#I guess you could say I'm sad

[zabiume]

i could talk all day about orihime's relationship with violence and still never tire of it. what do you do when you're 12 and your brother dies and he turns into a monster because you didn't grieve him right. he's not the best example for how to use violence correctly, so you look to your crush, who is kind and honorable and as touched by grief as you are, except guess what! he turns into a monster too! so the natural conclusion is that you give up on trying to fight at all because you're a pacifist and it's chill, people in real life are pacifists and it's an okay thing to be EXCEPT. you're a virgo and a perfectionist and being a perfectionist in a shonen means you've got to be Strong and you don't know how to do that because you've always been weak, your best friend and first protector is literally the strongest girl in japan, you've always been in the shadow of people who can just do things effortlessly while you've got to try and fail before you get anything right. also a part of you doesn't WANT to be strong because most displays of strength you've seen have cost the user their Heart, and you don't want to lose yours – you've been on the receiving end of that display way too much, but a part of you dies every time someone you love gets hurt, so you know your place is on the battlefield, you just don't know where. you don't know how. and you try your best to do what you can with it and you succeed because you're good, orihime, you. are. good.

#and then your friends help you get there :) #orihime inoue #i think what rukia says to orihime when she's comforting her after the whole urahara thing captures orihime's arc very neatly #she just hadn't figured out what she could do yet but rukia was confident they could have found that out together #and i'm a little sad they didn't get to do that but HM needed other things to happen for plot reasons #and i'd like to think that rukia's words did strike a chord somewhere since orihime looks up to her a lot& she HAS gotten over this struggle #as evidenced by the general...everything of fb/tybw arcs i guess #quoting rangiku in that last sentence btw.

[good-to-drive]

I totally agree with the general consensus that Ringo provided a lot of emotional support and coolheadedness to the other beatles to the point where they'd have probably killed each other without him but I do also wonder sometimes how much of that is being supernaturally patient and easygoing and how much of it is Ringo just having a tumultuous and isolated childhood where he was never taught to recognize and assert his own emotional needs so he became a blank slate on which others could process their emotions

(And tbh I also wonder how an inability to access or assert his feelings may have contributed to his tendency to process pain by numbing himself and the pretty shitty way he treated women)

#see also: george falling in love with his wife and paul routinely telling him he was easily replaceable #and yet ringo has nothing but warmth for either of these men #and of course I'm not saying we shouldn't appreciate how much patience and kindness that takes! #but also i guess it takes a certain lack of assertiveness or the ability to see/value your own emotions #and that's also something interesting to think about #speaking from experience here a lot of alcoholics want to be numb more than they want to be alive #and if ringo couldnt access his emotions it makes sense his only recourse would be to erase them #but for me it comes from childhood psychosis and i think for him it comes from isolation at a young age and a lack of emotional support #you need your caregivers to teach you what 'sad' is so you can then teach yourself what to do about it #or you may start to cope with that constant feeling of unease and dissatisfaction (that you can never quite grasp) in destructive ways #also his mom started getting him falling down drunk when he was not even twelve years old so tbh the alcoholism was probably inevitable #anyways all this is just to say that the fact that he could absorb pretty much infinite distress CAN definitely be construed as a virtue #but tbh it might also be symptomatic of some painful shit that he needed/deserved help with #ringo starr

[jackredfieldwasmyjacob]

BENIDORM FEST 2024 - PARTICIPANTS

Yesterday (november 11) all 16 participants of Benidorm Fest 2024 were revealed - the songs will be revealed on december 14th. I wanted to make this post talking about all the possible representants of Spain in ESC 2024, as a little intro to them and how their songs might sound like. As always, everything will be below the cut :)

ALMÁCOR

Arturo Almarcha Corella, better known as Almácor (Villena, 26) is an urban artist that started his career in 2019. He has released an EP since then, and has collabed with artists like Henry Mendez or Chimbabala. This year he was nominated in the Best New Urban Artist in the Los 40 Music Awards. His most popular song is DE TO', and his last released song is Pop Tech.

