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#I genuinely think that he just did what he believed to be best for seojoon
yuinova · 2 years
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Despite everything that Jiwoo has done to Seojoon I can never bring myself to hate him because I know exactly where he's coming from. I only wish everyone else would also stop saying that Jiwoo is some monster and that he ruined this relationship which is partly true ofc but saying this typa shit is exactly what makes a person like Jiwoo worse .
When you're insecure and have low self esteem from a young age you start genuinely believing it as you grow. Most of the time when you're as severe as Jiwoo is you can't just magically fix it by just talking to your partner. and honestly who even wants to go up to their partner they genuinely love and knows loves them back and tell them "I feel so lonely because you have a life and friends of your own and I feel like im insignificant and i hate myself because you don't make me feel like I have a place to belong" Like you can't just say these without in some way offending the other party when they are also trying the best at the relationship. and Jiwoo knows that this is something he has to fix on his own. and thats why Jiwoo says that Seojoon never did anything wrong
but that doesn't mean Jiwoo did anything wrong either (however i do feel the breakup couldve been handled alot better and in a way that doesn't trigger the trauma and ptsd Seojoon has, that being said i can also understand why Jiwoo didn't want to have a face to face confrontation bc he knew he would have to leave no matter what and that would've been difficult if he was seeing Seojoon and seeing him cry and fight for him to stay wouldve most probably made him stay) You can't control how it makes you feel. Always second guessing everything, always being anxious, always thinking that at any given moment your partner would suddenly have an eye opening realization that you're beneath them and that would be the end of it.
But Jiwoo KNEW he was everything to Seojoon, atleast to some extent. He knew how he was blowing off friends and work and risking his career just so he could spend time with him. If i were Jiwoo being in that position would've make me feel so guilty and selfish. Jiwoo tries to hide all those insecurities but now its clear that Seojoon sees through it all. The feeling that you're ruining somebodys life, esp when its someone you love, by being "selfish"... its a gut wrenching feeling. This is how it goes with having no self esteem and self worth. You want to have it all but when you do you feel you're selfish and that you're a burden. Wanting to feel like someone's one and only person but when you finally do it makes you think if you really deserve it, makes you unbelievably scared of losing it, and the fear of knowing you might not be able to reciprocate the same level of love the other party is so openly and endlessly pouring out to you because of all these feelings that bring hesitation, it makes you want to run away and stop being that "burden", while also simultaneously building walls that would protect you from the pain that comes from losing it and that's exactly what Jiwoo did.
Jiwoo loves Seojoon Too Much to put him through a relationship with someone who can't even fully appreciate his efforts.
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King Chap. 12 & 13
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Your life changed completely when from a slave, you became a spy for the king. Will you be able to help him in his fight against slavery before it’s too late and the threat hanging over him comes true?
In this society where love comes after fortune, will your mutual affection be able to flourish?  
Royal au fic pairing female reader and Kwon JiYong
Feat: YoungBae, TaeHyung, MinHo and SeoJoon (just because  I had their face in mind when I pictured their character)
W.C: 6944
Warnings: Nothing special for chap 12, a little angst maybe. Mostly fluffiness all over. Smut in chap. 13. More love making than porn like, if you know what I mean. I’d call those chapters, the calm before the storm. Buckle up ladies and gent! A lot of things coming for those 2.
Disclaimer: Everything in this story is fictional. There is no research to be politically  accurate or to fit a certain period of time or place. In one word, it’s all invented.
Thank you for your help my muse editor princess @aspaceformyself​. Love you <3 <3 <3. 
Thank you to all of you who wrote to tell me that you loved little prince Channie. Oooooh, I feel you guys, I love him too.
Chapter 12
The low humming of the birds woke you up, the morning after. Contrasting with the warmth of the bed, the air had cooled down a bit and this freshness was more than welcome. JiYong was still asleep, you could tell as you heard him breath in deeply, his soft breath warming the nape of your neck.  His chest was cozily draped against your back with one of his hands resting on your waist. Never have you ever felt so protected. 
Around you, the soft rays of the morning sun lit up the entire room in pale pastel hues. Their faint light stealing away the velvet black shadows cast by the night’s departure. Blowing out a soft breath, you quietly turned around to face JiYong. He was so peaceful that you dared not to disturb him. He was almost childlike like this. Sleeping without a care in the world, compared to the strong and commanding king you see during the day. Perhaps a side you never thought you’d get to see before. So raw, so vulnerable that it was almost endearing.  
You smiled gently at him, maybe a little shy as you recalled the night before. You felt amazingly good, you could still feel your heart tingle from the lingering sensation on your lips. You don’t think you could ever have enough of those lips, from this man. The more you get to know him, the more you appreciate him. You can’t think of something in his personality that deceived you so far. He was a caring and loving person with a great sense of justice. He was the perfect father for Channie, the perfect king for his people and in the circumstances, he was doing his best with the queen as well. It was very easy to succumb to his smile, one that he reserved only for you most of the time.
“Good morning, young lady” his voice was drowsy, deep and low.
You were face to face, sharing the same pillow. Your eyes met and it was as if the whole universe were pushing you towards him, towards his dark eyes still half asleep but oh! how wonderful. He was close enough for you to notice the different shades of brown in his iris. With a delicate hand, he removed a strand of your hair behind your ear and smiled tenderly.
“Morning, JiYong. Did you sleep well?” You asked, wanting to know. Last night, you both had a hard time to fall asleep, the heat outside was barely tolerable. Also, the butterflies dancing in your stomach were keeping you wide awake. Every time you were about to fall asleep, if by any chance your eyes met, you could not refrain another round of shy laughters.  
“I’m not gonna lie, I didn’t sleep a lot. I woke up at least 10 times and each time I did, I was dumbfounded to see you were in my arms. I’m the luckiest man in the whole kingdom” he answered, pecking your lips.
“JiYong, don’t say things like that…”
“Why not? I can’t share my thoughts with you, now? That’s new” he let his fingers trace along your jawline and down under your chin. “Normally, I can speak my guts in front of you, you’re actually the only person I can do it with” he said with a genuine smile.
“Because you are giving me too much hope and I don’t know how to deal with it”  you stated without thinking. But it was true. You didn’t know how to deal with this new situation. The king himself, sharing his apartment, his bed with you. Sharing kisses and cuddles. Telling you he feels good and that he is thankful to have you in his arms. It was too much for you to handle. He smiled softly, pecking your lips once again. He couldn’t resist rubbing his nose against yours.
“I understand love, because for me too, it’s a new situation and that I have high, really high hopes”
“Ooh!”
You were interrupted by 3 loud knocks on the door. Soon, it opened widely and without waiting for an authorization, 8 servants and 2 courtesans entered the king's room with his breakfast, his clothes for the day and other stuff that you didn’t have time to see because you hid yourself under the duvet. The second before you covered your head, you could see confusion on their faces. None of them knew you were here.
“That will be all, you can leave now” he ordered
“But Cheon Ha, we need to help you with your meal and…”
“I’ll call you back when it’s time for me to dress. For now, stay outside” he commanded.
“As you wish Cheon Ha” They left, mumbling. You could imagine them walking backward with their head held low as they always do.
“This is so cringey” you said the second you heard the door close behind the delegation of servants.
“It’s not… you’ll get used to it. Come on, let’s eat”. he said but when he wanted to get out of bed, you held his hand and dragged him close to you, back in your arms.
“I feel good here, with you. Can we hug in bed all day?” You asked playfully as you caressed his hair and pulled him closer against you. You wanted more cuddles. You needed to sink into the warmth of his body.
“Oooh, this is very tempting, believe me, I would like to. But… I have documents to take care of, remember? Today, I’ll need your help to write the official statement to Japan. Once it is done, I will be able to focus on writing a new law. Let’s end slavery, shall we?”
“This is a very interesting schedule. But, do you think we have like, 1 minute, to kiss again? I miss kissing you already”
“Oh, I declare that we have 5” he said before his lips crushed against yours and his hands grabbed your waist.
You could get used to sweet mornings like that.
The next 2 days went by very fast. On the first day, JiYong has written an official statement for the Japanese emperor and you have attentively translated it. The second day, you mostly played with Channie. The boy was a little upset by the changes in his routine and was craving attention his mom seemed unable to provide, since she was in a lot of pain regarding her lover. Therefore, you let her the space she needed and took care of her and JiYong’s son.
