#I did get incredibly emotional

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I was *not* longing, I swear.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #wen ning #If you have not listened to this scene in the audio drama I am *pleading* for you to #It's so funny. Oh my god the voice actors nail the part. Plus the music cutting out abruptly #Genuinely incredible comedic timing. #WWX voice: 'I was almost caught having an (unidentifiable ) emotion. How embarrassing. It will never happen again.' (lie) #wwx has unlocked: aesthetic attraction. He is now starting to develop emotional attachment. #This is a incompatible program with the current version of WWX. He requires an additional update #Please note that the actual countdown is *eight* seconds before passing out. My memory was fallible when I did my blocking #pd-mdzs lwj gets an extra 2 seconds. One for each bunny ear. #This comic kicked my ass a little. Normally I don't re-do comics unless its pertinent #but I struggled with getting this one 'just right enough'. And I'm happy with it! B*)

[luna-lovegreat]

I want. Four to get appreciation. Because

Four gave a ton of unnoticed help when Twilight was injured

The fight with Wild was difficult, and I know we're all concerned about his negative view of the shadow crystal

But Four did something that no one else really thought of to help- He took care of Twi's stuff

From the beginning he told Twilight to not worry about them

So Four took care of pretty much everything but the others (that Sky and Wars handled)

He took care of Epona

Which is so very important- he took care of Twilight's horse. After her arrival at the stable Four followed up on her

And for Epona, a horse so attached to her human, having some company can help so much for reassurance

He took care of Twilight's stuff

He got Twi's shield- his bags and equipment, and organized it into one place

And he was worried. He obviously found the shadow crystal while handling Twi's stuff, but his negative reactions to it were out of concern.

Also- because of his placement in this scene

I'm fairly convinced Four was ready to start cooking before Wild showed up (since he's beside the counter with food supplies). At the very least he had the basket of fruit out for everyone -but he was literally standing with food behind him- he thought of everything

And he did housekeeping!

Wars payed for the inn, so Four took care of the inn

Realistically these boys were probably not too concerned with tidyness. Four got all of Twi's things on one table, and took care of the room they stayed in

Organizing tables and Twi's things, having food supplies ready, and opening the curtains- overall he was the one tidying up the inn

Four helped in a huge way! He took care of Twi's horse (Epona is so important), his equipment and shield and bag, as well as the other rooms in the inn

Four filled in all the little tasks that others didn't think of. He helped in ways that were needed, but not obvious

There's a lot of problems with the shadow crystal and with Wild, and I don't know what's gonna happen in the future

But don't forget this- don't forget that Four was one who stepped up in an almost unnoticeable way

Don't forget that when everyone was barely holding it together, Four visited Twilight's horse and took care of his things

No matter what develops in the future- this amount of care shown is important ya know?

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Art and comic from Jojo @linkeduniverse au :)))

#epona is so important #Lu four #linkeduniverse #linked universe #I work with horses and #Epona is INCREDIBLE- she's extremely attuned to humans and emotions. she doesn't scare easily and can keep her cool in a fight #but it's still super stressful to suddenly be in a fairly large and populated town- separated from her person #and for such an empathetic horse? Four going and TALKING to her- gently petting her nose and just being near her #means so so much! that literally matters so much to a horses mental state in a foreign situation- just having company #he checked on Epona and gave her company like !!!!!! it's so considerate and means so much for Epona! Four I love you !!!!! #uhhhh yeah! #with the food- I don't think the innkeeper would have free/complimentary food out- but wars wallet def had it covered #then wild showed up with potions in a cooking frenzy- but four was still shown with food behind him- he thought of everything #I don't know what's gonna happen with the shadow crystal and stuff. but no matter what happens in the future- this matters. #he did a ton of small things no one else thought of it matters he cares so much didjdkdksjfjj #I have a lot of posts I'm making/editing and trying to get to. I'm just a little gal trying my best :/ #so many ideas and so little time... I love you guys and this fandom so much :)) #(if I said anything off or offensive let me know... I'm always nervous about that but I want to hear from you if I'm wrong) #(also you are so so cool and valuable don't forget that ok? I love you and you are important) #:)

