#I didn't mean to make this so complex

[skydigiblogs]

this was originally supposed to just be the first image and i was supposed to stop there

then i decided to shade and finish it bsdhfbshjdfvdsjfds

i've never been able to draw devimon and finish a piece with it at the focus before now so i'm pretty proud of this

also the wings are heavily inspired by ST-344's artwork!! it's giving distressed jeans vibes (/j)

#digimon #devimon #digimon art #digimon fanart #sky's art #i finally started adhd medication and i'm trying to make the best of having energy in the evenings now to do art #one of the reasons we didn't really do a lot of digimon art was primarily the level of detail dissuading us from it #we can draw detailed characters yeah #(we're a grand chase fan for goodness sake) #but the mix of complex detail and odd proportions would often disincentivize our brain and we'd end up with unfinished sketches #also did you know some card artwork of devimon depicts them with hair??? #it's such an interesting detail #like i know ladydevimon has hair and all but i'm so used to seeing devimon in the anime with that full-length cowl and no visible hair that #well it was jarring #if you look on wikimon at some of the older card art you can see what i mean

[stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale]

favourite twdg villain?

I'm a fond enjoyer of the St. John's as villains. I don't know if they're my favorite just because they're only in one episode, but I love the concept of this family almost immediately jumping into cannibalism toward the start of the outbreak, dealing in human flesh to bandits, and casually feeding this group their friend's legs.

Like... what the hell was this family like before the outbreak that all three of them were like, "Hey now listen... nothing should go to waste, the dead are eating people so why shouldn't we? We gotta survive and in our defense, we only target those who were gonna die anyway... like y'all."

Dude, Mark was shot in this shoulder with an arrow. He wasn't going to die from that injury. It's so fucked that these seemingly friendly people took the group into their home and then fed them Mark's legs.

If we take the idea that everyone is infected and have the capacity within themselves to become walkers, to become monsters, then the St. John's were infected long before the outbreak, y'know? Not literally, but something was wrong with them and the outbreak just further spread that infection and changed them.

But again, are they my favorite? I dunno if I can say that since I have a lot more appreciation for Lily now. Yeah, some of her writing gets a little wonky in ep3 of TFS when she goes on her monologues and shit, but y'know what? I'm into it.

You have to remember who we're talking about and the fact that she's the antagonist; Lily isn't some anti-hero in TFS who secretly has a heart of gold that's brought to light because she reunited with Clementine... she's a fucked up woman who did fucked up things in the name of survival. She's full of rot now. She sees kidnapping children and turning them into soldiers to protect her home as a means to an end, but she doesn't actually give a shit about the people she's taking. They aren't people to her, they're as the episode title suggests, toys in her game. The only one she sees as a person is Clementine, and while that makes her hesitate at first, she sees Clementine's a prize to bring back.

She remembers what happened in S1; her father had a heart attack and as she tried to save him, Kenny smashed his face in with a saltlick and then expected Lily to just stand up and help him get back to his family because "he did what he had to, he made the hard choice." Yes, Larry was a piece of shit. No one liked him, and you can even question Lily on him and she'll tell you that he has a lot of pain. Yes, it makes him an asshole, but he's still her dad and he's all she has. I mean... the simplification is daddy issues, but in all seriousness, I don't doubt for a second that many of Lily's issues stem from Larry being a shitty father to her.

Then everyone thought she was losing it when she insisted there was a traitor in the group, which she was right about, but she was unstable. She was unwell, but how do you help someone like that when you don't have training to go about it? Then Lily ends up killing either Carley or Doug and the group turns on her, and either she's left behind or she steals the van and runs away.

Then we don't know what the hell happened to her until we see her again in TFS, but like... a lone woman with decay festering inside of her joining the delta? Exposing her to their methods? I mean, what else did she have to lose? She had nothing, she lost everything, and she has a lot of issues. Survival is easy when you're numb, when you don't care about the individual; they're all just cogs churning to make the system run, and if a piece doesn't cooperate, you get rid of it and find a new one.

Plus I think there's something to say about Lily not wanting to be perceived as weak again. That whole display she put on in the cells? Telling the story of what happened to Minerva and Sophie? I get the criticism that it feels like Lily did a 180 between episodes but like... yeah dude, because it's a performance. It's not just her and Clementine anymore. It's a display of power and authority. She's playing the part and thriving in it as she ensures everyone else is terrified of her.

But then when Clementine and AJ get the upper hand? Again, she's not afraid to play up the pleading to earn enough sympathy to spare her- hell, just to let their guard down enough to strike and get the upper hand again. I mean, she's got nothing else to lose, right? If she doesn't go for it, she'll be killed and sure, you can kill her anyway but at least she tried.

Honestly, I look at Lily in TFS and still see that scared little girl playing the tough bitch, just like Carley said in S1. It's just now escalated from "tough bitch" to a downright vile person. She's so... lost? I suppose? Lost within herself and the monstrous means she's taken to survive.

