#I don't know but I hope it never stops

[cubicpeebles]

Their fate is in your hands!

#I have never done one of these #I hope I did it correctly #Basically what I tried to say with the image is that if this post has more reblogs then Enot will be hydraulic pressed #And if the post has more likes they will be spared. #I don't know when exactly I will stop the count and draw the outcome based on the results. I'll do it at some point. Probably in a few days.

[bizarrelittlemew]

i was hoping to make a post like this under happier circumstances, but here goes.

as some of you know, everything with the cancellation and renewal campaign has happened right on top of the worst part of my mom's cancer treatment (plus the show was cancelled on my actual birthday 💀). i won't go into details, but it's been tough. lots of ups and downs, mostly downs, luckily ending (for now) on as much of an up as circumstances allow. the whole thing has been weirdly tied to the cancellation for me, kind of amplifying every feeling. the grief got mixed up, and there was so much of it - mourning the loss of the kind of future i thought i'd have with my mother and the time we might not get, mourning the end of a show that means so much to me and is such a big part of my life. different types of grief, sure, and of different magnitudes, but in one big ugly swirl. i sort of had a breakdown right at the start of february, and it was because of news about my mom, but it morphed into my brain telling me everything i'd ever written was shit and wanting to delete it all. stuff like that, spilling over.

anyway. i was holding off on writing this post to see if the show got picked up by someone else. but i still want to say it. because what also spilled over was the support and community from this fandom, and being in this space (despite the rough times and high emotions) helped me through it, because of all of you here. whether we talk regularly, or you left a comforting reply or simply a like on one of my posts about having a hard time (i tried to keep them few), or wrote a nice comment on a fic, or said something funny or nice or insightful in the tags of a gifset, or was active here (or on twt) in any way, talking/sharing/creating stuff about the show - THANK YOU.

you all helped me through all the ups and downs, and i am so grateful. thank you for being here, listening, distracting, helping me feel some joy despite the horrors. i love you and i love this incredible show and all it has brought and will continue to bring and inspire, and although it should go without saying, i'm not going anywhere. just do me a favor and give yourself a big ol' hug from me, and know that you made a difference for some random guy on the internet (but in reality for many more, and for this fandom as a whole, just by being here and being you) 💕

#🐭📓 #oh wow this got long #i grieved so much in january and never truly got my hopes up even though i of course wished something would happen #that the second “cancellation” message did not hit me as hard as it did for others - like i'd already absorbed that reality #but no matter what. all the effort was worth it - even for just the slightest chance of renewal and showing the cast and crew all the love #and seeing the fandom rally and all the fun moments we found along the way in a shitty situation none of us wished to be in #and for the record - i don't think this means there is no possibility of anything happening in the future #i just think the current/immediate negotiations fell through due to the current streaming landscape #you never know what can happen even if nothing happens for years #it's just that it's not happening right now and we shouldn't be at the edge of our seats. but instead settle into long term fandom mode #instead of constant campaign mode. keep showing all our love for the show and letting it inspire us and move us #and keep supporting the cast and crew in their next works #there is so much more to come from the same creative minds #and i for one am looking forward to experiencing it with you all 💗 #ok i will stop rambling now skdjfhdjks

[lover-of-mine]

I'm right here, when you gonna realise...

#911 #911edit #buddieedit #buddie #911 fox #911 on fox #911 abc #evan buckley #eddie diaz #my edit #otp: you don't need to pretend with me #this is the most unserious set ill ever make #i have never laughed so much making something before #this is CURSED #this is ridiculous #it exists so i can stop thinking about it #but for something ridiculous i was way to careful with this cuz all gifs are the same length for some reason #i dont know okay #i hope the 911sos besties see this #if not honestly #im gonna go to bed now #911sos #friendzone 🫶 #at this point i should have a cemetery tag lol

[therantingsage]

Ok so the store I work at is just.....closed? For two straight weeks? And that puts me in a Situation Financially. So I Am Once Again Begging For Commissions

#Aaaa I don't think I got laid off?? #They said they let a bunch of people go every January and then call back who they need #But I can still use the app so I think I'm still employed??? I hope??? #But no hours for the next 14 days or more idk!!!! A!!! #The Struggle Never Stops #Artists on Tumblr #Or whatever freaking tag people use I just!!!! Don't know anything ever!!!!!!

