#I haven’t stopped thinking about this tbh

[eyelessfaces]

uncalled for

summary: you get quite upset when poe "saves" your assigned mission by giving orders to your teams without consulting you; poe is determined to fix his mistake.

warnings: (public) arguing, talks of the future; family and having kids

tags: gn!reader, angst, being parents to bb8, fluff, this ends up being real sweet tbh

word count: 1.7k

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(uh yeah I'm back if you even noticed I was gone lol. I might just post this and disappear again for a little longer idk but anyways I'll explain the reason whenever I'm back for good; I'm okay don't worry, and I'm still gonna post fics don't worry it's nothing too serious fr)

It causes a disruption when you both barge into the hangar; despite the constant clattering and whirring of tools and material there, both your bitter shoutings have been overlapping the sounds ever since Poe started following you closely, right from the moment you hastily jumped out of your x wing to try to forget about the awful management of your mission that would probably cost you to never get to lead one again. 

“It was my call, not yours” you affirm bitterly, voice dripping with resentment, your steps heavy and hurried as you try to shake Poe off but he is anything if not persevering, so it only manages to piss you off even more and fuel your frustration. “I didn’t need you to save my mission or whatever,” you exclaim, causing heads to turn as you walk across the large room, barely minding what is going on around you. 

“I did because I knew it would work!” Poe tries to explain, still heeling you closely. “I wouldn’t have done it if I wasn’t sure it would be successful” he declares louder than he needs to, thrown off when you suddenly stop in your steps, turning to him.

“So you think you can make decisions for me? You think I can’t do it, can’t command a mission correctly?” you rhetorically ask, revolted, sighing a profanity under your breath before you storm off again, your steps resonating with frustration. Poe sighs and winces before he follows you again, taking a hold of your arm.

“Babe come on you know that’s not–”

You stop again, your patience running short. “You had no right to encroach on my orders, I knew what I had to do, and you stepping in with your own instructions could have blown the whole mission up!” you call out, pressing a finger to his chest. 

It’s when you finally take a moment to take a look at his face that you realize it, what is going on; you are being the center of attention, the little show everyone stopped their current task to sit and watch, your every word carefully awaited by your unwanted audience. 

You sigh softly, taking a moment to step back from the situation. “Now leave me alone before we embarrass ourselves further or before I tell you things I don’t really mean just because I’m angry and don’t wanna talk to you” you hiss softly before leaving Poe in the middle of the busy room where he watches you walk away, helplessly standing there. 

When he looks around him, most people turn away and avert their gazes to pretend they haven’t witnessed anything, and Poe is well too aware of the tension still lingering in the air even as you exit the room.

When Jessika climbs down from her ladder after watching the scene from her cockpit, BB-8 rolls over to her and chirps sadly, having observed yours and Poe’s argument from afar just like most of the hangar after his master went running after you. She kneels down to the droid’s level, giving him a sympathetic smile.

“That’s gonna be fine Beebs, they always end up figuring it out somehow” she affirms as the droid’s upper part sinks in distress accompanied by saddened beeps. Jessika can’t help but smile fondly at him and his obvious concern, at the fact that he quite literally acts like you are his parents.

—

A few hours have passed when Poe joins you again; you don't notice him at first, having made sure to get focused enough on your paperwork to forget about the whole situation and try to ease the frustration within you. It's only when you put your datapad down that you see him leaning against the door frame.

“You're so pretty when you're focused” he smiles gently when your eyes meet his figure, causing you to roll your eyes and reluctantly smile at his words despite your lingering frustration. 

“I’m still mad at you,” you sigh softly as you try to hide your slight smirk, gaze darting back down to enter numbers into your datapad.

He acknowledges your feelings with a nod, his lips pressed together in a tight line. “I know.” he admits, stepping into the room. “That’s why I’m here” You look back up at him, taking a deep breath as you set your datapad aside; despite the fact that everything he did since you wrapped your mission up got on your nerves, deep down you only wish for this to situation to get figured out and eventually be behind the both of you. You join him in front of your desk, leaning against it.

“I knew what I was doing. I was handling it” you affirm before he even gets the chance to do so much as open his mouth.

He holds a hand up to slow you down. “I know,” he nods understandingly. “I shouldn’t have redirected the plan, I should have trusted you. I was just afraid things would go wrong considering how it was all starting to go down so quickly” he explains. “I know I could have fucked it all up, everything you put in place so the mission could go right” you slightly tilt your head to the side in agreement. 

