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elllisaaa · 2 days

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this is so sunghoon </3

you're so real for this sweetie, i couldn't agree more and you know how much we love the sunghoon x bookworm agenda in this house so here we go again 🤭

SUNGHOON who always feed on your obsession for books and literature, spoiling you with a new one every chance he gets. he loves how sparkly your eyes become when you talk on and on about the new book that you finished, and he loves to see you so passionate about it, he could literally listen to you during hours.

what he does not like though is how he asked you to get ready for your date night almost one hour ago and how you're still in your pyjamas, laying in bed with your book. when sunghoon asks you for the ninth time when you plan on starting to prepare yourself to go out, you claim once again that you just want to finish this chapter. and when he asks you one more time and you answer the same thing again, sunghoon cannot take it anymore.

"hoon ? what are you doing ?" you asked, confused, as he climbed on the bed, settling between your legs and spreading them. you try to push his hands away but his grip is too strong.

"i'm teaching you a lesson, since you're too smitten by your book to listen to me." your voice and the protestation you were about to let out die quickly in your throat, replaced by a loud moan when sunghoon fingers pinch your clitoris harshly through the material of your panties. "you're going to read out loud for me doll, and don't dare miss a word or i'm not letting you cum."

you knew better than to answer him directly, only nodding your head at him as he pulled your panties off your body. you were only wearing one of his shirts now, while sunghoon was already in his pretty outfit, hair neatly done. and the way he looked at you through his lashes when he dived into your cunt had you moaning uncontrollably.

but you still tried to follow his commands, reading each word carefully however very slowly. with each passing second, your voice was shaking more and more, your hands barely holding your book up.

"hoon, please…" your plea forced your boyfriend to detach himself from your pussy, his lips swollen and covered in your juices. but that didn't stop him from landing a harsh slap on your cunt, making you cry out and almost drop your book. "i don't think your book says that babydoll. stay focused" and the smirk on his face is just as annoying as it's attractive. you want to wipe it out and at the same time, all you want is for his mouth to be back on you. and he does just that, gaining another noise of pleasure from you.

and you really try your best, but the way sunghoon is eating you out like a starved man while pinning your hips down to the mattress is driving you crazy. you can feel his cocky smile against your folds when your speech starts to get slurred, far too fucked out to form a coherent sentence or even see the words on the page in front of you anymore. "i-i can't hoon ! need to cum, please, please ! i'm- aah !" - "you're so miserable with only my tongue, it's cute."

tears begin to gather in your eyes when he starts teasing you with his fingers too, the pleasurable feeling ultimately becoming too much. you didn't even make the effort to read anymore, your vision too blurry to see anything in front of you. you tossed it to the side, taking a hold of sunghoon's hair instead, only able to whine and beg at this point.

"you're such a brat, but whenever i touch you, you lose all your attitude, isn't that funny doll ?" sunghoon loves how you're only able to moan in response. "come on, cum on my tongue since you've been a good girl." that was all you needed to let go, messing up his perfect hairstyle but sunghoon couldn't care less as he reminded you once again how much better than your little books he was.

#i'll never get over this concept i swear #don't ever stop fueling into it sweetie #eli answering your questions #eli's moots #dinna's asks #enhypen hard thoughts #enha hard thoughts #sunghoon hard thoughts #sunghoon hard hours #sunghoon smut #sunghoon x reader

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silcoitus · 3 days

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listen, Silco edging reader, denying her climax every night until she's had enough, one day she just pins him down and have him as she pleases until she cums first leaving him flustered and unsatisfied. That or reader accidentally cums while he's edging her so he keeps going until she cums again and so overstim because ''is that what you want? huh? here, have some more don't be shy'' ''what do you mean stop? isn't this what you so desperately want?'' . Thank you and good day.