ANGY FERNÁNDEZ

Angy Fernández (Palma, 33) is a LEGEND and our very own emo princess, she's an icon. Her leap to fame was being the runner up in the first edition of Spanish X Factor, in 2007, but she became a phenomenon when she starred in iconic teen drama Física o Química (2008-2011) as Paula Blasco. She also released various albums and songs, like the hit and iconic emo bop Sola en el silencio. After the show she has appeared in various TV programs like Tu Cara Me Suena, and has continued making music as well as acting in theatre, cinema and TV shows. Her last released song is Dualidad.

DELLACRUZ

Jorge de la Cruz Correa, better known as Dellacruz (Santa Cruz de Tenerife) is a Canarian urban pop singer that started his own singing career in 2019 after ample experience as a songwriter; he has written songs for artists such as Sergio Dalma, Xuso Jones, or Dvicio, among many others. His most known song is La Trama, whereas his last released song is Tocamos Cielo.

JORGE GONZÁLEZ

Jorge González González (Madrid, 35) first rose to fame after competing in OT 2006, and he since has been in two Spanish preselections for ESC 2009 and 2014. He has also participated in The Voice and in Tu Cara Me Suena, where he won in the 2020 edition. His most famous song is Por Besarte, and his last released song is Agüita.

LÉRICA

Lérica is a duo composed of Tony Mateo (San Fernando, 29) and Juan Carlos Arauzo formed in 2015 that sings pop infused flamenco and urban music, and have collabed with very big artists like Belinda, Gente de Zona, Abraham Mateo (brother of Tony Mateo), Cali y el Dandee or Juan Magán. They have 14 platinum albums and 9 golden ones, and are right now the most listened to Spanish duo in terms of streams. Their most famous song is Flamenkito, and their latest released song is Un Rato pa Siempre.

MANTRA

Mantra is a pop band made out of Carlos Marco (Alacant, 31), Paula Pérez and Charly Weinberg (Madrid, 25), born in 2020 when the three friends decided to start a project together. All three have been in the music industry for a long time; Carlos Marcos is the most-known of them, as he was part of the boyband Auryn (alongside Spain's representant in ESC 2021, Blas Cantó), who participated in the ESC 2011 preselection. They have an up-beat and positive attitude in their songs, and have released their first album in 2023. Their most popular song is No Te Esperaba, and their latest single is ¿Te Acuerdas o No?.

MARÍA PELÁE

María Peláe (Málaga, 33) is an icon and a flamenco singer known for her witty and ironic lyrics, with a modern spin on traditional sounds. She started her career in 2016 after studying Anthropology and Social Work in university, and so her songs usually have a social message. In fact, in 2023 she was awarded the Rainbow Award by the Ministry of Equality for her work in the LGBTQ+ scene. A song I really recommend of hers regarding this is La Niña, a very fun song about wlws (also the music video is soooo). She has released two albums - the second of which won an Odeón to Best Flamenco Album, and has participated in various TV shows like Tu Cara Me Suena. Her most popular song is Por si te vas, and her latest single is Letra Menúa.

MARLENA

MARLENA is an indie pop duo composed by Ana Legazpi (voice) and Carolina Moyano (guitar) that formed a band in 2017 when they decided to participate in X Factor Italy. They became friends with Damiano and Victoria from Maneskin, and decided to name themselves after one of their songs, Torna a Casa, where the name Marlena appears. They even sing some of Maneskin's song in their concerts. In 2021 they were nominated for Best New Artist or Group in the Los 40 Music Awards, and have collabed with Nil Moliner, La Pegatina or Despistados. I listen to their song bailamorena at least once a week (i wish i was joking), tho their most popular song is Me Sabe Mal. Their latest released song is Red Flags.

MISS CAFFEINA

Miss Caffeina, formed by Alberto Jiménez (voice), Sergio Sastre (guitar and keyboard) and Antonio Poza (bass) is definitely the biggest name this edition. They are a staple in the indie rock scene since their inception in 2006, and are especially staples in music festivals all over the country and abroad. They have realeased three albums and an EP, and their most known song is the modern classic Mira Cómo Vuelo, with over 13 m views on youtube. Their last released single is Para toda la vida.

NEBULOSSA

Nebulossa is an electropop band formed by María Bas (voice) and Mark Dasousa (producer, synths). They debuted in 2021, and define their formula as MPYMS (A lot of Pop and a lot of Synths), basing their music on the sounds an rhythms of the 80s. Their most popular song is GLAM, and their latest song is 1N84.

