic to make it look more realistic, then put a layer mask on the pasted pic and erased the edges and stuff to make it blend in better. the sparks and stuff i added by pasting it onto a new layer and changing the blending mode to screen! 

idk if you have every watched grey anatomy but Lou's backstory is starting to remind me of Jo (Jo is a character from the show) like Jo was in a abusive relationship and she is married to the guy but she cant get divorced or he will come and find her. So like if Lou didn't tell Fiona's dad he was a dad and Lou was married to him and cant escape the marriage (cause abuse), plus it would explain Lou's kink with being choked ;) full circle *god-like heaven music with tiniest violin is playing now*

ooh no i don’t but that’s interesting and i’m excited you even made a connection like that! i will say that it’s not lou who likes to be choked (the very opposite actually lmao) but otherwise the situation does kinda fit. i’m the violin

I have a freakin bio pre ap test tomorrow on photosynthesis and i have no idea what it is im going to fail save me

I’M ANSWERING THIS VERY LATE BUT I HOPE YOUR TEST WENT WELL!!!!!! *spongebob voice* photosynthesis

last time I installed reshade I couldn't get it to open the controls or shaders or anything in game :///// any tips?? I love they way reshade looks too!!

hmmmmm well i know the control panel opens when you press shift + f2, and then you check the boxes of the effects you want on them. i haven’t heard of this problem so i dunno what other advice to give i’m sorry :{ if it’s your first time installing it, you might have to wait a little to get it to load up.

Da puppy is so cute!!!

That dog and Romona are so adorable, I might cry

Ramona's cheeks are so big im in love

NAJKSDJGKJSD THANK YOU i love her and her chubby cheeks ;-;

OMG TOTORO IS SO BEAUTIFUL I LOVE GHIBLI UGH FKSJFJANFB

SAME!!!!!!! if i could only watch ghibli movies for the rest of my life i’d be totally fine with that

THE DOGGIE HAS EYES JUST LIKE RAMONAS IM GONNA FUCKIGN CRY

ME FUCKGN TOO!!!!!!!!!! it was fate (aka me creating the wolf pup to look just like her shh i am fate)

Hope I'm not bothering you but i wondered if you knew how to make Tamo sims eyebags work on a toddler? Do I just click in s4s to work for toddler on the "age and gender flags" when looking in My CC or do I have to do something a little more than that please? Thank you.

for any skin detail or makeup, you have to go into s4s and open the package up, go to one of the tabs (honestly i don’t remember which one because i don’t have it open rn lmao) and you’ll see the different age groups and you check the box for toddler. and then save it of course. (there’s probably a better guide on how to do this somewhere lmao)

Hey :) Sorry to take up your time, I was wondering if you use win7, win8 or win10? I'm trying to decide on one and people seem to have very strong feelings about it. Also what web browser do you use? I've used Firefox, but I had some problems on CC websites. Thanks<3

i use windows 10 because it came with my laptop lmao i honestly don’t know much about windows systems at all!! and i use google chrome because it’s never failed me (even though windows keeps pressuring me to use the new internet explorer called “edge”)

i just finished all of novembers in a sitting and 1. i'm Sobbing, 2. your music taste is bomb

THANK YOU!!! my music taste is like one part indie shit, one part rap and hip-hop, twelve parts emo middle school bands

what is the size of the original unedited screenshot?

1920x1080

For reshade when your first install and select the reshade you want to use do you have to edit the settings? Cause last time I tried to (I didn’t know what most of the things meant lmao) but it kept saying error or something so I couldn’t play the game so I ended up taking out reshade

do you mean the preset you want to use? i mean no you can just play with that preset, you don’t have to change anything about it. i’m not sure what you mean but i followed this guide for setting it up

Will you ever share your preset?? Or maybe a preset made be you??

i’ve answered this before but the answer is Maybe

Hi!!!! How do you make the rays of light you have in your photos?? THANK U BBY <3333

that’s actually in my editing tutorial but here you go <3

is reshade only available on windows + do we need to pay for it

yes and no

Hello love! I was wondering (and maybe it's a dumb question, idk) but what life span setting do you use? I would assume you turned off aging for your story but maybe I'm wrong ;w; Thank you!!

i do actually have aging off ‘cause i’m a coward lmao even in the ts3 days when i wasn’t doing story stuff and literally just playing i had it off for the most part and just aged sims up when i wanted because i like to be in control of Everything (aries)

I really just wanted to say that I’m new I your tumblr but your stories are amazing and I love them so much!!! Keep doing what you’re doing💞👏🏼

hey thank you!!! you are so kind and i’m glad you’re enjoying everything!!

In your reshade settings where have you set it to save your SS's to and which key please? I can't find mine after setting it to desktop/screenshots :(

i just set mine to ts4′s screenshots folder because it’s what i was used to and it works for me haha. hmmmmmm did you copy the exact address or whatever it’s called of your folder’s location and then paste it into the reshade box? try doing that with another location and see if it works. if anything you can do what i did ‘cause it worked for me 

ok SO i came across this music video for this like spanish/english speaking indie band called The Marías and the song was déjate llevar and literally everything about the music video reminded me of rooney and gianni

OMMMGGG i love this so much, i cry @ music suggestions and this is so them ;-; i think i’ve heard of this band before actually!!

a little life is going to fucking ruin you,,, just a warning

great! i look forward to it

can a steal ur talent

have it i don’t need it

What app are you using to make them cool edit things??

i tagged it but it was doodle face

omg Strange the Dreamer is so freaking amazing! It’s literally one of my favorite books of all time; You’ll love it. The writing is absolutely delightful

you guys are really singin the praises for this book!! i have so many dang books to read i swear

#nonsims #saviorhide #anonymous #sunny answers #it is done and i never want to see another anon message again #i retire

[nctmaginesmut]

NCT As Boyfriends

Anon requested:  Hi I hope this isn't too much to ask for but can you guys do nct as your boyfriend? Thank you!

Genre: Fluff & SMut

Author: admin Karma

A/N: Hey, i'm sorry you had to wait so long These are all members besided the minors and Lucas & Jungwoo since I don't know much about them yet......... Also since it’s 10 members this is a long one....

Reminder! This is completely how I see them as boyfriends and it's probably very inaccurate as I am not that good at reading people but i'll do my best!! (this is for all genders) and since this is a smut acc, I will add some 16+ content to it ;)

Taeil 

- Okay 

- So this boy is pretty quiet and shy sometimes always 

- And I don't see him as much as the PDA person 

- At all tbh 

- But he would show you love in his own way 

- It's not like he's afraid to show affection 

- He just doesn't know how 

- He also wouldn't love skinship I would say 

- But he wouldn't hate it 

- If you like/love skinship it would be all fine by him 

- He would get all shy and shit every time you would grab his hand or touch him in any way to be honest 

- He would also be very casual about your relationship.. 