[kaltacore]

no but essek's abnormal behaviours in the last arc and especially in episode 140 are my roman empire. which is ironic because aeor is something of a roman empire itself. but in all seriousness, it was the episode that made me realise i love essek and his development so much and it kinda summarised it even before caleb's epilogue.

and i mean the "it's not fair" scene specifically. it's like, an epitome of his whole character progression from a person who put An Objectively Important Goal above all else without hesitation to someone who can't help but care for people around even more than his goal, no matter how big and relevant it is.

the mighty nein - and he alongside them - pretty much saved the world and freed an ancient city from thousand-year-long suffering. they defeated nine extremely powerful menacing entities who managed to stay out of everyone's sight for years and were so close to achieving their goal and dooming exandria in the process. they did the impossible and became heroes and somehow, they survived, even though they had bidden farewells a couple of hours ago because they had already understood what they had been facing. and nevertheless. they made it.

and none of them was celebrating.

mighty nein are basically essek's only friends. he knew them to be very unusual people, to put it lightly, loud and stubborn and completely inescapable once they consider you to be one of their own. and they showed him so much kindness and put so much faith in him, they were here playing the most atrocious music ever and digging clay in his backyard for a spell they invented just to help one of theirs and asking him if he could bring them pastries the day after they found out he was lying to them and had started a war. they were chaotic and weird and sometimes unbearable but most importantly they were carrying so much hope with them all this time - a hope they could end the war, a hope they could stop the angel of irons cult, a hope they could get better, a hope he could get better, and now, finally, that they could save their lost friend.

and that hope shattered, just like that, the moments after they'd already made the impossible. they saved so many souls - and then could not get back just that one.

for essek "my intentions were never good they were important" thelyss it just. shouldn't have mattered. they won. it could have been worse. people die and when they die they rarely come back. they should've been happy everyone else barely made it alive.

but for some reason, mighty nein being so defeated after they saved the world exposed him to that overwhelming feeling of injustice and unfairness. and i mean, there were many things essek considered to be unfair, but when i watched his first appearance and his interactions with mighty nein later on til their reunion in aeor arc, i wouldn't dare to guess that one of the things on that list would be something that personal. and personal not even to him.

the thing is, essek didn't even know who that guy was. why mighty nein cared about him so much. he had an idea, i guess, that he was their friend once, or someone in that body was. it was also a person who wanted to unleash a terrifying horrific aberration onto the material plane. it was a person very dedicated to killing essek and his friends - and they still didn't take any pleasure in fighting him. essek didn't feel strongly about lucien or molly, because he never knew them.

i don't think he mourned his death and failed resurrection. he mourned mighty nein's hope, the one they put in him when they had no reason to, the one they offered yasha in the cathedral and the one they kept after the spell for veth failed and the one they carried til the very end because they wanted it to reach molly. they had saved people with this hope. they had saved nations. they had saved the world. but they ended up feeling like it hadn't even been worth anything.

how desperate would it feel, witnessing people who for some reason always saw good in you when they absolutely shouldn't, who made literal miracles out of nothing, who ended wars and fought gods and tricked the hags and freed cities from horrors beyond anyone's comprehension purely because they thought it was the right thing to do and also loved their friends this much, silently crying over a dead body they couldn't bring back to life? how desperate would it feel to realise that with all your knowledge about time you dedicated your life to and threw away any principles for, you can't undo this? no one can. some things are left to fate alone and this time it wasn't kind to them. no matter how much good they did, they still got slapped in the face.

and it was, i think, such a genuine moment of empathy. like, essek is the character who prefers to put up a facade and act distant and self-composed but this time he just. walked away unable to watch this. the could only say to fjord that it wasn't fair. even when he was caught off guard in nicodranas he was able to explain himself and his motives to an extent even though he was a nervous wreck whose extra important plan went to hell the second the only people he cared about appeared. this time he had nothing to elaborate on. it just wasn't fair. it wasn't fair his friends didn't get what they wanted the most. it wasn't fair he couldn't do anything to make it right.

