#I have so many thoughts

[hannigramislife]

"Oh, the abuse cycle in bsd–"

Yes, let's talk about the abuse cycle in Bsd. Let's talk about what people don't seem to mention, ever.

Mori. Dazai. Akutagawa. Kyouka.

Though nothing is certain about what the relationship between Mori and Dazai was really like, there is a clear difference between these relationships.

Mori is appreciative of Dazai. Much as he is scared of him, Mori would take Dazai back to the Mafia in a heartbeat. From the flashbacks, we could see that Dazai and Mori had relatively easy talks, Mori confided in him, was always honest, and 15 year old Dazai seemed to talk freely with him. The abuse is, far as we know, emotional manipulation on a great scale.

Akutagawa was probably violent with Kyouka, just as Dazai was with him, though I suppose at a lesser scale (i don't think he ever shot bullets at her, for example). One thing that we do notice, though, is that Akutagawa never talks down to her? He acknowledged her strength and gave her the same reason to live that he believed in himself. Then, he also acknowledges her growth, is actually happy for her happiness, and in Dead Apple, even suggests for her to kill him when he's at his weakest. There's also a lack of emotional dependence— unlike his own case, Akutagawa did not mold her to depend on his approval. And when she sees him, she has a less severe reaction than she did when she saw Mori, for example.

And then, you have Akutagawa and Dazai. And this is what really pisses me off. Because not only is Dazai both emotionally and physically abusive to Akutagawa, he continues to keep his hold on Akutagawa even after he has become a "good guy." He keeps Akutagawa tethered to him, manipulates him in dangerous situations Akutagawa has no business being in, and purposely plays into the boy's trauma bond to him to use him. All while giving everything to a random orphan he met on the streets that - objectively speaking - is no better than Akutagawa?

This is my personal view on their relationships, and I haven't read any light novels but Beast, so there might be information I'm missing.

But no amount of context can change the fact - and I mean fact - that Dazai had absolutely zero excuse to do what he did to Akutagawa. While in the Mafia or after it. Because the guy with an IQ of a billion, who was himself saved and shown kindness by another in his darkest times should have fucking known better.

#bsd #bungo stray dogs #bsd abuse cycle #bsd dazai #bsd akutagawa #bsd kyouka #bsd mori #dazai osamu #akutagawa ryuunosuke #kyouka izumi #mori ougai #atsushi nakajima #i have so many thoughts #and feeling #about this #every time i see someone use “abused becomes the abuser” thing #i feel like they're not thinking about it in terms of the circumstances these ppl were in #idk might be just me #but while you can't compare abuse and pain #you can certainly tell the difference here #one of these things is NOT like the others

[whosthere54]

Can we talk about the How did you love? CMV because *Various screaming noises*

#fable smp #i have so many thoughts #cmv #screaming crying sobbing dying #icarus morningstar #rae morningstar #isla morningstar #fable

[brattysuki]

where are all the latina paige bueckers stans at, I wanna write hcs but idk if there’s an audience for that 😔

#imagine her going crazy at a peso pluma concert?? #I just know homegirl LOVES la plebada #or if you like reggaeton? #I have so many thoughts #paige bueckers #💥 — cb talks

[follow-the-ghostlight]

The way I have studied this musical since 2016 and have made it one of my longest standing hyperfixations is worrying, because I swear on my rare musical merch I have so many opinions and so many words. I love this musical so much that I plan to audition for a show a company 2 hours away from me is putting on. That is the closest I have ever gotten to being in or seeing this musical.

I have also convinced myself that the musical imploded cause of horrible casting decisions, because, like, HOW CAN YOU GO FROM MULTIPLE AWARDS AND BREAKING RECORDS TO NOW NOBODY’S EVER HEARD OF IT. More people have heard of WAY more niche musicals and it’s baffling to me. WHY oh WHYYY did they have to make the TV special that ALL OF AMERICA COULD SEE be the one with Hasselhoff. Why. Why did he have to be the one. To be frank, he sucks ass as this lead. Like, he’s maybe ok at singing, his acting is cheesy and hammy, and he is just absolutely not fit for that role at all. He’d do fine in an ensemble, but not the lead. He cannot bounce between tenor and baritone effectively, he does not sound or look like a different person when he “changes”, unlike Cuccioli and Warlow, his vibrato is out of control… I could keep going, but I won’t unless someone wants to hear it in dm or something lol.