Anon. Sweet, sweet, anon. If your goal was to get me all flustered at 7 o'clock in the morning when I read this first thing after waking up, you succeeded splendidly. I thought I would just reply to this but I couldn't pass up the opportunity of using the wonderful dialogue you had written!

Don't Be Shy

Rating: Explicit—Minors DNI

Word count: 998

Beta reader: none. we die like reader's hubris

Tags: Sadistic Silco, Dom Silco, Orgasm Edging, Forced Orgasm, Multiple Orgasms, Sex Toys, Vibrators, Dirty Talk, BDSM, Bondage

It started as a joke. A bet. You declared that you could take anything he gave you. That you would outlast him. That you would never beg or plead. He posited that you would be reduced to a whimpering, quivering, pathetic mess by day three. It's day four now.

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yanderes-galore · 3 days

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Rho 'Barutamee yandere alphabet, please?

I can try, sure! I'm warning you, I have been falling out of motivation for Alphabets and Halo rn... but I hope you enjoy >:) Added some dialogue to sweeten things.

Original Concept Here

Yandere Alphabet - Rho 'Barutamee

Pairing: Romantic

Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Obsession, Possessive behavior, Manipulation, Violence/Murder, Death, Blood, Unhealthy power dynamic, Biting/Marking, Mentions of being called mate and pet, Jealousy, Sangheili/Sangheili or Human/Sangheili pairing, Imprisonment, Isolation, Forced relationship.

Affection: How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?

Like most Sangheili I write, Rho is possessive. This is shown in his affection when he pulls you into his lap while he's in his chair. He nips your neck and holds you tightly.

Rho is laid-back compared to most Sangheili, but he will mark you as his. There's times he can be intense with you or those around you. As a leader, he knows how to intimidate.

"Sit down... I need to show them you're mine."

Blood: How messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling?

Rho, like most if not all Sangheili warriors, will get messy. He likes to show he's powerful. If someone on his crew touches you, or judges his preferences...

He'll kill them.

He'll execute them in front of everyone, including you, just to show no one can touch what's his.

The blood coating his gold armor only shows what he really is deep down... a warrior possessive of his mate.

"Anyone who thinks about touching what's mine... will die by my hand, understood?"

Cruelty: How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them?

Rho is possessive but tries to be accommodating. Once you're on his ship he expects loyalty and submission from you. He wouldn't mock you if he doesn't have to.

He is a bit reserved and not the most affectionate, but he comes off strong when he is.

"The ship is open for you to roam... but you're forbidden from leaving."

Darling: Aside from abduction, would they do anything against their darling’s will?

Not unless he feels he has to, like if you're trying to escape or defy him.

"Give me your loyalty... give me your submission."

Exposed: How much of their heart do they bare to their darling? How vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling?

Rho is reserved and doesn't like showing many vulnerabilities. Even though you're his mate and he'll so anything to show that... he dislikes being so honest. It's no doubt due to his culture, too. They don't confide in one another often.

"Do not pry, dear... I do not wish to tell you such matters."

Fight: How would they feel if their darling fought back?

Amused albeit irritated. He appreciates your fighting spirit but doesn't want you fighting him. So... it seems he'll have to discipline his dearest obsession.

"If only you used such a spirit in battle, dear."

Game: Is this a game to them? How much would they enjoy watching their darling try to escape?

Not really and he'd be a mix between amused and irritated if you tried to escape whenever his ship docks.

"I only have so much patience... do not waste it."

Hell: What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?

If you're not used to it, seeing him execute another member of his crew because you happened to get along with them. He won't harm you, but another bad experience could be him locking you in a cell or marking you.

"You're mine... I'll make everyone know that."

Ideals: What kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling?

He plans to make you his loyal mate and second-in-command. He doesn't care how it happens. Just as long as he has you as his, he's happy.

"You can have so much power... just as long as you listen well."

Jealousy: Do they get jealous? Do they lash out or find a way to cope?

Yes, while he may cope at first silently... he'll lash out if others push their luck.