NOAN

Noan (Zarautz, 25) is a pop-rock indie artist that debuted in 2020. He has collabed with zzoilo or El Sueño de Morfeo, and I personally really enjoy his collab with Paula Koops, Odio que te Quiero. His most popular song is ME MATA(S), and his latest song is Zero (which is a cover btw).

QUIQUE NIZA

Quique Niza (Madrid, 20) is a musical theatre actor who has been performing all of his life; some of his notable roles are Kurt von Trapp in The Sound of Music, and Danny Zuko in Grease (I saw him live here, and he's incredible!). He has also appeared in some TV shows, like UPA Next and Días Mejores. He has only released one song so far, Ardo.

ROGER PADRÓS

Roger Padrós (Polinyà, 26) is a Catalan singer and piano player that first rose to fame as a participant in The Voice. He has since released an EP and an album, with songs both in Spanish and Catalan (he has confirmed his song for Benidorm Fest will be in Catalan). He is also the resident musician of Casa Batlló, in Barcelona. His most popular song is Digue'm, and his latest song is El Buit.

SOFIA COLL

Sofia Coll i Benito (Barcelona, 24) is a singer, actress, and dancer who rose to fame as a participant of The Voice Kids when she was 14, although she didn't release music until 2019, with songs that mixed Spanish and English. She was one of the protagonist of the TV show Bany Compartit (I watched the first episode while writing this, it's really fun and I really recommend it! Episodes are around 10 minutes long, and you can find all of them in RTVE Play and Youtube; they're in catalan, but there's Spanish subs available), and she was one of the dancers in Rosalía's mv for Fucking Money Man. Finally, she participated in the Catalan music contest Eufòria this year, ending up 4th. Her most popular song is Tú Mente y Yo Corazón, and her latest song is Génesis: Alive.

ST. PEDRO

Pedro Hernández, better known as st. Pedro (Santa Cruz de Tenerife) is an urban artist, rising to fame due to The Voice, where he participated in 2017. Through the program he met Juanes, his musical godfather. He has know collabed with Alizzz in Miami, where he lives now. His most known song is Cerca del Sol, and his latest song is No es lo que toca.

YOLY SAA

Yoly Saa (Pontevedra) is a Galician singer-songwriter singing in Spanish that has been making music since 2020, although she has also composed for other artists such as Luz Casal o Malú. She has released an EP and a full album, and participated in Dúos Increíbles in 2022. Her most popular song is Todo contigo, and her latest song is Mal de altura.

#esc 2024 #esc #eurovision #eurovision 2024 #benidorm fest #benidorm fest 2024 #benifest 2024 #benifest #OKAY SO #obviously. everyone who follows me prolly already knows who am i most excited for #maria pelae has always been one of my top artists to represent spain in esc so. yeah. i might be a bit hyped. #and BEFORE YOU SAY SOMETHING ABOUT HOW WE SENT FLAMENCO THIS YEAR. LISTEN. blanca paloma and maria pelae are in completely #different spectrums of flamenco. they have nothing in common #apart from maria. i am so happy to see marlena here !!!! i think they have the opportunity to become the next vicco and i'm here for it !!! #i'm also looking at angy respectfully cause... i did not know she still made rock music. she could be the one for me folks. it all depends #on the song. noam could also throw a banger #or miss caffeina #idk. it all depends on the song i guess. we'll have to wait and see #i am a bit sad that there's only gonna be one song in catalan and that's it. i want to see more languages and benifest and i'm not talking #about english PLEASE

[lunarharp]

wip thing...