[front-facing-pokemon]

#primal kyogre #is that what i should tag this as?? or should i say like… mega kyogre? i. um. i'm gonna leave it as primal for now. and just hope #that's right. anyway you know how this guy glows?? yeah it's baked into the textures on their model i guess. they just do that #all the time. and they cannot stop glowing. because they just Look Like That. for some reason. can't say it's a flattering look #especially with those teefers being barely fuckin visible. and the eyes being kinda washed out. it looks much better in game than here #but then again i played omegaruby as a kid. as opposed to alpha sapphire. so i never saw this i don't think #though i guess i think it might've happened in rtdx? for their boss fight there? not sure #i did that one waiting for my food at a steak 'n shake. that boss fight. i dunno why i remember that so specifically but that's. what i did

[deadloverscity]

wake up babe we have more brainrot

#salaar #I don't know if they keep posting I am going to go insane #but I hope they never stop #give me all that content #varadeva #Youtube

[theinfinitedivides]

so much for not writing the fic

#tv: vigilante #vigilante #vigilante kdrama #nam joo hyuk #yoo ji tae #kim so jin #lee joon hyuk #kdrama #local gay watches Vigilante.txt #local gay watches k-dramas.txt #local gay writes fanfic.txt #it's not my fault it's Heon f*cking me up with his hand on Ji Yong's face that spawned this post-canon fic where the latter #comes back from his activities and Heon is in his house. sitting on his couch without warning. Ji Yong's still in his hoodie btw #there's blood all over his face. he is in a state of affairs but you know how i like my men #never mind this will probably like. never see the light of day anywhere and that it's more hurt/comfort than anything else but #we'll see how it goes. that's all i can say for y'all not to get your hopes up i have other sh*t to finish sksksksk #edit: i hate when i listen to music while writing and subconsciously work the lyrics into my sh*t. Polly by Moses Sumney came on #and this is why you have the 'he'll dissolve just like that' line bc uh. 'i'll dissolve / i know it won't solve this (i want to #dissolve) / evolve into rain and spit / you make me go unstitched' if you get it you get it if you don't you don't. full stop

[thisloev]

spending my whole life trying and trying and trying and trying to be good enough for people who don't give a fuck about me

#im so tired living seems pointless why am i doing this what is the reason #the firm i work at is going thru a merger so it's releasing all the interns except 2 #i went into her office and said that id like to stay here bc my dad said so bc i got in cause he was friends with the head #and she said ill think about it based on performance ive not decided yet #and this other guy he went in to tell her that cool he'll leave and she told him that she was hoping that he'd stay #he literally does nothing but play games on his phone he doesn't work at all #i have no idea what he has that i don't #but just. im stuck like this forever right never ever good enough for people i like or care about #not for parents they have a diff fav child not for ex gf not for bestie who has a boyfriend much better at loving her than me #not for that one guy who rejected me in interview bc i don't read the newspaper and didn't know the date of the finance act #im so fucking sick of this i never even wanted to this fuckinh course and obviously even my best isn't enough and ofc im not good enough #for anyone in this field and ill just struggle and struggle and struggle all my life just to earn some fucking money so i can live away #from my sociopathic parents #and the worst part is that i can't stop feeling like maybe it IS me yk maybe i am the problem maybe im not trying hard enough #but how else am i supposed to handle this i prioritize my studies and lose all my friends i prioritise my friends and fail in d #exams #and the trauma keeps on coming every fucking day bc sociopathic parents but i jsut push it down and say not rn i will cry at night anx then #never cry #i wish someone would just tell me that idk you're wrong you're not made for this you really do have some mental illness and you're really #trying your best and do something that's easy and that you love doing #oh god this is now a ventpost #mes

[gendercriticalthinking]

hi, agender non-binary person here interested in gender critical feminism! i was wondering what your take was on people being uncomfortable with certain pronouns (he/him, she/her).

how do you feel about they/them pronouns, or neopronouns?

