#I do not want long covid!!!

[sixohsixoheightfourtwo]

I actually love glass onion being set deep in covid times but where's the post that was like . Glass Onion should have ended with benoit blanc getting home and testing positive for covid . I really think that would've tied the whole thing together

#glass onion #fr coulda been a post credits scene! u don't want to disrupt the power of the final scene tho i guess #do u think the stuff ethan hawke shot in their mouths was a spurious miles bron vaccine or just like. ivermectin #anyway . I have seen this post thsi is not an original idea. where is it. #please can more media reference covid it's gonna be TOO ! WEIRD! if our popular culture just flat out ignores this major thing #that disrupted THEE entire world for so long. #saw someone be like 'covid happened two years ago why are people still talking about it' uh ! #anyway . glass onion handshake emoji the borat sequel . for having covid in it #they fully all got covid that weekend. this is my belief

[puppyeared]

man

#maybe im being pessimistic abt this. im not saying u should wear a mask every waking moment of your life god knows i cant #but also. hell no i dont trust u if anything i distrust u ppl even more after how things played out for the past 3 years #like there are situations where it might be inevitable catching covid. most of my family members are nurses and in constant contact #but there are also a ton of ways to make that risk low as possible like masking and wearing a face shield and having sanitizer #for me its not enough to just say oh we're in a small group and we're all vaccinated #motherfucker your kid is sick from preschool EVERY TIME WE VISIT. of course ill be wearing a mask she gave me covid last year #also no the fuck it isnt seasonal the cases go up because lack of caution makes the virus spread and mutate especially around times when #ppl gather. add that with virus transmission in cold weather and its a matter of different factors increasing the risk of spread #im also tired of ppl not understanding that i wont be their responsibility if i do get sick. maybe they can help me recover #but at the end of the day the risk of death and long term health is all on me. i cant change that #the govt barely gives me accommodations what makes u think theyll do anything for every individual case of long covid or worse #im so tired. im so tired #i dont even know if its possible to want this to be over anymore i just wish we didnt have to deal with this in the first place #ALSO COUGH INTO YOUR SLEEVE SERIOUSLY HOW IS THIS SO HARD TO REMEMBER #oh its just a cold/dry throat its not like i have covid or anything. no!! its basic hygiene!!! how is this so hard to understand!!!!!!!!!! #and no this isnt abt whether people have the means to protect themselves this is me bitching abt my relatives not taking me seriously #vent #my art #myart #doodles #covid 19

[poisonousquinzel]

"a dude in Texas legally changed his name to "Literally Anyone Else" and he's attempting to run for President against Biden & Trump" [source]

okay, but putting aside the comedic aspect of this, it is concerning the amount of people who are prompted to vote for candidates just because it's funny. I'm not the biggest fan of how his policy about the boarder sounds [Site], but I do implore anyone who is able to vote in the 2024 US election to please research other candidates.

The media is only going to continue pushing the idea it's inevitably going to be Trump vs Biden 2.0 and we have no other options, that we have to vote for Biden again because of Project 2025. Is that whole thing terrifying?

Yeah, fucking absolutely.

But voting for Biden will not solidify our safety from that. Biden is exactly like the rest of them. He always has been. You can't make the lesser of two evils argument when they're both just plain evil.

You cannot say that Biden is even mildly a better choice than Trump when he is currently directly involved in a genocide. That is not some little fucking thing. That in and of itself disqualifies him as a lesser evil. Biden is just as bad as him and he will not save us because he doesn't fucking care.

Cornel West [Site] is an Independent candidate running for President in the 2024 Election. [Policies]

Claudia De la Cruz and Karina Garcia [Site] are running for President and Vice-President as the candidates of the Party for Socialism and Liberation in the 2024 Election. [Policies]

There are options.

There are people trying to change the corrupt foundation our system is built on, but we have to help amplify them because the mainstream media will not.