“And I know my move was probably a lot more dangerous than the plan you had in mind to make everything right but you know I would never put you or our teams in danger, only myself” he declares with a concerned nod, causing your expression to soften. “You, never. I would never risk it, no matter what” there’s a soft frown over his face as his eyes flicker with sincerity, his confession making your heart ache as it hangs in the air before he talks again. “And I never doubted your ability to command a mission.” 

You nod with a heavy sigh, acknowledging his apology. “I should apologize too. I shouldn't have lashed out on you like that either.” you admit and nod sheepishly, reflecting on your impulsive behavior. “I really wanted this mission to go right”

“For what it’s worth,” he starts with a small smile, trying to dissimulate a bigger one. “I talked about it with Leia and she thinks you did pretty good” his declaration doesn’t fail to draw an appreciative smile from you, one that makes him mirror your action. “And she thinks we would work great together”

“And I agree,” you reply, finally feeling a weight lift off your shoulders as the tension between you begins to dissipate. “We do make a good team.”

Poe’s smile widens, relieved to see you loosen up a bit. “Yeah, we do” he agrees with a small huff, stepping closer to you. “I just hate seeing you so worked up.”

You chuckle softly, shaking your head. “I hate getting worked up,” you scoff. 

“I’ll try to think about it twice next time,” Poe promises, reaching out to gently take your hand in his. “I don’t want to step on your toes or make you feel like I don’t trust you or your judgment.”

Your fingers intertwine with his, the warmth of his touch calming you further. “Well I’ll try not to snap at you,” you promise in return, giving his hand a reassuring squeeze as you let your head rest against his chest with a small, barely audible sigh. “Especially not in front of everyone,” you mutter, earning an amused chuckle from him. You melt into his touch as he leans to press a gentle kiss over your forehead, his hand that is not holding yours coming to wrap around you.

It is only after you pull away from his embrace and leave a chaste kiss to his lips that the corner of your eye notices a sort of spy in the corner of the door frame.

“What’s he doing here” 

Poe frowns before he turns around, huffing out a laugh when he notices BB-8 peeking out the door. “How long have you been here?” he jokingly scolds his droid that fully reveals himself now that he has been caught. “You know he doesn’t like when we fight” he softly sighs turning back to you, a mix of amusement and concern in his eyes before he looks at BB rolling over the both of you.

You shake your head, unable to suppress your smile at BB-8’s presence. “Very sweet of him to be looking out for us,” you start, reaching out to pat the droid’s dome affectionately. “But maybe he should learn not to eavesdrop.”

BB-8 chirps playfully, obviously pleased with the attention, seemingly eager to be a part of the reconciliation.

Poe chuckles, kneeling down to scratch behind BB-8’s sensor with a fond smile. “Yeah, yeah, we’ll work on that,” he says before glancing back at you with a soft smile. “He's our kid, he’s been worried sick about us, weren't you?” he turns to BB, who's beeping frantically in agreement.

You glance at him, then back at Poe, a softness settling in your chest at the sight of them together, your little family. “Our first kid, yeah” you smile softly, heart fluttering inside your chest.

“First? Meaning there's gonna be more?” Poe asks with a playful smile, getting back on his feet. He raises his eyebrows as he awaits your response, and you both laugh at the sudden change of atmosphere as Poe wraps a hand around you before pressing a kiss to your temple.

You huff out a laugh at his quick jump to conclusion, “I don't know, you're a pretty good dad to this one,” you shrug.

“A couple hours ago I was dead to you and now we're talking having kids” he laughs into your hair, a teasing tone in his voice. 

“You weren’t even close to being dead to me, you’re so dramatic Poe” you declare with a small scoff, poking his chest lightly. “That’s the reason Beebs loves you so much” you tease, making him huff out a laugh. “I’d say we should focus on surviving one parenting experience first,” you chuckle looking down at BB-8, nudging Poe playfully. “But who knows what the future holds?”

Poe grins, his eyes sparkling with excitement as his arm grasps tighter around his hold on you. “As long as I have you by my side, I'm up for anything babe.”

