#I can’t stay like this forever

[giveuthemo0n]

yk when your nail polish starts to chip off and then you get the sudden urge to break something into very tiny little pieces

#wdym i can’t stay lana del rey coquette old money aesthetic forever #and then when u repaint it you have to wait for it to dry like um i’m trying to read gay smut stop smudging #i’m just a teenage girl

[litrallytyrus]

rewatching the tyrus storyline and kira wanted tj so bad it’s embarrassing like she was really throwing herself onto a boy who was clearly giving major heart eyes to his boy best friend right in front of her . like omg she didn’t give a fuckkk she was like i can change him 😍 and she was so wrong like nobody has ever been more wrong

#like thats so funny to me #he did not care at all #cyrus was like ‘u guys are good together’ and tj was like ‘EWWWWW GROSSS i’m not dating her wtf 😭😭😭😭’ #obsessed #the closet was glass for him truly #i miss them sm #i forgot how beautiful the bench scene was omg like i was smiling so hard #when tj starts reaching for cyrus’ hand omg i was DYINGGG #my heart can’t handle that sweetness #i can’t believe it’s 2023 and i’m making a tyrus post #going back to my roots :) #this is why tyrus stays in the username forever …. they were everything to me #they will always be like iconic in a way that nothing else could be iconic #okay sorry tyrus rant over i’ll be resuming my regularly scheduled sitcom content shortly 😇💪 #tyrus #cyrus goodman #tj kippen #andi mack

[zeb-z]

Cellbit who places flowers by his sons empty bed and wonders why he works for the federation if he can’t use it to his advantage, if all he does is end up alone. Who could barely handle when him and Roier were fighting, who was so grateful when Foolish would stick around to build for him when he was making himself public enemy to gain favor with the feds. Who pleads with Forever, who is so very clearly out of his mind, begging him not to leave him alone, not like this, not now of all times.

Cellbit who is keeping himself as calm and as balanced as he can, because he knows what it’s like to lose yourself, and he knows how isolating it can be. Who’s there for every one of the islanders even if it’s spreading him far too thin, backpack bursting with notes and photos and evidence with all the problems he’s relied on to help solve. Who’s building the Order to make sure that no matter where their allegiances lay, no one on the island will have to deal with the federation on their own. So they’ll have a place they can come together and rely on each other.

Cellbit who just doesn’t want to end up alone. Not again. Not anymore.

#today and yesterday is a combo that has knocked me the fuck out man #placing that flower at Richas bedside song of healing in the bg as he’s like why must i always end up alone where is my son #his voice cracking as he begs and pleads with forever to get through to him desperate because he can’t just leave him alone. not now of #all times. not with the stakes so high #who likes when people stay around him while he’s building. who seeks out interactions. who purposefully seeks #to create community between them #also the egg bears worth mentioning too like. finding that room and an egg who was abandoned and died alone #always remembering it. fuck man #I’m just. I’m so fucking upset dude #sorry guys I’m mentally ill abt him and etoiles and I won’t shut up about them <3 #mcyt #qsmp #Cellbit #q!cellbit #z speaks

[daggerhobbit]

I GET TO SEE MY BEST FRIEND AGAIN IN THREE DAYS I’M SO EXCITED EEEEEEEEEE

#I haven’t seen them in FOREVER #it’s actually just been like 5 months #but it feels like forever #I can not physically stay still right now I am so excited #goddammit I have to wait an entire THREE DAYS #can’t wait #friend #best friend

[boysborntodie]

Could Johnnyboy fans tell me about the ship’s appeal (apart from they’re besties and cute together) because I really want get into the ship but it just doesn’t click for me

