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#I am not a lesbian but this always makes me think of my gf bc we had a long conversation about mangos back when we first started talking
phantombriide · 6 months
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GF!ELLIE HEADCANONS; e.w.
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content: mdni, loser gf!ellie, annoying gf!ellie, mentions of head/sex, mentions of making out, ellie's a clown and you're sick of it but love it so much, swearing and fluff. also this isn't proofread soooo
note: i like my girls silly so i can be mean and pretend i hate it. sorry for my inactivity as of late, i am now a busy girl but i had so much fun writing this <3 dont forget to like/reblog!! enjoyyyy
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⚢ gf!ellie who you've been friends with since junior year of high school. she was the class clown, always getting on the teacher's nerves and you were just as bad adding onto her jokes getting you both sent to detention for the afternoon
⚢ gf!ellie who noticed the lesbian pride pin attached to your book bag and instantly knew that you were gonna be hers sooner or later
⚢ gf!ellie who is still so obsessed with you four years later as you're half way through your sophomore year of college. she would've thought going to the same school AND rooming with her girlfriend was a terrible idea if she wasn't 100% sure you two were soulmates
⚢ gf!ellie who will fart and look at you in disgust as if you did it. you'll put the blame back on her and she'll only respond with something stupid like 'girls don't fart' as if you aren't both girls
⚢ gf!ellie who makes you get up in the middle of a conversation if she thinks your sitting on her vape and you get so fucking mad but she doesn't care
⚢ gf!ellie who is quite literally the most irritating person you've ever met but it's what made you fall in love with her in the first place
⚢ gf!ellie who sits on the counter while you clean instead of helping, opting to tell you the latest drama that she accidentally overheard
⚢ gf!ellie who fake bangs you and pretends to nut when you bend over
"ahhh fuckkk y/n im gonna nut." "ellie get the fuck off of me."
⚢ gf!ellie who tells you to shut the fuck up and immediately apologizes seconds later because she's actually terrified of you
⚢ gf!ellie who sends you stupid instagram posts while you're sitting right next to her as if you can't see her giggle and send it to you
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⚢ gf!ellie who is stupid smart but types exactly like this
'babw you wont beelieve what dinw just told me 😭'
babw*
BABE*
beleive*
beleive??
beleive
wtf'
⚢ gf!ellie who stuffs her face in your shirt and takes a nap in that exact position
⚢ gf!ellie who will be making out with you just to stop and lip sync drake lyrics because it's her favorite song
⚢ gf!ellie who once fell of the bed while giving you head because she was too awkward to reposition herself and just didn't wanna stop
⚢ gf!ellie who sports her hickeys around and tells everyone her gf beats her as you're standing directly next to her completely baffled and speechless
⚢ gf!ellie who is so in love with you that she thinks about getting your name tatted like a tramp stamp everyday she wakes up
⚢ gf!ellie who tea bags you whenever you bend down to tie your shoes bc she's that obnoxious
⚢ gf!ellie who farts and holds the blanket over your head until your coughing and begging her to stop as she manically laughs at your demise
⚢ gf!ellie who draws dicks and boobs on your face while sleeping just to stare at you as you wake up and compliment you while holding back her laughter
'god you're so beautiful'
meanwhile her:
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⚢ gf!ellie who will wake you up at 3am for a kiss because she had a dream about you and missed you like you're not sleeping directly on top of her
⚢ gf!ellie who wears stupid shirts like this and thinks it's straight fashion
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⚢ gf!ellie who will clown you like a mf but will get so defensive the moment anyone else tries to do it
⚢ gf!ellie who smacks your ass anytime you pass by and immediately turn around to not seem suspicious as if she's not the only one close enough to touch you
⚢ gf!ellie who's your best friend and you're just so lucky to have such a goof around 24/7 to keep you entertained
⚢ gf!ellie who has a ring hiding in her sex toys drawer because she knows she wants you as hers forever and ever
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iinryer · 3 days
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If you could come up with the storylines for each Lone Star character (not Owen) for the next season, what would they be?
OH THIS IS A GOOD ONE… (not owen) made me laugh thank you. this didn’t end up being Quite what you asked but here are my hopes for s5!:
marjan is easy: comphet realization to lesbian arc. I don’t even need them to give her a gf i just want them to Address The Closeted Lesbianism they’ve been handing me over the past four seasons. i want salim to come back (in person or in conversation) for the rule of threes and have it force her to reckon with a lot of assumptions she had about herself. im on my hands and knees about it. I’ve been rewatching with a friend recently and i fucking forgot that they have her say a line about how her favorite place to hide as a kid was the closet. remember those new bts photos where she’s basically wearing the lesbian flag as a headscarf. lone star writers room i am IN YOUR WALLS. also i want to meet her sister. i need someone to call her mouse
nancy my beloved… honestly i just really want a nancy begins episode!! i want to know why she became a paramedic, i want to know about her relationship with her sister and if there’s any particular reason it was a soft spot for her during the DNR episode… I don’t have any particular ideas for specific i just want to know more about her!!! actually I’d love her to have to confront Tim’s death a little more directly. they made that whole thing about Owen which is fucking crazy to me, I’d love for the next time TK gets hurt (lol) for it to be something that dredges that up for her.
grace… miss grace i want to see you angry again. no plot line in mind i just like it when she’s pretending she doesn’t get angry or stubborn, she is such a fascinating character study. i love when she’s a contradiction. she and carlos teaming up was one of my favorite things abt s3, i would be so jazzed to see more things of that flavor.