With the prince, you have spent time in the garden, decorating it for real. JiYong allowed you to hang lanterns so you did today. You couldn’t wait to see how it will look tonight, in the dark. Hopefully, he will be in his quarters on time to share dinner with you in the garden. It would be beautiful and intimate to share a meal under the moonlight with the lit lanterns and the cosy ambiance of the garden.
“We did a good job Y/n, I’m sure it will suit father’s tastes.  It’s so pretty.  I want to see it tonight, don’t put me to bed too early, I want to see it with you, father, uncle and mother” little Channie said when you both hung up the last lantern. At the mention of JiYong’s brother, you froze. Chan didn’t know anything about his uncle’s tradition and you are not the one who will tell him. Squatting in front of him, you reached out your hands to caress his soft hair.
“My beautiful prince, I’m not the one who makes decisions about the time you go to sleep. You should ask your father or your mother”.
You’d be lying to yourself if you’d say the idea pleased you. It’s with your king alone that you wished to enjoy the beautiful ambiance for the first time. But of course, you won’t admit it to the prince.
“Can you show me how to paint horses, again? Please, pretty please? I so want to learn how to make beautiful horses for my father”.
He was bouncing around you, indefatigable.  With him, life was full of twists and turns. He must have given his teachers and his nannies a hard time when it was time to sit and do something that required him to stay still, particularly if he didn’t like the activity.
“Paint? Again? But we painted all morning”
“Please, I’ll do whatever you want in exchange of painting with you”.
“Whatever? Whatever? Ok then, deal. But remember, you owe me one”.
“YEAH! You are the best of the best friend on earth”
He ran into your arms and made you lose balance. Both laughing, you ended up on the floor, unable to stop.
“I love you so much little Chan. I wish I could squish your cheeks all day”
“Of course you love me, I’m lovable” he beamed, holding his head up. It’s in the laughter and a light atmosphere that you spent the day painting with this sweet little boy.
It was around 17h00 when JiYong arrived in his study room. He was told you were there with his son, last time his guards updated him. Scared that something could happen to one of you, he asked for regular updates on your activities. But you were nowhere to be found right now and it deceived him. The day had been hectic and he was exhausted. He felt like his head was going to explode and that you were the only person who could help him. In fact, you were the only person with whom he felt anchored in the present moment, forgetting his royal obligations and duties.
He has to be perfectly honest with himself. He also needed to have a talk with you. He wanted to clarify your relationship. He wanted to know what place he holds in your heart. If you were as in love as he was and what you expected from this relationship. He needed reassurance that you were with him to stay. He was anxious. He had so many questions that he had trouble concentrating during the day and his counselors noticed.
“Y/n? JiChan? HyeJin?” He called from the doorframe. When he didn’t get any response, he closed the door and sighted in annoyance.
“Is my royal husband preoccupied?” she surprised him, he didn’t know she was in the room. The face he made to the queen was obvious. He hated to be called like that.
“Royal husband… really HyeJin?”
“I’m sorry majesty, for teasing you like that but I couldn’t help myself. Is there something I can help you with?”
“I’m looking for Y/n. Where is she?”
According to HyeJin, Channie was with you upstairs in his room, painting , while she was resting and reading in his study room. He headed for the stairs but stopped on his way, lost in his thoughts. He was wondering how he was going to approach you.  For him, rewriting laws and having diplomatic exchanges with the leaders of other countries was less challenging than having a conversation about your relationship.  Nothing in the world had prepared him to face this interior void, this loneliness he could be confronted to, if he loses you. Since you were in his life, he felt supported. He felt like he was more complete, teaming up with you against the rest of humanity. If he had your support, if you trusted him and gave him your approval, he knew he could do miracles. He never wanted to live alone again. Never again without you.
The queen chuckled at how JiYong seemed stressed to go upstairs. She came by his side.
“Majesty, I know you for so long now. I think that you are the most constant presence in my life ever since I was a little girl. I understand you more than you can even figure. I know what’s on your mind”
“Really? Try me” he said, in a provoking tone. He was annoyed not to see you around and now, she was adding to his annoyance.
“Is my husband scared?”
“Scared? Scared of what?”
She laughed once again, comforted by JiYong's predictable attitude towards her.
“I saw you and Y/n. I noticed how you look at each other. I know you never looked at someone like that before”.
“And?”
“... and you are scared. You love her and it’s scaring you. You spend your life alone, majesty. Always surrounded but alone nevertheless. It was almost impossible to get close to you when we were kids, it became worse as we were growing up. Maybe because of your timid personality, maybe because you are the king. But being alone didn’t prepare you to share your heart completely” she paused, to give him time to assimilate the information.
“See majesty, this is why I want our son to have a normal childhood. I want him to have friends and enjoy life. I want him to learn to be human before he will learn to be a king. Even though you never told me, I know you want the same. I don’t want him to be alone, like you and me are”.
JiYong stayed silent. The queen's comments hit more than he would have admitted, she was right about it all. She continued
“So… If I read correctly, because I don’t know her and she is a secret person just like you, she’s scared too. It doesn’t seem to be something she experienced a lot. I mean, I would be very much surprised if she had a boyfriend before. She is a blooming flower, all delicate but she is craving for the light nonetheless. The light and maybe some flesh too. And you didn’t notice?” she exaggerated a sigh, for a theatrical effect when she noticed JiYong’s doubtfounded expression.
“My wife is pushing me in the arms of another woman. I can’t believe it” he laughed.
“I want you to be happy. I always loved you enough to let you live your life fully and so did you”.
“HyeJin, let’s pretend you are right. How do you know, she wants me?”
She paused and thought for a short moment.
“Maybe she is not very talkative with me, but her eyes say it all. The way she looks at you talks for itself. She is probably very much in love majesty, and so are you. You are perfect together”.
“I, I don’t know what to say to be honest. All I know is that I found in her what I was craving for all my life, without even knowing that I needed it ”
“I know majesty. She is really the one for you. You should talk with her. Tonight, I’ll have dinner alone with our son. Get your girl, majesty”.
She came closer to the king and laid a hand on his shoulder in a comforting manner but couldn’t add anything. Their son was running towards them.
“Abeoji! You’re home?” The prince entered the room and made his way into his father’s embrace “Abeoji! Is master Seo back?’ JiChan asked his father, his voice full of concern.
“I’m sorry Channie, but no. He’s still on a mission. As soon as they are back safe, you’ll be the first informed” he told his son while watching you enter the room.  He noticed how sad you became at the mention of your friends. He always notices the thinnest change in your mood.
“JiChan, my little man, we won’t share dinner with you and your mom tonight. Y/n and I have to talk. Listen to your mom and don’t escape, it’s very important, it’s for your safety”
“Yes, Abeoji. When will we be able to spend some time together? I miss you”
“I miss you too Channie. Let’s say, tomorrow we’ll share lunch. Just the two of us. How’s that?”
The prince ran into his father’s arms again and held him close. He seemed overjoyed with the idea.
“It’s perfect, just the 2 of us! I can’t wait. I’ll order food myself, ok?”
“Yes son, do it. Listen to your mother and have a good evening”
Channie ran towards you and jumped into your arms. You lifted him from the ground, made a turn with him and kissed his cheeks tenderly before you put him back on the ground and hugged him tightly.
“Goodnight little boy. I love you”
“I love you too, Y/n. Listen to my father, would you? And don’t escape”
You all laughed at his naive comment.
“Yes Channie, I will do” you held him close to your heart a little longer. He was an amazing little boy and you loved him with all your heart. You playfully rubbed his hairs and let him go.
“Goodnight majesty, goodnight Y/n” the queen bowed at her husband and left JiYong and you alone.
Chapter 13
As soon as he heard the door of the study close, JiYong came closer to you, his arms reaching out. You melted into his embrace and held him against your heart. It was so soothing to be held by him, to abandon yourself and let him engulf you. You stayed like that for a while, savoring each other’s presence. His touch made the study room warmer, somehow.