#have you looked at what's happening in New York & the subways #There's so many reported shootings and deaths and it just seems to be getting worse. #I just looked up subway shooting ny because I wanted to check before saying something #There's reports from like 3 hours ago about someone getting pushed in front of one of the moving subways & there's so many others #or how about the like thousands of police officers that they've got stationed at subways in ny literally doing fuck all #or how everyone's going through a housing crisis and cant afford rent and cant get medical care because it can cost #$4000 to get a fucking ambulance and that's cheap. That's a ride to the hospital less than 20 minutes away probably. #or the rise in hate crimes and bigotry and all the shit they're now trying to censor with the kosa bill #or how terrifying places like Florida have became for anyone thats not seen as an equel by people who dont view most others as equels. #or how they're pouring billions into wars while we're in the midsts of a homeless crisis #suicide rates are at record levels in the us and it's only going to get worse. theyre pulling telehealth which will take away #life saving medical care for people who dont have the ability to go in person. people's ability to get therapy and meds being taken away #Is going to kill people. or how the Biden administration has fucked up their Covid response so goddamn badly #people are referring to the pandemic in past tense and have lost understanding for others who they'd have understood before #they've lied and they've concealed and its killing millions of people and disabling even more. but they will not take accountability. #long covid is ruining people's lives and they've successfully led the narrative that its not real or not that serious. #they will sit there and they will lie. they will say they've protected women's rights and that its a top priority. #they'll say that healthcare is a top priority but have suggested that they'd veto a healthcare for all bill because of its price tag #but will spend billions and billions and billions on a genocide that the majority is against. the system isn't going to begin collapsing #it already is. #its crumbled and we must demolish the corrupt remains and rebuild a better government that gives a shit about people #ALL people. #they use basic human rights as bargaining chips. #the Democrats and Republicans on a Venn diagram is a circle. wake up.

[thedisablednaturalist]

Tw for weight loss mention

The whole exercise will cure your disability thing is a fucking joke. Yes exercise is beneficial for your health, but only if you aren't already on shaky foundations. You need to be on a treatment plan that WORKS before going into the maintenance phase. You wouldn't do regular maintenance on a broken item, you'd work on getting it up and running first. And maybe it would even need specialized maintenance afterwards if it's especially fragile.

I have fibromyalgia and acute degenerative disc disease. My immune system attacks my nerves and discs in my spine are slowly calcifying and causing the bones to constrict and damage my nerves (i think thats how it works). I have days where it feels like my body is on fire from nerve pain and days where it feels like my spine is about to rip from my back. And days where I have both (like today!). I get numbness in my hands and feet. I have horrible migraines. I can no longer walk unaided more than maybe 5 minutes without severe pain. I have something wrong with my knees and hips but the doctors don't know what yet.

You'd think I live an obviously seditary lifestyle correct?

Hell no.

I walk aided on average 6 miles a day over difficult terrain OUTSIDE of regular activity almost everyday. My legs are muscular and strong. I get my heart rate up and a good sweat, like all the gym rats swear on. I am often doing physical labor such as weeding, digging, sample collecting, pruning trees etc.

I'm not saying this to make other disabled people feel bad or prove that they can do anything if they just tried harder. This is an extremely painful lifestyle I've chosen that takes a lot of lifestyle management AND BOUNDARIES to keep up with the work. I also have an extremely forgiving boss who is also physically disabled and knows what I'm going through (deciding between your passion and your health and having to do so each and every day) No one should ever be expected to do what I do. I'm not even sure if I should be doing this myself.

This is to prove that exercise? Has not cured me. My muscles are strong but still hurt as if they're broken and I have to take more breaks than my coworker. I am constantly getting out of breath and I flare up regularly if I'm not careful. I am in excellent physical condition outside of my disabilities. I go to different doctors several times a month to get checked out.

I previously went through a diet program and lost a lot of weight (basically starving myself and got off my depression meds which cause weight gain but are also the only ones that work) and guess what? That didn't do shit either!!! I still felt horrible!!! I've since gained back the weight anyway after switching to focusing on adding more nutrient dense foods than taking stuff away from my diet (also muscle weighs more than fat, and fat helps cushion my aching joints and spine).

The muscle doesn't do shit for my disabilities outside of maybe some stability. Exercising everyday doesn't make the pain go away. Without my medications and aids and nutrition plans and steroid injections and spinal adjustments and physical therapy (that takes my fibro and spine into account) and alternative work methods I WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO DO WHAT I DO. Exercise alone is like trying to make a car run with no oil. Yes it'll go but it'll get more and more damaged till it can't and will need its entire engine replaced!