it is such a sad and beautiful and even cathartic scene because it is about person who started a war that destroyed so many lives - and then met this ragtag group of weirdos who saw a lonely stand-offish guy and said "hey, let's be friends!" and didn't even wait for him to answer. he saw them being serious and calculated and he saw them being ridiculous and extremely stupid, he saw their mistrust to outsiders and their loyalty to each other, he made spells with them and paid a visit to their hot tub, he ate their stale pastries and drank their hot chocolate mixed with whiskey, he was welcomed amongst them and in their wonderful home, both in xhorhas before they even found out what he had done and in the tower when they already knew - and then, he saw them mourning their loss, defeated and helpless, and he, a person who believed there were things more important than whole nations, let alone just one life, couldn't help but share the pain they felt. a pure display of compassion from someone who detached himself from it, who didn't believe he could grow into a better person capable of it again, but became one nonetheless without even realising it

#sorry. i cannot shut up about this. this scene stuck with me the moment i saw it and i just couldn't get it out of my head #i mean. i liked essek well enough. i just got attached to other characters more. but then 'it's not fair' happened and it sealed the deal #it was just. so beautiful. so sincere. so important for a character who just started to learn how to care about people #his reaction wasn't intentional. it didn't change anything. but it showed how humane he had become. how deeply he cared #mighty nein are no joke pal #they're gonna make you feel all these unknown emotions like sympathy and love and affection even when they're incredibly painful #essek experiencing closeness and attachment in all their forms. as something beautiful and something aching. is so important to me #they saved him because they had good hearts! and these good hearts sparked so much joy around them! #but if a good heart grants you an ability to experience joy so profoundly. it makes everything else feel like that #you get it. i hope you get it. anyway e140 did so much psychic damage on me i probably will never recover #in a good way mostly <3 but yeah. yeah. it makes me feel a little insane #the mighty nein #essek thelyss #critical role

[its-your-mind]

HEY. HEY.

HEY @re-dracula WHAT GAVE YOU THE RIGHT TO HAVE JONATHAN ACTUALLY READING THAT PASSAGE OUT LOUD BEHIND SEWARD DESCRIBING THE SCENE, HUH? WITH THE TEARS IN HIS VOICE AND THE PAUSING AND THE SHORT LITTLE INHALES AND THE VOICE CRACKS? WAS IT TRULY NECESSARY??? I WAS ALREADY CRYING. I DIDN'T NEED THIS TOO. WHAT THE FUCK.

#dracula #dracula daily #re: dracula #re dracula #to be clear this is meant in sarcastic jest this episode was a beautifully crafted piece of art and I'm blown away by the cast and #the producers and the editors... holy fucking shit I know today's was a short episode but I think it's taken its place as my favorite so fa #it beat out jonathan fuckin dropping out of the sky in front of drac with his fuckin knife out in order to protect his wife which was ALSO #very good and made me cheer out loud in my car but THIS #also why does jack get to narrate all the dope ass dramatic scenes #I wonder if Mina was like #no really y'all this dude has the best voice and grammar structure for storytelling #we gotta let him keep doing the phonograph thing and I'll just keep copying it down later #tbh she's so valid for that also y'all are so valid for casting jonny sims in this role bc he SHINES when he's describing emotional shit #he NAILS the middle ground between conveying the emotion of a scene and still being a separate narrator #it's almost like he did a whole podcast of that one time ANYWAY my point is y'all are incredible and I am so fuckin glad y'all decided to #start this project