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[dislocatedwishbone]

Hannibal, Dolce (screenshot via @rocktheholygrail) / Ethel Cain, Two Children in a Motel Bed / Yellowjackets, Edible Complex / Innokenty Annensky, Petersburg, tr. Lubov Yakovleva with Daniel Weissbort

#tbh I haven’t stopped thinking about the shaunajackie/hannigram parallels since the ear #alt text available #sorry in advance for the slew of tags incoming #web weaving #my webs #yellowjackets #yellowjackets spoilers #shaunajackie #Hannibal #hannigram #ethel cain #shauna shipman #jackie taylor #shauna x jackie #hannibal lecter #will graham #russian literature #compilation #comparative

[kissmefriendly]

It’s really kinda sad painful and interesting that the Captain’s death is one of the few where we don’t see him become a ghost. We almost expect it but the final shot of that scene is just him laying lifeless on the floor (and I suppose there there’s some mirroring between his and Kitty’s death, especially through the cinematography). How horrific must that have been when he did become a ghost? To be able to see Havers and trying to reach out to him, trying to get through to him only for Havers to never know he was still there, alone. Having to listen to all the nasty comments made by the other officers. To watch Havers leave the house for a second time, unable to get his attention or say goodbye.

#I find it interesting and very sad that Kitty and the Cap are just shown lying there completely lifeless #and we EXPECT them to become ghosts like with Humphrey Julian or Thomas #but they both just lie there #even the cinematography with the placement of Eleanor and Havers and the overhead camera just… #these both hit me so hard #especially considering their almost father-daughter relationship later on #I just have alot of feelings about this choice #I’m kind of tired and in some pain so my head is woozy #no idea if I’m making any sense but that choice really struck me #bbc ghosts #bbc ghosts spoilers #i might elaborate #but I haven’t stopped thinking about it tbh #I wanna go into more depth about Kitty and the Cap’s deaths as mirrors but uhhh brain is slow and stupid rn

[the-bi-space-ace]

Sometimes people are going to leave mean comments on your fics. It’s not a fun thing to experience. It’s not nice, it’s not funny. It hurts and I’m not afraid to admit that. But for every mean spirited comment there are ten good ones. For every person who tried to make me feel silly or stupid for my writing or my choices there were ten more leaving sweet messages and emojis and trying to pour positive energy into the world.

So it hurts. It hurts and it’s hard and it makes me feel like a failure on my worst days. But seeing all the positive things, the kind words, the excitement, the joy. That makes it better. That makes it something worth continuing.

So if you’ve ever thought your kind words don’t matter or that your heart emojis and exclamation points don’t make an impact please know that they do. Every heart and smiley face and keyboard smash and comment makes my world a little lighter.

#fandom stuff #the bad batch fanfiction #not everyone is going to like what I write and that’s totally fine #I’m just forever grateful that so many people are so kind #this world can be cruel but you aren’t #and I think that matters #this is really just about my overall experience writing and posting fic tbh #overall people have been kind there are people who haven’t been #your kindness outweighs the negativity in my opinion #wow I am REALLY WEEPY this morning huh? #something has come over me and I can’t stop 🫠

[luvr1723]

i am once again thinking about julian fromme

for @micahnemerever ; thank you for your service to the queer literary world 🫡🩷 Apres toi; le deluge.

#julian fromme #paul fleischer #paul and julian are sooo hozier lyrics coded tbh #i can’t stop thinking about those tragic little gay men #i haven’t been the same since #micah nemerever #datvd #these violent delights #these violent delights micah nemerever #these violent delights the gay one #pauljulian #Spotify

[bloompompom]

thoughts on cabin eren's neck please 🎤🎤🎤

and i would climb him like a tree too 😌

#bloom’s buds 🌱 #i haven’t stopped thinking about cabin eren tbh #making me act up and want to write fluff for once

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

the reason i’m not afraid of aging is because i want to be a hot middle-aged man who has a toxic yaoi relationship with another middle-aged man