tommy. hm… I don’t think I have any particular storylines for her in mind but I want more of her and grace and judd together because they are so delightful and lovely and best friends. OH ACTUALLY. I want something with tommy and charlie. this baby that was named in honor of the late love of her life. o don’t know what that story would be but there’s something there for sure…
carlos is the same as nancy tbh, I want a real full carlos begins! I want to meet his sisters! I want to see more of the mess that was growing up gay and feeling out of place and trying to be what your dad would want even though he thinks you’re too soft for it. why did he do it anyways! I also would love to see him and his mom being more involved, partially because obviously they had a horrible loss and trauma and she saw it happen but also because I love andrea:) she’s everything 2 me
judd I have been waiting for them to make you captain since SEASON THREE!! i want owen to retire and i want them to expand on the tension we got for the period he was captain!! i want to see how the dynamic changes and how his past issues come up when he’s in charge For Good. i want to see him get emotional about it and i want him to be captain while wyatt is his probie if they put him back on the firefighter track after his recovery :) bc that would be fun conflict and i think everything they did with owen (traumatically lost whole crew, son on your team) would be 100x better with judd
mateo is also a difficult one for specifics. I feel like they’re relatively fair with him? even with the low screentime all the secondary characters are relegated to. I’d be interested in seeing more fallout about his cousin, and I LOVED what they did with him and captain tatum so anything of that flavor of earnestness from him is always so good. maybe he and tatum will be buddies off the clock :)
tk getting hurt in increasingly absurd ways is always a classic that I look forward to them playing into lol
misc: i want to see more big brother wyatt with charlie getting a little older, i want less owen solo-plotlines, more ghost/memory gwyn i love her, carlos with his curls, the vega twins being involved in something maybe? that would be fun and stressful gjfhdhf
EDIT: OH MY GOD I FORGOT PAUL. I ABANDONED MY BOY. ok paul deserves literally any kind of robust plotline. Paul begins for starters, but also so much of his trans plotlines feel a little fumbled. I want a really earnest well done episode that isn’t necessarily About him being trans, but his transness is a factor and it’s handled in a really genuinely good and relatable way. they OWE HIM AND US THAT!! i also would love to see more of the gay kids being in gay spaces :)
[housesitting & snowed in send enrichment to my enclosure]
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beanghostprincess · 2 days
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Thinking about the acrilics nail thing with fem sanji and nami and as a person who also works with their hands a lot I hate when my nails get too long (and that for me is if I look at my palms and can see my nails I will cut them) but a friend of mine loves doing nail art and I love it when she does my nails bc she makes them short bc she knows that I hate them long
So back to my fave girlies, Nami sees that Sanji is stressed and sad bc of the nails so she asks her to let her do it again, Sanji apologizes for ruining them but Nami quickly shut it down saying that it doesn't matter that she wants to try a new thing and Sanji bein the simp she is lets her
Nami goes for a short nail length and decides to try and do these watercolor effect on her nails (look it up if you don't know they're really cool) since she doesn't have a lot of space to do anything with it and it ends up looking like the ocean, Nami tried to do the all blue for her
It really could be any ocean but Sanji is crying of pure happiness and love and just overwhelmed with her gf taking into account her discomfort over her nails but also doing something to accommodate her and representing something she loves
It's really cute and Sanji goes through this phase where you awkwardly do everything without really touching anything so you don't ruin your nails but after a while she does everything normally again and Nami couldn't be happier than seeing her gf happy with something she made
AWWWWWW This is so cute. I'm sure they love spending time together while Nami does her nails!!!! It's not always sea themed btw!!! Nami is good with nails but she is not the BEST at drawing cute tiny things there, so she ends up calling Usopp (Yes I am making this lesbian Sanusona honoring my name deal with me please) bc their other girlfriend is the best artist known to mankin (I don't accept other opinions srry). And Usopp is THRILLED because now she can like. Draw little eggs. And bread. And fishes. In Sanji's nails. Like. She just has a whole set of acrylic nails that's just food-themed. It's adorable. She is the cutest, prettiest cook in the world so she has to have the most beautiful nails!!!!!!!
Please, that phase is so funny. You have to learn how to do basic stuff-- Me too. I mean. It's actually the first time I get acrylic nails and the first day is weird but tbh it's not as bad as people make it seem. But Sanji would be okay because she has shorter nails and she learns that! Wow!!!!!!! You can live normally with them!!!!!! But the first days she is calling Usopp to do everything for her bc she is scared of something happening to her nails and Nami is there rolling her eyes like "If it happens we just fix it, sweetie, don't worry".
I am sure tho that in the middle of a fight she would end up somehow breaking one of the nails and she'd be. So dramatic and angry abt it to whoever is fighting with her. Because her hands are now even more precious to her!!!! She has art her girlfriends made for her!!!!!! So ofc she is angry. The guy she is fighting laughs at her like "Hahaha ofc a girl would get so whiny for breaking her nails!!!!" and she just. Beats the shit out of him with so much pent-up anger and the fury of the gods on her side.
When the fight ends she goes to Nami and Usopp like *teary eyes* "Please fix my nails, my dearest, my treasure, please-" and Usopp and Nami complain abt her being dramatic but it's actually so cute that she appreciates their work so much.
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lunar-years · 11 months
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I agree- I don’t think the show is making Jack out to be “the evil lesbian” at all, and honestly anyone who seriously claims that should calm down. LGBT+ characters having flaws, even bad flaws, doesn’t mean they’re evil or that the writers are homophobic, it means they’re characters. JackxKeeley are obviously not going to be long-term for a # of reasons. Like you said, a show doesn’t introduce a long-term couple by having them drunkenly hook up 10 seconds after one of them admits to not being over their ex (and can’t even say his name). Besides, I can’t imagine Brett being ok with ending the show with them still apart lol.
