#I can't stand looking at myself

[thedocs-in]

You cannot convince me that this didn't happen.

Also, yes, I know, said I was gonna get the second part of the fic out. But I've been busy the past few days and out of the house, so now I can finally sit down and do shit. And I draw faster than I write, and I wanted to christen my new art tablet with a meme of an art piece. And the comic was mostly started.

This thing, this damn comic, has been sitting in my folder for about two years I think. The reason I say that is cause the original version I drew that's in my old style I started like a year or so ago. Never finished it, never plan on finishing it. Looking at my old art style makes me cringe lol. But, I actually started this one like, back in July I think.

#invincible #cecil stedman #invincible show #debbie grayson #nolan grayson #omni man #The OG version looks so bad #But I can't bring myself to delete it #honestly i got this done today #the only thing done was nolan #like he was fully colored and i only had the lineart for the other two #when i say i can crackhead art #i mean i can crackhead art #ps its a reference to malcolm in the middle lol #my art #the file is literally names 'what does the t stand for (2) electric boogaloo'

[uncanny-tranny]

Hey, gentle recognition for the people who are taking care of themselves in "not aesthetically-pleasing" ways. To the people who have to do things they don't want to because they know they would suffer more if they didn't, to the people who have to brush their teeth with their fingers, to the people who have to use washcloths to bathe, to the people who need to punch pillows or scream into them to express their intense emotions, to anybody ashamed about the way they need to live and take care of themselves.

You are doing the very best you can with the hand you've been dealt. It's not easy, it's not pretty, but it sure as fuck takes so much to do these things. You are doing what is best for yourself, and I, for one, think you deserve to be proud of that. Self-care isn't easy. It isn't pretty, often, but it's something you shouldn't be ashamed of or hide away because it's deemed "grotesque" or "not really self-care (because self-care is pretty and non-threatening to 'normal peoples' senses)"

#mental health #mental health support #self care #like when i was still in school i would end up forcing myself to go because i knew i would feel worse if i hadn't... #...and i don't think people get how difficult that is. it isn't like you choose to be difficult when you struggle #and feeling ashamed about doing these things only makes the situation worse for them (the person struggling) #something i've just been thinking about #i hate this idea that self-care *only* looks like the 'healthy' person's treat days... #...like lighting candles around your bathtub and putting rose petals in the water... #...because that isn't the only aspect to taking care of yourself. sometimes it looks like forcing yourself to bathe and grieving... #...and using rough washcloths because you can't stand the feeling of your own skin and you can't stand how dirty you feel... #...and obviously i'm not saying that mentally ill people doing self-care is the only way it looks... #...but that it really doesn't help us when self-care is almost made into a 'non-threatening' activity that is pleasant and nice-looking #and of course the examples i used in this post were examples and aren't the end-all-be-all

[tennant]

David Tennant as Fourteenth Doctor DOCTOR WHO (2005-) "The Star Beast" (2023)

#doctor who #dwedit #david tennant #dtedit #userteri #userdiana #userlanie #usertoph #userveronika #usersakshi #miatendos #usereena #gifs #mine #my girlfriend looks so beautiful in this green screen monologue #i can't stand myself

[serialunaliver]

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#workplace bullying getting 10000x worse #also my hours are cut so i'm looking for another job #im just worried the same thing will keep happening yknow #and I can't ~stand up for myself~ bc these women are managers who can fuck w my INCOME

[luckycharms1701]

haha, only *checks notes* 3 days late! my entry for the TMNT Spring Shellebration!! 🌱🐢

mind the tags children

head bonks: @yorshie @avery73 @justalotoffanfiction @thejudiciousneurotic @writinandcrying @xnorthstar3x @morenovix218 @donniesgirlie @gornackeaterofworlds

#yes it's basically unedited #yes it's 1:30 in the morning #yes posting this now is a mistake #i'm doing it anyway #i can't stand to look at this fic anymore #i put my boy (and myself) through the shit for this #tmntspringshellebration #tmnt #bayverse mikey #bayverse mikey x reader #writing tag

[isthereintruthnobeauty1968]

on the subject of ben sisko being a great parent and loving being a parent it was like pretty funny that in the episode w tom riker when dukat mentioned missing something with his son, he like LIT up and asked about his kid and actually looked a little pleased to be talking with him for a minute/looked a bit offended when dukat rebuffed him

