#I fuckin hate dysphoria

[variksel]

hi fellow transmascs pls put in the tags or reblogs What is the Worst everyday experience that makes u dysphoric but in only an inconvenient and petty way. mine is stepping out of the bathroom after a shower and having to put my towel up like this

#actually nbs and transfemmes if u also wanna contribute feel free to #i was just mostly curious about other transmascs cause like idk relatability ig 😭 #anyway i genuinely hate this towel thing soooooo fuckin much #i dont get like upset but it makes me feel so Small and weird i hate it lmao #but theres literally nothing i can do about it cause i do kinda hate putting on clothes in a really humid lil closet more #im just always like >:[ #ANYWAY #transmaculine #trans man #trans #transgender #dysphoria #cw dysphoria #lgbt

[arthurroseart]

Jumble

how things are lately

#vent art #vent #i hate my life rn!!!! fuck!!!!!! #i hate spending 80 percent of my day at a job i hate :)!!!!! #this was on a day i got yelled at and went home earlydbfsdgfa #anyway fuckin dont rread this i just need to vomit words somewhere #doodles #sketch #dysphoria

[poems-of-a-lover]

im so jealous of cis guys. being able to grow up how they want and being confident in themselves and just. im so fuckin jealous. it is so hard. SO hard. to feel comfortable with someone else in a relationship when im not comfortable with myself. i hate it.

#i know this is stupid #im supposed to be proud of being trans and love myself no matter what and be proud of my identity but #fuck man sometimes id just give anything to be cis #like this shit sucks #i dont wanna fuckin do this anymore im tired of it #'nick ur only 18' YEAH I KNOW AND ITS STILL BAD #god im pissed off #i just. i hate that i cant be proud of who i am bc im not someone else. #im losing my mind i think #i wish i was cis so fuckin bad u guys. i wanna have the experiences of growing up as a boy that i missed out on. #i wish i couldve went to school dances in a suit and not had to worry about being stared at #i wish i could dress how i wanted and present myself how i feel comfortable without hearing those goddamn whispers behind my back #im sick and fuckin tired of it #anyway <3 im done <3 im gonna go watch youtube and pretend like i dont exist <3 #vent #dysphoria mention

[byanyan]

the day byan dreads the most is the day when facial hair becomes a thing they have to deal with on a more regular basis

#of all the things... facial hair is the one which most sets off their gender dysphoria #it's the WORST they hate it sfm #they're still young enough that they don't need to shave too often but the day where that changes is ever approaching... #and they really wish it wasn't 🙃 #I wasn't kidding when I said I was having a lot of feelings about byan and gender today okay #I am thinking about so many things I am thinking so much about them #......anyway no surprise that I'm a liar who's not writing tonight. I'm fuckin exhausted today was weird I need to just vibe #sorry in advance if I spew more headcanons or thoughts or shitposts out this evening adjgjsg #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

[coridallasmultipass]

Felt cute, might deteriorate later. [He/Him]

#feels like im in hell um #shibuya to belgium #anyway did my eyebrows perfectly but its night and ill prob sleep em off so ugh #im so tired bro i went thru my arm workout THREE times today bc of stress and anxiety #not to mention body dysphoria on top of the health concerns im trying to not think about anything rn so selfie time #OBLIGATORY: 'DISCLAIMER: i'M HI (HIGH)' TAG #but tbh not enough im still hurting with stress #could fuckin go for another round but i rly gotta try n sleep bc i get to cry abt all this in therapy tmr yaaaaay #fuckin hate that i cant treat endo lmao its like living in a cage w a tiger and not knowing when its gonna attack or give a love bite #anyway not to be a crybaby but yeah im not okay and dont know how im expected to go on lol #thought i looked good in my red light but ended up w a good orange light pic #wish i could show off my arms but its not impressive. mostly just feels nice to be like... solid lol #wish i could afford a gym #so my face will have to do for now hope i dont regret posting selfies at almost midnight lol #me #selfie #Cori.exe #Image.exe #ignore my chapped lips pls my dermatillomania has been rampant for the past like 2 days lmao i never stood a chance #hhhhh idk what to tag beyond this fence sitting whether to post or not so im just gon post and then go sleep hffff