"Do you really wish to test me?"

Kisses: How do they act around or with their darling?

Love letters: How would they go about courting or approaching their darling?

Obsessive, Manipulative, Controlling, Selfish, Possessive, and Slightly Caring in an attempt to understand his darling's needs.

"I will tend to you if you give me what I want in return, a deal?"

Mask: Are their true colors drastically different from the way they act around everyone else?

He'd either recruit you onto his crew (Sangheili) or take you as a prisoner (Human). You'd then reside on his ship, providing chat and giving him information on Forerunner artifacts. However... later on he begins to show some signs of... attachment.

"Hmm... you can be of good use to me, can't you?"

Naughty: How would they punish their darling?

A bit. He's certainly more attentive towards you and affectionate.

"Am I providing for you correctly? Don't hesitate to ask if you need anything."

Oppression: How many rights would they take away from their darling?

Locking you on a cell on his ship and isolating you. He may even deprive you of needs, depending on how much you've pushed him. He's serious when it comes to loyalty.

"You will learn your place on this ship... like it or not."

Patience: How patient are they with their darling?

Not many unless he has to.

"Keep up our deal... and you'll have some freedoms. Yet you'll always be mine until the end."

Quit: If their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on?

Rho is patient with his obsession, as a leader he must be. He has his limits though.

"You're lucky I like you...."

Regret: Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let their darling go?

With time he'd move on... but it's a sore topic for him. He'd hate losing you.

"Do NOT speak of them near me, understand?"

Stigma: What brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc)?

No and no.

"Guilt? Nonsense... you belong to me."

Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?

Curiosity is the most likely reason.

"You intrigue me... I wish to learn more."

Unique: Would they do anything different from the classic yandere?

This is more likely in a human darling, but he'd leave you be and come to check on you at times.

"Still upset, dear pet? Don't worry... you'll get used to it."

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Vice: What weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?

There isn't one I can think of, unfortunately. He has his grasp pretty tight on you.

Wit’s end: Would they ever hurt their darling?

Xoanon: How much would they revere or worship their darling? To what length would they go to win their darling over?

Not usually, but it can happen.

"Learn from this, won't you? I don't like doing this with you...."

Yearn: How long do they pine after their darling before they snap?

Not really a Sangheili of faith, Rho most likely wouldn't worship his darling either. However, he'd sacrifice anything to have you.

"I am not desperate enough for worship...."

Zenith: Would they ever break their darling?

Hm... I'd say months?

"I can't stop thinking about you... what have you done to me?"

Unintentionally, maybe.

"Still quiet, are you?"

#yandere halo #yandere sangheili #yandere rho 'barutamee

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memberoftheredstringbrigade · 23 hours

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Ep 12 getting off thoughts

I refuse to be mature about the title .RQ knew what they were doing.

However getting off does link to the lawsuit and strip club

I know this episode was gory but for some reason it didn't phase me much? I guess I've just got used to it .

Hmm for a Norris/Martin statement no themes of love and loss this time .I guess helplessly watching people you don't know die horribly could link to JonMartins oddessy through the fear domains.Alternativly this could link to them watching/understanding the OIAR staff

Celia wants tea hmmm .STILL DONT TRUST HER.I saw someone bring up how it could be a reference to her being from TMA as she didn't drink "her" mocha.

SAM NOOO DONT ASK CELIA OUT....SHE DOESNT DESERVE YOU!!!

I'm still a dyehard shipper but I could be tempted by a bit of Sam× Alice occasionally.

THE BRITTISH GOVERNMENT !!!( I loved the setup for this so many people have been thinking alice could be an avatar/know too much)

I am now 100% convinced alice doesn't know anything and has just vague feelings of dread /being watched.

I don't think the statement was Mr bonzos name I think it was just a warning but only time will tell

THAT SOOOOOONG !!!I LISTENED TOO ALL OF THAT I FEEL HER PAIN!!!

