#I guess this is what heartbreak feelings like

[mazzy-rockstar]

Monday blues are hitting me hard today

#you can ignore this if you want cause im gonna talk a lot of shit and sads and feelings #but as i’ve realised i literally have no one to empty my heart out to irl #and it’s fucking heartbreaking cause i love my friends but I don’t think they love me back #which is an insane though but I genuinely think it’s true like #i moved away 4 ish months ago and i know that communication comes from both side but like i wanted to test smt #so i stopped texting first and guess what?? only 2 friends texted me #1 because she’s genuinely a good friend i think and the other because she needed money (which i gave her like a fucking fool) #my heart just hurts cause i realised i’m not as important to them as they are to me and I’m completely misreading our relationship and #it sucks because I thought they were going to be my friends for life but now they’re all posting recaps of 2023 and im in none of their pics #even in pics where i was present at the time #and i dont know if it’s intentional or if im just being an insecure little bitch but it fucking hurts #i just want to be important to someone #i want to be someone’s person #not a last resort like #they keep doing stuff together which i get like life moves on and i’m the one that left #but not a single text or a pic or a ‘we miss you!’ #not even a fucking heart on insta stories #am i being desperate?? or do I actually have shitty friends #like i have impostor syndrome in my own fucking friendgroup??? #I can’t just drop them either cause then I’ll actually have no one #idk i must exude some sort of energy #i dont think ive ever had a genuine good best friend like for some reason they leave after 3 years #(and this is why i have trust issues and attachment disorders) #anyway I’ll probably just suck it up and go about my day #ive lived 24 years like this what’s an entire life #it’s wild cause i have a good time whenever i’m with them (i think) and then i leave and it’s crickets #i feel like hired entertainment sometimes #idk my head hurts so I’m probably overthinking but like these feelings come from somewhere right? #i have to stop

[octoshott]

Uhhhhhh considering that imgur is removing all explicit content WHETHER OR NOT you have an account……….. yeah, fuck imgur for real my dude. also purging old content not tied to accounts is still INSANELY BAD for the internet? do you know how many links are going to break, because they’re hosted by people who can no longer get an account to save their images for whatever reason? yikes. the coldest of takes there.

It's not purging old shit if you have an account. If that is tied to that account, its not being purged.

It literally says it right here.

I think it sucks that so many older forum links are gunna be broken, that absolutely SUCKS, but you don't see people going apeshit at things like photobucket that had to do stuff like that for probably high server costs among other things. It's not an elegant way of handling it and I'm not saying I love it, I actually kind of hate the fact that they're doing this.

But I guess in my eyes I understand if the #1 site on the internet for image sharing has to do this- I'm not saying its good, but acting as if Imgur is doing some unbelievable thing is really bizzare to me, I guess.

Feel free to correct me if I'm wrong. But I view it as probably a server issue, I can't imagine how much they must have stored on there. Honestly' I'm more pissed over the pornograph content being outright banned more than anything.

I'm not saying its a good thing, I just think the outrage is a little confusing tbh.

#like. if theres bigger issues at play here feel free to explain them #rather than just saying cold as fuck take #i understand that imgur is about to break a lot of older forum images and links #and that fucking BLOWS #but i feel like no matter what thats always going to happen with stuff which is really unfortunate and heartbreaking #listen man i went through the same thing with photobucket so i guess in my eyes it just sorta. happens? #especially with how big image sharing is getting #if they're doing this for another reason let me know #but it always came off as like a server issue of not being able to store all of this

[dglvr1760]

I'm making my own therapy-

now-

And a little couple doodles too-

Heheheheheeh, I wish-

Have a good day guys-

#Good omens #good omens 2 spoilers #Sobbing #crowley #He deserves love #I want him to be loved just- #Rlly neil- #aziraphale #Jail time for you #The line from #This is what heartbreak feels like #Just hits harder #You know #Guess my lover was a snake? #Bruh- #Sad vibes here #coffee theory #I #Plz #Season 3 soon- #I beg #Gonna make my bf watch it now so I don't have to be sad alone #That's gonna be in a few weeks #dglvr1760 #aziracrow

[leonardalphachurch]

could you make an organization 13 out of churches.