And with the revival??? Why did they have to change the aesthetic??? Why did they have to make it over sexualized AND steampunk?? IT’S A GOTHIC MUSICAL!! IT IS NOT A PUNK ROCK CONCERT!! IT IS IN THE EXTENDED TITLE!!! I could go on forever about this. I am so mentally ill. I wrote a 4000+ word, 10-page, cited paper for fun about how it could be properly revived for broadway and although some of my thoughts and ideas have changed, I will definitely die on quite a few hills with the opinions I have. I’ll likely rewrite that paper over the summer or even make a video on YT discussing it, cause I wanted to make a Jekyll & Hyde iceberg video anyway. In any case, thanks for listening to my TED talk.

#rant post #musical theatre #broadway #jekyll and hyde #jekyll and hyde musical #robert cuccioli #jekkie #musicals #musical review #someone properly revive jekyll and hyde please #or else I will #i have so many thoughts

[milchreste]

#dungeon meshi #laishuro #thank you for the tag #ever since the hug they were in the back of my mind #idk idk #I have so many thoughts #this made sense in my head #one of the similarities of falin and Laios that Shuro would fall for #being a (kind) healer #sorry it’s so sketchy #no patience anymore how do I get patience

[echosbento]

Normally when the bats had to work with the Justice League, Jason was left out of it. He was violent in a way they didn't approve of, and didn't exactly like mincing his words. But this time, apparently they were working with someone from a more violent culture, and they thought Jason could bridge the gap.

The Ghost King they called him, or just the Phantom. Apparently he was the resident hero of the afterlife itself and the ghosts currently terrorizing New Jersey, New York, and Ohio were his jurisdiction. But they were clearly targeting Justice League affiliated locations, so the idiots in spandex wanted to work together. And in ghost culture, physical violence is a show of respect or even a form of affection, so Jason had been called in. A few years ago they probably would have called in Damian, but the kid was currently having a morality crisis as he realized he wasn't as okay with murder as he thought. Fair, Jason guessed. He'd done pretty much the exact opposite after all.

"So did you guys actually establish contact with this Phantom guy, or did you just leave a note and expect him to follow it?" Jason gave the idiots a Look, because it really wouldn't be the first time it was the latter.

"We established contact Hood, gods just wait like thirty seconds." Fuck these moral high-ground types were the fucking worst.

"We've been waiting here for two hours, I have a right to be a bit snippy." Of course, as though to mock Jason specifically, a glowing green portal opened up as soon as he'd spoken. And out walked, wait-

"Danny?!"

"Jason?!"

Jason's twin brother.

#i have so many thoughts #and no braincells to articulate them #ghost twins au #batman #jason todd #danny fenton #dc x dp #danny phantom

[lavarad1o]

minor obsession doodles

#finn draws trash #art #doodle #voltron #keith kogane #keith voltron #i have so many thoughts #the animators with the mamora suit okk

[savagegood]

welcome to the nhl bottom training camp. i mean biosteel training camp. i mean. i. i mean.

#the h in nhl stands for hole #I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS #THEY ARE OVERFLOWING #I AM JUST. THINKING SO MUCH. #love men dedicated to the pursuit of limbering up their bodies while eyeing other men limbering up THEIR bodies #i had to add the insta comment that took me OUT #hockey #connor mcdavid #leon draisaitl #connor bedard #edmonton oilers #nhl #sports

[number-one-momfriend]

#i have so many thoughts #i'll finish it eventually #writing memes #writer problems

[fuckyou-saidtheraven]

Bruh the fact that you can feel Morpheus’ anger through the screen. You can see him tremble with rage as his voice becomes cold hard steel. We already knew Neil was right about what he said about Tom’s gravitas, but that scene was on a whole other level. Even I was terrified, Jesus Christ.

And you contrast that with how gentle he is with Calliope. How upset and terrified he is for her. How he actually begs her to accept his help, because he cannot bear to see her in this situation a second longer. How scared he is she’ll refuse out of pride as he did, because he’s been there and he knows the regret that comes after, and because he sees her imprisonment as so much worse than his. Because he knows Calliope, and it horrifies him that something like this has happened to her.

And at the end, you can really tell how part of him still loves her, and regrets so much about what has happened between them. Because like all his lovers, he’s given her a piece of his heart, and that will never change as the millennia go by. And for chrissake, their relationship lasted long enough for him to marry her, to father a son with her. To raise him and watch him grow up and be there with her and the rest of the Endless on Orpheus’ wedding day. And for Morpheus, even after thousands of years of bitterness and sorrow and regret, to come to her aid and demand she be freed, and to tremble even as she talks of forgiveness and presses her forehead to his cheek.

