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#I could literally go on forever I’m obsessed and it’s a proBLEM-
blushweddinggowns · 1 year
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Part 1 Part 3
It was an easy decision, proposing to Steve. Party because Eddie has been daydreaming about it since they got together, but mostly because he knew there was no way Steve would say no.
No, when a guy almost dies for you twice, chooses to move into a shitty apartment with you vs maintain financial security with his rich parents, and literally says he wants to be with you forever, it's a pretty safe bet that he's not going to say no to the idea of marriage.
All Eddie needed to do was get a ring. Easy.
Except it was anything but.
At the rate he was going, the proposal was never going to happen. He had gone through four jewelry stores in a span of three days, and he hadn’t found shit. They were all…wrong. Either too big and fancy, or too plain and generic. Nothing that Eddie could see his Steve wearing everyday.
In general, Steve just wasn’t a jewelry kind of guy. The one time he tried out Eddie’s rings for fun, he hated them. He was too hands on for anything clunky, and it was actually impressive how often he got them caught on his clothes in a twenty-four hour period.
But the simple bands weren’t right either. Maybe Eddie was just an obsessive sap, but…they weren’t special enough for someone as wonderful as Steve, and Eddie was running out of ideas.
So he called who he always did when he was stuck. He picked up on the third ring, and Eddie went straight into it, “Waaaaayne, I need help. And I needed it like yesterday.”
Wayne chuckled on the other end, the sound automatically bringing a smile to Eddie’s face, “What have you done now?”
“I’m in ring hell. I’m trying to ask Steve to marry me but-”
“Don’t tell me you already bought one.” Wayne interrupted, voice stern, “Did you?”
Eddie frowned, confused. He didn’t…he didn’t think Wayne would disapprove, not after all this time. Eddie swallowed, trying to hide the hurt in his voice, “Why Wayne, is that disapproval I hear? And no, I haven’t bought anything yet.”
Wayne sighed, catching onto it anyway, “Son, I don’t give a shit about what you two decide to do. If anything, you should have locked him down years ago.”
The knot in his stomach instantly disappeared, Eddie grinned, relieved, “Okay, first of all, rude. Second, if you don’t care, why shouldn't I buy a ring?”
“Because I have one already.”
Eddie stopped dead in his tracks, almost dropping the phone, “Huh?”
“Eddie, I know you, and I know Steve. I knew this day was coming and…I’ve been ready for it. It was my grandmother’s, but it’s from the 30s so don’t worry. It’s not too flowerly or anything like that.”
Jesus, Eddie was tearing up. He hadn’t expected that. It’s not like Wayne had ever had a problem with their relationship, he was beyond supportive. But Eddie hadn’t realized just how deep that support went, “I-I don’t know what to say.”
“You don’t gotta say anything. I’ll send it to you and if it doesn’t work, it doesn’t work. But I think he’d like it.”
Eddie nodded, forgetting that Wayne couldn’t see him,“Y-yeah, sounds good. Sounds perfect.”
“Good, I’ll send it tonight. And you’ll tell me how it all turns out after, right?”
“Of course. And um, hey Wayne?”
“Yeah?”
“I love you man.”
He couldn’t see it, but Eddie could hear the smile in his voice, “I love you too kiddo.”
Eddie hung the phone up on the high, nervously excited to see thing. He watched the mail like a hawke for the next week, grateful that Steve was out when it finally arrived. He tore into the small package, like a kid on Christmas morning. Rose gold and engraved, and already re-sized. Wayne really had thought of everything.
It was the exact kind of ring that Eddie hadn’t been able to find anywhere. Pretty but subtle, perfect for his Steve. He loved it, and he was almost sure Steve would love it too. And he wouldn’t have to wait long to find out, because he was going to do it the second he saw him.
Eddie didn’t care if it was corny, he was going to be on one knee the moment Steve opened the door. He sat infront of it, his stomach doing flips as he waited. There was really no reason to be nervous, Steve couldn’t have made it clearer that he was going to get a yes, but he still was.
Steve just had that effect on him.
An hour later, the tell-tale sound of keys in the door hit him. He scrambled into position, heart racing, as he waited, stuck between being intensely excited and vaguely wanting to throw up.
“I’m home- what are you doing?” Steve stopped dead in his tracks, eyes wide at the sight of Eddie kneeling on the floor, ring in hand.
“What does it look like I’m doing?” Eddie laughed, nervous as he watched the emotions flash across his face. He had a hand over his mouth, eyes sparkling as he looked down at Eddie, waiting for him to continue.
Words, right. He had those. Eddie took a deep breath, shaking himself out of his staring to speak,
"Stevie, you are my whole world. And I don’t go a day without thanking the universe for letting you in my life, because you made it complete. I…I never thought I would ever be as happy as you make me. You were my first love. And I want- no, I need you to be my last because there is no one else in this world that I want to be with. So…baby will you marry me?”
Eddie should have seen it coming, but that didn’t stop the surprised oomf he made when Steve tackled him to the ground. The next thing he knew he was being kissed all over his face, a manically thrilled Steve on top of him.
He grinned down at him, happy tears already falling, “Abso-fucking-lutely.”
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colourstreakgryffin · 7 months
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I've had a horrible week. Like so mentally down bad rn. So I'd like comfort from a spider boy that's definitely NOT comfort material but he is to me. Can you do him with the sister reader again? I'm the same person who requested the other one. If you don't do double requests, it's fine, just ignore it. But if you do, can you do a scenario where the sister just breaks down in tears infront of him? it's a hurt/comfort type of thing. The reason as to why she cried is up to you. Have a good day!
Awww. I’m so sorry about that, doll. I doubt you’re gonna be upset by the time this comes out but here, I’ll try the best I can for you! Here is sweetie Rui
Ayaki Rui- Funnel Blanket
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“Sister. Look at me” Rui demanded in a rather gentle voice, opposing the usual cold and stern one he is known for around this household. Displease Rui and you end up his next deepfried prey to chow on. Rui has always been different with you, he never laid a single finger on you in a harmful manner
He adores you for your devotion and loyalty, he has a obsessive passion to keep you with him at all times and making sure you’re happy is another task he must complete to perfection. All so you will never wish to turn against him, nor even think about it. Rui, right now, needed to find out what’s wrong with his precious sister
He only left you alone for a few minutes to go handle the flocks of nuisance slayers running amok his laborious backyard. He comes back to hysterical sobbing and his useless makeshift siblings closing the door to your bedroom. Rui shooed them all away in the snap of fingers and almost torn down the wooden frame. He didn’t care for the stupid building, he only cared for his beloved sister
You sobbed, hands flinching away from your own puffy red cheeks and red puffy eyes as Rui’s soft thumbs brushed over the tears rolling down your beautiful face. He couldn’t stand the fact something made you cry, if it’s a breathing creature. He will dice them into literal pieces. If it’s a inanimate object, he will grind it down into smithereens. He could give less of a fuck for the world around him, he just wanted to keep you as his forever. No matter what he must do
You honestly didn’t want to spill the beans of the cause to your current misery. It was such a pathetic concern and your rationality knew that very well, you were wasting your emotions and tears on something that’ll never happen, a imaginary scenario at best. Your mother and father were taking longer than suspected with that odd trio of slayers. It made you horrified that Rui would have to step in and risk his life to defend the family he spent so long building
You didn’t want Rui to risk it for you. You love him so much that it hurts. You shed your sadness for him, rather he asks for it or not. On Rui’s side, he saw no reason to fear those slayers with a single ounce nor should the one so important to him. He is a Lower Moon, a member of the Twelve Kizuki that is actually much stronger than his rank indicates
The slayers should fear him and the fact they make such a mess of your gorgeous eyes and drip that mess all over your cute arachnid-styled kimono has veins growing all over Rui’s deathly pale skin as his hands slide down your face to cup your hands, holding them closer to his chest. Enabling you to feel his steady heartbeat, for the first time in his entire existence, he had a real heartbeat
Rui wasn’t going to leave you alone ever again and he wasn’t going anywhere until you are smiling and laughing again before him. Your happiness is his, your safety is his. You are his, his precious… forever
“Dokusha. Who made you cry like this? What is the problem. I demand you tell me every detail”
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sylvies-chen · 30 days
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top five moments of 6x02 ♡
OMG I CAN ONLY PICK FIVE?? OK LET’S GO:
lie detector (tim’s ily) — I think this moment is my favourite part of the episode by far, because first off you have the question about the bugs which was SOOOO cute and so encapsulating of chenford’s relationship that it had me giggling at my tv and twirling my hair lol. but then lucy takes the time to seek out confirmation of his love out of her own will, not because she needed to be proven right but because she wanted to hear it 🥹 and he immediately says yes! he loves her! we finally get to hear it and the lie detector shows it’s true and it’s just so gratifying for chenford fans to finally get this
cop cutie! cute and on duty! — GUYS I KNOW IT’S CORNY BUT HATERS WILL HATE, DADDY COP IS A BANGER!! this was so funny and such an earworm— and to those saying they thought it was an old episode when it opened on that scene, lemme just say SAME lol— but then to up the ante by pulling out the choir as if literally singing for and rejoicing the 100th episode was just so perfect and classic rookie: a little hokey but well executed and fun and all around heartfelt. 10/10 I need it on spotify right now.
if I ain’t got you by alicia keys (lucy’s ily) — okay I’m scared some of you chenford girlies are going to tar and feather me for not putting this at number 1 or 2 but HEAR ME OUT: I’ve expressed my problems about this temporary argument solution!! I think this whole scene is so gorgeous for so so so many reasons: lucy and tim dancing as a couple for the first time, the matching outfits, the kiss, ugh all PERFECT I love my babies 🥹❤️ that being said, I don’t like how so much of the resolution/peace between them relied on tim being completely in the wrong when I feel like it’s a more nuanced issue than that and denies lucy any opportunity to critically reflect on her own feelings about this. and also, it does seem weird to me that she wouldn’t have said ‘I love you’ back to tim when he first said it?? they smile at each other but then they’re back to looking awkwardly from afar at the wedding (prior to this scene of course) and so I’m a bit uneasy at the implication (which the writers did not necessarily add on purpose) that lucy’s ily depended on him admitting he was wrong in any way. but idk maybe I’m just being too nitpicky here, I still ADOREEE THIS SCENE FOREVER AND EVER I want it on my grave k thanks
tim down on one knee — need I say more?? this imagery of him on his knee with the ring staring up at lucy was a glimpse at chenford’s future and it was such cute teasing, god I love writers and showrunners when they add messy fun little teaser moments like this! plus tim totally kicked ass, all covered in blood and ready to pass out, and ah, I do always say the best kind of lust is bloodlust 😌
bailan wedding vows — I actually cannot believe the day has come where a bailan moment is in my top 5 episode moments but these wedding vows showed me how the writers are finally able to articulate what works about them as a couple!! with someone as impressive and as versatile and skilled as bailey, I think literally any other man would feel threatened or emasculated, but nolan really is just Some Guy™️ who’s really into her and obsessed with her and is very sturdy ground for her to come home to. I wish we dove more into her past as a survivor of abuse because I feel like that previous situation informs so much of why she loves john even though, let’s be real: she’s eons above his league holy shit it’s not even funny how out of his league she is. but also she could never be with anyone else! she really just loves him and they have such a nice soft relationship which the wedding really sold me on. I liked it a lot even though I had my qualms about her and him as individuals and together.
honourable mention to wade and luna because I love them so much y’all they are adorable!! anyways, here’s my list and lmk if you agree
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glitxhwayventeen · 2 months
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The Smart One: Part One
Yeonjun
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Characters: Yeonjun x female reader
Warnings: mentions of- violence, death, drinking, smoking, sleeping around (but it’s all consensual so i don’t see a problem with it. But i know some people do so TW ig), name calling (but they don’t actually mean it and none of them think they do, they’re loving nicknames), crying, pining/angsty love, Yeonjun being dumb basically poor baby
Author’s Note: Ahhh so I’m back. I hope no one’s too made i started a new addition to the werewolf/college universe but i really think these stories are gonna be nice and get me excited to start writing again so here’s to hoping! Let me know if anyone wants to be added to the tag list for any of the characters!