of my bg3 avatar hellebore. i also did some casual nude studies of my 3 characters which i'll put under a cut... rather unlike me after all. (so WARNING for abrupt non-sexual full Artistic nudity lol...,,,,) (< won't be making a habit of this)

they mean the world to me

#bg3 spoilers #?? idk. gith look so..Emaciated. And long. i guess we don't eat on the astral plane :) anyway..well..too much to say..... #it is very very very depressing having to live in the Real World after that final playthrough meant so very much to me. #i normally feel Hope & suchlike after finishing a highly immersive emotional game..but it's too hard this time and it hurtsssss lol yippee #i appreciate bg3 very much for being a place where i could access the concept of nudity & such like in a way that finally felt comfortable. #bodies are inherently non-sexual. they just Are a Fact of Life. this game being NORMAL about nudity from the character creation screen #makes it possible for someone like me to actually have a chance at accessing sensuality in a way that feels comfortable from there. #dont feel like putting it into words further. im ace. just very grateful to this game. even despite the horrors i will never ever forget it #augoh..gugf.. want to go back. my friends & love are in there.....i'm supposed to just move on? in the real world??? THIS place???? UHH???? #my characters canonically look like that too!! i see them as intersex and not so much trans. They just look that way. #Diversity win!!! the people who enacted horrors upon you and are trying to kill you again respect your pronouns!!!! <3 #I FAILED HONOUR MODE IN THE STUPIDEST WAY POSSIBLE..ACCIDENTALLY TOUCHED AN ITEM. MY LOVER TOUCHED SOME BLOOD-TOUCHED RAG ITEM @ THE CRECHE #AND MY PEOPLE MASSACRED US... YOU BELOVED PRAT. OF COURSE IT WOULD BE YOU AND IN THIS WAY #grateful for love triangle chaos...INTENSE EX DRAMA... IT HAD MAJOR REPURCUSSIONS THIS TIME...ohh so very much happened ohh my dear #truly don't know how to face the Real World now for real. I Don't Know. something has snapped. ive realised twt just makes me feel sad lol #if something in my spare time isn't at least half as fun as bg3....like.. it's not good enough. god we only have one wild and precious life #being Online makes me feel a loneliness so wretched and painful and horrible i really don't think this is the answer. #Why did you even start drawing in the first place? Why did you start this? #For real..the need to work this out and decide what on earth i'm going to do now has presented itself. Why try to get better..why be online #someone who has an imagination that can keep them so happy and fulfilled...has no business also feeling a loneliness as profound as this. #why was someone THIS introverted and withdrawn and anxious also cursed with such a restlessness? #What are you going to DO now? because hellebore and their lover are fine....... So what about you...? #hellebore..😭😭 AUUGHH!! I JUST WANT TO GO TO MY BED IN THE INN...PLAY ON MY VIOLIN THAT'S WHAT I'D DO!!!! i'd drink some ALE DAMNIT!!!!! #i was rereading My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness- the only time i've seen this level of emotional isolation depicted-and was grateful. #but then i read her latest book and now she has a debilitating substance abuse situation and it's upsetting. #I hope she finds what she was looking for. I hope we all make it. kind of wild that i dont do such major self-sabotage at this point myself #I truly think anyone who manages to find dear friends and achieve fulfillment and happiness with others outside themselves are amazing. #I see it happen from my tower. i hope we all make it. I hope we can make it through everything to come. #Why did i say all this on drawings of my characters naked. ah who even cares any more......

[wariocompany]

im sorry i read the comics when i was 8 and only knew 3 words of French 😭 my dad said they were brothers so i accepted it and enjoyed the cool pictures

THIS IS MAKING ME LOSE MY ENTIRE MIND

#hi de ho #LIKE THE ENTIRE POINT IS THEY COULD NOT BE MORE DIFFERENT IF YIU TRIED #THE ANTITHESIS OF BROTHERS #I guess since they were born at the same time that sort of would make you assume they were twins if you knew nothing about them #But alas. I'm sad to say. The 2'10 guy is not related to the 6'5 (?) guy.

[seonghwasblr-moved]

Sometimes I get sad and annoyed about things that literally don't matter at all lol

