#I have reevaluated everything

[ganondoodle]

worked a bit more on this piece of concept art but i feel like i need to practice these screenshot-like paintings more q-q

(totk rewritten project)

#ganondoodles #art #zelda #tloz #loz #totk #concept art #ganondoodles rewrites totk #fiddled around with it alot and ended up feeling meh about it #i really need to reevaluate how i paint #i think im approachign that phase of everything looking bad bc your vision has evolved before your physical skill njkdfnvkd #aqlso some of the things that i did like i ended up having to udo bc it got weird when i apllied the blur njkfdnvkdn #how the hell did i manage to almost perfectly type the same keysmash two times in a row #i need to many more refs than i have #this project is getting bigger and bigger ... as these things always do #i hope its worth it

[northern-passage]

one thing i find really difficult about navigating the IF space is the direct line of contact between readers and authors. we share the same space, and i think that plays a big part in this weird blurred line we have in this community and overall lack of boundaries.

for a lot of people this is a fun hobby and while i personally try to keep it... semi-professional most of the time, it's easy to get wrapped up in having fun on tumblr (or the forums, or reddit, wherever it is that you mainly post/interact) and have a lot of personal interactions with both readers and authors alike - which is fun! i like it more often than not, but i also think that's why a lot of comments in this space can end up being really entitled, over-familiar, and inappropriate.

it's no secret that most authors get really weird messages on here, and while this is also a problem on social media at large and not just specific to IF tumblr, it is still definitely a big problem in this community.

and to be clear i'm not saying that you can't be friendly with authors or readers (i've become friends with a handful of readers myself) and i definitely don't mean to imply that there needs to be a huge divide between us; that's silly - again, most authors are readers, most readers are authors, we’re just people on the internet sharing the same space. but all of us deserve to have our boundaries respected. this is my story, and we are strangers. as a general rule of thumb: if you wouldn't say it out loud to someone you just met, you probably shouldn't be saying it to a stranger online. especially anonymously.

#i also think this is why some criticisms get so messy in this space as well #authors should not always be in the same space as the readers/reviewers #and readers shouldnt be able to directly @ authors with their extremely negative reviews esp when it's subjective #(‘’i hate this’’ as opposed to pointing out genuinely harmful content or other criticism) #for everyone's sake #& on a kinda related note: speaking as someone who has been receiving targeted harassment for *checks watch* over two years now #some people really need to reevaluate the way they interact with certain media #i think IF feels very personal due to the interactivity and the customization of the mc #but not everything is written for you. and it's fine to just not like something #without sending weird harassing anonymous messages for 2 years straight to a stranger on the internet. lol #honestly criticism is another can of worms and that's not really what i'm talking about here #but i do think that's also part of the entitlement and overfamiliarity as well #so imo it's connected a little bit. something to think about #at the end of the day my advice to other authors about this is to know your limits and know when you need to extract yourself #and know that you don't have to respond to every ask #especially if it makes you uncomfortable #and im definitely not trying to sound like the authority here this is something i've struggled with as well #like i said it is hard to navigate #and authors can be guilty of this too. wanting to defend yourself or insert yourself into conversations where you shouldn't #i've done that myself #and i've also had other authors i dont know be way overly familiar with me in the past #all of this is just an unfortunate part of online community i think. but im trying to be more mindful about it #anyways. this post brought to you by the weird messages in my and my friends' inboxes lately #i just think you should not be telling authors about pesonal bodily functions in anonymous asks #as an example. lol #personal

[thebookworm0001]

Hi hello queer southerner here:

The word y’all is already inclusive. if I see one of y’all using “y’xll” because you don’t want to associate with the south, I’m smacking you with my cast iron skillet.

You’re not better than us because you’re from a northern/blue state.