- Sometimes.. 

- On certain days he would mention you like once and keep it cool 

- But on other days you would be the only thing he would talk about 

- Moon Taeil is a very strange man 

- But I love him 

- Ok and now the 16+ shit 

- Oi 

- Lego! 

- Sorry 

- Ok. He would be slow, but like very fucking nice 

- And it would be about both yours and his comfort 

- He wouldn't really want to dominate you or be dominated. 

- He ain't about that 

- All he wants is to show you how much he cares about you 

- He so soft 

- But if you asked for something rougher he would try his best 

- At first he would be a bit awkward and not knowing what to do 

- But as he got to know what you like and how you like it 

- He would do an amazing job 

- Wow 

- Rough!Taeil 

- Is that how you use that????? 

- I think he wouldn't mind you being rough on him either tho 

- He likes being pleased just as much as pleasing you 

- Also, he would be quiet I think.. 

- But with soft moans here and there 

- What is my problem?? 

Hansol 

- Okay let's see how this beautiful boy would date 

- This boy is v quiet 

- Woop! they all are in my eyes apparently 

- Jk 

- But like at first sight.. 

- When you two get to know each other 

- And he will get more comfortable 

- I think he would be a completely different person 

- Very funny 

- Dorky 

- Cute 

- Awkward still sometimes 

- But that's just his cute trait 

- HEY! STOP IT!

- I think he would like skinship 

- But not over the top 

- He likes to show affection without words 

- ???? 

- Does that make sense? 

- Yes it does 

- He would love dates and going out a lot 

- Especially midnight dates maybe?? 

- Like just the two of you late at night in a cafe 

- Idk 

- Save me 

- But he is just a very out doors person I can imagine 

- He likes to make memories with you 

- Wow 

- I am in pain 

- MATURE TIME THO 

- He is all over the place tbh 

- Would be soft if he wanted to 

- Would be rough if he wanted to 

- He would also be giggly sometimes?? 

- He loves kisses 

- L 

- O 

- V 

- E 

- S 

- Them 

- Save me 

- He likes touching you all over and shit 

- This fucker also likes it when you moan loudly for him 

- Yeah 

- Ji Hansol is great 

Johnny 

- okay ya'll 

- HERE IS.. 

- No 

- This dork would be great tbh 

- Like he my low key bias wrecker and I am not okay 

- I don't think he loves aegyo 

- (Does anyone??) 

- But he would do it for you 

- If you wanted to 

- You two would go out on cute dates 

- But mainly stay inside and do cute stuff there 

- Like watch tv 

- And like make chocolate dinosaurs 

- ........... 

- K 

- He would love to take pictures of you 

- And sing to you 

- Play piano for you 

- I hate myself 

- He would love to carry you on his back 

- A lot 

- This boy is so loving and lovable it pains me 

- night time tho 

- I think he loves to take care of you 

- But that's only when he is like just semi-horny 

- When he has been waiting all day 

- I bet you you'll need new clothes 

- This boy would be rough 

- He needs you and he needs you now 

- He loves to tease you as well 

- Telling you how horny you must be for him 

- He likes a bit of control 

- Knowing he has made you this turned on for him 

- He loves sucking on your skin 

- Hickeys 

- H i c k e y s 

- Moans 

- M o a n s 

- Help me 

- For everyone who was expecting a daddy kink. I don't think he has one just because he was asked to explain the meaning. Leave the boy alone! Kamsahamnida, Xiè xiè, Arigatou!111!!1 

Taeyong

- This boy was legit 'not everything is what it seems' to me 

- Oh boi was I wrong when I saw this guy for the first time 

- I thought he was all dark, mysterious and cold you know??? 

- But he is one big fluff!! 

- He is so kind and sweet 

- What was I doing again??? 

- Fuck 

- Ok 

- So Taeyong right 

- Like he would love love love loVEEEE his significant other to death!!! 

- You make him happy and that means the world to him! 

 YOU mean the world to him! 

- He would talk about you a lot 

- To the level of annoyance 

- But he's cute so it's ok 

- He would do aegyo for you 

- A E G Y O 

- You hear me?? 

- This boy a real 상 남자!! (Manly man) 

- He loves to buy stuff for you 

- He really does 

- He gotta stop tho

- SM not paying him enough to spend it all on you 

- He would treat you like you're his everything 

- Which you are to him 

- I became Taeyong biased while writing this.. 

- I'll give you a hint on what is next 

- "Cosplay" 

- I'll go home 

- Oh yes 

- It's sexy time 

- With Lee Taeyong 

- But ok this boy would be rough as fuck 

- He would love to kiss you so much 

- So much touching 

- So many sounds 

- So many thrusts 

- This boy would use all his energy left in him to fuck it into you 

- Wow I gotta calm 

- But seriously 

- He wouldn't give two shits about who is top tbh 

- He would love to see you on top of him 

- He is loud too ;)   

Yuta

- Can I skip Yuta tho? 

- I ain't doing this 

- I can't handle this man 

- I hate him 

- Can you tell he my bais? 

- Woops! 

- So this Japanese fucker here

- Yeah he all up in this skinship! 

- If it wasn't for him being an idol you bet your ass he would be all over PDA 

- He loves showing affection with his body the most 

- Because the only thing coming out of his mouth are roasts 

- And yes 

- He would roast you as well 

- No mercy 

- Go big or go home 

- He would be so biased over you as well tbh 

- He likes you and is not afraid of showing it 

- He get's jealous easily too 

- Even when you talk to other members he's like 

- "Wow back the fuck up bitch" 

- Not really like that tho 

- He'd probably wrap an arm around you 

- Kiss you 

- Yeah I think this boy loves kisses too 

- Lots of kisses 

- In the bedroom especially 

- I think this boy is definitely a fucking dom 

- He is a real mountain manly man and will show it! 

- He would love to have you under his control 

- He loves your reactions 

- When he kisses you all over 

- Hickeys will be a thing 

- He loves marking you 

- He loves to tease as well 

- A lot 

- I think this fucker would also have some rules in the bedroom 

- I think there would be definitely a "No clothes at all time" rule 

- Or you'll be punished 

- I hate myself 

- He better stop 

- Imma sue his ass 

Kun

- I see Kun having two sides to him

- He would be soft and squishy one moment

- But hot the other

- He also is very savage

- But he doesn't even try tho

- He's accidentally savage...

- But we're here to talk about boyfriend!Kun

- Not savage!Kun

- Ok

- He loves dates

- A lot

- Especially ice cream dates

- And cafe dates

- He loves taking pictures as well

- A lot of them

- He also loves having his arm around you

- Some casual PDA

- Nothing too much

- It's just a habit

- He also loves singing to you with his soft voice

- Singing/humming you to sleep is a thing

- He would also be very biased over you

- He would pick you over a lot

- But not risk any trouble of course

- When it's "bed time" I think he would love teasing you a lot

- He finds your reaction cute but hot as well

- Hickeys are a thing

- But not above the collar bones

- Only he can see

- He would be pretty audible as well

- This kid is somewhat at the rough side

- And he gets rougher the closer he is to his climax

- Brb

- Shower myself in holy water

Doyoung 

- sweet, bunny, soft, savage Doyoung 

- For some reason Doyoung is harder for me 

- I just can't read this guy! 

