#I didn’t realize it’s been 2 weeks

[biblionerd07]

ugly betty rant

Pro Betty seasons 1 and 2. Anti Betty season 3 and 4. Betty 3 had more attitude and was more self-centered. She acts confused as to why Gio could possibly hate her after breaking his heart. She tells Mark to admit cheating on Cliff but refuses to do it herself with Matt. In season 4 she gets mad at Matt for being hurt about her cheating on him. I do not blame both of them one bit. I like Betty with Daniel better because she kinda becomes him. I blame the writer strike for the inconsistency of her character.

See I actually think it’s good that Betty got more attitude and got self-centered. She needed to stop letting everyone walk all over her! And she was barely 25 or 26 by the time the show ended—your early 20s are FOR being self-centered so you can figure yourself out. And I will never feel sorry for Matt because I straight up hate him lmao. I never liked him, even when he was more doofy in season 3. He definitely did have a right to feel hurt for Betty kissing Henry and then not telling him. He did NOT have a right to take that out on her at work. Especially because he took the job specifically to do that! And I think it does actually make sense for Betty to hide that from him, because Hilda was pushing her not to and Betty was always really influenced by Hilda. Sometimes she was influenced by trying not to be like Hilda but when it came to boyfriend stuff Betty trusted Hilda. That’s a big part of why she took Walter back and why the whole Atlantic City/hotel thing happened.

There is definitely sooo much inconsistency though and sadly I think only some of it can be attributed to the writers’ strike. I think a lot of it was just bad writing tbh. It almost felt like the writers all had different things they wanted from the show and everyone was writing their own version lol.

Matt’s entire season 4 arc makes zero sense. He was getting out of publishing because he lost his passion for it, but he found his passion again to torture Betty. Then there’s an entire episode of him with a new date and Betty realizing she can be alone and she needed to move on from him. And then they realize they still have feelings for each other and get back together? She has her pregnancy scare and they are so not on the same page there but they don’t break up. Then we get an entire episode about how she thinks he’s so annoying…but they still stay together?? And Betty, who has always been loud and exuberant, says her passion is quieter and more hidden? Like okay I guess. And then Matt randomly decides to drop everything and leave and he’s mentioned like one more time and then never again despite how long they dated. I think the cancelation news was sometime in there and probably contributed but what was going ON in that writers’ room???

#ugly Betty #I really wish Betty had been single for season 4 #she could’ve tried dating around and not getting serious with anyone #we still could’ve had the Zachary boule storyline #but she was in a serious relationship for 90% of the show #despite the end of season 2 being her realizing she needs to find out who she is on her own #I guess she did that in 3 weeks lol #the Gio thing I think was more because Betty didn’t see them as really dating #Gio had feelings for her for so long and was rightfully hurt #but Betty was always kind of hypocritical and self-righteous and she always wanted everyone to like her #so she just bulldozed his feelings and tried to force him to be her friend #I really liked that he gave her that reality check and then Claire does too with Matt’s mom #she had to learn that not only was Gio fully valid in his feelings but also that she can’t force anyone to like her #and she needs to keep living her life even if someone doesn’t want to be her friend #honestly season 4 as a whole makes very little sense

[goldkirk]

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#2023 is the year that I get my finances and my financial trauma sorted out #because it’s either this or it kills me and I’m all done leaving myself open to being killed #have to do a lot of hard work realizing how bad the money stuff was re: hours per week of being trapped in the kitchen with 1-2 people #damning me if I did and damning me if I didn’t #and one of them constantly watching my bank account because they had access till I was 25 #and all the fear they put in me and how they trained me to sabotage myself for them #NO MORE #it is not as scary to just face the hellish nightmare zone of loans and debts and not enough money for butter or dog food or whatever #than it is to not face it and live in guiltridden fear all the time #at least with the first option I have itemized spreadsheets I can take to debtors and a bankruptcy attorney if needed #I’d love to find a second job again but it’s been pretty hard #but regardless #no more avoidance NO MORE AVOIDANCE avoidance and shame don’t get me anywhere #the only thing that will is holding hands with the shame and the terror #and if all goes well #maybe I’ll be able to finally get my root canal and other cavities done 2 years late #and also rebuild some savings #mostly just I gotta do this or I’m going to give myself high blood pressure and an ulcer by the end of the year I cannot handle a mother #year of looming financial threat #it’s getting sorted out this year or not at all #and I’m all out of accepting ‘not at all’s #shh katie

