#I cannot stress how happy this makes me

[chefpookardee]

aaaAAAAAAHHHH

THEY ARE HERE

AND @antidotesprout INCLUDED THIS LOVELY LIL' ARTWORK 💜💕💕 (the luvdisc)

they fit perfectly into your hand and are around the size of a sitting cutie pokemon plush which is PERFECT because it is ACCURATE as they are also sitting cuties

no hats!!! they are attached by a lil thread on the backs of their heads and the keychain atop their heads fits through the hat through a little slot! and also hides in there if need be!

and the detail for their hair and eyebrows! their lil coats!! ♪(´▽｀) these are so well made oh gosh

IN CONCLUSION:

i love them your honor

thank you SO SO SO much again, @antidotesprout, not just for having the giveaway but making them altogether!! you have a HUGE talent for this, and you're going to make so much of the submas fandom overjoyed to have some little guys of their own. suffice to say I would have gladly paid if I hadn't won the giveaway (which is still wild to me), and I will gladly be a repeat customer should you branch out into other plush like you hope to!

(❁´◡`❁) I'm gonna hold these lil guys near and dear for a long time 💜

#antidotesprout #submas #pokemon #pokemon ingo #pokemon emmet #THE LIL DRAWING IS SO CUTE TOO THANK YOU THANK YOU #and the luvdisc made me very happy ahh #subway boss emmet #subway boss ingo #cannot stress enough how good you are at this #plush making art in general everything #i hope you CAN get to the point where you can make things full time like you wish to #fave

[starheirxero]

I've been thinking a lot about Lunar's different designs, and would love to ramble about them a bit, if you don't mind!

All of this is, of course, completely self-indulgent, and my own interpretation!

Now, Lunar has three official VR models. There's the most iconic one, with the crescent moon, the cuter version of moon, and of course his current one! For simplicity, I will refer to them as "Crescent", "CutieMoony", and will call his current one "Pastel".

There was one other design, his very first, which was shown in the thumbnail, though in the actual show was just a very pale recoloring of moon, and only shown in reaction videos. Though it was never canon, I do still have my own interpretation to that as well! This one, I will refer to as "Pale".

"Crescent" is most important design, as it brings meaning to the rest. It lays the foundation for everything else, as it is his real design. It's what he automatically glitches into when he's under high stress. Most importantly, it's what he's been shown to look like in every other universe. Lord Lunar, Lunara, swap Lunar, all of them are the same. Crescent is universally shown to be his real self.

"Pale", on the other hand is, simply put, what Eclipse wanted him to be. Something easily pushed into the background, something mild. Something to sit by quietly, to take what is thrown at him. Pale is the opposite of who Lunar actually is. Interestingly enough, his design in the thumbnail changed the day Moon returned, the day Lunar finally decided to cut off his puppet strings and reject Eclipse. That day, he rejected the image Eclipse had crafted for him, and his design, pale and barely there at all, bloomed into something bright, something noticeable. Lunar finally became themself, no longer bound to their purpose.

"CutieMoony", is the opposite of Pale, as it's what he chose to be. This design, to me, truly underlines Lunar's relationship and appreciation for old moon. He already has an actual design, one designed by his brothers, one that's truly him, in this universe and every other, and he can change into everything he wishes to be, yet he chooses to look like old Moon. Old Moon, who knew him best, right after Monty. They have shared the same body, and old Moon has seen the dents and hurt left in Eclipse's wake. He is the one Lunar ran to, when they couldn't bear the abuse anymore, the one they cried their heart out to. And despite what Lunar did, even under the influence of someone else, he met them with nothing but care and concern. He listened to them, and visibly tried to reach out, only to hesitate and hover instead, for his hands were only ever used to hurt before, something Lunar knew. He didn't force them to stay outside, and took their place, didn't even hesitate when Lunar asked him to be his brother. He is the first one who tried so hard to be a loving brother, arguably trying to be what he couldn't be for Sun, at least not in the beginning. He actively supported their interests, remembered what they liked. When Sun scared Lunar in a horror game and made them cry, Sun panicked because Moon would hear, showing just how much of a protective barrier old Moon was for Lunar. By taking his appearance, Lunar truly showed how much they looked up to him, and how safe he made them feel, considering they took this appearance while they were trapped by KC. Another thing to note is the red and yellow accents, very reminiscent of Sun, showing how much their bond has grown since the rocky start.