Hello there! I apologize so much for not answering your ask in a timely manner!! Responding to people on social media still makes me a bit anxious and stressed so I usually ignore my notifs even though I really shouldn't haha

Thank you for your question, and for being open to listening to gender critical people!!! It's an important and admirable quality to have, and especially worth praising when you and others have outright been told to not interact with gc people/radfems at any cost! So yes, thank you for that! :)

As for your question (which is a good one!) I originally wrote this very long rambly reply and saved it to my drafts hoping to make it coherent one day. But then recently something happened that made me realize something about human nature in general that directly ties into how gender identities and discomfort/enjoyment of certain pronouns came about:

My brother has always loved nature, especially animals. The reason his favorite color is green is because it's the color of plants: trees, jungles, the places animals live and eat and get to be free in. He's so obsessed with green that seeing something green, anything green, compels him to go " :O !!!! Green!!!"

Because he loves nature and animals so much, he's also a vegetarian. And not just in a "eating animals is bad for the environment" way, but a "it disturbs me on a visceral level to see, smell, or be near meat" way. I have to clean up my bowls and plates that I eat meals that have meat on (I mean, I'd do it anyway because you should pick up after yourself but you get what I mean) because the thought of touching a utensil that once came into contact with meat, even if I ate that meat and it's gone now, carnally disgusts him.

He loves animals, and he wants pets. He'd never ever malnourish a pet just because he has a problem with meat, but it'd be a real emotional challenge for him to feed a carnivore wet meaty food and/or live prey every day. (The token family dog was always fed by our parents or me; he'd be okay if our dog liked dry food but he doesn't lol.)

So I researched the options out there for herbivorous pets, and I found a couple species of lizards (he loves lizards in particular, partially because they're often... green) that eat an exclusively plant-based diet! I showed them to him and he was definitely on board... but alongside the herbivores we found a species of lizard that's a bright, vibrant green and makes a great pet, but they need to eat (preferably live) insects.

He's over the moon about the green insectivore lizards. Once he learned they existed it was over for him. They're all he wants, he's 100% sure. And it's for a lot of other reasons besides the fact that they're green, but... they're green. There are no herbivorous green lizards that make good/easy-to-care-for pets. On some level, he cares more about the green-ness than the vegetarianism.

Why is that?

It's because humans are obsessed with creating symbols to represent ideas. So much so that they often get more attached to the symbol itself than the thing it's supposed to be a reminder of. It's like a self-made Cloth Mother that's built to look like the Wire Mother, but comes with none of the substance or nourishment.

Green represents nature and animals coexisting peacefully to my brother. The emotion the color green instills in him as it reminds him of the things he loves is so powerful it surpasses his enjoyment of the literal thing that the color represents to him.

I'm just using him as an example, but everyone does this. Your favorite childhood shows make you happy because they're nostalgic and reminds you of being a kid first and foremost. They can be well-written and artistic and enjoyable underneath that feeling, but the simpler time they mentally take you back to is what you love about them. Your favorite characters, the "he's just like me fr" ones you read fanfic of, are ones that remind you of yourself and/or ones that you're attracted to. They can also be fun to analyze and have interesting personalities and be great meme fodder, but at the end of the day they represent something to you beyond their objective qualities.

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So. If we live in a world where women are treated as lesser to men, not fully human, accessories to the actual thinkers, and we use "she/her" to refer to women, is it possible your hatred of hearing those pronouns is because they represent the idea that the person saying them to you sees you as inferior, vapid, incomplex?

If you're in a community where being a female who goes by "they/them" or "it/its" or "he/they" means you get to be who you want to be, who you truly are, enjoying everything life has to offer instead of being restricted to a role someone else made up for you, why wouldn't you like to be called something other than "she"?

