#I guess I buy a bed

[hekateinhell]

Anne's old house...

Illustration on the inside of The Witching Hour, Anne Rice's old house at 1239 First Street, New Orleans, which she used as the setting for the famous Mayfair House in her novels:

And if you're a nerd like me and you always wondered what the inside of Anne's arguably most well-known house looked like, here's a tour via a real estate video from 2009! 

#i think the illustration would make such a cool print! #if i ever have enough money and the house is on the market again i'm gonna buy it and turn it into a vampire bed & breakfast #anne rice #the mayfair witches #vampire chronicles adjacent i guess #aes

[aefensteorrra]

I do not have even an ounce of the social energy required for tomorrow... it's going to be so much

#have to go out today to buy a secret santa present too #which. thankfully I got the one person I have a few things in common with #so I'm going to buy tea?? apparently that's a very normal secret santa present #but the office christmas party is also tomorrow and uhhhhhh #I am much better physically today than yesterday but it's still like. not at all appealing #I could leave very early I guess #but yeah ideally today would also be spent in bed to prepare #so I'm gonna try to run my errands incredibly quickly lol

[mildmayfoxe]

made banana chocolate chip pancake & slathered em in butter & my mom’s homemade red currant jelly & also homemade smoked maple syrup

#the smoke was a surprise. i opened a new jar of maple syrup that i picked up at christmas that was labeled ‘lil smokey’ #and i was like damn! this is smoky! #my dad built a smoker a couple years ago so i guess it was only a matter of time til my mom threw some maple syrup in there #it’s good but it looks like i got two jars of just smoky syrup & no regular hahahaha #ive talked about this before but i’m so spoiled for maple syrup & jams and jellies. AND pickles & salsa #why buy store made shit when i can have the ones my MOMMY makes for FREE! #photo record #food tag #they have a little apartment in the barn out back that they do on air bnb sometimes & i was in there for christmas bc there wasn’t a bed #for me in the house & she put out a little plate of some of her canned stuff & a little price list & explainations that it’s all made here #& the trees are tapped on the property… really cute. i hope people buy them #the language used on the sign was really funny too i wish i could remember what they called it. ‘the gardens’ or something. #‘the farm’ but not that. ‘all trees tapped are in the gardens’ what gardens bro. you mean the WOODS??? #chatpost

[twobigears]

biggest dog on the littlest bed

#i guess i don't need to buy GSD-sized beds after all #a border collie bed works just fine #also #fluffy tail appreciation #Chandra photos #Chandra #german shepherd

[seariii]

Kotoko.... Save me...

#i miss my wife #kotoko picking me up and carrying me to bed and letting me rest and take a nap heh #with my brothers record she every once in a while checks my temperature just to make sure nothings going on there #she'd probably be really strick with the times of the medicines too.... #i cant really see her cooking... but she definitely knows the basics. shes efficient shed probably buy one of those... uh.... #chicken broth liter and throw some stuff in there while she heats it up #heh.... yeah im delusional yeah im happy this way i love my wife very much #first time im this open about this huh.... i guess the tiredness doesn't let me think correctly #wife <3

[paranoidgemsbok]

You know a podcast host is a fucking liar when he claims to be from NY and "goes to Pennsylvania all the time" and then a Sheetz comes up in a story and he has no idea what it is

#“i guess you buy bedding there????” #POINTS. DECEIVER. FRAUD.

[bunnyb34r]

I need life to slow the fuck down bc my skin is starting to hurt real bad from all this picking :/

#marquilla #i need a healthy coping mechanism but nothing hits like self destruction dgdgdghddg #my brain is hard wired from genetics to pick at my skin and hair on both sides 😭 i was doomed from the start #i do try to not do it btw im not like oh well guess theres no options! like no i know but i need a foolproof one #or for life to fucking chill #every four years i become an over plucked chicken for 10 months and think ab pulling my head hair out bc yall are driving me up the wall #i got into a fight in 2016 ab the election and i nearly started punching... like i had to hit the bed instead bc im like god i cant hurt #them but GOD DO I FEEL THE NEED TO TO GET YOU TO GET IT #i think i like plucked DEEP that day just taking my anger and frustration out bc good lord #like how can you be like hmm well im gonna vote for this guy bc fuck poor people. i work retail and so i see people abusing ebt a lot #therefore it makes me mad and i wanna stop it. #like you only notice the 'fraud' and misuse/bad choices people make bc thats negative in your mind so #your brain holds onto it. youre not noticing the poor people who are just minding their business using ebt and feeding their family #ive gotten through to them at least a little ab how fraud is less than 1% and that the fraud is usually selling stamps for cash for diapers #and shit and that it's people sharing cards bc they need to pool their funds to feed their families #that the people you see stealing or buying expensive ass meats on ebt are not the majority and if they wanna waste their limited funds each #month like that then thats a them problem. mind your business. #anyway im fucking like deteriorating sggdgdggd