- Unreadable 

- But let's start with that 

- I think he doesn't open up too easy 

- But he would open up to you 

- You're his outlet 

- If something annoyed him he would tell you first 

- He loves talking with you 

- Late night conversations  

- Choke me 

- He's also very funny and loves making you laugh 

- He loves your laugh so much 

- He loves cuddles too 

- He is so cuddly always 

- He would talk about you so proudly 

- The members love you tho 

- He loves fooling around and messing with you a lot 

- He thinks you're cute 

- But sometimes you're hot too 

- He would be turned on easily 

- He loves taking your clothes off for you

- He loves it even more when you do it for him 

- I can't imagine him being a hickey guy 

- Sorry.. 

- But kisses are definitely a thing 

- Kissing down your body! 

- Oh yesss 

- He's a soft moaner 

- But so hot 

- He loves breathplay??? 

- Just me?? 

- Okay... 

Ten 

- It's my other NCT bias wrecker! 

- Yeah! 

- I am fucked 

- This boi to me was even more unexpected than Taeyong was 

- He looked so intimidating in the 7th sense mv 

- I cried for 3 weeks 

- But Ten is the smallest fluff ball on planet earth 

- This is why I think he has two sides to him as well 

- But in specific moments! 

- You see 

- He is all sunshine and fluff through the day 

- He's very energetic 

- He loves talking to you A LOT 

- You better like it 

- Bc this boy talkative! 

- He get's so excited all the time 

- So cute 

- But you're cute too 

- He loves seeing you happy 

- He get's upset when you are and won't leave your side until you're happy 

- He also loves home dates more than going out i can imagine 

- Like making chocolate dinosaurs 

- ........ 

- He doesn't talk about you too much tho 

- He loves to keep the time you two spent together for himself 

- He cherishes those moments 

- He would love to take pictures of you as well during your time together 

- And when you tell him to stop 

- It motivates him to keep going 

- Night time is when he changes 

- Not really.. 

- But he get's very serious during sex 

- While usually you could make him laugh just by doing something weird 

- Now the closest to a smile you'll get is a smirk as he undresses you 

- You bet your ass he loves it rough 

- Real rough 

- This Ten is a whole different Ten than you have ever experienced and you were not ready! 

- He loves hickeys a lot 

- Everywhere 

- He finds it even hotter when you need to hide them at work/school/etc. 

- He is very freaking audible 

- Not loud 

- Just likes letting out a lot of sound 

- It turns him on when you do the same 

- This boi needs to stay in his lane tho 

- Imma Kris tho bye! 

Jaehyun 

- lord have mercy 

- Jung Jae Hyun is a the cutest 

- People always talk about how hot he is and shit 

- But like have you seen his personality??? 

- And his baby cheeks?? 

- Wow he so smol 

- I think he would be the smoothest at dating 

- But like he wouldn't treat you like any other 

- He would love you so much 

- You're special to him 

- I think his words would get to you a lot 

- He is pretty good at talking and shit 

- Moving on 

- He loves spending time with you and hearing about your day 

- He also likes to tell you how practice went and tell you about what's on his mind 

- The time spent with you would be his favourite time

- He would be always smiling when he thought about you 

- the other members would tease him about it a lot

- SMUT JAEHYUN ALERT!

- This boy is dirty minded as fuck

- ‘’Not now the camera’s are still rolling...’’

- He would make you blush so easily and he loves teasing

- I think he is very open minded in the bedroom and would try out a lot of things

- k i n k s

- regular spanks is a thing

- he really likes your small squeals,

- A little dom!Jaehyun 

- yessss

- Pet names are a thing 

- he would call you those cute little pet names in public

- others think it’s jsut a little pet name

- But they have no idea 

- ;)

 Winwin

- SICHENG!! TT

- Winwin would be the cutest in dating

- I know he’s 19 and not a little kid anymore

- But he is still so smol to me

- He would be your medicine because he is so cheery

- he hates seeing you sad as well

- He will watch your favorite shows with you and make you your favorite food to cheer you up

- I need a SiCheng in my life wow

- He get’s shy sometimes tho

- When you kiss him or compliment him

- He can’t hide it

- But when it had become a regulare thing

- he would play it off cool 

- ‘’I know I look good, babe’’

- You would nudge him, making him shy again

- But shy Winwin would soon fade when you two had entered the bedroom

- Winwin who?

- He would love to touch you up and down

- really take you in 

- body appreciation/worship

- He would secretly love to leave marks on you as well.

- I can imagine him wanting to hold your hands next to your head

- But because this is lovely SiCheng

- He would intertwine his fingers with yours

- I’m melting

- He would like to go slow your firsts few times 

- but as you two get to know each other he would speed/spice it up 

-  😏

- He likes making love

- But just straight up banging after a bad day at practice is also an option

- Am I still alive after this?

- nope

#NCT #Nct smut #Nct scenarios #TAeil smut #Moon Taeil #NCT Taeil #Taeil scenario #Taeyong #Lee Taeyong #Taeyong scenario #NCT Johnny #Johnny Seo #Johnny smut #Johnny Scenario #Yuta smut #Nakamoto Yuta #Yuta scenario #NCT Yuta #NCT Kun #Qian Kun #Kun scenario #Kun smut #NCT Hansol #Ji Hansol #Hansol smut #Hansol scenario #NCT Doyoung #Kim Doyoung #Doyoung smut #Doyoung scenario

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tl;dr: it was worth EVERY CENT to go see Great Comet and I’m gonna be on those tour tickets if/when they go on sale

spoilers for things not on the album and things from other parts of War and Peace

Cast at this performance: Shoba Narayan (u/s) as Natasha, Brittain Ashford as Sonya, Grace McLean as Marya D., Lucas Steele as Anatole, Amber Gray as Helene, Nick Clark (u/s) as Andrey/Bolkonsky, Gelsey Bell as Mary, Paul Pinto as Balaga

Pre-Show:

- The lobby/hallways to the house look like a dingy back alley somewhere in Russia. After looking back at Dave Malloy’s Genius annotations, I realized that it was basically a recreation of his experience stumbling into a Russian club (which incidentally inspired a lot of the show)

- I was in a table seat on/in the stage, so we entered at the top of the stage through the huge doorway that gets used during the show. I was literally breathless when I walked in because I had a chance to look out over the entire theater and it’s…it’s just stunning.