#original post #fandom #the sandman #the sandman netflix #i am perfectly normal after watching the bonus ep i swear #i have so many Thoughts #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #the sandman spoilers #sandman spoilers #dream of the endless #calliope sandman #tom sturridge #character analysis #quoth the raven

[crybaby-bkg]

just saw a video of this girl saying she had her first make out session with this guy and he came so hard that it soaked through not only his jeans, but hers too and may I just say. choso. may I say it.

#i have so many thoughts #but so little energy rn #this cold is kicking my ass BUT THIS IDEA!!!!!! #I’m so in love with him it hurts gelp #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #I keep saying I’ll return which isn’t a lie #it just might not be for a while Aldjdkfj

[arrowsperpetualcringe]

HOT TAKE.... They'd be cute :]

#Dina being Ceroba's shoulder to lean on when she doesn't think anyone else will understand ✋🏾 #Ceroba having no idea how to flirt/not recognizing when people are flirting with her #Dina being okay with her feelings not being reciprocated as long as she can help by listening to her when she needs it. #the two having heart to hearts with Ceroba being the last customer in the saloon #i have so many thoughts #undertale #undertale yellow #utdr #uty #ceroba #ceroba uty #dina #dina uty #ceroba x dina #cerdina #dinroba #??? #I'm sorry i am NOT calling them beer yuri 😭😭😭 #I ALMOST FORGOT TO TAG STARLO #starlo #starlo uty #my art #sketch

[oakt733]

needles has the potential to be a genuine tragic character, someone (something?) who craves affection but is cursed to hurt anyone they touch, they can’t hold delicate things like balloons or paper because they pop or tear, maybe it hurts them if they move in certain ways. how log have they been Needles? did they grow up unable to play with other kids because of something they can’t control? did they seek love but was only met with rejection?

instead they are a cringefail loser

#tma #the magnus archives #tmagp #the magnus protocol #tma shitpost #tmagp needles #i hope they are a reoccurring character i love them #needles my beloved #the magnus institute #tmagp spoilers #i have so many thoughts

[shinbine]

When Ahsoka tells Shin to surrender her weapon and says she can “help her”, Shin looks… scared, more so than anything else. She doesn’t try and attack anymore, granted she was outnumbered… she just runs. We also notice that Sabine is the only one who goes to run after her…I feel like this is definitely foreshadowing to something… and I hope it’s her redemption arc.

#I have so many thoughts #I need to get them out throughout this week #one more episode y’all #star wars #sabine wren #shin hati #sabinewren #sabine x shin #sabineshin #shin x sabine #sabine wren x shin hati #shinbine #wolfwren #ahsoka #ahsoka tv #ahsoka show #ahsoka spoilers #wrenwolf

[sadgirlbadpoems]

I think that the Supernatural fandom doesn't give Dean Winchester enough credit or hold John Winchester accountable nearly enough. I would argue that John's abuse (mental, emotional and physical) and its constant effect in both boys lives is constantly downplayed by a majority of the fanbase.

The parentification of an elder sibling has been proven to cause lasting issues and we see this throughout the show; when Dean is overly protective of Sam, treats Sam's life as more valuable than his own, can't picture a life where he's not needed, and his dismissal of Sam as a valuable contributor in an equal partnership. Dean is often criticized both in canon and by fans for being overbearing and codependent on Sam. This is a direct result of John Winchester's inability to parent.

Dean's emotional repression is shown to be caused by his father's militant behaviors and approach to parenting. Dean doesn't see his feelings as valid or important and thus turns to repression or unhealthy coping mechanisms as illustrated throughout the show. His alcoholism, violent outbursts, and unhealthy relationship with sex are all coping mechanisms he uses not to feel.

Through flashbacks (and some dialog) the viewer is show that Sam is more resentful towards John than Dean, and that he even holds resentment towards Dean for being the "perfect little soldier".

That's part of the reason Castiel is such a great foil for Dean, both are loyal to absent fathers' but while Dean was born with free will he follows his father's orders unwaveringly until sometime after his death, Cass a being created without free will breaks free of the command of his father and from his father's mission, becoming for all intents and purposes a Prodigal son like Sam.

Dean's adherence to his father's word is, much like Sam's rebellion a response to continued and repeated abuse, neither brother is perfect. And their father was the furthest thing from it.

#supernatural #dean winchester #sam winchester #john winchester #john winchester bashing #cw alcohol #tw abuse #cw sex mention #am i really talking about this in 2024 #spn #castiel #dean deserved better #sam did too #parentified child #sorry for the rant #i have so many thoughts #and feelings

[creatorping]

Chaotic Trio!! ☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆

There isn’t much exploration in kp friendships so let me dive into that

#kim possible #yori #monique #digital illustration #THE GIRLSSSSS #i have so many thoughts #they would have the best hangouts