And yet I see new doctors and they look at me and the first thing out of their mouths is do I exercise? I should try doing a little every day :) and then i fucking blow their minds when I tell them about my job. No longer can they use that fucking cop out on me. I've been through this rodeo. Ive tried their suggestions. If you are in pain and nothing is helping? Exercise ain't going to do SHIT. You need to get to a point where you can move without severe pain first (if that's even possible). Then and only then should you consider implementing regular exercise if you can. Also weight loss talk is a red flag and a cop out. They made me lose 50+ lbs before they would look into the reasons behind my pain. Weight loss did nothing for me and exacerbated my pain.

I am living proof that all that shit is a lie and a cop out. That is the point of this post. I cannot believe people with serious medical conditions are being forced to put their bodies through extreme duress just to be believed. You are not disabled because of laziness or because you sit a lot. Plenty of people live seditary lifestyles and do not live in constant excruciating pain (they may develop disabilities later in life due to this however, and should be doing preventative exercises to maintain their health)

Please, share my story with doctors. Use me as an example. I am proof that "exercise first treat later" does not work. I should not have had to wait years to have my pain validated. I'd rather hundreds of fakers get (what? A blood test? An MRI?) than one chronically ill person get told to try yoga and go away by a doctor.

#wrenfea.exe #doctors and nurses dont fucking clown on this post #anything you say needs to be backed up by sources with apa citation thrown in for good measure #this is my personal experience dont tell me im exaggerating or just havent tried hard enough #i will kick you with my horse legs and then go lie down for 4 hours #bedbound people i am sending you so much love and will probably be joining you in a few years #chronic disability #chronic pain #spoonie #fibromyalgia #disability #chronic illness #from the field #physically disabled #this also applies to neurodivergent and mentally ill people but pls don't derail #this is mainly about physical disabilities #you are welcome to make your own post and reference mine if you want @ me and ill reblog it #sometimes im like oh i cant be disabled bc i do all this stuff im a faker inflatrating the community #and then i have days like today where i cannot leave my bed #i am so pissed off that people with long covid and ME have to go through that fucking exercise rehabilitation program #that actively makes their mitochondria worse #you wouldnt start using a vase without fixing the cracks first #the water will spill out and the flower will die #degenerative disc disease

[cistematicchaos]

hello! I have a Question about masking. when should we wear a mask? is it only when we feel sick or is it always? is it inside or outside too? if ur vaccinated but were told to only wear when sick is that bad? literally almost no on in any area around me in my state wears one except when sick and I feel unsure what to do. genuinely everywhere I go there’s close to no one. I feel afraid to wear one all the time bc judgement. but what do we need to do? I’m disabled and disability justice is important to me but since no one else wears one my friends do not think it’s needed and thinks comfort matters more bc it’s very humid here. I feel like wearing one is the right thing to do, but idk how to explain that to others or to start again and shake the fear. ppl assume ur sick when u wear bc that’s what we’re taught is the right time to. /gen

Genuinely, ty for trusting me to answer this. If you're outside or inside a public area, or inside with people who don't mask, it's best to be wearing a mask. Even when you don't feel sick! Not only can you have covid without feeling sick, but you can also carry lots of viruses without feeling sick and so can others. (Also other people don't always tell you when they're feeling sick unfortunately.)

As for the question about vaccinations, yeah, that's bad. You were lied to. People who're vaccinated can still spread covid without feeling sick and can still catch it and get long covid or die. All the vaccine does is make you a little safer if you catch it, it doesn't replace masking.

Masking is very scarce in a lot of places, so I understand that. In my area so many people don't mask and it's scary! I also understand being scared of judgement; especially from family and friends. But you're right, masking is the right thing to do and disability justice is important. And masking is especially important if you're already disabled; you're higher risk for covid fucking you up (by giving you long covid or generally worsening your disabilities/giving you more).

Since I've already explained WHEN you should be masking (if you have more questions, ask, I don't mind at all.), lemme see if I can help you out with the rest. To shake the fear, I'd suggest starting wearing your mask when you're alone to get used to wearing it more. You'll probably have to bite it and do it afraid anyway, because its a pandemic and masking is a necessity (if you can), but you can still get ready first.

To explain it to your friends, put it simply. "I discovered the vaccine doesn't replace masking, so I'm being safe." or "I realized masking keeps all of us safer during the pandemic, especially disabled people, so I'm going to keep doing it."

They may argue with you, especially since they may feel bad for not masking. You don't have to argue back with them. You can offer to send them articles about it or explain your thoughts but you don't have to justify masking!