#evie rambles #the only johnnyboy that I’m super compelled by is #doomed tragic yaoi johnnyboy #as in there was no way both of them would’ve ever made it even though they do love each other #i love the idea of johnny seeing ponyboy as just this good and pure-hearted person who gives him hope for the world #he knows ponyboy is gold even though pony can’t see it himself #but the only fate for boys like johnny is to stay in their small towns and die a meaningless forgettable death #while pony would obviously go far in life go to better places become someone ‘more’ #this can either go as johnny dying but even tho he thought his death would be insignificant. it has such an effect on pony #because that’s *his* johnny #and while ponyboy goes to all these big places and becomes someone bigger and more. he holds onto johnny forever. #OR #they just break up because johnny knows he canters escape tulsa #he knows he’ll only ever bring ponyboy down ans he can’t let that #so he lets ponyboy go. #and they go their seperate paths. #but healthy go the distance johnnyboy has never really appealed to me idk #i want it to tho

[pois0ncandy]

life is boring and meaningless i should just kms

#what is there to live for? #absolutely nothing #everyone keeps saying that “it’ll get better” #“this won’t last forever and then years go by and it’s still exactly the same #the world is going to shit #i don’t make enough to survive on my own #and finding a new job is practically impossible these days #i have no one to even talk to #i don’t want to talk to anyone anyways #like what’s the point? #i’ve been holding out for so long and for nothing #fruitless endeavors #empty promises #forgotten dreams #any hope i had is gone #can’t believe i stayed alive this long all for some dipshit who doesn’t even live in my country and has forgotten my existence #like why have i put myself through this #there is no point #pathetic #i hate everything #i just don’t think living is for me #and it never has been #and i’ve always known this but tried so so hard to change how i feel to find some meaning in life and it was all for nothing

[even-disco-baby]

YOU — “What was it like when we were partners?”

JEAN VICQUEMARE — He looks at you, taking a long drag from his cigarette. His eyes are hard. “You don’t remember at all?”

CONCEPTUALIZATION [Impossible: Failure] — You try to search through the mire of your mind, but come up with only the ghosts of vague and conflicting feelings— comfort and pain, gratitude and resentment, and above all, fear.

YOU — Fear of what?

CONCEPTUALIZATION — Of being seen. Seen and despised.

EMPATHY — He fears that, too. That one day, he’ll look at you and realize that it was all for nothing.

-1 MORALE

PRECINCT 41 — The night air is pleasantly cool, and even this late, you can hear plenty of signs of life in Jamrock. Dogs barking, laughter in the distance. It only makes your own silence more pronounced.

“I remember we were friends.”

“I remember we hated each other.”

“I remember you cramping my style.”

“I remember being a burden.”

“I don’t. I’m sorry.”

JEAN VICQUEMARE — He sighs. Smoke trails as he shakes his head. “It’s fine.”

DRAMA — It is decidedly *not* fine, sire.

JEAN VICQUEMARE — “You know what? It’s probably better that way. Don’t worry about the past. Your great big life is finally starting.” Every word drips with irony. He takes another puff of the cigarette. “Good for you.”

“You’re right. I won’t worry about it.”

“I swear I’m going to make the most of it. It’ll be different this time. I swear, Jean.”

“You’re such an asshole.”

“You sound sarcastic.”

JEAN VICQUEMARE — “Oh, do I? Sorry, let me try again.” He claps with mock politeness. “Congratulations on the amnesia. You must be thrilled.”

“Ha ha. Real funny.”

“Maybe I am. Fuck off.”

“No. I’m scared. It’s been really hard.”

“I’m sorry, okay? It’s not like I can undo it. I don’t know what you want from me.”

“I’m sorry…”

(Say nothing)

JEAN VICQUEMARE — He lets out another breath, closing his eyes. “…Sorry. Look, just forget it, okay, Harry?” He tosses the butt of his cigarette dispassionately into the bushes and lights another. “Believe me, it’s not worth dredging up.”

DRAMA — What he means to say, sire, is that you don’t want to know how bad things got.

EMPATHY — Even he doesn’t like to reminisce. Not on the bad *or* the good. It would all swallow him up if he wasn’t careful. But he can’t forget, either, so he just carries it. And now he carries it alone.