Last but not least, there is "Pastel". This design definitly has a lot of interpretation to give, but my favorite to focus on is the raw wrongness of it. Because we know what Lunar looks like. He's supposed to be vibrant and blue, yet this body is purple and mellow. Ironically enough, it's very similar to "Pale", the very personification of what Eclipse wanted him to be, showing the permanent mark he has left on them, as well as their mental state. Their energy isn't genuine anymore, it's a distraction and exaggeration to run from the mess left in their head. There is also the divinity inside of them, reflected in their eyes, showing them that now, they are more than just Lunar. They are part of something much bigger than themself. This body, in every sense of the word, is not their own. It's something they might never see as a home either. Another irony is how it once again links them to Eclipse, who himself is in a body not his own.

His body is a literal copy after all, not to forget that his "real self" was universally shown to look like Solar, minus God Eclipse.

This was a rather long ramble, but I really needed to get it out of my system! The brainrot's been growing steadily-

Thank you for reading!

-Stardust

BELOVED STARDUST ANON I'M GOING TO START DOING FLIPS OVER HOW EXCITED I AM ABOUT THIS OH MY GHOD

I don't even know what to say other than these are all a fantastic observations and that I am wholeheartedly accepting these into my soul forever I think

#asks #stardust anon #anon #THIS IS ALL SO IMPORTANT 2 ME....... U JUST DISSECTED THE FUCK OUTTA THIS LITTLE ROBOT I'M GENUINELY SO ENAMORED #i'd kind of rotated before the fact that lunar had /also/ gone thru multiple bodies/designs like eclipse had and how there's likely some- #-fun ideas you could make outta that but i never actually like #/THOUGHT/ ABOUT IT #I KNOW I SAID THIS ON UR LAST BIG RAMBLE BUT I CANNOT STRESS ENOUGH HOW ABSOLUTELY HUGE YOUR BRAIN IS FOR THIS AHSJWBSJSN #ghooooddd could you imagine if part of lunar's arc is learning to comfortable w/ themselves again #and it leads to them having the Crescent body/a new body that reflects more of who they are now #and they're Happy and Okay and Nothing Goes Wrong 🙏 GDJWHDJS #sun and moon show #the sun and moon show #tsams #sams lunar #lunar sams #laes lunar #lunar laes #lunar and earth show #the lunar and earth show #tlaes #lunar #long post #other's thoughts and rambles

[bluffmotel]

while only a minority share this view, i do find it somewhat tone deaf when people claim jay's ending is the best outcome for an abuse survivor -- either directly or indirectly implying everyone in the holt house was an abuser that jay, their sole little victim, had to get away from. for starters, none of his endings are happy ones. not even the fugitive path where he's holed up amongst nature, has a dog, and is bathed in solitude. maybe if you close your ears to what jay's saying during that scene you could see this as good for him, but his dialogue is stifled with an achingly loneliness, a sadness. this idea that he craved being alone in the wilderness is not one jay paints himself, it's only something that's said by tyler ; someone who clearly doesn't understand the younger on any level, much less grasps his desires. yes, jay wanted out, he likes nature, though no human can stew in their own space for years without this affecting them mentally. and that's not even taking into account that his entire life is over! he can't travel, he can't visit other countries or get lost in other areas of wood lands or plains, jay is infinitely stuck where he is. it's not a prison cell but it's a cage nonetheless, as the old saying goes : a golden cage is still a cage, after all. he tells zoe these beautiful sights have grown dull on him, laments about missing his family, vanessa, and is so chained by his want for connection he reaches out to a desert dream victim of all people. like, what about this muted cynicism, this barren home, seems happy? maybe he wanted this, some whimsical dream of this, before. now though? it's not what jay thought it'd be, and he lacks any power to change it. this is not some amazing ending for abuse survivors, it's still sad in a melancholy way, simply because jay is visibly unhappy with said circumstances.

but moving on to this, ah, ‘poor little victim in a lion's den’ narrative ... what? i think a lot of people fail to grasp how complex the holt household is in terms of toxicity and abuse. something that's very common nowadays due to how much people project rather than see what's in front of them. and don't get me wrong! projection is fine, you do you, we all consume and parse through media differently -- but this narrative is, by canon evidence, rather fictional. to be completely blunt, jay is not the only victim stuck in the holt house ?? the abusers have always been bear ( physical abuse, verbal degradation ) and sharon ( passive in the face of her kids' abuse, emotional manipulation ) ... and we are literally told point blank by the story itself and another character that these two favored jay immensely compared to their other children. now i'm obviously not saying that he has not faced trauma, he has! favoritism in a house like this does not shield you from the toxicity, sometimes that favor makes things worse, but he was protected to an extent, in ways tyler and dale were not. those two very clearly faced the brunt of bear's physical abuse ; for each other, for jay, and just overall caught their dad's ire more because they stood up to him. tyler takes a beating, a sight that's not at all new by his grim acceptance of this and the fact he states he's been doing this since young :

so, this is normal for tyler. getting beaten by his dad ( which isn't even mentioning the horror story bear can tell to ash, about how he literally threatened to cut tyler's ear or finger off ) and having his mom overall turn a blind eye to it, even going as far as to dismiss this fighting as childish behavior rather than what it is. and dale? we don't see much of him and bear in general, yet the second he steps up to defend tyler, with something as measly as a shove back, bear wastes zero time in hitting him so hard he's practically out of commission for the rest of the fight. he didn't even think about it, merely swung at dale as hard as possible on instinct alone before tyler hastily stepped up to defend him. what happens when jay tries stopping the fight, though?