If people think you're sick, they'll probably ask and you can explain or they'll avoid you, which may work to your advantage because social distancing from people who don't mask is good too.

If part of this doesn't make sense or you have more questions, ask me! I'd love to answer and have a lot of info on the subject if you want it. Again, thank you for trusting me to answer and I hope this helps. <3 Stay safe!

#asking chaos #i actally really appreciate this question #These are good questions!! #Like feel free to ask me shit like this #I hope this isn't too long T_T #I just really wanted to make sure I addressed all your questions #clearly and all the way #Also #I wanna say anon #I really do understand being scared of the judgement #I wasn't being sarcastic or lying #I am terrified of a lot of conflict #but wear my mask anyway #so if you want more advice on that side of it #feel free to ask bc i have a lot of experience #again hope this helps. <3 #disability #covid #covid 19 #pandemic #masking guidelines #ableism (just general) #disability justice

[talkethtothehandeth]

*vague posts a fake claim about particular people in mind*

*turns around to say they would “never” want to fake claim someone because they know how it feels*

Gaslighting IS fake claiming, it is literally denying the extent of which a disorder/condition affects a person, and replaces it with “it’s all in your head, you’re doing it for attention”

And it pisses me off so much because the comment section is FULL of people who you know would be sobbing and throwing up and claiming ableism if someone even thinks about doubting the severity of their disabilities.

Get over the Sick Olympics already, no one fucking wins that. You get no trophy for being the sickest, no one automatically cares about you more when your body gets worse, doctors don’t suddenly give a shit if you’re dying from complex conditions. You’re not special, you don’t get a crown. You’re not better than anyone at all if your body is breaking down the most. Why is it so important to you to be The Worst? Ass pats? No one gets that and the worse you are the less people care about you, genuinely.

Get over yourself, you don’t know shit about what anyone else on the internet goes through, and fake claiming anyone is fucked up, regardless if the person is shitty or not. I hate that the internet learned the term Münchausen Syndrome because if someone doesn’t present exactly how they think they should be if they’re “truly” sick, then they’re faking the way their current symptoms present because it must not be “that bad”.

Wait until people start turning against you, then you’ll realize exactly how shitty it is to have people who are supposed to be on your side act against you because you’re not “sick enough” to them to actually be suffering— you’re not “sick enough” to receive sympathy. Imagine how isolating that is, to have so many people against you because they think you’re not as bad as you know you are. People have their own websites and never ending threads dedicated to “proving” that someone is faking, some of my mutuals are on those threads and have posted about it— without them I wouldn’t have even known these threads existed. Imagine how many you’re on, how many people are talking about you behind your back, even in your own circle.

By the way, I would rather believe 400 (“undiscovered”) fakers than deny support to one person who is actually disabled. And you should too, because one day, you will be that one person who is actually sick, and you will be considered a liar, or dramatic— and in some people’s opinion, you’ll deserve that treatment after what you did and continue to do all in an attempt to feel superior to someone. One day you won’t have the sympathy you’re looking for.

#cripple punk #i hate fake claimers #there is such little support outside of chronic illness/disability communities so why the FUCK do you want to make it worse #fucking enough of the sick olympics already #you’re literally pathetic— making an account about awareness and acceptance yet you bash other people #chronic pain #disabled #chronically ill #chronic illness #arthritis #long covid #ehlers danlos syndrome #long post

[skunkes]

blood test tomorrow and i dont think theyll let someone in with me so nobody's going to hold me down, making me feel Calm and also preventing me from escaping. smile.

#talkys #IM SCAREEDDDD #ive gotten a bit used to needles after all the covid shots but idk. #the Blood Draw Location is an entirely different beast #ykwim. vaccine injections are ok bc its the shoulder its so Secure #middle of arm feels so flimsy and frail. scared #qnd its not even ever all that bad (at least vaccines bc ive only gotten blood drawn once) #but i get sooooo anxious and then the waiting and the pulling out feels so horrendous too. #like the last covid vaccine i got wasnt bad at all! but i feel it lingered too long and i wanted to jump out of my skin. #rambling now but i annoy medical professionals bc for some reason whenever Anything happens to me #(not just injections bc its happened at the ENT too) my legs always want to fly straight up into the air #(or just Straight if im sitting) #its the equivalent of tensing another part of the body to stay calm for me idk why....weird security... #but i always get yelled at LOL like sorry i dont even do it consciously....im Scared....