INLAND EMPIRE — He was fooling himself if he ever thought that to live was to be anything but alone. We are all either leavers or those left behind.

HALF LIGHT — It’s not your fault that he started to look like a leaver. You had to be faster than him. You couldn’t let it happen again. Never again.

VOLITION — Derail this train of thought before it builds momentum. It won’t lead you anywhere helpful.

None of this is helpful. Fuck this. [Leave]

[Espirit de Corps — Formidable 13] Just how bad did things get?

CHECK SUCCESS

ESPIRIT DE CORPS — Apocalyptic. Screaming matches that devolved into agonized wails. Words that neither of you can ever take back. Nights spent talking you off of ledges only for you to turn and shove him toward the edge. Times he told you to go ahead and jump, only to then turn and cling to you in terror of a lifelong haunting. Pitiful attempts to revive the corpse of your friendship. Empty ideals of brotherhood clutched tightly to your chests. His orbit around you, both a curse and a reassurance.

SAVOIR FAIRE — You needed him to think you were cool again.

EMPATHY — He needed you to think he was worth trying for.

INLAND EMPIRE — You both discovered that you were sad, cruel animals, incapable of anything but lashing out at each other and licking your own self-inflicted wounds.

VOLITION — And so you changed, somewhat. You did what you had to do to survive and evolve. There is no use or sense in regretting it.

EMPATHY — But *he* refuses to change. He cannot bring himself to dig his heels back out of the dirt. This precinct will be his coffin. He has already decided.

RHETORIC — A memory stirs. A letter, written to you, but never meant for your eyes. You read it, anyway. He never forgave you. You never forgave him, either.

“Kid,

“I bet you think someday your life will begin. That it’s still out there somehow, a great big life just waiting to start. Well, it isn’t. This is all there is. This job is the only fight we are given. After this, we will be its veterans.

“There is nothing more in that beloved future of yours. We are all done there. Done and gone.”

VOLITION — But there is a future beyond ourselves. There is all of the rest of human history-to-be, and they are at our mercy. Find some mercy in yourself, Harry. You know there’s something beyond this job, this precinct.

No. Jean is right. This is my home, these people my half-brothers. I would be nothing without them. I don’t want to die alone.

No. He’s right. There is no future for me. I’m a dead man walking, and soon I’ll be gone. It doesn’t matter.

No. There is no mercy in me. I’m tired. I hope the world ends. I hope we can all be done.

You’re right. I changed a little. That means that I can keep changing. I can be a kinder animal.

You’re right, but I’m afraid. I don’t remember my life before the RCM. I don’t know what I would be if I left.

Isn’t there any way to change Jean, too? Is there a great big life waiting for him?

VOLITION — I… I don’t know. I’m sorry, Harry. I cannot answer for other people. His future is in his own hands.

PRECINCT 41 — Dogs howl in the distance. What a lonely sound.

#disco elysium #harry du bois #jean vicquemare #suicide tw #ok sorry this is not the one that i said was gonna be different it’s gonna be the NEXT next one #i had to get this one off my chest while i was still thinking abt jean #but um. yeah. lots of complicated feelings abt this guy #can’t say i Like him. since he’s a cop and all. and also just generally #i think he’s very interesting and funny and there’s a lot of poignant stuff to unpack w him and harry #but i dunno i just???? how do you even articulate this #the damage to their relationship is never gonna be undone no matter what #but especially not if harry stays a cop forever #and i think jean is never gonna quit even if harry goes #hell i think even kim is more likely to be convinced to leave and i’m not even optimistic abt HIM #‘’there is nothing more in that beloved future of yours. we are all done there. done and gone.’’ #that does not sound like a man who has any interest in changing… man i dunno. #acab and all that.