both parties grab for him so they can toss him out of the way so he doesn't possibly get hurt. you can speculate bear was only doing this in order to finish his punishment on tyler, he'd deal with jay later whatever, although why not punch him like dale? why, out of all the moves on his belt, does he do the more merciful option? bear, who is nothing if not made of violence and has been molded to respect it? his fist that's raised in the air isn't for jay, since the next frame is jay shoved out of the way and him hitting tyler again ... hell, in dialogue where bear and jay are sitting on their porch, the youngest can even say bear beats on tyler and dale specifically. why not say “you beat on us”? like, the game is heavily implying that while jay is traumatized, there are some methods of abuse he simply did not face. one of them being the physical abuse prominent at home. and no, i'm not counting whatever pranks dale's pulled on jay ( like shooting him six times with a bb gun lmao ) because honestly? that's just older brother behavior, and we know that despite the morbid pranks, he still looked out for jay in the ways that counted. like protecting him from pa and to an extent tyler, something which, again, jay says himself!

back on topic a bit, the notion people seem to have of jay and his family seems overly simplified to me. people just looked at dale being his usual asshole self and went ‘abuser’, people looked at tyler's rather drastic and not usually like himself reactions to a high stress situation and went ‘abuser’, and that's a bit ridiculous to me. can't say i'm shocked! since so many people nowadays just see someone mean to their favorite character and decide woobifying said fave while demonizing their opposing force is exactly what canon intended. as dusk falls couldn't be a game more clear about it's main theme of family and the fact there's no purely good or bad people in this world, two statements that correspond directly to the holt family. are they bad for each other? probably! but that's a different discussion compared to, say, every single soul in that house violently abused poor jay and they should reap the consequences of that. dale and tyler, like their beloved younger brother, are also victims of abusive parents and a toxic home life. in turn, they both show signs of this abuse in ways that aren't entirely sympathetic or easy to swallow, especially when they've been dealing with it longer than jay and have never had their parents' favor the way he did. i see people get angry at tyler for the famous cabin scene, but nobody turns a critical eye to sharon ; who for all intents and purposes is watching this unfold without a care. she never physically stops tyler and her attempts to kill the fight are weak compared to her previously steely commands. and, honestly, the fact that tyler was that stressed about sharon getting on that bike so she can be protected, when she's the most capable out of the three of them, is way more strange than tyler's outburst -- when he's in a high stress situation, his baby brother's dead, and his life as he knows it is over. a life he didn't even have to begin with, since it was stolen due to his abusive upbringing.

whether this excuses what he did or not is entirely up to the player! i personally don't think it does, though i also understand where this is coming from and the game makes it clear this is not usual tyler behavior. throughout other people's views it's hammered into us that tyler has a cool head relatively, is the most sensible and smart out of his brothers. so, no, i do not think he was choking jay out all the time for his misplaced resentment -- i think his obvious disliking came from his stilted interactions with jay, and his lack of bond with him at all. we see in book one two times he reaches out to jay, demanding that he eats ( a minor, small thing to fret and worry about ) as well as panicking when he sees jay away from the rest of them during a shoot out. dale constantly looks out for jay as well, going as far as to take the heat from romero if they get caught and something as small as taking blame for jay's mistake in the barn scene. are his brothers more prone to violence and apathy? sure! yet they clearly love jay regardless. abusive households are not easy and see through. in fact in many cases the different levels of abuse the kids suffer does breed life altering resentment later on, envy that can damage these bonds permanently. honestly the holt family intrigues me deeply because of how well written they were as a unit, the effects of abuse and toxicity subtle and not overt in a ‘psa message’ kinda way. and these horrible relationships and ideals shared do not negate from the even more horrible fact that there is love in this messed up family, even bear clearly loves his sons, but that doesn't make it better. it almost makes it worse, seeing all the good intentions and care. knowing it doesn't excuse what they've done to each other nor does it make them better. they're a picture perfect family of an ugly wound! which is fascinating! i only wish more people saw that wonderfully shown depth rather than this bland and lukewarm take on the holts overall.

jay is a victim, he is traumatized, he deserved to one day spread his wings and put some distance between himself and his family ... but he was not the only one who deserved that ending, and he was not the only victim there. he was merely the only one with easy to parse trauma responses.