“Listen, love! I need to talk to you. But first, I will ask for some food, you need to gain some weight. If you continue to melt like that, Seo and Tae will kill me for malnutrated you”
“ooh, you noticed”
“It’s hard not to see it, you don’t eat anymore, you’ll disappear. Is a beef spicy soup satisfying your taste?”
“May I ask? I’m hungry haemul pajeon, I want something chewy to bite on!”
“Seafood pancake it is, then, for the demanding little miss” he teased. You loved that, when he was in a playful mode. You loved that a lot. It meant that he was happy.
“Thank you sir, I learned from the best” you said, mimicking an official tone.
He laughed, as he went to the door and gave orders for the diner.  Waiting for it to arrive, you both took a bath, one after the other. You changed into a relaxed hanbok and sat down together at the low table to have tea meanwhile.  
“JiYong, can we have dinner in your garden? I finally hang those fairy lights and I can’t wait to see how it will look at night”.
“Ooooh! Yes, let’s go right now. It’s too hot to drink tea anyway”
He grabbed your hand and went into his private garden. You had no choice to follow him.
“Amazing! Oh! It’s so pretty. You were right, those lights change the whole ambiance of the backyard. It’s beautiful” he said, hugging you from behind. He let his chin rest on your shoulder and held you by the waist, tightly.
“Look, Chan and I have put decorations on the fountain too”
“Floating candles and little paper boats. I wonder who made what” he joked “It’s beautiful. Thank you my love. You transformed my backyard into some place I want to be”.
You didn’t have time to answer, the meal finally arrived, leaving in its wake an enticing smoke. The king's cooks knew how to cook seafood pancakes and you would certainly thank them if you did not want to remain discreet about your presence here.
“Love, we need to talk,” he said, serious between 2 bites.
“Why am I suddenly scared?”
“It’s nothing to be scared about, I think”
“What is it, sir?”
He noticed how scared you seemed and how you called him ‘sir’. He noticed your trembling fingers. Were you protecting yourself? Were you trying to take your distances from him? At this point, he had to dive in.
“I…  I”
He couldn’t take it in his chest any longer. He was so scared that you were not sharing the same feelings as him. So scared that you could leave him. He doesn’t know where this feeling was coming from, why he was feeling like that. You never gave him any clue that you could leave or that you were not feeling good with him. But he needed reassurance. He needed to know you loved him as much as he did.
“I love you Y/n. For the first time in my life, I have someone that I love more than myself. Beside my son, that goes without saying. But Chan apart, you are the first person I truly love and I don’t want to lose you, ever”
“Oooh” you blushed in all shades of red.
“...”
“Go on, I don’t want to interrupt you, go on, majesty” you teased him, smiling shyly.
“Playful, are we?” he asked, half relieved.
You nodded and stood up. Contouring the low table, you came on his side and sat on his laps, your legs hanging on the same side. You encircled his neck with your arms, nuzzling your nose in the crook of his neck. Breathing in his smell like never before.  His arms encircled you. One of his hands started to caress your back and the other held you in place close to him, by your waist.
“Not especially playful. I’d say surprised and happy. Relieved also. I… I feel strangely calm and at peace. But, as I said, you can go on” you smiled against his neck.
Still not a hundred percent sure about your feelings, he continued.
“I love that I can trust you. I love your pretty face. I love your smile. I love how you think and how you see life. I love that with you, I can talk about philosophy and the minute after you’ll be nudging my forehead to make me laugh. When I’m by your side, the whole world disappears and I can be just me, completely me. Totally me. I am deeply in love with you to a point it’s scaring me”.
He paused and delicately lifted your chin up to make eye contact with you.
“I’ve been thinking about you all day, about telling you how much I want you by my side for the rest of my life. Turns out, I couldn’t concentrate on the meeting. My counselors noticed something was wrong with me, they asked me if I was sick” he chuckled.
You laughed, imagining the scene. You were touched. Touched and overjoyed by this declaration. In fact, you feel it too, that need to be with him. It was just a curious bubbly feeling at the beginning and it grew into something stronger and deeper as you spent time with him. As you got to know him.
“I love you too, JiYong” you murmured in a soft voice.
His jaw dropped open. Even though everything in your posture was saying so, to hear you, to have the confirmation you really did love him, shocked him. In a good way.
“For real? You are not playing with me?” he asked, not sure. You laughed.
“Why would I play with your feelings? It would be so mean and you know I’m not. I love you, for real” you caressed his cheek with one hand.
“You know that I am a married man and…” he was agitated. Too many things in his mind at the same time.
“JiYong, I know who you are. I know you have a wife. I know you have a child. I’m not gonna lie, I am not sure I love that situation. But being separate from you would be worse if you give me the choice. Also, if your wife would have been in love with you, I would have never, ever kiss you”.
You dragged your fingers into his locks, tenderly.
“Since I know you, I changed a lot. You didn’t realise, but you taught me to love and take care of myself. You taught me I was important when I was just a shoeless slave. You did it because you believe all human are equals and deserve to be treated equally. You even put your life and  royalty on the line to end slavery and give all human a chance to live a decent life. You are the most beautiful person I ever met, inside and out. And your kisses… ”
At that very moment, you would have accepted almost everything to be part of his life. To be the one he shares his thoughts with, the one he trusts and relies on. In fact, ever since you have met, he played that role for you and you for him. You felt it, that connection that was slowly building between you. You felt it growing and blooming and it was the most beautiful relationship you could ever dream of. You don’t want to experience a life without him. And he doesn't want to be alone again. Being away from him would mean being back to a lonely life. Now that you knew what you would be missing, you’d be miserable also.
“You really love me” he stated again, dumbfounded. You traced his concerned eyes with your thumbs before you kissed the tip of his nose.
“I really love you, Kwon JiYong. I would prefer not to live without you by my side, even if it means I have to be in your shadow for the rest of my life. But just to make things clear, I’m the lucky one right now. I can’t believe you, out of everybody in this kingdom, love me too.”
He placed a hand upon your cheek, his thumb grazing the soft contour of your mouth. He trailed a lazy finger down the length of your neck and your skin prickled at the touch.  You closed your eyes to savor the sensation.  He kept his eyes on your face, overwhelmed that you love him back. That you both share the same need to be with the other. Most importantly, by the fact that you seem comforted by his touch. His lips replaced his fingers on your cheek, brushing your skin lightly and still that light touch sent shivers that made your whole body tremble.  
It’s your body reactions that changed the atmosphere, that changed the way he wanted to kiss you. Your body became agitated under a simple caress down your neck and he felt you quiver under his touch. He loved that effect he had on you. Every woman he had sex with were always in total control of the play, always in a seductive mode. His wife apart, which was a different experience, he almost only had sex with courtesans when he felt the need to. It was their job to be in perfect control of themself and to try to seduce him. He actually never cared about touching them, never felt the need to. But you, to see you squirm for a simple caress on your neck, made him desire to see more of your reactions. To touch you more. To please you. To serve you.
Because you were true to him. You were not trying to seduce him or trying to have an effect on him. You just loved being with him, being in his arms and so did he.
"If you want me to stop, tell me" he whispered before he brushed his lips against your jawline.
"One word and I’ll stop" He traced the line of your cheekbone, dotting small kisses along the way.
"Still not too late" His lips were now on your neck. At first, he kissed the soft skin delicately but when you tilted your head to the side to give him more space, he accepted the invitation and pushed it further.  He started to nibble on your skin, gently at first, adding more pressure when he heard the soft moan that escaped your lips. Taking his time, he locked eyes with you and in no time, his lips were on yours.
“JiYong” you murmured against his mouth when he broke the kiss to obviously analyse how you were feeling, “I promise you, I will tell you if there is something I don’t want or like. You’ll have to trust me on that. For now, I am feeling more than good so there is no need to stop. I trust you completely.  So please, trust me too”.
He was overwhelmed by your words.
“I love you, you have no idea how much I love you”  he sounds almost solemn.
“Then, show me, JiYong.  I’m all yours” you uttered in one breath.
You will always remember the light you saw in his eyes. That little sparkle that grew in a burning fire in a split second and threatened to consume you both. It was at this precise moment that you measured the extent of his desire for you. Through his eyes.