#p #ds9 #reminded him QUICKLY that he can't stand the man #sisko #dukat #i have reminded myself that the episode is called defiant. hard to look for stuff abt it in tags lol

[proxyedgy]

You've heard of "this meeting should've been an email", now get ready for

"This drawing should've been a collage"

#blazblue #terumi #i made dis #why do i hate myself so much. why didn't i just get the sprites and put them neatly with each other #i wanted to do more but i can't stand looking at this drawing anymore #rambly

[camellcat]

look. either you get it, or you don't. I'm not gonna explain The Vision to you, you just have to see it.

#proceeds to explain The Vision #okay so I'm literally only pointing this out bc one of my favorite tropes is bad guy sneaking up to good guy's window #being like “hey hello let me in so I can act all threatening but it's bc I'm totally into you” #and that is how Theo and Liam work in my brain #and that is how Ichigo and Kisshu... #well #I MEAN TECHNICALLY THAT DID HAPPEN IN THE ANIME JUST NOT SO NICELY #LOOK OKAY my favorite Kishigo fics have that trope and so I will stand by it as a staple of those two #and Thiam #fuck it #you can't control me #if I wanted to look any deeper I'm absolutely positive I could make more comparisons #but rn I'm saying all of this bc I think it would be incredibly funny to stick Liam and Theo in those outfits #and I don't wanna draw it myself so I'm asking you to use your imagination #thiam #theo x liam #liam dunbar #theo raeken #teen wolf #tokyo mew mew #I'm so sorry to be shoving tokyo mew mew in your face teen wolf fans but it's late and the thought won't leave my brain

[sysig]

Looking his very best, as much as he can anyhow (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #The Captain #The theme of this set is ZEX's hair! So I guess Max's hair really lol #But double really it's ZEX's hair because Max would never let this happen to his hair lol poor abused hair haha #Cute floofy ZEX is cute and floofy <3 #He can't control the hair - no hair bones here unfortunately lol - but at least there's something around his head eh? #Max with a buzz cut! Ah!!! The problem is I love him no matter what so I think he looks cute literally anyhow haha #S'cold! As if ZEX wasn't already sensitive haha - he gets a buzz cut and is just ''?????'' the whole time #And then someone pets his hair and it upgrades to ''?!?!?!?!?!'' haha #Weird to not have anything in his peripherals too :0 Always /some/thing to the sides of his head! #I think he looks quite silly in the third one lol - I would say I drew his hair too short but it's actually more accurate isn't it #Max's hair is like chin/shoulder-length! I just can't help myself haha long flowing hair is so fun and pretty <3 #No he's beautiful however I stand by it #ZEX with slightly damp but not actually clean hair haha of course it feels strange! Not just water in there! #Actually drawing his green ends for a change haha ♪ And the grey in his hair! ;; ZEEEX weh #You can just barely see I tried to use one of my skin-tone pencils from the Crayola set but it doesn't scan the best :P #Or apply the best honestly lol they're quite hard pencils - I'm used to a softer formula like the yellow and green there! Very soft and nice #Yaaay Captain hehe <3 This is what you get for trusting someone untrustworthy ZEX lol #Okay but the way I reacted to reading there was Yarn tied in his hair I had a Normal reaction and I'm Fine about it lol #I made it red for Funsies and no other reason lol - really it's just the pen I (still) always have on hand haha #There's some in my blue as well! Just not as obviously lol - no wait that's one of his colours too just ignore that <3 #ZEX is adorable ♪ The alien not understanding human traditions and culture trope is so lovely on him #And honestly the Captain is a very good sport hehe <3 He takes a lot in stride! Good for him

[angels-in-your-smile]

hallucinating about macdennis while listening to phoebe bridgers/ boygenius

#macdennis #iasip #if you're a work of art i'm standing too close #i can't hide from you like i hide from myself #you've never done me wrong except for that one time that we don't talk about #i want to believe instead i look at the sky and i feel nothing #after a while you went quiet and i got mean

[mattodore]

