Standoff in my brain between “the narrative setup and payoff as I originally plotted it in my outline and have been following so far” vs. “my growing attachment to the characters therein and unwillingness to kill them, separate them and/or subject them to the various miseries present in my original outline, prior narrative setup and intended narrative payoff be damned.”
Can’t wait to have my own place and my own room and my own space again so when I’m bad like right now I can do my little dress up and do my stupid little makeup and my dumb self care bullshit at midnight without having to worry about anybody bothering me or coming and I can just be. Me. Alone. That’s all I want
people who deal with anxiety, what do you do when your brain is just in a constant overwhelmed mode for days? sort of no thoughts head full kind of situation? or at least insomnia + intense night anxiety that has no cause?