Slowly tracing the side of your body, his hand trailed its way down to your lap. His warmth radiates through the thin layer of your clothes, your skin warming under the yet, chaste caress. Your breath went shorter in a new and fascinating way. The kissing session you had 2 nights ago, was nothing compared to the tension you felt building up inside your body. Was it the declaration of love? The freedom it gave both of you to explore the other? To take possession of the other’s body as well as the other's heart? Probably. But one in one, tonight, there was undeniably a new tension and it was delightful to feel it grow inside of your guts.
Passing a powerful arm under your thighs, he lifted you up and gently, delicately laid you on the cushions aligned on the ground. Your arms reached out for him, as in invitation. Making sure you were still comfortable by looking in your eyes, he positioned half of his body on top of yours. He inclined his face towards yours and got lost at this beautiful sight of seeing you like that, vulnerable but strong and willing under him. Your fingers gripped his hair and pulled him closer to you, captivated by the light in his brown eyes. When your parted lips met his, he knew he would have to fight against his desire if ever you ask him to stop. Because he wanted to taste you, devour you. Each and every single part of you. He became anxious when you slowly pushed him on the side and stood up without a word.
“I’m sorry, I may have gone too fast. I’m so sorry” he said.
But you smiled at him as an answer, a timid but confident smile. You reached out to him and as soon as he grabbed your hands, you walked backwards. When he realised you were guiding him to his room, he understood that you were truly on the same wavelength.  None of you broke the comfortable silence that was enveloping you.
You stopped when you felt his mattress behind your heels. Without a word, he turned you around. He freed your hair from the bun you braided earlier, after your bath. Shivering at the anticipation of what’s going to happen, you let him unbraid your hair with his fingers and place them on the side of the same shoulder. Doing so, he had perfect access to the nape of your neck. You closed your eyes when you felt his lips on the back of your neck, felt his fingers tracing the length of your spine and finally untying the satin bow of your hanbok on your lower back.  Both of you were starting to find that the thin material kept you too far apart. You needed a skin on skin contact. Even if it was going to be the only thing that would happen tonight, you needed to feel his heart beating against yours, unveiled. You turned around to face him again and your parted lips met his in a devouring and passionate kiss.
With trembling fingers, he opened the front of hanbok slowly. Then, running his finger along your breastbone, he broke the kiss to look into your eyes again.  You knew what he was gonna say, so you talked first.
“Still comfortable, Ji. Very comfortable”.
“Then why am I so nervous?” he asked with an overwhelmed voice, leaning his forehead against yours. You loved that about him. His vulnerability and his sensitivity. The fact that with you, he would tell how he truly feels.
“Are you sure you want it?” You wondered.
“More than sure, love. I guess, I don’t want to hurt you in any possible way. I overthink...”
‘Ji, you can’t hurt me. You’re too caring for that”
He kissed you again and his hands were on your neck, caressing your jawline with his thumbs. He traced his way down to your shoulders and gently glided the silky fabrics along your arms. When your top finally fell open on the floor, he studied you for a couple of seconds, taking his time to observe the grain of your skin, the way you looked half naked under the moonlight. Perfect for his taste.
“May I touch you?” he asked, with a voice so hoarse with emotion that you barely recognised it.
You took one of his trembling hands and guided it on your breast. As soon as you felt his warmth, you retracted yours and let him do what he wanted to do, what he felt was right to do. He caressed your breasts slowly, from the tip of his fingers, as if he was touching a precious porcelain.
“You’re so beautiful”
Gently, he traced his way down your stomach.  He took his time to feel, gage your soft and warm skin. See how you were reacting to the caress. His hand was skillful and delicate and the more skin he explored, the more at ease you felt. You surprised him when you reached out and gently undid the belt of his hanbok. As soon as you had enough space, you opened the sides of the garment. Sliding your delicate hands inside, you laid your palms flat on his chest. His skin was white as if he had never been exposed to the sun. And soft, so soft.
Jiyong let you caress his chest as you wished. You were so concentrated on his perfectly shaped body, on the velvety of his skin, observing every square inch of him, that you didn’t realise he had untied your skirt and it was now resting on the floor.  He softly encircled your face and kissed your lips, sucking on your lower lip, nibbling on it.
“JiYong… I love it so much”.
“... good.”
You opened his top completely and slipped it to the ground. In the same stride, you challenge the belt of his pants and gently, very gently, slide it down. You discovered one centimeter at a time, guiding the fabric slowly, taking the time to observe every detail from its thin waist to its ankles. He was perfect.
Both naked, face to face, you smiled at each other as soon as your eyes met.  You are the one who closed the distance between you. Tangling your arms around his neck you pressed yourself against him, feeling his strong and warm body against yours. It was delightful. But there was still a tiny detail that you needed to confess to be perfectly at ease with him.
“JiYong… I have never, I mean beside what happened with my master, I have never…”
“Ex-master” he interrupted before he took a small step back and grabbed your hands in his. “Beside, I have to admit, it’s gonna be kind of new for me too. I'm used to being served, on this level too. The women who have passed between my legs have focused on that, my crotch and then it was over. So for me too, it’s almost a first. But I couldn’t hope for a better partner”. He confessed in one voice.
“You mean…” you paused, thinking of what he just said.
“I mean I never really touched a woman, I let them do the job. I’m used to being served, you know, as a king. Also, I never had a real relationship before. So, I never ‘had to’  please the woman I had sex with… it was their job to please me. They did and they left. And as I said, with my wife, well… it was so awkward. But you my love, I want to touch you. I want to please you. I want you to feel good under my touch. I want to be melting under me. I want to smell you, every centimeter of your body”
Those words, they send shivers down your spine, awakening in you primal instincts that you never thought you had.
“Then let’s learn together, shall we?” you murmured. His lips came in the crook of your neck and kissed your sensitive skin there, trailing his way up to your lips. They fitted perfectly, as if they were meant for each other. He grabbed the back of your neck, growling in the kiss as you whimpered in pleasure.  
You tumbled on the bed but it didn’t stop your tongues from dancing together.  Your fingers caressed each other's skin as if  you were afraid a heavier touch would break the heady magic. Wherever his fingers were grazing your skin, you would feel electrified.  So electrified that you needed more contact. It did not take time for these soft caresses to turn into a more demanding touch. His languid hands and yours, exploring the other's body as if it was the only chance you were given to do this. At this point, it wasn’t gentleness you wanted, You needed more and you knotted your fists in his hair, pulling him harder against you. He groaned softly, low in his throat.
“JiYong, I want you, I want more"
“At your service, my love”
His lips, teeth and tongue replacing his fingers on your skin as soon as fingers would leave. He kissed your breast, played with your nipples but he didn’t focus there. His fingers traced their way down from your breast to your navel.  As soon as he reached your sex, you completely lost control of your body in the most beautiful way. He was playing with your folds, testing different types of caress on you, sometimes tracing slow circles on your bud, sometimes drawing up and down lines. Always making sure you were comfortable and that you enjoyed what he was doing.  He took his time to breathe in your intimate smell, to lick you, to taste you avidly. His senses enthralled.
“Oh Lord, JiYong… please… it’s so good”.
His skillful fingers and tongue made you feel enraptured sensations that you never experienced before. He kept a slow rhythm until he could hear you moan and felt your body arch. The calm before the surge of pleasure that exploded before him, a witness amazed by the beauty of this total abandonment. Delighted and pleasantly surprised, he let you regain slight control of your breathing before he positioned himself above you. A part of its weight on you, you felt protected from the world outside. You couldn't not feel more fulfilled than right now.
“JiYong… That was amazing”
“and it’s just the beginning”
You knew he didn’t have his relief yet and you wanted to help him reach it. You switch position with him, finding yourself straddling his pelvis. There was no doubt about his desire for you, you could feel it under your swamp sex.  With a skilled hand, you slide him inside of you and slowly start to move your hips in circles. As you leaned against him to take support on his chest, he reached out to caress your breast. He rolled your nipple between his thumbs and fingers while he kept encouraging your movements.
“You make me feel so good, love”
He closed his eyes and bucked his hips against yours, following your movements. It’s with slow and deep thrusts that you started to tease him, increasing the speed when he begged for more.
When you felt he was close to his climax, you moved up a little and tightened yourself for a slow, deliberate slide down. He lost control of himself.  Sitting up straight, he grabbed you behind your shoulders.
