#I am so fucking lonely lol

[evansbby]

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#random and emo and will prob delete but #sometimes i feel so lonely in this fandom 😔😭 #like amongst the writers of this fandom I mean #like it feels like all the cevans writers are friends with each other and I’m the local weirdo on the other side like 🤠 #obv I talk to some people and am mutuals with some people whom I loooove but like #idk I’ve always felt this low-key 😂😂😂 #it’s bc I’m so awkward and I think that they all think I’m annoying #like I automatically assume most of the big writer blogs hate me lol #which is deffo just in my head and I’m insane yall know im fucking insane and jump to conclusions 😂😂😂 #but idk sometimes I just feel sooo lonely #well not LONELY bc I love my anons and my mutuals and I’m always on here yapping about something or the other 😅😅 #but I feel like I’m not part of that amazing writer community where everyone’s friends with everyone #MAYBE BC I NEVER FUCKING TALK TO ANYONE BUT THAT IS BC I AM SCARED SO I NEVER PUT MYSELF OUT THERE #😭😭😭😭😭 #but yeah lol #no fr tho why can’t I be normal lmaoooo

[pragmatic-optimist]

“You think you’re a match?” 

“In every way that matters.”

TK’s reply here is living rent-free in my mind. Not just his word choice but his delivery. Earnest, heartfelt, certain…

In every way that matters.

He could have simply said “yes,” but it wouldn’t have conveyed to Iris just how essential Carlos is to TK, and he is to Carlos in return. Two halves of a whole and nothing in their life truly made any damn sense until they found one another. They are unconditionally and irrevocably in love. The kind of love that changes your life…

In every way that matters.

The journey hasn’t been the smoothest, and things have been far from perfect (#understatement). But they are perfect for each other...

In every way that matters.

They’re getting married, and he doesn’t want to sort out the dilly-dallies later. When he says, “I do,” he wants people to know he did...

In every way that matters.

#RENT-FUCKING-FREE #this whole speech #(both speeches he gave actually since they go hand in hand) #the way this line hits especially with this marriage bomb #i'm working through my feelings and really holding on to the fact that tk and carlos love each other so damn much #it is inconceivable that they would not choose each other over everything every time #so i hold on to that -- i am clutching it for dear life lol #halfway through this arc! #and there is a wedding waiting on the other side 💍 #tk strand #tarlos #911 lone star #911 lone star spoilers #sonia rambles #that thing you queue

[scrawnytreedemon]

In short, if any of my fellow freaks wish to fall in love, you can find me:

under the aforementioned bridge !

hiding at the bottom of Lakebed Temple

derealising in City in the Sky !!

climbing trees and losing all my worries in the nearby pond of the castle courtyard in SM64

running endless laps on N64 Bowser's Castle in Mario Kart Wii while either rambling endlessly or silently wishing i could return to my childhood

experiencing Emotions in Kalm.

Grieving For My Cat In FFXV

And many places more!

(And, y'know, in DMs, on Discord, via email ect. ect. failing all that you can yell into a local pool of stagnant water and I'll see if I can pick up 👌)

#scrawny rambles #i jest but also like. fuck it honestly. #if you wish to Form a Bond #whether friendly or to shoot your shot #go for it #these are lonely times #i'm highkey dogshit at responding in a timely manner so nw if it takes a few days. or a week. #look i am a *tree* demon nothing trees do is fast in any way shape or form #Ent Behaviour™ #may or may not delete later lol #or simply edit the tags #main text of the post is funny in my awful opinion

[a-hazbin-reader]

just wanted to thank you for the platonic hcs and little stories because sometimes i don't wanna fall in love and kiss these people, sometimes i just wanna get into shenanigans and gossip about randos

its really refreshing to see some good platonic writers out there, and you absolutely are one of them

make sure to take care of yourself, and keep up the incredible work <333

Omg thank you so much this is so fucking sweet!! 🥹💐 I love making platonic content! There's just something so good about people loving each other without needing or wanting to cross that line.

It's not just something I want to power through to please people, I think friendships are a very important part of life and strong ones need to treasured.

Even if someone is just reading my stuff for their oc or self insert, once that character you want to romance is out of the picture then what? It would be so boring if their lives are only about their romance!!

