#I better get some sleep tonight

[fawfulydoo]

i survived job orientation 👍

#fawfuldraws #sketchbook #dexter's laboratory #dexter #mandark #dee dee #cartoon network #gendy tartakovsky #i had to drive like 40 minutes to and from this place for 3 days 8:30-4 while running on 5 hours of sleep at most i am so happy i work 10-6 #tomorrow so i can actually get some sleep tonight brah ohh my god #let's hope this new job is a lot better for me

[totalspiffage]

I would really like it if my bones stopped hurting constantly

#please let me sleep i beg #i am grateful my pain days are. much better. but god #it's taken me so long after my surgery to get this far and I'm just dying #i may need some weed to sleep tonight again jfc #thinking positively: I can clean sometimes! #it's just the recovery from doing anything is like days #and that adds up so quickly and i get no time off bc i have to be ready to record any time #my fucking BACK

[becca-e-barnes]

thoughts on ps!dbf!bucky and thigh riding 👀

Stop it, this is one of my favourites, thigh riding is so simple but SO underrated 🙈

Because I think if there's anyone who understands just how good thigh riding can feel for his partner, it's ps!dbf!bucky. That man knows every trick in the book. He wrote the damn book. He laminated the pages of the book so they won't get wet. You get the idea.

And I love the thought of just a really slow, hazy, intimate afternoon with him that only speeds up out of need, rather than necessity. Just a lazy afternoon in bed, enjoying each other's company and no need to rush. There are no distractions other than your soft groans mingling with his and the faint sound of cars driving through the light rain that's falling outside.

It's cosy and familiar and there's a real comfort that comes with being so entirely wrapped up in him. His hands trail over your body, working their way under the t-shirt you're wearing, seeking out the warmth of your skin. His lips are firm and insistent, sliding against your own with a kind of ease that only comes from practice.

This feels so different to the scenes he films. Lust seeps into your movements so slowly, it reminds him none of this is orchestrated. You're touching him the way you want to touch him; you're not following a script and in return, he has the same freedom to just enjoy the moment.

"Baby..." He whispers, low and gravelly and you don't need to see him to know his eyes are closed. You take advantage of the chance to catch your breath, curling your fingers in his hair to pull him closer again after a second.

Instead of returning his lips to yours, they find their way to your neck, not that you have any issue with the open mouthed kisses he's now trailing down your skin. This is what he wants and you're more than happy to give it to him.

He allows himself a few seconds between kisses to just get entirely lost in you. He almost forgets the task at hand, he's so entirely consumed by the familiarity of the moment. The smell of your perfume, the heat of your body, the way you sound when you groan his name; everything screams 'home' to him. There's a gentle tenderness behind every touch and he doesn't want that to be forgotten.

But in the time he's spent inside his own head, he realises he's neglected your need a little more than he intended to. You're now gripping his thigh that had previously been just resting between both of yours, pressing your core down against it and oh, he didn't realise just how desperate you'd got until that point.

Your thin panties do nothing to hide your arousal, not that it was ever any secret given the way you're pressing his mouth to your neck and whimpering.

"Does that feel nice?" He teases quietly, pulling away from your neck so he can watch your face as you nod. "Good. I'm glad."

One of his hands holds your hip, guiding you back and forth over his thigh, making sure that you reach your full range of motion with each drag. "That's it, good girl. Nice and slow." A strange sort of pride blooms in his chest at the tiny sob of frustration he tears from your lips.

Your panties are entirely soaked through. Not that it ever takes very long but he's almost impressed by how little he's had to touch you to get you into this state.

"You're gonna make a mess, sweetheart." He sounds amused and ever so slightly condescending and it's just beautiful. "That's okay. You can go a little stupid if you want to. Hump my thigh if that's what you need." It sounds truly pathetic when he says it like that but at the same time, it feels so perfect you don't really have it in you to stop.

