#I have my dads location and knew where he was until like 1:20am because he randomly stopped sharing his location with me out of nowhere

[eepyjay]

really wanting a hug or any kind of physical affection/comfort right now

#having a freak out because I havent heard from my parents since like 9pm and it’s almost 6am #I have my dads location and knew where he was until like 1:20am because he randomly stopped sharing his location with me out of nowhere #which is what’s making me freak out the most because why would he do that he’s never done that before and he did it literal as the sat in #our driveway and then left again? I have no idea where they are are I tried not to let my thoughts consume me and just try to ignore it and #think they’re out at a bar or with friends but it’s so late now and all my brain can think is something terrible has happened and I’m just #having a break down over it and I just tried to call my dad and he didn’t answer and I dont want to blow up his phone if he’s just sleeping #but this is just making me stress and freak out thinking they’re fucking dead somewhere and I have no idea about it and like I think my aunt #and uncles car is in our driveway but it also looks like the truck my parents were driving and another one is gone so I dont get it like #if they’re at my uncles why would he turn his location off that the big thing that’s bothering me I feel like he doesn’t even know how to do #that on his own and I’m just having a fucking freak out if you couldn’t tell #there’s fucking something mentally wrong with me this shouldn’t be happening and it’s just adding to my freak out and stress #I just want to be fucking normal and not cry and be so scared over this and now I’m gonna just have to stay up until I hear from them idk #what else to do really and like I want to blow up my dads phone until he answers but also I dont in case he’s sleeping and I #don’t want to wake him up or make him made or anything like that if it’s nothing and I dont want them to know just how much I’m freaking out #because idk how to tell them my brain is just this fucked up and they can’t just do this they can’t just not tell me where they’ve gone #after he’s stopped sharing his location because now my mind is running rampant thinking someone fucking did something to them or there was a #accident or something and I hate this I wish my brain was normal