[hellyeahsickaf]

I guess I just thought I'd have more time to be able to live something of a "normal" life, feel like something of a person. I didn't have to think much about doing things and ration out my energy. I sort of wish I'd been able to do more with that time or at least appreciate it more. You don't think it'll be you if you weren't born severely disabled. You probably can't imagine what that's like but also you don't think to because that will never be you. Or if it could, maybe it would be when you're super old

I miss the feeling of sand or gravel under my shoes when I'd walk around the beach or the marsh or something. When the sun didn't feel so harsh and blinding and the rain didn't mean a flare up, it meant I could spend the day making soup and maybe go get a warm drink and a pastry at the cafe I like. They knew me by name because I went there all the time. They probably think I moved away or something happened to me

#chronic illness #chronic pain #disability #actually disabled #cfs #chronic fаtiguе ѕуndrоmе #fibromyalgia #spoonie #me/cfs #cfs/me #long covid #cpunk #cripplepunk #i get angsty about this shit and the things i wanted to do don't mind me

[disasterhimbo]

I wish expressing myself didn’t take so much energy

#I Want to dress up in a particular style #I Want to decorate my home #I Want to bake things for my friends #but I am always so damn tired #I feel somewhere between being alive and dead tbh #I haven’t slept in 36 hours and that is probably contributing to this feeling lol #but it is a long standing issue #I don’t feel like I have the energy to Live or do a lot of worthwhile things I want to do #my post #personal #disabled #disability #me/cfs #fibromyalgia #long covid

[nevermoorsource]

Silverborn Release Dates

Australia: August 28th, 2024

US: September 10th, 2024

UK: September 12th, 2024

The specifics could change but these dates have been around since May, so it seems that Silverborn is indeed delayed to 2024. There’s been no announcement from Jess as of yet, but she's also been on a social media hiatus since the delay.

#this is as of 8/8/23 but has been known since 5/4/23 #nevermoor #silverborn #the mystery of morrigan crow #book news #sharing bc idk how to edit wikipedia or the fandom wiki to update the dates #I just keep having to break the news to people and feel bad :( so figured I’d share it on here as well #the aus and uk links are for preorders! #the us link isn't because it's not available on barnes & nobles yet. but it's a site used in the industry with information from publishers! #I wish I could fix/update the release dates to the new ones bc people are googling and still getting the wrong ones and I feel bad </3 #between not much owlcrate merch and a delay I'm not getting much of a chance to use this blog 😔 #also. I don't know the reason behind the delay and don't want to speculate too much or even blame! #it could be that jess is still dealing with long covid or it could be supply chain/industry issues. regardless I hope jess is doing okay ❤️

[fizzingwizard]

dear internet stop throwing pictures of beautifully toasted bagels slathered in cream cheese at me i don't have a toaster i don't have room in my teeny kitchenette for a toaster a toaster is a luxury here in japan as are bagels as is cream cheese

bagel places here that ask me "do you want that heated up" make me want to cry tears of joy even though all they mean is they're gonna stick the bagel in the microwave for ten seconds so it's slightly warm-ish but not enough to crisp up or melt the cream cheese a little

#food #closest bagel place to me has two options blueberry bagel or white choco chip #its fortunate that i love blueberry but anyway that shows the general mindset towards bagels here they're sweet snacks more or less #hard to find everything bagel or onion bagel etc #i havent been home since before covid but my primary reason for wanting to is i neeeed a nyc bagel #and real mac n cheese and real grilled cheese #and pasta that isnt spaghetti with something something cream sauce #oh and i really miss american bbq which means it sucks that i'll be going home in winter bahahaha #never expected to stay here as long as i have but otoh food cravings aside what real motivation do i have to live in the us #obvs my parents and i do want to see them and wish we could live close #but as for life in the us itself... living here is so far a lot easier in a multitude of ways #the biggest downside is my being a foreigner. gotta reapply for that visa every few years #and even though i speak japanese every day the business-style japanese of workplaces is totally different so im limited in terms of jobs #aaaand when im home in the us i have the opposite problem... i miss japan and japanese food instead xP #why cant i teleport that'd solve everything #fizz's life #why are people reblogging this??? X'D

[goatsandgangsters]

fun activities while sick with covid 😌😌 : paying taxes.

