#I just don't have any energy

[stuckinapril]

so past the point of changing people's minds about me!! like i actually just realized today that i don't care. i am so much more capable of shrugging my shoulders at someone's preconceived notions of me than i used to be. throughout my life i will probably run into many a person who will have a negative impression of me that they will not be able to dispel (or will go out of their way to fuel for the sake of their confirmation bias or whatever it is). but i will also have the honor of meeting a lot of amazing people who won't do that and who will actually see me for who i really am and will affirm that w their thoughts and actions. so long as i know who i am, anyone who's willing to make the effort will know who i am too. and that's all that matters

#i feel like some people resort to delusion to self-soothe when they run into people who don't like them #or avoid them like the plague #but for me i just wanna be chill. like u don't like me? but it's not for any actual reason aside from ur preconceived notions of me? ok! #i am not going to expend energy into changing your mind or even avoiding you #in light of this revelation i will simply chill and do my thing anyway #i have a friend who tells me “we'll always work w people we won't like” so now i see these kinds of instances as practice #rather than something that actually reflects my worth as a person #p

[fisheito]

(3) remaining

#OH NO THE IDOL BEAM HAS HIT EVERYONE EXCEPT THE MEANEST ONES IN THE CLAN 🤣 #can u imagine.... the absolute catty group energy coming out of these 3 if they had to sing together... #the idol beam bazooka is one of aster's fave weapons of ???profit #rei and kuya hate standing beside each other so dante always has to be in the middle #everyone who attends any of their shows will get their memory instantly wiped after the event #whether it's by illusory magic or fiery explosion (fire comas don't completely erase the memory but they'll certainly distract) #or father directly clawing someone's eyes out #actually i wouldn't put it past kuya to just make an entire illusion out of the thing #so he wouldn't have to move at all or put any effort into the silly song and dance. #he sittin backstage with the catering table while the audience screams for the fake show happening on stage #kuya the pioneer of IRL MMV projection magic. incredible #actually u kno what. aster hits them with the idol beam #and every show is just the three of them playing UNO #that would still bring in money #the drama. the intrigue. the competitive spirits flaring and tables being flipped. what a spectacle #aster #kuya #dante #rei #nu carnival

[asbestos-11]

that one post that's doing rounds on twitter is made for me and my fellow mpreg enjoyers.

the twitter post in question. made by user tarraerae

#genshin impact #neuvillette #furina #focallette #draw tag #MPREG FANS RISE UP IT'S OUR TIME TO SHINE #uni's got me pooped. istg i have about 4/5 ongoing projects and all of them are like long term and it just zaps me of my energy doing them #so uhhhh idk when any actual cool and amazing art will happen so pls satisfy yourselves with these no brainers #again don't pursue a formal art education or you'll be making chairs for your whole 1st year

[luonnonvalinnat]

Wolfsnake fam but they're older 🥺

#Also I'm late to the party but uh #Bad guys sequel #first of all I love yall who left messages about it to my inbox and I'm sorry I haven't responded to any of those #I just didn't have any energy to comment about it when it was announced ToT #honestly I don't have much of an opinion about the whole thing yet. mostly cause sequels are always such a hit or miss #especially if it's for a movie I like a lot #Soo fingers crossed it'll turn out good ! #cathy wolfsnake #mr. wolf #mr. snake #fluffyvenom #wolfsnake #mr. wolf x mr. snake #tbg #the bad guys #dreamworks #dreamworks the bad guys #my art

[mewguca]

I saw a cute maid dress and drew Sliver of Straw in it

[ref]

I like Sliver of Straw :)

#rain world #sliver of straw #iterator #rain world fanart #egg art #eggmoon creations #I'd normally be more sapphic or something about sos but #i don't rlly have any energy lately #im just glad i was able to make something #and glad i like the colors