[unknownlemoneater]

WHY DO I DRAW SO FUCKIN SLOW

#IVE BEEN WORKING ON THE SAME SKETCH FOR 2 WEEKS #I didn’t realize two weeks even past THE DAYS ARE GETTING SHORTER #i’m not even working on anything big #lemons.thoughts #Digital art is hard :(

[ringneckedpheasant]

reflecting on some of my Behaviors as a child/teenager & I am starting to think I may also 1) have been having Compulsions & 2) some of my recurring intrusive thoughts are things i’ve been thinking about since I was very young & didn’t know what intrusive thoughts were & for some reason I never registered that Those thoughts were probably related to the other, more frequent/worse intrusive thoughts I started having as I got older

#not looking good lads #marc.txt #I don’t know how I would bring it up with my therapist because i’ve been seeing her for almost 4 years & #have never brought up having intrusive thoughts besides saying a handful of times that I have them #& the compulsion stuff is. mm. behavior that is harmless to anyone but me but is still weirdly embarassing to talk about #& i’ve been doing it so long it feels like innate behavior so #I didn’t realize it was a Genuine compulsion until about a half hour ago #kept telling myself to stop and Could Not for like. probably 10 minutes & when I realized how much I was having to fight against it #I could feel an anxiety attack coming on #anyway. I’ve been sort of accidentally mostly on purpose lying by omission for 4 years #& I feel like that would make things Weird with my therapist #who is currently on vacation & will be for another 2 weeks hence. this. #sorry abt it

[cybercanadian]

it’s been a pretty good week

I’m off after finishing my job full time, I got a job as a taproom server, and I have a date tomorrow night

#I’ve also been real emotional about my ex #I told him I didn’t want to be friends bc I realized I had a lot of anger/resentment from when we were together #and he blew up at me and called me a gaslighter so that was great #but I’m coming to terms with it and understanding that his feelings are still hurt from when I cheated on him and #although that wasn’t the reason for the breakup I don’t think I acknowledged it enough #but ANYWAY #I’m going back to work part time on Monday #but only for 2 weeks then I start the job at the brewery #I’m really excited!

[aspennntree]

dealing with The Horros :(

(my wrist hurts)

#i now realize why i didn’t play pokémon for like 2 weeks #because controllers :( #i gamed too hard :( #i’ve been playing totk all day for like the past 3 days #i bought it on like tuesday and i already have over 20 hours in #tree talks

[cynical-cemeteries]

since i wanna branch out to sharing more of my traditional art,, and not Only Digital,, i wanted to start with these drawings i did of lairei recently!!! LET’S GO LAIREI LET’S GO

#my artwork #lord of heroes #loh #lord of heroes fanart #lord of heroes lairei yen #lord of heroes lairei yen fanart #also shoutout to lairei for getting me out of this damn artblock #i’ve been so quote unquote Scared of my sketchbook these past few weeks #like i have the full blank spread laid out and i literally don’t know what to do. it’s not a new sketchbook either #like the inspiration wasn’t there #but then i realized that the stuff i wanted to draw involved ocs (that at least 98% don’t have designs established) #so i wanted to draw my ocs but i didn’t know where to start. like what if i got it wrong y’know #but i realized like 2 days ago that i could draw a character who has a design i’m already familiar with and that was miss lairei #honestly guys like if you looked through my sketchbook there’s just so much of her in there. she’s my everything #her design is literally ingrained into my memory at this point #i think it’s also good to improve the way that i draw her in general so this is great practice for me #anyway :)) fellow lairei lovers here is some food 🫶🫶

[switchytransboy]

sigh

#after years #i saw my emotionally abusive ex in MY OWN area like 2 or less weeks ago #and i hate so fucking god damn much to say it #but i think it affected me a lil more than i expected it to #beginning engaging in polyamory brought some of that trauma back #but then after that happened… fucking SEEING THEM?? in PERSON?? after YEARS? #what. are. the. fucking. ODDS. #and during such a sensitive time for me too when sm other shit is happening #idk #been having the most randomly timed flashbacks #to the good times #and the bad #and how it affects me still now #its a lot #i didn’t realize i didn’t heal from all of it yet #and that SUCKS #it makes me so angry she still holds power over me #even so far removed from my life #there was only ONE place i knew there would be a good chance of running into her #and i mentally prepare for that every time i go #but seeing her when i’m so not prepared or expecting it #and in the safety of my own area #fuck her yo #fuck. her. #she was my first love #she’s literally fucking gorgeous #and has the most toxic ugly personality in her when she decides she wants to use you #i hate it #sorry #needed this out somewhere before my work day and my partner is sleeping LOL

[small-strong-bookish-butch]

Is there something Going On universe-energy wise right now (/the whole last week)? Because goddamn things have sucked lately for many of the queer people in my life. Not even in a queerphobia way! Just other stressful life stuff!!