[sittinginsunflowers]

okay, I’m going full red string over the last episode. mainly because if queen amangeaux (put some goddamn respect on her name) had a child with her husband, wouldn’t that have solved all her problems? Sure, it would make her a target but the bishop was already warning her to lay low at the festival, and at least this would’ve secured her place on the throne until her child came of age. Unless she knew she was pregnant and then she decided not to say anything in trying to follow the bishop’s advice? Or she didn’t know at the time and then everything popped off. But that makes the baby at least a year and 3/4 months (if we use human pregnancy as the timeline??) and the baby read more as a newborn to me? Also in the adventuring party when they discussed the bishop’s secret, Anjali pointed out that he could’ve been poisoning her or her husband with the tea leaves to stop her from producing an heir. which could be a red herring, or could mean that the baby belongs to someone other than her husband, hence why she’s hidden him away. which would make sense since the coloring is a little different. So either the baby isn’t hers biologically and is just in her care, she had an affair while her husband was still alive, the baby is the true heir, or she got pregnant in the two year time jump.

how the fuck am I losing my mind over a mango’s sex life how did I get here

#anjali bhimani #the ravening war #the ravening war spoilers #dimension 20 #d20 #acoc and trw will really have you deeply invested and emotional in the inner lives of characters only for you to remember halfway through #they’re fucking food #also I really sat there and did a pregnancy timeline with a mango before being like??? #do they do the whole 9 month thing or?? #like what’s the lore there #also it was amazing storytelling for aabria to sell her out #I’ve never seen Anjali before but she’s fucking incredible and such a great presence at the table #I hope we get to see her more!! #but also I’m sad about them considering how much amangeaux really seems to care for karna #and also it’s just a poor baby! #these characters all have such good secrets I can’t wait to know more

[hillerskaroyals]

cause of death:

#he literally sounded incredible #the fucking wilmonification of the qx gala was not on my bingo card but hot DAMN am i happy #jfc #that’s so insane #they really did that huh #i’m getting wille and simon at hillerska graduation after wille has announced his abdication and they’re looking forward to their new lives #together and simon finally performs his song for the school and ends it with wille by his side #don’t fucking touch me i’m emotional 😭 #young royals #edvin ryding #omar rudberg #idek if j should tag e and o or wille and simon please advise #my yr thoughts #mine

[kicktwine]

the problem is I’m such a staunch believer in the slow buildup, the earnest enjoyment of meandering through terrible story decisions and weird nothing subplots to build up into a conclusion that explodes out from all that as fantastic storytelling and intrigue based on all that buildup, such that it makes it necessary to get through all that or you’re missing something essential, that I’m also a terrible person to talk to about what makes a story good. I can tell you plenty of what actually makes something tight and well-written and all that technical speak but how could anyone take my advice when I so so so love excruciatingly long unnecessarily complex fumbling and weird nonsense that spirals into, inexplicably, weird nonsense that makes you cry your lungs sore

#kipspeak #my point being everyone is too mean about post arr. sure f’lhammin did not have to be our problem but everything after that was like #meandering. Thinking. building. unnerving. they were cooking and i RESPECT their dubious food #i love homestuck and long audio dramas and dnd podcasts and indecipherable fancomics and lego ninjas and khux and im starting to love ffxiv #all incredibly long and made with passion and kinda weird and hard to get into #said with THE MOST affection in my heart #I could structure a kids show and I know how to write for tv but in my heart of hearts #I just want to write an impossibly long absurdity epic that is weird and a little bad and also makes you feel shrimp emotions #ALSO I feel 0% bad for not respecting ur theory or opinion if you haven’t played khux/dr/recoded I don’t feel bad about it at all I’m right #understand what’s going on in them and I’ll respect your theories. it’s like comics enjoyers but less chaotic #don’t let me get into comics. superheroes never really catch my interest but if you let me get into comics I’d explode #‘it gets really good’ is a genuine way to interest me #also don’t let me get into anime that do this. I already watched a thousand episodes of detective Conan— #maybe it’s a careful balance of weird and Good Storytelling Seeds. it has to have internal logic for one; and it has to have a structure #It has to be leading somewhere. and I want to see where it leads #we are GOING through the disney worlds. all of them. they are COOKING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[kaidanalenkosprmanager]