#maja talks #(me reading 5 month old tweets saying the copenhagen crowd for ateez was dead) #like no it wasn't and also it's been 5 months why am I sad about those tweets now LMAO #it does make me wonder what the criteria of a “dead” crowd is tho #like someone wrote it was so dead that they could hear the members speaking clearly on their videos #but to me that is just manners? Like it's manners to me that you don't scream when the members are speaking #other people say a crowd is dead when people sit down too much but you can literally be so hyped while sitting down too #other people said the crowd wasn't as loud as other places but i'm pretty sure it one of the smallest crowds of the tour #so what do you expect #people were literally screaming their lungs out when it mattered and sang the songs and stomped(?) on the floor #I guess I just don't understand some people's definitions of a dead crowd #(try going to a concert in Korea then you will meet a dead crowd lol) #again this literally doesn't matter I just got annoyed reading the tweets lmao #again it's been 5 months and the only reason I saw those tweets is because I'm going through a trying to relive the concert phase lol #the members seemed like they had fun (wooyoung even mentioned the concert as one of his faves in an article if I remember correctly) #I had fun with my friends and that's honestly the most important #everybody are inclined to their own opinions #and again this is old news so it really does not matter LMAO #(I still don't think a crowd is dead just cause they let an artist speak and be heard at a concert)

[scarletcomet]

there's really no help for feeling suicidal when you're not in immediate danger

#like i guess im just supposed to wait until i am in immediate danger?? #and even those resources are just to keep you safe. not make you not want to die #what the fuck am i supposed to do #being suicidal but not being in immediate danger really sucks #at least if i was like going to hurt myself in a life threatening way i could potentially die #but no im stuck here all because i dont want my parents to be sad #doesn't seem fair. i didn't ask to be born #i don't know what to do #how long can i feel this way and imagine all these scenarios until i do something about it? #i got really close a few nights while i was still at school #but every method has its downsides #i wish i could just not care about the effects my suicide would have on other people #i really just need to go for it #it's extremely selfish of me to say this but once i'm dead i won't care #i wish i could kill myself tonight #i wake up every morning and have to do another day. sometimes it's not so bad but i still just want to be dead #even while im laughing or snuggling with my bunny or with friends i still want to be dead #i want to kill myself #i think if i had a plan even if i was never going to go through with it i would feel better #like something to fall back onto. or just knowing it was possible #guess it's time to keep working on the pros and cons list of different suicide methods🤡 #someone please help me #people who deserve to live and want to live die all the time but i have to keep living. doesn't seem fair. #the world is a really fucked up place #sorry for not adding trigger warnings. went past 20 tags and im on mobile so i cant move them around #i dont think anyone reads these anyways.

[running-in-the-dark]

it has to be said though, I had a lovely rest of the day after my breakdown this morning. it was very cathartic. painted for like eight hours after that, and had a good time doing it.

#also watched Sad Boyz for... well that entire time tbh #maybe that also helped. probably. Jarvis in particular is always incredibly calming to me. I relate to him so much so it helps when he says #something very eloquent about his feelings or whatever. idk it's just good #big feelings day today I guess #alsooo had a......... long shower... for the first time in a month/since I've been here. if you get what I'm saying. because I'm #uncomfortable saying it lol. anyway that... also helped #removed a lot of the way-too-horny anxiety lol. #annnnnyway no one needs to know that but whatever 💖 #then I rewatched the night court episode with the law club where Dan is really just. selfless. and does something so nice for Christine #man I love that episode #he's my good boy. I could totally fix him and show him that he isn't the worst person on earth. that'd be fun #it'd fix me too tbh #or we could make each other worse 💖 I'd be okay with that too #anyway it's bed/daydream time. so that'll be fun haha #it is very frustrating that I can only realise things about myself and my own life through fictional characters and random guys. but #whatever I'll take what I can get #personal

[bumblingbabooshka]

The sentence “Mark Johnson and T’Pel are here again, sir” becomes every Starfleet admiral’s worst nightmare.