#personal #vague #not-too-specific explanations in tags #i was just about losing my mind (bad) over this cat because I didn’t realize how often he needed to play #and he didn’t have a scratch post for the first week #one of my friends is going through a hard slow relationship thing and idk how it’ll turn out #last weekend both of my siblings were upset with my mom (for valid reasons. and i asked about it) #one of my other friends. i learned recently. is needing to suddenly move because of safety concerns at her current building #(who also lives with the people we do double date night with. one of whom is one of n’s closest friends) #apparently Safety Issues and Shitty Apartment have been going on for a short but intense time for all 3 of them #just now learning that my best friend’s other best friend is going through Big Health things #also i have a new coworker who just Left like 2 times today. she tried to talk to me about it and i should have said i’m not a manager. idk #i feel like she won’t be here long but in the meantime it’s another slightly stressful thing

[rmbunnie]

Happy Undertale Anniversary! Here’s my drawing of this absolutely bonkers prompt my dear friend gave me in her “have fun at college” card to me, because I guess i talk about projects Mr. Toby Fox was involved in just that much <3 Fucking. Sans Maryam and his stand ability Oh Fuck, God, I Just Give Up.

#just realized the stand name is in her typing quirk can’t lose can i #really wish i would #let’s ignore the fact that the closest undertale equivalent to kanaya is toriel because that’s just too easy #the closest to sans would be. i don’t know. let’s not play this game. #i actually didn’t finish the comic i quit like 7000-8000 pages in #because i heard how it ends #and the ending was so abysmally unsatisfying that i eventually just lost the will to keep reading #but maybe i’ll pick it back up sometime (i want to see Roxy) and just stop. after game over. #sans #sans undertale #kanaya maryam #i refuse to call this fanart #i’m not gonna tag jojo because i actually post jojo all the time #and this are that are not the same #oh yeah also i’ll get back to posting proper art soon i promise #i just moved cities and started college like 2 weeks ago so i’ve been a little busy #also my friend wants me to specify that she meant pose not post

[galaxywhale-moved]

coworker forgot she was on duty today and didn’t come out to replace me so now ive lost 10 minutes of my lunch break that’s only 25 minutes to start with 🙃

#i know mistakes happen but I’m pissed lol #‘I’m so sorry I didn’t even realize’ as though the timetable hasn’t been the same for the last 3+ months… #i know it’s week one after 2 weeks off but :| #probably wouldnt care as much if this wasn’t the coworker who’s always 2-3 minutes late to replace me anyway lol #also means I don’t have time to properly get ready for after lunch #which is kinda on me bc I should’ve been ready anyway but I figured hey I can eat and then find a book to use #but nope :) #and also my fucking throat hurts when I talk bc of stupid hayfever and I’m ready to go home tbh

[kiegotakami]

no no no no no no no no the fucking race that I’m running in later this month is in-person

#I do it every year but this is the first time in YEARS that I haven’t trained #so I was gonna mostly walk it this year assuming it would be remote like the last 2 years #but it’s not. which means I have to drive an hour to the location the day of and make it back before work. SOMEHOW #the way I was consistent for 2 years of running almost every day and now I can count on both hands how many times I have run this year 😐 #I’m actually so devastated and embarrassed #I didn’t realize at all and now everyone’s gone be like. how’d you not realize 🤨 #I just now opened the packet they sent. #I can’t believe this #I have exactly 2 weeks to train #I can’t even stretch comfortably rn. BRO. #I don’t even have time for training. gonna cry myself to sleep #I even bought myself new shoes a month or 2 ago and haven’t been able to run more than once #FUCKAKSJSJHD #maybe I am making excuses. but I’m overworked and I’m tired #and my feet hurt every day and I have no time for any of my hobbies #not editing. not running. so I’m gonna complain. AAAAAAAA #kyra speaks

[ifeelfreewithoutmyshoes]