THE BEST OF GRISSOM ACADEMY

Featuring: Cmdr. Sophie Shepard, EDI, and Jack With: Flight Lt. Jeff "Joker" Moreau, Lt. James Vega, Ens. Jason Prangley, Ens. Rodriguez, David Archer, and Kahlee Sanders I never had a family- and these guys... Anyone screws with my students and I will tear them apart. Mass Effect 3: Legendary Edition (2021)

#mira makes gifs ✨ #james vega #sophie shepard #jeff joker moreau #EDI #jack #subject zero #david archer #kahlee sanders #mass effect #mass effect 3 #me3 #mass effect legendary edition #dailygaming #grissom is literally my favorite side mission in ME3 so i was so excited to make this omg #it just has it all- good plot + solid witty one liners + an awesome bunch of characters + a nice emotional moment like #and it stars jack who’s like one of my favorite ME2 squaddies so ??? it’s just an all around iconic mission #EDI has so much good grissom dialogue too and she looks mighty cute in her lil hunter hood! 🥹 #james has a few really good lines too but none of the ones i liked were in the cutscenes so it was sooo hard to get more of him in the set #i will say i forgot how much good jack dialogue there is in grissom like i just love and stan my girl so much #and now when i see her i think of saoirse and seamus every time like that’s THEIR GIRL KICKING ASS!! ✨✨ #her lines with prangley and rodriguez are top notch too honestly #but honestly my favorite moment is still shep and EDI’s conversations with david #like EDI’s soft little ‘no apology is necessary’? #when david says ‘the number of days you lengthened my life’? #i tear up a little bit playing grissom every time bc overlord is the best ME2 dlc and you cannot change my mind #also soph once again eating in cleric’s fabulous guardian armors for shepard (which will always be famous✨) #like the shoulders?? the omni mark?? the set is just talented. brilliant. incredible. show-stopping. spectacular. beautiful. iconic. #and soph's usually rep'ing the purples/deep reddish pinks but did i make the omni mark blue so we could rep spectre alenko colors? #i’ll let you be the judge ✨

[wantbytaemin]

NYE fit (snoopy slippers included)

#LMAO we’re just gonna be at our place first making fancy pizzas w fun ingredients #and then just drinking and having fun hehe #i literally got back from the airport an hour ago #but we said to dress up bc well it’s us so 😇 #i did get actually emotional putting on the jewelry im going to ring in the new year in #you can’t see it in the pics but im wearing an earring i got from cancer friend then another i got from roommate & a third one from léks #and a necklace annika made me and a bracelet i got from my mom and a ring i got from my work girlies and a ring i got from my London shawol #friend #im literally about to cry just typing this up LMAO jewelry as a gift is so so special to me and i cherish it w all my heart and it means #So ridiculously Much to me that someone would think of me and know me like this and OUHHHHH 🥹 #BEING LOVED & CARED FOR! incredible.

[jestroer]

Hello gay people in my puter! Today is a nice day as it is Birthday of my beloved mutual @zombiiehorse​​! As a present I made a fanart of their hit piece of Fan Fiction feathers almost feel like fur which is. SOOOOOO GREAT

What you guys should do is to go and read it and leave a kudos and a nice comment and bookmark! Its sooooooooooooo good guys i promise its an absolute banger piece of art boys go go go

Also I didnt plan on it but this thing does fit day 2 of @/ink-ghoul’s hermittober theme Soulmates as Martyn did say that him and Grian are soulmates destined to destroy each other so i will count it as well! :)

#Me drawin martyn inthelittlewood: im not drawing philza im not drawing philza im not drawing philza im not drawing philza im not drawing phi #i spent all day on this ngl #on reading the thing and at the same time sketching the thing and then finishing the thing #Had a blast! #Also SAM WHAT IS THIS THING #WHY DO YOU HAVE TO CAUSE EMOTIONAL DAMAGE TO ME #oughoughough now i get why are you obsessed with them god dammit #it was incredible #i will make sure more people go insane over them! #I'll very try at least #im may even make more fanart for it to make sure welll see #for now HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! :DDDD #court jester's art #hermittober 2022 #trafficshipping #in a way? there is a relationship tag in the fic boys #martyn inthelittlewood #inthelittlewood #grian #sam did you thing of a ship name for them #third life smp #3rd life smp #3rd life #hope i didnt forget anything #day later yes i forgot things #feathers almost feel like fur #court jester's fanfiction appreciation moment #i need to make a tag for fanart of sams fics im guessing this is not the last one

[ghostofasecretary]

it's been a while since i've cried hard enough to have a headache but. sure got there today, babes!