I get the criticisms of how she was used in TFS, but for me, it's like when people complain about Minerva not getting the redemption arc she supposedly should've gotten, y'know? There's no saving her. Lily was never on our side, and there was no getting her on our side. She wasn't ever going to redeem herself. Even if you spare her and she drifts away on her raft, can someone like her actually find redemption? Or will she just find another group that'll feed into her rot?

Truly, I say let her be horrid. Let her be the piece of shit villain with a few fleeting moments of humanity. Let her drown in the blood she's spilled.

#asks #twdg lily #twdg andy st john #twdg danny st john #twdg brenda st john #twdg clementine #twdg minerva #twdg mark #twdg larry #twdg kenny #i know i used to complain about lily in tfs a lot years ago but past cj complained about everything tbh sksksks #now i'm just like babe lily's interesting as shit like not every villain needs a redemption arc just because you think they're hot #and don't wanna feel bad or because you want her to be like she was in s1 when she was sympathetic like... it's been years #that's like being mad that clementine isn't the same person as she was in s1... the difference is we got to see clementine grow #but what happened to lily is a mystery... but that doesn't mean she didn't change especially for the worst #i dunno sometimes i look at lady antagonists in media and then look at people's reactions and i'm like.......... hmmmm #c'mon now- if kenny came back in tfs the same exact way then y'all would be foaming at the mouth insisting he's complex #and morally grey and he's just really sad about his family dying and really he's a sad widdle meow meow but also the best villain #who should be spared because he always cared about clementine and aj and he's just traumatized and sad and amazing unlike OTHERS #like.................... okay sure mmhmmmm #side note but the worst thing about kenny is the fact that he IS a brilliantly written character but his stans tend to just be the worst #anyway i like lily she's a great tfs antagonist like i recognize there are some weak spots and i wish she has more of a presence in ep4 #if she lived but y'know... gotta make room for minerva being the final bridge boss so... yeah

[uncanny-tranny]

I think many people cognitively understand that retributive justice is often ineffective and simply violent, but they don't want to rid themselves of the almost collective anger mindset that permits this kind of justice to remain in place, even socially. In short, the mindset still treats people as though they must be punished as severely as possible, and when one is wronged, the mindset goes to how violence can be used, which is not inherently the same as righting wrongs.

Justice is complex, and it's messy. That's why it's so important not to treat it simplisticly with only one solution.

#politics #retributive justice #and like... when it's you and your anger and your hurt it becomes really hard and i GET that... #...i just don't know if that impulse will always help either party... #...like i said justice is complex amd anger and hurt can make that really hard to remember #it is really hard to grapple with these feelings especially knowing like... there's going to be no consequences for my abuser... #...no retributive justice no anything else. not even acknowledgement as everybody pretends they didn't witness my abuse and the drama... #...but even as this happens - would i feel any better with retributive justice? what about everybody else? #that's what i mean when i say it's complex... #...that most injustices will go unpunished and that's part of the reason (i think) why people immediately swing to violence... #...because it feels like... we are so angry about this being brought to light and the ONLY way to ammend this is with violence #and i know that somebody might project onto this post that i'm saying that every Bad Person should be handled with kid gloves... #...and that's not really what i'm getting at. what i'm getting at is that we should be more critical of solving EVERY issue as violently... #...as possible - INCLUDING in social settings #violence is often inevitable especially at a large scale but that doesn't mean it is always the most effective nor the most realistic

[dr3amofagame]

forgive me my demons but i see this take so much and it drives me a little crazy . c!Sam is stupid, obviously. He has no self-awareness, he somehow completely misses on the fact that his actions have social ramifications, he has a sense of entitlement a mile high and thinks that everyone automatically should fall in line and agree with his authority just because he decides that he has it. he navigates conversations with the grace of a wrecking ball because he assumes that everyone will agree with him being In The Right and therefore doesn't actually go for much more convincing half the time than "do what i say or you'll end up locked up in an inescapable prison." his moral compass is a roulette wheel and his justifications incomprehensible.

but at the same time, c!Sam is far from unintelligent. like, not just anyone was going to CREATE and then RUN pandora's fucking vault. he made a world eater ?? if there's like anyone on the server that could reasonably create shit to cause mass destruction across the server other than like the literal fucking nukes, then yeah it'd be him, see the world eater again. sure, he makes the craziest fucking assumptions off the fact that he's Right And Justified And The Ultimate Authority And Everyone Should Agree With That, but he's also able to lie and manipulate and gaslight and coerce and threaten pretty much without breaking a sweat if he ever deems doing so necessary for his own goals, and it's not like the methods by which he does so are like, all that clumsy either. like people absolutely bought his whole deal early on in the prison arc, believing him to be a well-meaning, burdened Warden doing Whatever It Takes for the good of the server, which did in large part have to do with how his character talked about the prison to others and such, etc. just because c!sam is crazy bonkers and expects his ex to forgive him chopping their arm off doesn't mean that he's completely incapable of being pretty damn convincing at some points.