[soldier-poet-king]

Not to be like the whole bra industry is a scam but I see SO MANY male nipples all the damn time through shirts and no one says anything but no I have to spend a billion dollars to be stabbed in the chest and uncomfortable everyday wearing a supportive device I don't even NEED

Literally just like. Tiddy be gone. I don't need or want this shit

#franposting #this isnt even a dysphoria thing #this is i just paid SO MANY MONIES for new bras #which might be MARGINALLY less uncomfy than my current ones #i would literally just wear a sportsbra everyday but alas sheer dress shirts and fhe like #ofc that does not stop ever man i know from having his nips out #FUCKIN HATE THIS SHIT #i dont need these bitches and I don't want them #ik ik some folks like bras bc support for big chesys #THAT AINT ME i can happily be braless and comfortable #BUT SHEER AND WHITE SHIRTS #anyway. im SO cranky abt so much stuff rn #so i am picking smthn petty and dumb to project my worries and anger onto #also what about the bigger guys who legit have more of a chest than me #WHERE IS THEIR PRESSURE TO WEAR BRAS

[cryptid-on-a-string]

Ok even if I’m a trans man, I feel some amount of comfort in knowing that my body looks exactly like those women depicted in renaissance sculptures and paintings. Like every time I feel ugly I’m like “well that one statue is of Aphrodite and I literally look so much like her. I’m not completely a lost cause I guess.”

and also in that era, being chubby was a sign of wealth and prosperity, so basically if I was alive in the 1400s I would have gotten so many bitches <3

#It’s hoenstly kind of uncanny how much I’m built like a renaissance painting woman #(Still a man tho the dysphoria can’t get me here) #I saw an article titled “Why Are All Women In Classical Paintings Always Chubby?” or something #and then I felt really bad about myself again >:( #I was on such a good streak of not hating my body so fucking much but then I had to see that fuckin article title #Vent #I hate my body I wish I could never eat food ever again I want to choke on a can of paint and die

[fabulouslygaybean]

honest to god having a cool trans man cousin has been such an important part of me settling into who i am as a trans man

#he's a bi trans jewish stoner who works as a bartender and drives a bright orange pick-up truck #he dresses like your standard slightly rural midwestern but he makes it look effortlessly cool #he was one of the only people to never even once make fun of me when i was still a baby queer and i did embarrassing things #back when i was more or less forced into the uwu soft boi kind of role by everyone who knew i was a trans man #my cousin bought me my first non-used binder and took me to my first pride parade #he listened to all of my crazed ramblings over names and labels and all that shit when i was still figuring everything out #he helped me feel better about aspects of myself that i really truly hated because of dysphoria #he's just helped me out so fuckin much #he's a wonderful guy and im so glad he's part of my family

[anachronistic-falsehood]

why am i upset. my life literally could not be more stable. i have two steady jobs. i’m living with my parents and don’t have to start paying rent until september. i have 10k in savings. why do i want to sit down and cry. what’s the problem. why can’t i figure out the problem and make it go away. why can’t i fix it. what’s wrong

#whiskey yelling into the void #and now i’m being a lazy fuck by sitting in the break room while my coworker works up at the front #tw sh talk here aughhhhhh>> #i have a boxcutter with me and my six month streak is this close to being broken istg #yeah i gotta book something with my therapist. god #and ofc i’m like 3 days away from my period which a) causes dysphoria and b) makes me feel like all my issues are just me pmsing #which is so so upsetting to think about because the thought of experiencing fuckin. shitty female hormonal changes every month makes me #feel like absolute shit because I Don’t Want That. I Don’t and i hate that it’s here #i want to crawl out of my own skin i wanna hit my head against a wall i want to do something that makes me Feel #i want to punch something and break my fingers idk i want somethingggg

[wetpapert0wel]

bisexual .

#me. #with a lean towards men lol #also. gender? Mostly A Guy lol #like sometimes i wish i still had my feminine voice bc i have SO many girl ocs that i wanna act for. #but making my voice high pitched gives me a tiny bit of dysphoria lol #i also wish i got hit on by randos like girls/femmes often are LOL ...... thats pbb the trauma begging for me 2 b seen </3 #i have Zero regrets abt starting t tho <3 #the *only* thing i hate is the back hair sfvjsfbkbkfbksds #i love that my tummy is furrier. i love that my voice is deeper. i love my lil chin scruff. i love my big boxy frame. #i kinda miss my fuckin Pinched Waist. but like. im happy being a box :) #orignaletti

[dhampir-dyke]

I'm in so much pain, I fuckin hate shark week.