#why do I still have a tiktok I regret everything I learn on it #I actually only have a cast iron pot #but I’ll borrow my mother’s skillet for this #some of y’all need to reevaluate how you write off the entirety of the south #because of your preconceived notions of who lives here #yes we have major issues and there are bigoted people here #but y’all ain’t better #you just get to feel superior by saying you should cut florida out of the USA #congrats there are marganlized folks of every stripe in the south #and you’ll fuck them over to feel better about your own situation #and we don’t need bullshit like talking our words and making them ‘inclusive’ by trying to distance them from their origin

[oatbugs]

i feel conflicted abt my relationship...need advice etc . in tags . pls i need input sm

#i love my gf a lot and i think our relationship is doing rly good rn . i miss her a lot bc im in a diff country to her but ill see her #in a few weeks etc. anyway things are good....HOWERVER. i am worried abt . our future #like u are supposed to live in the moment and have fun and be young etc etc but this is like..the fact that its going well #is making me consider how our life paths would go tgth and if it would be fair to stay in a relationship u know wont work forever. like #this was one of the reasons why i felt hesitant at first etc. basically i swore to myself i would only date an academic or at least someone #who like. has. A Thing. that they are working towards that they are rly rly passionate abt. bc i thought it just wouldnt work out otherwise #and it seemed after a while of talking that she IS like that...shes applying for a graphic design degree and she seems to genuinely #love art etc so much and also she is amazing at it. HOWRVER...she hasnt drawn in a while #and is working a min wage job despite meaning to quit for ages...and as far as im aware #she still hasnt made a portfolio...etc etc. but im so confused bc like...shes great and ik she can do it i just dont #understand why she wont. she could also get an internship etc in the relevant field but i still dont get it...and its not my place to be #pushy abt it. like i already suggested these things and asked abt them but i dont want to ask any more bc like. its her choice #what she does w her life etc. but anyway its like...am i being pessimistic/impatient and everything is gonna #go well for her or do i hold genuine concerns. and if the latter/both potentially...is it unfair to be like #hey babe ik things are amazing rn but we have to reevaluate bc idk if in 10 yrs i would be happy w where we are #my friend was like. Break Up W Her from the beginning bc he thinks u shouldn't get into a relationship w smn whom you think will not also #elevate u in some way..and ur life paths dont align etc...but he is genuinely married to his academics like hes sworn off #love so i didnt rly listen bc hes rly extreme w his. love gets in the way of academics. etc #but also his point was valid i think? that you want the person u spend ur life w to elevate you. u want them to challenge you and make you #want to work harder and be better and achieve more and more...and i do want that and i have been trying to be that for them #but A) i can only be that to a reasonable extent for them before it starts being like nagging/being pushy and #B) i feel like if they end up going the way they are rn they can never be that for me. is that bad #like am i a horrible person for thinking this way. obviously i am not casting a moral judgement on her or anyone #for whatever path in life they choose to go down but also is it like...Silly to give up on a perfectly good #relationship bc ur like. as it stands i do not see you walking alongside me in 10 yrs etc #like im lich rally 20 . but what if it DOES end up going rly well and it DOES end up being thr case that we end up staying together #and then im like. feeling discouraged bc my partner in life is just not the kind of person i imagined being w when i was 19 or 20... #like in terms of careers etc. more importantly is this a discussion i should have w her . bc i literally do not know how to raise this #without sounding like a dick but is that bc i...am being a dick? is this a bad thing ?? is this thought not that of a good person ? #it sounds so WEIRD to be like hey babe either u have to start being more ambitious and insane abt ur art or i might break up w you. like :/

[miodiodavinci]

maybe my real issue is just that i am constantly bound by ten million self-obligations and i cannot escape them no matter how i try

#which is to say #as much joy as the thought of just making a belated anniversary gift brings me #it is immediately quashed by 'AAAAAAA WAIT YOU HAVE OTHER THINGS YOU NEED TO DO' #specifically the salvador quality of life update i've been putting off #and the rest of oto hell #and professional outfit shopping #and ID renewals #and the other plp2 cover #and finishing the front sign #and my dice #and so many other little odds and ends i started but need to finish or else they'll swallow me up ksjlfdhgj #the aviutl tutorial i wanted to make . . . . . . #i feel as though i am torn limb from limb #which i guess is a sign that i need to reevaluate which things are actually necessary . . . . . . #and begin culling everything else . . . . . . .