#asks answered <3 #anon #becca writes spice #dbf!bucky #ps!bucky #ps!dbf!bucky #I love writing him so much softer idec #I've damaged a ligament in my knee #but on the (mr) brightside #my dress today was ADORABLE #possibly one of my very favourites #I'm getting caught up on my sleep and I feel so much better for it #I'm gonna make my mood board tonight I think #and probably plot out the first 3 or 4 pieces in the new miniseries #I think I'm gonna work from home tomorrow and I'll take some time off in the morning #I need to do something impulsive #I want a new piercing or something idk

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the problem with not having any new fics to read bc they havent been posted yet is that when Invisible Tigers Are Hunting You, there is no distraction

#this Baseless Fear that sometimes strikes me #reminding me of my mortality and making believe it is deeply immediate despite how illogical it is #Is Getting Real Fuckin Old! #i gotta grip onto the reminder that i am Only Twenty. i have my whole life ahead of me probably. #there is Time. things will get better. someday i will Accomplish Things. #i will turn around and wish i could visit past (current) me and say It Does Get Better And You Will Not Only Exist But Live. I Love You. #but for tonight i feel very small and scared #and i am using the company of videos and stories to soothe the Invisible Tigers #i think i will.... reread some fics.... perhaps... #i havent reread stamps yet.... ill go do that #get my laughingstock crumbs #ill put on birdsong in the bg #im borrowing my friends lovely headphones. i Need some of my own. earbuds just dont do it anymore #especially since theyre noise canceling. Yummy #theyre helping immensely i think #absolutely unprompted #sorry for once again Venting on Main #i am very tired and have no other outlet <3 #its 4 am. i have to get up in 7 hours. i am still too terrified to sleep #but its okay its Fine this night will Pass #thats half the fear but all the same. there are Good Things in my future. i have hope theyre there. theyre waiting for me. #ill figure it out Ill Figure It Out. #we all will! #we'll all get there. someday before the end.

[chaoticbooklesbian]

I think I sprained my upper back. Here's hoping that ibuprofen does the trick and I don't need to go to urgent care to beg for muscle relaxants.

#pedanticblah #the human body is a shambles and i wish i had something better #taking a deep breath hurts #but i have discovered that reclining with lots of back support is at least comfortable #so hopefully that allows me to get some sleep tonight

[torchickentacos]

anxiety 🤝 the mosquito in my room: won't go away and let me live my life in peace

#i've been trying to get rid of this mosquito since last night #and i've been trying to get rid of the anxiety since i was eight KGSDSJKFHGDKJ #Neither are working right now. #ok to rb #like i cannot socialize right now. i hate when my anxiety does this #the rsd is on such a hairpin trigger that i just. can't do the whole talking to people thing right now. #so we're just gonna have me time (cough. isolating) tonight!!! is that fun? not really but it's better than the alternatives #like i KNOW i am loved and appreciated #but some days my brain is insistent on convincing me otherwise which isn't fair to ANYONE #got stressed bc my mom was too quiet around me. like i KNOW she's just tired so we're just gonna not be around people #until my brain can stop deciding poeple hate me because they like. looked at me weird or passed the food too aggressively to my brain #so we're on break until i sleep this off #posting doesn't count though. i can still yell into the void

[daughterofhecata]

Got my writing session yesterday cut short by a visual migraine that got to the point where I couldn't see the keyboard anymore, and now the damn thing is *back* and idk yet if I'll be able to write later -.-

#and i can't very well keep chugging coffee at this time of day to make it go away #there's still some coke in the fridge that i'll try in a sec (although it's probably flat as well by now) #but i'm in suuuuch a mood to start the rbei!bob prompt fill for january... #this is mean. i usually *never* get this shit two days in a row #let alone at this intensity #...i'm pretty much blind rn. at least on the left eye the right is a bit better. #i can deal with a headache but this static shit in front of my eyes is *really* annoying #kaj rambles #to delete later #if anyone knows any home remedies i'd love to hear about it because my only one is caffeine and i would like to be able to sleep tonight

[arcademgmt]

ultra moon has been exceedingly kind to me in the shiny odds department over the years because it is trying to apologize to me for being the origin of what went on to warp my mind and soul forever