When the majority of people who go by "she/her" in your spaces are amab people who constantly, vocally fetishize and dehumanize people with your biological body type (with a few afab people who don't seem to act like you or share your interests sprinkled in) why would anyone as smart and complex and kind to yourself as you ever like being called "she"?

Do you have an innate discomfort with certain pronouns because of dysphoria, or do you hate what the sound of them represents, reminds you of, that they're telling you what other people think of you? Do you enjoy being called certain pronouns because of euphoria, or do you like what the sound of them represents, reminds you of, that they're telling you the people who use them must listen to you and care what you think and support you being who you are?

What's my take on pronouns? They're symbols that represent the type of person you are and want to be. They mean something important. They tell a lot about a person. They're not something to play around with and try out for fun like they're clothes. They're not something you can make up out of thin air and pretend they have no connotations attached to them other than an Aesthetic TM you like.

Nor are they an escape from the problems of the world: the baggage comes with them, I'm afraid. It's a lot easier to change your bio and Discord server role than to change people's minds, especially ones belonging to those who hate you. That doesn't mean it's better or it works, just because it's feasible for you to do.

Whenever you feel a certain way about hearing "she," know that countless other women feel the same way as you. And know that leaving "she/her" behind doesn't mean you've found a cheat code out of being victimized and belittled, you've only left women like you behind instead.

#ask #misogyny #gender critical #radfems please interact #radfems please touch #lgbt #lgbtq community #lgbtq #gender #gender identity #trans #non binary #queer #transgender #agender #i said my old draft was too long and yet i go and write this instead lmao #and this ask was from so long ago i don't even know #i'm sorry anon. i hope you never stopped being curious and asking questions.

[hotwaterandmilk]

Hey quite curious why the X manga was discontinued. It was so good. Always enjoy your collections but the way! Hope next week is better for you!

Aww thank you for the kind words, I'm glad you enjoy seeing what I post. Now look I'll be the first person to say I'm not a dedicated CLAMP fan (I only really feel strongly about Magic Knight Rayearth), but I did read X back in the day and was actually buying Asuka in real time as the chapters started becoming increasingly sporadic.

I realise in retrospect how interesting it was to see the series slowly disappear right before my eyes. I don't think I noticed it at first, but then it sort of got like "oh, still no X huh?" about most issues of Asuka until it ceased appearing completely.

I think the most commonly cited explanation is the one from the group in a 2004 PAFU interview which notes the increasing number of real life disasters occuring (the Great Hanshin-Awaji Earthquake in '95 and the Kobe serial child murders in '97 as specific examples) and the changing social conditions as a result of these disasters making it difficult to for them to continue the series to its conclusion.

Whether this relates to editorial opinions on the appropriateness of the series continuing in that context, or simply a personal decision by the group to step back due to these real life incidents is hard to say for sure.

I think looking at CLAMP's increasing number of discontinued series over the past 20 years you could also argue that perhaps they simply lost steam with X and couldn't or didn't want to bring it to its intended conclusion for whatever reason -- and still don't. But whether this ties into a changing social response to their manga due to IRL isues or is related to something more straightforward like loss of interest, I can't really say.

Readers were truly invested in the series at the time though, that I can say unequivocally -- it was talked about in my online and IRL circles on a frequent basis during that early 00s period.

While it would be amazing to see a continuation of X some day with the 30th anniversary having been and gone & the PREMIUM COLLECTION volumes only having to 18.5, I have my doubts about them ever picking it up again.

So yeah, as I said I'm not a close CLAMP follower or particularly knowledgeable on their series, but that interview is really the only place they've said anything clearly about their reasons for suspending the title to my knowledge. Everything else, well, people will continue to speculate on for decades to come I imagine.