I honestly could just go on and on about this but thank you again for this message! It's really just so kind 😇

#This is so sweet #making me feel things over here #I am PASSIONATE about friendships #Y'all who are your ocs friends with #who's their besties #don't be shy #lol #but seriously #life is lonely without friends #don't get me wrong #i fucking love romance #soul mates and all that #but you need friends too #😭

[caluski]

i always say i need a break from socmedia and whatnot but then i get overwhelmingly lonely and sad and desperate. i need to be around people so bad. i need to be held so fucking bad, i wanna have someone to talk to whenever i want, without feeling like a burden... is that real? does that ever happen?

#i was talking to /kind of/ a friend recently saying i am so excited to have finally a laptop where i can stream movies with friends thru #discord and i was like i would love to do that again with you! and she kind of just ignored it... god it made me so fucking sad LOL #i thought we were having fun back then... i thought it was nice... i thought it was a good time... #but you know its like. well its okay. its been a while and its not like we remained close #but god i feel so lonely! i wanted this year to be different... can i be wanted! can i be desired! please #pogaduchy

[fecto-forgo]

alright who tge hell is the person in your pfp theyre so pretty ......

MY BELOVED LITTLE CYN THE AUTISM WEIRD GIRL DRONE FROM MURDER DRONES AVAILABLE FOR FREE ON YOUTUBE ON THE SAME CHANNEL THAT UPLOADED DIGITAL CIRCUS.GO WATCH IT.IF YOU DO ILL WATCH SONIC IN RETURN HUH GOOD DEAL RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT

#ask #ik kinning a character whos still rly ambiguous to the point a lot of ppl equal her to being #*spoilers* but i know it in mi corazon i am right abt her. #anyways blease i have no md mutuals #i am so lonely #if i get my own bank account someday ill pay you ill hire an assassin for you someday if needed huh huh huh good deal right huh what abt it #clarification i am exaggerating for funsies its fine if you dont wanna lol #wait oh my god fucking hell ANOTHER kin whos ambigous if shes even her own identity or a false form oh god not again #WHY ALWAYS ME!!! HITS THE FLOOR

[mercuryislove]

man. I can't believe people like. fall in love lol

#remembered that it has been [redacted] years since ive dated or slept with anyone or had romantic feelings for someone at all #and im wondering if i will ever feel that way about anyone ever again lol #my heart is cold and dark and hard even though i am a romantic deep down. #i WANT to be in love with someone so bad but i have uh. a bad record and also i never meet new people #and let me tell you. there are not a lot of single gay girls in my age range here. theyre all like 19. no thank you. #NOT TO MENTION i am fucked in the head and honestly kind of not built for a relationship anyway #like i have war flashbacks thinking about how truly insane and flat out psychotic i became during breakups #but that's beside the point lol #the point is that i really cant imagine a future for myself where anyone will ever love me. lol. #i think i will be trapped in my lonely purple bedroom with this mismatched furniture and this finicky lamp all by myself until i die #and you know. it's whatever. most of the time i dont even care

[in-the-sweet-november-rain]

god i hate my damn school 😭

#vicki's shit #like they find EVERY fucking reason to torture me its insane #and like make fun of my parents and my family #LIKE HOW DO YOU EVEN KNOW MY FAMILY?? #who are you to comment on that? #“she's only here cuz she has good grades and plays instruments” yes. yes i am #HAVE YOU BEEN PLAYING THE VIOLIN FOR 7 SEVEN FUCKING YEARS? HAVE YOU PATRICK??! DIDNT' THINK SO! #like im so sick and tired of adhering to the expectations that society has of me #like i will ALWAYS be the lonely depressed girl that doesn't wear makeup much and #doesn't have the money or the desire to buy chanel or whatever fucking brand and #has puffy hair and listens to weird music and doesn't have friends #like i have friends i think i have a really close one #but idk anymore #we used to be rly close- now they're slowly turning into one of THOSE girls and is invited to the parties i'm never invited to </3 #its just hurts yknow? #it hurts knowing you'll never be like them #cuz it feels nice to be wanted #and i'm not. #anyways sry lmao #no ones gonna fucking read this lol #if you're here reading this thanks <3 and i love you

[eeunwoo]