#u know i used to be so afraid of aging until i realized that i want to be a dilf. now it’s kinda exciting #i realized recently that i could never picture myself living past my twenties until i pictured myself as a man #but like. i want to be a man and a woman and nothing and everything #but like. i’m cool with how i look now for the most part idk if i would want to transition physically at least not rn #and rn i still dress fem enough that everyone goes straight to she/her #and i like she/her but it hurts rn #bc some of my family has switched to they/them or it/its and it’s just so soothing #but family that knows i don’t like it still use she/her and phrases like ‘daughter’ or whatever even more often on purpose #and it hurts bc i don’t really feel the need to change the way i dress/look but i know everyone assumes she/her #when they see me in a dress or skirt. even w how very not-cis my fashion sense is #but also i fucking hate pants which is a separate thing (prob autism tbh) and even if i wore pants they’d still use she/her #thinking of changing my name to something very masc so i can confuse people enough that they’ll stop defaulting to she/her #and i haven’t told ppl outside my immediate family so idc if they use she/her but i’m fucking pissed when ppl in the family do it #anyways side note when i was 12 my ideal gender (b4 i knew about being non-cis) was a floating consciousness w no body #or a plastic-doll-like creation that’s smooth all over #… i still want to be a floating consciousness actually lmao. it would be great #back then i hated being a girl but i didn’t know there were more options and also i was socially isolated (didn’t leave home for like 2yrs) #and my mother was openly transphobic whenever the topic was brought up so that was my only real experience #but i didn’t really internalize it other than the fact that my mother would be rude if i ever happened to be not-cis and guess what? she is #anyways it’s like 2am and also i’m only awake bc i was captivated by a sugar daddy middle aged gay fic for a show i watched like 5 episodes #for 2 years ago #sorry for rambling in the middle of the night lol #gn y’all

[lady-harrowhark]

she was a baby! a literal baby! and i just keep thinking about the Ninth creche and how she would have woken up one day completely unaware that she was surrounded by death and from that moment forward every interaction she had with a caregiver would have been tainted in ways that she had no ability to process.

and my heart breaks not just for her, but for the adults who worked in the creche. they spent every day with these children. and one day nearly every single one of them was dead.

ortus had nearly aged out anyway, but gideon was still there. sure, she’s this mysterious outsider, but she’s still a baby, and someone took care of her (likely multiple someones), someone who probably can’t help but care about these kids. look, i know that not everyone is a kid person. i am - i work with kids, i study child development, i delight in any chance i get to spend time with the little ones (and the bigger ones!). i get that not everyone’s like that. but i look at my best friends’ 17 month old son, and i think about baby gideon, and i cannot imagine seeing a child his age, let alone one that you’ve cared for over their life, and treating them with such disdain. i doubt it was entirely their choice. i’m sure they would have had orders from higher up to distance themselves, to isolate her. but...

how do you stop yourself from scooping her up to cuddle? how do you not rub her back when she cries? not make up little games with her or tickle her cheeks and melt when she laughs?

imagine finding that all of the children you’ve spent most of their lives with are dead, and the one survivor? you can’t even hold her. and she doesn’t know why.

#i haven’t stopped thinking about this since i saw that baby Gideon art the other day #and i just saw that tiny gideon and harrow post and it reminded me i had this languishing in the drafts lol #i just wanna hold baby gideon in my arms #snuggle her up and make sure nothing ever hurts her #i can't even imagine #and tbh i have a suspicion that she was a delightful baby #it wouldn't have been hard to love her #(harrow on the other hand - i'd put big money on her having been fussy as all hell) #(but still just a little baby who i would love the same i'd just be more tired) #gideon nav #gideon the ninth #the locked tomb #gtn #tlt #tlt meta #my tlt thoughts

[citrucee]

AGGHHHHH FINALS ARE OVER….. i was gonna post a drawing for it saying “it’s so over” because i got a B but i don’t have the energy orz

#txt #[hasn’t finished a piece since college started] hope i can find my art groove and make finished pieces again #hahahahahhahhfhdjgkk [crying] #idk apparently my art hasn’t changed at all so it’s not that i’m getting worse is that I’M dissatisfied with everything i make rn #i think my approach to art of the bright colors and the way i did lines iusy #doesn’t fit anymore. idk. it doesn’t speak to me #that doesn’t mean i’ll go to dull and muted tones because i Also don’t like those #but i need to find what i want to say and How i want to say it. #idk idk idk idk much to think about. boy am i thinking. i haven’t stopped thinking in ages #at this point i don’t wanna be still. the idea my art isn’t changing is scary. it means i need to get more experimental and NOW and like #actually MEANINGFULLY experimental and not just ‘ohhh it looks different to me’ #i don’t think i’m capable of that anymore tbh but god fuck i need to try