- There’s Russian opera/folk music playing in the house, which is p cool

- So when the show starts, there’s an air raid siren (and I fought down the urge to go “SILENT HILL OH NO”) and most of the cast literally jumps out (there are TONS of hidden doorways in the walls) and runs around/through the audience.

- It was at this point that we got free potato dumplings! I think they’re only given to the stage seats? But they were delicious. - Paul Pinto (Balaga/hella people) was our dumpling deliverer and just a hella cool dude in general - my jaw practically hit the floor when I saw Amber Gray (Helene) walking around. holy hell if I didn’t know I was queer before then I SURE DO NOW

Prologue:

- the opening accordion note is REAL long and the first verse actually happens while Andrey is bidding farewell to Natasha and going off to war. He gives her a necklace. This is actually p important as a symbol but this also sets up Natasha sympathetically from the outset because you get to see her and Andrey together

- Shoba Narayan sings beautifully, is totally charming as Natasha, and incredibly sweet in person. I hope she gets to do all the things ever. <3 

- HOW DOES THE ANDREY/BOLKONSKY QUICK CHANGE HAPPEN SO DAMN FAST??? I JUST SAW ANDREY ALL DRESSED UP FOR WAR GO THROUGH THAT DOOR?????? the costume department is doing one hell of a job

Pierre:

- not gonna lie I was a little skeptical of Josh Groban because he has That Voice, but rest assured, he DOES deliver “dear bewildered and awkward” Pierre. 

- watching Old Bolkonsky, Dolokhov, and an ensemble member all playing guitar together was p great, especially with Bolkonsky hobbling away

- I could dedicate an entire post to little things that Lucas Steele did throughout the show tbh. Anatole is ALWAYS up to something, but for now I’ll just mention that he takes a lot of shots during this song and stumbles right by Pierre when he goes “you empty and stupid contented fellows”

- have I mentioned that I’m still 500% queer for Amber Gray while Helene just has this Look on her face like she’s just so tired of Pierre’s Philosophical Melodrama Hour

Moscow:

- Marya is noticeably less excited about Sonya arriving. Honestly 25% of Marya is just in Grace McLean’s facial expressions and mannerisms and she’s already a Large Ham on the recording so. 

- Grace McLean gestured at our table when she said “faded and fading princesses”.

- Natasha does this little dance where she twirls around while humming to herself and it’s just…it’s so cute.

The Private and Intimate Life of the House:

- holy SHIT I need to take a minute to talk about Gelsey Bell. She actually plays a bunch of minor/incidental roles throughout the show, and the things she can do with her voice…holy crap.

- if you didn’t feel bad for Mary on the cast album then uh watching Gelsey will change your mind. especially for anyone who has experience caring for an aging family member.

- Natasha’s “I know they’ll like me, everyone has always liked me” got a healthy laugh from the audience

- one of the ladies at my table was the “cheap French thing” who Old Bolkonsky flirts with and it was hilarious. 

- Paul Pinto (Balaga) also plays the butler/servant during this scene with this hobble and hunch, and he moved SO quietly that I legit didn’t notice him moving in between me and the woman next to me. but he served us shots (of water), which was p cool

Natasha and Bolkonskys:

- Natasha and Mary fetch stools and sit down at one of the tables right in the middle of the stage. silently getting people to scoot over is just as awkward as you might imagine, but also really funny to watch and adds to the general awkwardness of their interactions that later contributes to Natasha’s refusal

No One Else:

- aka the moment where Shoba Narayan slayed my whole existence

- the staging for this, I just. where do I even start. Natasha in the moonlight, singing to the audience, the gentle winter snow at the end, fuuuuuuck

- at “I feel like putting my arms around my knees”, Natasha was sitting on the steps on the other side of the stage, right next to a girl who probably wasn’t more than 12-13 years old. when she said “like this” and put her arms out, she did it like she was showing her how and it was THE CUTEST 

- also you get to see Andrey reading her letters and Natasha desperately reaching out for him, and it…wow. man. my heart. it’s so much sadder in person.

- she also delivered part of the “maybe he’ll come today” lines to another audience member sitting next to her, like she was looking for validation, and I just….oh sweetie.

The Opera:

- Paul Pinto sighting: the guy who goes “welcome to the opera” and announces various characters

- Sonya jumps a little when Marya comes back in because she’s just so forceful

- EVERYONE points at Natasha for “Natasha smooth your gown” and her facial expression is kind of like “okay, geez”

- Sonya and Natasha holding hands and running around together is cute asf

- okay, having seen the opera in person, I gotta say…it’s still really hard to explain. but I’m gonna try.

- “act 1″ features 2 main singers (played by whoever plays Mary and Balaga) and two dancers (your featured dancers, basically). it’s basically opera by way of performance art and it is purposely weird. fun fact: Tolstoy was not fond of opera and straight up uses “pretentious” in the text of War and Peace (check it out here!)

- lights up after the first opera scene, Sonya was tilting her head to the side. same, girl, same

- something I didn’t quite pick up on the album: both Sonya and Natasha do the initial description of Anatole when the doors open. it’s hard to notice on the album and I didn’t really put it together until Natasha was like a few feet away from me

- when Anatole shows up, the bass is BOOMING. like, it shook the floor. as it should. and Lucas Steele’s poses on the beats, dear lord. and true to character, he was flirting with/eye-fucking audience members as he walked down the stairs

- 100% getting bowie vibes from Anatole tbh

- Lucas Steele has the most amazing blue steel face (approved by ben stiller, for the record), everyone else can go home. also his cheekbones tho

- towards the end of the opera, Natasha watches Andrey die (he gets dramatically opera-stage-murdered by two ensemble members who pull long red sashes). she’s visibly shaken by it and Anatole enters her box (giggity) right after that

Natasha and Anatole:

- when he seizes her from behind and kisses her on the neck, Anatole GOES IN. like, grabs part of her skirt and lifts it up partway. it’s, uh. something.

- I’m not 100% sure if it’s meant to be a real thing that happens, honestly?? I’m gonna have to check the text of war and peace again to be sure but the way it’s staged, I honestly thought it was something Natasha briefly imagined and then tried to pretend that she didn’t

- Anatole directed the “isn’t that so” to a male audience member with a little wink wink nudge nudge thing

- also, hello unwanted touching: he grabs her wrist at “it’s alright, Natasha, I’m here” and it doesn’t look like a wanted touch on those ~bare arms~

The Duel:

- OH MAN THIS IS SO MUCH FUN. another instance of getting free shots, and toasting with the cast

- IT TURNS INTO A RAVE. straight up. strobe lights and everything.

- Grace McLean has A Booty. Instance #2 of “if I didn’t know I was queer before…”

- and how do I know that? because she was wearing a catsuit and waved her butt in my face. and smacked it with a riding crop. 11/10 she can get it.