[theood]

Dentist made me feel really bad and felt like I was getting a bad score in going to the dentist and then when he was lecturing me he made me feel really bad and like I didn't ever take care of my teeth and I made the big mistake of eating I had food "all in and over my teeth" and he was just really rude and when I was saying sorry i had eaten like 30 minutes ago he was just still very rude and almost stopped his explanation bc I Didn't Care and Wasn't Getting the point that you Don't Do That before the dentist and I should've brushed so. Feeling great like I know he said he cares about me as a patient but I wasn't feeling it then

#i go back in wicked soon all things considered l-o-l! #that root canal possibly a third (?) and the a reevaluation for my root canal thats still bothering me to where I'm eating on one side of #my mouth #feel like crying (cant) like I did brush and I DO care abt my teeth. I care a lot I brush twice I floss twice I use mouthwash i dont eat 30 #minutes after brushing my teeth. I do everything I can. But. Right. Okay. I don't care about them #elias howls #he also (and i do jot think it was meant to) made me feel bad for taking my little plushie out. im sorry for having unresolved dental trauma #im sorry I've had dentists ignore my comfort and made me fucking sob every single appointment and i had that weird one who followed me and #told me not to run away and i need some item for comfort. sorry for being 20 and a child sorrysorrysorrysorry

[coffeebanana]

i just think that in the middle of pride month it's a little homopobic that the end of my fic won't write itself

#kayla rambles #say something #akjsfdksjd i just finished rereading the chapters i have written for the umpteenth time #and somehow that last one HURT ME and NOW I HAVE TO WRITE THE REST MYSELF IF I WANT TO MAKE MYSELF FEEL BETTER?! #(but also i get to make everything WORSE again first hehehe) #anyway i'm so sorry if i advertised that last chapter as comfort i have since reevaluated 😂 #but it might only be so painful on a personal level cause ajksdj that is absolutely the chapter i put the most of ME into in various ways

[badolmen]

I don’t know who needs to hear this but obsessing over and labeling every aspect of your human experience isn’t healthy or productive or conducive to the human nature of growth and change.

Free blocklist in the notes <3 have you considered that you may be a part of the problem?

#ra speaks #personal #real bean talk #but like. if you want to use labels for everything that’s great - fandom labels/preference labels/etc. are all well and good #IF if they make you feel happy and supported by a community of similar people #BUT if that ‘community’ of ‘similar people’ is so rigid and self canibalizing that you don’t feel like you can drop that label #without risking retaliation…that’s not good or healthy and you need to drop everything and run #I’ve seen it in vegetarian circles and hunting clubs and fitness trainers #I’ve seen it in fandom ship communities. I’ve seen it in sports team fans. if you are genuinely afraid/anxious abt the reactions #‘your people’ will have if you either aren’t constantly hyper vigilant to confront ‘the others’ #or lose interest or change your opinions #thats not a community that’s a culture of fear and violence that’s going to chew you up and shred you to bits because that’s all it knows #sorry I saw some fandom wank on my dash and it was like. oh you people actually treat this silly stuff with extreme paranoia #like a full on dogwhistles and ‘xyz but STEALTH signals’ kinda stuff you normally see for like. terfs and white supremacists. #but for the most vanilla and not that rare shipping pair in a mid tier fandom #this wasn’t some small post either it had 2k+ notes like 👀 have you maybe considered taking a step back and reevaluate your choices #t*rfs if you even look at this I am throwing you in one of those terrifying boat rides they have at carnivals #labels like ‘gender critical’ in your bio mean you ascribe to the predatory label groups I’ve described in my tags #if you bother to read my tags this isn’t about queer labels specifically I didn’t even mention them bc there are already posts abt that #microlabels and other labels are good if they make you feel good but have the choice to not use them or change them if you change #love light and lignification <3

[newdleboy]

just some rambles abt mk's relationships and how far he's willing to go for people he loves - but mostly xing/mk ( tw: mentions of death! )

so like this stems from @fatedefyd and i plotting a death for xingyin and mk just... he does not handle this well at all. literally he will break into the underworld to bring her back and in the midst of this, he's going to pull a wukong and cross his name, xingyin's and all of his friends out of the book of death without a second thought. now, he doesn't TALK to anybody about this before he does it, so he doesn't know what the consequences of this action is going to be. ( but honestly? even if he DID have an idea of the consequences... he'd still do it. )

literally all he's thinking about is bringing xingyin back because the idea of living without her is literally impossible to mk because she means so god damn much to him. and if i'm being totally honest here - this is something he'd do for pretty much any partner he has. because he loves so much and so hard, if he's not called on it, it can become unhealthy.