Please remember that all of these chapters and the content within them are a work of fiction! They’re just for fun/entertainment!
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The Smart One: Part Two, Part Three, Part Four
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Yeonjun never understood his brothers. He never understood half of the weird shit they did. He never understood their constant need to be around one another. And he certainly never understood why they were so eager to find their mates.
So as he sat on the couch listening to the pup of their pack argue with the alpha over what their future mates must be like at the kitchen table, he couldn’t help but roll his eyes while he scrolled through his phone in boredom.
“Hyung, there’s no way you’ll get a mate that’s like you. That relationship could never last! Two control freaks don’t make for a happy couple!”
“Surprised you could do that much math! In fact, you better hope yours has half a brain because you’re too stupid to not have someone looking out for you for the rest of your life!”
Everyone in the pack knew that the youngest in the pack wasn’t always the smartest when it came to basic schooling and common sense. Hell, the only reason they found him and added him to the pack in the first place was because he had somehow managed to piss off a group of fifth graders who began chasing him, a high school senior, down the eldest’s home street.
So Yeonjun knew the alpha wasn’t entirely wrong for insinuating Kai probably needed a mate with a head on their shoulders. But that didn’t mean he liked the topic at hand to begin with.
“I can take care of myself you know hyung.”
Yeonjun didn’t like the idea of mates. He didn’t like the idea of signing away everything that made them themselves to some stranger werewolf instincts told them they would love forever. He didn’t like the idea that his brothers were all trying as hard as they were to find theirs.
And he sure as shit didn’t agree with wanting to give up the lifestyle he had gotten used to over the years just because his stupid wolfy brain would be too obsessed with some innocent unsuspecting human to think straight.
“You literally wouldn’t be able to tie your shoes if it weren’t for us but whatever Huening.”
Who would want to be tied down like that? Who would want to have to answer to some random person for the rest of their life that stupid fate set them up with? Who would want a life that basically took away everyone’s free will and choices? Not Yeonjun, that’s for sure.
“That was one time! And it was only because I couldn’t find my contacts hyung!”
At that point in their conversation, Yeonjun had pretty much tuned them out. His brain was laser focused on what finding a mate would mean for him in particular. And the thought started making his stomach churn with unease.
The eldest in the pack was someone who liked going to parties. If he had a mate chances are they wouldn’t want him to go to parties or go out and have a good time with his friends.
He was someone who liked to drink and smoke pretty regularly to handle the stress of his everyday life. The pack was friends with other packs in the area, and let’s just say more than a few of them had mates that were heavily against their mate doing any smoking or drinking.
Yeonjun also liked to hook up with random people at the parties he went to, some even on a regular basis because it was a situation that benefited everyone involved. He knew the second he got a girlfriend that favorite pass time of his would be over and it would become the center of all their arguments, which is one of the reasons why he never had one. He couldn’t even imagine the issues it would cause him if he had a mate.
As the eldest stayed seated adorned in his usual black and leather get up, he couldn’t help but think of another rather unsettling complication finding a mate would cause him if he somehow did manage to warm up to the idea of having one: bringing a fragile little human into his rather chaotic and dangerous life.
Sure he had plenty of human friends, they had to stay unsuspecting to the outside world after all. And it wasn’t even that he thought less of them or had them for appearances sake. Yeonjun did genuinely like, and even at times envy, his human friends. But none of them knew half the shit that really went on in his life.
They didn’t know that he wore brown colored contacts to hide his naturally golden eyes. They didn’t know that his roommates were actually his packmates. They didn’t know he had to be locked up for almost a whole week twice a year to keep from fucking everything and everyone that crossed his path during his rut.
And they definitely didn’t know that if he ever let his emotions go unchecked and got too mad he could phase and hurt, possibly even accidentally kill, the people around him.
Yeonjun had known he had to take all that into consideration during every interaction he had with his human friends. But he had never really thought about what falling in love with one would mean for them.
Being a mate meant being part of his pack. His pack of very kind, albeit very dumb, brothers and their future mates. It meant always having to be tethered to them because Yeonjun was no matter how big in size it would get or how rocky a relationship the person would have with them.
Being a mate meant having to keep a secret, a huge one, from all friends and family outside of said pack in order to protect everyone. It meant his mate would have to watch everything they said to be sure they never let anything slip out.
And being a mate meant being put in dangerous, possibly even deadly, situations. It meant that his mate would have to always be on the look out for werewolf hunters trying to use them for leverage.
It meant they’d have to be conscious of rivaling or vengeful packs/rogue wolves who’d have a bone to pick with theirs for one reason or another. It meant they’d have to get wrapped up with other packs and their business because Yeonjun’s never turned others away when they needed help.
It even meant that he could hurt his mate himself if he wasn’t careful while phasing or using too much strength when their weaker human body couldn’t handle it.
Being linked to him meant being linked to a revolver with one bullet in the chamber randomly firing, you just never knew when it would go off. How could Yeonjun ever be okay with doing that to someone who never had a say in the matter to begin with because of the feelings they would catch due to his werewolf instincts?
“Jjun hyung,” Soobin’s voice suddenly broke through Yeonjun’s thoughts, “I need you to drive Hyuka to the library for his tutoring session today.”
He couldn’t help but pull his brow together in annoyance, “And why the fuck would I do that?”
Yeonjun couldn’t lie and say he meant for his question to come out as rude as it did. But he truthfully didn’t see why he needed to be the one to take him. Sure the pup of the pack couldn’t drive yet, but others in the pack had recently gotten their licenses and could take him.
“Because I’m in charge and because I’m asking you politely to do it,” Binnie spoke hurriedly as he shoved some books into his already overflowing bag, clearly rushing to leave the house for, what the eldest could only assume based on his polished appearance anyways, work.
Yeonjun didn’t really think that was a good enough answer. Why couldn’t Beomgyu take the younger boy? Or Taehyun? Why did it have to be him?
He drove a really nice motorcycle that, even though it could fit two people on it easily he didn’t like other people getting close to because they could scratch or dent it. Not to mention Hueningkai was absolutely terrified of riding it as he so lovingly pointed out when he deemed it a “coffin on two wheels.”
So Yeonjun let out a dry chuckle, “Nicely? Sounds more like a command if you ask me. Huening failing out of school is not my responsibility. Besides someone else will have to do it anyways because I have school myself sorry.”
While he knew that statement was a selfish thing to say, it was also true. If he could manage to get by in school with a hope and a prayer, why couldn’t the youngest of their little family learn to do it?
Even when other people did try to “help” him, they just made him feel even more stupid than he already knew his parents thought he was. So Yeonjun didn’t even fully see the point of the pup going to tutoring anyways. It was a waste of money in his eyes.
The alpha pinched the bridge of his nose, clearly agitated and over the fight he hadn’t even had with the eldest yet, “Jesus fuck Yeonjun-ah, I don’t have time for this. Tweedle dee and tweedle dumbass’s timing of their classes today won’t let them do it and i have work. We both know you’re just gonna blow your classes off today like you do nearly everyday so you can do it you just don’t want to.”
Soobin sighed jaggedly as he ran a hand through his messy hair in an attempt to steady his breathing, “But if that’s what it takes then yes, it’s a command then. Take his ass to his tutoring so he doesn’t fail out of school. I dont know about you but i don’t want his sisters to come and freak out on us for being bad influences on him again.”
Even though he heard muffled snickers coming from Taehyun and Beomgyu sitting nearby, all Yeonjun could do at that point was throw a harsh scowl Soobin’s way.
He couldn’t disobey an alphas order anymore than he could stop breathing. And he couldn’t necessarily say the alpha was wrong in saying he was just planning on not going to his classes today anyways. Sometimes he really hated being a werewolf.
“Looks like you’re stuck with me hyung!” Kai put his arm over the eldest’s shoulder with a squeeze, a cheshire grin happily plastered on his face.
“You know I hate you right?” Yeonjun growled as he got up to grab the keys to his motorcycle, much to the sudden mortification of the younger boy.
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A whiff of old books and ancient dust seemed to flow through the air as the two boys stepped through the double door to their college’s library.
Yeonjun hated the smell, even if the smell today wasn’t as putrid as usual for some reason. It still smelled old and moldy like it normally did, just… less moldy and old than he had known it to be previously.
He hated the goodie goodie people sitting at their tables studying who no doubt thought they were better than him. Just because he wasn’t book smart and could barely scrape by in his classes didn’t mean they should have the right to judge him.
And he definitely hated having to be anywhere near the grouchy librarian who always told him he was too loud to be there. Why be quiet and tame and hide how he felt when everyone else got to do what they wanted to all the time anyways?
“You just had to flunk calculus didn’t you?” Yeonjun rhetorically asked his brother under his breath, his nose automatically scrunching up at the foreign aromas around him, slightly catching a whiff of someone’s delicious smelling cherry perfume that almost had him forgetting why he was there in the first place. Almost.
But Huening paid him no mind to the sulky boy as his eyes began to scan the rather large and echoey room for his rather small and quiet tutor.
The eldest knew that Hyuka had been doing sessions with you for a little over three months now and he’d say they had paid off substantially, his calculus grade went from a failing D to an above average B. Which was something none of his brothers had managed to help him do.
So, as annoyed as he was at his alpha for forcing him to take him to school, Yeonjun tried not to be too annoyed with the pup. At least he was putting in effort on something for once.
But that didn’t mean he had to like the place you two did your study sessions. It was literally the most cliche and depressing place ever.