Anyway IMO as a RoyxKeeley shipper, I don’t think Jack was written to be a shit gf that drives Keeley back to Roy. I think it’s kind of the opposite. You could argue that on paper, power imbalance aside, Jack and Keeley make more sense than Roy and Keeley. They’re both similar ages, fun, bi, independent + rich businesswomen, and good communicators. I think Jack’s biggest flaw will be that she’s just not Roy. It was their differences that made Roy and Keeley such a compelling and electric couple. And remember, Keeley doesn’t even know why Roy ended things. I can’t imagine finding out that Roy gave her up bc he thought she would realize that she deserved better would have no impact on her. Obviously Roy’s arc this season has been learning to accept that he’s worthy of good things, and although it’s less clear cut I think Keeley’s arc is similar to the team’s: succeeding takes a lot of trial and error. I think the second half will see her gain confidence as a boss bitch and go after what she wants. And I think part of that will be confronting Roy. Sorry for rambling lol
No worries on the rambling. My entire blog is just me rambling :)
I do understand where queer people who are upset about the direction Jack/Keeley is going and/or who have concerns re: the "evil lesbian" trope are coming from. As I said in my initial post on this, I think it's a complex issue and mileage is going to vary for different people given their own experiences. A lot of wlw representation in media has been god awful, with wlw characters portrayed as horribly toxic or else killed off needlessly. I see where the concerns are rooted and I am always going to be understanding and sympathetic to queer people who just want to see themselves represented in healthy and loving relationship portrayals onscreen.
Is giving Jack unfavorable traits "fuel" for homophobic people? I mean, of course. I have already seen a number of people latching on to the issues with them last episode and using it as justification to immediately call Jack a "creeper" "abuser" and any other number of things that all more or less translate to "I hate Jack and I think Keeley deserves to return to a REAL MAN, Roy Kent, because I am a flaming bigot." However...that doesn't mean the answer is that the show shouldn't give her any unfavorable traits? The unfortunate reality is these people were always going to be homophobic regardless of whether Jack/Keeley break up or are endgame. It is really disgusting behavior to see, obviously, but I think it's important to remember that it is viewers and not the show itself who are demonizing Jack (at least at this point).
My PERSONAL opinion as a bi woman is this: I think it is silly to say that introducing a wlw relationship to the show is only worthwhile if it's perfect and wonderful and ultimately endgame, or that the writers are only allowed to have a "messy" wlw relationship if they also have a second, "perfect" wlw relationship to counterbalance it. As you said: the writers are just writing characters as people. Putting all these restrictions on the stories people want to tell and demanding they fit into certain boxes to be "acceptable" is going to leave us with a lot of really shitty media, at the end of the day.
We do have excellent queer representation on the show this season and it is in the form of three beautiful queer characters: Colin, Trent & Keeley. I think it is a little reductive to say that the show will only pass the "good representation" checkbox if these characters end up in certain relationships. Keeley is an incredible, complex character who has always been bi, will always be bi, and is wonderful bi representation regardless of whether she ends up with Jack, Roy, Jamie or nobody at all.
OKAY xx now on to the other part, Roy/Keeley:
I agree with so much of what you said. Roy/Keeley certainly had their issues (personally I think it goes beyond just "Roy doesn't think he's good enough for her or deserving of love" even though that was clearly component #1 in the break), but their differences definitely balanced in certain ways that made them an electric, compelling couple! I think both of them really needed this season to explore who they are individually and come into themselves a little bit on their own before their relationship would actually work long-term. And I do think there is going to be a reckoning between them where they lay it all out there (and we learn more about their actual break) and they decide how to move forward together, friends or partners or otherwise.
Personally I do think it would be a little rushed to put them back together at the end of this season with only five episodes left, as there are still so many loose threads between them (together as well as within their individual arcs) and only so much screen time. But the writers tend to surprise me, so if they do it, I just hope they do it in a satisfying way :)
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redcliffed · 1 year
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since you said to be more specific if i wanted to know more then can you talk abt what youve mapped out of grells and madams relationship? redcliff is my otp so i would love to hear what you think of the red murder wives
ok so!! my biggest thing w them is that to me they are just. horrible for each other. they are soulmates they are tied together by the red string of fate but god is it unhealthy. like if u build a relationship off of brutally murdering ppl ur not gonna have a healthy dynamic i’m sawrry (ESPECIALLY when it ends with murder. u don’t kill ur gf that casually if ur relationship is healthy). there’s so little content of them but the bits we see seem pretty tumultuous (i base a lot off that one rainbow butler one shot bc that shit was so gay but sooo toxic it’s scrumptious) so i just run with it! they’re both very mentally ill and homicidal that shit was doomed from the start
the whole relationship like a slow build from their first meeting bc anne is immediately like Live With Me and they’re inexplicably drawn to each other (read: horny) but it’s a slow evolution from yearning and going marginally insane and probably like drunk making out they refuse to talk abt after to insane love confessions and kinda just running with the idea that they’re basically married. and the whole time it’s just a constant flux between desperately needing each other always and divorce worthy fighting. so much divorce worthy fighting.