[drinkcrywrite]

something about how lottie greeted misty

misty never really believed in the cult

everyone else, they've justified to themselves, the things they did out there. we did it to survive. we all got caught up in the belief of this thing that made us do it. even tho they all acknowledge after they were rescued that there was no supernatural thing making them do anything, they still hide somewhat from making the choice to do so

misty is probably the only one who says " yeah. we did those things. nothing made us do it. nothing was ever making us."

her face after the pit girl feast in the pilot. the rest were all caught up in the ceremony of it all. they picked a victim. they hunted her down. they drained her and cooked her and presented her to the antler queen for approval, and approval was given. it was a group ritual.

for misty, it was dinner. she'll play along, play her part, presenting the food. but it was just another meal.

and that, not scares lottie, but unnerves her. whether she's believing that she was sick and needs her meds, or that there really was something out there with them, the presence of misty there doesn't work. doesn't let her believe whatever she wants to about what happened

#yellowjackets #yellowjackets spoilers #misty quigley #lottie matthews #i don't know if this makes any sense #i don't even usually have strong feelings about misty #but the meeting between the two of them was so interesting #lottie's energy upon seeing her #the way misty said ''charlotte'' #all just very interesting

[bookwyrminspiration]

where tf did all this discourse come from in the recent fandom surge. why are we doing this. these are the hills we're dying on? the sun is shining. there's ducks bobbing in the pond. fresh cookies in the oven. look into my eyes. it doesn't have to be like this

#kotlc #i have been scrolling past it because it just does not seem worth any time #but like. i feel i am scrolling quite a bit more recently. and for several weeks now #and I just think. maybe we should take a breath. and ask if this is really a valuable use of time and energy #throwing that out there #don't like? scroll #block if necessary #just. don't engage. not worth it

[sakrafka]

Hey just wanted to let you guys know if you message me with just a "hi" or "hello" I will not respond since I don't know what you want from me and it makes me uncomfortable! If you have any business with me please write it in your message or better, send me an email, thank you 💞💞

#I just don't really have the time or energy to figure out what random messages want from me #I always try my best to respond to messages though if you have any questions or requests

[originalcontent]

I can't find art of my ship anywhere so I GUESS that means I have to make it myself, here are some doodles.

#ugh i can't believe i have to make my own shipping fanart #tfw you're complaining to your sister that you can't find any content of them but then you remember you have the power #man i do not know how to draw kissing or hugging or any of that romantic stuff #mostly i just know how to put paragraphs of dialogue in between two talking heads #but this seems to be something of a rarepair even though they are obsessed with each other so i suppose i gotta try #karlach #lae'zel #shipping #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #karlzel #i think that's the ship name but i have found so little of them that i'm genuinely not sure #laelach #(just in case) #but come on they're perfect! they're sunshine/raincloud! dog energy/cat energy! tall/small! hot and cold! canonically into each other! #character who represses sadness and character who doesn't understand happiness! pretty girls who can both bench press each other! #considering what their banter looks like i don't get how this isn't a more popular pairing. who else does karlach wistfully sigh over? #my sister tells me that lae'zel is not well-liked by the wider fandom and that that may be why (so sorry if other people have bad taste) #or maybe people don't often put the barbarian and the fighter together in the same party at the same time #anyway now that you're 100% convinced feel free to draw them making out so that i don't have to k thx <3

[baldandgay]

It's very unfair that I can't have other party members romance each other In my main game where my Tav is in a romance with Karlach I should legally be allowed to have Gale and Astarion and Shadowheart and Lae'zel romance each other like why? let me do it damn it

#it's not fair #i want everyone to be happy in their gay little relationships #(sorry Wyll but this is what you get for having straight man energy lol still love you tho~) #<I'm rescinding this tag because an anon reminded me just how fruity this man is and i'm sorry for forgetting lol #I mentioned it in my answer but I can really only see Wyll with Gale Astarion or Karlach and since Karlach is MY WIFE and I'm too deep in #the bloodweave it unfortunatly leave me with no one i feel suits Wyll #if any Wyll/Halsin shippers would like to make their case I'm here for it tho #pls convince me of these two i would love it (Wyll seemed kinda into it lol) #anyways... #Sophia talks too much #Bloodweave #Shadowzel #don't mind me rambling #just been thinking about this again #like in the baldur's gate at camp Gale and Astarion are camped practically on top of eachother and you're gonna tell me they're not in the #corner having a gay little book club???? #Also i just crave the enemies to lovers that is Shadowzel lol