#when you moved states. but your income stayed in the original state. #but also they didn't update your address to take taxes from your new state and kept paying everything to your old state #and also you CAN'T BREATHE THROUGH YOUR NOSE and your brain feels like oatmeal #they keep asking me increasibly convoluted questions and I'm just blinking at turbotax like....... i dobnt dknow (<sound of my mucus) #the state of new york wanted to know how long I've lived here...... calculated in DAYS 😟 #did I mention I have not only covid but also my period. AND I have to pay taxes?? #karmically what did I do

[hypaalicious]

Y’all, go get the new Covid vaccine!

I’m sure others on here have talked about it already and ima just be late, but it’s important!

You can still get updated Covid vaccines/boosters for free if you’re uninsured through December 31, 2024 via the CDC’s Bridge Access Program and participating pharmacies.

Considering that the US government is in full “there is no war in Ba Sing Se” mode about Covid being “over” 🙄 not a lot of people even know a new vaccine exists! It was approved on September 12th and started distribution.

If you go through any CVS or Walgreens, I know for sure they’re a part of the Bridge Access Program and will specify online that you’re getting the (2023-2024) Covid vaccine formulated to target the new nasty variants. For most ppl, I’m gonna assume that the last time y’all got vaccinated was a whole year ago. 😬

Beloveds, it’s like we raw dogging Covid in 2020 again; those old shots ain’t doing shit for you now. You’ll need this new vaccine (it’s not a booster, it’s a whole new beast) to be best protected especially as we go into flu and holiday season.

Some things to note:

Always call the pharmacy to confirm your appointment and that they have the shot you’re looking for.

If you are uninsured, you may have to remind the pharmacy that it should be free for you. CVS was going to charge me $190 for one (1) shot so I called and had to explain to them what they’re enrolled in. Nobody working there even knew about it. This country is very ghetto so you’ll have to be diligent on getting what you need.

There are no multiple rounds this time, just one shot. Moderna and Pfizer are approved rn, Novavax I hear just passed some trials and should be available later as well if you prefer a non-mRNA dose.

This new one knocked me on my ass faster than the previous ones, but idk if that’s cause I actually got Covid back in April and my system is still sensitive. Either or, it’s working!

I will always push taking measures against Covid because our healthcare system is too busted and our government is pretty much leaving us to fend for ourselves during a deadly pandemic. So we gotta milk whatever we can to stay protected.

And as always, vaccination status or not:

#WEAR UR MASSSSS #but yeah I just woke up from an unintended HARD nap #that vaccine knocked me straight out lmao #and my arm is sore but I know that’s normal #but yeah I want y’all suited UP to protect against COVID #it’s no joke and Long Covid will beat your ass in ways you don’t expect #you do NOT want to be disabled in this ableist ass world I’ll tell you that #but yeah I hope this helps someone! 🥺

[wrenhavenriver]

i have lies of p and ff 16 installed and ready to go so i can do something mildly enjoyable my last few days before the school/work death spiral starts up again and instead i'm just sitting here refreshing Webbed Sites and watching nothing interesting appear like

#quite predictably i did in fact get sick at the 3 day long work training held during a massive covid/flu surge #i was masked except for meal/photo times and am up to date on vaccinations tho so thankfully it's just a mild cold #but i'm just sort of tired and unable to focus on anything #honestly tho they could have easily done all those presentations over Teams and been done a lot earlier :/ #the weather was really bad the first couple of days too and i know a lot of commuters would have really appreciated doing it virtually #but i guess that wouldn't have let us do all our ~fun~ icebreaker and ~team building activities~! #idk Employer Mandated Socializing and Fun Times just inherently irritate me on a cellular level #tell me how you want a job done and then let me go do it #having us write a group poem about our department for arbitrary points accomplishes literally nothing but wasting all our time #kathryn vs higher education #assorted work nonsense

[savage-rhi]

.Magenta.