#answers #askbox #ask box #it's almost midnight so this is just me rambling #that interview covers the official reasoning #but i think the phrasing does still leave room for speculation #and let's face it when a popular series sputters to a stop people will speculate #i just never anticipated we'd still be doing it all these years later #i doubt i told you anything you don't already know but hope that helped anyway #thanks for the message :)

[feekins]

BIG SPOILERS FOR THE END OF TRIGUN MAXIMUM but. I have. Knives Feelings. that I don't wanna just sit on :(

what makes Knives such a huge comfort character for me is that he's SO hurt, SO scared, SO traumatized, started out SO loved...but chose to CLOSE HIMSELF OFF FROM THE WORLD to try to cope/protect himself...caused such AWFUL pain and suffering to the one person he had left, the one person who kept coming back, OVER AND OVER AGAIN...got SO BAD and was convinced he was WAY TOO FAR GONE TO STOP......and then, he turned around. he realized he was in the wrong. and he did the only thing(s) he could at that point to try to make it right.

that is. HEART-RENDINGLY HOPEFUL and PROFOUND.

#trigun maximum #trigun #millions knives #knives millions #text postan 2k23 #that kind of thing doesn't always happen. #sometimes they don't stop. sometimes it turns out you were never able to get through to them. #sometimes you need to save yourself and let go. #idk if that will ever NOT fuck me up. #Knives' case is close and yet just different enough that it's such a comfort for me to explore #he's such a tragic character #and it's at once so sad and so comforting that he started out so bright and hopeful #(unlike Supremely Shitty Ex-BFF of almost 20 years - the actual worst kind of narcissist from the very beginning) #(I just didn't know better...but also they deliberately didn't show their ugliest side around me) #(for some reason???) #(it is. SUCH a long and convoluted story.) #(anyway. KNIVES FEELINGS.)

[countess-of-edessa]

men who go "fuck!" and stalk around in disappointment at gender reveals where it is revealed they are having (another) daughter, in front of his already existing daughters and pregnant wife, i hope your wife leaves you and gets a hot millionaire second husband and they have a bunch of sons together and all of your disappointingly female daughters call him dad ♥️

#don't get divorced blah blah blah well the first draft of this post involved him getting run over by a train don't push me! #i definitely understand desiring a child of a specific gender. i think id be disappointed if i never had a daughter and only sons #but not (1) forever or even that long because ultimately it does not matter and (2) not visibly and not in front of the children i already #had of that gender #WHY DOES ANYONE HAVE A GENDER REVEAL WHO KNOW THEY ARE NOT PREPARED TO HEAR THE ANSWER IF IT IS CONTRARY TO THEIR HOPES #STOP DOING THAT

[mendozasolano]

HAPPY NEW YEAR, PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!! here's a little gift to you:

YSBLF + TEXT POSTS

#I'll send you a hug and good vibes!!!!! hope this year is better for you!!!!!! #anyways enough being sappy #i did this bc I wanted to lol and it was so hard to do but when I was in the middle of it I couldn't stop #and well I love creating and I love attention so I'm here again #Hope you like these!!!! and someone help me bc i have 13 of these left and idk how to put those or maybe I should just reblogged #it and put the ones left I truly don't know but I'll post every one!!!!! #that's it #I'm grateful for the little community of ysblf in tumblr #I truly appreciate you all!!!! I love your words #Your creativity #Your souls and brains!!!!! #Here's to new ysblf content in 2023 (me never coming back again 😆) #ysblf #armando mendoza #armando ysblf #betty la fea #betty ysblf #yo soy betty la fea #beatriz pinzón solano #don armando #marcela valencia #ysblf textposts #text post

[romansmartini]

the thing that drives me crazy about the james baldwin post apart from the blatant racism is just the complete incuriosity. like idk i don't think you should pretend you know Everything just to keep from ever appearing ignorant because like yeah everyone has gaps in their knowledge that are a product of your family and home country and schooling system and things you were exposed to growing up and what degree path you chose. but don't you like. want to know more? when you see a quote that you like from a named author, don't you want to look that name up to see who the author is before you proudly say you don't know who they are and you don't care? why is your response "well my school never taught me that so why should i care!!!!" instead of "oh wow i've never heard of him! which work should i check out first?" are you proud of your ignorance? do you want to go through life spending your time, energy and resources defending your lack of knowledge rather than learning something new? are you not the most pretentious person in the room by proudly condemning a generation-defining black author you've never heard of and wearing your ignorance like a badge?