#if you include the epsilon fragments definitely easily but they’re not able to be separated which i feel like is important. #epsilon. tεx. alpha. tex. sigma. delta. omega. gamma. theta. eta. iota. #what is that. 11? #the director. fuck is there only 12. heartbreaking #i guess we can throw wash in there. #carolina doesn’t count she’s just related. she’s a church but she’s not a CHURCH.

[raksh-writes]

We just got pretty heart-breaking news relating our dog and now I don't know what to do with myself, so I figured I might just as well share. Maybe it'll help, who knows.

Long story short, today was the day we had scheduled leg surgery for our doggo, but when we went in and the vet started to check her, he heard something he didn't like, so we did an x-ray aaaaaand it turned out she actually has a sick heart. And like, significantly. The surgery was canceled, while the vet explained to us what's going on with the x-ray and a comparison of how it Should look and yeah, her heart's basically twice the size it should be, pushing her trachea into her spine, where there should quite a bit of space there, and tbh, now it makes sense why she's been less and less energetic lately. We've been seeing it for months now, she doesn't run around or sprint the way she used to, and she also eats way less, sometimes doesn't even come in for her evening meal when before she was Always ecstatic about it. It's-- well, I didn't expect it to hit me the way it did, but damn... The vet was straight with us too - dogs with heart diseases always die, the question is what's exactly the sickness and how to maybe elongate the time with meds, but how long does she actually have?

He gave us a contact for a specialist, so we'll definitely be trying to get an appointment with him, but... yeah. We thought we were going for a relatively straightforward leg surgery and to get hit with this news was... rough.

It's a sad day today ngl...

#Raksh posts #personal #feels like Im just gonna be hit with random waves of heartbreak over it today #I really didn't expect it to hit me this hard #but since we've been seeing the changes for quite some time #it makes it all feels all too real and inevitable #we thought - or maybe hoped - that it's just the leg giving her issues but #damn #it really did look bad on the x-ray #compared to how it Should look #so the vet judged it too risky to go with the leg surgery #she'd need to be put to sleep for it so... yeah #I dunno what to do with myself now #I might delete this post later too #for now I guess i just had to express this somewhere

[zombie-boys]

vecna: *looking through list of every traumatic experience will has gone through* bro you can't just waste a villain origin story this good

will: *sobbing* i just want to play d&d man

#stranger things #stranger things fanart #stranger things meme #will byers #vecna #will's crayon box #of course will would never be the villain #but i have a very strong feeling vecna wants him to be #like how the mind flayer used him to kill people in st2 #i think it would be a different sense here though #i think vecna would first try to convince him to join him. like the world has treated you horribly. these people have treated you horribly #just join me and we can get revenge on them all #of course will would resist (kind of like him screaming 'go away' at the mind flayer in st2) #but thus vecna might forcibly take control of his body #perhaps wanting to make him a vecna 2.0 as his original body has been damaged #i guess it all comes down to vecna's motivations in st5 #he's opened the gates and everything so off the top of my head what i'm thinking is that he wants el dead #so imagine will (while being controlled by vecna) forced to kill el? oh my god #i mean originally it would have been flayed!will directly killing bob in st2 so that kind of idea is probably in the writers' back pocket #it would be very heartbreaking #i mean our protagonists' main goal would likely be to close the huge gates in hawkins and fight off the monsters coming through #but to have this kind of thing happening at the same time? dear god it would be insane #st4 #st spoilers #st4 spoilers #stranger things spoilers #stranger things 4 spoilers

[bl00dw1tch]