#context i picked it up to do some soft resetting while i tried to get to sleep bc i just kinda had the urge #and it's a mindless thing that has helped me fall asleep before #cue like. maybe 15 minutes in tops. under 20 resets. shiny mewtwo #and even with the absolute lowest odds you can get in this game that is Fucking Absurd #and this is the same game i had a like. 4 reset shiny palkia in #i think every single reset hunt i've done has flown WAY under odds #which is kind of funny considering my brother has gone over double odds with the same base odds before. Erm #anyways thank you ultra moon very cool #i actually want to hunt gen 4 rayquaza but i have to do some work so i can actually meet the conditions for it to show up #i wanted to start gen 4 mewtwo tonight but i did not bc UM was already in my 3ds #and i simply Did not feel like getting up to find heartgold. oh well #i have been itching for the masochism of older gen full odds for a while and just haven't gotten around to it #actually editing tags to add this bc it makes it funnier somehow #but my egg hunts in the original moon. not ultra moon. which have better odds than the resets. have historically been terrible #and way over odds #but for some godforsaken reason ultra moon reset hunts have always been like. blink and you might miss it

[summerlycoris]

Guess whos potentially working a triple tomorrow?????????

Im going to transform into my final form if this shit keeps up i swear to god.

#summerly talks #im just. gonna have to tell my boss that. effective immediately. i cant work the weekend anymore #sad because its good money #but this is becoming a fucking pattern and if it does i may actually dive into a fission reactor while singing meltdown ;_; #like. i was okay with the double? my coworker called in because her baby was sick #and she promised me if i couldnt get anyone to cover for my am shift tomorrow she would take it #then at like 9pm i get a text saying. she cant. her baby wont let her leave #and i feel selfish because. she has a baby. but i have cats and luckily i was able to drop by today to pick up my sleepover kit #and also make sure minty had food. (fieldie has an auto feeder so hes okay) #and i just. want to go home #the reality is i cant. i cant go. not unless one of the people i texted gets back to me saying theyll come in #and no one has yet. its 11pm. no one will at this point. #im tired im tired im tired #i dont want to end up like i did at my ladt job. giving away entirely too much of me and destroying myself #ive already lost most if not all of my passion for this job #and when i was younger i dreamt of working with disabled people. i burnt too quick and now im a shell of what i was #but this is the only thing im trained for that would allow me to like. keep my home #maybe if or when i move to brisbane i can look into a different job. do an it course idk. something where there's less people skills needed #i better try to get some sleep orz tonights gonna be a bitch of a thing

[heartshattering]

Very much hoping I don't mess up tonight :')

#i had a minor mental health relapse #at least i hope it's minor #tune in tonight and find out #guh #i was successfully resisting compulsions and keeping my panic under control #but uh #certain times of day trigger me into wanting to do them more #it's hard to explain without getting overly detailed #i'm trying not to see it as me having ruined a streak even though technically i did #but you know... progress doesn't get erased and all that #i still hate those 'i thought i was getting better and now i had a setback' phases with ocd #i have been trying so so hard and without access to professional help anymore since that one nurse ruined my reputation at the hospital #it's HARD #i stopped doing some of the positive habits that were helping me #and i feel myself on the edge of slipping into the not so good habits again #love how i'm getting better and worse at the same time #recovery makes no sense #blegh #ocd #sleep disorders #panic attacks #mental health

[lyxchen]

Every evening I'm like "I'll go to bed earlier today. Maybe I can do 2am" and every night I go to sleep a 4am for some reason. And every morning I wake up at 1pm and my sister is already home from school and asks me if I'm only eating breakfast Now?? and I wonder how I'm ever gonna be able to fix my sleeping issues

#like i Really thought i was gonna do it tonight #and like i know 2am is already very late #but it would be a lote better than the times i have gone to bed the last few weeks #at some point i did have a pretty regular sleeping schedule #but for some reason it's all fucked up now #and this is just Another thing i get to worry about #like i can't even sleep properly so how am i supposed to handle all the other stuff going on in my life? #hhhhhh #anyways #maybe tomorrow i'll finally fix all my problems :)))) #lea's random thoughts

[fionnaskyborn]

I miss Halo.