#as dusk falls #interior night #jay holt #dale holt #tyler holt #the holt family #meta post #ngl i'll make fancier tags eventually because i do not wanna clog the adf tag but this'll do #this was not supposed to be my first post yet i feel very strongly about this topic and the holts so um #here we go i guess! #cannot stress enough the literal dev of interior night has said the holts do want what's best for each other #they just have different ideas of what that best is! so it comes out wrong and warped and sometimes mean spirited #but they aren't just 2-bit abusers with signs on their heads saying : i hate jay and abuse him on the regular im a monster kill me #like do you know how much it wrecked me going through variations of the jay in prison scenes and seeing him say like #that tyler might even be happy out there as a fugitive. and that jay wants that for him? for tyler to be happy? #even jay himself comes into his wisdom which has always been there and acknowledges his love for his family #and the fact tyler and dale were miserable going on the way they were. just like he was! #the game centers around the holts and the walkers because they are two families that love each other and fumble the landing of it #jim lies to vince over something unforgivable. yet lying is all he knows. yet he did it out of a selfish love for his son #michelle cheats on vince which is awful and tries to paint it as something not important but she loves vince #is even willing to let him indulge in petty revenge ( which is missing the point ) so that they can stay together! #terrible things they're doing but it never takes away from the fact they love vince and zoe #a sentiment echoed by the holts! #idk like i know this take might get me killed but seeing morally gray games get the black and white treatment kills me #you are missing the true brilliance of adf's writing! you are missing some amazing characters! #also jay is not some unflawed creature. he literally can get so jealous over some girl that he isn't dating to the point of MAIMING a guy #he could've killed todd. he probably almost did! vanessa even says he might be more like his family than he thinks #and even if you don't choose this option it is still inside him. this paranoid jealousy and brutal violence #he can shoot vince or watch him die. he can let his dad die. he can bury someone alive. he can kill a cop and some poor ranger #dale and tyler and jay might be different characters and were shaped differently but they're still the same at their core

[todayisafridaynight]

I hope this isn't weird but earlier I was thinking about how much good artists do in the world, and so many artists don't recognize it. You bring a lot of joy to a lot of people. I've gotten a few commissions from you at this point, and every time I look at them I get so happy because, man, there was someone who took time to create something for me (I know I payed, but still!) Beyond that, I have seen when you draw little doodles just because people inspire you to eith their asks. You practiced your skill and you use it to make others happy and that's so valuable. You contribute a lot to this world just by bringing people's moods up, and I hope you recognize that. You're pretty awesome :)

t thank yuou ,....

#fave #snap chats #HIDING BEING THE BIGGEST SAPPIEST SAPPY SAP IN THE TAGS #PLEAAASSSEE BRO I CAN'T ALMOST BE CRYIN AT 11AM THATS SO EMBARRASSINGGGG #BUT REAL THANK YOU SO MUCHH 😭😭 i say it a lot but i really cant stress how happy i get making other people happy #and thank you for commissioning me !! it's helped me out a lot so thank you for the support you've given me in the past :') #i hope i can continue to make you happy whether its through a future commission or the lil drawings i do everyday #i keep re reading this byyyyeeeeeee im a big ol blubbering BABY this is really sweet #i say a lot that i draw for myself and i do but i also have you guys as motivation to get better #cause sometimes i just wanna hang up a drawing or idea but then i just think like 'there'll be at least ONE other person who'd like this' #and if i can make one other person happy then i'm more than glad to put in the extra work and get that pay off #so i have to thank you guys a whole lot too for giving me motivation to draw everyday and help nurture that passion #cause sure i love drawing and i love the things i draw but it's always nice to h ave other people cheering for you too #it's nice that i can get other people interested in the stuff i like.. #didnt really get that growing up so im glad i can have that with yall now and have fun :] #so again thank yall so much for bein lovelies and chattin with me and leaving tags and just supporting me #CANNOT stress how much it means to me so again. Thank You. i hope me drawins can show a fraction of my gratitude

[fourteenthz]

!!! Insane in the head atm !! unhealthy in ways you would never understand !!!! if anyone cares !!!! DRIVING MYSELF UP THE WALLS !!!! HELLO HI !!!