#he and kathryn aren't officially married but Mark calls her his wife playfully anyway #I am firmly on team 'Mark Johnson is a good person and he and Janeway love each other very much' bc it makes the tragedy 10fold #I think after they receive word about Voyager not being destroyed or otherwise lost forever Mark suffers from an extremely guilty conscience #if he'd just been able to believe a little more...hold out a little longer... #Mark: You know near the end I thought you were a little crazy. Still holding out hope. I didn't know how you did it - I still don't. #When they tell you to 'stay strong' they don't tell you how much it hurts. (sad chuckle) but I guess I'm a bit of a coward. I gave her up #for dead. I should have known better. Of course she wouldn't go out that easy. #T'Pel tells him that just because he moved on doesn't mean he's a coward - in fact it takes a certain kind of bravery to do that as well. #Most of the people around her certainly urged her to do the same. She just...couldn't. As long as there was a chance - she couldn't. #She supposes that's also a form of cowardice. #Mark laughs. 'It all depends on how you look at it huh? mm...look at us. Two old fools~' (silence between them as they look up at the sky) #T'Pel and Greskrendtregk are among the very few who didn't give up their lovers for dead #and I don't think he's a grumpy person at all - if anything I'd characterize him as more energetic and a bit frustrated by how #serene Mark and T'Pel are hehe #also in my head Elieth and Varith believe that Tuvok could be alive while Asil and Sek think he's dead and are frustrated by the others #Elieth believes more fervently than Varith does (Varith is more in the middle saying neither possibility has been proven) #it causes a bit of family drama #also by 'started a family' Mark means getting married while T'Pel thinks he means had a baby #God...his name really is 'Mark Johnson' huh. Bathroom sign of a name. The most avergae man in the world. Love ya guy. #Mark - T'Pel - Greskrendtregk <- star trek name spectrum #doodle page #bea art tag #st voyager mark #st voyager mark johnson #t'pel #t'pel art #greskrendtregk

[born-to-lose]

Missing people and regretting shit o'clock

#why did i even let it come this far. 7 fucking months and i didn't realize what was going wrong so i could have saved it #i want him back fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck #was thinking of this notebook i filled for him with memories and poetry and quotes and general mushy things and goddamn #why am i crying i just looked at my desk and i don't have the heart to put everything in a box so i don't see it every day when i wake up #i know i can't change it and it's probably over for good now after i fucked some things up extra hard but fuck do i miss him #i wish i could have done something in time before even the thought of breaking up came up #just when i thought for once things are working out for me and it was really fucking good and happy until a week before it ended #guess i just can't be happy. i never could #i was really really willing to talk things out and fix whatever needs to be fixed while staying together #not go separate ways and maybe not so maybe definitely not possibly maybe see if we can try again in the future #which we (spoiler) apparently won't and i kinda came to terms with that but i still wish there was a possibility #or at least i would have liked to know from the beginning and not spend weeks hoping for a reunion and working towards that specifically #while i seem to be the only one with that goal #idk i just wish it had been more thought through and talked about properly so there wouldn't be the misunderstandings we deal with now #and like boundaries for the first two months or so after that but it takes two i guess #disclaimer i'm not bitter or mad at anyone just sad and nostalgic. if the person in question reads this i love you ok that won't change #deleting later but now i need to go back to sleep before i kill myself on a whim #mel talks #depressed bitch posting #i know i know i know i did some shit too that wasn't great and i'm not saying i'm innocent here i'm just so depressed about the situation #it's been seven goddamn weeks it never took me this long to get over anything before

[dearedwardteach]

I open tumblr just to see your tags 🙏 it’s a highlight of my day

armys don't scare me. i've been on the internet for fifteen years and i used to be a directioner, jungkook fans wish they were as insane as me 👍🏽

#ksjhfjksjhdjksjd ily too #i finally listened to golden btw #(cant believe i wasted 30 minutes of my time on this when i could have been listening to indigo instead but ANYWAYS) #my take is: still not sure how 3d is supposed to be about heterosexual sex and the term champagne confetti still has me rolling on the floo #i guess i kinda like closer to you? but i like major lazer's stuff usually and it's clearly not my fav sound he's ever put out so yk #grasping at straws there #his falsetto in seven is good but that's about it with this song #overall jk's voice when it's not completely overlaid with autotune is nice he's doing what he does best #but his voice is not enough to save the overall mediocrity of the songs #(also bc i guess his voice is the one i like less in the band so ofc it won't hook me like jin's or tae's singing voices might) #(but that's very personal in no way i'm saying he's a bad singer) #standing next to you sounds like a rip off from a michael jackson song so it's not that it's bad necessarily #just that it's... not... original. at all? i mean the song is very representative of the whole album in that way. #it's not that i dislike it necessarily just that it sounds like a cover album more than anything #the only thing i truly hate about golden is that i don't listen to bts to listen to mediocre white men's music and that's all that album is #yes or no is a skip boring as fuck #please don't change is. lyrically and musically underwhelming but i do like his voice? id say it's a white people festival song which. yeah #hate you. white man christmas movie song. skip. #somebody is ewwwww i do not like his voice in it at all and the rest is uninteresting so yk SKIP #too sad to dance. unoriginal literally have nothing to say about it. white man song. skip #shot glass full of tears. once again it's not that it's bad per se. id even say i like it. its just that it sounds like somebody else's son #this is so frustrating!!!! gaaaaaaaah!!! everything about this is frustrating! #id say im disappointed but it's what i expected since seven came out so im not. #overall boring and disappointing i beg u poc artists dont let white men make music for u thanks for coming to my ted talk #raplinenthusiasts #ask #answered #it's not even that golden is horrendous it's just... mediocre. idk what's worse tbh #anyways not tagging all that i might be insane but im not gonna consciously invite the crazy armys in #thank god for rapline huh