#ghost speaks #personal #ripped my favorite tights i've had for 5+ years and can't replace #can't return my glasses #got ptsd triggered by going past my old church because i took a wrong turn because i was. crying about not being able to return my glasses #have been crying for a solid 40 minutes straight #am still incredibly aware of how isolated and lonely i am #my parents are on vacation so i won't see a friendly face or get a hug till sunday night at the earliest #just. doing BAD #(well. there is the faint hope that the office manager will take pity on me since her office literally cannot manufacture lenses #that will meet my needs) #(but considering i spent a lot of the last hour yelling and begging out loud trying to work out a maximally sympathetic pitch) #(and also dreading 1-2 years of not having transition lenses because theirs fuck with my color vision) #(i'm not sure the hope makes things. better?) #i am gonna. make hot chocolate because it sounds like a marginal improvement over crying without that #the last time i couldn't stand up or i'd start crying harder was yesterday but boy did i not miss it #i thought i might feel better in the morning. ha. ha ha. ha #(like i know this is temporary i'm just. i just. i am so tired and SO stupidly ridiculously incredibly upset) #(like my emotional equilibrium right now is. not)

[0ystercatcher]

degrowth feels almost like the guilty consciouness of americans and europeans who have truly had it too good too long and you know it ehe but im sorry dude you cannot be fr telling the rest of the world to cut emissions or industrial activity when it barely fucking exists here while you reap the benefits of it all. when development has been cut short and actively prevented in so many places like my home so you mfs can have it easy and not have to compete w us for our own resources. degrowth is suicide for us and mass murder for you. you want degrowth so bad? kill yourself! just kill yourself. do your part or whatever and hopefully well do our part here attempting to make this shithole country better even if it costs us carbon emissions or whatever. as if we werent held back from it at every turn and as if every time weve tried america or canada or europe hasnt swept in to take everything weve produced for themselves.

#m #this is in part kind of an emotional reaction i iwill admit but like #doesnt it seem deeply unfair to you that the us and europe can partake in cheap energy fuel food etc for like a good fat century #at our expense and the moment they see oh hey that actually might come bck to bite us they decide no one else gets to have it that good any #-anymore bc of mistakes they did and egregious extractivism and war so they can have everything they need for cheap #making it harder and harder for the countries they loot and pillage to ever get anywhere near that level of development. its incredible #it just goes on and on and on the wars and the embargos and trade bans and the pseudo green bullshit to excuse themselves

[wayfinderships]

Good morning gamers!! Hope you're all doing well! As for me, I'm thinking about this bastard again-

#pan rambles #He looks good-I MEAN HAHA DID Y'ALL HEAR SOMETHING? #Jokes aside though. Knowing what a fashion disaster S.anji can be... I'm pleasantly surprised his egghead arc outfit isn't awful #I was fully prepared to have some awful color combo but it's actually nice #Blue and Yellow... That's also my s/is color scheme ahem- #talking about anythind related to the end of Wano or anything past that makes me 👉👈 A bit #Bc Panchi/S.anji officially start dating at the end of Wano #“Panchi did it really take over 1000 chapters?-” YES IT DID #They're both stubborn idiots who struggle to put their emotions into words! especially feelings of affection! #They'd sooner take a deadly hit for the other than admit they like each other! and the fact the two are so stubborn doesn't help #They're both incredibly flawed but they both grow to the point where my s/i can finally confess- #Ahem that was long ny apologies! #Ask me about S.anji/Panchi and you'll get a whole essay and sometimes even some of my writing- #I'm so normal about these two (Lying)