[creatorae]

[Photo ID: a page of three blue inked drawings of the kageyama brothers as kids. Mob is a demon in these drawings, having two little horns, a tail, wings, and fangs. In the first drawing Mob has his mouth open displaying his noticeable fangs, while Ritsu looks at him with curiosity. In the second drawing Mob has closed his mouth and watches Ritsu who is now prodding at his own teeth, which are unfortunately blunt. The third drawing then has the brothers sitting down facing away from the viewer. Mob has an arm over Ritsu's shoulder as he says "don't worry Ritsu, I'm sure you'll get your fangs someday." End ID] the potential mob psycho demon au brainrot is real (I think this drawing came somewhere around october or so)

#mp100 #mob psycho 100 #mob psycho #kageyama ritsu #ritsu kageyama #kageyama shigeo #shigeo kageyama #ae art #ae draws #I really love the demon outfits #if I had more energy I would make a proper au but alas I don't really have a strong plot line going #(there's a lot of moving parts too...like is everyone a demon? or is it just mob? are there witches? what outfits are being used? #what are the rules of this au? magic? stigmas? creatures?... so yeah I don't have any strong thoughts) #still that won't stop me from drawing them in their silly little outfits

[noisytenant]

Being reminded once again that a lot of people have fucking sleeper cell agent triggers that make them instantly fail to see the human being in front of them, regardless of any personal history they have or any rapport. instantly, that person is an Enemy that cannot be reasoned with. Permanent fight or flight.

And that instead of this being seen as, you know, a rather maladaptive attitude to bring to your relationships that will permanently strip you of the capacity to experience full love and companionship, there is a dominant strain of thinking that this is a reasonable, righteous, moral good.

That a "boundary" looks like building an impenetrable wall that nobody can see but you; That conversation, negotiation, and collaboration aren't just avoided--They're treated with contempt. The very notion of trying to understand why another human being that you care about may suddenly act in an unpleasant or even monstrous way is spat upon and trampled underfoot. Complete abandonment is considered a first line of defense rather than a last resort.

I think we all need to do our best to get over this kind of thinking. And I don't mean that we should be push-overs; In actuality, moving away from this kind of rigid "boundary" often means advocating for yourself and fighting for what you think is right. I think we all deserve friends and allies who can compassionately challenge us when we adopt ways of thinking and behaving that hurt others without immediately assuming the worst.

#indexed post #Nothing happened to me specifically just pissed due to events in the orbit #The only qualifier I'll include here is that we have limited energy and this is specifically geared toward people you have a relationship w/ #I think random strangers also deserve respect and compassionbut I'm not taking the time to give it to em. That's another person's problem #Also don't give me any 'yeah except for x' shit. I do think if we were able to perfectly know the heart of a person #and see that they are causing or wish to cause harm and refuse to change course at all #Then yeah sure we can say that there's a hard line #But I think very often peoples' convictions are more complicated and contradictory than they may seem #And we cannot rewrite someone's entire experience and nuance with one data point we arbitrarily decide is 'too far' #Anyways this is just a rant it's not the best thesis or anything but hope it resonates or stirs some thought

[aro-culture-is]

hey all. it's been a while. life has been not... bad per se, but I certainly haven't had the energy to keep up with this blog in quite some time. I'm closing submissions for now, and gonna try to queue up the whole of what has previously been submitted.

i'll let you know at the end of all that if i'm gonna continue at all. if I decide to abandon this blog, I do intend to keep it up as a resource and will not delete it.