I kinda wanna go on a rant but I honestly just think I need to sleep

#and be alone for like 24 hours #I haven’t had a day withou any plans/other people for at least three weeks #and I’ve had busy weeks before that as well #and my next week will be busy as well #it’s a lot #I’ve put in FREE in my calendar to make sure I don’t have plans then #and this weekend I was supposed to be off but it was the only week I could meet up with my cousins #it was super fun but my brother was kinda like so how did u think it went #and overall I think it went well and so did he #one of my cousins was feeling less so yesterday apparently #but once again I really think it went the best it could have been #one of my cousins fucked kinda up tho and arrived at like half past midnight bc he double booked himself #and his sister was feeling kinda bad for him that ha arrived so late and we would just head to bed so he didn’t get anything out of that day #whereas I very much felt like it was his own fucking fault #I was not gonna stay out till half past 2 when I’d been out partying the day before and I’d already felt just seeing them Saturday/Sunday #took a lot of my energy #that was kinda the rant anyway #but it was a nice discussion with my brother about it #bc I was also slightly annoyed by some of them playing Pokémon go instead of the board game the five of us was playing #but talking it out with him helped with that so it’s fine #then now as I was vacuuming I started getting annoyed at one of my cousins bc #I think it’s ridiculous that he can’t respect his trans brother (my cousin)’s new name and pronouns #so he’s got a free pass to use the old one #bc my other cousin asked bc no one ever really told her what was going on and she heard different things #and I’m still annoyed by that I find it weak as fuck #our grandmother I get but my cousin is 19 he can fucking do better #anyway at that point I realized how stupid tired I am and that’s probably not helping #but since it’s only 7 pm and I need dinner and stuff I can’t sleep yet #so here’s the rant instead I guess #me

[sleepymaddy]

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#me.txt #just realized I am unironically that ‘could a depressed person have made this???’ meme #except instead of whatever it is in the episode #it’s 50k of the most boring and plain fiction ever written #spread over like 15 projects bc it was the only way to avoid the physically painful waves of shame and loathing over my ideas #this is something I should discuss in therapy but idek what I’m on about #so I really don’t know how I could. explain it? #things to tackle then: #1. my inability to estimate mood #and for that I need to fill in her journal thing but like #I can identify good or bad things but it doesn’t translate into a mood #I know there are days that are supposed to be good but? they didn’t really feel different #2. the certainty that I’m fine actually? I’m fine. look I wrote 50k and also I went to work every day #also I haven’t been crying as much #so clearly it was hormonal and I’m fine. as mom said. #I just have to find a job I like and then I’ll be fixed and it’s on me for not doing that earlier #maybe also do sports and it’ll be fine. i just don’t bc I’m too lazy and so I feel bad in direct correlation or punishment #3. that anxiety scenario thing has been plaguing me for two weeks #the concept of having to write it and then read it out loud and then record it and then listen to it? nope. cant. the shame is like. lethal #4. but it ties into 2; looked for a psychiatrist and didn’t find one #but also feeling very silly about the whole thing? i don’t need meds. I’m fine. i wrote 50k this month. i even enjoyed things #like that movie and being able to focus on a character #that’s a sign I’m fine. it’s proof I’m fine and that I’m not focusing on work or doing the other important tasks #only out of laziness and bc I’m a bad and selfish person who’s going to get what’s coming to her #…..yeah. i don’t want to go. #but I also wanted to disappear very very very badly when I woke up this morning so probably I should eh #other vague threads: the job from a distance and the life I should have #and the devaluing of nano while it also being the proof I’m fine

[wifeposts]

Huge sailboat downtown that was bigger than all the buildings… this ship is used as a learning experience for teens and it’s sailing down the coast and when they stopped in our city the class took a tour of where I work. That’s what they did in our town! Of all other places to tour they toured… my job. Crazy

#I didn’t even realize at the time because there’s classes in there touring pretty frequently it’s only been 2 weeks and there’s been 3 tours #2023 #autumn

[plutotunealouette]

ugh this week has taken…. ever so slightly more of a toll on my physical and mental health than i realized

#send good vibes pls #I didn’t realize how much these past 2 weeks had affected me until I realized how unproductive I’ve been #like I’ve got NOTHING done even though I actually have things to do #bleh #it’s okay I working on being kinder to myself and the consequences of letting this week just be a write off aren’t that extreme so #I’ll just take it nice an easy tomorrow and try and come back stronger on Monday #ursa speaks