“You’ll be the end of me” he said before he took control of the play and forcefully pushed himself inside of you, groaning with each thrusts.
He held you against him by the shoulders, increasing the speed. Sweat soaked your temples on this still hot evening but it didn’t stop you from moving together with force pleasure. He was already close to heaven but having you bouncing against him, your breast against his chest, drove him crazy.
When you felt his powerful release soaking you from the inside, you welcomed it with gratitude.  His almost shy moans of earlier were nothing in comparison with the groan he made when he reached his orgasm. It was simply the purest sound, the most refine that you had ever heard in your life.  You stayed on his thighs, him still in you, for a little while longer. You had no desire to separate for now. Savoring the presence of the other, his smell which was now more pronounced. His heart beating against your own.  You were the only woman who had made him lose control and you knew that the love and the bond that you shared you was responsible for the beauty of what just happened. At least, this is what you thought at this very moment.  You couldn’t have thought, with his naked body against yours, that this man had lied to you and was about to disappoint you again.  Little did you know.
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Disclaimer: I tried to remain as unbiased and rational as possible, in order to pick a cohesive lineup, but probably failed. Also I genuinely have grown attached to soo many of these boys picking only 11 made my heart bleed. So here it goes.
11. Park Woodam (Have you heard his cover of Spring day? No? Go listen now!)
10. Ong Seongwoo (He melts my heart with his every time every where line.)
 9. Kim Yongguk ( Am I the only one who thinks he resembles Park Seojoon? In other words sexy.)
 8. Kang Dongho (Initially I thought he was scary and mean but now he gives off such a brotherly vibe.)
 7. Ha Sungwoon (I love his work ethic and determination to always do his best.)
6. Lee Daehwi (Daehwi has certain star quality about him and he’s super cute.)
5. Kim Jonghyun (Because honestly what would this group be without Nations Leader?)
4. Kim Jaehwan (I had my doubts about Jaehwan but he shut me up real quick with his performance in Never.)
3. Jung Sewoon (I love his voice so much, he’s the only trainee that’s been a consistent favorite of mine since the first episode.)
2. Kang Daniel (Daniel is ready to debut. He has everything, singing, rapping, charm, personality, dance skills and visuals.)
AND FINALLY…..
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1. Park Woojin- This is probably the most biased opinion ever but I don’t care! Park Woojin is amazing.His rapping and dancing is top notch, and his deep voice when he raps! He’s hard working and determined he even preformed while having shingles! I also believe he is kind. Lee Woojin thanked him during the 1st eliminations and said he has grown close to him.During the 2nd eliminations Ahn Hyungseob also thanked him for being being by his side and helping him. He was so shy during the first episodes but recently you can see him playing with the other trainees. His eye smile kills me and his snaggletoothed smile is the cutest thing ever. Did I mention his deep voice when he raps and his amazing dancing! I started watching produce 101 late and i didn’t notice Woojin until he won 1st in the Get Ugly performance but after that I re watched every episode/clip just to see him. I can shamelessly say he’s my bias and I’d sell my soul to Satan if it guaranteed him to make the final 11.    
HONORABLE MENTIONS
Lee Woojin (such a cutie and so talented at 14)
Yoon Jisung (this meme his so hilarious i love his face expressions)
Kim Sanggyun (he looks so intimidating but he acts so soft)
Choi Minki & Hwang Minhyun (I feel like scum for not including them)
Lim Youngmin (I know he made a mistake during the Boys and Girls performance but i think he raps really good)
Kim Samuel (All around talented but for some reason he never really stood out to me. I was initially debating between him or Youngmin in my top 11 until I realized I had left Sungwoon out.)
I also want to mention that I don’t dislike Noh Taehyun entirely. He’s really talented and for the life of me I can’t figure out why HotShot didn’t do well with talent like him and Sungwoon. After seeing Taehyun in the 1st episode I was sure he’d be my bias, he was my favorite but then in episode 6 (?) his behavior towards the leader of the group (I found out after Get Ugly the leader was Woojin) just didn’t sit well with me. Even after I went back to re watch clips of Woojin I notice him getting along with Taehyun but I guess it was too late, he was already off my radar and I was indifferent to him. That’s not to say I don’t think he isn't talented enough to be part of the top 11 and I wouldn’t be salty about it if he did make it. As for Haknyeon, he has an attitude every time something doesn’t go his way. It’s like he wants everything catered around his own needs. I can’t see him working well in group with that kind of mind set. I don’t think he should debut until he can mature a bit.
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King chap 17 & 18
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Your life changed completely when from a slave, you became a spy for the king. Will you be able to help him in his fight against slavery before it’s too late and the threat hanging over him comes true?
In this society where love comes after fortune, will your mutual affection be able to flourish?  
Royal au fic pairing female reader and Kwon JiYong
Feat: YoungBae, TaeHyung, MinHo and SeoJoon (just because  I had their face in mind when I pictured their character)
W.C: 5786
Warnings: no specific warning... Is there any? 
Disclaimer: Everything in this story is fictional. There is no research to be politically  accurate or to fit a certain period of time or place. In one word, it’s all invented.
Special thanks to my loyal and loving friend, that I love with all my heart. Princess @aspaceformyself​ I often tell you this but you are my safety net in that fic. Knowing you were reading me, made me explore a new way of writing. I wasn’t scared to make a mistake, I knew you would tell me id I did. And you did. When I was having a hard time, you were there to ask me the good questions. “Do you think yn would do it? Does it fit her personality? Isn’t she overreacting there? How is that possible”. Not because you told me I was bad or didn’t make sense. Juste because you made me reflect on my characters and plot. I am already overthinking. With you, I experienced overthinking x1000 :) But in a really good way. I think that my writing improved a lot and it’s a lot because of you.  
Also, in chapter 18, my princess wrote a part. Like 2 or 3 paragraphs. Will you notice the difference in our writing??? :) I was imagining a scene in my head. I explained her and she said “hold on, can I give it a try?” And she did. It’s so perfectly written :) I love you, my sweet princess. You mean a lot to me.
Chapter 17 
“The prince is coming, Cheon Ha, should I let him in as soon as he arrives?” the servant asked after he put your breakfast on the low table next to JiYong’s bed. Your bed. 
JiYong wanted the moving to be done fast, he had sent his maids in your little room to pack and bring your few belongings. The night before yesterday, as soon as you arrived, JiYong had made you visit every little spot of his quarters as if it was the first time.  “Here’s our bookshelf. Here’s our dresser you can... oops we’ll have to get another one, this one is full! Here’s our backyard, here’s our fountain.” He had dragged you in every room of his quarters and made sure you would have your little spot in each. “If you want to rearrange anything, just do it. We can change the furniture, we can change the tapestry, whatever you want to, we’ll do it”. Of course, there was nothing you wanted to change. You were used to sleeping in a stable, outside or in a little ‘room’ made with mug and hay. There is nothing in JiYong’s room that wasn’t already perfect.
The servants bowed at both of you, still in bed. But you couldn’t get used to it, so you hide under the duvet. 
“Yes, let him in, thank you” he answered his servant. The morning had been lazy, you had expanded the night a little longer than the king used to do. The servants left the room and JiYong covered you both with the blanket.
“Shhh, let’s pretend we are sleeping, let’s see what he will do” JiYong said, smiling.
Both of you hid your face from the door and kept your ears open. You were trying to figure where Channie’s little feet would bring him. It didn’t take long before you felt the little boy jump on the bed and crawled between you and JiYong, making himself enough place between your intertwined bodies. He laid down heavily on the blanket and stopped moving. After a moment, you cracked an eyelid, curious to see what he was doing.  His little fingers were toying his father’s hair as he’s other hand was reaching out towards you. JiYong had a content smile on his face. You couldn’t help but open your eyes wide and hold the little hand that was looking for yours. 
“Father is sleeping, we have to stay quiet”.
“Ok, Channie” you whispered tenderly. Wanting a hug, he drew you to him with all his strength while he was still stroking his father’s hair. You could not have found the words to express your happiness at this precise moment.  Your heart was swelling.
“Do you love my father, Y/n?”
“Yes, Channie, I love him very much”.
“I love him too,” he stated, serious.