and like, even more importantly, his being dumb really didn't make him ANY less intimidating. i'd argue that it made him A LOT WORSE, honestly! just because his moral bullshit is twisted up in knots doesn't mean that he's any less dangerous for it. c!sam is, honestly, from the top of my head, one of the most casual about being violent on the server, purely because he believes he has a Right to it. he believes that people owe him obedience by virtue of who he is. he threw several people into pandora's vault WITHOUT LIKE, ANYONE KNOWING just because he decided that they deserved to be put in prison. he kidnaps a toddler??? c!Sam really doesn't bend himself in half trying to justify things according to someone else's moral system; as he literally does in that one scene with c!Bad during the stream where they investigated Sam Bucket, he literally just. is the epitome of the guy that lets himself do shit because he has a self-written permit that says i do what i want. the only thing getting in the way of c!sam's bullshit is c!sam, and i think that people honestly chronically overestimate how much he holds himself back from horrific violence. he stabbed a teenager to Make A Point about his authority? he repeatedly threatens hannah, one of his own employees, because of things she did while being mind controlled--and then like, uses this to excuse himself of? workplace harassment? in the stream after techno escapes with dream, he literally MAKES UP A REASON to be really fucking angry at dream and then threatens TO TORTURE HIM over it. when new people joined the server he would threaten them with a sword for asking questions about the prison in a way that seemed too 'dream sympathetic.' and he regularly tells people that he would commit all the atrocities again, including ponk, because he's entirely 100% convinced that everything he does is justified?

and a lot of the stuff people hold against him, like. sure, his plan to contain technoblade didnt work, but it SURE DID WORK BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE THAT TRIED, DIDNT IT? like techno would've been decently screwed if he didn't have a statis chamber set up. and well, the situation with dream speaks for itself--he was stuck in there for ten months. a lot of what people attribute to c!Sam's stupidity really does very little if anything to make him less scary--less effective, maybe, but for every time his moral bullshit gets in the way of him getting something that he wants there's probably a few other times you can find where his ability to justify himself out of anything makes him do something fucking ridiculous . anyway i dont even have a point to all of this except c!sam is scary as fuck bro

#c!Sam critical #c!Sam neg #like he's bonkers. #also like the times he fails are like well his TNT plot didnt work against the eldritch egg like that's HIS fault #and then stuff like well he let tommy die like that was just about stupidity and had nothing to do with him showing the fuck off #i feel like he gets underestimated a lot in fandom lmao which like. i mean. #honestly c!sam's victim complex 'oo i had to do it im not a bad guy i just didn't have a choice' copium is off the damn charts #so it's a little funny to see i think the way his pathetic paper bagisms end up reflected in fandom attitudes about him #also people way underestimate c!sam's ability to manipulate like for real #just because he's weirdly and terrifyingly earnest at the craziest moments because he thinks he sounds perfectly normal #while saying like the craziest bullshit you've ever heard in your life #doesnt make him incapable of lying and shit when he thinks he has to #anyway #i love him your honor

[blueskittlesart]

me, thinking that i have at least a base level understanding of botw: :)

blue, about to write a 1,000+ word essay that is going to completely revamp my understanding of the game and interpretation of its events: bada bing bada boom

i dont know how you do it. i am incredibly impressed and using all of this for fic inspiration. keep writing

every time someone asks me how i do this shit i have to regrettably inform them that the real genuine answer is that i am fucking insane. my 2 passions in life are writing and video games and the place where the 2 converge fascinates me to no end and i am that special kind of crazy that is capable of latching onto something and not thinking about anything else for 10 years. so. the only thing i have cared about deeply for the last several years of my life has been the way video games are written and constructed. and zelda is one of the most interestingly constructed franchises i have found to date. these games are just like. the absolute perfect story for my brain to work with and i truly do not know who i would be without them. and i am genuinely incredibly grateful that ive been able to build a platform where people like. CARE about what i have to say and take the time to ask me to think about the games because like. i would be doing it ANYWAY but knowing that there are people who actually read my analysis and appreciate the amount of thought i put into this stuff makes me really happy lol

#i sincerely think video games are an art form and that so many stories benefit from being told interactively via video games #and i'm especially fascinated with the way loz chooses to tell its stories because the games are almost always designed so that the player #actively makes every decision in the storyline even though every game only has one preset ending. that's SO COOL. #ive found myself frustrated recently by rpgs that are super cutscene heavy and i was struggling to articulate why until i went back and #looked critically at the way zelda games are designed and i realized that there isn't a single cutscene in loz that openly takes away the #player's autonomy. cutscenes are almost always reserved for dialog or the beginnings of fight scenes but link almost never makes choices #without the player's input and that's a huge part of what keeps the games engaging! YOU are link. he's not a vessel you occasionally #control. he is you. his decisions are always yours. #and that's generally easier to do with a less complex storyline but the way botw kept that autonomy despite its complex story is SO clever #by making the cinematic cutscenes MEMORIES there's never any percieved loss of autonomy because the player understands that this is #something that has already happened so obviously there's no way they can alter link's choices. that's SO SMART #ANYWAY. i didn't mean for this to be a tag essay about video game mechanics sorry but tldr i am so so so passionate about this LOL #if you cant tell. very few people irl will listen to me talk for this long. this is why i love tumblr #asks