[braisedhoney]

quietly sticks small gold star stickers on each and every one of the funny little characters i can’t stop drawing. each sticker says “special little guy” with varying levels of cartoon hearts.

#ney’s idle chatter (random textposts) #feeling sentimental ig but in a funny way #hmmmm let’s see #narry would be one of those “this is terrible” “then remove it” “no i’m keeping it forever” people probably #gaster moves the sticker around bc goop and that’s funny #stanley puts it on the bucket #engineer mark wears it like a badge of honor and “no you can’t have it” #kim and harry both get one and they stick them on their clipboards #undertale characters are a lot to list but they all get one too #love those guys #… *quietly squints at the resurfacing underfell phase*…. #no. not Yet. #*sweating* #dark would throw it away :( but it would randomly reappear with wilford logic #wilford gets one and it stays forever. probably on the gun. #did i miss any? #i don’t even draw all of these a lot but they’re special little guys okay? #addition: gaster does magic tricks. uses the star like a randomly appearing coin #fantastic

[the-great-nogards-nemesis]

The one thing all Dragonvale fans can agree upon:

We all hate this fucker

#dragonvale #the great nogard #Fucking bitch #i swear he was designed to make you hate him #He was always ahead of you #He stays the same level forever #until you start to catch up to him #And then he moves a few levels up #You can’t win! #I never could at least #Maybe its bc their trying to get you to spend money #I’m proud to say i never spent a dime on this game #Still hate this fucker tho #My irl friend and i made up super dark lore abt this game #The great nogard was evil and he like- tortured dragons and poached and shit #He was super rich and owned the whole market #Bc capilitism evil and whatnot #We were... young enough that that was probably weird lmao

[deus-ex-mona]

man. this song reminds me of physiology class

#throwback to physiology class [x] years ago when this clique sitting behind me drank a sip of water every time #our lecturer said the word ‘infarction’ #they kept tricking her into saying the word which was pretty funny at the time #but that’s just what this song reminds me of with the frequency at which they say the phrase ‘white day kiss’ #of all of the new album songs to get stuck in my head… it’s this and abs. #can’t stop thinking about meoto but white day kiss is looping in my mind aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #i. i think i need some sleep. but my album’s supposed to arrive within the next 2 hours and aufhhfjfjjfjrjdjdjdjdhs #5-7pm delivery is too cruel of a delivery slot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #g god i really shouldn’t have stayed up for meoto… maybe i’d have a little more sanity then… #i keep going back to my tl to look for typos and im just. wondering if this song is really real. #like. dammit. promises to stay by each other’s sides forever???? even through reincarnation too??? #wh. what are the chances that we’ll get a meoto mv this week? (pls say more than 0) #i think we could all windows movie maker a 1-2 image white day kiss mv from the honeypre event illusts if we tried hard enough sooooooo #i sure hope that if any new song gets an mv this week it’ll be meoto!!!!!!! #pls lemme see them being in love all through the seasons ill c r y #ok i’ll shut up for now see you within 2 hours (maybe) when d to the h to the l finally gives me my album

[fumifooms]

I never would have considered marchil before but after seeing ur blog my mind has shifted and I’m obsessed, honestly i don’t know how it isn’t more popular their dynamic is great

I am hungry for good fics on AO3 and I humbly (desperately) await ur next marchil upload😭

I knoww right they interact all the time and have such chemistry… It’s baffling. I’m glad you’ve hopped on board, ahoy matey!!

Big news, I am working on:

Marchil March… Be prepared. I’m gonna advertize it soon but it’s gonna be in two weeks. Time flies aaaa (Thank you reblogger, you know who you are <3)

Also while I’m here, I’ve been trying to find a catchy ship name for them, contributions and votes welcome. A buddy has thought of Short Fuse which is sooo perfect, but another fandom’s already using it so hmm. Closed Book… MagicLock... Detonation. something something implode (bc he bottles things up) explode (boom boom. Traps and spells). Explosive Trap? SpellTrap/entrap spell… Matching pouches/small pouches? Magic Touch, bc he’s very agile with his fingers being a picklock and all... I am struggling. Something storybook/trope themed?