Yesterday, JiYong had a diner with him, the queen and you. He explained that from now on, you’d be living together. Channie had clapped his little hands and hugged you both, happy. He accepted you in his life as easily as that. His mother had congratulated you but she stayed quiet, thinking.
“Do you think that your father loves me too?” you asked with a low voice, curious to hear what the little man would say.
“Yes, I believe he does”
“What makes you believe it?”
He thought of it, for an instant.
“When he looks at you, his eyes sparkles just like when he looks at his pork chops”
“Yaaaah! Channie” JiYong burst into laughter! “I love her more than food, what are you talking about?” he was unable to stop laughing. 
“Oh! Lord! Your child is amazing JiYong!” you couldn’t stop laughing either. 
Pretending to be upset, he started a tickling battle with Channie. They laughed and squirmed for a while, lost in their own little world. You felt privileged to be witnessing such an intimate moment between father and son. When you saw them complot something, you tried to snake out of the bed but you couldn’t. You found yourself the victim of the king and the prince’s tickling assault. 
“Stooooop! please! I surrender”
“She surrenders too fast abeoji, we have to make her more endurant” 
“I agree Channie! We’re doing it for her own good after all”
Their fingers were running on your sides, making you cry and scream in laughter. 
“You guys are the worst” you managed to say, between 2 breathes. Trying to balance the forces, you decided to use an arm against them. The tickling battle became a pillow fight that stopped only when you got interrupted by YoungBae, smiling under a rain of dancing feathers.
“Cheon Ha, we have to go, everybody is waiting for you”  He was very pleased to witness that domestic scene. Resigning himself to having to work, JiYong rose from the bed and kissed you both on the forehead before he quickly got dressed with the help of his maids. He left, escorted by YoungBae. Deprived of his laughter, his voice and his secure arms, you already missed him. Turning around to face the prince, you pat his hair.
“Let’s eat our breakfast, Channie”
“Not before I win the battle” He said right before he threw a pillow right in your face, giggling.
“Channie…” you took your serious tone “No my love, we have to hurry. Mr Kim will be coming soon. You’ll have your classes in the garden this time. Don’t think that I haven’t noticed Mr Kim was alone last time I sneaked in your apartments”.
“Oooh! Yes! I saw you! I was there… somewhere” he said, serious.
“Channie, it’s not the good time to escape. Please, promise me that you will listen to Mr Kim and stay by his side? Will you?”
“I’ll try my best, Y/n. I promise you I’ll try”.
“Oh! Lord! Like father, like son! What am I gonna do, with the both of you?” 
“You’ll be just fine, you love us”, Channie answered, flashing his teeth.
“Aaaaw! I guess you’re right”!
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By the end of the morning, you have received an invitation to meet the queen. Walking with your escort along the beautiful path, you couldn’t be happier.  It was a humid and cool day. There were dark grey clouds in the sky and the wind was blowing so furiously, it looked like it wanted to chase the summer and bring the fall in his furrow. It will be raining later, for sure. Most of the people you know would have qualified today’s temperature as dull. This dark atmosphere was poetry for you. It seemed like the seasons had agreed to change at the same time that your life took a completely new turn. Living with the king, your love, was definitely the biggest change you faced so far. The most beautiful one as well. And that your new position in JiYong’s life was accepted so easily by his son, lighten your heart. 
There were only three problems that needed to be solved. MinHo. SoYoung. MiNa and HyunSa. When everything related to them will be solved, you’ll be completely happy.
You were welcomed by the queen’s servants and sewers from the village. They came to present to you, in secret, beautiful dresses, shoes, jewelry and hanbok. The queen said it was her welcome gift for you. She was happy that you were sharing JiYong’s life. She could have been jealous and tried to chase you away from him but she was genuinely happy for her friend. Even if the latter was her husband.
“Y/n, I was honest when I told you I want to know you better. To befriend you. Please accept it as a proof of my good intentions. I’ve never seen JiYong this happy, he smiles a lot now. He was not used to smiling. You make my friend a happy man and I cannot be more grateful for that’.
“This is a little strange, Mama. I’m not gonna lie. But, I’ll get used to it”.
“Thank you Y/n. Now, I have something really special for you. I want you to look at it”
Were spread out on her bed, 3 magnificent pieces of clothing in white silk, lace and satin that you had never seen before. It was so short and delicate, you couldn't imagine that someone could wear such things.
“What’s this?” you asked, dumbfounded.
“This, my dear, are 3 beautiful nightdresses that I may have made sew for you only. Nobody else in the kingdom has those pieces of clothing”
“But, it’s so small… it doesn’t cover anything and I’m sure we can see through it”
She laughed, genuinely amused by your naivety.
“Yes, it’s exactly the point! The only purpose of these is to please your man’s eyes. You wear it under your handbok and he’ll have a beautiful surprise when he discovers it on you. Or, if you’re willing, you wear it alone and surprise him wearing only that”
“You wear clothes like that?”
“Oh! Yes! Believe me, it pleased SoYoung eyes a lot” she was sad when she mentioned it but she collected herself. “It’s also common for the honeymoon night among nobles”. 
“But do you think JiYong will love it? Isn't it vulgar?”
“It would please every man in this world. JiYong included. Well, maybe not every one of them, cause we all have our thing, right?!”
“I’m not sure Mama, I don’t want to be indecent”
“Take it with you, you can show it to him first, if you’re not sure. JiYong is open minded. Trust me!”
“I don’t know if I have the confidence to wear such a nightdress. I feel like I would ruin the expected effect” you said, caressing the soft fabric.
“Y/n, you are so beautiful, please don’t say that. Look at you! How can you not be proud of this pretty face? Of that body shape? It’s a shame. Plus, I noticed how our majesty looks at you… There is no doubt he found you beautiful as well”.
“Thank you Mama”.
“HyeJin, please. Call me HyeJin”.
The maids laid the new garments in silk paper and placed them in beautiful boxes. You let them bring your new things to your new room. You weren’t used to receiving gifts or even less being served. You took the time to thank everyone, including the Queen for this magnificent gift. She seemed trustful, after all.
You carefully unboxed everything yourself and placed it in the cupboard JiYong had liberated for you. You’ll think about the nightdress, you were not so sure about it. But you loved the affection mark HyeJin had for you. 
During the afternoon, JiYong called you out in the executive room.  He wanted you to be there, when he would declare his new law valid. He wanted you to be by his side when he was giving the orders to his ministers. The moment was solem and touching. It was meaningful for you and you wished your friends would have been here to celebrate the official end of slavery with you.
The king had taken all the precautions to make sure the owners of the slaves would free them or send them to the palace. Not a single slave should be killed unless their masters want to receive the same treatment. He made sure to send a messenger on every single property that has slaves. Making sure each and every one of them would receive the good information. 
“I’m so proud of you. So, so proud” you told him as soon as everybody had left the room. He was sitting on his throne while you were standing in front of him.  He reached out and drew you to him, his arms encircling your waist and his nose nuzzling your stomach while you played with his hair.
“Thank you my love. I couldn’t have done it without you. Without your work, the japanese emperor would be still receiving the wrong documents and not only there would have been even more slaves but we could have been in war, too. I’m grateful for your help and I’m grateful to have you in my life”
“I’m happy I helped Ji. Working with you on those documents was fun. I could work like that every single day of my life”.
“Actually, I might take your words. Would you like to be our official translator? You could translate the stories written by the authors. Like, people cannot read the japanese authors, right? You could translate in korean for them.  Countries have so much to learn from each other’
“Aaaw! This is such a good idea. Yes! I want to do it. I love to write, I love to use feathers and ink and parchment. And we could work side by side, when you are doing paperwork. I’m so happy! Mama was right, you really are open mind” You gently guided his chin up to kiss him. 
“Oooh, you saw HyeJin? How is she? Still crying over the traitor?” he asked, half serious.
“She’ll be over him, hopefully. We should introduce her to TaeHyung. I’m sure they would be a perfect fit”.  
“Yah! My woman is really clever! What a good idea”
 You kissed him again as the thunder was heard, growling loud and long. The rain was about to fall. You had a thought for your friends, out on a mission to track down SoYoung. You hoped they were protected from the storm. The front door opened suddenly, making you jump even stronger than the storm. It was YoungBae, breathless. It’s your name that he called.
