#I fucking told you id do it

[skunkes]

Oh they were not lying its getting bad.

#talkys #maybe its bc id rather do a 24 hr deep investigation before I ask anyone anything but this is insane #thinking about how someone recently told me they looked all over for my comm info when its literally all in my pinned 😭 no u did Not! #i keep seeing info in caption and ppl being like i didnt read the caption 🙄 #which is stupid as fuck but this is literally IN THE VIDEO YOU JUST WATCHED. READ

[beeduoo]

wonderful

#there is a ranboo that goes withthis but i didn't like how he was looking imma restart from scratch tmrw😭😭 #ctubbo #michael beloved #ctubbo fanart #Guys you have no idea what i went through today like it wa fucking crazy i need to share this #so i went to the mall after school right and im going home at like 8 on the train with my friend bc i was supposed to be picked up ay her #stop right but then im told to just go to my stop and take the bus and im like ok sure but the problem is my phone is on SEVEN PERCENT and w #hen i get to the stop my moms like u have money for the bus right and im like ueah and i check and i have NO MONEY #BUT I DIDNT TELL HER ANUTHING BC I DIDNT WANT HER TI GET MAD BC I KNEW SHE WOUDKNT WANT ME TO WALK ALL THE WAY HOME AT NIGHT (FOURTY BLOCKS #So im like ok im getting on the bus now my phone is on four percent i have to WALK HOME allll that way and there's this crazy ass upward hi #ll that's like ten blocks long ITS NOT EVEN THAT BAD but like my mom thinks im on the bus so im trying to speed walk as fast as i can and i #RAWDOGGED it too because MU PHONE WAS GOING TO IDE!!!! #I made it home at two percent U guys i was so proud of myself thank u for listening #IM SO MAD IT WOUKDVE BEEN OKAY IF I WASNT IN A RUSH And also if i had music uggghhh Whatever #I bought this really cute skirt at garage hold on let me find it #lexi pleated skort color Navy blue ITS SOOOO CUTE got some new leg warmers too yesss.... #I NEED TO DOWNLOAD THE TRANSIT APP i woukdve been able to attach my apple pay and buy the stupid ticket if my phonewasnnt #too dead to do al that... #Guys always make sure u carry cash with yiu goodbye

[hella1975]

it's been pointed out on here before that a lot of terf arguments are actually rooted in sexist idealology that feminists fought and died to unnormalise decades ago and that's its own kettle of fish but one thing i also find very frustrating about this so called 'radical' feminism is that it's so... defeatist? like the moment you categorically label an entire section of society as Bad and Inherently Evil then there's also the implication that nothing can be done about it, and it completely takes all accountability away. saying all men are evil is just another way of saying boys will be boys. he raped her because he's a man. he hit her because he's a man. he didn't listen because he's a man - it's almost offensively oversimplified. there's no point trying to fix this issue in society because men are just Like That, okay! so now what? it's not like they're going anywhere, so you just accept that 50% of the population are evil and will forever treat you terribly and there's nothing to be done about it bc they're biologically predisposed to it? like is that fr the argument here? you're soooo radical for that

#this is coming from someone who used to very genuinely be a misandrist #ironically it was only when i started actually analysing my own feminism that i got MORE confrontational with men #and started respecting my boundaries a lot better BECAUSE i started holding them accountable again #like when men treat me like shit nowadays i dont just write it off as 'what did you expect? he's a man' i get MAD about it #because i EXPECT BETTER FROM THEM even if it's just tiny shit women have to deal with daily #i hold them to just as high a standard as im held to and i make them take accountability when they dont meet that #and whether you realise it or not even on a subconscious level the MOMENT you black-and-white blanket statement all men as bad #you stop holding them accountable. #like it is literally just boys will be boys. do terfs seriously not realise they're sending feminism BACKWARDS #like if a girl came to me with her trauma and people - other girls no less - tried to comfort her with 'yeah all men are evil' #id be fucking furious. like no he did that because he was a piece of shit that had it normalised to him that women arent to be respected #dont you dare let him off the hook with something as simple and uncritical as 'he's a man' #i promise you men like that will MUCH prefer a blanket statement such as 'all men are as bad as each other' #than actually being point blank told they're an abuser or a rapist. because being lumped together is comfortable and even empowering #wheras isolating their behaviour with words that are Bad and Ugly (LIKE 'rapist') is not comfortable at all and has heavy connotations #idk i dont think radical feminism is always bad on its own it can be v liberating. just terfs and misandrists that i have a problem with #dropping this post in a piranha tank and closing tumblr knowing im gonna have some thirty year old karen yelling at me within 5 mins #i probably wont respond to any terf comments bc they literally mentally exhaust me with their stupidity #but that also depends on my mood and ability to keep my mouth shut LMFAO we shall see