Bonzo is clearly a reoccurring charecter.potential season 1 villan candidate?

I'm not convinced needles will return as jonny said in a q and a he treats their 1st episodes as auditions so I don't think needles will be prominent unless he features in another statement soon.

Gwens VA did an AMAZING job at the voice acting for this ep it was amazing.

Back again with the hunger imagery

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teplejtrouba · 3 months

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i have managed to actually do a hobby for the first time in months. yippee

#executive dysfunction and depression are kicking my ass #like severely. i am apathetic about everything and so so tired. things that brought me the most joy are no longer available to me #like. i love you so much you are so important to me but i no longer have the ability to care or do anything about it #things i love the most are behind a glass door that i can't unlock. or break.#sewing and embroidery especially are like. things i very much love and aspire to do but they are SO time and energy consuming #i don't have the patience #i stayed up till 4 am listening to lenka králová's interviews with trans people and it made me a little hopeful #currently transition doesn't really feel possible and i kind of just want to die so. hearing from others who made it was important #i also appreciated the comments #because a lot of them are from cis people. who didn't really know things about trans people but are learning thanks to lenkas channel #and after hearing a bit about our lifes their reaction is usually to applaud the strength we have. to be ourselves #and it's heartwarming to read. that there are people who learn. and can empathise in some way. that not everyone hates us #'you only have one life and no one else is going to live it for you. so you better be yourself' or something along that was in one of them #most of the comments under every video are just people saying how beautiful Lenka looks and yeah. true #i love her

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leuchtturmhaus · 7 months

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being new in the die drei fragezeichen fandom and coming onto tumblr has to be an experience™

#half off the Fandom is mass haluzinating the same 5 characters #everyone treats those characters as fancy barbie does you can make do anything you want #and I don't think anyone knows everything #he'll I don't remember half of the episodes I listened to #die drei fragezeichen

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lord-squiggletits · 7 months

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I must admit I'm getting this horrible image in my head of Tarn as that type of creepy guy who donates way too much money to a streamer and then absolutely loses it when he hears they're not single.

That's probably accurate lol. Although unlike (seemingly) most people in this fandom, I blame Megatron more for turning Tarn into that kind of obsessed freak than I do Tarn for being a freak. I mean, my view is basically "you reap what you sow/the monster you created turned around and bit you" so I don't really have sympathy for Megatron with regards to Tarn showing up and ruining his life lol. I actually really like the DJD coming in MTMTE as basically the living embodiment of karma and Megatron's comeuppance about not being able to run away from/ignore his past.

Like blah blah "no matter how sad your backstory is you're still responsible for your own actions" but also Megatron is literally 100% the reason Tarn is Like That, and Megatron also used parasocial manipulation, propaganda, and his grandiose personality to manipulate the Decepticons into worshipping/following him without question. So like. It's fiction, I don't have to be all "well they're all problematic" I can just be like "lol, lmao even" and point and laugh as Megatron gets fucked up by Tarn and the DJD because he can't talk his way out of this problem.

#squiggle answers #i'm not mad at you or thinking you're saying anything #i'm just very fond of dying of the light and i enjoy megatron suffering #i love how dying of the light is like megatron's personal torment nexus of getting trapped by his bad decisions #but also getting other people dragged down with him by accident #and then he's so fucking pathetic that he can't even compromise his 'pacifism' to save those people he dragged down #and then he lashes out in anger and becomes violent and hateful again and slaughters the whole DJD #i love that shit. love when megatron is fucked up and dysfunctional #i'm not saying i wanted him to become WORSE and like die a horrible fate per se #i'm just saying that i disagree with most of the fandom when they're like aww let this old man rest and tarn should fuck off he's a loser #i'm like nah. put megatron in the blender. don't let him just suddenly decide to be a pacifist and then that's it. make him fuck up #ough sorry it's just. i like megatron getting better but i also like him staying bad lol #like i want him to get redeemed but i also still want him to be fucked up and full of anger and hatred. if that makes sense #but yeah. not to be a tarn defender or anything but like #sometimes the fandom seems like it listened too much to the part where megatron was like #'i was happy i was at peace and you ruined everything'#meanwhile i'm sitting there like: yeah they ruined it. and so what. it's your fault. you don't get to be peaceful and happy #when you still have mistakes that you need to address and do something about instead of running away #muah. muah. muah. love dying of the light #i wanted to rip megatron apart from being so pathetic but i was also like. awww sad old man #mostly i wanted to rip him apart tho lol