not necessarily in the way that he'll become manipulative and possessive ( he just wants his partner to be happy, whether they're together or not ) - but if left unchecked, mk will make his s/o his entire life. thankfully!!! he's surrounded by people who aren't going to let him get away with that kinda behavior, so most the time it's alright, he can be normal. as normal as mk can be, obviously.

#ig that's what this can fall under #mk is not The Perfect Guy #but like... he's a Good guy! #he cares for his s/o's very much and loves them w everything #and that can get to be a little much!!! #but ya know.. he does his best #and he'll always make sure they're happy no matter what #if anyone let him get away w it he'd be the 'disappears bc he has a bf/gf' guy #HE'S CLINGY.... SORRY BUT IT'S TRUE!!! #but he does have the capability to learn and grow so #as time goes on in a relationship if he gets to be too much #he can reevaluate his actions and improve #bc overall he is a Good Boy!! and he learns from mistakes #and recognizes if he's called on unhealthy behavior and he'll fix it #anyway i'll stop rambling in the tags #I JUST HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS ABT THIS #☁️ » 𝘐𝘊 ‚ 𝙃𝙀𝙍𝙀 𝘾𝙊𝙈𝙀𝙎 𝙈𝙊𝙉𝙆𝙄𝙀 𝙆𝙄𝘿 ; hc / study.

[drhu0806]

so I just learned that Mark Strong and Stanley Tucci are two completely, separate, distinct people and I never want to hear anyone say that “Asians all look alike” to me ever again when fucking WHITE PEOPLE ARE OUT HERE LIKE THIS LOOKING IDENTICAL

I have the cast of The Devil Wears Prada and the Kingsman movies all mixed up in my brain now and it is not fun

#what does the owl say #what do you MEAN that wasn't stanley tucci faking an english accent????? #i have to reevaluate everything now!!!!

[xxlelaxx]

Yesterday I was panicking. Today I might have a mid wife, managed to make appointments and the guy from our wish apartment, wants to talk cause he changed his mind!

#ignore me #honestly if all of this works out and we get the baby courses i will cry #next step (later today) is finding good maternity clothes and hopefully also getting them soon! #cause i refuse to buy them first hand #seems like a waste of money #also reevaluating our what to buy for the baby list #we also might need to get the stroller far earlier then i wanted to cause i found one we both really like #also my parents wanna help us and pay but I've never felt so bad about getting money from someone #and we might be able to save more which means we wont use up all our saving in the next month #god i hope so much that we figure all of this out and we manage everything a #cause then the baby will have a better start and i wanna give this baby the best start in the world #yesterday we heard its heartbeat and gods the way we looked at each other i swear it felt like everything was perfect for a second #we both had tears in our eyes and the babys heartbeat was so fast and they started moving again! #i cant wait to really feel the kicks and to always know they are okay #i only have been feeling little ones and I'm not sure if it is really kicks but yeah

[mattynmarns]

hey so

#ive taken some time to reflect on everything and I'm still going to be dream posting #less than usual but i think im going to be posting everything less than usual #ive talked with trusted irl people and ive reflected on people/celebrities that i continue to support who have done the same or worse thing #and ive come to the conclusion that based on what we've seen of dream's character and what his irl friends say of his character #that a) theres no way he'd do something like this again and b) we've actually seen no real proof of anything #but yeah im trying to step back from sm in general #because ive realized the conclusions i made prev about this situation wouldn't be what I would've made without the influence of The Dash #i need to remember that theres a life outside of tumblr so I'm stepping back from it #not stepping away but ill stay logged out and i already don't have the app #so now ill only check it occasionally like once a day maybe rather than have it be my social crutch #personally i cant condemn someone without any evidence and there wasn't anything i found unforgivable or criminal about the SHOWN messages #however if other evidence comes out ill stand back and reevaluate #but yeah if you want to unfollow block or whatever i understand #ill still be posting dream but he's going to be tagged #but i think this situation has been drawn out of proportion for all we know right now (ex. the words that have been used) #and i think ultimately dream has done more proven good than proven harm and that's a factor for me personally #and i also want to add that the anti-men posting that I've seen lately fucking sucks. like that's terf rhetoric #and as a trans man i dont think that's very epic 🥴 #and i want to add that if you are choosing not to support him that that's cool with me like i honestly dgaf #butttttt i come here to relax from my real adult life that already stresses me out #so im only going to follow people that don't stress me out #so yeah #just wanted to update yall on where i stand #im finally becoming a normie 😔😭 #tumblr has been an addiction so im finally cutting myself off o7