#every month i feel like im fuckin dying #im in severe pain and i feel like im gonna pass the fuck out #horrible headaches #mental health nosedives #gender dysphoria skyrockets #i hate this shit so much

[skeleton-cat]

i wanna be a tall lanky white boy with dark fluffy hair and a good fashion sense. I wanna be a cute boy that is deemed as a roseboy because he likes wearing skirts. I wanna be able to look cute in dresses and skirts and eyeliner and shit. I wanna be told how handsome i look in a trashy outfit. I wanna be called a pretty boy without having to ask. I wanna be able to wear gray sweatpants and have jokes be made about it. I wanna be called a golden retriever boy so damn badly. I wanna be called a nerd. I want someone to just call me a boy.

Tldr: i don't wanna be oppressed anymore

#haha yikes #Trans dysphoria and facial dysmorphia go brrrrrrr #i fuckin hate this #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #aaaaaaaaaaaaaa #aaaaaaaaaaa #aaaaaaaaa #aaaaaaa #i love men

[total-maehem]

as someone who's been out / socially transitioning for about 1.5 years now, but likely still 4-5 years away from being able to start hrt, i'm genuinely not sure how to deal with parts of my dysphoria anymore

like, i feel like i'm already doing everything i can right now, and i still feel so wrong and awful almost all the time

wtf am i supposed to do now?? get tattoos & piercings until i feel too fancy for dysphoria?? keep buying clothes until the hole inside me is filled somehow??

#fuckin hate the dutch healthcare system and its stupid waiting list and dumb bureaucracy #like 3.5-4.5 yrs of waiting list AND 6-12 months of therapy before i can even start thinking about hrt #like wtf #just tell me you want me to die then #cuz this structure sure as hell implies it #vent #queer #trans #transgender #dysphoria

[ccorax018]

i need top surgery now im gonna fuckin do it myself at this rate

#hate it here #dysphoria is really fuckin kicking my ass rn n theres nothing i can do about it

[garlicbrede]

Not my shitty choir teacher making the whole choir write a paper on respect because half the choir dropped and he couldn't figure out why we were so much quieter recently + like 4 people were briefly talking

#i like never personal blog and kinda hate doing it but im desperately trying to motivate myself ok #its not gonna be that bad but its still fuckin bullshit dude #also my headphones r not charged cuz the charger broke and extra wire pair i got for like 7 bucks just in case snaped in half #so thats extra fun #prolly gonna delete later #tbh #hate blogging about things irl besides goofy things and occasionally dysphoria blogging

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #hmmmm my tongue is so cool right now I like it #I like seeing the layers of tissue. the white fatty layer past the red skin and blood layer. #first time I saw that was when I cut the head off a snapping turtle cause my friends caught it but were too squeamish to kill it #(the legal kind to kill. not a protected one). idk if killing an animal is gonna make you think I'm problematic but oh well. #messed up and didn't cut the throat first so blood sprayed fuckin everywhere when I cut the head off. #butchered the body to keep the shell and we saved the meat cause they talked about making turtle soup but idk if they actually did #their six year old daughter was the only one brave enough to hold the heart (it was still spasming like it was beating) #honestly I feel like I get bored at all my jobs but maybe cutting up meat would be something I could do regularly and not get bored #idk. maybe one of these days I'll try and get into it somehow. I've got other things to do first though so I'll keep cashiering #anyway. meat is cool and I like cutting into it and I like forming my body in the way I like #and I really really really want bottom surgery because I want the bits I hate cut off and gone forever #I think nullo would be better than what I've got right now but the absence of dysphoria isn't euphoria #cutting out sadness without replacing it with happiness just creates a void. #and nullo wouldn't be gender affirming at all. #don't get freaked out about my random talking about blood. this is a Hannibal appreciation space #did it delete my tags where I said that I cut my tongue frenulum or was that on another tag talk. idk