#jillian.txt #idk i think a lot of it is like. guilt based. people not wanting to seem like they're imperfect or something so hoping to pass the blame to #someone else for their lack of knowledge. but it's like actually just do better lmao. you're a worse person for having this attitude #and you're actively missing out on things that could enrich your life and you're also being racist. #like at the very least man. i don't know. look him up and say 'oh fuck it looks like his work was really important. i can't believe i've #never heard of this guy before! my fucking family/school/etc never taught me about him! where do i start?' #UGHHH it makes me so mad. much more i could say but i will stop here

[meownotgood]

my favorite writers on tumblr and my favorite fics of theirs from 2022 🤲

@akicore - sweet dreams (hayakawa aki x fem!reader)

I love aki and somno, and this was so sweet and hot <3

@cynzcir - enjoying the view? (hayakawa aki x gn!reader)

bowling with aki bowling with aki... this is so cute, and the last part... omg my heart

@obitohno - husband!aki (hayakawa aki x fem!reader)

this fic was so cute and authentic, I love how the reader and aki's relationship is developed even in such short time, so lovely

@luvring - marriage w/ aki (hayakawa aki x fem!reader)

super cute domestic fluff, your writing gives my heart a cozy warm feeling

@3smos - aki & somno (hayakawa aki x dom!reader)

all I can say is I lost my mind and I'm still trying to find it because when I close my eyes I see this fic on the back of my eyelids

@arabaka - contract with the devil (hayakawa aki x fem!reader)

good god this fic still has me gripped by the throat... aki's dialogue... jesus... and every day I still think of the moment where his name is branded on you LIKE ABSJAJS

@p00pdev1l - in common (hayakawa aki x fem!reader)

hooking up with ex boyfriend aki... it was JUICY JUICY

@f1gments - road with a seaview (hayakawa aki x fem!reader)

I am still so grateful to my beloved for writing this for me... and it was so beautiful too... absolutely love it

@kemakoshume - equal exchange (hayakawa aki x angel devil)

this fic went so underrated on here, it's genuinely great and such a fantastic read, there's so many details I absolutely love in aki and angel's relationship, I love how aki uses his brother's name for his fake id... just so so good

@pompomegranate - rush job (hayakawa aki x fem!reader)

excellent writing, and this fic was so hot, I'm excited to see more from you this year 🙏

@mrsackermannx - indecisive (hayakawa aki x fem!reader)

actually so delicious I was drooling the whole time and it rattled the inside of my brain, the dialogue was SO hot

#thank you guys for your amazing fics and pls never stop writing 💪 #you are all appreciated for everything that you do #I'm hoping to read more in 2023!!! I can't wait to discover more fics and authors!!!!! #sorry I know everything is from late 2022 lol #but I didn't really start book marking things until then #in the future I will bookmark everything to make sure I don't lose it 🫡

[camellcat]

sometimes I see edits of eleven with rose and wonder who else is going to be absolutely FOOLED by them thinking that maybe MAYBEEE there's a sliver of truth. just. maybe not that, what I'm looking at, is a shot from the show, but maybe—

#literally CRUSHED #I swear to GOD I read someone say eleven is with rose for one final time IN THE SHOW and they were LYING TO ME!!!!! #lying liars who lie #well. actually they must've been talking about the 50th special. BUT I DID NOT KNOW THAT AT THE TIME!!! #never going to forget feeling the hope slowly dwindle the longer his run went on #when I didn't see rose by the end of s5 I was like. wtf </3 #sorry I just think it's dead funny. I don't think about this anymore and then #someone with an elevenrose pfp or some art or smth will pop up on my feed #and I'll just suddenly be struck with months old grief like a flash flood before it's gone as quick as it came #the whiplash I get LOL #it seems silly in retrospect but y'all I was genuinely fucking tweakin over rose tyler #I still am actually don't think it'll ever stop vffvnjvf #timepetals #elevenrose #doctor who