[scionshtola]

re: the veyer make out (again). i do think it would be kinda funny if mirren was trying to be a little vindictive after the fight but then halfway through simply did not have the heart

#you tried! #atm i think of it as like she’s just caught up in the moment and in veyer being kind and showing interest #and in being upset with aeran for what he said and in everything else that happened that she just like does it and then realizes #it’s not what she wants #and all of that can still be true but what if i made her mean about it ahshsjsj #BECAUSE. i have always thought of her as like very hard to make Truly mad but when you do. she gets mean. #but idk i’m just thinking out loud…peppering in unhealthy moments in their relationship for fun #(also this is bc once azia said that effie was not being vindictive re: veyer and i’ve been reevaluating mir since then ahdhjd) #i need a text post tag #had to get this out so i could work!!

[theroundbartable]

Anxiety be like: don't tell them you feel bad, it will make them feel bad too!

Me at my friends: so guys, I feel kinda off today. But it's like... Not valid. *Proceeds to tell reasons for feeling bad and keeps asking if whatever I say or said sounds weird or mean and trying to adjust to their responses because part of my anxiety makes me feel like everything i say hurts people.*

My anxiety: are you fucking -

Me: they feel less bad when they know I trust them enough to tell them. Also I can't do better if I keep guessing based on their reactions rather than what they really think. You are being ridiculous, mate.

My anxiety:......

How about you'll be super aware of every wrong word you say today? Huh? Would you like that? Be aware of your tone, young man! Be aware of EVERYTHING!

me: girl, shut up. You were gonna do that anyway.

#me #anxiety #i don't do well with changes #new people in a friend group means i have to reevaluate my place and personality #so anxiety strikes back #just feeling strange today #yes i address myself as young man girl and mate and dude and whatever #because everything sounds like a vibe #but also wrong #but also not wrong

[dorkylittleweirdo]

You ever realize that you took a job thinking that you wanted to do that since it was similar enough to something you loved only to find that you actually just want to do that job you loved and not a substitute for it

#basically i stopped by my old camp like i do every summer #and i said hi to my old boss and coworkers and it was v nice #and I'm just looking back on it all like yeah that's what i wanna do #i loved being a camp counselor there it was the best #so i took my job thinking i wanted to teach and work with kids #and i do i love that #but i want to do it at that specific camp #also side note i was very well known at camp when i went #i was there for eight years and had a great rep with the other campers and all the supervisors and workers #so my old boss was immediately like 'you should work here next summer imma send you the info' #and like #god it brought everything back #it was my dream job for so many years #planned every post high school moment around working there #the pandemic just forced me to reevaluate my course of action so i adapted but now i mean what's stopping me #i have so much to think about lmao

[yawn-emoji]

insane that having one (1) fight w a close friend can make u reevaluate years of friendship

#beefed w a bestie a couple weeks ago and now everything she says and does makes my blood boil #even though on paper she apologized and i accepted her apology… im still like. literally seething when she texts #my therapist told me i might need to reevaluate the friendship and that scared me. she could be right though #what we have rn is not working. she literally does not know how to support me rn and it’s causing unnecessary stress for me #idk. i guess i dont need to go to every friend for everything and like. if she cant handle my reality rn then i simply will not talk to her #abt this specific situation at all and instead go to others for that #its a very scary feeling though ☹️ #journal