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an-assortment-of-forks · 3 months

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there are doctors there are hospitals there are specialists there is medicine there are systems in place so people do not have to suffer and be tortured under their own chronic pain daily and yet. they're all fucking inaccessible to the people who need it most!!! to what I would argue is most disabled people!! I'm so fucking done with the medical system.

#today is an absolutely wretched pain day that makes me want to not be here anymore but guess what!#wasted a whole year trying to convince my doctors I was in significant and disableing pain daily and the best they could do #is tell me to go to PT and to wait 6 months and tell them if it gets better #to prescribe some shit like gabapentin or otc pain meds and write me off #tell me they'll get new X-rays to see if it got worse by the summer #disability exists!! specialists exist! good doctors fucking exist!! somewhere!!! I'm sure!!#but here I sit. in excruciating amounts of pain unable to convince any fucking doctors of anything #and that year I spent pushing myself to the limit is wasted bc at the very end of it all only one guy listened to me #and he said no one in their giant ass facility could diagnose me #so I'm back to square one bc I got a new job which means new insurance and new doctors to try and convince again #I just want to be on disability so i can want to be alive again #I'm so frustrated and in pain constantly #what are people like me who have to work 40hrs to afford to live but don't have any family to rely on supposed to do??#just die? am i supposed to continue to work until im too disabled to move and be profitable unless i get lucky?#bc some fucking doctor finally decides to actually listen???#ive tried ALL THE DAMN TRICKS TOO. telling them a friend has it and thats how i found out. that my previous doctor was looking into it #etc etc #I'm SO done living like this i am exhausted.#and to know that i COULD BE HELPED. RIGHT NOW. is the worst fucking part #these systems are in place so people like me dont have to fucking suffer.#but i cant even do anything about it bc i have a cat.

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selvepnea · 5 months

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Thinking about. That one post about art. And how it's never good enough. Since you're the one that made it. And how. It might relate to how I view myself?

#Sel talks #Like. Do I like the idea of a masculine body because I think it will make me less me?#I keep thinking about a line from “in stars and time” talking about. How maybe they changed because it was easier than learning to love #Himself as he was.#Keep thinking about something my therapist said last session. About how he would hope there's more restriction around accessing trans #Health-care than there is about getting a medical Marijuana card #And even if it comes from a place of good intent; is still a harmful idea?#I keep forgetting how much importance cis people put on transitioning. And it's just. Not? For me?#My body is just another form of expression for me to form and play with. And I feel like it might be hard to try and get someone who's #Not thought a lot about gender to understand.#I don't really want to lable it as “transitioning” either. My isat brainrot is wanting me to call it “Changing”; bit I'm not sure if that's #Quite accurate either. Like. We don't have a word for playing with different styles of clothes? Why do I need one for messing w other types #Of presentation?#Sigh...#I'm soooo tempted to just go on t and not do anything else. No name change. No sex change. And not tell anyone.#Why do I need to take into consideration how much my decision weighs on other people?#I feel like I've gotten too many reminders that “tomorrow's not promised” or “How we spend our days is how we spend our lives”#“Don't live wondering” or whatever that old lesbian slogan was. “We're all going to die so who cares if it's a waste”? Some will wood song #I'm listening to. I just.#Why am I waiting for the perfect opertunity to transition? Or change or whatever.#I've always considered my want to masculinise as me taking “be the change you want to see” either too far or too literally #I want to see men in dresses!! And if no one else around here is going to do it I guess that falls on me!#Why must I follow everyone else's path to t?? I want to make my own!#Grrr barkbark #I feel so underequiped to change the world; why must I do it?? Can't it just change for me??