[sunfoxfic]

I feel like the cultural concept of the mentor role in fiction has shifted so much in the past fifty years. Where the mentor role used to be an unchallenged archetype of a great character who is not able to be the main character because of circumstances, I feel that more often than not in modern stories, the mentor character is often morally dubious or incompetent. I very much understand why this is on a cultural level - I too am from the generation of people who has been gifted a broken economy by people claiming that they made things great - but sometimes I don't want to see stories about a modern person who has been failed by the people above them. Sometimes I want the mentor figure to be my grandfather, not my grandfather's generation, you know?

#it's just. sad. that this all important figure #an archetype that goes back to the epic of gilgamesh #is being shifted in such an angry way #i'm sure there are plenty of examples of ''good'' mentors in modern literature #but even ''good'' mentors are often assumed sinister by modern audiences #i wish there was more room for unquestionably positive mentor figures in stories i guess #without a grimdark retelling #and i also wish that mentor figures could be complex and not perfect while still being viewed as good #the MOMENT a mentor figure makes ANY mistake they're often unable to make up for that #''they're in a position of authority over the (often young) main character!!1'' the bad faith critic says #''they shouldn't have made that mistake!!'' #one day you too will be in a position of power over a young child #and you will still be human when that day comes #rambles

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

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#I have never been one to go 'boo hoo there is no one My Age to hang out with I am so sad and lonely even tho I am surrounded by perfectly #great people a couple of years younger/older than me' #ageist snobbery has never been a thing I appreciate #however #there is very much something to be said for having people who *are* your age #and I had apparently forgotten how good it is to talk to people who are in your same life stage and Get what you're going thru #who you can talk frankly with who you don't have to couch words and skirt around topics with #because they understand because they are looking out at the world from the same vantage point you currently are and even if neither of you #have the answers #at least you can look out at the world together and not be alone #I miss having people my age to do things with #I wish I could have more conversations (face-to-face) with people who share my age /and/ my beliefs and my interests #lately it feels like I'm lucky to find people where we have just one of those things in common #anyway I am thinking about this now bc I got to have some very good conversations with someone my age all weekend #and I just. had forgotten how much I've missed that I guess. #anyway. I love you @audreythevaliant thank you so much for being my friend <3 #and letting me talk your ears off for many years now lol #gurt says stuff #delete later

[vonaegiremblem]

After a little over 40 hours of gameplay, I beat Okami, and I must say that I get it now. I get why it so frequently appears on people's lists of best singleplayer games. It can genuinely stand shoulder-to-shoulder with the most beloved Zelda games. Being only $20 (and often at least 50% off during sales) on modern platforms, I can firmly say that it's a must-buy game. I would argue that anyone interested in game design should play this game just to learn about mechanic consistency. Every single ability you gain has very specific iconography that the game never breaks. If it needs you to learn a new way to use a technique on anything, it will either tell you or show you.