grell falls HARD like really fucking hard like despite being the world’s worst gf she’s also more invested. she has insane tunnel vision for anne like she abandoned her whole life for her so ofc she does!! it’s a genuine obsession and it’s so unhealthy and she’s desperately needy and anytime it feels like it may be crumbling she goes hard on trying to sabotage bc she will not leave until the bridge is burnt to fucking ASH (she’s also insanely impulsive abt it like the minute she regains common sense she’s just like “why did i do that” and then wants to rekill herself so bad).
anne is very very infatuated but she’s kind of the normaler party in the sense that she can have a life outside of grell (and grell does not like that). she’s a workaholic abt the murder and also about the Being An Aunt and she’s having a crisis of morality at all times and this makes her very preoccupied but also lowkey without grell she’d kill herself. grell is like her key to being able to live with herself morally it’s like. “no one will love me with how horrible i’m being but this bitch not only loves me but also condones my atrocities!! if she leaves me i’m blowing up the world.” but the thing is she’s confident enough that grell Won’t leave her to not be as invested in her. and she’s also not afraid to be a frigid bitch when she’s pissed at her and can be so extremely hot and cold about everything it’s absolutely insanity inducing.
they’re stuck in this insane loop of being madly in love, anne kinda zoning out of everything and getting cold, grell vying for attention via acting out or manipulation or cheating or something, Big Fight, and then back to being madly in love and they NEVER WANNA STOP bc they understand each other so deeply and fundamentally in a way no one else ever will!! they enable the worst parts of each other and they feel so safe with each other. they’re each other’s home but god that home is the worst place you’ve ever stepped foot in.
there’s also an internalized homophobia layer going on for sure that definitely does not help things. esp bc anne was probably grell’s bi awakening. i always write madam red as a lesbian who has already unpacked that and dealt with it so while she has like. period typical internalized homophobia it’s way less of a Thing for her. but for grell it’s just like Oh God What Is Happening Why Do I Want To Live In Her Skin What Are The Gender Implications Of This I Am Having A Bad Time!! so like the double whammy of a full blown sexuality crisis and first time doing commitment r driving her a little insane the whole time.
it also makes grell nerfing anne a lot less random in my brain. she just snapped in that moment and it was a 2.5 year buildup of frustration that she just let loose bc she felt like she was being rejected and like all her fears of abandonment were being confirmed and she kinda just lost it. i don’t even think she fully gets why she did it tbh it kinda just happened and she ran with it and processed it all two hours later and was like “oh shit i’m going to pretend that won’t make me wanna die forever” but it’s also just a response to a constant pattern of Fucking Everything Up So Bad Now, Kiss And Make Up Later except oopsies it was fatal this time!!!
basically when the relationship is good it’s perfect and idealistic and amazing in every way and when it’s bad it’s the worst fucking relationship you’ve ever seen. it’s a mess they’re a mess it’s so fun!!
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menalez · 1 year
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this ask isn't attacking you personally or anything, i just think i need to get something off my chest. but seeing those posts about the anon that sent u about the lesbian mom losing custody rights to the sperm donor baby and her bi ex-wife... as well as all the lesbians talking about how evil all bi women are... and then seeing how most bi women both would rather be with men over another bi woman like myself + lesbians would rather be with another lesbian than bis... tbh, i give up. i am never going to find a gf or a wife at this rate. i feel like other bi women who act anti-ssa in general makes it so much harder for bi women like myself who wishes she could spend her life with another woman, because other women are rightfully wary about my orientation and the history that comes with it. it also makes me internalize the message that my love for a woman can never delve to a deeper level after a while, because my nature simply wouldn't allow it. so, in respect for all women, i'm just going to behave myself and stick with the men. even if i loathe damn near all of them because of their misogyny. i wouldn't mind making love with women (might just be the only time ever where i can embrace her and pretend we are together) but i'll let her go after so she can experience true love elsewhere. it's for the best. (this post isn't faulting anyone else btw just so we're clear!)
anon, respectfully, calm down. most bisexual women chose that they have no preference, a lot of lesbians chose the same, and the lesbians strongly against bi women are just a small group ultimately. the lesbians that prefer other lesbians are also in my experience a small group bc most lesbians i know have dated bi women primarily, or even exclusively. you can literally just date a woman. it’s always going to be harder to date other women than it is to date men and using tumblr as a basis for how it’s nearly impossible for u is just.. not rational lol. there’s no basis to believe your “love for a woman can never delve to a deeper level after a while” or almost any of what u said.
truly, take a deep breath, calm down, & go date women. don’t look for excuses to take an easy route u don’t want to take, ur seeing all the bi women on here that decided to be exclusive to women… it’s possible.
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femmespoiled · 10 months
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curious question, have you ever experienced someone saying you’re not a lesbian and/or you’re not attracted to women bc of being a stone bottom/pillow princess or prefer bottoming In gen ? :’))
—. I’m just curious bc I have and it really hurt my feels lolol. Bc I am very attracted to women, but I get very uncomfortable topping. I don’t like “being in control” I guess idk, and that applies to all aspects of my person. I am just not a dominant being In general. I still do some touching and always make sure my partner is also satisfied (I am in a long term relationship and my gf and I are very open and comfy w/ our dynamic in this context) and I’m sorry to dump on you I just want other peoples thoughts on this. it was really invalidating and upsetting.
Not to my face or to me personally, because I only date stone counterparts, but I've seen so many comments all over social media about that and it's so depressing to see, I understand feeling hurt by it, I felt hurt by it too, it feels like being hated by your own community.
As a switch (dom and sub) but not a vers (I only bottom, don't top), I would like to clarify that topping isn't inherently tied to being in control or being a dominant, you can top while being submissive and vice versa, being a bottom doesn't mean you're submissive. It's completely ok to be a sub bottom, there's nothing wrong with that, just wanted to make sure that's clear.