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bibiana112 · 3 months

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And for bad oversharing medical news the arrhythmia from december never went away but I thought maybe the throat infection was still there right so that could be a reason but then I went to a specialist and not only is it practically cured (just lingering a bit) but my lungs sound fine as well! which means! the shortness of breath is probably something wrong with the oxygen in the bloodstream and the slight chest tightness is also extremely worrying I could only make an appointment to get it checked next friday and that sounds like way too long

#I know it's morbid but the only thing I can think about is how fucking mad I am at my parents and how I wish I had someone else to take care #of my things and burial if I were to die #they don't know me #they would do everything against my wishes because they never cared to listen #and Especially I am mad at my dad cause when this started he was around and I was really scared and upset and nearly crying and I told him #that I was considering going to the hospital right there and then and then he didn't. fucking say anything or ask if I was okay #they'll never listen anything just registers as crazy fucking kid having a tantrum again let's give her space leave her out of sight #And I had to Yell at him to stop telling me not to go to the hospital the next day and I mean Yell and he still said they'd deny it #that I was making it up if I had just been on my fucking own I wouldn't have double guessed myself on it and gone to the wrong specialist #and wasted time and gotten to the point where it's not like debilitating pain but constantly aware that it's there and I can only like eat #heart healthy shit that I don't even like and wait and god I am so upset at them why so I have to be alone and yet still be so tied to them #why pretend to care when I've said time and time again they're still hurting me like nearly everytime we see each other #Okay nevermind I actually Need to distract myself now usually confronting feelings is my favorite #but my body is telling me that if I want to cry I have to deal with it physically feeling like there's a hole between my ribs so #I'll hold off on it #I'll be fine #god going to sleep has been the absolute worse #delete later

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killbaned · 3 months

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everyone's favorite fully grown toddler i can't seem to get rid of no matter what i fucking do is so mad her basic attempts at emotional manipulation no longer fucking work

#'i'm SORRY i'm such a pain'#'this is why you shouldn't have left the rehab'#'WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO JUST SIT THERE'#'i'm not arguing about this because there's no point because you don't listen to anyone' [leaves]#like no the fuck you're not sorry because if you ACTUALLY felt bad you'd at least be doing literally anything for yourself #you don't WANT to get better and be independent because your stupid ass sincerely thinks i'm just going to be here forever #and guess what cunt!!! not fucking happening!!! die mad about it!

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fluentisonus · 1 year

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also it drives me bonkers when people say aragorn was right in that scene because he's literally not!! he's pulling the same rhetorical bit that he does with boromir at the council of elrond where he's willfully ignoring people's very justified & specific suffering & grievances by saying that everyone has problems. he's deliberately looking past all the things she's had to deal with & the very clear and cynical way that makes her look at the world to say that men are dealing with the exact same problems which is blatantly not true

#listen to be clear I really enjoy aragorn as a character actually I just think we could all stand to recognize that he's wrong more often #thoughts #tolkien #making this unrebloggable bc I don't want to argue w people over aragorn asdfjhklsdfhj.#but anyways I think people take that as her being selfish or something but it's exactly the opposite. she's been sitting there 'defending'#rohan accomplishing nothing while her cousin dies and her brother risks his life watching the king get more and more lost to the world #& everything crumble apart around them and not being allowed to do anything about it #and now they have a hopeless fight that they don't entirely expect to win and they want he not to even try! like they want to her to wait #and Let it happen to her! she's been letting things happen to her this whole time in a truly grotesque way and she wants to Try #to do Something even if she dies either way rather than to have to have her last act just be enduring #and yeah she's trying to die maybe moreso than the men there but I think it's important to remember how her culture sees death like.#positively. so her death in her mind will be Actively (!) doing something to preserve them. idk idk #this may not make sense akdjflkjsdf it's nearly 2am.#but people look at her in such a flat way & it makes me sad