“There she is!” Hueningkai practically squealed, his high pitched voice causing you to look up from the book that was in front of you at your table with a small, though obviously very shocked, smile.
While Kai was just happy rambling about what they were going to work on that day and why the session would take so long as he was getting tutored by someone he considered a friend, Yeonjun was in his own little world.
From the moment his eyes turned to you as you looked up to shyly greet his younger brother from afar, everything else around him faded away.
All the students mumbling around him were tuned out when he quickly realized the sweet cherry smell hanging in the air was linked to you.
All the sounds of chairs being pushed in and out from the tables scattered about went mute as your beautiful curls residually bounced from moving your head to look up.
All the passerbyers around you practically floated out of his line of sight as your dimpled smile radiated a warmth bright enough to reach even the coldest person in the room.
Before his current interaction with you, Yeonjun had only heard about you from his younger brother’s constant babbling about his new tutor friend. Soobin, Taehyun, or Beomgyu had always been the one to drop him off because the eldest never wanted to and was never home.
He never cared enough about something so trivial to listen to Kai’s mentions of you, which was something he was regretting in the present.
He didn’t remember much, but what did manage to sneak it’s way into his brain made sense. He had once told Yeonjun something about you being a foreigner. You definitely didn’t look as Korean as the people around you, yet you still managed to outshine every single person in the building by a landslide.
The younger boy had once spoken about how shy you were and, based on how your cheeks lit up with hues of pink and red once you saw that Kai hadn’t come alone, he guessed his assessment of you was correct.
Huening had also said something about you being very polished and conservative in appearance. Which was something exuded in your outfit choice: a pastel yellow cardigan that brought out the glow in your ebony skin and an olive green under vest that fit your rather curvy body perfectly.
And from what Yeonjun could see just under the open library table, you had a pleated skirt composed of similar colors and white laced tights that matched your headband.
To say you were the most gorgeous person the elder boy had ever seen was an understatement. All he wanted to do was go over, pull you up from your chair, and kiss your glossed lips until you both ran out of breath.
Sure it would be a little difficult to maneuver, Yeonjun could tell by referencing the size of everything around you that you were quite a bit shorter than him, probably by a lot actually. But he would still be able to lift you with ease.
In fact, you would probably be just the right size for him to be able to wrap your legs around his waist and walk around comfortably. Which would mean that walking you over to the nearest lockable room wouldn’t be a probl-
But before he could finish his line of thinking, you lifted your delicate hand in the air to signal Kai to come over to you and suddenly the panic of the situation truly set in, causing Yeonjun to react on instinct.
Heart nearly pounding out of his chest from the shock of having seen you, he quickly threw himself to the side of the nearest bookcase to hide himself from your view. Much to the confusion of his younger brother who dutifully followed suite in order to see what was going on.
“Yeonjun-ah,” Kai hesitantly spoke to get the elder boy’s attention, “Is everything okay?”
No, nothing was okay. Five seconds ago his life was great. Five seconds ago he was Yeonjun, the guy who smoked nearly a pack a day. Five seconds ago he was Yeonjun, the guy who always had a drink in his hand to take the edge off.
Five seconds ago he was Yeonjun, party boy who slept with whoever he wanted whenever he wanted without a care in the world. Five seconds ago he was Yeonjun, a normal human being.
Now he was Yeonjun, the werewolf whose senses were going into hyperdrive over some girl he had only seen once for half a second.
“T-That girl’s your tutor?” The elder boy asked as he worked on catching his breath, deeply gulping back a crack he knew his voice was desperate to let out.
Huening tilted his head in confusion and gripped the strap of the bag that was thrown over his shoulder a little tighter in discomfort, “Yeah… that’s ____… why…?”
Scanning the pup’s expression, Yeonjun could tell he was getting suspicious of what was going on. He knew the second the youngest understood what was going on he’d run an tell everyone in the pack.
After that there’d be no going back. After that everything would change. But he couldn’t let that happen.
He couldn’t lose what little life he had found for himself. He couldn’t let go of the few things he had left to make him happy. And he couldn’t get you caught up in a mess that he had created, not when he finally saw you. Not when he could tell you were a happy sweet innocent person who deserved a hell of a lot better than he could give you.
Yeonjun knew he’d have to respond to his brother in a matter of seconds. He knew he was acting weird and that the youngest would come to his own conclusions.
But he still had one hope: no one else in the pack had gone through it yet, so no one knew 100% what the signs really were in real life. They only heard second hand accounts from their friends in other packs. So there was still a chance he could hide it. You still had a chance.
“No- No reason,” Yeonjun did his best to pull himself together and recreate his shattered normal cool guy persona, even though his heart was still in his throat and it was causing him to become light headed, “Just wondering. That’s all. What time do you need picked up?”
While Kai didn’t seem to buy his answer fully. Probably because he could physically hear his brother’s pulse racing.
But he at least let it go soon enough when he heard you softly call his name, “I need a ride back at 4. I gotta go, thanks for the ride hyung!”
With that, the pup went off in a hurry to meet you at your table, giving you a quick hug and placing his things on the table for you to get your session started.
And while Yeonjun’s immediate instinct to his internal decision to stay away from you was to need to whimper at your close proximity, he shakily began to walk to the library’s exit so he could get back to his bike.
It felt like his heart was crushing in two. It felt like his world was crumbling around him. It felt like he was slipping away and that the only thing that could bring him back to earth was you. But he refused.
As he sped off on his motorcycle at full speed, tears began to slide down his face. He made a promise to himself and to you to keep you away from him, no matter how much it hurt. It was better for everyone that way.
He wasn’t meant to be in relationships. He wasn’t meant to love people unconditionally. He couldn’t, he had no frame of reference to even mimic to show you he was willing to try.
He couldn’t be a boyfriend, he physically didn’t know how to be one. And he wasn’t about to force you to teach him while also putting you in mortal danger because of his pack.
Yeonjun wondered if he should’ve felt bad for taking the choice away from you. After all, that’s why he hated the idea of mating in the first place.
But nobody should have to make that choice. Nobody should have to choose between a quiet life with someone you could never love right and a dangerous life that may be cut short because of someone you love madly. Nobody should have to feel guilty for unintentionally killing someone if they rejected them. Nobody should have to be put through it, least of all you.
You’d be safer and happier this way. And he could continue on living for his pack because you wouldn’t have verbally denied him.
He didn’t like the idea of mates and what they stood for. He hated that they took away free will. But as cheesy as it sounded, seeing you for the first time changed everything he felt earlier in the day.
He saw you and he immediately wanted to stop partying. He saw you and would’ve instantly quit smoking and drinking if that’s what you wanted. He saw you and felt the need to send out messages to all his fuckbuddies letting them know it was over between them.
Because all he could think about was the future he could have with you. The stereotypical one people always referenced with the nice big house with a white picket fence he would’ve helped put up himself.
One where you two had a stupidly expensive wedding where you looked beautiful walking down the aisle toward him.
A future where you had normal human jobs you came home from at the end of the day and complained to each other about while making dinner.
A life where you had two kids: a boy who looked and unfortunately acted just like himself and a girl that luckily looked and acted just like you.
Now that he had met you, he wanted you to be together. He wanted you to be his mate, to be his. He was fine with his free will being taken away if it meant he was able to spend a lifetime with you. But he couldn’t put you through that.
And driving away from you when he could’ve just gone to introduce himself to you and ask you out was single handedly the hardest thing he had ever done. And his life was only gonna get harder.
(Edited 2/5/2024)
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im not even a huge fizzarozzie stan, but why are you so obsessed with warping the ship into being this huge dumpsterfire of toxicity that fizz needs to leave in order to reunite with his “soulmate” blitzo?
“Ozzie doesn’t understand him” bruh Ozzie is literally the only person who understands him he said so himself. And even the person who you’re closest toowill be kinda perplexed if the guy you hated for 10+ years suddenly becomes your bestie.
“They’ll be taking some time apart and might take a look at this codependency issue.” - lol no way viv’s doing that lol shes going all in on them being a duo. Like dont get me wrong I think they’re a bit too uwu joined at the hip for me but it’s not this horrible ship where fizz is kept in a gilded birdcage forever.
“I think karma will hit him and he’ll get his own version of what he put Moxxie through. Specifically Asmodeus, Fizz to a lesser extent.” in a perfect world I’d actually hope this would happen but considering Viv portrayed all of Hell as fangirls for them, this is 1000% Not Happening.
”Fizz definitely isn’t his first ever love, if the demonology is anything to go by. The story of Sarah in the Book of Tobit is Asmodeus’ most famous story so to exclude that would be a disservice to the character.” Viv spoils her plot points through Twitter likes, she confirmed Tobit/all demonology stories aren’t canon to Helluva unless directly stated :/ and she’s liked many versions of tweets basically saying Ozzie has never had romantic feelings ever until Fizz and never will again after he dies.
and Blitzø is his own brand of fucked up, even more so than Fizz and Ozzie combined. No way in hell those two would work out without some SERIOUS therapy on Blitzø’s end.
I think you actually clearly are a big fizzarozzie fan? you’re blowing the one time someone criticises the ship out of proportion, getting defensive, and using dramatic words like “obsessed” “warping” and “soulmate” I’m literally the 1% here. There are lots of shipping spaces you can go instead. The way the fandom treats this ship like a fragile gem shows it could do with some looking at. When people refuse to let you critique something that’s how you know it’s hiding some problems.
Who is warping anything by just noticing the events that happen and interpreting them in a way you don’t agree with?
Oz misunderstands him more than he understands. They bicker, they miscommunicate, and in the end they try again. and it isn’t all about blitz, because Oz never understood why he needed to compete in the contest at the start of Oops, he doesn’t notice fizz hiding things from him, he doesn’t listen to fizz when he worries that eyes are around, and confesses his love without Fizz fully agreeing to it. Sure Fizz hugs him or laughs it off but can’t they have some agreement on when it’s a secret and when it isn’t? He doesn’t understand Fizzs identity crisis, his need for approval from mammon, his past, any of it.
Viv also likes Crimson x Chaz fanart, art of ValAngel and Vox being a couple, art of Fizz dying, art of him being immortal, art of characters dating ocs. Art of her own self inserts, art of Blitz shape shifting into a dragon, art of Blitz and Fizz having reciprocated love, art of Alessio being Moxxies stepdad, Etc etc. That’s not enough to go on.
“The first and last time he’ll ever experience love” that is just plain weird. And obsessive. Not to mention bad writing. I’ve never heard anyone talk like that. He’s way too possessive of Fizz. He has to live his entire life with Asmodeus and die in his arms in his tower where’s he’s all alone? I hope not. That’s almost worse than him being made an immortal imp.
“She’s going all in on them being a duo” what are you talking about. Like what does this mean. She also said a main character might die and some of them don’t get happy endings.