Also I guess, when talking about stone dynamics, I'm very biased being in a stone4stone dynamic so our experiences aren't the same, but when it comes to stone top butches, in my experience, their satisfaction and pleasure comes from their preferred role without the need of this (expected in society) reciprocity and touch. Though like I've said before these dynamics can be more nuanced than whatever black and white answer I can give you.
However, I am happy your dynamic works and that your gf is understanding with you when it comes to that, all people stone or leaning towards stone deserve that. All boundaries should be respected, because at the end of the day it's about consent.
I understand your feelings and I'm sorry we still have to deal with such bullshit. If it helps any, I personally think people that have a problem with stone femmes/high femmes/pillow princesses/stone bottoms have a huge red flag regarding consent and I don't trust them. (As in they don't have to date us, no one is making them and most of us don't want them, but gratuitous bullshit thrown at us for just existing? Get fucked.)
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I don't think I ever told anyone about this experience but I almost had a girlfriend. It would have been a long distance situation, but I didn't mind. It was right about the time where I was coming out as trans but hadn't chosen a new name yet (I was going by a shortened version of my deadname). So things were great, we were facetiming and playing animal crossing and flirting (despite me being awkward af) and we started making plans to see each other around the holiday. But then she ghosted out of my life for like a month and resurfaced with a girlfriend of her own from another really far state. I was hurt, but was happy for her. but the kicker is when she came back into my life she had no respect for my gender identity. She said she's always been a lesbian and hated men and I'm over here like "um, hi?" I get the feeling of "I think I've always been x without realizing" but that wasn't the vibe, it was like she was trying to gaslight me. And then she would continue to try to talk to me with romantic intent despite being a lesbian and having a gf and uncomfortable with poly situations (it came up bc I myself am poly). Eventually I had to address these things because it was getting out of hand, and she just disappeared again. And it was while she was getting this really elaborate tattoo done, and tattoos are my thing so I never got to find out how it turned out... hope it looks fantastic tho, I love a floral moment.
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tagged by @morihaus! thank you for thinking of me!! c’:
describe one wip you’re planning to work on over the summer: I have made the teeniest of dents in the Amanda Lee revelation chapter which I consider a great success! also have a handful of short pieces I’m working on besides the ones for tesfest. the one closest to being done is one I thought would be a good primer for how I’ve been thinking of the mechanics of restoration in a less um. immediately urgent setting lol.
recommend a book: OBLIGATORY: read Peter S. Beagle. cough. anyway I think while last time I recommended books I hit a couple of my favorites but I’ve been thinking about Anna Pigeon again so let me tell you once more in more detail about Nevada Barr’s Anna Pigeon series. gimmick setting mysteries where the gimmick setting is a different national park each time bc Anna Pigeon is a middle-aged park ranger, who used to be on the tech side of live theatre, has a Tragic Past involving a Dead Husband of Many Years Ago, is 100% unknowingly bisexual (which I would say is just me projecting but 1. Barr has written at least one book about a wlw relationship and 2. for a while she lives with her lesbian friend and is like oh :( I’m so sad eventually she’ll find a gf and I’ll have to stop living with her :( if only I were gay and also her type so we could keep living together :( like... ma’am.), and she’s so much fun. I love her. Track of the Cat is the first one and the ending KILLS ME. light spoiler territory ahead, but listen. LISTEN. do you want to read about a scrawny 40-something woman covered in blood and leaving a man to certain death? OF COURSE YOU DO. read the Anna Pigeon books. pls.
recommend a fic: as always, everything in my fic rec tag is, obviously, a hearty and resounding recommendation!! however I am also going to take this opportunity to plug EBStarr’s Cordano work bc they get it. I have never otherwise seen someone who nails their characterization and dynamic so precisely so naturally I come back to their work every so often like a moth to candlelight. OBSESSED. had the jaw-dropping realization a few months ago that they were apparently only like 17 when they wrote these and then I had a bit of a crisis lol. EBStarr if you’re out there I NEED to know what you’re writing now bc I think you’re a genius
recommend music: the song I have been looping for days on end now, from my all-time favorite band: Nothing Lost by Anberlin. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again Stephen Christian’s voice could resurrect me!! it’s from what was previously their most recent EP until like three weeks ago and the most recent one is ALSO exceptionally good, this is just what’s currently feeding the brain worms
share a piece of advice: run the garbage disposal in your sink every couple days even if you don’t think you need to. trust me you do need to you really really need to please my friends listen to me do not make my mistakes run your garbage disposal right now
tagging the usual suspects @bwayfan25, @codenamesailordarillium, @flugames and anyone else who wants to do it (please do it and say I tagged you I love tag games and seeing what people’s answers are!! :D)
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feuqueerfire · 2 years
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21 Days Theory Live Blogging
seems cute and funny, there’s a queer adult uncle, it’s short which I think is fun, also 21 is my favourite number.