“Y/n! Y/n! You have to come here, please. Come fast. Run! You too, Cheon Ha!”
Trusting your man’s first counselor and principal guard, you obeyed without further ado. When you walked towards him, he bowed at you with his most genuine smile.
“Look” he said, he said, pointing in a direction.
Tae, Seo and the guards who had left for the mission arrived in the public square of the palace. All of them on their horses, their chin up in the air on their mounts.  It took you a few seconds to realise that on the horse next to Seo, was a tinier person holding a baby against her chest, held by a piece of cloth tied around her. HyunSa and MiNa were here.
“Oh lord! Oh Lord! Is this true?”.
You didn’t lose time and you ran towards them, followed by YoungBae. JiYong stayed behind, smiling tenderly at the scene. Not aware that the king was supposed to be the one welcoming the soldiers coming back from a mission, you exclaimed:
“HyunSa! MiNa! I can’t believe that you are here! Thank you! Oh lord! Thank you!” YoungBae helped her get down from the horse. You couldn’t hold your tears as you were hugging your friend carefully taking care not to crush MiNa.
“She is not even a bit happy to see us back” you heard Tae joke from behind her.
“Take MiNa out of that thing! I want to hold her too. Oh! My! God! Thank you” you cried with baby MiNa against your heart, big fat happy tears running down your cheeks. You patted her little back and kissed her cheeks while telling her how beautiful she was.
“She’s older now, but she didn’t gain a lot of weight, we’ll have to feed her. I’m so relieved that she’s here” not all the children born on the plantation survived those conditions. The majority died after their first months. 
“It’s over now, it’s all behind us SaSa. You’ll see, we’re really happy here” you wanted to chase that sad look HyunSa had on her face. Now that you know MinHo wanted you back, you’re sure he took his revenge on the other slaves when you left. 
“I know, Seo told me so many good things, about life on the palace. About the people here and in the villages around” she answered with a weak voice. She seemed tired and she had lost weight. A lot of weight. “By the way, as soon as I have the chance, I would like to ask an audience with the king. I want to give him my gratitude. I hope he will accept to meet me.” she didn’t notice JiYong’s presence although he was austentatory wearing his royal robe, his crown and his jewels. There was no doubt he was the king. He walked towards you but kept a certain distance. 
“You don’t need to thank me HyunSa. It’s my duty as the King to take care of the people in my kingdom. I’m sorry I couldn’t bring you here sooner and that you had to suffer longer than your friends.” he exclaimed in a calm and assured voice, lowering his head in her direction. HyunSa’s jaw dropped open. She could never have imagined that the king himself would mingle with the people. Or even less that he could bow at her.
“SeoJoon, TaeHyung! Welcome back! I’m glad to see you again. I know a woman that will be relieved, now that her friends are reunited”. He smiled, looking in your direction.
Shocked, HyunSa looked at you. You smiled brightly at her. You were always a little surprised when you noticed the way people reacted to JiYong. But to see your friend, made you realise even more that indeed, it was the king that was sharing your life now. With his responsibility and his status. With the effect he has on people.
“Cheon Ha? Are you really the king? Please don’t look at me, I’m not presentable right now, I am covered in dust and mug” she said before she knelt down before him. 
“It’s normal, considering you’ve been riding for a while. May I have a look on that little girl I have heard a lot of? She looks like you, SeoJoon, she has your dimples. What a beautiful baby!” He said, smiling brightly at MiNa.The affection oozing out of his eyes is making your heart melt.
There was a tradition in the kingdom that when the king holds a baby, the latter will be fortunate and live happily ever after. HyunSa knew it and she took MiNa from your arms and placed her directly in JiYong’s. Laughing, he welcomed the little girl and caressed her little hair tenderly. Your heartbeat fastened at the view, he must have been such a wonderful father when Chan was a baby. 
“Welcome to the palace little MiNa. I wish you’ll have a happy and healthy life among us. I have the strange intuition that I will see you very often” he said, smiling in your direction.
HyunSa was crying happy tears, happy that her girl had received the king’s blessing. She also seemed confused about what was going on between you and JiYong. She had the feeling that it was more than an official relation. Damn Seo! He didn’t tell her while they were riding.
SeoJoon came by your side. He pushed TaeHyung who was hugging you, kissed your cheek and bowed at the king. 
“Y/n, you look even more happy than when I left. I can’t wait for you to tell me what happened while I was away” He turned towards JiYong. “Majesty, we have to discuss as soon as possible. Jang MinHo is following us. He’s probably 4 or 5 hours behind. He didn’t like the way I took my wife back. You might receive his complaint.” He said, proudly encircling his wife’s waist. “We learned that your brother and chancellor Kyo had escaped in Japan. I’m sorry we couldn’t catch them”
“No worry about MinHo, the palace is already on high alert. You’ll tell me more about it later.  Go freshen up and eat in your old room for now. I’ll ask the maids to prepare a little house for you and your family. Would you prefer in the village or inside the palace border?”
“The closest I can be to my friend” HyunSa answered “Thank you Cheon Ha, we’ll be working hard to repay for all of this. Thank you so much”
“Love” he surprisingly called you, in front of Tae, Seo, HyunSa and YoungBae. Tae was lifting you in his arms again, turning around from happiness.
“Tae, our king is calling me” you said, tapping on his shoulder to have his attention.
“Nah, he’s talking to the queen. Ooooh…. Sorry, Cheon Ha” His eyebrows shoot up in surprise at the endearing way the king called you. But no sooner than that, it morphed into genuine happiness. Like it suddenly clicked into place and everything made sense. His boxy grin rapidly spread across his face as he dropped you back on the ground.
“Love, can you go with HyunSa? Mrs Lin will assign them a house. Can you help them with all they might need? You’ll be escorted, please don’t go anywhere without your guards”. 
“Yes, I can do, of course” you shyly bowed at him. It was strange to be ceremonial with the man you share your bed with. But it was a little funny at the same time. He came over and whispered in your ear, so that no one could hear.
“I’ll come back later. Please stay safe, meanwhile. I love you”. 
Closing your eyes in contentment when you heard those words, you told him you love him back. “so much…” You were trying the best you could to keep a poker face but every one that knows you could tell, the king had told you something that made you melt like jelly. As soon as his face moved away from yours, he was no longer your lover. He had become the king again, authoritarian, cold and serious. He left the public square place, escorted by Young Bae and his guards. The men needed to talk about the mission, about his brother and about MinHo. HyunSa came closer and poked your side.
“What’s going on between you and our majesty? How can he talk to you in your ear and you’re still alive? I would have died! He’s the king Y/n… This is amazing. And he’s so handsome, I never saw such a perfect face before, it’s almost like he has been drawn by the gods themselves!!” 
“He’s handsome, indeed. Have you seen his piercing and intelligent eyes? And his cute smile? Aaaaw! It makes me feel warm, just thinking of it” you said, dreamily. “I know, he’s the king but... I was working with him, in secret. It's a long story that I will tell you later. But we were alone together for many days, working in his office. I got to know him, the real him. Slowly, something strong built between us and we fell in love with each other. To me, he’s just JiYong and we live together, now”.
“You call him by his name? Have you lost your mind? WHAT? You what?” she was shocked at your revelations, not processing any of it, yet. “I thought he was married already? Is the queen alive? What’s going on?” she asked, question marks all over her face. 
“I’ll explain everything my lovely Sasa. Now, let’s go to your new house. I’m so glad that you are here. We’ll chat like we used to. Give me my little girl. I missed her so much”
“Is that really true, Y/n? Is this over for real?” HyunSa asked.
“You probably don’t know yet, it just happened. The king had sent messages all over the country. All the slaves will be free from now on. You are not a slave anymore, HyunSa. And your daughter will never be one, either”. 
“Woah!  Can it be really the truth? What does it mean, exactly? How am I gonna live?”
“It means that from now on, you’ll be paid for your work, if you decide to have a job. Seo earns enough money for the three of you, you can rest as much as you want. It means that from now on, you have civil rights and the laws will apply for you too. I know, it may sound surreal, I couldn’t believe it either. But trust me, it’s all true. Our king is the greatest man I know.”