- also there was another dancer in the ensemble who danced up on the railing next to our table basically wearing leather that wouldn’t be out of place at folsom street fair. one of the ladies at my table was caught a little off guard but I swear to god in that moment I thought “eh this is nothing, I’m from San Francisco”

- Paul Pinto sighting: the duel announcer

- Pierre basically wins the duel because everyone is trashed. He’s so drunk that he stumbles and fires too early (giggity), and lucks out because he shot Dolokhov (who is also quite drunk by this point) in the shoulder

- based on my understanding of the album, I expected Helene to be a lot more sarcastic/cold at the end of the duel, but she looked surprisingly shaken. I’m not sure if it was because she almost lost her boytoy or because she would lose the material comfort/privilege of being married to her husband, but it was definitely interesting to see

Dust and Ashes:

- aka Josh Groban’s “for your consideration” moment for the Tony voters

- ok but for real I saw some glassy eyes in the audience during this one, and I totally get it. this song is beautifully written (”we are a god and angels weep” is out of Tolstoy’s writing, IIRC, and it’s brief but impactful) and it is a complete emotional journey. I, too, am ready to wake up.

Sunday Morning:

- when Natasha looks into the mirror, she’s positioned so that Pierre is right behind her, i.e. he’s reflected in the mirror. she really did see her future (War and Peace spoiler: Natasha and Pierre are happily married later on in the book).

- oh man, nothing like 19th century church to fan the guilt that goes with budding sexuality/a crush

Charming:

- ok so when this song starts, Natasha has just taken off her dress. She’s only in lingerie when Helene drops in. she’s literally exposed/vulnerable

- Natasha’s face when Helene tells her that Anatole is into her though!!! anyone who’s known a teenage girl knows that facial expression. it’s fucking precious

- Natasha goes from lingerie -> Helene’s fur coat -> her ball outfit (final chorus). she’s in her underwear for most of it, so make of that what you will

- a really important moment: Helene removes the necklace that Andrey gave Natasha (with some protest) and replaces it with a multi-string pearl necklace (and who wears multiple strings of pearls first…?)

- guys I’m unapologetically queer asf for Amber Gray (#3)

- at the very end, Natasha is copying Helene’s dance moves with her little dress swishes. it’s cute but also a nice little bit of symbolism.

The Ball:

- good god Shoba Narayan is an actual princess ok

- it’s interesting that Natasha and Anatole are actually dancing on opposite sides of a circular portion of the stage when Natasha’s describing their dance. you get a real sense of her inner monologue/the fact that the two of them are having somewhat different perceptions of what’s going on

- I’m actually kind of surprised at how many people listen to the album and don’t really register the fact that Anatole is blocking Natasha’s path/hurting her when he grabs her arm. pair it with the music and that already sounds like Bad Times, but it’s definitely Not A Good Thing when combined with watching Natasha’s reactions (she’s literally running from him)

- the sound when they kiss is the entire ensemble playing the rims of water glasses. Helene’s note is the longest.

- Anatole’s face when Natasha goes “but I love you” is hilarious and a pretty good hint (just in case anyone missed it) that he is not interested in her affections beyond an assist to get her into bed with him

- during the “I’ll do anything for you” exchange, Natasha is reaching up with outstretched open hands. Anatole has a closed fist. it’s a small thing, but it says a lot about the power dynamics at play

Letters:

- Anatole’s love letter to Natasha gets “sent” through the audience. It got a little held up and Natasha was desperately/frantically gesturing for them to move it along. eventually, a guy got up from his seat to hand it to her and he got a round of applause

- the second repetition of “a love letter”, Anatole does the hand motion for a woman’s figure (you know the one)

- Lucas Steele holding out every extended note just because he can. 

- “just say yes” is delivered with Anatole holding Natasha by the waist/hips and kneeling in front of her.

- Anatole fist pumping after Natasha goes “yes! yes!” and lets go of him

- Anatole has this smug expression as he walks off at the end, and Sonya makes eye contact with him as she’s approaching. it’s a really small silent exchange but you can immediately tell that Sonya knows that something is up and isn’t having any of it

Sonya and Natasha:

- you know that text post about “you know you’ve become an adult when you watch the Little Mermaid and you’re like ‘YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW HIM’”? yeah, that’s basically this scene

- Shoba!Natasha put so much sass into “I do not grasp the question” and “you don’t understand anything”. it’s little mannerisms like that that make her 100% believable as a teenager tbh. I swear I caught her rolling her eyes at one point and I was like “yep definitely made that face before”

- literally sitting between them during this argument is intense my dudes.

Sonya Alone:

- I’ll be honest, I have a habit of skipping this song on the album because it’s such a lull between the intensity of the end of the preceding argument and the beginning of the abduction. but in person…holy fuck.

- Brittain Ashford is everything in this scene. obvi still open to other actors’ interpretations, but her voice is just so right for Sonya’s raw sadness and determination

- this scene ends with Sonya reaching for Natasha, who just holds her letter and turns her head away, and my heart. augh my heart.

Preparations/Balaga/The Abduction:

- doing these all together because it just…happens

- Pierre is actually ptfo at the beginning of this scene (implied bc he was drinking); Anatole accidentally wakes him up on his way out, so his “ah Anatole” is actually sort of half-asleep

- I caught a glimpse of the first chair cellist grinning ear to ear once the ostenato part starts and I was just like “YEAH GIRL GET IT”. she was so pumped to do this sequence

- the patter in this is real and Nick Choksi fuckin kills it.

- also it was during this scene that he smacked a teacup (and it was a very nice looking metal one too!) down onto our table in front of me while listening to Anatole’s nonsense. he would later take my hand and make sure I used it to raise a glass during the abduction

- it’s very subtle but you can catch various ensemble members grabbing instruments and getting ready towards the middle/end of Preparations. Amber Gray caught my eye (obvi) because Helene basically goes and puts on a vest as soon as she’s out of the scene and gets a tom. Amber Gray playing the tom in the lead-up to Balaga is my aesthetic (#4)

- the shakers come out with the rest of the ensemble at the beginning of Balaga - we were given a basket and basically told to take one and pass it down. you’re allowed to keep them and I brought mine home with me :)

- Paul. Motherfucking. Pinto. Dude is full of so much energy that it is infectious 

- it’s impossible to not sing along when people are playing instruments/dancing/singing right next to you

- got another round of shots before Pierre’s toast

- during the “it’s a russian custom” break, Anatole sat down next to two older ladies and hardcore flirted with them #BlueSteele

- so the “fur cloak” scene features a pizzicato violin soloist (who is wearing the fur cloak in question). she has tattoos on her hipbones that look like the holes on a violin that are highly visible with the outfit she has on. A+ casting right there

- Pierre does the ‘ding’. It was a great ‘ding’ and I am v proud

- Gelsey sighting: the maid

In My House:

- the shakers stopped IMMEDIATELY. Grace McLean has THAT MUCH PRESENCE.