#in a nut shell... #my whole team betrayed me minus 2 #i was told and swore up and down that my absences related to disability were not an issue #come to find out that wasn't the case #there was resentment and everyone did a damn good job putting on an act and masking #i cannot begin to describe the kind of betrayal i am feeling #i believe in being transparent especially if you're part of a team of people who help others with mental health issues #i expressed many times that if my conditon caused inconvenience or problems then approach me and we can navigate around it together #i worked with these people for over 10 months and no one said a damn thing #i had no indication or inkling there was anything amiss even when i inquired before. #even my supervisor who was supportive and freely gave me and approved of time off lied to my face #and as a i handed in my belongings today everyone was ordered not to engage with me because on monday i utilized the chill space #aka the rage room after hours when the kids were gone because after getting interrogated by HR trauma from former work places came up #and with long covid stuff im still figuring out i needed a spot to vent #im not the only employee btw that used that room for personal raging everyone at some point has used it to either be contemplative #scream or toss punch and throw things so long as the kids are not on grounds we can do that #yet when i finally hit that point and want to decompress safely suddenly i am the dangerous monster #these people are supposed to be trauma informed #well trauma informed my ass #on a positive blessing i never have to work with these assholes ever again and i pray we never meet in public #its going to take a long time and a lot of healing before i think i will be able to trust people fully again #savage magenta #magenta is my vent word

[icewindandboringhorror]

A very interesting cloud formation!

#I don't think I had ever really seen clouds like this before? it looks like a cool painting or something :0 #Pulling just a few images from my cloud and sky photos folder which has like 650 pictures in it becvause I'm obsessed with the sky lol #I will usually spare everyone the cloudposting but... in some exceptions when it's really cool I must Share #(upcoming covid mention in tags for those avoiding the topic) #I WANT TO BE ON AN AIRPLANE SO SO BAD I am going to start casting evil spells to explode all these 'back to normal' bastards who are out #spreading virus and shit HHHHHH... Covid is NOT over actually contrary to popular beielf especially for people with health conditions #that make them more vulnerable or would have worse consequences if they were to catch it etc. etc. wearing a mask in public is #in MOSt cases not THAt much of a horrific terrible evil inconvenience and it helps keep everyone around you safer including these #vulnerable populations!!!! Even if I didn't have any problems myself I would STILL be masking because it's a small gesture that can make a #big difference in people around me being comfortable. It's not like people with health issues just never have to go out or go to the stor #or whatever. There are still people out there who could be helped by extra precautions that are being overlooked. grrrrr... #Like at this point since I'm vaccinated and everything I would MAYBE consider flying on an airplane IF everyone else around me #was masking and being just as careful as me. But at this point it's just the wild west and I would literally be the only one who gives #a shit or who gets tested freqeuntly before after and during traveling and wears the proper type of mask well fitting and not half off my f #ce and blah blah blah. And precautions work best when EVEYRONE is participating. There's only so much you can protext yourself if everyone #around you is doing nothing. So.. alas.. I still do not feel safe traveling. And probably won't for years until more progress is made in #terms of like understanding and treating certain long covid issues and etc. Since I think it's inevitable that if I start going out again #I would get covid. Me and my household bubble are some of the only people I know who haven't had it yet (or at least not knowingly so - if #so it was one of the asymptomatic cases etc.). So if I was GOING to get it anyway I'd at least like the assurance that whatever long term #issues I inevtabley suffer because of it will be more easily treatable at that point instead of entirely disabling even further than I'm #already disabled. etc. AAANYWAY!! all that to say. I JSUT REALLY WANT TO be on an airplane!!! I dont even like traveling and going places I #hate vacations and would rather be at home working on my projects I'm fixated on lol HOWEVER I love the view from airplane windows #like the very few times in my life Ive actually been on a plane and the window is so COLD when you lay your forehead on it and sometimes yo #even see little ice crystals and it's like you're just in a landscape of clouds with a sea of clouds above and below and aaaAAAAAA #Literally I want to get on a plane just to go up in the air and then land and fly back. I don't even want to go on a real trip. I just NEED #to see the sky I need to be IN the sky I need to have that VIEW and the cold and everything!!!! gRGGHGgg... And I will do that the entire #time. I think my longest plane ride was 7 hours and I do not watch movies. I dont text or play games. I literally do nothing to entertain #myself except stare straight out the window for 7 hours (with a few eating and bathroom breaks). not even joking lmao. It's like a trance #I LOVE the sky and clouds so much and the view you get from an airplane is like incomparable!! also I love airports with the big windows an #people watching. but mostly I just long for the sky view again. GRRR.. sobbing and yearning >:T