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#horse.txt #theres still time for things to get shitty so im going to keep my voice down but. the way things are looking? #lowkey thinkin the Avatar haters are gonna be on the 'wrong side of history' in the future #if it turns out as amazingly as it sounds like it will--bro. its just. oUGH! #i literally Cannot Fucking Fathom how ANYONE can watch these movies and not feel moved. and not feel intrigued. and not Like Them #the flaws are so few are far between and yet deeply threaded into the story enough to almost be ADDRESSED? by the story??? #its a masterpiece. its a masterpiece! #its wishfulfilling and beautiful and heartbreaking and tragic it is at the moment to pinnacle of what storytelling could be #the relationship we can have with these films and this fantasy AND our own real lives can be so so deep if we let it #i dont understand what could bring someone to hate it #i mean i guess i CAN but. i dont know. i guess i just wish we lived in a world where everyone felt like they were Allowed to enjoy it #bc it always seems like the hates comes from a moral stance of 'the movie portrays harmful concepts that we shouldn't watch Ever' #--even if theyre Condemned #im just really excited man. i wish i had more ppl to share this joy with sfdfdygg frgd....

[classical-vanity]

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#got my hair done today #(curtain bangs layers and a darker shade of brown) #i think it looks good and fits my face well #however I’m feeling kinda bad about my looks lately #this didn’t really help lol #because it kinda feels like no matter how much effort I will put in my appearance #i find it hard to believe I will ever be genuinely content with how I look #and it’s depressing to think about #i wish i was prettier #saw a girl on tik tok the other day and she was saying similar things #she was also crying and I found it to be very heartbreaking because she was so cute #but I guess the same applies to me too #god makes no mistakes etc etc #it’s just hard to accept when it’s about me #you know what i’m saying #this is superficial but oh well #rant over #tbd later

[phoebemunster]

I finished midnight mass and mike flanagan really can’t do anything wrong can he?

#it took me months to watch it completely not because it was bad but because a lot of it was hitting too close to home so I needed breaks #all of the different relationships with religion and riley's relationship with his parents like it was too much but so well done #pike's death was probably genuinely one of the most upsetting things I've ever watched and joe's entire storyline was just completely #heartbreaking and I was so mad for him by the end of it #pike was such a beautiful dog though I'm still so upset about it #and the easter service made me feel sick to my stomach while I watched it it was all so good #the last episode has scenes that reminded me of 30 days of night which I loved because the amount of dread it makes you feel #it sounds like I tortured myself by watching this and I guess I did a little kdjfhgkd but truly I enjoyed it #I'd say it might be hard to watch if you do have religious trauma but there's going to be a character you relate to in some way #and I loved the set design in riley's room so much that I'd recommend it just for that like I can't lie #the seven/scream/x files posters like YES that is storytelling through sets that is subtle foreshadowing that is character design #and they were just posters!!! #I guess it's no surprise to anyone that I loved it and I'll recommend any of his series #nell crain is such an important character to me and watching dani in bly manor was literally what made me realize I was a lesbian #riley was that for me in this series he was my little buddy I was traveling through the story with and I'll miss him now that it's over #I'm really excited for his next series and I'm sad that the midnight club was cancelled I read his plans for season 2 and cried lmfao #I could go on about this for forever honestly but if you haven't watched it you definitely should

[theauras]

‼️‼️⚠️TOKYO REVENGERS SPOILERS⚠️‼️‼️

I’ve been crying for the past 15 minutes I only had him for a day in a half I’m never loving again

#tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers baji #baji keisuke #tr baji #tr baji keisuke #I thought he would make it #Is this what heartbreak feels like #I hate it #i hate it here #i hate this dumb fucking show #I’m dropping the anime that’s it #All I asked was just ONE #ONE CHARACTER TO ENJOY WITHOUT THEM BEING KILLED OFF #BUT NO I GUESS THATS TOO MUCH TO ASK IS IT #Tokyo revengers spoilers #auras chatter!<3 #auras updates<3

[buck-yyyy]

sighhhh

i told her that i was ace (and i didn’t cry, so. upgrade from when i told her i was Not A Girl) but now i feel so icky for whatever reason and i just want to rip off my skin and sob into my pillow