[arsenicflame]

the thing is, right, if izzy WAS evil i would still absolutely love him. hes a fictional character, i don't care about his morals if hes compelling.

but the frustrating thing is that hes not evil, hes not even the antagonist anymore by a long stretch, hes arguably more liked by the crew than ed at the moment, but people still insist that we are reading the text of the show wrong and its going to completely 180 and turn him into a cartoon villain when there is absolutely no sign of that in the show, from the cast and crew, anything!!!

its so ridiculously annoying that i feel i have to defend my stance on a character because some people are so determined to cast him into the roll of a villain he is not, and think that we are the wrong ones for simply reading what the show is putting out

#sorry to izcourse over here im jusy thinking #i think about izzys morality constantly because hes so interesting to me #i find him so compelling + its so frustrating to see people reduce him to this 1 dimensional villain when hes always been so interesting!!! #this is not my finest example of coherent thought but honestly i do not care to try and organise this into a proper argument #im fine w being incomprehensible. you get my point. #id still like him if he was evil but hes not and its frustrating to be told you shouldnt like him because hes the villain and mean to our #most precious innocent babies :( #you get the vibe. i love evil characters but izzy is not one of them #nyxtalks #ofmd #ofmd s2 spoilers #the izcourse #i have actually been thinking about like. what draws me to him. the desperation!!! its the desperation that tinges everything he does #idk its so boring if you make him evil like what. why would you do that when you could give him a real fucked up divorce

[milkweedman]

The new meds I'm on have, as far as I can tell, caused my hands to be very weak, to the point that I can't tension this thin sock yarn :/ I'm in the gussets of sock 2 but the sock is definitely bigger and a thinner fabric.

Im... not positive what to do (whether to frog or not, or maybe just switch to a worsted weight project?) Other than tell the doctor this shit is not good.

#if i frog its a full day of knitting wasted #i also really would like these socks tho. i need another good pair... #i did say id knit a thick pair of socks for my sister and thats the only other project i can think of #my hands also hurt so bad from attempting to tension anyway #also. i ASKED the doc what the side effects would be ! #and she said 'just your standard NSAID side effects' #well i checked the page and no they are fucking not. they are not at all and also have huge glaring warnings saying #DONT TAKE IF YOU DONT RESPOND WELL TO OTHER NSAIDS #i am allergic to nsaids and she knows that and i told her that as she was prescribing it to me and she brushed it off #pain management clinic where they put you in more pain. great. #disability #knitting #i am desperately hoping its my meds and the timing would make sense #if my hands just do this now i will cry

[comicdez]

Do you think an ambition can have regrets?

+ a quick colored Mark. Bition i just finished today!

#spspsp ambition likers #i had to get the urge out i need more art of this bastard man #will add a image id later very sorry im just in a rush rn #i will quickly say that i know and am aware that he is a rat bastard but i also have the belief that #the psychometer just amplified that part of him #making him do the recent awful things he contributed to #can You imagine how fucked up that would feel after for him #in the hypothetical that he gets turned back to normal #please i am tearing up my walls do yall see my vision? #m. bition #mark bition #dimension 20 #dimension twenty #dimension 20 mentopolis #also made this rq before the new episode comes out tomorrow #so well see if this gets completley debunked if mark shows up somehow lol #m bition #forgor to add those too #HI I SPELLED MENTOPOLIS WRONG SO I HAD TO RE DO A BUNCH OF TAGS FBSNJFJDJD I TOLD YOU I WAS IN A RUSH #mentopolis m. bition #mentopolis ambition #mentopolis mark bition #mentopolis m bition #mentopolis #mentopolis fanart #myart #dezart

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[anotherpapercut]

I don't think y'all 2 parented people understand what it was like to be a kid who only knew 1 parent when Percy Jackson started becoming really popular. my entire early childhood I was the odd one out, constantly being asked what happened to my dad. this series changed the fucking game entirely. we talk a lot about what it did for kids with learning disabilities, which is also extremely important, but I think it's time we acknowledge the way this series normalized and even sort of glorified having a single parent in a way nothing else ever had

#its still so important to me as a narrative about kids who feel/are abandoned #especially the way its totally normal in the series to talk about parents‚ even literal gods‚ as people who can do bad things #like id never encountered a narrative where it was ok and normal to talk shit on your parents #to say you know what they ARENT doing their best. they dont care about me. but thats okay because i can find others who do #ykwim? #this series told me as a kid its ok to be mad. youre right to expect more. parents shouldnt be fucking deadbeats #they should CARE about their kids #i read pjo before realizing how abusive my mom was‚ and it primed me for understanding and accepting that #especially seeing how good of a parent sally jackson was. compared even to annabeths dad who really was trying

[dailytomlinson]

We’ve all got our own worries and frustrations, but regardless of whatever those frustrations may be, to strive to see that glass as half full, it’s something I’ve always tried to do, no matter what I’ve been up against in life. All I’m trying to say is just spread positive messages. It’s just as simple as that, really.