What do you mean it’s 1000% not happening? Denial much? It already did in S2E6, with the article, the way the staff negatively react, the fact mammon said he’ll regret revealing it? The people at the show are literally Fizzarolli’s fandom, safe to say they aren’t everyone.
All demonology is not canon is just a straight up not factual statement, she makes constant references to demonology. His design is inspired by it, his apparent disapproval of monogamy is inspired by it, why would his biggest story not be referenced whatsoever? Isn’t it possible that Ozzie had his heart broken before and that’s why he’s afraid? Dang. Chill out.
As for your last paragraph, I think you just hate Blitz, ignore the fact that he’s going through development, and need to chill out. Pump the breaks a lil. Soulmates don’t exist.
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---------------Malleus Draconia----------------------------- -Called him Tsunotarou/Hornton for the longest time -Vil,surprisingly, told me his actual name -despite being a ghost who’s supposed to reside and be found mostly in his own wing, he’s actually mostly founded in the woods outside my house -i did some digging to this guy and all i see are legends -malleus was cruel and cunning individual -he ruled the land with a iron fist and would punish anyone getting in his way -i asked him about it to which he only made him said -”even now stories. The only history they see of me is only filled with blood and brimstone” -he tells his own story and the many names he has been called. -over the years even after death, people seek any means into destroying him   -i asked him what made him bite the dust (and then explaining that i'm asking him how he died as he doesn't know who Queen is.) -he told me he placed a curse on these grounds which cost him his life -whatever ritual he did permanently made him part of this castle of a wing -though,especially after what happened to my door, i don’t underestimate the guy -but he acts like a complete and total sweet heart -unlike azul who half of the time he’s most likely faking, he’s completely genuine -but i would say. Possessive should be his middle name -literally would not like for me to leave at all -i sometimes accidentally overhear conversations between lilia and him about some diabolical plans to lock me away or finding out some elaborate way to get an attachment. -i’m hoping still i don’t have to figure out what he’s like when he doesn't get his way (Aka; me not consenting to have an attachment.)
-----------------------Silver------------------------------ -that explains why there’s so much wildlife -something about this guy literally makes him the embodiment of every disney princess -he’s also a little sleeping beauty -not only he has a pretty face but, he’s prolonged to sleep spells -he says he always had this problem as long as he could remember -he sometimes pops out of nowhere and i blame lilia and malleus for this behavior -an illness is what got him unfortunately -he’s also very sweet. -he protects me from lilia’s cooking(forever grateful) -silver also comes to me for advice as lilia,unlike everyone else here, keeps up with modern times -i had to become his personal google translator so he can understand his father lilia -he’s also almost as gullible as kalim -I just happen to idly spin my broom stick around and now Silver thinks I know my way around weapons,specifically a sword. -he had a desire to train with me one day -i asked him what killed him and he told me he got caught with a plague -i felt bad for him for he’s genuinely pretty sweet -terrible way to go down that’s for sure -he told me that lilia saved his life with a last minute attachment,by choice, which allowed him to become a ghost -”sebek and others though i recovered fully due to this no knowing the truth that i was just a ghost like lord malleus and sir lilia”
------------Sebek Zigvolt------------------------------------ -loud -ill tempered -borderline racist -has a high distance for humans which is ironic to say the least -bost about his abilities often and love to talk about malleus -he is super smart and knows a lot in terms of core subjects -he actually doesn't walk around with that heavy armor 24/7 -very protective of his master and idolized him -i did ask him how he pasted which got him boating how he was slain by the hands of his master -i said i was sorry and he got angry and said “Being slain by Wakasama is the greatest honor a warrior could achieve” -i played along and apologize -he’s strong and often helps me with cleaning and arranging things -he expressed great happiness when i gifted him a old painting of malleus(who i bought from sam) -aside from the usual complaining and worshiping the grounds that malleus walks across, he’s really……obsessed with my demise -half of the time i can’t comprehend if he hates me or wants me to become a ghost like them -i mean i’m human and he doesn't like me much but he always is present and advocates with any idea on how to get me to turn into one of them…
--------Lilia Vanrouge------------------------------- -a cryptic old man with the personality and body of a young man in his early twenties - i also feel like he really wants me dead, yet he treats me like he’ve been best friends for the longest time -likes to tell interesting stories of his youth and his time with malleus -he actually gains a camera at some point in time and took pictures which weren’t half bad. -there is a painting somewhere in this wing were a old full body portrait of lilia back when he was army general(still tying to find but he keeps actively moving the dang painting 😤) -based on this i can confidently assume that they have been alive for over 700 years -he said i wasn't far off yet never elaborated further -he makes many,and i mean many, attempts to make me feel comfortable in the Diasomnia wing -this involves in locking me in the wing possibly taking the same idea from jamil’s attempts -bats sometimes flutter around him which ended up being one more creature to take care of -for some odd reason he’s more connected to modern day news ,topics and trends. -he has requested to have a laptop but the way the wing is set up, he has to used electrical outlets from other wings -which then he elightens me of the capacity of the ghost that resides here -this is when i figured out about their paranormal magic and energy usage -this explains on how malleus was able to travel to the woods outside the main house and how some ghost actual know each other -for example leona,who hates him, and vil knows about malleus
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mildly arbitrary rating of every gundam i have watched so far
in order of me starting them
witch from mercury: 7.5/10. we’re never gonna get confirmation of people’s various theories that this show was originally planned for 50 episodes and i’ve also heard that the showrunner’s series tend to be kind of just Like This, but gwitch has a lot of missed potential mostly focused on 1. its seemingly incomplete worldbuilding and 2. the fact that the arcs of much of its secondary cast (guel, nika, shaddiq) appear to jump over a few steps or just are missing something. on the other hand, the arcs of its primary cast (particularly suletta) are great, suletta herself is a top-tier protagonist, the tertiary cast is one of the best i’ve seen in gundam (i love earth house), and sulemio is probably objectively the best gundam romance even if i’m pretty sure it’s not my personal favorite.
gundam 0079: 9.5/10. the GOAT. you know how it is. every single person who got into gundam via gwitch like i did but still hasn’t gone back to watch 0079 is doing themself a total disservice. you watch this show and both everything about mecha and everything about modern anime in general suddenly clicks completely in your brain. everyone who has been obsessed with char aznable and amuro ray for the last 40+ years has been completely right. i think its only big flaws are some of its treatment of women (though later shows like ZZ have way more glaring issues there) and its shortened length, but frankly if you hadn’t told me it got cut short seven episodes early i would not have noticed, because its finale may be one of my all time favorite television finales ever. just go watch it. i’m sitting you down right now
zeta gundam: 8.5/10. a really ideal sequel in a lot of ways that are remarkable considering the gap of time between it and 0079. focuses on new characters who reflect on the last show while still being their own things, and brings back the cast of the last show in ways that feel like they make sense while still being unexpected and making you look at things in a new light. deeply iconic and atmospheric in ways that are a little overwhelming at times; it is a dour show. has way more glaring flaws for me than a lot of the fandom brings up though, mostly in its pacing and its villains. this show has an entire middle section i barely remember and do we need both the four and rosamia storylines? and frankly i do not care about the titans that much (other than sarah).
zz gundam: 8.5/10. zz defender crop is here. please ignore everyone who tells you that you can skip zz. zeta’s other half in ways that aren’t just “it started two weeks after zeta in real life”- it also fixes zeta’s pacing, provides a welcome counterpoint to its dire tone, and its villains are literally just improved versions of zeta’s (glemy is better scirocco! haman is a top tier gundam villain in general!). i think the middle section of this show- the entire time they are on earth- is my favorite section of UC gundam, or at least tied with 0079’s ramba ral and finale arcs. i do think the dip in quality people say it has in the last arc is true. also probably has the largest Woman Problem in any gundam i’ve seen so far (i have a threshold for bad women writing so high it is practically antifeminist but unfortunately emary breaks that threshold, what the hell is up with everything about emary) even though i love some of those women very much. secretly has the boldest and most thematically interesting gundam finale so far. ple forever
char’s counterattack: 8/10. as i’ve said before: a gorgeous film about two men being so divorced that thousands of people die. genuinely iconic and also very bold but i often find myself torn as to whether i want tomino to be more explicit about what he’s saying here. we could have saved ourselves years of “was char right??” debates but then again, it’s the spirit of cca to claim that only you have the right take about cca. beyond the time is a good song
gundam unicorn: 7.5/10. politics here are often confusing and messy, and i think it suffers from its core characters (banagher and mineva) and their relationship not getting the time they need. on the other hand, i’m interested in what it says about the worldbuilding of UC (even if i think it didn’t execute it that well) and its secondary cast is great; i did nearly cry about marida and zinnerman so that sure works. full frontal does not bug me nearly as much as he bothers most people although i think he has the same “needs more time to cook” issue banagher and mineva have. i even kind of like what they do with riddhe and i usually dislike that archetype. in other words: i would have been nuts for the forty episode (and properly paced) version of this show. marida forever
gundam hathaway: 7/10?? hard to tell here without having the next two movies. was a bit hard to get invested in the conflict near the end as we met many characters who are not developed yet. but the relationship between the core trio here is intriguing and i like hathaway as a protagonist a lot.
the rest of my “gundams i am most interested in list” is victory -> turn a -> 00 -> iron blooded orphans so that’s the next four shows. after…who can say
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preface: i was writing a list of my headcanons for funsies and got completely derailed with angsty grimmons shit that needs to be scooped out of that post because it’s stupid long. so here
grif worked in honolulu a couple years after hs graduation until kai was old enough (17) he felt he could leave. did a year at university before realizing he’s smart enough to be admitted to cornell but not to get the scholarship he realistically needs to not be in crushing debt on graduation, and also there’s not nearly enough regimentation to college life to prevent him from rotting in bed paralyzed by “oh my god i don’t have Responsibilities That Need To Be Done Right Now for the first time in forever and idk what to do now” and executive dysfunction. went through basic and stationed on the doomed outpost. That Whole Thing (a polite way of saying “sneaking off for a nap on duty, sleeping through a massacre, and waking up to find literally everyone else dead”) was the nail in the coffin that pretty much shot his last shred of motivation and hope to shit, and based on his behaviour and psych eval afterwards (best summarized as “learned helplessness that everything is shit always and he’s useless and never gonna be able to help anyone so 👍 fuck everything fuck everyone just try to eke some hedonistic joy out of life before you die”) he was reassigned to the sim soldiers.
meanwhile simmons tried to do university several times and had to drop out for mental health reasons (a very polite way of putting “rapid spiral into absolute disaster every time”. it leaves room for giving him the benefit of the doubt that this was a proactive “ah i should take care of myself and this is not working for me :) #selfcare #therapy” decision. this is not benefit of the doubt that anyone who knows him would extend.).