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united-under-skyfall · 5 months

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#i think one thing i really didn't prepare for w overnights is just how fucking lonely it is. like yeah 80% of the reason i took it was to #get away from customers but like. it worked. and the night shift team is v v small. there's only 4 of us and we've never been scheduled all #at once yet. and usually we're running around on completely opposite ends of the building going long periods of time without #radioing each other. and then i come home all amped up and the rest of my house is still asleep. and then when they wake up #it's just to get ready and go and we don't really have time to talk. and by the time they get back i'm sleeping #and it's my first night off and i can't fuck up my whole schedule i worked so hard to switch over to w them flipping me all over the place #so now i'm just like. sitting in the half light trying not to wake anybody up not doing anything. the only places near us open are #gas stations and i can't exactly loiter there and what would i do even if i could. and it's too cold to go for a walk or to the park #or something. and i feel like i haven't talked to another human being about something that wasn't related to work in years #and it's only been a week.#and we can listen to music or podcasts or something but our carts and machines are so loud you miss half of it. and we can't hold #super long conversations when we ARE in the same room for the same reasons. plus we all want to die so none of us feel like talking.#and just. im tired and lonely and want to sleep and im already regretting this but i'd feel bad for backing out now when they have so #few options and i volunteered for it in the first place #and then there's also like. even just doing my usual solitary thing at home feels so much more isolated bc there's not the noises #of other people existing nearby. the nearest signs of life are some coughing and then a car on the other side of the block #just. what am i even doing here.#tag ramble

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birbfeeder2artisticboogaloo · 10 months

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NOW SHE'S TRYING TO KILL LIGHT????????

L IS VERY SAD ABOUT HIS FRIEND ;A; srsly tho shout out to that actor, he's putting his entire L-ussy into his performance, good for him!!! (pls pronounce it 'ell-ussy' it sounds better that way)

i wonder if im meant to be taking light's part in the film??? he's a wishy-washy snivelling little coward, so im not really. doing that 👀👀👀 i DO like that everyone ELSE is a lot more passionate about murder than he is tho!!! both mia AND L actually WANT to murder ppl for fun and profit OR to avenge a dead friend. they have actual motives and desires and strong feelings!!!!!

meanwhile the king of the incels is going back and forth so much u never even know what he actually WANTS... he just. hasn't got much of. anything really. he's just sort of there. very bland and boring. his high pitched screams are funny tho!!!

#'lord kira' what a fucking JOKE #they play sloooow music over this like im supposed to CARE that these two clowns are about to die #THIS SONG FEELS VERY INAPPROPRIATE FOR THIS SCENE??????#it was wise to keep ryuk in shadow bc he looks uh. bad 👀#no no NO DOn'T FISH HIM OUT!!!!!#LEAVE HIM GO LEAVE HIM DIE!!! I WANT THE FILM TO END!!!!!!!#i wonder what L will be doing after all this #is his employment done for. has he got money saved up. who will look after him #AWWW HE'S NOT DEAD???? feckkkk how did that EXACT PAGE BURN???? come onnnnnnn this is RUBBISH #HOW IS THIS EVEN L'S FAULT?????????#ur man should have listened to light when he wanted to reveal his ~secret~#lol the guy returns the death note to light by just. leaving it on his chest in the hospital #just sets it down gently. doesn't cover it or anything!!!

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catkin-morgs-kookaburralover · 1 year

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brain has two options:

either certain urges are not distractable and bad stuff ends up happening

or they are distractable despite the strength of the urges at the time and so I must be faking it

can't win can I