#sorry to my friends to whose messages i haven't replied to yet if you're seeing this. my everything is killing me and i should probably go #get some sleep :') #i want to play odst for the first time again... i want to play through halo for the first time again... i want to look forward to booting up #my pc and playing a few missions... i miss being balls-to-the-wall insane about alpha nine and noble team... i miss it all‚ tails... #tonight's a night to reminisce‚ miss the good times‚ and be very‚ very tired‚ apparently #hopefully it will all get better soon #hopefully it'll start raining here #seriously it's OCTOBER and we've had more rain during SUMMER than these past two months... please... #logs

[izzy-b-hands]

Trying to make my brain do anything today has just been case after case of 'well, half-assed is better than nothing I guess.'

#text post #idk why i have such bad post-survey mental dips every time but I always do #literally last night before end of my shift was like okay brain. it's ok that we aren't working after this. this is fine. #there's another survey in two weeks (for ONCE they told us in advance) and in the in between other things I can do to keep making some mone #and I felt really confident abt that at that point! wish that confidence hadn't been so misplaced bc I did in fact spiral #was actually exhausted enough to just eat shower and sleep after work but the shower was just a big spiral w/crying and scrubbing lmao #whatever. did a mini vid in the new outfit i have for the side job and will do dishes tonight #plus I'll get my shot done bc that's a day late now too #prolific and cloud i got a bit done too and i'll keep checking those thru the night #i actually wanna play gta for a bit & try it with the controller but i feel guilty every time i so much as look at steam so. we'll see #i just need to do something else useful today bc tomorrow will be a full filming day most likely so. gotta make today useful too #I know it must sound like im not really trying to work with my brain on this but i shit u not #this is my brain when im actively employing coping skills and other things to try and counteract the 'work or die' mindset #i dont know how to make it any better and at this point I don't think I can #this was baked into me as a kid lmao bc even playing needed to have a point/story/some goal to achieve #or why the fuck was i playing with my barbies or metal toy cars or dinosaur and horse figurines to begin with #im rambling to put off doing the dishes ignore me lmao

[17yearcicada]

BEDTIME 💥

#women love me because i get soooo nervous about traveling #tomorrow. eepy #in better news i'm almost done w my ss... three scenes (probably around 2 chapters) & then some edits #so hopefully i can finish that when i get back!! #ok everyone pray i actually get sleep tonight gnight #.txt

[lookedlikethebins]

finished 1 of 2 projects for work (fucking finally lol) and i can already feel the stress lifting from my body and my brain leaving grind-survival mode. just went to make tea and before i could even fill the kettle up i scrambled stopped to write down an idea/scene that Came To Me In A Vision. we're SO BACK folks!

#the JOY i felt when my brain suddenly formed some original prose for MY work and not someone else's?????? #like... wow i feel so much better its crazy i ALMOST want to stay up and write something tonight 👀👀 #but i KNOW i need to get some sleep so i can finish pt 2 tomorrow and then be down to two jobs again lol #and replace the time i carved out for job three with... writing fic bc i AM an adult and i CAN do that #and bc it's FUN and i miss it already!! #so many ideas and ive had to WAIT bc of work (plural) booo #also... 🩷🚪 hi yes i had a vision... #del #personal

[zhuhongs]

hhhh all of this couldve been avoided if i just went back to bed when i woke up

#i dropped my phone bc i brought it with me to take a shower bc i was paranoid bc ts a shared bathroom and ik taiwan is safe but yk. fear... #and i put it on a shelf above the shower and it fell (didn't get any water thankfully)and i was like off its fine but lol nope the screen is #black but its still ringing and vibrating so the phone is okay i just need the screen fixed so thats nice but hhhhhh all of this bc of.. #well. a lot of things and yeah... yeah. im so out of my element rn its insaneeeee #i wanted to buy food but i just felt so unconfident in my speaking so i just bought some pastries ive had before so ik how to say it and #they weren't that good and all i want is just a peace of mind... yk. and to sleep #i ant to go to bed so bad buttttt i also want to head home and cook and ik if i leave now its better than leaving in the afternoon after i #rest bc its gonna be raining so bad tonight and i just... hhhh. im a mess. also I have hw and just.. its a lot. and i'm a mess