I go back and forth on whether to roll with the “that one throwaway line with a suspiciously specific hypothetical of being in a unit that was stranded and had to eat their dog to survive” thing or just say he was assigned straight to sim troopers. on the one hand, i really love grif and simmons having a parallel immensely traumatic first assignment that made them both Worse in kinda similar kinda opposite ways in line with the ways they were each already fucked up
(grif “life is inherently a garbage fire. i am useless. all i can do is look out for myself and save my own hide by absolute never trusting any authority, refusing to get attached to the other fuckers around here (they’d hate me anyways so just let them hate me), and obsessively hoarding any access to food and shelter and comfort because Maslow said I can’t work on health or belonging or esteem until i do :/ yeah i know, sorry, i’ve got a doctor’s note from him right here.” vs simmons “my life is a garbage fire probably because everyone around me is an idiot fucking something up but also because i’m not trying hard enough. i’m sure if i keep Performing The Maladaptive Behaviours even harder they will work and i THEN will feel respected and powerful and loved. you see you just have to keep repressing every feeling so you can suck up to anyone you detect a whiff of Authority Figure on no matter how little you actually respect them, and follow EVERY RULE and work and work and work. and you had better abandon any compunctions about things like eating a dog you loved or backstabbing a friend for brownie points from the CO who hates him or Literally Murdering your CO for a promotion. and if you ever stop desperately trying, fighting dirty looking out just for yourself, and instead just sit still for a moment and enjoy sincere zero-ulterior-motives connections with people, you will probably definitely immediately die of starvation or exposure (it is a metaphor you see. of exposure to the elements while stranded without resources. for the agonizing exposure of allowing yourself to be known.)”)
on the other hand i’m like whoa now. this boy’s got enough problems we really don’t need to be giving him any more or we’re really never gonna pry him free of the woobiefication fics.
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SPOILERS FOR CHAPTER 70 PN BELOW Lets fucking go cap! ok it’s the weekend, I have my own writing block and I finally finished my fucking assignments and handed them in, I’m practically free forever!! (exams loom in the distance, i willfully ignore their shadow)
I’ve started by reading from chapter 67 just to bring myself back into the mindset (and because they are hype as all hell chapters), this is faster than starting my like 7th re-read.
I even made myself a cuppa to really settle in, the vibes are immaculate, I played Bizet Carmen while reading this time
The dichotomy of Juleka:
I don't want to hurt anyone!
Extreme violence is efficient. 
The fact that we didn’t get ladybug trying to kiss rena when she was shot by dark cupid is tragic
This time i listened to shoot to thrill by ACDC, and Burn it down by awolnation for the badass parts
Anyway finally onto Fei, that only took me two hours (i briefly wrote shit so yknow, a good time!)
Fei’s tragic backstory be upsetting frfr, Like damn brother you watched your dad die in front of you? Do you need a blanket and a hug?
The tone change from “My life ended when my dad died.” to “summer was awesome!!” made me snort horrible it’s not funny- but it kind of is-
Oh my god Juleka got a break for weeks AND WE DIDN’T GET TO SEE IT??? Tragedy. (i’m kidding, so happy that she got a break <33)
Rose thirsting over Panthera in a crop top is too funny- you just know if it was anyone else Juleka would be pouting like “damn what do they have that I don’t?” 
Oop her hands still kinda fucked, curiouser and curiouser. I wonder if she has tried to practice her secondary power. Which rq, it was SUCH bullshit that LB gets two and the cat miraculous gets one in canon, so happy you retconned it
OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OH MY GOD OK CAP I AM SO HYPE HYPE SHE GOT A MODELING INTERNSHIP?????? Like sure cause nepotism but i’ve been wanting to see Juleka try out modeling in a real environment for ages cause like thats something she is interested in yknow and i just- 
Augh, hype as hell. And an excellent reason for her to be going to Shanghai, I applaud your problem solving to fit Juleka into the show's narrative! I applaud it always, but this one was more difficult than usual methinks
I have pizza now it is 8pm
Anyways; NOO GABEY BABY DON’T BE EVIL VIBES TO JULEKA SHE’S JUST A LITTLE THING
Oh my poor awkward Juleka… Gabriel wasn’t helping but this is so funny, dude you vowed to kill this girl like a month ago open your eyes
I NEED juleka’s modeling arc to be a thing. Idk how into detail you went but i’m hoping for some i’m rabid i’ve been waiting for this for like 3 years
Oh airports SUCK i feel her anxiety so much, poor thing… i forced my friend to share her location with me one time so we could stalk each other, we never turned it off its kinda funny
… why is Anarka banned from airports?? Being “a living weapon” is so vague.
Killing myself rose and juleka are so cute- and obsessed with each other- every hour is insane
I love Juleka instantly becoming a disaster on baby’s first flight
Juleka instantly being on high alert around gabriel is so real.
“Right,” Mr Agreste’s face didn’t twitch nor soften much in response, just nodded in understanding and turned back to stare forward. “The opening of this store is essential to the future of the Agreste Brand, you two. Opening it much sooner is very good news. There will be other fun times with your friends.”
Hardass, fuck off!!
Poker with literal chips made me laugh- adrien would be terrible at poker
Spiderman far from home? Nah, Panthera Noir far from home. 
“Oh that building looked fun to climb.” please Juleka unhinged parkour arc when?? Like people turn away from her and then look back and she’s up a tree. 
HELP “bye bye bag” is so real-
She’s so scary, but I wanna ask what her hair dye is. Do it. Please. I think you would factory reset Nathalie and she would answer on autopilot
Awkwardly playing chess is so real, also; yippee!! Adrien and Juleka bonding even more after the acting debacle!!
“Knights were cute. Little pony’s. Rose always wanted to move her knights cause they reminded her of unicorns.” please this is literally my strategy in chess, i just move them around and sometimes i win because i confuse people so badly
LB overthinking chess is hilarious. 
Adrien POV???
YOU CAN LEARN MANY THINGS FROM JULEKA SUCH; HOW TO BE A CAT. sorry i just had the mad idea that Adrien might find out this chapter… i would go insane if that turned out to be right
“Knowing info about me is pretty easy when your Wikipedia is super detailed” that’s fucking depressing. Adrien baby that’s a terrible way to get to know someone and not the same experience at all- 
Gaelic is a real language!! And a bitch to learn- I briefly tried with my dad and we both gave up, we’ll just stick with scots english
“Where do you disappear during akumas?” hard hitting question Adrien, ten points!
And is also making me high key suspicious about him finding out, the vibes are there
Nah, nah evil. Gabriel spend time with your son goddamnit 
GET HIS ASS JULEKA YES GIRL I LOVE YOU
The fact that she thinks she isn’t brave sometimes infuriates me, like babe i get your insecure but your brave as hell. 
QUEEN SHIT JUST WENT DOWN THERE
Juleka ripped him to shreds hell fucking yeah.
Wait. why did she give him the king? Hawkmoth called himself a king… cue the x-files music
Who the fuck is this asshole? Fei. Kick his ass, i command thee. 
Oh curious, she has burn scars from the fire, i like this detail. 
I feel like Fei and Juleka will get along, based on the ever present rage against one guy
She is being used augh
“Your father deserves to be avanged.”
“He does.” UMM GIRL YOUR DAD WOULD HATE THAT WEREN’T YOU THERE FOR THE FLASHBACK??
I want Cash to gtbnrvice this asshole is just using her desperation for information- 
I want Juleka to scare him into telling them, as Panthera, i think she would be quite good at that. 
Juleka is a feral beast who needs her outside time (i like how she wants to run on rooftops a lot its cute)
LORE LORE LORE LORE 
Excited. The prodigious?? Tell me more silly cheese guy
Ummm. i need the prodigious to show up, i can’t remember if thats what Fei has or if this is future future foreshadowing, this is exciting
New arc unlocked: freeing the Kwami from their jewelery or the curse. 
Also; yes sadistic plagg in the face of the guardians temple being destroyed, you go girl
Guardian temple? Swallowed whole? Sounds frightening. What a feast.  HA
Model Juleka yippee!
Help- adrien your advice is trash-
Ok existential conversation, yes girl let me spiral-
No sick girl Nathalie let adrien speak i want to know what he thinks of the best girlies-
Plagg wanting to take him under his wing- Juleka saying he wants to replace her with Adrien- ITS ALL COMING TOGETHER. 
Nah if you actually do have a reveal to Adrien i am going to go buckwild- cause either the vibes of the chapter got me but i think I guessed before any of the concrete foreshadowing
Ok sick girl nathalie actually has some sound advice and is being lovely to Juleka 
Yes Juleka use your strength
FEI STEALING CAMERAS??
Get her ass Juleka, or- politely bite her arm juleka?!?
Juleka is just brawling in an alleyway- like damn sister- watch out for bruises you might not be allowed to model-
Oh god what if she took plagg during some of their scrapping- actually, that would be fine. Juleka would just go insane and fight her
Juleka; desperately grasping for something familiar and bantering with Fei
Fei: what the fuck is wrong with her?
Nicest mugger I’ve ever met real and true
Wait
NOO JULEKA THEY WON’T LET YOU MODEL LIKE THIS
YEAH KICK. HER. ASS. 
Plagg stays with Juleka yippeee!!
Help their dynamic is so funny- exactly what i was wanting. 
Juleka would want to learn how to disappear even better than she already does wouldn’t she
Nah not Fei thinking “well that was fucking weird” while juleka is like “Oh that was cool” Juleka is so weirdgirl core i love her
Oh shit she stole marinettes stuff Tiki is there- 
Kick the asshole in the balls Fei, i command thee.
I am so happy Nathalie and Juleka have some sort of alliance, in my as to be written huge tragedy based on Nathalie Gabriel and Emily (which is extensively planned), I think Nathalie is more similar to Juleka as a teenager. 
Adrien and Nathalie interaction- “yes we- we did it” agyuhtvrinjfeok love her. 
Marinette blinked vacantly, standing in the back alley streets of Shanghai with a paling expression on her face and her entire inventory ghosted from her person.
WHERE THE HELL AM I!?
HELP SHE’S SO FUNNY- i love disaster marinette please-
and thats a wrap for Fei! i started this before five and it is now ten pm- i did other things though.
this was awesome cap, I look forward to the next chapters and I shall review them tomorrow!!!!!!
I hope you enjoyed <3
GLAD YOU ENJOYED!!!!!!
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verityswritings · 2 years
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Yandere Misa Amane Headcanons
Misa <3. Sorry if this is bad I haven’t written in forever.
TW: Yandere Content
Misa would be struck on you from the moment she met you. She would, completely seriously, believe that you both had a love at first sight moment when meeting each other. Misa was love struck on you from the minute she knew you existed.
If she didn’t have time to talk to you, she would memorize your name (because she saw it with her shinigami eyes) and buy information about you like she did with Light. As soon as she found out more information about you, Misa was so sure that you were perfect. So she had to pursue you of course!