Episode 1 (Sep 8)
Part 1
Oh Q, so arrogant, could become irritating very quickly tbh
I hope this girl Mook is nice, BLs introducing a girl always makes me nervous
lmfao damn X is a dick. I remember seeing these scenes on social media when the episode came out but from Q’s confidence I thought he’d be the one antagonizing X but nah
oof poor Q getting antagonized by X and then having his friend Toy be like he’s so polite, you’re probably the one whole bullied him and won’t believe it’s the other way around lol
Part 2
omg I do hope Teacher Mind is gay and has a gf but I think they’re setting up her and Frank sigh
lol X now has Q’s number and address and he’s impressed his family as well
Episode 2 (Sep 10)
Part 1
I watched a bit of this yesterday but am mostly watching it today
I kinda don’t care about Q’s friends’ side stories. It’s a short series, focus on the main couple but I guess they want to introduce as many people to the audience as possible
Part 2
Watching on 1.25x because it’s a little slow/boring
loll pratfall but at least they didn’t kiss
lol? is the mom like my brother liking men is okay but I’m not okay with my son doing it? I mean I think Uncle Man is helping her and she’ll come around but still...
Q delegating the “woo Mook for me” tasks to his friends, what a silly guy
I want Q’s shirt 
Linguistics/Pronouns: oh yeah, X uses pom/khun pronouns and -krap very often, it’s quite polite. I wish I paid attention to what Q used with X. I rewatched the scene of them at X’s condo earlier in this part and Q doesn’t seem to use I/you pronouns? and doesn’t use -krap endings either. Found what absoluteBL had to say about this (their Aug 2022 Wk 3 round-up post)
omg I want tutor Mind and Mook to be a lesbian couple so badly pretend I didn’t say that about sisters
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Episode 3 (Sep 12)
Part 1
hair washing, i do love that. even though it’s not really the same, Q taking care of X bc of his injured hand reminds me of Khao taking care of First all throughout Safe House S4 last week
just in the bath with their jeans
Linguistics/Pronouns: okay now they’re talking about Q using Q as the I pronoun. And instead of “nai” as you pronoun, X says Q can call him X (not P’X?)
loll the mom talking so earnestly to Q, trying to signal to him she’s okay with him liking guys/X but not saying it outright
Toy and Mook are kinda cute lol but still not feeling Frank and Mild, mostly because I wanted her to be gay so bad but also bc they haven’t been showing them in a super romantic light
Part 2
Uncle Man so good for giving advice to Q’s mom to have her accept him
ik Uncle Man’s prlly just doting on X to push Q and X together quicker but it’s still so awkward
lol I think Toy and Mook are so cute like he’s soooo into her and he’s not like Awkward and Weird around her that makes it uncomfortable but nervous in an endearing way
Uncle Man also giving advice to Q
Episode 4 (Sep 13)
Part 1
Adorable cheek kiss from a misunderstanding is adorable
lol the mom and uncle thinking their gaming commentary was them having sex
Q and his friends are a cute friendgroup
naurrr X was doing some “21 Days Theory” with Q? and Mook knew about it too? flashbacks to every YA novel/movie 
:0 Q threw a punch at X, damn
X will be done day after tomorrow?! girl the punches just keep coming
lmfao okay at least Frank is like “Mild be my older sister :)” and not “I wanna date you” bc I wasn’t feeling them in a romantic way and neither was either of them
Part 2
Coming out to family and being greeted with accepted scenes are always so good
yknow what X being cute about Q is so cute, he likes Q so much even though he was so annoying in the beginning
3 mins left are we really about to get the most rushed airport meeting as the ending? Why is this not just a little longer sigh
bruh not even an airport meeting, just skipping to 2 months later rip
very very rushed ending, feels like this could be the start of a Missed Chances or Ex-Friends/Crushes BL since it left so much open. idk if they have the budget for a sequel but I think it could be fun
This was cute! Although it did take me a long ass time to watch 4 40-minute episodes but I think that’s just my problem and me entering some sort of slump rather than the show not being cute or engaging. 
I think the actors were cute, wonder what Rookie Thailand has in store for them next.
I loved having Uncle Man as a queer adult who was there to offer up his experience and advice, as well as reassure Q’s mom. So good! Also liked the tight-knit friend group even though Q was kinda taking advantage of them lol
Rating: 6/10
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the misunderstanding over Toy blowing on Q’s wet pants
Q jealous of uncle + X confessing
Ep 4 cheek kiss 
Mom and Uncle misunderstanding zombie game
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tandytoaster · 2 years
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It’s so weird to have my mother (seemingly) be like... an okay person. Given, I have no idea what it’s like at her house when I’m not there, but when I AM there things are nice, regular family shit.
On one hand it’s super confusing not having any closure. Confronting her on all the whack ass shit she’s done and said over the years WAS something I was going to do, I was going to do it in August but that’s when both she and Suzie Q got sick. And I was like. Damn if I go through with this it will kill her. Literally. So I didn’t and then in November was when Princess Fluffy got sick and when I found that cat that looked like Friskie in the marsh fields and I resumed contact.
Ever since pokemon sumo came out, I saw so much of my mother in Lusamine, like it’s fucked. A woman more concerned with her animals than her human children, her son rebelling and her daughter running away. Even down to the sumo vs usum discrepancy - with Lillie telling off Lusamine in the sumo but that Not happening in usum, yet everything is somehow okay after all that. Like, that’s ME, that’s MY LIFE. “Why is this happening, this woman was evil, why is she being nice”. With pokemon it’s a more simpler thing to comprehend since Lusamine is a character, it’s normal to question why writers would chose to redeem such a shitty person. But with ME? My mom is a whole person, a human being. So then the why turns to me, WHY have I let this woman back into my life after all the years of me saying I would escape from her. It’s complex in a human way that I don’t know how to describe, like it just makes sense. As humans, we want to be loved and wanted and to have connections, and the very first people we love are our parents and they’re supposed to love us. Obviously I can’t speak for every abused child, but a lingering feeling of “Why did you do this to me, you were supposed to take care of me” persists. And that can manifest as sadness or anger or resentment or fear or a wish to be loved like how we were supposed to be.