[trans-axolotl]

for about two years now ive struggled with relapses in self harm and have not really known how to deal with my desires for harm, health, and existing thoughts on antipsychiatry. ive been accessing psychiatric resources for well over a decade with a lot of trauma inflicted over that time. ive also dealt with really harsh approaches to reducing self harm that both began the problem in the first place and worsened it.

ive been working with my therapist to stop self harming but, to be honest, i have no desire to stop. i try my best to reduce risk where i can such as not self harming in an emotional state, using clean implements, and keeping it light. previously i didnt care about any of those things and self harm was mainly a dangerous coping mechanism. but now i see it almost as a form of body modification with a lot of intentionality to it.

i really dont know what to think. its objectively dangerous since i am harming myself but i also cant agree with the general aims of therapy and psychiatry to stop self harming as an ultimate goal. i want to be happy and healthy and for me that means living with self harm as a reality of something i will continue to do. and i think its my right as an autonomous person to choose what i do with my body, even if its harmful. yet i can feel the claws of psychiatry and feel so much shame and hatred towards the fact i cant stop. or more significantly, that i dont want to.

sorry for such a long ask, but essentially what im getting at is, how does one handle harm reduction when there is no desire to ever fully stop? i believe in my own right to bodily autonomy but ive also been told repeatedly that using my bodily autonomy to harm myself makes me undeserving of it and instead in need of carceral punishment. how do i even begin to navigate those contradictions of feeling like ive been horribly hurt and dehumanized and feeling like on some level ive deserved that dehumanization because of the pain i inflict? is self harm as body modification even a concept or idea that people have discussed? since i mainly just see it discussed as a coping mechanism.

content note: continued discussion of self harm and self harm methods.

Hi, anon. Thanks so much for reaching out.

I really resonated with so much of what you shared. It's really hard to try to navigate all our feelings associated with self harm when we are constantly hearing from society that our self harm makes us dangerous or unworthy or unable to live outside of institutions. For me, it honestly feels really violating when other people like providers try to push their narrative of what self harm means onto me. My relationship with my self harm is so personal and there's a lot of different meaning I attach to it, and I want the room to be able to talk about it in a way that actually makes sense to me.

Something that's helped me in trying to navigate all of this for myself is really just to come back to these values of bodily autonomy and harm reduction. A really important harm reduction value for me is that it is completely okay if people don't ever stop (whether we're talking about drugs, self harm, disorderly eating, etc). It's important to me that we can defend people's right to do all these things and recognize that harm reduction should not be just another method of coercion trying to convince people to stop. I strongly believe that people can have meaningful and valuable lives that also include self harm as a part of our lives. I want to build a world where we can say that we're not interested in completely stopping self harm and that statement is not reacted to with shame or blame, but rather with curiosity and respect for the fact that we are the experts on our own lives and choices. Part of encouraging autonomy is recognizing that we are allowed to make choices about our lives that might not be what the psych system wants us to make.

Anyway, all of this is to say: I think it's okay if you're not interested in ever stopping self harming, and I know a lot of people who also feel similarly to you. You absolutely have the right to interpret your self harm in a way that makes sense for you. I've definitely heard other people talk about self harm as body modification (I think some of the harm reduction zines in this google drive might talk about it, but I haven't read through them in a while. Continued content note for discussion of self harm, self harm methods, and diagrams of anatomy and self harm). It makes a lot of sense why you might connect self harm and body modification, and that's something that would resonate with a lot of other people. You have the right to build a life that includes self harm as a part of it, and find a way to do it that makes sense for your body and life.

That feeling of dehumanization you described is so so real. I really just feel a lot of rage towards a psychiatric system that makes us feel so hurt and conflicted. Untangling that learned shame and hatred towards ourselves is so fucking hard, but just know that you are not alone in that and that we have the right to reject the ways the psych system punishes us.

And I want to be clear that none of this is to downplay the very real harm, pain, or risk that can come with self harm, but rather to point out that abstinence only methods, shame, and carceral psychiatry did not do anything to support me with that. Instead, it left me feeling trapped and like it was worthless to even try to figure out what I needed in really difficult moments. So I also really just want to acknowledge and celebrate all the stuff you listed in your ask--using clean implements, not self harming in an emotional state, and keeping it light. I'm really glad that you've found some steps to take that make self harm more manageable for you. Those are not lesser steps or a waste of your time just because you are not interested in stopping self harm, and those things are such a great example of how harm reduction doesn't require you to stop self harming in order to make some changes that reduce risk.

Just sending a lot of love and solidarity to you, anon, from another person who is not interested in completely stopping self harm, even as my relationship to my self harm shifts and changes over the years. There are a lot of us out here and we deserve to have the space to openly talk about these things without facing judgement.