#god what the fuck is wrong with me and why does this bother me so much #i think this is maybe just. a really bad time for the realization to hit #cause i was already not doing great #and now suddenly there’s a new abnormal thing about me that’s gonna change the way my life is supposed to play out and it’s just fucking #heartbreaking every time i find out that there’s another way i’ll feel different and isolated from the world around me #like does this make so many things make sense? yes. it explains why i’ve always hated talking or thinking about sex in any way beyond a joke #even if it’s with my friends #but it still feels so horrible and it’s not fucking fair #sigh. #it feels like the whole world is pointing at me saying ‘ha! already a fag- what else could be different?!’ #it’s just some big horrible joke that i’m not in on just like middle school and i just. i don’t know what to do #i guess i just wish i was normal #tw vent

[basedhoya]

realizing that I lost three of the most important people to me

#life is so #i feel so #sad #there’s so much to look forward to #but there’s also so much heartbreak #i just want to go back to pre covid life again #i feel so worn out #like what was it like to be carefree all the time and take life easy and day by day #why does the pressure get worse every year and my tolerance for bullshit drops lower and lower LOL #ahhhhhhh #saara rambles #guess I’ll go for a smoke

[catfish-and-the]

im literally. giving myself 11 months and if i like. cant find a reason to live or at least live somewhat comfortably by then thats it. i feel like ive lived like this long enough and im really tired

#ignore me #i mean yeah like i can live for other ppl i guess but at what cost like #my parents probably dont want me to kms but living is just so painful and heartbreaking that it doesnt matter i just want it to stop #like. i feel lkke i have to do this for my own sake bc again nothing has changed in almost a decade so like #what could possibly change in the future i dont want to live like this anymore #suicide tw #death tw #tw #trigger warning #to delete

[keilathemartian]

Lurked and got my feelings hurt

Oh 🐳

#me #mine #text #dammit #i learned today that I was right 🥲 #he didn’t stop fw me cus he was in a bad place #it’s cus he was fw some other girl #and they’re together and he’s happy and I’m like fuck lmao #I guess I’m happy for him #but dam #what a shitty feeling amirite.? #kinda makes u feel like u don’t mean shit #cus this isn’t my first rodeo boy #I always get left for someone else #at this point I can always read the signs and see it coming #but like dam what’s so wrong w me.? lol #i mean i know ur not always gonna be the perfect person for everyone but dam can I be that for at least someone.??? #seriously #everybody likes everybody more than they like me #what a heartbreaking revelation #I’m tired of feeling this way #I’m tired of craving love #I wish I could forget about it all together #but I’m hopeless 🥺

[retelling-of-ragnarok]

❆ i got a request for Gwen’s first experience w heartbreak— which in reality could be anything that’s broken them down; but i feel like most people, and the asker, we’re referring to romantic related heart break. so i’m like msmmdmd gwen’s never FELT that before 😭 ❆

#✩ whin.talk #((ramble in the tags -> #((i mean i guess you could say they loved their childhood friend #((but i wouldn’t classify that as *just* heartbreak. but rather a whole ass traumatic experience #((so i am STUMPED #((bc gwen’s never actually opened their heart up to another person since they were like? 8? #((im not sure they even know what heartbreak feels like snndnd #((but i dont wanna DELETE the ask either ☹️ #((dont mind me im just rambling #((its really hot outside so my brain isnt working 😭

[bolides]

oh yeah uhh important distinction to make here bc I've yet to make it on this blog: fuck sc0tt cawth0n

#whispers from beyond {ooc} #i do not condone his actions at all #still haven't really recovered from the heartbreak of finding out he made all those donations tbh. #fn/af helped me meet my closest friends which in turn helped me realize i was trans and seeing someone who i thought was a cool and -- #-- trustworthy content creator do something like that fucking hurt #like literally everything going on with mangle and ft foxy and spring bon and everything made me feel confident in sc0tt regarding gender #but i guess that's what i get for trusting a 40smth white christian #anyways im done rambling #i invented freddy faz/bear did yall knowthat