She’d tried to set up a way for you two to met for real. Like she just happened to show up to a place you go all the time and just happened to strike up a conversation with you! You’d probably know something was up about the interaction because Misa isn’t exactly lowkey, but you wouldn’t be bold enough to ask or accuse her of anything.
From that moment on, everything is just kind of set in stone for you to be honest. Misa is your girlfriend now. She wouldn’t allow it to be any other way. She is, from the very beginning, extremely clingy. She wants to be with you quite literally 24/7 as often as possible.
If you’re insistent on rejecting her, then you can try your best to ignore or get rid of her, but it’s not gonna happen. Misa just thinks that you’re playing hard to get or are being shy, but there’s no need to worry! She’s not going anywhere!
Misa would be very obsessive over you. As your girlfriend, she should know about everything that’s going on and that has happened in your life! She’s willing to tell you anything about herself so it’s only fair that you do the same! If there is anything worth knowing about you, she wants to know it, even if it actually isn’t interesting. She thinks she needs to know you through and through.
She’d be quite possessive of you as well. You should never pay any special attention to any other girls, or to boys either. And what you consider ‘special attention’ is probably not what she thinks it is. Misa thinks that if you spend any number of time talking to someone when you don’t have to, then that’s too much time talking to that person. You should be paying attention to her!
Naïve is definitely a word that could describe Misa. She acts very childlike at times. And because of this, she can also be very jealous and delusional when it comes to you. She finds herself being jealous of the people around you. But she thinks that there’s nothing wrong with this and that you should just spend more time with her to fix this ‘problem’.
And if she thinks it’s needed, she’s willing to use the death note and kill for you. I doubt this is something she uses heavily because she doesn’t want to risk getting caught and taken away from you, but if need be it will be done. And on that note, I don’t think that Misa would do the eye deal a second time like she did in the anime if she has you in her life. It already pains her that she made the eye deal the first time before she met you and therefore has less time with you. She wouldn’t be willing to cut her time with you any shorter.
She’s a lovesick girl, there’s nothing to it. She lives and breathes for you, to put it simply. I also think she’d be the type to buy you expensive gifts for no apparent reason. Like she’d see some fancy outfit and immediately buy two sets so you and her could match. Or she’d see something she’d think you might want and she’s buying instantly. The over-gifting can honestly be quite overwhelming.
What’s the gender neutral version of housewife/husband? I don’t know, but that’s exactly what Misa wants you to be. I’m not sure if the anime ever like actually says Misa is rich. But I presume she is, especially after the time skip, considering her profession and all. So I definitely think she’d try to convince you to stay home while she works. You don’t need a job when she’s the breadwinner! I also think one of Misa’s biggest dreams would be to have kids with you, it doesn’t matter to her if you have them naturally or adopt. But I can also see her easily bending on this issue and letting the idea go if you really insist that you don’t want any.
Overall, I don’t think she’d be a terrible yandere to have, well at least as far as yanderes go. She truly adores you, but that is sometimes very overshadowed by her naïvety and her delusions. Along with her willingness to kill.
A/N: I didn’t expect this to get so long and I had trouble getting this all to blend together so sorry if it doesn’t all make sense together. 😭
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house-of-slayterr · 1 year
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What’s Eating You?:
Tw: Eating Disorder and other mentally Ill thingz™️
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It had been two days, two painfully long days since I woke up. Everything felt like the crescendo of a symphony, but instead of a mellow and bittersweet end, it crashes like a grand piano being throw from a rooftop. The sun was too bright, my skin was too cold, the silence was too loud. The earth smelt like Petrichor and iron and sickly sweet flowers and smog. But the taste, taste was what I was scared of.
It hurt, in every way imaginable. There was no time to sleep anymore. No more being blissfully unaware of my problems while my brain thought up puppies and movie nights and first kisses. No more turning off my brain for hours to espace the reality of my situation. Everything was painfully vivid now. Every memory of my life playing over and over on loop, every waking second of everyday, seemingly, now, until the rest of forever.
I never asked for this. No, I’m fact, I begged for the opposite. I begged to be let go, forgotten, hurled violently to the past, pushed to the back of your mind, in the deepest, darkest corner. But my pleas fell on deaf ears. Ironic right? Since you used to be able to hear my heart beat from a mile away, you could pick it out in the crowed and focus in on the sound. The way it made you feel, almost as if yours would beat again.
I was your obsession, and of course you were mine. Swapping one drug for another, replacing the hole in your heart, with the one I had still beating. Drinking in my scent as I drowned in your cologne. Tasting the sweat on my skin, as I craved your stone cold touch. It always cooled my fevered head, my flushed skin memorising the delicate touch of your fingertips. You trusted me with your biggest secret, so I shared with you mine.
We were so different back then. Some thought that was why we worked so well. But they didn’t really know, did they? They only saw us on the surface, the painstaking performance we put on every morning to satiate our primal need to fit in. To be normal… to be perfect at it. But the harder we tried, the stranger we seem. All eyes were on us. It was uncomfortable but we grew used to it back then.
But now the only eyes I could see were yours. Everyone else was off limits, taken away until I learned to behave. Your family’s fear of me lashing out in the ways that you sometimes do. They pity you, don’t you understand? They can’t seem to comprehend how hard it must be for you, to be you. They’ve never felt your hunger.
And not just in the literal sense. They’ve never witnessed the way you used to devour me with your eyes. Despite your lack of human reactions, your pupils would still dilate vastly. I never noticed it at first. Why would the hottest guy in school look at me? I was nothing special. I wasn’t pretty like other girls, with their tiny waists and sharp cheekbones. I didn’t have flawless hair, in fact mine was thin and shedding. My nails weren’t manicured, instead torn and bloody. And my clothes hide my body, as far away from peeping eyes as physically possible.
The skin beneath my eyes was a dark purple. The flesh their sunken in slightly, making my eyes look tired and devoid of consciousness. My lips were cracked, so dry they sometimes bled. And my teeth were yellow, despite the obscene amount of time I spent scrubbing them each day. Nobody else dared give me a second glance, so why would you.
But then you said hi. That two letter word that hardly showed of your sweet southern accent. And I said it back, with less conviction, but a strange interest. But I grew to love that accent, the one that whispered sweet nothings in my ear at the most inopportune times. Behind me in class, on the couch with your siblings, in my bed at night when my parents where just downstairs. Making me blush like a foolish woman. And I fell for it, hook, like and sinker. Bite on the hook, and being violently ripped from the world I knew. The world I was comfortable in.
I remember last summer. We spent most of it, just the two of us. We hung out with your siblings more at first, your parents concerned you couldn’t control yourself. Of course, I didn’t know that at the time. That’s when we shared our souls, you told me about your curse and how it made you suffer, and I explained my affliction. Opposites. You, the vampire with binge eating disorder, and I, the human with anorexia.
What an odd pair we were. But we figured we could help each other. At least that’s what we tried to do at first. I held your hand at school and kept your mind from wandering to those nasty thoughts. The ones you had of tearing into the throats off half the school and not being able to stop yourself. And you held mine back, keeping me distracted while I tried to eat my lunch. And things were good for a while, until the pressure got to much.
You couldn’t stand Carlisle and Esme always on your case about your diet. It was driving you insane how little faith they had in you. And it hurt. But you couldn’t tell them that, they wouldn’t understand. And I got more sick, skipping lunches when you stopped showing up cause you couldn’t handle your hunger. You all but disappeared. I asked Bella about it, and she said it was because you nearly attacked her at her party. And I hated her for it, blamed her for you leaving me, but that wasn’t fair.
But then you came back. And seeing your face made my stomach flip. You’d snuck into my room that night, having to see me after you came back home. And I should have screamed, any girl would have. But I wasn’t any girl, and you weren’t any boy. The first half of the night you stayed on the other side of the room, trying to control your hunger. But I could see how much pain it was causing you, and I wouldn’t allow it. So I coaxed you near, hushed your worries and offered you a solution.
“Drink from me.”
You objected at first, insisting I’d gone insane. Lost my mind, that I needed help, and maybe I did. But I was so damn in love with you, that nothing else mattered. I needed you to be ok Jasper. I promised you it would be ok, and with hungry eyes you watched as I cut my palm. It didn’t hurt, cause you didn’t bite me. You couldn’t, you insisted it would change me and I was perfect just how I was.
So that’s how it went for a while. You’d sneak into my room late at night and we’d have our little feeding sessions. Something you would never tell your family about. But as your hunger grew, you began to forget mine. It was so easy to slip into old habits. To distract you from my plight by giving you what you wanted, what you needed. You were addicted to the feeling of my blood sliding down your throat. And I was addicted to the feeling of losing it.
It made me feel light. Both physically and mentally. I couldn’t explain it, but our feeding sessions made me feel thin. They made me feel beautiful, the way that you could crave me so much. So deliciously, it was like an aphrodisiac. And it quieted my brain for a whole, making me feel all fuzzy. I’d fall asleep in your arms, and everything was perfect.
Until you snapped out of you. As we got more intimate you saw more of me. Keeping the lights off never helped. You were a vampire, you thrives in the darkness, and you could see everything. You could see my bones, and feel them beneath your cold, dead fingertips. And my skin didn’t hold the same warmth anymore. I insisted I was fine and that I’d try tomorrow. But tomorrow turned into next week, and next week turned into next month.
And next month, was it. You found me, in my room that day, when you snuck in as usual. I wasn’t on the bed and you came around the side. And panic flooded your system when you saw me on the floor. There was no time for ambulances, no time to get better. That should have been it, I could have gone happy, knowing that you loved me in a way nobody else ever could. But just like me, you were an addict. Only your drug was me.
So you bit into my skin, somewhere no one would see. And you made the decision for me. You threw my lamp to the ground near me, knowing the noise would draw in my parents, and you hid just outside the window. Watching as my parents discovered my “dead” body. You convinced them to hold the funeral the very next day, knowing there wouldn’t be much time before I woke up again. But they had to believe it, you had no other choice. It wouldn’t be safe for a fledgling to be near their family.
And the very next day you dug me up. You had asked my parents if you could have some of my things. And they agreed because you were my loving and respectful boyfriend, who was grieving me just as much as they were. You wanted me to feel comfortable, and safe, surrounded by a few familiar things. You were the first thing I saw when I woke up, and the only thing I wanted.
But as I began to understand my situation, it all became overwhelming. I was a vampire now. My parents and everyone I knew thought I was dead, and we all had to leave forks. I’d have to stay hidden inside until Edward could Marry Bella, and the family would have a proper excuse to move away. I rolled my eyes, annoyed that yet again, she was coming first. And I was petty, stubborn. Your family kept trying to convince me to hunt, learn how to do things their way, but I refused.