"show off your music" tag 🎧 using this spotify app

this looks so sexy... anyway thank you for the little tag @machinegrl

tagging @wldestluv-rs @fizzytoo @rottengurlz @lucidicer @woohooincoffin @omgkayplays @void-imp @helltrait @raiiny-bay if any of you want to do it as well <3 no pressure tho obv!! also if you've already done this pretend i didn't tag you dkjnhk haven't scrolled very far back on my dash yet

#river dipping #playlist #gold guns girls is a song olly sent me bc it reminded him of matthias <3 so i spent hours listening to it #if it weren't for the repeated lines mentioning women i'd put it in his playlist but alas............... he is a gay man fdkjndjf #on my knees asking ppl to send me more music that reminds them of my ocs btw. i'm so normal abt it... :) #also........... god......................................... #listening to futile devices and thinking abt theo is enough to kill a person where they stand #i would know. typing this from the grave if you were wondering #famous last words / i'm a liar / silver / lemon eyes are all songs that if i'm listening to them i have to sing along. like i have to. #like it bursts out of me and then i'm banging my fist on the floor. like. literally. like actually. #ESPECIALLY i'm a liar. it makes me want to die and it's in the echthroi story playlist. god. #PLEASE TAKE ME HOME . BAM . WRAP ME IN A TOWEL . BAM . THE MARKS ARE ALL GONE AND I'M FEELING MYSELF AGAIN . BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM #CRAZY . IT'S JUST SO FUCKING CRAZY #lemon eyes turns my brain to mush too because it's SOOOOOOOO matthias coded. #like especially early on in mattodore's little situationship when theo was just. so jealous. like caustically so. #hush now baby there's no need to cry let me wipe away those lemon eyes...... #all your worries such a waste of time... you can't even see how much you're Mine. . .... #I BET YOU WANNA WALK AWAY RUN AWAY LOOK AWAY TURN AWAY HONEY YOU CAN'T HIIIIIIIIDE #LEMON EYES YOU'RE MINE. YELLOW EYES ALL MINE. #YELLOW I WILL HAVE TO BITE YOUR TONGUE. . . SONGS THAT MAKE ME CLAW AT MY OWN SKIN

[nc-vb]

ughhhhkshks now that i'm actively trying to take better care of my diabetes, i keep having low blood sugar rather than consistent highs and i'm just... how tf do i explain this lmfao, my body feels like a slime monster?? like that's how i'm moving around rn and i feel all sludgy and weak like i'm about to melt????

#blehhhhh and every time i try to correct it it's by way too much and then my blood sugar is high again #LOL there's no winning!!! xD #this post is lighthearted so dw; i really am fine #it's been 19 years of having it but i've been really mistreating my body and not at all taking care of myself #so now that i am my body's like “ohhh you fucked up; here's some punishment” and it's just me not being able to stand up w/o fainting #or wanting to faint really #and i'm SLEEPY but if i sleep i could die so i can't do that either grrrr #looking to trade a pancreas... you take my broken one and i'll also throw in a perfectly healthy uterus?? and you give me your working panc #yeah #good deal #✦ misc.

[heymrspatel]

Its Kinktober! Do you have any work coming, if not, are you open to taking ideas/commission

hello! it IS kinktober 🥳 i've done a few so far and if everything goes to plan i should have a few more coming up. i went through a little dip and the momentum i had going disappeared. but, i'm going to try!

i appreciate the interest so so much, but i don't do commissions. the creative/fandom part of my brain is not wired that way unfortunately.

however, alice @darthvaders-wife, recently posted about accepting commissions! (she has also been posting incredible art every single day of kinktober - she's amazing and i bow down) if anyone else is accepting commissions please give a shout! 🩵

#i have a couple more anons in my inbox asking for kinktober. so just answering this one! the answer is yes hopefully! #i'm not burnt out just.. slower. so i'm not going to reach the goal i set for myself at the beginning of the month but that's ok! #also!! @ everyone (myself included) #i encourage you to not only look and read everything that's being posted. but to engage and reblog and comment! pretty please #there's so much time and effort and thought that goes into art and fic! i see it. i know what i put in and i see my friends doing the same #even a simple “this is cool!” “can't wait to read/i loved this read” “thanks for sharing” goes such a long way #ok i'm shutting up. anon i'm so sorry for standing on this soapbox for a second. thanks for your interest 💙💙💙 #anon #asks

[travhackett]