💜💜💜💜

#asks #self harm tw #antipsych #psych abolition #harm reduction #harm reduction is so important to me. didn't go on this in the main post bc it's a tangent but just like #the co-optation of harm reduction by the gov and nonprofits makes me so fucking annoyed. #i learned harm reduction from other sex workers and drug users bc it was what were doing to survive. to me harm reduction needs to be based #in radical autonomy and liberation and with the understanding that it's totally fine and neutral and okay if ppl never stop #also my own relationship to self harm is not one where stopping it completely is a priority. there's a few forms of self harm i want to sto #bc it's really hard to accurately judge the risks of that self harm. and also because it was really difficult for my loved ones to watch an #i care about that. but i feel totally okay with the thought that cutting may or may not be a part of my future. and that i will find #love joy meaning. all of that. regardless. and that there are times im grateful for how self harm helped me survive #as much as there are times i hate it and times that self harm were so incredibly destructive to other parts of my life. it is soooo complex #for me! and i cannot just label it the way psychs want me to #anyway. lots of love anon.

[storytellering]

the moment I see someone unironically make a "deadweight" nero joke or seriously refer to him as "deadweight" i know i can't trust them

#its the like king of the unfunny dmc dudebro jokes #like I hate to be the 'UMMMM ACTUALLY' guy but tell me you were playing with your eyes closed without telling me #the POINT is that he was never a deadweight not even to Dante #he just took it to heart because he was so desperate for Dante to acknowledge him and to feel up to task and his own inferiority complex #but the POINT was that dante blurted out something he didn't mean in the heat of the moment just to get nero out of there and #as words you dont think about in the heat of the moment often do #it stuck and cut him deeply #do you ever hear anyone refer to him as a dead weight besides the one dante line? #no!!! #the word is said exactly four times in game and three of those are nero talking back at dante since the one time hurt that badly #anyway yada yada i know its a funny haha #but it always communicates such a lack of care and respect for the source material and nero as a character to me #you can make deprecating jokes about the characters you like! #hell i insult vergil all the time #(he deserves it) #but its one thing to make actually funny and accurate insult-jokes about a character out of fondness #and another to just blindly parrot back a line that meant something completely else in context clearly without understanding what it meant #lol sorry rant over this got a bit longwinded #but the type of fan to unironically do that just bothers me #lo and behold its always the gen nonship and anti people wonder why /s

[jessicas-pi]

makes me giggle when someone says that i must have put a lot of thought into the plot of time heals. like on the one hand yes i do spend at least 1 hour per day thinking about it. on the other hand. babygirl you have no idea how many of the plotlines have shown up out of absolutely nowhere.

#and i mean like. Quinlan Vos wasn't even IN the original idea I had for the AU #the whole Moxie-n-Flyboy chaos friendship was totally unexpected #chapter 11 didnt exist till i was halfway through writing the fic and started thinking about angsty obitine-sabezra parallels #and then Aaray didn't exist until i was PARTWAY THROUGH WRITING *CHAPTER 11* #Eris was 100% unplanned until LITERALLY the SCENE SHE SHOWED UP IN #Zhaya wasn't supposed to become Sabine's Protector and she DEFINITELY wasn't supposed to recruit Beru #all these things keep happening and it's making the story so complex that it's nuts to keep track of all of it #but so far i have not forgotten any significant plotlines. yet. #the time heals 'verse

[larkusthefriend]

Been playing through Persona 3 FES recently and it made me wanna try drawing something that looked like a scene with these two. Plus, just try to refine my style in general a little bit. I think this attempt turned out ok.

#pokémon #pmd #pokémon mystery dungeon #skitty #riolu #mace the riolu #suzy the skitty #didn't really know what to do with the background for this one #so it just kinda became something i thought would be simple but cool #one of these days i want to make a complex background though #i just don't have it in me today i guess #As for how Persona 3 is going I am literally almost done #I just need to finish the final boss but that's been taking days at this point and I am so tired of it #Like YES I GET IT THE ARCANA IS THE MEANS BY WHICH ALL IS REVEALED STOP KILLING ME AT FULL HP WITH NIGHT QUEEN AND A CRITICAL ALMIGHTY #edit: finally finished persona 3. #i cried. #i really did. #god this fucking game man

[franeridan]

tbh i think oda meant to reach wano and make it all about zoro the same way he reached whole cake and made it all about sanji. I mean like, at the very beginning, back when he made him japanese and then said "there is a country that's one piece's japan, btw, and that's not where zoro's dojo is" - I think that's why his original backstory is so simple, it was supposed to follow the same trend as luffy's and sanji's and turn into this whole grand thing once they reached wano and discovered that he's the only direct descendant of one of the last daimyo and also of the greatest samurai ever lived, those are great bases to start some form of conflict on? tbh? and also directly mirror our finding out that sanji is some form of prince himself, but then instead we got to wano and the only thing we found out on page was that kuina's relatives were from there, and everything about zoro is revealed in a sbs family tree with oda going "I don't think I'll ever say this in the manga at this point so here". Imho what happened was that oda wanted to form some kind of conflict between zoro's family rights/what was expected of him in wano and his belonging in the crew, but then the way he evolved as a character through the story made it so that his only plausible reaction to finding out all that would be some form or another of I don't care and you don't really write an arc on that, do you. zoro's so simple minded and goal oriented that it's impossible for him to have any serious drama that's not about luffy, at this point. I do prefer it like this, though? everyone in the fandom likes to draw comparisons and parallels between zoro and sanji one way or another but my favourite one is the narrative foils one and zoro's lack of a proper backstory and complications to his being part of the crew make for a great black-and-white situation with them. something like sanji's story being all about running from his past and zoro's being all about running towards his future, I love that so I'm glad this is the zoro we got in the end