It’s incredibly mind boggling to witness her hear me out on things instead of telling me that she’s right and that I don’t know anything, it’s weird as hell seeing her EMPATHIZE with me and listen to me instead of telling me to get over it. I was telling her about the harry potter shit and bitchass rowling being a transphobe, to which my mother said, “See, now I don’t get that. That doesn’t effect her, why does she care at the defense of trans ppl. And the conversation continues and she mentioned some gnc people she sees around regularly or knew in the past and how she’s always worn men’s clothes and how clothing is just clothing. She was SUPPORTIVE in the way a slightly out of touch 45 year old is, some wrong or outdated terminology but otherwise at our defense. Then the conversation went to somewhere that prompted her to say, “Lesbians are the WORST they’re MEAN” and immediately I was like “You’re thinking of r*df*ms” and I explained what that was and how a lot of them happen to be lesbians but most lesbians are not a part of that mindset, it’s just that the r*df*ms are really flashy so they catch attention. And she repeated it back to me like, “Ohh so those people are just really loud. Yea that makes sense”, LIKE SHE LISTENED TO ME?? HEARD ME OUT?? First time in my goddamn life.
I was telling Christina about this the other day and they were like “holy fuck”, bc they’ve known my mom for years bc we’ve been friends since we were 7. Like they were FLOORED.
Another thing I think I caught the other day from my mother, I think she used my gf’s proper pronouns??? A lot was happening, so it was noisy but what I THINK I heard was, “When do you have to pick him up- Or, pick them up” (becc uses they/them around my family for now). I’m REALLY hoping I heard right because that’s another massive development, because since day 1 she was pretty rude about Becc. As well as the fact that my mom was a “there’s only 2 genders” person
Seeing all these positive changes is incredible but it comes with fear too. I’m worried it’s a tactic to reel me back in and she can start trying to control me again. Everything seems nice in the beginning but then goes back to how it’s always been. It’s scary because I don’t want to go through that shit ever again, but even scarier for me now is that I’ve been show respect and love and I don’t want to lose that. It’s like how I feel about 2019, it was the best year of my life and the happiest I’ve ever been, but we’re no longer in the world that was once 2019 and I think it’s cruel to be given something that makes me feel like how a normal person should feel, only to have it swiftly taken away. I’d rather go without ever knowing the feeling if it meant not having to endure the grief that comes with losing it.
I feel like a child coming up to their mother to show her the macaroni art they made so she can put it on the fridge. Look at what I made, look at what I can do.
I don’t wish this confusing mess upon anyone. Fucks with your head too much
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chunghasgirlfriend · 8 months
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text your friends guys !!
ngl i have this friend that i had a complicated thing with, not directly but through my other friends. long story short, he had a thing with my two friends when we were in high school and in the end, they stopped talking to him and slowly i did too. not that he did anything to me, just that i didn't want my two friends to feel bad and i've learned to NOT do that. he didn't do anything to me, so i'm a little sad about that i pushed him away without saying anything.
we both graduated high school this year, so i had talked to him all throughout that and even learned that he now drives, lives in the area of our uni now, and has a girlfriend now. we exchanged phone numbers and just decided that if we wanted to hang out we could, or at least know someone from our county
but anyways i recconnected with him when he wished me happy birthday and we started talking again. it was actually super cool to talk again. we're both going to the same uni and we were were just talking about it, like schedules and stuff. and it just so nice to have a friend again.
i pushed everyone away because i just didn't feel like talking to any of my friends. even prior to the situation with him and my friends, I just slowly stopped talking to my friends and stopped making new ones at school because i was just tired. I mean the people i was around were people I knew since middle school and I was just tired of seeing them. i didn't want to call my friends nor did i want to text them.
so reconnecting with my friend was really nice. when I went to my orientation, and i met the girl who I now currently have a crush on (see my other posts lol), I told him about her and he even started to cheer me on.
Like imagine me, this is a dude I've been friends with since 7th grade. He's seen all messy sides of me and how I've changed throughout the years, and TRUST ME, how much I say change. From my interests to how I act to my sexuality, he's seen it all. And me to him also. I guess it's just I'm so glad that I have a genuine friend that I can rely on and just talk to. I'm a lesbian and he's a straight taken guy, so it's not like we're interested in each other. Which is kinda new to me bc I've had mostly female friends and most of them I was kinda into or at least willing to date, so it's nice to have a friend that I'm genuinely not into to confide in.
And it was his birthday and since I was still awake at 12 am, I decided to text him happy birthday like he did to me and it was nice. I updated him about me and girl I like (we're getting lunch with our familes together when we move in together !!!) and he updated me on spending time with his gf and buying furniture. Like dude, we're actually becoming adults !!! how crazy is that ????
this was someone I used to just talk about anime and drawing with at 12/13, what the hell do you mean I'm getting to talk to him about moving into college and him buying furniture for a house ????
it's just...I feel really happy now. I have cute girl I like who I also just really enjoy as my friend. She's just as delusional as I am in all the right ways and she's also lgbtq+. And now I also have a dependable friend that I can count on to hang out with. I'm a little scared to leave for college, but I'm also incredibly excited. My life is finally looking up after the pandemic basically decimated my high school experience.
Make sure to text your friends guys. If you're like me, too cynical + too self aware, and think everything you do is cringey, trust me, your real friends won't give a shit. Just talk to them, if nothing else, it's nice to talk with someone else and just catch up. Our lives are always going in different trajectories, but if we have company beside us, it makes life a little less intimidating.