Eating was always something I could control. It was a constant in my life, that felt comfortable and safe. I needed it, I was nothing without that unhealthy obsession. And it felt different now. Of course I couldn’t gain wait, I was a vampire, I was stuck how I am for the rest of forever. During the transition I had plumped up a little, as Carlisle explained it was my body trying to correct itself to be in its most “healthy” form. Despite now never being able to get sick, vampirism sadly didn’t cure the brain.
I was still just as sick as I was before, but now there’s nothing I could do about it. I was stuck. And the longer I went without blood, the more I felt. The intense hunger I hadn’t felt in so long, I almost forgotten what it felt like. Of course I wanted the blood, every cell in my body now craved it more than anything else in the world. But I didn’t want to give in. And it was driving you crazy. There was a knock at the door.
“Sugar, Can I come in?”
“It’s your room Jasper, you don’t have to ask.”
You walked through the door, sitting next to me on the floor as I looked out the window.
“It’s our room.” You corrected.
I smiled at that, a real genuine smile.
“Darlin’ you have to-“
“Feed, I know. I know. Just give me one more day.”
I could feel you tense next to me.
“That’s what you said last time.”
I felt awful. God I wish I could cry, but that was another thing that was no longer in my control.
“Jasper, I never meant to hurt you. You know that.”
You nodded.
“But you’re stronger than me, you always have been. I always believed in you.”
You stopped my rambling, turning my head to look at you. Your hand gently cradling my skin. Your touch still so soft, despite me being sturdier now. You couldn’t break me like you used to be so afraid of.
“I won’t watch you make yourself sick again. I can’t. If you’re not ready to do it for you, could you perhaps do it for me? For us? I have the woman I’m so insanely in love with, say before me, looking stunning as ever. Yet she has a perpetual frown on her face. I can feel her every emotion, yet she constantly tries to hide from me. I know your desires, and your fears, I know you. And I know that you’re stronger than you give yourself credit for. You, Darlin’, are a force to be recon with. And I want nothing more than to spend eternity by your side.”
If I could blush, my cheeks would have been bright red. You always knew what to say, even if maybe you were saying it a tad late. But I suppose you said it with your actions first. I was mad of course, but now I saw it for what it was. A desperate plea from a lover. My lover. My beautiful Jasper.
“Will you come with me?” I asked.
“I would follow you anywhere.”
Maybe drinking blood wouldn’t be all that bad. If I meant I had forever with you. To learn and understand every part of you. To help each other like we originally planned, and do it right this time. Besides, I had a new family to get to know. To learn to trust, and to confide in. And a new town wouldn’t be so bad. Maybe it was the perfect time to start over. To recover. Most people didn’t get a second chance, and I would be foolish to waste it. I wanted it. I wanted to to taste Happiness.
An: Sorry for the major angst post lol. I haven’t written for twilight in a while and I wanted to write something. But I’ve been in my feels all night, hence this disaster. Gotta love edgy vampire teen romance. Anyways, don’t be like the person in my story. Get up and eat something, even if it’s just one bite, you’ve got this! I believe in you! Stay safe y’all, love you ❤️
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hey lady!
i am new here, in a religion of Anna Torv. i’ve watched fringe a month ago for the first time and im shocked that ive never heard of the show for all 24 years of my life. i adore it w all my heart, but have one problem, sometimes i can be too obsessed w people, i mean actors and their characters so it becomes really hard for me to separate characters from actors. what i mean is that i get SO many goosebumps of every anna and josh ss interactions, my breath is taken by each touch and kiss. and of course i’ve read and watched everything i could to understand how their relationships went during shooting and go rn. rn there is like nothing, k. but what about years ago? were they comfortable around each other, did they get along? there are lots of rumors, and i get delusional due to these talks. i see how they marked each other and were quite happy and fine w each other, also josh said some things, that prove they were fine. i mean their chemistry was real (maybe not in a romantic way, but just as they felt comfortable and everything was fine). soo, sorry for this silly paragraph, but i am interested what is ur opinion about anna/josh and the rumors.
ps if it doesn’t feel right to answer me, its okay, i understand and really sorry to make you feel this way!
Hi there !! It’s always so lovely to know new people are discovering Fringe, and falling in love with Anna Torv, even after all these years!
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Look, I’m going to be honest with you, I have been part of the Fringe fandom in one form or another since October 2010, back when season 3 had just started airing, and from the moment I stepped into the madness up to now, people have always been speculating about Anna and Josh. What I have also learned is that it’s a thorny topic. People have gotten very passionate about it through the years (especially when the show was still airing, obviously, since both actors were still working together).
As I now stand, I have also learned that people love to bite my head off when I speculate about things, so I’m not going to say anything on the topic. I have plenty to say, since I’ve been here forever and literally witnessed the ups and downs of that particular…partnership, but I’m not comfortable discussing it publicly on my blog anymore.
If you keep searching, you’ll probably conclude a few things on your own. If you’re really keen to find some information, you can always delve into my ‘anonymous’ tag, which contains all the answers to every anonymous message I’ve received through the years, because I’ve definitely answered anon questions about Anna & Josh before. There are over 1300 messages in that tag though, so I don't necessarily recommend it 😅
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oraclekleo · 2 years
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Kim Taehyung (BTS) Relationship Role Analysis based on Tarot Reading
Hello and welcome!
I’m Kleo and I’m here to present some k-pop related tarot readings to you.
Disclaimer:
I would like to state that all these readings have a purely entertainment nature and their purpose is to bring some fun into my and hopefully yours lives. I have never ever met any of the idols / actors / celebrities in my readings, I don’t know them personally. Tarot reading isn’t an exact science and I can never guarantee any of it. Most of it is my intuition mixed with fantasy. Don’t take these readings seriously and don’t base any important decisions on tarot readings only, use your common sense.
If you wish to request a tarot reading, please read the pinned post on my profile first to see the instructions on how to request. I only do readings for idols / actors / celebrities of 18 years of age or older. Requests for readings including younger people will be automatically dismissed. If you feel uncomfortable with these tarot readings, do not engage in reading my posts. Thank you for understanding.
Reading Info:
Reading Type: Single - Couple
Requested: Yes - No
Deck: E. A. Poe
Spread: Relationship Role
Questions:
Friend
Boyfriend
Lover
Husband
One-Night-Stand
Full Name: Kim Taehyung
Stage Name: V / Taehyung
Group: BTS
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Kim Taehyung
V / Taehyung (BTS)
Deck: E. A. Poe
Spread: Relationship Role
Friend - King of Cups, 10 of Wands
When it comes to friendship, Taehyung is one of the best friends you could ever wish for. He’s loyal, ever supportive, there’s nothing he wouldn’t do to help his friends out. Taehyung would literally breathe for his friends if needed and he’s likely to maintain his friendships forever. Once a friend, always a friend.
Boyfriend - Ace of Wands, XII The Hanged Man
Dating Taehyung is a lovely boyfriend. He’s passionate, loving and he’s very thoughtful, sensitive and caring. He’s likely to admire his love interest, put them on pedestal and worship them like royalty. Something like cheating isn’t even in his vocabulary. He’s obsessively faithful, won’t even look at other people, once he’s in a romantic relationship.
Lover - XXI The World, 4 of Wands
Taehyung is a dom in the bedroom but he’s rather loving, caring and kind. Once again, I have to stress that he’s completely devoted to his lover. Taehyung takes the relationship seriously, he’s a gentle and family oriented lover. Better forget some more daring experiments, though. Taehyung is more on the traditional side when it comes to bedroom activities.
Husband - 6 of Words, 10 of Pentacles
You’re not going to be surprised by this and neither am I. Taehyung is a family guy. He was born to become a husband and father one day and when that day comes, it will feel like a huge relief for him. Honestly, the dating and seeking for his significant other kinda irritates him. Deep down he knows he’s destined to be the best husband and father, the only problem is to find the right spouse. Once he’s married, he’s completely satisfied. He’s likely to get himself a large family and create a marvellous legacy.
One-Night-Stand - 4 of Pentacles, 9 of Swords
Once again, no big surprise here. Taehyung is strongly against random love affairs. He’s absolutely terrified that somebody could even consider such a thing. Taehyung’s own will is so strong that he would probably resist the temptation even if drunk or in any other way weakened.
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Love Reading 🌤️- December 2023 - Sagittarius
Singles:
Overall energy: 7 Swords
How you will meet: Page of Swords
How they will treat you: The Fool
Long-term Potential: 3 Wands
Idk about this one. You both have awful oracles, you have interesting messages, 7 Swords isn’t the kind of card you want to see as the main energy in a connection. Someone here is selfish, deep down, they’re out for themselves and whatever way they’re most likely to “win”, they don’t really care - 9 Cups is a wish come true, but it follows 2 Pentacles, which shows it’s flexible and forever changing. Or could change, even long-term it could change. I assume it’s them, pulling the Snake card. You’ve probably dated already, broken up, made up, broken up, made up, you never stop talking to each other after the “broken up” periods, so it never really ends. And they’re coming back, surprise 😲
They’re going to get a new job, or they’re doing something different for work, something that takes a lot of time, energy, and detail, and somehow you’re a part of this because they’re giving to you through this. If they’re an artist, they’re giving you art, or if they’re a carpenter then they’re building you a bookshelf, redoing your kitchen, something like that. Gifts, money, whatever you need, they’re very generous to you and happy to give you whatever they have. Again, good and bad, they have great messages and a shitty Oracle, I can’t tell what’s what and I don’t think you can either, but you’re unhealthily obsessed too, how could you? There is no space to gain perspective. Can this work out? Sure, maybe. Temporarily. This is a person that’s willing to give you everything, except a definitive answer, a deep commitment, maybe a ring, they aren’t the kind to commit to forever. But at the same time, sure it could last forever. Long-term, you’re still waiting on 10 Pentacles. They’re at the 8, putting in a lot of work into both you and whatever they do, but that’s as much as they’re able to give you. I’m getting that’s who they are.
Now for someone this could be a 3rd party you’re interested in and cheating on someone else with, they make you feel good, they’re always offering you tangible things (money?) but long term they’re the ones waiting for a commitment that’s never going to come, they want to be the official person & not the lover. That’s where “I can’t change” comes in for this side of things, you won’t, not now or ever. Or switch it, if this is your story this will inevitably end, you/they deserve the real thing.