- so she starts off this song with a smile, but it is through clenched teeth and utterly frightening. holy fuck I do NOT want to be in trouble for the rest of my life after that

- small fumble on “what is it to me”, but Shoba said it and corrected it so quickly that it actually worked because it sounded like Natasha had a case of Angrish because she was so upset

- another instance of “I am sitting in the middle of this argument and this is incredibly uncomfortable” because it’s so intense

A Call to Pierre:

- jesus christ do NOT piss off Marya D. but I love how it’s not just anger, there’s legitimate worry and panic. like, I get the feeling she’s about to cry just from all of the conflicting feelings leaking out of her eyes

Find Anatole:

- the lights go up when Pierre goes to the club, and I’m sure it’s no coincidence that it makes the table seats super visible to the orch/mezz audience

- Helene is in her lingerie when hiding/comforting Anatole. Considering their interactions throughout this show, that’s definitely on purpose

Pierre and Anatole:

- last instance of “sitting so close to an argument that it’s uncomfortable”

- Anatole “frowning and biting his lip” looks a LOT like a small child sulking during/after a temper tantrum. Also Lucas fumbled with the stool a bit and knocked it over which added to the whole tantrum/possibly slightly disoriented from Pierre shaking him thing

- Natasha’s poisoning is VERY obvious (which is obvi something you don’t get from the album alone). You see her coming down the steps with the arsenic and water and she is in the middle of the stage, between Anatole and Pierre when she goes through with it

- The Note. holy fuck.

Natasha Very Ill:

- Anatole is actually very slowly on his way out through the doors during the first part of the song. He disappears riiiiight about the time that the electronic parts stop (not a coincidence)

- There’s a lot of silent acting going on during the show, but I mention it here because what really struck me was Pierre comforting Marya during this scene.

Pierre and Andrey:

- Andrey is both noticeably changed from the war and heartbroken over Natasha. It’s no surprise that he can’t bring himself to forgive her, considering the state he’s in (minor W&P spoiler: he eventually does tho) Nick Clark's "never speak of that again" is more forceful than on the album - he basically shouted it. definitely got than anger

- I noticed Sonya holding Natasha in the background. not sure if they were both crying

- At the very end of this scene, Andrey goes and sits (well more like collapses into) the chair that his father sat in earlier in the show. and he ignores Mary (who looks so excited to see him, poor girl) on the way there

Pierre and Natasha:

- ok I felt my eyes starting to do The Thing during this scene. it is heartbreaking to watch frail, ill Natasha weakly walk down the stairs in front of you while clinging to the railing for dear life when you’ve been watching her dance/run/sing up and down them for the entire preceding show

- “I don’t know, I don’t know at all” hit me right in the gut. I thought I might cry, but I figured that with my dry-ass eyes, my contacts would take care of it…

- …and then The Line happened. I felt exactly one tear make it out (which is a LOT for my stupid dry allergy-tastic eyes). I also saw a lot of glassy eyes in the audience and heard a lot of sniffles

The Great Comet of 1812:

- so I was seated super close to the comet itself. it’s right over the center pit/Pierre’s salon and I was maybe a few feet from that, so it was amazing to watch it come down.

- it’s really hard to describe the comet chandelier but I can tell you that the “actual” comet is just one bulb, but when it happens, it is the single brightest thing in the theater. it’s also the final light to go out after the giant chandelier lights up and fades out.

- Pierre sits down to watch the comet at the very end which seems like a neat cue for the groban stans to stop staring at him and pay attention to the really cool thing that is happening

General/stuff I thought about later/stage door:

- something I realized after I left: Andrey wasn’t the family’s saving grace, Pierre was. within the bounds of the show, he saves Natasha and her family from disgrace and Andrey and Anatole’s lives (avoiding a duel and Anatole getting charged with bigamy). in the larger context of the book, he also saves the Rostovs from their financial issues because ends up inheriting his father’s title and money and Natasha marries him.

- “stupid child” really is a good descriptor for Anatole

- Or Matias, the music director, is practically a one-man show. honestly I’d see this again just to watch him jam out. his conducting is quite possibly the most entertaining, non-traditional conducting I’ve ever seen

- basically everyone besides natasha/sonya is part of the ensemble at some point outside of The Abduction sequence. and a lot of them play instruments (see: Helene on the drums, Dolokhov on guitar). it’s rad.

- Dolokhov has some srs eyeliner on his lower lashline - but only on the lower lashline (and nobody else does). I wonder if it’s supposed to be for preventing glare since he’s a “crazy good shot”

- there are a bunch of interactions between Anatole and Helene that are uncomfortably close for siblings (and Helene coddling him in her lingerie near the end of the show basically seals the deal). it’s a great nod to the book. 

- Helene/Dolokhov/Anatole is as close to a canon OT3 as I’ve seen anything get in a long time.

- there are same-sex pairs of dancers throughout the show. I managed to spot 3 during The Ball, but there might be more. 

- This show is what I wish our entertainment could look like all the time. colorblind casting, vibrant production, and so much fun. 

- Josh Groban is the nicest dude. His publicist kept coming out to remind us that he didn’t have time to do photos since they were on their way to something else, but Josh insisted on signing everything that he could. I also happened to capture a pretty excellent little moment (here)

- Shoba Narayan was also super sweet! I’m gonna forever side eye the kid next to me who thought that “you sound just like Denee” was a good compliment tho

- Gelsey reassured a fan that Mary’s life does get better later on in the book

#great comet #natasha pierre and the great comet of 1812 #<333333 #shotasha #josh groban #I love this cast

[prefixing]

aaaa so i start college in 10 days, it's on the other side of the country, and 82% of the time i'm caught between being excited and happy and terrified and literally panicking at 2 AM when I should be asleep.... i know i /should/ be excited and also nervous but i had a huge change in my life early this year that truly and honestly left me reeling and dissociating, and i'm terrified that this will trigger the same response but worse.. god okay i'll also be meeting my best friend of two years 1/?