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#hii.. im still not really here a lot re kpop its just not really like the most important thing in my life rn lol #but uh i guess my dog's passing is something i gotta deal on my own entirely. my mom seems pretty much over it without really taking me int #account at all. today shes even sorta like. making odd comments/jokes about it like 'i talk to toto sometimes' because we say this #weird lady on tv talking ab how she talks to deer heads. and i just stared at my mom like deadpan and just looked away #bc what the fuck. and ofc she wouldnt consider its not an ok thing to say . otherwise shes really like trying to make out that im being a #really good kid and taking care of her and her feelings bc shes inventing things in her head about me being extra nice and careful with her #shes like awww youre taking care of me <3 and im like no im actually treating you like you're a total stranger in my house because you #basically are. and anyway. im basically on my own like i always am. i just have to deal with it all alone. as always. which is like fine #its just im extra lonely and alone so <3 ive also been suicidal and really really on the edge. that's your alex update if anyone cares #to be completely honest it's been taking everything in me not to just od right now its all i can think about and i havent felt like it in #years. ive just been sleeping for 12 hours at a time lmao........ anyway yeah thats it? #mrow.org

[dromaeocore]

DANCE WITH THE DEVIL

#my art #furry #horror #cj #my ocs #I absolutely love this piece but don't want anyone to worry or know or. okay well i actually am aching to tell people what's going on #bc it's so fucking lonely. but He won't let me. because He knows people will intervene #...sorry if. Yeah #This sucks. #lol he looks like an evil worm on a string #damn hope that's not the last thing i ever say on this blog. but that would be kinda funny though #vent art

[pepprs]

i will shut up abt this i promise but like. the concept of being in a stable safe mutually loving whatever relationship is INSANE . like how can you ever feel bad about yourself or wounded or whatever again. it’s like a superpower or somethi ng. <- doesn’t know what she’s taking abt bc she’s never experienced it or the absence of it after having it merely the negative space of it and is filling in the gaps w logic or something. but it’s INSANE to me. like of course i feel like shit about myself i am catcrumb unloved.jpg!

#purrs #imbeing insane about it i know it’s not that simple / reductive and i will still feel like shit abt myself once im in a relationshp (if i #get to be ♥️) and there are lots of other legitimate reasons to feel shit agtbyiurself. but it’s like no ficking wonder i feel inadequate i #am a 24 year old who lives at home and has never held a hand or whatever next to two 50sometjinf year old married men with pets and phds. of #course i am going to feel inadequate and stupid and lonely. like i canttttt 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂💀💀💀💀💀💀💀 and th w worst part is you can’t just go out into #the world saying that and looking for that it has to find you so i will not join any dating apps or whatever but i don’t fucking go anywhere #so im not going to meet anyone and i knowi am so young and stupid and just having a horrible day that is reminding me of horrors. but the #way i am mentally shoving my whole fist in my mouth. OF COURSE I FEEL LIKE SHIT I DONT HAVE A LIFE PARTNER!!!!!!!!!!!! I DONT HAVE THAT #SAFETY AND STABILITY AND TRUST AND UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!!!!!!!! AND I NEVER HAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #delete later #like this is what makes me crazy abt parents and kids too and whyi don’t think ihave kids. bc i think (and i know this is wrong / unhealthy) #it is a primal human need to be mutually someone else’s number 1 person and when you have kids it’s like you’re gonna love your partner more #than the kids and then the kids (read: me) watch that and get fucked up over it. but also that could just be me reacting to the UNSPEAKABLE #psychological damage of being a twin. which again is ridiculous bc it’s n out like abuse i just had to share something with someone else si #since before i was born and ofc there was more like actually kind of abusive stuff on top of it LOL but that aside. idk what im saying i #just feel so crazy. the amount of composure it takes me every day to not start SCREAMING with frustration and envy when i see ppl being #RIGHTFULLY DESERVEDLY visibly confident and loved. like ok valentines grinch go sit in the drainage pond forever please. but it’s so crazy #like how are you supposed to go through the world unaware of how much love you’re missing out on because you’re young and then you realize I #it and then somehow you miss the train and you are scared you are going to d*e alone ♥️ im normal

[toruq]