Messages -
Their side:
- Wise Spirit
- I’m a FOOL for you 🃏
Your side:
- I can’t change 💯
- OBSESSED 🤩
Oracles -
Their side: THE SNAKE 🐍
- Competition & Enemy
- The Other Woman
- Look Over Your Shoulder
Your side: ADDICTION 💊
- Codependent
- Obsession & Restraint
- Possession & Control
- Emotional Block
Signs you may be dealing with:
Gemini, Aquarius, Aries & Virgo
Couples:
Overall energy: 5 Pentacles
Current: 6 Pentacles
Challenge: The Hanged Man
How they feel about you: 4 Pentacles
How you feel about them: Temperance
Outcome: 6 Wands & The Devil
Something is getting in between you this month, and I do see it turning out well next month, but for December you’re probably going to feel the weight of a lot of pressure…probably financial. That’s not saying much at the holiday season, who isn’t? But 5 Pentacles, clarified by The Chariot & 8 Cups, indicates either needing to take a trip, not having a choice (could be for work), car or transportation problems, or having to leave behind plans that you had prior to this time. Mercury will begin its retrograde through Capricorn on December 13 (today), moving backwards through Sagittarius as well, through the new year. Your reading suggests the typical issues of travel, electrical problems, repairs, things that cost money you don’t have right now - especially for the risings having the retrograde starting in their 2nd House of Material Things, money, possessions, the literal home which is also shown as being unstable or a possible issue financially, for the moment. Most of these issues being money related for the most part, though tensions could run high in your relationships because of this. The challenge is holding back any defensive energy, popping off out of frustration, and trying to gain a higher perspective on these issues, probably on both sides.
I’m getting a message specifically that gifts you may order from across the sea probably won’t get to you in time, or you could have major issues with packages and mail getting stuck or lost in transit, having to spend hours or days with some tech support person before you finally get refunded, or something in that regard. Some of you could be sent on a work trip at an inconvenient time, or have to pay for this yourself & be reimbursed later, when you can’t really do that right now. You could be put in an inhospitable hotel room or have travel issues that make you want to speak to the manager (holding back & seeing the bigger perspective, there seems to be a reason).
Whatever it is, you’re being shown as a “reckless spender”, but your partner sees you as 4 Pentacles, reining it in and holding on tightly to what you have, a sensible & responsible energy, you just can’t handle everything that’s going on right now financially. Gifts, possible repairs or travel issues, bills, everything on top of everything is too much, and your person is aware you’re feeling the pressure - 10 Wands, they are too. You see them as keeping their cool, remaining calm, probably trying to keep you calm too. They know it’s only a matter of time before this problem is handled and they are patiently waiting for that to happen, for whatever is in the way to remove itself or get out of the way, be handled, it will be okay. They may feel sad about whatever it is though, especially if you’re having to travel, something breaks, car breaks down at an inopportune time, something disappoints them, or you, but you’re holding it together. By mid-next month, the retrograde will be over with, and you two will have overcome whatever issues have you feeling stuck. You have victory, The Sun & The Fool, it’s looking to be a beautiful new year, hang in there! 🧡
Messages -
Their side:
- I feel so drawn to you.
- I support your dreams 💫
Your side:
- Reckless Spender 🤑
- You fascinate me.
Oracles -
Their side: SHIP 🛳️
- Cutting Ties
- Moving On
- Receive What You Need
- Progression & Arriving
Your side: SWORD & ROSE 🗡️🌹
- Clarity & Truth
- Revelations
- Honor & Protection
- Determination
Signs you may be dealing with:
Taurus, Capricorn, Leo, Sagittarius, Aries & Pisces
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fairycosmos · 1 year
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I spent 2 years developing a parasocial relationship with a guy I saw on my fyp. I know everything about his family, friends, his friends’ friends, his gf (and her friends) and ex gf (and her friends), basically everybody he follows on instagram. He doesnt even live in the same country as me, i know where he lives, his hometown, his parents, his interest, and his playlists. I woke up everyday for him. To check if he posted anything new. In the middle of a 2 year long depressive episode, he got me to wake up at 6 in the morning (time zone differences) and up for my 7 am classes. I spend all my time daydreaming of him and wishing I had the life his girlfriend has. Even if you take him out of the equation, she has everything I want. She’s 21, and completely moved out of her parents place, and into LA to support his career in modeling. She an artist, a creative, a lovely girl or atleast somebody that would warrant dozens of girl friends calling her an angel everytime she posts something. And that may not seem like a lot but as somebody living in a small town in a province in a SEA country, thats all I could ever ask for in life. Literally just employment, financial independence, a place of her own and she gets to share all that with her loving boyfriend. With all the stalking and sasaeng behavior I know I dont deserve to ask for anything but forgiveness atp but I’m so fucking jealous I could feel it in my chest. It eats at me every day for 2 years now I’ve lost so much weight I been look physically ill with supposedly no reason everyone around me is concerned and they want me to see a nutritionist but that not the problem the problem is i’m sick in the head and a jealous hateful bitch with nothing going on in my life but to obsess and stalk over two strangers who dont know I exist. I just want to have my own life so bad I’m sick of waiting things to get better it needs to start getting better and soon. The only thing I find comforting is lurking on his ex gf’s accounts bc maybe if she can move on I can move on too.
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i'm sorry you have had to deal with this feeling for so long and i'm sorry things are so hard, for real. i think it's ok to accept jealousy as a natural emotion, just like sadness or anger or hurt, and you don't have to crucify yourself for feeling it. it's alright that it's there. you can choose how you respond to it, even if practicing doing that takes a long time and progress is slow. that being said, it sounds like you're very self-aware about the fact that this has been having a really detrimental impact on your mental health and that you have been crossing boundaries in order to cope with processing that envy, which obviously isn't great. but you're not doomed to be stuck in that place forever. you can work on it, you put yourself first, even if it's exhausting and you don't want to and your life doesn't look the way you want it to look. it is completely normal to want love, financial stability, a place of your own - and you are just as deserving of all of that as this girl is. obviously, we all have wildly different lives, and some people are born into drastically better situations than others, but so much of the toxicity of parasocial relationships lies within the fact that social media is a complete fabrication, a smoke screen. even if these people do have things you want, which is totally understandable, comparing their performance to the world to your lived reality is never going to get you anywhere. and i think we all know that on some level, yet we often fall into that trap anyway, but grounding yourself in that daily may begin to shift your perspective over time.
do you think it would be at all possible to begin limiting your exposure to this guy and his girlfriend online? it sounds like you've developed a real dependency on living vicariously through them and watching their lives, and i'm not saying you have to give that up at all at once. i'm just asking you to consider maybe setting small goals with yourself regarding how much time you actually spend on these people - who are, like you said, total strangers really. it may be a good idea to start working on treating them as such, bit by bit. it seems like you have people in your life who care about you and who want you to be okay, who have noticed that something isn't right with your mental health lately. that's a good sign. whether you can see it or not, you are loved and seen exactly as you are. would you consider talking to someone you trust about what is going on? i know it can feel sort of embarrassing, and you don't have to go into detail about it, but like. just being honest about how unhappy you are with the way things are and having someone listen to that and take it in might be a really good place to start. i get that that's a big step, but i hope you know reaching out is always an option. you don't have to deal with this on your own. rather than a nutritionist, i think it may also help to talk to your family about getting a therapist or speaking with a mental health professional. i know there is a lot of stigma surrounding that, but at this point i think you need to see it as a form of treatment to regain your mental and physical health. having a professional guide you through the intensity of these feelings by listening to you and recommending specialised coping mechanisms can make such a difference. again, i know that's a lot. but i hope you never close yourself off to the idea of it all together, because there's truly no shame in seeking support.
by the way, as a sidenote, i'm not saying it's unreasonable to be jealous of extremely privileged people when you are relatively disadvantaged. like i said at the start, it's completely natural to resent those who seem like they are in the position to enjoy a level of comfort and fulfilment the rest of us have to fight to experience, if we ever even get to. and it fucking sucks. it fucking sucks to be single and exhausted and to feel so unloved. but i think it will do you good to really try focusing on what is actually in your control, what you can actually make of the material reality around you again. no, it may not ever look like dating this specific guy and having an apartment in LA at 21, but there is still a worthwhile life to live outside of that. there is still love around you, and experiences to be had. it may not feel like much consolation from the place you are in right now, but i do think it is a comforting truth. there are many ways to make your world feel more manageable. you said it feels like you have nothing going on in your life so you have to stalk and obsesses over these random people, and that's exactly why i think taking yourself away from the phone screen or the computer screen just a few times a day to focus on what is actually going on around you and where you can find a support network would be ideal for you at this point. i know it's hard, but this guy really is just Some guy. he's not the answer to your life's problems, or the solution to issues with your mental health. he is, at most a convenient person to project that stuff onto. if his ex-gf can get over him, you can get over the idea of him. with time, patience, external support and most importantly - self forgiveness. envy eats me up inside often, too. i get it. and it doesn't make you a bad person. i hope you're able to find the help you need, and i'm sorry for rambling so much. please take it easy. sending a lot of love your way. x
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madablues · 1 year
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what are some of your obikabu hc's???
HI ANON i can’t promise these are going to be concise or even coherent but i sure can promise some insanity from my brain at the very least 👍
- we don’t get a great look at obitos hideout but i like to imagine there’s separate rooms where kabuto jus made himself at home one day n when confronted abt it argued that it’s easier to be of assistance this way (rlly he’s jus lonely n has nowhere to go, unless he crawled back to otogakure which isn’t exactly ideal either)
- definitely took some time for obito to accept his new roommate situation n he’d be soooo paranoid that kabuto is up to Something which may or may not be true
- tho eventually obito would begrudgingly invite kabuto to eat dinner together bc rlly he’s lonely too. kabuto would definitely find amusement from the fact that obitos going thru the extra effort to keep his mask half on while eating. sometime during the meal he’d also realize that it’s actually home cooked, which was a sentiment he hadn’t expected to feel anything from
- obitos body would literally b so fascinating to kabuto between hashiramas cells n the sharingan that he’s already been studying for years n years. like he wants to put him under a microscope so bad but obito would never let himself become some lab rat
- on the opposite side of things i think obito would be interested in kabuto, too. perhaps he’d even pity him somewhat bc i don’t think he’d understand how someone could do something so drastic to themselves… but he knows not to fully address it (tho i could see scenarios where he could come close)
- i also like to think that obito actually remembers kabuto from when orochimaru was briefly in the akatsuki tho if they ever interacted it was very limited or in obitos tobi persona
- COLD BLOODED KABUTO IN MY HEART FOREVER mainly for the reason that obito would be a fawking furnace to him n they’d somehow end up cuddling each other n having to accept that situation
- i think any intimate moments between them are definitely accidental like the scenario above bc at the end of the day they’re both at war w themselves but still crave connection soooo badly they’re so problems
- obito is the more sentimental of the two not bc kabuto isn’t but bc obito is losing that battle w himself more often. literally the i’m not obsessed w that freak (is obsessed w that freak)
- btw kabuto is aroflux hope this helps
OK i went on long enough but if u ever want more thoughts or want me to elaborate on anything i’ve said here u can totally shoot me another ask 🙏 i’m rotating these guys in my brain like a rotisserie chicken
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