#txt #kelly plays bg3 #kelly says #so many SO MANY ACT 3 SPOILERS BELOW THIS TAG OH GOD DON'T LOOK #I NEVER FELT SO MUCH IN SUCH SINGLE QUEST HOLY SHIT that shit stressed me out in ways i CANNOT FENTON #cazador quest btw. it does NOT help that astarion's va did a fantastic job HOLY FUCKING SHIT MAN LIME #in the beginning of the quest once u enter the palace his voice is trembling THERE'S NO WAY PPL CAN DO THAT #like I cry easily but I thought it wouldn't affect me as bad as his soft voice spaking with/abt sebastian did #but the part where he confronts cazador and throws him on the ground it changed me as a person (for worse) #his swearing made me go into a break down btw. if anyone cares. #there's so much to his character I feel like I have to sit tf down and think abt it for centuries... #there's so much of s.a. victim in him that truly only shows once hes back to that fucking house and the path to convincing him is so gentle #there's literally nothing left unsaid to me. i legitimately adored every single dialogue in that scene #by the end i was holding my screen and screaming I'M SO PROUD OF YOU #the aftermath to that quest is SUCH THREAT and GOD astarion v.a. truly fucking shines man like idk how he does #but astarion always had this fake easy to him and in the aftermath he genuinely sounds so happy. i was bawling my eyes again #there's something to tav kneeling down onto his grave and putting a flower there. and saying that astarion was never cazador's #and then THE SEX ON HIS GRAVE YEAH THAT'S HIM it's literally who he's. we never lost him hes just this free version of himself #it makes me go FUCKING BONKERS I cannot even begin to express how much I adored this quest. #the timing is so good the atmosphere is wonderful the character development is astonishing #legit said out loud and IN TEARS “this game is fenomenal” while astarion started crying #I'd do anything for him. my tav will do anything to keep him safe and happy and hes my most special boy ever #didn't thought they could make a character so different from my taste match so much of my taste. there he is I guess. #he goes to the top of my holy shit there's nothing more well written than this mf list I GUESS #by the sex on the grave part I was crying as well btw. if anyone cares. genuine laughing tears whem he pushes tav back. #they are the friends and lovers of all times I ADORE THEM SO DEARLY. #i don't think ill able to do the ascend path with my dark urge as i planned.... him like this is so.... so. #seeing him loosing his cool was insane btw but seeing them in the end + THAT SOFT LOOK he gives her by the time they kiss. SO FUCKING POETIC #i cannot stop playing that entire quest in my head its driving me up the walls i adore his writting i adore him he's the man of all time. #never felt happier with timing like i did by taking my oath of vengeance before going there. i adore them. CAN ANYONE HEAR ME HELLO HES SO-

[yellowocaballero]

hi! I was winding down after school stuff and rereading some of the reverse Batman au (awesome by the way. You understand so many things) and am I tripping or did u make a Batman fic rec post a while ago? I can’t find it, but it’s also been a long time. I crave the sustenance. Also I honestly didn’t realize it’s literally been three years until you pointed it out in your newest fic (Incredible btw) guess I can finally officially declare myself a long time fan. Cheers!!

HAH Hello thank you for being a long time reader! That story certainly reads like it was written a long time ago...I put up the Cass story just so I could love the AU on a more adept note jkaljd. That being said, I'm now thinking about The Secret Life Of Jason Todd, so....

I can't find the post either :(. I think it was a rec lists specifically for good Tim Drakes, and as a result it was extremely skimpy. Literally, it was just Chirp by Amari_T, The Bat's Crest, and Red Raven (the most bonkers fanfic ever written, and one of my favorites). I have a lot more Batman fanfics in general I like, but most of them escape me now - it's mostly classics, like lowflyingfruit's stuff.

Every so often when I need fuel in my tank to go back to writing The Stupidest Magnum Opus Of All Time, I crack open the Batfam fanfic and plow through a bunch. I am then angry enough that I tackle my fic again and produce the best fic I've ever written in my life.

To be a little less negative (for once.), I do want to highlight something specific - All I Have by Janie_Loops is a really nice story, and although a LOT of stories try to do what it does, it's one of the few ones that succeeds. It helps that it's a series of snapshot chapters, which relieves you from having to do a lot of plotting (shoves someone will remember us under the bed), but there's a lot of reasons why it works. Each chapter is very much Bruce vs. Something, whether it's one of his kids or the JL or The World. The conflicts are baby sized, but they always feel very big and World Ending to Bruce, no matter the actual conflict. Everything is equally sized in this story, from the intra-baby problems to the Justice League issues. Bruce's characterization is very consistent and he's reliably forced to grow and change over the course of the fic. And every kid has a stand-out personality (that's so grounded - I was totally Jason!) that creates specific dynamics with each other, they all have different relationships and favorites between each other and Bruce, and their bond is a family is shown not through, like, bonding moments, but how they tackle problems together and how they're always on the same side. It's also deeply funny.