#i dont like this lol #the art of it looks so fucked i dont know why #its gotta be that first panel #i dare say that the words arent quite right either #man im losing literally every part of myself now #;_____; #i lost dignity and trust and self love bc #i just found out how people i used to call friends were saying about me #either innaproppriate comments or calling me crazy #it makes me feel really betrayed in a way #feels like a life i was living was a lie #its amazing how little consideration people will have for you and jump to conclusions to make you as insignificant as possible #i have someone who loves me though #and i have a family who loves me #but besides a s/o who is busy with school and a family i live hours from..... #the world seems very lonely #and after losing these 'friends' #its hard to want to reach out again i guess #i am just comfortable being lonely not even gonna lie #i guess i feel sad that the life i had been living of feeling like i was this type of person who enjoyed going out and having fun with ppl #was just one big facade #im tired of my life being like a masquerade #sso #ssoblr #my art #sso anne #anne von blyssen #sso concorde

[appalachy]

My sister tricked me into watching house md by convicning me its just a medical drama with a lot of goofiness bc house is hilarious but she forgot to mention that at its core this show is abt loneliness???

#dont get me wrong i love it but didnt expect to be so emotional over it like why am i tearing up rn lol #house md #going insane seeing house and everyone else miserable and sad and lonely #house saying he had one friend but not anymore bc wilson doesnt want to see him FUCK. EVERYHTING #wilson saying he is moving on yet still talking with eberyone else except for house djydhdienskenjr

[skunkg1rll]

i love being supportive and never getting any support in return :* oh! i also love being thrown to the side and have someone else who does 10% of what i do for you be chosen over me !!!! <333

#being a kind person gives you NOTHING #literally fucking nothing #whats the point in anything???? #im nice and supportive etc etc but ppl just discard me anyway nd i never mean anything to anyone #while ppl who are straight up fkn bitches get to have friends and partners #if i was pretty i could be a bitch too u aint special #being ugly forces me to be nice but not even that is enough lmao #literally nothing i can do #maybe i should just accept that the best i'll ever get is some abusive guy raping me lmao #anyway.... whatever #im just jealous that she gets to be mean nd cold nd condescending nd literally never show support #yet ppl like her. nd pick her over me #what am i doing wrong lol. i could never be as flippant nd uncaring as she is yet im never good enough #i do wish i was hotter so a guy would not only wanna rape me but keep me after bc im so lonely lmao i need to be kept forever

[naughtydogg]

is everyone else on this planet as lonely as I am

#it’s either yes which is so fucking sad #or no which means it’s just me and that’s worse :-) #i really am not equipped to be alone lol. #i say as i post this to tumblr #aka one of the places i feel lonely/isolated from #sigh anyways.

[widevibratobitch]

aaaaaaand it's starting. mom's bestie just texted me asking to come over this weekend cause it's Bad and it's probably the last chance to talk and maybe say goodbye to my mom's husband and i need to take care of her. god. i wont get through this weekend unless im high or drunk istg.

#time to slightly overdose my depression meds again ig lol #anyway. it is a little better with me these last two weeks. turns out the meds do work when you actually take em regularly #but first my best friend's break up that she's blowing up to unimaginable size #acting as if she just got divorced with the love of her life after 20 years #and not ended a few months long relationship with a guy who's been the source of most of her troubles since the moment they started dating #(ofc she's valid and id never tell her that because like. i get it. some people feel stuff more deeply. but its hard to be supportive #when you genuinely feel like this is the best possible outcome for her and that the relationship was only dragging her down all this time) #and now this. and this is gonna be infinitely worse. and then it's gonna get a million times worse when he actually does die. #and i feel like the worst most selfish person ever which like. probably am. but i did tell my cousin who actually knows my mom really well #and she said she understands and that my fears ARE valid because SHE'S terrified of how she's gonna handle my mom #and she wouldn't wanna be me in that situation cause it's gonna be so much worse for me lmao #like i feel like people who know my mother casually really dont understand just how unhinged emotionally she is #anyway. i feel so overwhelmed. i cant handle this jesus. #but im also emotionally unavailable and refuse to actually confide in another person because i dont want to be a bother <3333 #god i love tumblr. i can literally type anything in those tags lol it's the perfect form of venting since you can just scroll by #but i will still have let it out of myself anyway uwu i literally dont need that therapy fr #anyway. i feel so unbelievably fucking lonely and on one hand it's my own fault for withdrawing and refusing to ask for help. #but on the other hand. i AM alone. like there's no one who can help me in this particular situation. #i have no siblings. obviously my dad isnt gonna help. it all falls down to me. good god. i wanna throw up.