[coldflasher]

me seeing a job listing for a job in romance publishing, which is basically my dream job, with a salary that's higher than my current salary, advertised as remote, and that i'd probably have a solid shot at getting due to my current level of work experience: 👀

me clicking on it and seeing, as i knew it would be, because every job in my industry is, that it's in fucking london, and "remote" actually means "you have to come into the office in central london at least two days a week even though literally every part of this job could be done from home, making it completely inaccessible unless you want to uproot your whole life, move halfway across the country and live in a shoe cupboard*:

#fuck this fucking industry i swear to god #EVERY PUBLISHING JOB IS IN LONDON #i basically have the only vaguely publishing-adjacent job on my side of the country. and i'm stuck here because i have no other options #my entire support system is here and i would SUFFER in london bc i hate cities. #not to mention that property in london is stupidly expensive #i mean property is stupidly expensive everywhere #but like. what gets me a 2 bed house in the north probably wouldn't even buy me a parking space in central london #i don't even actually hate my job you know. believe it or not considering how much i moan about it. like it's fine #but every now and then i see an opportunity that makes me realize how much cooler and more interesting jobs are out there that i'd actually #be passionate about. and because the industry i'm interested in is so rigid and. if we're being honest. classist #any of these opportunities are completely off-limits #so fuck me i guess

[scootarooni]

idk how much I've talked about it here but I've been working on a website on neocities and I recently added a little oc directory of sorts!

here's the main site and here is the oc page if that's all ya wanna see B^)

#unrelated note but here are my unsolicited music recommendations: PUNK TACTICS by Joey Valence & Brae and effective.Power by MIMIDEATH #ive been slapping together a little playlist full of BRC vibes and im vibing so hard w/ the shit spotify shuffle is throwing at me #spotify shuffle actually? giving me songs i like? I guess there's a first thing for everything #actually PUNK TACTICS was recommended by a friend but shuffle after that has been banger after banger so B^) #ok im going back 2 bed im WIPED OUT from a zine party last night #btw everyone go buy love letters: a cloud service zine :3 #scout.txt

[barksbog]

as someone who often needs night snacks, i suggest sleeping with a cooler besides your bed or one of those mini fridges (if affordable) with easy snacks inside. stuff it with foodstuffs that are easy to open and dig into, i often just take slices of ham and go back to sleep. or those mini drinkable yogurts. little snacks in a cooler go a long way.

unfortunatly i built my own hell by making my bed 1.8m / 5.9 ft tall so once i´m in there it´s an absurd effort to get back out and there is no space for mini fridge. i really wanna get one for my studio tho!

my favorite night meat is salami but the one you buy as a whole salami and than cut yourself. yoghurt drinks are also good but a gamble with my lactose intolerance sjdkhfhjksdf

#lactose intolerance doesn´t stop me but you know #it´s a gamble #also i´ve been scheming to build my bed less tall but i need to buy a new matress first and those cost so many moneys ): #i basically sacrificed all the space in this room to Creechers and now idk where to put my bed #except for the ceiling i guess #20 year old me thought ceiling bed is so cool #but i´m 25 now and an old man who doesn´t want to climb a ladder up and down just because i forgot my water on the table

[sevenyeargap]

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#BIG big old vent post coming up ... I'm sorry but i need to get this out bc im doing Bad bad #but. sighs. don't you love having a Good Day for once - when you're able to go home and not feel utterly exhausted and you're also able to #go buy groceries bc you want to cook for once!!!! but then your mom UTTERLY ruins it. by telling you you're useless and dumb 🙃🙃🙃 #idk man i finally wanted to do something that was not rot in bed tonight and guess what ive been going #i haven't even been able to put my pjs on so im still fully clothed... in bed ....... #im ngl im dreading Moving Back Home in two months #bc i moved out so that i wouldn't have to deal with her all the time and yet!!!!!!! it's like it's HER home now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #she treats me like im fucking five and not an actual adult. jesus #okay anyway that was all im crawling back to the depression hole for an even longer time than expected 🤞

[ahalliance]

stanford university had a gender clinic/transgender research and health program from the 70s onwards . stanford is in california . hills valley is in california . doc brown has ties to caltech and no doubt other californian universities . marty mcfly is a trans . do you see my vision here