Louis on being a positive person and spreading positivity, Page Six

#yk whats funny #im a teacher in an ESL school anddddddd i have private 1-1 classes #and i was telling my student to listen to angels fly bc shes being doing some reading lyrics->translating it #and i told her to do that with angels fly #and i said 'its not a sad song #unless you know the context which we assume its about' #' #and i told her a bit louis losses and she was like #'i think i love him?' #and im like girl same me too the fuck #but its genuinely so him.... #like #she said 'id never guess' #pagesix23 #louis tomlinson #270723

[skitskatdacat63]

Notes:

I think I definitely like the original versions more than the edited ones. I'm more happy with the grumpy Fernando one, whereas the bratty Seb one made me want to cease painting forever. So hopefully he looks good?????? I'm sure I'll soften on it, but yeah, not TOO pleased with it right now. His facial expressions are so cute and dynamic and unique until you have to try and paint it and then you dont love him anymore(kidding ofc, how could I ever hate my beloved boy king 🥺)

Anyways, these are them:

#the caption is a multi-pronged reference so if you get it you get it 🤭 #hint: the quote is both a translation of a vettonso thing but its also not...exact. i added a little spice to it #so yeah translate all of that first(the first part of the quote wont work in google translate tho) #and then also the rest of the caption is both a reference to a real life thing but also me making it AUified !! #hehehe let me know your thoughts 🤭 was so fucking pleased w it when i first told C about it #ngl putting that quote was the main thing pushing me thru finishing the seb one #im like CMON YOU CAN DO IT!! IF YOU FINISH IT YOU CAN PUT YOUR SILLY LATIN JOKE!!! YOU LOVE LATIN!! #anyways i drafted this before i even really started the seb one #and my god LOOK AT THEIR HAND SIZE DIFFERENCE WOOF WOOF WOOF #did you guys notice...seb's ring...his wedding...ring? 🤭🤭🤭 #wanted to add one to nando but his left ring finger isnt really visible but just so you know hes wearing it #I have a lot of thoughrs about rings and ungloved vs gloved hands grrrrrrr #theres a lot of meaning in it to me and it adds to their characterization so ill try and make a post abt thay sometime ! #anyways pls enjoy the fruits of my labor..... #vettonso so good it makes me PAINT TWO PORTRAITS #i think before this au i was kinda trying to get away from painting csuse it stressed me out too much #and then the vettonso brainrot is so horrinle that im willing to paint for like...an undisclosed amnt of time #undisclosed not bcs im being secretive but bcs i have no idea and irs 6 am and i have school JSKFLVL #okay bur yes yes please enjoy. and enjoy my suffering as a purveyor of vettonso 🥹 id do anything for my lieges #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #vettonso #catie.art. #boy king au

[worldsquietestjojosfan]

Mingjue's gaze softens.

"Didi. You are confused. You are misinterpreting brotherly love for romantic interest."

Huaisang clenches his firsts and stares down at the floorboards. His expression morphs into one of pain. He draws in a deep breath.

"Da-ge, please sleep with me." Mingjue's body jerks back at his little brother's words. "If I sleep with you, then I'll know for sure what I'm feeling."

#bro doing anything but organizing her code #my brother says i write like i wasnt allowed to go to school #recently my brother had to do a project for school where he had to pick up a new hobby #he didnt do the assignment and at the last day he was like brother im so fucked help me #so i let him use one of my fanfics for the before and told him to use his own fanfic as an after and present that #his professor told him his improvement was incredible #thats all i have to say #theres something so cringe about when i write #ill write it and be like yeah. and then i read over it and die #unironically i actually run away from my fics. i have never once read them again after finishing #like when i draw. i look at it. im like yeah that part is good that part is bad. pretty mid but its ok. #writing? i turn red and hide from the monster i have created #i think my writing could be lethal. like if i read all my fics one after the other id die from cringe poisoning #i regularly look at my old drawings and cry how much ive regressed. but i can look at them. #one time my friend wanted to torture me so he called me to read my fics out loud. i endorse this as an execution method #shit gets me sweating. i have to get normal about this #some words #wip #the second wip actually #the first one is the saber spirit takes over nmj and he fucks nhs on the training grounds infront of everyone. #second one is nmj is like brother you have to stop being a freak this is getting out of hand and nhs is like nuh-uh. but also how'd you kno #on a side note remember my former student that confessed? yeah well #he proposed marriage