My only issues with the game are that the opening is way too slow for its own good, some of the field encounters can be a little tedious, and some of the platforming can be awkward. But these complaints are minor compared to just how good the game is. If you bought it and haven't played it, or always heard good things about it but never bought it, or are just really craving a traditional 3D Zelda experience I am telling you to buy it. It's a fantastic, fantastic game

#okami #also the game has a timeless art style. It cannot age poorly in the looks #I will say that outside of a few songs; the music is kind of generic #I ended up getting the best rank on everything except for demon fangs #which I got the worst rank on; though to be fair I never realized there were finishers you could do to get them from enemies #I exclusively used the piss power #I am also kind of sad that there isn't a true postgame #I mean; I'm definitely happy to have a new game plus; but I'm not sure I want to immediately replay the game to see #what I missed out on. I'll probably do that a few years down the line #I guess I can also play okamiden in a bit using my hacked 3DS

[medicinemane]

"DIY tiny home you can build in weeks", ok... now lets see the cost

...seven and a half minutes later, the answer is $75k... so when you include land and all the rest of it, so basically nothing right?

This is my problem with tiny homes stuff, it's for rich people

#and as much as I'm pro home ownership since like... my house is pretty much what's made my life feasible #like I know two things for a fact; we don't have room to give every last person a house #(especially if they're basically one bedroom sized things dotting the land) #and not everyone even wants to own a home #but like... lets say that everyone did want to own a place... we can't even do single family stuff let alone infinite tiny homes #so you'd need to have at least some homes in the form of basically owned units in an apartment complex which... sounds like condos #and so... I legit don't even come close to having the answer for this #but the sad thing is... a commie block kind of beats a tiny home if we're honest I think #not even in some like... brutalist dystopian shoving people together kind of way #like I think I'd rather live in a well maintained commie block style apartment than in one of infinite tiny homes doting the land #I really really really like tiny homes as a concept... but every time you look at them you realize... it's all for rich people #and half of them are just gentrified trailers or closet sized apartments getting dressed up by an architect to up the price #like I'm not even trying to shit on this company cause like I'm for assembly line style home production #especially compared to the cheap shit we throw up now; it makes me with I could puke in anger and disgust at it #they showed clips to contrast with of a home being tossed up and the shit materials they use disgust me #seeing massive... whatever you call those new home blights... communities I guess; springing up they always look like they're made of trash #so yeah... I like this building style better than shitty single family homes 'from the low 300s' #but I think that these people are either doing a sales pitch; missing the big picture; or both when they talk about this #like this can't fix the housing crisis cause... one no one can afford shit even if it's... lets say $175k; that's a lot to ask most people #but two is it won't work long term to just dot a million little houses across the land #cause quite apart from finding all that land; think of all the electric grid and water infrastructure you have to lay #(or are these people expected to be able to afford solar and all that? cause... they ain't poor if they're doing that) #(and I'd kind of like poor people to not be screwed by the housing problems we have; the rich can get bent honestly) #I like living on my own in a tiny town in the middle of nowhere; I wouldn't want someone right next to me #so I'm literally the kind of person people bitching about rural folks is bitching about; so know that's not what I'm saying #but let's be honest... we need better and cheaper urban infrastructure and we need less suburbs and housing communities #and that's where the solution is gonna lie; not in reinventing the single family home (or smaller) #eh... I really really really like tiny homes and think they're neat... but I can't help but see they're rich people play things #...and that's my thoughts on this #it's kind of like how solar is nice and all... but just a few good nuclear plants would be a better solution than solar on every roof

[total-drama-takes]

hello i will be taking a break of unknown length (like. a few days probably. ill have to be back for tti. actually i could have just not said anything. anyway) due to sha-mental health sha-problems i cannot be here rn <3 think of lightning for me

#mod posts #will elaborate somewhat in tags if u are for any reason interested #........................................................................................................................... #its so weird like i was fine and normal a few days ago #but then the most minor of minor things happened #and now my brain is doing a thing it hasnt done much since i was a very mentally ill teenager #i am a grown ass adult what is GOING ON !!! #anyway i may end up deleting this acc who knows #its just i know that i will be sad when someone else takes the url #i guess i could just abandon it #but i think people would be mad at me for keeping the url and not using t #anyway #i'm hoping some time away will make me normal #and if ur reading this thank u for caring #i know i am just some rando in the total drama tag #and recently ive felt like i dont have a place in the fandom at all #like ive just shoved myself in a place i dont belong #i know thats just the hellbrain talking #anyway ANYWAY what i was saying is #thank you for listening to a rando u barely know talk to himself #xoxo gossip girl #i havent even seen gossip girl