still, would be cool to know what oda had planned for him exactly

#zoro and sanji are funnn characters to keep on total opposite sides of the spectrum #you can draw parallels between every aspect of them and the only things you'll find that they have in common are #their love for luffy and their dislike of each other #starting from their personalities to their designs to their fighting styles to the way oda makes them interact with the plot itself #it's fun so i love it extends to their pasts and how complex they are too #but the build up towards wano and figuring out something more about zoro had been pretty obvious for a time so when we got there #and in the end we didn't find out anything about him #and left the land with no on page explanation as for why the shimotsuki guy had zoro's exact same face #no i mean that was kinda funny and on brand for him since the start ngl but it was sorta disappointing for me anyway #as an hardcore zoro fan yk #so I'm like ???? i wonder!!!! what oda had planned!!!! #for my boy who's apparently extremely important in wano but no one has any clue and they just let him leave like he was no one! #they tried to execute him for owning a sword that was his by birthright anyway without ever knowing.......... #no it IS funny that's zoro's brand alright i just mourn the zoro focus we could have had #wano was already long and busy enough tho i get why oda let that go

[unproduciblesmackdown]

similar to the greentext stuff - i was visiting with my neighbors and their grandkids were around, and I said to this eight year old, "Hey, you wanna know something cool? I was playing the game when the Endermen came out." and his eyes went wide, like this kid looked like i told him i landed on the moon. His grandma thought it was really funny, and she said she has no idea what i'm talking about, but her grandbabies do, and that's incredible to her.

oh that's fun lmao, when minecraft & that update's existed for more than your whole life, and yknow being that young and like Next Year fr is this huge time scale away, a couple of years is a quarter of your life thus far and like maybe nigh half of the part of your life you actually have longterm memories for....i was checking out this dev's blog's archives about a:tdd's release in 2010 & in one entry they compared the implicitly Roughly concurrent release of Minecraft and i was like hey whoah. forever primarily being a game i've Heard Of more than any more direct exposure so i had no precise sense of [before minecraft release] [after minecraft release] Year 0 there but it's like for sure back in thee day when minecraft was a new thing, huh

#add in that [i also basically Heard Of mass effect but that's a game series w/a 2010 median which i had Any knowledge abt already] #so i have that reference point for a still like [niche video for When You've Played These Games For Sure] there but then like #if you were ten or even 5 yrs younger at the time you May Well Be much more at sea as your starting point there #(but i mean not that much; i didn't know a ton. reread those wikipedia plot summaries myself) #enderman came out? happy pride #shoutout to this one time i crossed paths w/this kid who was at the time probably like late middle school early high school age #who started talking abt pokemon like Clearly A Big Interest and i'm like my only Direct experience is playing pokemon go but i know Some #stuff b/c i was 5 in '99 when it was first making that huge splash lol. can make Some remarks....but also just Listening Attentively To You #Monologue like uh huh go off....i sure remember like the Sense of a couple yr's sagacity like being 9 i think reading a book abt 6th or 7th #graders (i.e. two or three yrs older) like My God They Must Be So Mature.... #and like ofc when skimming passages as an adult it's like omg l'enfants. Both Perspectives Being Accurate respectively lol #my vintage experiences like i've def saved things on the floppy discs of [save icons imagery]. have heard the dialup tones organically.... #but also; say; Home Computers That You Didn't Really Need To Know Much Abt Computers To Use were forever an everyday thing for me #having been born mid '90s....vs like in the '80s being nicher but also like. the programs to amateur code not being As Complex either #like [working on cars] of yore vs more modernly lmao....plus ofc in their designs; opening up a desktop Tower vs what? a tablet?? #ppl my age who had more substantial Online Access earlier than i did maybe having at least picked up some html; which i did not lol #also didn't have too much Gamer Experience ever; what i did largely desktop then laptop pc wasd+mouse style.... #didn't have a smartphone till maybe 5 yrs after they were starting to become more commonplace #vs that again to an 8 yr old of today [commonplacer smartphones] is your whole life basically too. i remember when we flipped those phones. #(i do fr lol. did have one of those first for a good while.) #granpa granpa....mh being fourteen yrs old meaning like the Teen Fans of Today were probably not watching it as it aired lol #whereas i Was that teen fan of those yesteryears. and all my stories for it like fuckin uhhhhhh [crickets chirping] [studio audience laugh] #though You Don't Need The Fans like mh is a long movie ppl can newly discover Whenever that holds up; plus it has bonus lore #mostly what i could even Possibly bring is just the particularly nicher older bonus lore. but like grandpa simpson (the simpsons) for sure #which is to say: humorously irrelevant & perhaps somewhat cantankerous #whilest i'm vaguely aware there may have also been that minecraft resurgence (esp through streaming?) from 2020 on.... #but evidently Like Mh something that continually revives / takes on New Fans / Participants #for sure i might well be playing some tf2 myself if i had the technical capability (i would have the poor personal ability i always did lol #real games of yore but it never gets old also. though i know Of Late there was a bot problem / just neglected maintenance? that get fixed? #These Have Been The Tag Tangents. maxed out thirty tags i know that's right

[musical-chick-13]

Thinking about that "If K*ylo R*n were a woman everything would be better and this character would have worked" post, but after some consideration...I genuinely would have still hated this character.