[mossflower]

stares at my bio

#realistically. i do not post owl house anymore and haven’t really for months. and am unlikely to post about it again #but i feel weird taking it out!! i loved that show!! i still love it!! i’m just not fandombrained abt it anymore #like it’s not even on the backburner like tma or good omens is. dw is a long term interest. i’m actively into tlt #i think of toh as a show i love. just not in that way anymore ok this sounds like a breakup why am i being so dramatic #tbh i do not miss the fandom. kinda a cesspit of deranged takes and insane discourse. made me a main tags avoider #it felt like secondary school? everyone being weirdly mean and hiding it under a progressive skin and jokes? #lbr thats bc most ppl were teenagers. me included lol #but it was more good than bad. staying up late to watch the streams and getting excited over theories and all of it. i’ll miss that part #but the next time i say ‘hey this cartoon looks pretty cool’ i need someone to bodily tackle me to the ground and stop me. it’s not worth i #rip morgan’s animation era 2020-2023 i guess <3 #nvm. i’ll just replace toh with homestuck! which is still kinda wild to me lol #like if you told the me of a year ago that i would be into homestuck more than toh rn i would not have believed you #morganposting

[droolyangel]

a mutual said we’d be pretty subs together and i 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

#i haven’t stopped thinking about it tbh #pynkpup ily 🩷🩷 #mutuals #angel talks #pynkpup

[therhythmismyblanket]

So can we talk about how both Carson and Max begin the journey to be more themselves by cutting the hair. Something about symbolism and so forth

#and no I still haven’t stopped thinking about this show and probably won’t for a long time tbh #a league of their own #maxine chapman #carson shaw

[beware-of-you-98]

Something was definitely in the water during the Paramore AUS “This is Why” tour pls they were so unhinged 😭

#by they I mostly mean hayley 😭😭😭 #girly was SO unhinged #I’m still thinking about taylor saying You’re Fired in the new hard times outro tho #I haven’t stopped thinking about anything that’s happened #SOOOOMEBODY IS GETTING FIRED #BEYONCE DID IT SO WE CAN TOOOOOO🕺 #AND I CAN’T WAIT TO SPEAK WITH YOUUUUU💃 #IT’S THE THIRD TIME YOU’VE DONE THAT SHIT TO US 🕺 #I’M GONNA GET TO ROCK BOTTOM🙌 #I’M GONNA GET TO ROCK BOTTOM🕺 #I’M GONNA GET TO ROCK BOTTOM 💃 #FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU YA🕺 #I’M GONNA GET TO ROCK BOTTOM I’M GONNA GET TO ROCK BOTTOM💃 #✨ ​you’re fired ✨ #as someone that’s caught themselves on fire she had every right to go 💅 awfff 💅 #dykes on mics bitch you might just make it for that one #i love my dykes #they played thick skull and I wasn’t in the room for it #that’s the most tragic thing ever tbh #hayley williams #taylor york #paramore

[fantasyoverreality98]

when I just remembered how excited I was for blades of light and shadow 2 and have no idea what’s going on in the choices fandom anymore

#blades of light and shadow #seriously are we ever getting a second one #it’s been almost three years #I’m an entirely different person now #i don’t know why I still have the app on my phone tbh #haven’t played it in so long #I think I stopped right after open heart finished #opening the app now is like entering a new city #what am I doing I don’t know any of these books #who are these strangers on the page #strange to think at one point this app was my entire life #it was all I thought about #I can’t even remember how old I was when I started playing it. 20?? I can’t remember

[rosicheeks]

😤

#iyiyiyiyiyiyiiiiiii #I wish you could go into your brain and delete someone #I just had a dream about you #which is dumb cause I haven’t talked to you in awhile #but idk why I’m so hung up on you #I know it would never work #and it’s probably for the best we stopped talking #but now why oh WHY are you still in my head #I just want you out pls #I had a dream where I met them for the first time #and it was super cute #and now I’m all mad #I just wish when you want to get over someone you could replace their face with someone else’s #from now on I’m going to dream about uhm #hook from once upon a time 😂😂😂 #first person I could think of tbh #but you get my point #I’m just kinda sick of being hung up over someone who doesn’t even think about me #shut up rosie

[galariangengar]

Bruh, I’m a little pissed cuz an hour into my shift today, this older lady that works in fulfillment passed out bottled waters to everyone BUT ME. Like bitch what the fuck?? I was here earlier than all the people you trained on how to package shit in mailers

#tbh I kinda miss being in women’s shoes cuz the people there were hella chill #I miss working in the back room of women’s shoes and scanning/putting boxes away cuz those people were hella cool #hhhh and also idk why but outta the blue I kinda developed a mini crush on this one guy that works in the back of women’s shoes #idk why I just can’t stop thinking about him but also like I haven’t socialized with this many people in like 3 years #jazz uses curse! 💜