Some memes to keep you snacking through the wait. Second meme textpost from here. Hungover Chil be like

The ship is growing! More and more people are liking it! Just yesterday on the dunmeshi discord people entertained the thought of it and went from comedy to ungodly levels of angst lol

I’m working on another long marchil oneshot rn!! This is alongside working on shorter fics, fanart and tumblr posts but I’m hoping that Marchil March will get my gears running and productive

#Idk if i should try advertising it on twitter too when it’s ready to go #Dunmeshi memes #Marchil #Asks like these are so fun to get. I have converted so many it feels great to know #A lot more buddies on discord are saying they’ll try and participate than I was expecting!! Very exciting #Still fourth on ao3 after half a month baby #Maybe marchil march will bring The Great Marchil Flood 2 #News about marchil having 24 fics has reached the twitter haters btw oof stay strong marchil nation #Please… Please we are a tiny ship our sail is just glittery and glow in the dark bc there are 4 dedicated fic posters #You will gain nothing by gunning us down #‘please guys you are raiding a small self sustaining village of 4’ to quote a friend gdbdg #Marchil is forever guys 🫶 Ppl can’t take their chemistry away from us

[swordmaid]

anyway I really do like the idea that his darling spawn shri’iia who’s whole job is to adore him forever and an eternity becomes his very undoing bc he fails to account what that would mean to her. like baby girl you just validated each and every one of her flaws and ugly side just like she validated yours. now you’re stuck with that 🫶🥰🤭

#like the reverse uno card of her telling him to stay as he is forever bc he’s perfect that way… and his slow realisation that he can’t ever #change bc she won’t let him .. and the anger that will surface bc it’s another person controlling him but it’s disguised under LOVE ????? #but then he treats her like a pretty bauble that sits uselessly at the shelf. just there to love and adore him and look beautiful and love #him forever and forever … the realisation that she reverse uno card him and she sees HIM that way too #like yes he has power over her quite literally she’s his spawn but she doesn’t see him as someone to be feared #nope. in her eyes he’s there to be loved and adored and to be praised so why would he change perfection? she doesn’t understand that ..! #now they’re stuck with each other for eternity 🥰😭🤭 and she wouldn’t have it any other way lmfao #like if he was smarter about it maybe he could’ve utilised her the way the matriarch did but he’s not a details guy ok he’s not a planning #person.. and I think if he ascended he’ll just grow worse lol #shut up about bg3.

[messrsbyler]

this is my personal opinion on eddie’s character and you have been warned… it’s not a flattering one so if you love eddie don’t keep reading bc well you are probably not gonna like what i have to say under the cut

okay then…

gotta get something out of my chest: eddie is a boring, flat, and edging on obnoxious character that mostly has the pretty privilege going on for him which is just another standard white guy. yes, i teared up when his death scene came… because how it affected dustin. otherwise, couldn’t care less about him and his on the nose “i always run away/didnt run away this time” conflict

“oh, but eddie is a freak and treated as such, even hunted down and bullied. people can resonate with that” i mean… fine if you do, really, but also what about the Party? they are considered freaks, they are bullied, will even expresses even his closed ones make him feel like a freak. why about el? she was a freak too, the weirdo, the lab experiment that was hunted down and tortured. what about jonathan? he was the freak that probably killed his little brother in season one. we have seasons of these characters, characters who actually have depth to them with interesting conflicts and dynamics. and most importantly, characters who are freaks but that see each others as equals.

eddie? sure he’s a freak. a freak who likes to bee in power, sitting on his throne during DND sessions whit his group of sheep wearing all the same tees as if it was an uniform, going out of his way to jump on tables and yell in people’s faces bc he is not like other girls he is proud to be a freak and oppose to the status quo.

i mean, give me a break.