I think the author's a kiddo (who takes suggestions from their baby brother - ADORABLE), and there's still some ways for them to grow in prose and technical skill and a few other things like that. But even if the writer's a relative beginner writer, and you can see where they'll grow, you immedietly understand when reading that this person understands how a story works. That's way, way more important than having beautiful prose. I'm just saying all of this to hopefully demonstrate that, as writers, technical skill and prose will happen naturally with enough work & reading. Don't stress about that. Prose isn't what makes your story enjoyable and a good read. It's if you get what makes a story go. Everything else can come in time.

#my asks #ppl seem to think that a story meant to be 'feel good' #isn't obligated to do like #anything that a story is meant to do #fluff stories dont need conflict! conflict is stressful #guys you cannot all sit here and tell me that like #fanfic is an art form fanfic is legitimate writing we need to respect fanfic was we would books #and then turn around and tell me that fanfic is exempt from having to competently tell a story #what makes a story feel good isn't that it doesn't have conflict #its that the conflict is PREDICTABLE #and has an uncomplicated happy ending #it doesn't have no plot it just has a plot that we can follow along without any stress bc we know whats happening #i mean this sincerely. fluff writers go watch 10 hallmark movies #and then come back and you will write very effective fluff. #what do you think hallmark movies are. #oh my god im constantly shocked by how salty i am about batfam fluff #JAKLSDLKJF

[stinkrascal]

oh btw we leave TOMORROW which means i can be home to make story posts n see my kitties finally!!!!!

#i miss them soooo much #this has been the least relaxing vacation ever #thank god nobody planned anything today bc i am not leaving this airbnb til we have to leave tmrw #im grateful we even have the chance to go on this vacation bc it has been a lot of fun too #but soooo stressful and ive gotten sick every day since we got here #bc we’re in the car driving down mnts all day ;-; #i just miss being at home #oh and now my bf is talking about getting transferred to CO office for work so we can live here instead lmaooooo #which tbh i would NOT be mad at all if we moved to colorado! but i would probably be bedridden for a few weeks 😭 #but hey thats what the legal weed is here for #either way i did have fun! im just so exhausted now and i miss my house. but im happy i got 2 experience life here #it is soooooo so so so different to louisiana like i cannot express this enough. im shocked this state exists #when all ive known my whole life is bumfuck LA. it is just so cool to see how much more the usa can offer!!! #makes me feel like less of a doomer aha

[krenia]

WHIPLASH

HA this THIS was what's Aiden was originally made for not the convoluted lore my brain made !! [I'm not undoing the lore]

#anytime i drew oc x canon its like directly injecting serotonin into my veins #ESPECIALLY AidenxEthan it makes my brain very happy theyre both dear to me #nott putting this on the ethan tag its already mostly me #theyre very dear to me i cannot stress this enough my comfort idiots [just a dude x a literal killing machine] #hhhhh my brain is very content i can sleep peacefully now #arknights oc #art #illustration #oc art #I CANNOT OVERSTATE HOW IMPORTANT— #this piece will keep me going for WEEKS #ok no rant over #my art #aiden-oc

[skinnymeanfaggot]

also

#im making huge huge changes in my life and i think the next logical step would be to cut off jamie. ive already been ghosting him but thats #just me avoiding the problem. i just like. it feels fucked to be like hey i told you i was ok with what you did but i Changed my mind #i just think like. i have next to no contact with him and i feel fucking fantastic. we talk like every couple months on the rare occurrence #he can text and then i answer in vague short sentences and ghost. and now that i finally have firm boundaries with him and havent engaged #with him sexually its like. i feel like basically all my ties are cut. and i feel like im ready to let go for the first time. like ive #always felt like i just wasnt ready but now i like i Am ready its just a matter of like. doing it. thats difficult. even though i know hell #accept it because hes matured. and like. idk. i think its fine like this #and idk i think its fine like this. being the absolute barest form of acquaintances. i cannot stress how little we interact and how little #affect he has on my life at this point outside of what happened in the past. like i am in a good place he is 99% cut off i just need to do #the last bit. but like also fuck. you know. its hard to kinda finish it off. and its also like ooh it would hurt his feelings but now i #fucking. dont care lol. after everything. with blue i realize every day just how much more respected i feel and less gross and shitty #even with being jamies friend which we never were because whenever i was single we were sexual. i just felt bad. i never wanted to fuck #either. and he would say he loved me and id be like hahaha yeahhhh and now that ive finally drawn that boundary and said he cant do that #anymore i feel so much lighter and i just feel so happy and safe with blue in a way ive never felt with jamie and its like. im almost there #i feel like i might be able to cut him off by the end of the year. and thats crazy to me. i just also have a lot of like shit to unpack #in general too also. with what he did. and i just have a lot. but i feel like im progressing