I've definitely been caught up in relationships that make me ignore the importance of friends and I've always been someone to emphasize friendships, but I've never taken my own advice. But now, I feel it more than ever. Relationships are great, but don't just throw away important friendships, especially when you're two friends trying to figure out adult life with.
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renegadessys · 2 years
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for the system ask game: 8 for Cassandra, 10 for Dumitria, 12 for everyone who wants to answer
8) What's something you consider yourself good at?
Tbh my instinctual answer would be nothing but my mom will get mad at me if I say that so,,, I consider myself good at making people happy/being kind. I always feel kind of weird saying that but genuinely my desire to help people is something I pride myself on and I think I have a very unique and impactful way of doing things that makes a lot of people happy. - Cassandra
10) Do you have a playlist for yourself? What's the most 'you' song on it? How long is the playlist?
I DO I actually have THREE playlists for myself that are all just me from different dnd campaigns. And ok. Ok so like. Listen. I HAVE a song that I associate with myself it just doesn't make any lyrical sense. I just associate it with myself bc of old dnd stuff. It's Shut Eye by Stealing Sheep. But also Cooler Than Me (SPECIFICALLY the first to eleven cover bc the singer is a lesbian and so am I and it reminds me of my bitchy gf 💜) is my song. UwU - Dumitra
12) Coke or Pepsi?
Unfortunately for you, every single one of us thinks soda is nasty bc the body can't stomach it. So none of us are capable of having an opinion. But also it's pepsi because we like calling Epsilon rvb epsi-pepsi/pepsilon we think it's funny. But also it's coke because that's what Penance prefers. But als- (I am being smacked for continuing so will stop lmao) - Dumitra also
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I won’t lie I’m struggling rn… I’m proudly bi but I agree that other bisexuals are upsetting :/ literally sent an ask like this to femalewaifubeater but my sister is bisexual yet het partnered and im sorry but I can’t picture her with a gf ever —not saying she doesn’t have attraction bc I think that’s smth Bi’s need to talk about is how bisexuality is the only sexuality that can be a spectrum, you can have sexual attraction to women but only really date men, other way around or like both equally or lean more one way or… well you know what I mean a literal spectrum the only thing you need to be bisexual is to have sexual attraction to BOTH sexes, your preference is the spectrum— and I’m always saying she’s in a het relationship and she gets so mad she’s like “it’s not straight we are both bi” I was like gorl. Please. ??????
It sucks she literally had radfem beliefs until she met her nb bf (male lol) and now she’s all “they aren’t like that!” Even tho he’s exactly like that (literally debated me on why sex work was good for women and my friend should start an onlyfans IN FRONT OF MY SISTER) it makes me sad bc she’s just… throwing everything away all for him.
Anyways she said asked ME TO STAY HOME for pride so her and bf could go I’m like bruh 😭 I am woman 4 woman, she’s the stereotypical “I wish I could have a bf and a gf 😍😍” it’s so annoying to me it makes me sad bc I miss my sister and now idek she doesn’t feel like the same person.
damn im sorry about that, it sounds very annoying and frustrating to deal with....... some bi women cause me some annoyances in similar ways but i usually am just like whatever fine about that if theyre at least like. not expressing lesbophobic beliefs and have this base solidarity & support towards lesbians.
but also i agree bisexuality is indeed within a spectrum and can vary a lot! and as another anon brought up that likely makes forming solidarity between bisexuals quite difficult, nvm forming solidarity w lesbians
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extremeteenlesbian · 6 years
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im feeling invalid in this chili’s
im venting in the tags maybe read perhaps Thanks
#im gonna vent i wish i had somebody To vent to bc i really need some comfort rifht now but. i have nobody im so aloje#maybe at least lms pls thanks if u read#im havin a hard time w Life. im feelin so panicky abt everythijg but rifht now mainly myself#i was in a relatjonsjip for over a year and its the only relationsjip ive ever been in but we broke up n i jus feel like. weird abt myself#ive always taken so much pride in bein a lesbian but now tjat i dont have an actual gf im feelin so strange like idk .. i dont think that im#not a lesbian or anythin im like 99.99% sure i am a huge lesbain but i feel so odd now that im Alone#i never had to question it for so long bc i was in a relatjonsjip so i felt totally valid and Fine but now im alone and i feel so I DONT KNO#i keep sagin the same vague shit hc i cant explain what im feelin im so frsutrated#i just. am feeling bad and scared that im never gonna find a girl ever like im gonna be alone and sad forever#idk what to do its so overwhelming#i feel like iwill never find anybody like my ex which is ao upsetting iv never felt that way for anybody and in afraid i never will#bc its so hard for me be comfy giving into ppl. but i never had a problem doing it with him. so im svared ill jus. never find somebody i can#feel rhat way with. and im so scared nobody will ever Love me bc i dont think he realy did either so im jus. extra scared tjat im The Worst#and tjat i will never ever be good enough for anybody. snd i feel so bad abt myself and i kno im Young uwu but. it doesnt make it any less#overwhelming like i jus feel this huge dread like. im never gonna find somebody ill love again and im never gonna find anybody who actually#loves and cares abt me bc i dont think that relationsjip was even like tjat sp its like. well god guess im Worthless hhhff#god idk im just so sad this is so dumb and prob makes no sense n nobodies prob even reading#pls lms and reply maybe if u read bc i feel so alone i loterally have mobody in my life amymore i have to vent in these stupid tags bc nobod#cares abt me hha
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