[aurosoul]

CW Pet Death

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a dog memorial that someone recently made along my favorite hiking trail 🌻 I've been keeping the flowers in place when the wind blows them away... someday I'd like to leave a little offering there in AR

#picture journal #animal memorials are so incredibly special to me #that we love things outside our own species so much #and extend this love even after death in the form of the rituals we use for each other #“love was here. love is still here. i remember.” #ghdjghj thinking about the pet memorial commission i did earlier this year and getting emotional all over again #cw pet death

[sapphosboy]

Was talking today with a friend about how monumental it was for me as a trans person and a lesbian who was uncomfortably presenting feminine, to meet my butch best friend in college, and how just being friends with them, and hearing about their experience as a butch really allowed me the space to feel comfortable exploring my own gender expression and identity, and how I feel like I’m a more complete person for having known them because they made me feel so incredibly safe in the journey and I now feel so much more comfortable presenting the way I want to and not the way I expect people to want me to, and the friend I was talking to said that I was that for them. So dress as faggy as you fucking want to and be as loud as you want to about it. It’s your god-given right to be DRIPPING with dykery and transgenderism because you never know if you’re going to be that lightbulb moment or safe queer space for someone!

#it made me more emotional and happy than I could possibly describe #The opposite of generational trauma lol #anyway shout out to my butch best friend #for giving me my first buzz cut #and helping me find a website to order a binder from #etc #and for being so fucking supportive when I started to explore masculinity #So Teddy if you see this #Thank you for everything and I really owe this journey to myself and to you #because I know what I was like and I never would’ve made that journey when I did if it wasn’t for you and your support #I was really letting fear control my life and you were the first person who told me it didn’t have to be that way #And it changed my life in the most incredible way #I get to experience queerness and transness in such a joyful and euphoric way every single day now #so thank youuuuuuu #I love you so much and I feel so lucky to be your friend #I don’t know if you’ll ever see this #but I like the thought but it’s out there on my Tumblr and you might one day read this #and tell Soph to accept my follow request on TikTok #transgender #butch #lesbian

[mattodore]

being able to trace behaviors and traits back to something as simple as matthias never having toys as a baby makes him feel so real to me...

#river dipping #matthias evanoff #echthroi #oc extras #guy who doesn’t watch movies or have any fun hobbies and just plays with ppl instead #so crazy love u matthias <3 #it's kind of crazy how i can open a google doc with no idea how to get where i need to in relation to an ask abt an oc #like point a to point b is unchartable #and then i just start typing and coming to realizations and putting pieces together that i'd never considered the full scope of #but that just. god. that just make SO much sense #not only like character-wise but like. this is how this would actually happen. #like all of these factors WOULD actually play a part in the way a child would grow and the outcome COULD be just like this #i'm a genius actually................. #dfjnkvkhnjfdgh #it's interesting to think abt how matthias had no toys but he did grow up in an incredibly ostentatious manor #so while he didn't have that to help him develop his social and emotional skills #he did have the contrasting colors and patterns to help develop and continue to stimulate his brain as he grew #hm................ no but i really am a genius btw. like for coming up with mattodore. why be humble abt it #everything just makes sense everything ties back to something #like i'll go back and i'll read their questionnaires and it's just like. YEAH... #even when i haven't filled in some blips like esp. irt theo's past... i think it takes very little examination to come #to those realizations yourself... like. obviously bc i've had an anon ask abt something they were picking up abt theo that was like!!! #yeah you're right!! i mean a little off in places but that's understandable. like you still GET IT! you SEE IT! which is crazy #like... lays down. mattodore feel real. they make sense. it just makes me smile.......... :) #loving my ocs today so baddddd #but anyway enough oc plague having it’s nene time ! #and then i’ll get to my activity though i can’t lie i am gnawing my phone atm bc Interaction….. you understand #the personality disorder <3 #my best friend mwah ten years strong babe