#i need to fucking. go to bed #i swear i didn’t spend the past five hours researching trans history just for the fic brain to switch on #but the info is in my brain now . i shall use it how i please i guess #the first ‘guide to being ftm’ came out in 1985 so doc buys marty it for Christmas #my vision is fucking flawless #jay rambles #bfu.txt

[confetti-critter]

The night is young and I am free to do whatever my heart desires but unfortunately I have once again found myself trapped in the Time Prison and so I

#the good old 'I don't feel like doing anything including doing nothing and I want to go to bed but I know I'm not tired' #WEH. #I'm enjoying typing but I don't want to commit to practicing typing for real so I'm just making excuses to type more #I was looking at custom ESC keycaps because I was thinking about that whole community of ppl obsessed with keyboards and like I get it I #like the clicky clacking and keyboards can look so pretty but some of those key caps man wtf. #why would you want 3D transparent donald duck ESC key from temu what is wrong with you #saw a set of key caps that were little kittys with little kitty ears n I was like fuuuuuuuuuck #49.00 USD probably 100000 CAD+shipping goto helllll #I was thinking about what if I had like confetti keycaps and a custom kittycake esc key or like an actual little cake and matching desk mat #or even just a new cute mousepad cuz mine is old as fuck and I spilled vegetable cream stew on it once #and then I was thinking like sighhh and wouldn't it be cool to have arcade carpet on the stairs leading down to my basement hovel and #rainbow lights along the ceiling corners and what if I painting my bedroom like I wanted to do and sighhhhh #I haven't been wasting my money buying shit like that but I'm thinking about it again. #but the same thing stopping me from doing anything at all is stopping me from wasting my money which like that's good I guess??????? #gosh I really like typing why did I stop doing daily typing practice #oh yea The Thing Stopping Me From Doing Anything At All #meow meowm meow meow meow #ok I really gotta tear myself away from my computer and brush my teethses and try going to bed #I already played minecraft earlier it's fine I didn't do NOTHING tonight it just feels like I did #and tomorrow is another day #and next week is a short work week thank fucking christ almighty #literally cuz its easter sunday and he was in that tomb but he escaped or whatever he did #thanks jeezy boy #you maybe shoulda milked it for like half a week at least #moved the big ass boulder like have an inch at a time #*pause for laughter* #that s from my new stand up comedy routine do uiuop like it djfskll;askjdgflksjdflksajdflksjdf the dsjalkjfolidasfgjoiweljsdalkjflskdjflak #meowww #I am the only one I know on here who 'talks' this fucking much about absolutely nothing #I do all this and my poor followers can click read more and spend time reading alllllll this garbage

[super-psycho-lov3]

it doesnt even matter it doesnt even matter it doesnt ever matter it doesnt even

#im just really tired i guess #i have too many bruises and i cant keep eating a meal a day #its just really tiring getting lied to #people think they care but they really.. just dont? #say you care but im making dinner because you have work and oliver needs it more. as if i havent been making dinner all week. #as if i didnt spend the past two days walking 2-5 miles every day. #'youve been so snappy' as if i didnt clean the whole living room. as if it isnt my fucking bed time. as if you care about my problems. #'olivers here if you need anything' yeah. sure. as if he wont groan and huff at best. #'im sorry i have to go to work' as if youd do anything different #'im not as bad as people make me out to be' 'youre being brainwashed' as if i didnt have to spend all day at my friends house #the day i was persrcibed testosterone because i knew what youd do if i stayed at home #as if you didnt threaten to take it away when i didnt listen to you #just... im jusy so tired. once my mom asked me 'whose birthday did i forget this year?' referring to my siblings. #she was buying gifts. we never celebrated my birthday. didnt have the heart to tell her it was ME. im justs o tired. im so tired #it really sucks to know that — that our sect of the sys is back out because #because we feel. so. Lost. worthless and lost a and alone #doesn't feel like our family is anything at all. and im here because #because of that. i hate that. i hate knowing why i hate it #i hate knowing who and what caused this im so tired i want my brothers i want my sister i want to get out of here for a while i just need to #get out #its so stupid im the oldest sibling but i want my siblings so bad they would never let me down #fucking NEVER! never. not in a way that could ever really matter. just. god #vent post #free to respond #??? #i dont fuckin care if you reblog or reply or whatever. im just so tired i just need to yell you guys can say whatever #i got yelled at for reminding them to schedule my fucking root canal anf i just cant take it . so #im. im so hungry okay? im just so hungry #im hungry and tired and sore and so fucking alone and i cant fucking take it #cant eat right now n even if i could i wouldnt have the food so