“I can tell… But it’s still hard to believe” 
“You’ll get used to it, little by little. Come, you need to rest”
You followed Mrs Lin in the new house your friends will inhabit. The rain was flooding you but none of you noticed. The most important thing is that you were reunited, finally. And that slavery was forbidden from now on. Jang MinHo will never have any power on you, your friends or anyone. It was over. 
Chapter 18
You have spent the rest of the afternoon at HyunSa’s house. When you arrived, you hid from Mrs Lin in a little spot in the house and told your friend everything between you and JiYong. She couldn't believe it! She was shocked. You held MiNa on you the whole time, it was almost as if the baby recognised you, which was impossible because she was so small when you left the plantation. But she felt safe in your arms and she smiled a lot, trying to grab your hair or your mouth with her little fingers while she was babbling.
EunMin, the official cook for the royal family, had come and brought something for MiNa. She had come by herself, which was surprising but in a good way.
“Duljjae mama (second mama, second queen), my husband has told me that there was a baby that needed to be fed. I personally prepared vegetable purees mixed with oat or barley.  You have variety so, depending on the baby’s preferences, you can choose. Tell me when you need more or if you have a special demand”. 
“Duljjae mama? Why are you calling me like that?” you were shocked.
“We all call you like that since you live with our majesty, duljjae mama”.
“Oooh! I see. But there is no need to be official with me, I’m just Y/n. Ok? Please? I don’t want to be a queen!”
“I will try”.
“Come and sit with me would you? You’re YoungBae’s wife, right? I love him. He’s a genuine man. He’s protective of JiYong, sorry… of our majesty and me. You’re lucky to have him in your life”.
“He only has good words for you too, duljjae mama. He said you were bringing joy inside the king’s heart. If you have any special demand for your meals, please just let me know. I would like to add dishes that you like on the menu”.
“I’m sure that our little prince keeps you busy enough, already” you laughed. “But I’d like to share a cup of tea with you sometimes, if you want of course”.
“Ooooh! It would be my honour”.
You have given MiNa all the food she wanted, you let her drink as much milk as she needed. You wanted her to gain weight, she was so petite and delicate. You didn’t tell your friend who was mostly sleeping today but MiNa looked pale and sick. It concerned you.
“Mrs Lin, is there a way to bring the doctor here? I would like him to auscultate my friends, just to make sure everyone is completely fine”.
‘It’s not for you to ask, miss. It’s an order the king, the queen or the prince have to give”.
“Hum Hum,” Jiyong cleared his throat from behind you. You turn around with a surprise to see Jiyong arrive with Seojoon at his heels as people shuffled around and scattered about the room to make room for the king. Upon arrival, Jiyong’s eyes scanned the room as they automatically settle on you. A tender smile gracing his lips. Almost like, everyone else in that room was insignificant compared to your presence. 
“From now on, you will be taking orders from Miss Y/n too, Mrs. Lin,” He stated, a firm stance in his voice, his gaze was not directed at her, but his tone proved his authority, “She is someone important to me, the woman I’m sharing my life with. Therefore, I would like it if you obey her as well. I’m sure she will have reasonable demands.”
You shyly looked up at Jiyong at the overwhelming love and consideration he showed towards you. This was probably the first time he acknowledged your relationship among people who aren’t you, the queen or the little prince. It made your heart flutter and you couldn’t tear your eyes away from his. If you weren’t surrounded by so many people or if you were in the privacy of your quarters, you were pretty sure, you’d probably just jump him and kiss him stupid. 
Out of the corner of your eyes, you were sure SeoJoon being the protective older brother he was, was sending the King, “You better take care of my sister or I’ll kill you”, glances. To which Jiyong just sent him another reassuring smile. The whole thing was so adorable, you weren’t sure if your heart could take more of it in the time span of one single day.
“Yes, CheonHa” Mrs Lin said, bowing as she left the room backwards. EunMin left with her, with the promise to come back tomorrow to check on the baby’s eating and health evolution. She kept you company today and she was adorable, you were happy that you got to know her. JiYong came closer and whispered in your ear so only you can hear: “Mrs Lin is the mother of one of my ex-courtesan. I guess she has a little something against me. Don’t take it personal, love”.
It was already the evening, the day went so fast! SeoJoon stood in front of you and reached his arms to have his daughter.
“Thank you, Y/n, thank you CheonHa. I too, would like to know if everything is fine with my girls”.
HyunSa, who had slept ever since she arrived, came by her man’s side. He drew her to him with one arm and placed his hand around her waist. You were never used to seeing any affection marks between them, Seo being private most of the time. But he missed her so much, he probably couldn’t help himself.
“Do you think you’ll have one baby on your own?” he teased you and JiYong. The comment made you sad. Considering your life on the plantation, you had come to the conclusion that you couldn’t get pregnant.
“I don’t know… Seo, don’t talk about it” you shyly said, uncomfortable.
“Love, I don’t have to hide my feelings here, right? So let me kiss you. I’ve missed you so much the 3 hours we were apart” He said in front of still under shock HyunSa. He drew you to him and kissed you, his arms encircling your waist. You tenderly combed his hair with your fingers. You couldn’t resist their softness. You hid your nose in the crook of his neck as soon as your lips parted.  SeoJoon couldn’t contain his joy.
“Yes, they will certainly have little babies real soon”. he joked.
“That would make me very happy,” the king said, smiling at you.
Three little knocks were heard. YoungBae and TaeHyung came in, agitated. Even if the situation was serious, Tae took one second to kiss MiNa’s head and pat her little back.
“CheonHa, MinHo had killed a guard in the woods. He stripped him of his clothes. We think he stole his uniform to get closer to the palace without making waves.  HaeChoo was making a round in the woods, he found the guard, he died in his arms”. Curiously, it’s Tae that delivered the message to the king. Not YoungBae.
JiYong was furious. He should have never let him go. But he had nothing that justified his detention and he didn’t want to become this kind of king. The ones who let his hatred rule the kingdom. But he regretted his decision. Pinching the bridge of his nose, he closed his eyes.
“Who’s dead? he wanted to know.
“EunMin’s brother” YoungBae answered.
“Oh, noooo!” you exclaimed. “Your wife’s brother?”
“Yes, duljjae mama. She doesn’t know yet, I’ll tell her as soon as I have the permission to leave”
The name surprised the king, Seo and Tae but none of them said anything about it.
“I’m sorry for your loss, YoungBae. He was a brave soldier, as far as I know. Too young to die…” Jiyong said.
“I guess, you’ll have another meeting tonight? I think I will go visit your wife after she knows, if you don’t mind YoungBae. I don’t want her to be alone in times like this”.
“No, no, no! There is nothing we can do for tonight. YoungBae, we’ll meet at the first hour tomorrow morning. You go and take care of her, we’ll handle the rest for now. Tae, you’ll be in charge of the operations for the night.  I want the soldiers to do their rounds in groups of three or four. They also have to stay close to the border. Seo, Tae, I want you to assist tomorrow. We’ll be discussing military strategy. I count on you”.
“Yes, CheonHa” they answered in one voice.
“Good. Now, everybody else but Tae, you take the rest of the night, it’s an order. We all need to rest, the last couple of days were hectics”.
‘Yes, CheonHa”
You called YoungBae before he left:
“I met EunMin today, she’s a lovely person. If I can do anything for you and for her, please don’t be shy to ask me. I’m really sad for you, I know what it is to lose his family”.
“Thank you, I appreciate it. I will be going, if you don’t mind. It will be a tough night”.
Tae left along with YoungBae. He was clinging to his arm, like if he wanted to comfort him. You heard them exchange some words before they left in different directions. Turning to your man, you took his hand in yours and spontaneously kissed his palm, something you never did before.
“You’ll rest too, Ji. You need to sleep as well”.
“Yes, love! I’ll obey you” he joked.
He kissed your temple under the ‘whews’ and the ‘oooh’ of Seo. 
  “Are you sure, their arrival is a good thing” JiYong asked, forcing himself not to laugh when he noticed their stunned faces “I have the feeling that they will be teasing us way too much for my liking”.
“Yeah, give them a mission far far away from here’ you add, playing along with your man.
“Good idea! Come home my love. Let’s plot something as we go home” he joked and you left, your arm under his.
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