#severely travispilled atm #i can't stand this little b•tch 😐 i love him. i love him. #i watched planet raptors or whatever the fuck that was for you TYGON!!!! oh im Just So sick of ted.. 🙄 #*watches seaquest just for him* God i can't believe he would do this to me.... #travis hackett #the quarry #ted raimi #hey btw if you are Also looking at ted with disrespectful intent (horny) perhaps watch planet raptor 😁 it's on tubi and pluto for free #mr raimi makes quite the expression at one point.... 😳 i say it's Extremely Worth the bad acting.... #i made a supercut for my friends and watched it with them 💔 #yes this means i subjected them to ted raimi O face and went ''hrm.... perhaps i could've kept that one to myself 😐''

[morangoowada]

WHERE is this guy's fucking melanin dude what the fuck that only looks like he has BLOOD CIRCULATION not that he's supposed to be BLACK

#theo is rambling again #i avoid talking about genshin on this account and I don't even like the game that much #BUT FOR FUCK'S SAKE WHERE IS THIS DUDE'S MELANIN I CAN'T FUCKING STAND LOOKING AT HIM ANYMORE #someone PLEASE draw this fucker with box braids and darker skin or will i have to do it myself??? #dude isn't even in the game already and people are already whitewashing the fuck out of him #(in that case making him even more pale than he already looks) #if i didn't hate this fandom i would have already done so many redesigns

[flower-zombie-rob]

Welcome to day one of how many times can my mother tear me down and destroy my confidence in one go. How many days will this go on? Im not sure! Tune in next time for a brand new episode of Taking Advantage Of My Kids Rejection Sensitivity, youre watching the disney channel.

#Sometimes I really do just honestly kind of hate her. I know it's a horrible thing to say about one's parents who care for them but it's #true. With the way that she treats me and criticises me and takes every advantage of a chance to tear me down it just really hurts all the #time. I can't criticise her because she ll fly off the handle at me and say how many things she does for me that i dont apreciate enough #But for her she can say as many times as she wants that she doesn't like my hair and she doesn't like the way I dress and she doesn't like #This the way I look and she doesn't like the way I stand and she doesn't like the things I say and she doesn't like my beliefs #She can say she doesn't like my tone of voice and that she doesn't like the way i stress out about things and im not allowed to say #A negative word about her in edgeways when she's allowed to tear me down on a constant basis and make me hate myself. As someone who really #Struggles with a lot of self loathing problems and self hatred she really does just rip into me with no restraint constantly. She knows #That I suffer with some serious rejection sensitive dysphoria that I am trying to get therapist help for and she still has no restraint #When it comes to criticising me and everything I am and everything I like. And she has the goal to do this thing where she is kind of peer #Pressures me into agreeing with the things that she says which in turn just makes me consolidate those horrible beliefs about myself in my #own head. If I don't agree with her criticism of me I can't just say so I have to not along with her and affirm to myself that those #Things are true. That I don't like my own hair that I don't like my face and my makeup and my clothes. That my preferences are wrong and #That I dress too androgynously. That I could never experiment with things like pronouns or gender and that I have to agree with societally #Homophobic undertoned things that she says because I can't bare to have her criticise me again and again and again for critisising her. #I can't do this anymore it makes me dread every time she comes into my room to talk to me about some new thing she doesn't like about me. I #And constantly stressing about how much people dislike me and how annoying I am #And the fact that I'm literally hiding the things that I want to wear from her so i can put them on when i get away from her and yet she #she will still get upset if I criticise her for making me literally hate myself on a regular basis. she wont beleive me and she'll be #Confused if I have a belief that doesn't match hers and she'll get so excited when I even possibly hint at doing something to my appearance #that she likes and knows I don't. I worry wake for comic corner she wouldn't shut up about how much my hair looks really good in a style i #dont want to cut it. If I dress in a way that's openly queer she ll act like I'm going to get #and i quote “the wrong kind of attention” Because she thinks that me even possibly being misgendered because of my clothing is a #disgusting crime and that I should be the perfect Barbie doll pink pretty princess she always wanted her children to be. She wants me to be #Someone that I can't be comfortably and she's essentially forcing me to fit this mould of her preferred child. Which obviously makes me #Despise who I am and hate my own interests and style. And as horrible and hurtful as it is to say this #I can't wait to get away from her. #sigh #vent #harsh morning