[nomaishuttle]

i am just a small dog girlie and they are my best friends. i love them sm

#I LOVE LARGE DOGS AN EQUAL AMOUNT TO BE QUITE HONEST.. but i feel thats not super unpopular so i talk abt small dogs more #bc i need them 2 know I am with them when other ppl call them ugly or yappy or annoying #or aggressive i hate it when ppl label small dogs as aggressive when its like. Thats bc ppl dont train their dogs #and the dogs are very territorial andanxious and untrained #bc its 'funny'when a small dog is stressed out. eff etc my lecrure i do everytime i start thinkin bout dogs #but yss.. i fr just love dogs #ABD CATS I LOVE CATS TOO!!! i dont believe in the dichotomy i think theyre both good animals. and good for different ppl #abd its finr to have preferences but i hatee the whole like EWWWW CAT OWNER CAT MEAN SND EVIL!! and EWEW DOG OWNER DOG LOUD SND SNNOYING #like ok. whatever dude. what if we just loved our animals. and took care of them. yk. what if the world was made of pudding #and we all were like I personally wouldnt want to have a cat but i think its nice that you have one and that that makes you happy :] yk... #isnt there enough HATE and VIOLENCE in this world!!! #sry guys im waiting for my headphones to charge for my beddybye time so im just talkin. yk how it is #but yas. i love small dogs i love large dogs i get certain critiques for each.. and im glad that ppl are able to say I wouldnt be able to #live with or properly take care of this type of dog. i think thats a good thing #i just wish ppl wouldnt like. blame the dog. for being a dog #yk . idk.. they r our friends guys.. #ik irs like. Overly sensitive but seeing ppl call dogs stupid or ugly makes me so sad sometimes #bc like they fr cannot help it whatsoever. we literally bred them to look these ways #i think its fine to be like This dog is sort of silly looking bc i do that. some dogs just are very silly looking #but idk.. no need 2 be hateful. they r all gods creatures Grins.. #but anywaysbyas sry j rambled. i talk more abt small dogs even tho i love all dogs mainly bc ot THE HATERS! and also bc well famously my #favourite dog breed is the quintessential small dog. EL WAWA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[kiiiiiim]

Trying to get my boss to realize that no, I don't need her to hire more people withno experience for me to train, I need. My boss. To be at work.

#ok. i understand that my job is not something people can just jump into and know everything there is to know within a few months #but my 2 coworkers have been here a little over a year and are both part time so they dont get to learn as quickly #and ive been here 9 years this month so like. obviously i know more. #but when all this shit comes in at once and i have to take all the phone calls and take in all the complicated jobs #and i have to run from my customer to my coworkers because she needs me to check her quote #or just take over her customer altogether because the job is more complicated than slapping a frame on a photo and going #or my other coworker who can't read a ruler because of his dyslexia and like i GET it but this whole job is based on using a ruler #so i'm spending all day making sure jobs get quoted right & written up right & cut right & put together right and they're not even my jobs #but they Are all my jobs in the end and i just. i can't be responsible for everything that happens in here. #i'm not mentally equipped for that stress 24/7 and i swear to god if my boss says When The Business is Yours One Day one more time 🙂🙂🙂 #so no. i don't need another new hire to babysit. #i need her to be here to help me before the spark gets lit and i'm the one dealing with the fire #and i def don't need her to remind me that i'm the highest paid person on payroll like that's supposed to keep me from going crazy #like she's not a bad boss she's very good to me but contrary to popular belief i cannot nor do i want to be Boss Owner Ma'am #and i really don't like to think about how every year she gets closer to wanting to retire #and i'll have to choose between this and finding another job #happy monday i need a drink #text post

[milf-harrington]

i wanted to post something i've been writing but i really don't think it's gonna be finished in time, but i have most of tomorrow/today to work on it so who knows what will happen

#i know that technically people are supposed to give ME things for my birthday but i dont think im getting anything this year so #im quite happy making some self-indulgent content and putting that out as a gift to myself #i cannot stress how un-upset i am about not getting anything by the way dont worry about that #technically i've already been given two huge gifts (my trips to aotearoa and brisbane) so that's enough for me #also depending on how fast i write it i might end up posting something completely new #bc i came up with this dumb idea earlier and i was like ''i HAVE to write it'' so depending on how quick i get that done #i may post that instead of the much longer fic i've been working on for the past few weeks dfjhsfk #anyway #captain speaks

[kingmaximusboltagon]

"I suddenly hate you. Not sure why. Maybe it's your aftershave. Maybe you're a nose-picker. Maybe you play too much Eminem. Whatever it is... I love you, but I resent you. Kind of like Apple products."