- so im also nervous that she won’t like me but also excited out of my mind because holy fuck it’s like my brain can’t decide if i’d like to have her be more than a friend ajdjfk Anyway…. things’re just,, not fun :’)) and im just scared, im never sure where to look for advice for handling extreme change especially after previous change went so horribly :\ i Am looking forward to classes tho and i can’t wait to see what new friends i can make or what my job will be like but aaaa there’s a lot 2/2

hi!! thank you for sending this and confiding in me! i don’t know what kind of response you expected, but this was all i could think about for my 1h long yoga pass and i think i might have gone overboard. also just a note that the only thing that i 100% can relate to is meeting an online friend, but i am planning to move country in 2019 and i can already feel that kind of stress creeping up on me.warning: long post ahead!!it’s probably not news to you that the big trig to freak outs/dissociating is stress, and that you should try to avoid it, but honestly that’s pretty rubbish advice. i guess what you can do is prepare yourself mentally? you know that big changes are what triggers this response in you so perhaps you could look back at last time and try to recognise what helped in that moment, and what you could try to remember if things go badly again?

in general, when it comes to big changes (bear in mind, the biggest change in my life is moving from the suburbs into the city, which only really meant that i had to switch schools for the third time and i wasn’t even mad abt it because i hated my old one) these are some things that might help to think about:

you’re not alone!! you mentioned your best friend that you’re meeting (does she live close to where you’re moving? if not, she’ll most likely still be available online like before), but there are also more people at your college in similar position as you; and they are most likely terrified as well. when my ex moved city there was a facebook group for people new in that city who shared tips with each other? perhaps there is something similar available for you? perhaps you have friends from before that are taking similar steps in life? (i’m also available for potential updates if u wanna rant)

the positives; it will not all be sunshines and rainbows but you’re excited about your classes, there are friends to be made and you have a job that you’re actually looking forward to! wow!!

it usually helps me to kind of “jump into the future”; think about were you were a few year ago and how quickly that time has passed. then imagine a significant moment in the future (e.g. graduating college!) and how you will then look back at where you are now as if no time has passed. this is a weird tip idk

now to what i actually have experience of; meeting internet friends. fun fact: it is terrifying!! and will always be!! 

i have two particular encounters that stand out, let’s call them #1 and #2. when i met #1 back in 2011 we hung out for an afternoon in the city centre and we are still really good friends (i’m actually visiting her this weekend!!)

with #2 we hung out for two whole weekends in 2015 with about three weeks in between, this sent me into panic mode, i ghosted her for a good half year and we haven’t really spoken the same way since. this is the wrong thing to help you not freak out but honestly, it was shit for a while but we’re on good terms now and enjoy life separately.

main differences between these meetings (getting scientific)

#1

a 3h train ride away

we hung out for a short period of time

our parents were with us to check that the other was a legit person but then we were left to our own devices

#2

a 24h flight away

we hung out for about 48hours straight twice in a short period of time (considering the circumstances)

both our families and my other friend were with us at all times

i guess my advice is to meet in smaller doses first to not overwhelm each other? its exhausting to feel like you have to “live up” to whatever personality you’ve displayed online, however honest it may be, and keeping that up for long period of time will tire you out (unless both of you are superhuman extroverts (which i though i was but apparently am not)). since you’re moving away it might not be a problem but having family around made meeting #2 way worse than it might have been otherwise. i’m not the same around my parents as i am to my friends, and here i favoured my parent-friendly side, which differed greatly to how i interacted with my friend online and made the tension weird. with friend #1 we were alone and i could let myself go, only worrying about one persons response as opposed to lk 10

as for potential lovey dovey feelings, don’t stress about that for now!! leave that as a nice surprise for when things have settled a little. love may be terrifying but it’s also an amazing feeling to be in love, so savour it when it’s truly there. sorry to be blunt and negative, but the potential for love that you’re feeling right now might change when you meet (or it may blossom!), so i’d say to leave it on its own for now and deal with it when it happens.

sorry for hitting you with a novel for a response and good luck!! if you feel like it, you’re more than welcome to send me updates

#ask #anon #this was unexpected but lovely #ur struggles arent lovely #but that you chose to trust me with them is #long post

[ignisgayentia]

Hi I saw that you went to SWCO (I think that's the acronym for it) and was wondering did you or were you going to do a full post about everything? I just want to live vicariously through you while I read about it :)

oh!!! no i haven’t. but um i guess i can do it right here?? sound good maybe???

i only went for a single day ‘cause i just got back from another con in dallas and i was Tired™ but i just wanted to meet hayden and riz LMAO

alright LET ME JUST SAY this is the first convention that i had to show up at the fucken place at 5am. there was so many people i didn’t get into the building til 7am… then i had to wait 3 hours til the floor opened at 10am BUT THATS THE BAD PART HAHAHA

anyway, it was so fucken awesome!! i had a photo op with riz ahmed in like 10-20 mins so i couldn’t hang around and look at stuff, but there were SO MANY COOL THINGS!!! there were a bunch of different star wars designed cars - a bb8 car and a vader car (i linked my instagram) and so many other cool cars. lots of giant displays of sw stuff. huuuge screens of rogue one, a giant chewbacca funko pop, GIANT LIFE SIZE TIE FIGHTER, LIFE SIZE LEGOS 

anyway i had to go right to my photo ops. first was riz. riz was SOOOO FUCKING CUTE!!!! i had to make sure he was ok with hugs (bc i wouldn’t want them to ever feel uncomfy) and he was like ‘OF COURSE I AM’ and WE WRAPPED OUR ARMS AROUND EACH OTHER and my mind kinda blanked after that (HE SMELLED GOOD THO JUST SAYIN)

next was hayden, told that story a bunch on here - he’s such a sweetie, he thought i meant i wanted a hug before my photo op instead of during LOL but i’ll never forget his FACE BURIED IN MY NECK.. i could feel his breath against my neck LMAO SO.. HE GIVES SUCH GOOD HUGS!!! and after my photo i thanked him and told him i loved him and he bLUSHED and it was so cute he’s such a shy babe!!! but like once u talk to him he kinda opens up he’s a real sweetheart. i will neVER FORGET when i asked for a hug he really deeply was like ‘oH SURE’ and oh man lmao the eight year old in me was like MARRY HIM ARI

AFTER that i couldn’t line up for my riz autograph yet so i decided to explore a bit more. there were huge lego booths with star wars screens, huge funko pop booths with all the star wars exclusives, and the last jedi panel just got out where they showed the trailer for the first time AND EVERYONE WHO ATTENDED WERE CARRYING THESE LAST JEDI POSTERS AND I WANTED ONE SO BAD OH MAN. if you go on my twitter and instagram u can find some pics from stuff!!

THEEEEN i had to get in line to get my autograph for riz. i wasn’t originally going to spend the money on it, but bodhi is my girlfriend’s fav character from rogue one and i felt bad she couldn’t attend… so I BOUGHT HER ONE. i told riz that my gf loVED bodhi and couldn’t come and so i got her an extra autograph. he GRINNED SO BIG and was like “awwwwwwwwww!!!! tell her i said hello!!!” i got sidetracked from his voice holy shit. and i got my photo op signed by him, and he smiled at it and it was sO FUCKING CUTE GOD he’s really attractive rest in peace me.