Like...Idk maybe there's something to be said for the still-subversive nature of characters like this being allowed to be horrible women, but I don't hate this character because he's horrible, or even because he exemplifies a bunch of things in fiction I'm tired of seeing, I hate him because he doesn't feel fully-formed as a character to me and I don't think the movies know what they're trying to accomplish with him from a narrative standpoint (which are, imo, the biggest Story Sins a writer can commit). All of which would still hold true if this character were a woman.

#I WILL say. this character wouldn't be as popular as they are (and they ARE popular. fandom is not just limited to pockets of tumblr) if #they were a woman. nor would The Popular Ship be r*ylo. that's not me scaremongering about misogyny that's just. true. #we have SEEN that be true again and again and again #the OTHER thing about this character is that...I feel like he was MEANT to come across as #'he's so tortured and pained and complicated' but then they never did anything to SHOW ME THAT COMPLEXITY #if I look at like...(idk using another Tortured Male Character Who Did Bad Things) Theon. I can get from point a to point b with him. #I SEE the things that influenced him and I SEE how he got to a point where he thought acting the way he did was the only way forward. #I do not see that with. the other guy (sorry I am trying SO hard to make sure this doesn't accidentally end up in the character tag) #you either need to show me where the 'horrible'-ness comes from or you need to commit to the character just choosing to be horrible #not every character needs to have some Deep Reason Why they do what they do (like they can literally just be evil it's fine) but you can't #try to convince me there IS a Deep Reason Why and then NOT EVER SHOW ME THAT REASON #they (meaning sequel trilogy) like...sort of tried? a little? I guess? but the 'trying' was...barely anything and then they #didn't ever fully COMMIT to it. #THAT'S the problem I have. #(the 'not following through on alleged complexity' is also one of the big problems I have with [character I also hate but whose #name I'm not saying for reasons of self-preservation]) #and yeah maybe because of Subconscious Bias they WOULDN'T have been so wishy-washy on how Deep or sympathetic™ this character's #motivations were if they'd been a woman maybe they really WOULD have just made her straight-up evil with no Underlying Reason #(which yeah that WOULD have worked better for me I think?) but if we are saying 'this character is exactly the same but a woman' #.......no sorry. unfortunately a female character I can't defend this time. #(and I DID think about this. like 'do I hate this character due to a knee-jerk reaction toward men--even fictional ones--I consider to be #threatening/because he reminds me of people I don't like irl' or 'do I prioritize Hating Men' but...no I truly would just #hate this character regardless) #like I really do think my biggest pet peeve is when the story/creator themselves tries to hit me over the head with 'this character is #so COMPLICATED and DEEP and PSYCHOLOGICALLY INTRICATE' and then not ever actually PROVING that to me

[sysig]

Striped (Patreon)

Bonus:

Obviously I bought it! The collar is Slightly odd with a stitch down the center, like a very shallow V Neck, and it’s quite big on me lol, but it’s very workable! And so soft, like you wouldn’t believe. Very comfy!

Also, pretty sure I’ve talked about this before, but here’s a refresher: I always pick up any Lalaloopsy from any second-hand shop I find them in, being out of production and so inexpensive and so cute - I’m a casual collector ♥ I never expect to see them, so I’m always so excited when they’re there! I actually managed to get three this time, not only with their original clothes, but also their shoes! (Why are they always missing their shoes?) And you’ll never guess which ones, what they were wearing:

It’s Rain E. and Storm E., with their black and white striped shirts!

We match <3 <3

#Doodles #Lalaloopsy #I've never seen so many striped articles of clothing in one place - let alone with so many Extra Details! #Way too complex for my simplistic character design lol I am but a humble cartoon #The skirt in the shirt section was truly the perfect comedic setup like - I literally couldn't make that up it's too silly! But it happened! #There were even a couple more striped shirts that didn't make the cut here! Mostly the long-sleeved ones #Like there was one that was Mostly striped but then had a?? red plaid jagged-cut collar/upper half?? Very confusing lol #The button accents on the shoulders were nonsensical but cute - I just like buttons #Obviously lol ♪ Gosh what a lucky shopping day that was! #I even found a tool to help with one of my side projects :D And got divine inspiration without having to purchase to unlock! Lol #Still haven't used the divine inspiration but I've got it so that's the important part lol #Also - I am still masking in public :0 It's not something I drew here because it's not as visible to me since it's on my face #So I just - forget lol #It's also not as expressive but that's mostly secondary to it just not registering lol #I mean heck I wear my rainbow bracelet literally every second of the day and how often do I remember to draw it on myself? #As clearly evidenced here lol and no that wasn't on purpose! I'm just a forgetful lol #Anyhow :3 Onto the grey dye next >:3c #I've been needing to stop by a fabric shop anyhow I've got Yet More Projects!