#adding to the tags how people went against jonathan for smoking weed as a coping mechanism but it’s all cool and cute when eddie sells weed #lmao #tell me again how all eddie has going on for him isn’t just pretty privilege? #i was just talking about this with someone but i didn’t use to dislike eddie i was indifferent about him bc there’s just not a lot of him #but his stans and the way he is portraiyed in the fandom just irks me at this point #can’t bag all of his stans in a same place but you know most i’ve seen are just… #if you like eddie fine. if he is your fav character… fine though i will forever believe you are part of the GA #if you are part of the group that will get mad and attack the duffers when eddie stays dead in s5 then i just wanna say #you don’t care about the plot of the show or the true main characters of the show you seem to only care about a flat character because you #probably either think he is hot or because you ship him with that other rather flat character on st #anyhow #this is a personal rant and if you don’t like it you can keep scrolling i guess #nic rants to the internet

[emizzzleblur]

I asked my friend to place drivers on a political map based on vibes:

#i asked my friend: f1 edition #ok so it all makes perfect sense once we explain it like it’s so good #it started with Carlos likes he’s so fiancé like not innocent enough for boyfriend but not quite serious enough for husband but not an ex #seb is the fiancé on ur wedding night like he’s sitting against the door talking all night bc he respects tradition but can’t stay away #mick is just always ready to propose to you #Lewis is the worst type of situationship #chalres is the ex you never want to see again you loved him so much but you can’t stay away from max or Pierre #Valtteri is the most devoted husband you’ll ever see this man will love you forever once you have him #George is in the honeymoon phase like constantly he just loves talking ab the wedding so much and how it was so perfect #Daniel is the forever boyfriend like never gonna fully commit but you’ll spend forever waiting for him to ask the question #Nicky is the most insecure and sweet boyfriend to exist like he loves going on dates but is too anxious to go any further like move in #Lando is the party boyfriend with Alex and Yuki like just for having fun sorta relationship #Checo is the fun easy going husband that still acts like ur dating but will hold you so tight at night you can’t breathe #lewis hamilton #max verstappen #charles lecrelc #Carlos Sainz #sebastian vettel #daniel ricciardo #lando norris #valtteri bottas #george russell #checo perez #nicholas latifi #mick schumacher #alex albon #yuki tsunoda

[quietwingsinthesky]

leviathan!charlie friendly-chewing on lucifer…

#it’s fine he’s an archangel she can’t hurt him #chew stim toy+ (now suitable for creatures with multiple rows of sharp teeth) #also sometimes she gets a look that makes Kevin go ‘why tf are you staring at me like that. stop it. it’s creepy.’ #and she goes ‘oops! sorry!’ while internally thinking *if u die I’m going to ask if I can eat you so that your memories and feelings and #body stay a part of my internal makeup forever. because u are my bestie.* #leviathan!charlie #spn #charlie bradbury

[deityofhearts]

it’s just really bleak and tiring knowing that life will never actually feel worth living during my lifetime

#deity dialogue #life will continue to be difficult because the more difficult it is for everyone else the better it is for rich people and people in power #life will always be difficult and tiring I will always struggle to stay afloat doing my best to get by never actually getting to live #comfortably #because like. basic human rights and like living comfortably are a privilege #if I died rn I wouldn’t be upset I think it would be nice being free of the burden of being alive because like the world certainly doesn’t #want me alive either #sorry for the reallt dwpresing post I am once again discussing shit with people and I’m just really tired #life is hellish and a nightmare and it’s all because people care more about money than other people #like that’s so wild to me #imagine being so obsessed with money and power that you willingly let other people suffer #I can’t imagine being so cruel and awful #and this is #every time we make progress we take five steps baf and the progress we struggled to make is being undone everyday #like how can life possibly be worth living?? #and you can’t just ignore things and hope they go away or get better because it’s multiple things all the time forever!!