AFTER THAT the rest of the day was mine to explore..i didn’t attend any panels bc the system for panel attendance for swc is really stressful u have to get wristbands at like 5am. but I BOUGHT AHSOKA FUNKO POP AND SOME REALLY COOL ART (LOOK HOW ANGSTY IT IS) and spent the rest of the day kinda chilling and shopping around like the sw trash i am. i visited the disney booth (which was so cool??? oh man.. the booth kinda looked like yavin 4 lmao) and got this really cool 40th anniversary shirt

PEOPLE WERE SO NICE AND GENTLE and people called me pretty and cute and gorgeous and were really tender!!! and the cosplayers were AMAZING, so many mandalorians and kylo rens HAHAHa. if ur into sw rebels - i saw the coolest hera and kanan cosplays it was so ACCURATE

BONUS: i didn’t meet mark hamill at swc but i met him two weeks ago, i can tell u the story about that!!! i paid 500 dollars to get this fancy mark hamill vip package and I GOT A PHOTO WITH HIM… and i was really shy bc holy shit mark hamill… and i was like ‘is it ok if we hug?’ and he was so excited and was like ‘ABSOLUTELY!!!!’ and pulled me in close and my CHEEK TOUCHED HIS AND HE WAS ABSOLUTELY THE SWEETEST

then i got mark’s autograph and i was nervous ‘cause i had NO IDEA what to say to him but he got me covered, he talked so much i didn’t even have to say anything, and he was really down to earth and treated me like he was my friend instead of a fan, he signed my photo op and i LOOOOVE THE PIC (in case ya haven’t seen it). he was talking about vaudeville???? and giving me random facts about things before i left it was adorable.

and his panel was G R E A T he always has the coolest stories!!! told us about how he didn’t know everyone (SPOILER ALERT) died in rogue one and gareth edwards told him right on set of rogue one when he visited, and he legit SCREAMED ABOUT IT LMAO. did his ~*dramatic luke pose~* (i put it on twitter here) and talked about carrie a lot here and here

ANYWAY THAT WAS PROBABLY WAY MORE DETAIL THAN U WANTED SO………… BYE LMAO

#star wars celebration #swc17 #swco #swc #bucky-is-my-precious #asks #ari meets people

[emoney2708-blog]

The Glove that Rocks the Cradle!

Thoughts and outburst while watching:

WTF Officer Barry!! Don’t think we forgot that deleted scene of you letting Charlotte escape your police car!!! You sir are shady as fuck!

Spencer is not stupid, Marco will get zero answers from her! Damn he’s harsh!

I know alot of people don’t believe Ali is pregnant but I 💯percent do! How cute Em started with the nursery, god I wish Ali would just tell Em how she feels!! Just say it… I love you!!!

Eww, Ali and Hanna are being straight up assholes to Spencer… like seriously Hanna?? After what you put Spencer thru you have the nerve to be up her ass?? Get a grip! Poor Spencer man, she just keeps getting thrown wrenches left and right.

Fuck Jillian! I would not make the love of my life feel like shit just to please people, fans or whatever.

It’s about time Hanna realizes she fucked Spencer. Like for real, you do owe her. And don’t play stupid Caleb, you both did Spencer wrong and broke her heart! (Even tho i hated u two together)

Spencer is being so nosey questioning what’s happening between Emison!! I love it.

Hanna really doesn’t think Lucas has anything to do with this?? Like how much proof do you need?? He is obviously shady but still prob definitely not A.D.

Oh Lord! Spencer did not go to Marcos apartment lol she is talking to him like he’s Toby, they did not date that long! What the he’ll is wrong with her?? She is basically admitting that she and the Liars are involved!! This is crazy! Is she on drugs again??? What the hell… a Lucas flash drive!! Take that shit Spencer!!! Take it take it!! Yessss!! Now what the fuck is on it??

Oh HELL NO!! This shady mother fucker just took back the Liars alibi!!! Is he being blackmailed??? Omg he did not just say he wouldnt be surprised if the Liars killed Charlotte?!?! Damn Hanna is still defending him??? Girl has faith!!! WTF LUCAS??? I never saw that coming… What a dick!!

Oh shit bahahahaha I totally thought/was hoping that Aria was going to tell the girls what she was doing!! Damn!

Emily is legit like mothering Ali about this pregnancy. It kind of feels like an old married couple lol

Aria looks so suspicious in ever scene lol if one if the girls would look at her they may notice it!

A Spaleb moment… does he still have a thing for her?? Lol god I hope not.

Finally Mona!! Preach sister!! You always are saving their asses and they show zero appreciation!!

Hmm Aria is M.I.A…. wrecking the nursery looking so good in that hoodie lol

God I swear this girl is not Ali!!

Wait how do they keep missing A.D.?? Did A.D. legit just knock Ali down??

Oh shit!! Catch her ass!! Aria is legit the worst A ever!! Bahahahaha make a bunch of noise much??!! Damn it!! I wanted Em to catch her ass so this could be over!!

That was super sweet of Ezra!! He really is in Love with Aria! He refused to hurt her just to help book sales!

God Aria looks so guilty LMAO

HOLY shit!!!! Aria dropped her earring!! Worst A ever!! Hahahaha no wonder she was never on the A team… A.D. would of been caught by now with all the noose she makes and evidence she leaves behind lmao good lord aria!!

Yes Caleb! Burn those credit card receipts!!!

What??? Mona is saying Em and Ali chased her and then took off?? Okay, Mona is being shady… is she the one that pushed Ali??? Or was somebody else chasing Mona???

Eww Marco!! Talk about being a dick! Totally not the guy I thought he was. I feel like he’s going out of his way to be an asshole. Like showing no compassion what so ever! But I guess that is his job.. to catch killers…

Yes bitches!! These girls cornered Lucas’ ass and demanded answers!! But did anybody else get the feeling he knew Aria trashed the nursery? I damn sure did!! Aria is killing me lol Again, that feeling that, that IS NOT ALI!! She was looking like, god I am not the mean queen that treated you terrible!!

Another book??? Never finished?? I really get the feeling Charles could be doing this… maybe Lucas isn’t involved like that…. wait… why is Lucas leaving his own loft like it’s not his?? Hey Lucas… you live there buddy, if anything you could make Hanna go… guess he’s not so bad after all. Damn man, this kid is legit in Love with Hanna… I really feel bad for Lucas. I hope he returns in the next episodes… maybe to reunite with Wren… I mean Charles.

Oh give it a rest Marco, she ain’t fucking talking!!

You’ve always protected me Em, ever since I met you I knew I could count on you!! THAT IS NOT FUCKING ALI!!

Omg, Emison happens… I was never an Emison shipper cuz I never liked Alison… but this ain’t Ali… this is somebody I actually like and I got excited for Em and Ali in this scene!! They are in love!! Awww, I’m kind of really happy for them!

Damn Aria… I feel bad for her… I know she’s doing some shady ducked up shit but damn man.. can u imagine holding all that in?? She feels like a piece of shit for what she’s doing but she doesn’t want to lose the love of her life and send him to jail….

HOLY SHIT!!! THE SECOND COMIC IS NAMED “ARCTURUS ENDGAME”…. ENDGAME!!!! MIND BLOWN!!

WREN……i mean CHARLES, IS THAT YOU FINISHING THAT GRAPHIC NOVEL??