[icewindandboringhorror]

Literally cannot comprehend that some people just... go places.. I know someone who just got back from a 2 week vacation and then the day they came home they went out to eat at a restaurant (at a busy time mind you, like 7pm on a saturday night!!) and then went to a mall to shop and then woke up early for brunch the next day and were at a bar in the afternoon and so on and so on and it’s like... god don’t you get tired of being places? If I go grocery shopping for 20 minutes on monday and then have a doctor appointment on tuesday, I am SO tired of leaving the house that I want to do nothing for the next two weeks lol...  Doing multiple major tasks/trips in one day and ENJOYING it and SEEEKING IT OUT is utterly inconceivable to me..  we are different creatures entirely lol

#not even regarding how irresponsible it is to be constantly doing stuff during the pandemic and etc. etc. like EVEN before the pandemic #I felt this way exactly the same. I just do not understand the human compulsion to be Doing Things (tm). And it's not that I don't enjoy #SOME things #like very hyperspecific things in controlled environments scheduled 10 days ahead of time and intricately planned lmao #but like there is some stuff I enjoy so it's not like I just hate everything but it's just... ghghhhhhhhhhh #like what are you running away from something? is it unberable for you to be alone with yourself so you have to be like #constanly up and out and finding new sensory shit to throw yourself into or like??? #I am legitimately not exaggerating comepltely 100% fine not leaving my house for months at a time (aside from going on walks to get excercis #e just around the block/still within the neightbohood and occasional necessary grocery trips to stock up on food obviiously) #I simply do not posess the impulse to go out to restaurants or bars or go to clubs and dance or go to parties or concerts #OR even travel like...?? idk I guess it's not terrible but in the past when I have traveled I've found that the only things #I could name that I enjoyed about the experience were like.. I like being on hotels because you get free breakfast sometimes and they have #TV and air conditioning and better beds than I do at home. I like people watching from my room windows. I like being in airports because #of the way they;re designed and I like to pearch somewhere and watch people and watch clouds and planes taking off. #I enjoy being on airplanes because the windows feel cold and you can look at clouds and sometimes have gingerale. #but I dont enjoy the traveling or going places itself. I'd rather be at home working on my hyper-specific interest hobbies lol #legit not joking at al if I won tickets to like an all expenses paid super luxury tropical getaway I would sell them and use the money to #buy craft supplies. I would get 10000x more personal fulfilment and joy being able to work on a new project or having the money to pay off #bills or buy better groceries or get an apartment with a better bathroom or something like that than I would having the one time #experience of like wow I looked at a cool beach and some sunsets and ate at restaurants a lot #And maybe the thing is like. I don't value experiences? I value resource security and pratical progress at things #and not in a like workaholic capitalist way but just in a like.. I value more what's going to make me happy in the LONG run than temporary #expeirences that are somehow supposed to mean something to me in the moment (yet I usually derive no pleasure or meaning from at all) #Like I would rather use money to invest in my niche hobbies or crafts or personal improvement or getting a more comfortable #bed or better shoes for my foot pain or etc. etc. than I would spending the money to go out to a resuarant or travel or etc. #ALSO again like.. in addition to it simply not seeming worth it because my brain rarely is able to conceptualize the value of those sorts of #experiences.. it's also just SO tiring to do things! Even a grocery store trip can be overwhelming with sensory stuff and social things #and etc. etc. and I just realize like.. all the things people have told me are Fun are not Fun for me. I grew up and realized you actually #have no obligation to do things. I found out you can spend your birthday at home alone eating a waffle and playing your favorite video game #and I have never went anywhere or done an activity on my bday since lmao.. 'Doing Things' is just hard for me to grasp still really lol

[acaesic]

christmas was a drag and i WILL be jumping, sorry dallon

#idkhow #i got. 2 of the things on my list!! :3 #i asked for 6 things :( #the idkhow vinyl was the reason i even got out of bed today and i never got it. lolll!!!!! #i got a record player and a little kit to clean my vinyls. i was so excited and then i opened the last box and they werent there #at least i got a butterfly knife to kill myself with🔥🔥🔥 #it wasnt that bad. i still got like spiderverse posters or whatever #it just wasnt what i hoped for #i wouldve rather got nothing at all #i also really really wanted that tiny dallon weekes charm. GUESS WHAT!!! DIDNT GET IT🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 #i wish my mom didnt wait until 2 days before christmas to buy everything :( maybe i wouldve actually gotten the stuff i wanted #shipping is a bitch #life is a bitch #time to kill myself #XD