#once and future kings posting to keep the stress away 😳 #the thing about them is that i care for them very very much. thank you. #also noto's art gives me HIGH levels of the Oonga Bongas. chest hurt with so much happiness. smiling at my phone in public #u get it?? i cannot describe the feeling!!!! it is intense happiness!!!! his art makes me very very happy!!!! #the Oonga Bongas!!!!!! #love how many panels there are of bolt holding maximus back by the scruff of his neck #like. maximus chill the fuck out for TWO minutes #LABSKAVDKA #blackagar boltagon #maximus boltagon #inhumans #undescribed

[heartpoems]

[muffled, lying face down on the floor] i fuckhing love my ocs so much

#back to writing comic scripts im on issue 3 this is so FUCKING FUN #im like legit developing their voices and it makes me AAAAAAAAAAH #i know my friends will support me even if this comic goes nowhere and no stranger buys a single copy #BUT. god it will be worth it because i literally dont care. this is for me #insane to me that we are almost at the 5 year anniversary #blorbos of literally all time. i feel so strongly about them and seeing them in this form #i cannot stress to you enough how happy this makes me. happy doesnt even cover it #they are REAL they are going to be REAL #people other than me and my friends will KNOW THEM. INSANE!!!!! #anyways. thank you. #my posts

[todayisafridaynight]

Thank you for doing dubbed, because I find Ichi’s English voice so cute 🥰

kaiji tang is The Goat i love his performance SO much and it's so perfect

#snap chats #and i love how tang cosplayed as ichi for an interview 😭😭 #ichi's english voice is so good- a lot of the english dub cast is it makes me so happy #like there's no better VA for ichi than tang his energy and performance and emotion is just spot on #i love his voice so much i cannot stress this #BUT ON THAT NOTE i also did the eng dub because i also really like aoki's english voice #i remember the first cutscene he was in i paused cause the fuckin whiplash like bro why do you sound so CRUSTY #but its what also makes his 'aoki voice' so neat because it's just slightly less rough #its most notable during his scene with ichi- idk how its just you can really tell he changes his voice from that scene #its kinda funny will yun lee also lowkey reminds me of aoki face wise #not perfectly obvi its mostly the lips and nose but anyway #i could gush about the english cast all day if given the chance honestly #i'll die on the hill of defending them like i dont think too many people complain bout the Y7 eng dub #but still i'll gush bout it #i did the japanese dub too 1.) so i could include ishin 2.) so i can show love to the japanese voices too #i never gave them a fair shot since i always play in english cause im a filthy american #but the japanese cast Of Course is just as lovely- i esp love adachi's voice #and it's always nice hearing hints of nishiki in ichi's performance :')

[rahabs]

I should have listened to my instincts and avoided law school lmao everyone says law school is the worst part of law but uh, no, actually everything gets worse after you get the JD because the entire culture of law is shitty and toxic and I’m so Miserable.

#I try to think you know. God put me on this path for a reason. #Everything lined up too perfectly otherwise... it was such a series of events after I spent years saying Never. #But I really cannot see that reason right now. And I am so miserable. #And everyone tells me about the good things in their lives/jobs and I just have to Smile. #Pretend I don't feel that awful jealous bitterness. #Especially re: my sister who has. The things I wish I could have. #A family (but I can't have that because not only am I broken but when I tried to ignore that I got assaulted) #(And now I'm broken AND traumatized) #Just got offered a partnership in a company by a family friend without having to work for it. She did I mean. #And my youngest sister LOVES her job. #Meanwhile I got in trouble this week at work from the viper paralegal for leaving work early after being told I could if I had nothing to do #Everything at work is 'say one thing mean another' and I only find that out once I'm in trouble. #I'm stressed ALL the time. #It's Saturday night I should be relaxing but all I do is stress over work and bar prep. #I make next to no money right now and don't even really know how I'm going to afford my dog. #How are people in law happy? Does it get better after articling? #I don't think I'm cut out for this. #I love the theory of law I love the research I love the history but god do I hate the culture. #Everyone priding themselves on staying up until 3 AM working on stuff like? No? #I don't want to have no work-life balance? #If all I had was work I'd actually probably kms. #I just wanted to study history? To teach it. #But there were no opportunities. #And then I discovered I love aboriginal law BECAUSE it's almost all history but. #Articling means you're stuck doing everything and there's this AWFUL family law file I'm working on and I'm tired of just. #Getting things Wrong lmao and never knowing where I stand #Never knowing the rules because again 'say one thing mean another' #I can't trust anyone because part of the reason we got in trouble was someone narked on us even though we were told it was fine. #There are worse places to work but it seems a lot of this is endemic in law. #A bunch of mean girls from high school on a power trip. It's like what I always imagined American high school must be like.