[jellyfish-grave]

WAAAAAAAAAAAAA <-still fucking crying because of this game

#i told u guys id make time buddies content. i fucking told you #timebuddies #time buddies #me n the bad bitch i pulled by being doomed by the narrative idk i never played the game #outer wilds #outer wilds hatchling #hatchling #outer wilds gabbro #gabbro #i have so much more drawings to show but thw app just wont ket me uplad more than 10 pictures AAAAA #so you get a tragic comic then the start of my sketch dump. how do you like that #camma the drawer

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

spending my whole life trying and trying and trying and trying to be good enough for people who don't give a fuck about me

#im so tired living seems pointless why am i doing this what is the reason #the firm i work at is going thru a merger so it's releasing all the interns except 2 #i went into her office and said that id like to stay here bc my dad said so bc i got in cause he was friends with the head #and she said ill think about it based on performance ive not decided yet #and this other guy he went in to tell her that cool he'll leave and she told him that she was hoping that he'd stay #he literally does nothing but play games on his phone he doesn't work at all #i have no idea what he has that i don't #but just. im stuck like this forever right never ever good enough for people i like or care about #not for parents they have a diff fav child not for ex gf not for bestie who has a boyfriend much better at loving her than me #not for that one guy who rejected me in interview bc i don't read the newspaper and didn't know the date of the finance act #im so fucking sick of this i never even wanted to this fuckinh course and obviously even my best isn't enough and ofc im not good enough #for anyone in this field and ill just struggle and struggle and struggle all my life just to earn some fucking money so i can live away #from my sociopathic parents #and the worst part is that i can't stop feeling like maybe it IS me yk maybe i am the problem maybe im not trying hard enough #but how else am i supposed to handle this i prioritize my studies and lose all my friends i prioritise my friends and fail in d #exams #and the trauma keeps on coming every fucking day bc sociopathic parents but i jsut push it down and say not rn i will cry at night anx then #never cry #i wish someone would just tell me that idk you're wrong you're not made for this you really do have some mental illness and you're really #trying your best and do something that's easy and that you love doing #oh god this is now a ventpost #mes

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

pls reblog

#polls #hyperspecific poll #kai rambles #personal #doing this i realised how much if my weird experiences were either too depressing or violent to put as an option #or would need a lot more words to explain #i decided to skip out on ''had a local drug dealer try to groom you into being a mule'' #i find it funny because he tried it while my mom was in the room? #but im aware its a sensitive topic #i also did not know how to casually word the times my dad would randomly drive us to like some ruins in the english countryside #and like say ill be back in an hour #and then leave us there #because what the fuck even was that? #also how to explain that my maternal uncle and maternal grandad were in opposing local gangs that folded before i was born #but like in an alternate universe id probably be raised in a gang? #and also anything about my aunt meryl i dont know how to phrase any of that in limited words because she is just the most bizzare lady #i maybe could get the neck brace thing in where she accused me and my mom of stealing her neckbrace and handcream #and told us to never speak to her until we were ready to admit it except we didnt take it #and its probably coming up to a decade now

[snixx]

me: *explains why and how they hurt me and why I really didn't want to bring this up because I just broke up with my best friend and favourite person in the whole world and im tired of losing people and being too much but also they really hurt me and I consider them one of the closest people to me and I want to be honest*

them: ...

them: sorry

me: ...

them: *offers no further explanation*

me: ...

them: ...idk what else to say I have no excuse im sorry

me: uh. okay it's fine (I guess)

them: so how are you

me: fine i guess [elaborates]

them: ah.

me: how are you what's up

them: fine.

*20 minutes of extremely painful one sided conversation later*

them: hey I gotta go *doesn't reach out again. for weeks now*

#fuck everyone im so done #im so tired of constantly realizing im carrying all my relationships on my back #and the people i love the most just dont give a shit #like fuck offff if one of my friends told me i was hurting them id do everything to make it right #especially if they were apprehensive but still comunicated clearly instead of just secretly resenting me #and they were already going through a lor #*lot #why do i have the worst taste in friends why are relationships so exhausting #whatever. i lost my best friend and genuinely thought i lost my other best friend for most of last year anyway i can survive this #if you don't care then i dont care #vagueposting the shit out of tumblr dot com #they always made fun of me for caring too much anyway. ill give that energy to my friends who actually care back