thank you all for a great time

--- mods, kee system

#blog maintenance #i'd say sorry but tbh. i'm just tired all the time now. i don't have energy. maybe i'll do more again if i feel better. #but rn we're just perpetually doing our best with a body that can barely hold on with daily tasks and even then... things get lost #there's currently 527 submissions in the inbox for this blog. unsure if there's any Ghosts (it happens. trust us.) #where the submission exists only sometimes / has otherwise glitched #but ultimately that's like. approximately 530 posts and even when we consider coming back to this blog that's just an overwhelming number #and you can't even backwards chrono the inbox on tumblr #so it's just... gonna be whatever we have the spoons for #thank you for the community <2

[barghest-land]

today i wish my government a very pleasant disappearance from the face of the earth

#not only today honestly #every day. but TODAY especially #and it's a friendly reminder to check on ur queer friends if they're in r*ssia #i don't even have any energy to write anything about it tbh i wish i had the energy to fight but i just wanna go extinct rn im sorry #i wish i was strong like others. i have a lot to lose now #and i know other people do too. i'm sorry that i'm so scared #i shouldn't be but unfortunately i am. more than ever #again. check on ur friends. it might save someone's life literally

[nakaremfarlei]

Was just thinking about the amount of animals Obi-Wan interacts with compared to literally everyone else and in the Clone Wars episode where Kamino gets attacked he literally gets saved twice by the same ray-like animal and just...

The growth from judging Qui-Gon for the 'pathetic lifeforms' he picks up to whatever he has going on during the Clone Wars era. He must have gotten that from Qui-Gon though, right?

And because it's my brain and it's rotting with all the star wars stuff I am consuming I was thinking of Obi-Wan saving all these creatures and the 212th having to deal with that. Surely they made one of the rooms pet proof in case one of them needs a new home. There also have to be clones who love that because of course Obi-Wan can't really take care of rescues on top of all his duties.

After the first few times this happens Cody learns to order animal food and other necessities. And if the Republic doesn't fulfill these requests or asks too many questions he'll just have to make sure to organize them on planet during the campaigns.

#maybe they even keep a tooka or two #for the morale #but seriously #i have been thinking about writing a soft crackfic about this #just the 212th travelling with a whole zoo #already made up my own clones and all #cody is very done but it makes his general happy so who is he to complain? #when the 501st learn about it they start bothering Rex about it #or they ask Anakin ans Ahsoka to do thr same type of Jedi magics #they want pets too can you blame them? #obi wan is pretty oblivious to all of this #he just wants to help!! #and the tenth tooka was looking just *so* sad what was he supposed to do? leave it all alone and sad and scared? #it's just chaos all around #but also so soft #clones don't get a lot of chances to pet any animals during their training and war doesn't really offer these opportunities either #so whenever other battalions work with the 212th and learn about their zoo they get excited #accidental therapy animals for the clones #and the jedi because what better way to find the energy to keep fighting and bonding with an innocent lifeform that gets affected by the war #adoptions go wild #the wolfpack asks Plo for wolves #Plo struggles to say no #star wars #tcw #obi wan kenobi #212th attack battalion #commander cody #accidental animal acquisition #I just remembered vaguely that in one of the Jedi Apprentice books Obi Wan has a bird on his shoulder?? #maybe he didn't get this from Qui Gon after all though I'm sure Qui Gon encouraged and reinforced that behaviour

[nwarrior777]

a little bit oc content!

they are members of that Queer Commune setting which is basically my comfort setting and sometimes i play jpegs in my mind about them

this drawings a little sad, but! 1) these ocs helping each other in rough moments and all of them get suport and love

and 2! tomorrow i will give you some cute funny lovely surprise for Halloween ^W^

#tw ed mention #oc #original character #ocs #queer commune setting #i still don't have tittle for the story ahah #because it's just characters vibing #bodypositive ocs #also: chelsea is in sporty outfit #but she isn't doing it for loosing weight and she will not loose any :) #she is just love work physically before going into spa. work harder - better chill! #and idk #she has a lot of energy and love physical activity so #so yeah don't worry the girl is staying big deal