[tyrannuspitch]

thanos could be such a good character if he was a good character...

#space viking tag #been musing vaguely on the fic i plan to write At Some Point again. hehehehehe #i should probably re/watch the gotg movies at some point to gather more data #but tbh i'm having a lot of fun with just his General Vibes and the fact that his evil plan is Utterly Ridiculous and yet he believes it #like there wld be nothing wrong with it as a villainous motive if they didn't ASK us to think it was reasonable #and like. hmmm. what i have seen of him i've found underwhelming. like personality-wise. but. i could fix him. easily #i can give him pizzazz. it can be *understated* pizzazz. #he is a space gangster. To Me. #and he's a ghost he's a god he's a man he's a guru btw. they're whispering his name through this disappearing land. btw. #he's got amoral power hungriness AND pseudo-religious obsession AND an underdog complex AND a god complex there's so much to work with here #I COULD FIX HIM!!! #(a word which here means: make him evil in a more entertaining way)

[worstloki]

Not to be that person. But the thought of, instead of handling those actual grief from the first five minutes of infinity war they decided to bring Jane back and have her die and be the grief thing?

Thor 4 handled grief? I thought they just brought it up and then skipped those parts

#YEAH like bro if you're going to just ignore every previous thing then why is this a continuation of those previous things #like oh the guardians are here no they're not Thor is depressed no he's not #they keep just *doing* events with the characters so that it can have *no* influence later as well #like #''thor has a tattoo for loki so he misses his brother'' ok?? AND???? where does that actually SHOW??? #''Thor is sad Jane died'' I ASK YET AGAIN--WHERE BOI #Thor be like poker face into the middle distance with a single tear rolling down his cheek #hashtag subverting toxic masculinity #I WILL say that Gorr's grief would've been GREAT to explore PARTICULARLY in parallel to Thor's own #like yeah Gorr you're right the g*ds are useless they didn't help with Thanos no one helped when my people were being slaughtered #yeah Gorr I know what it means to lose people people it has burdened me every single day and continues to #but you can't let the pain of that dictate your actions if all you're going to do is hurt yourself more #they should've fleshed Gorr out more in the middle and actually stopped to make Thor's previous suffering present #in more than 1 joking montage scene where he was sobbing and with a joke tattoo #throw as many gags as you want in but at least pretend you're trying for complexity in your character which HAS the setup for it already #shameful storytelling #5/10 #Thor 4 #especially since he is the main. #speaking of which what the frickity frackity were they doing with Val and Jane who ALSO had perfect setups for good messaging #like Val has taken on a lot of responsibility upon returning to a place she previously left after ditching responsibility #there is a LOT you can do with her character beyond showing her for fight scenes like come on man #I wouldn't call what happened with Jane fridging but I do think they wasted a lot of opportunity to get into the worthiness aspect #and the entire dying of cancer aspect. inevitable tragedies in life that do not have solutions? it happens! #but that Mjolnir didn't have an effect on the cancer's progression felt a bit... like the condition wasn't important but for that #and Thor *did* care about Jane taking care of herself but that could have been far better rooted into not wanting to lose people again #but like. none of the stuff at all felt serious or heavy at most it felt neutral and then went back to lighthearted #it's like they ended that storyline without properly starting it

[starredwrites]

i think my greatest accomplishment against the mental-health-meds-are-evil club is when i convinced a family friend that i need my ADHD meds by describing my thought process of arguing with myself about doing laundry when i'm not medicated. he said, and i quote, "take the meds. laundry should not be an argument."

#he had very legit reasons for being anti mental health meds btw i understood where he was coming from #but it was very funny how THAT was all it took #not me explaining how adhd works. the laundry. that's what worked #mental health #adhd #actually adhd #medication #adhd meds #star speaks #kinda tempted to test it on other ppl to see if that'll change minds #bc i think when people hear adhd meds they think big pharma is selling you meds to fill their pockets for so-called can't-sit-still disorder #i think reframing it as adhd makes daily routine tasks EXTREMELY difficult and the right meds will make those things much easier #would maybe sway more people since most people can agree that stuff like laundry doing the dishes cleaning etc shouldn't be difficult to do #and like yeah big pharma IS a big issue but that does not mean i don't need my fuckin meds #and a lot of people tend to conflate those two because they or someone they love has been pushed ineffective meds by a doctor who didn't #care or listen. so when i say i'm on adhd meds they go Oh No Those Are Bad They Just Want Your Money #and there's a bit more nuance to it than that! like the fact that the medical industrial complex sucks ass and many patients don't know how #to self advocate #tumblr pls don't eat/rearrange my tags pls