#I just hhhh I can’t I can’t

[dreamwinged]

good morning everyone :( i am in a Funk really bad and i wanna say it’s school but i know it’s a bit deeper than that. i dunno what to do i just feel weird… i hope everyone is having a good day tho imy guys :’)

#.mei’s chatter ˚༘⋆ ๋࣭ ࣪ ˖ #yk when you wake up and you just feel like you haven’t slept at all #pretty sure i even dreamed abt my problems bc when i woke up they were instantly on my mind #it’s like this sick feeling #ik it’s a lot of stuff combined and the feelings r just manifesting thru smaller stuff but it still sucks so bad #idunno…. what if im not good enough for f/os and i should drop them all and let them Be Free.. #im just not feeling good abt myself i guess. i think im scared to go home tbh #one week til i go home… :( #then i have to get my wisdom teeth out and start my new job and see my friends again who bully me for fun #can’t wait……….. #im going to try to keep learning japanese hopefully that helps me yk #to have a hobby to throw myself into #i don’t know… i guess it’s a plus that i don’t have school again til august #maybe something good will happen in that time. maybe i’ll get better #maybe i need a therapist but aaaahhhh…… scary….. it’s harder now that im older and no one can make me go #i just am unsure that i can be fixed atp i don’t know if i can have a normal life or if i’ll just always be this way #hhhh…. i don’t want to go home at least here i feel somewhat happy

[starbuck]

ya know?

#sometimes i just. Hhhh. #this play fucking haunts me #IT COULD HAVE BEEN ME AT THE START #i can’t deal with it #daily Read Robert Icke’s Oresteia Or Die By My Sword Moment #(also read the actual Oresteia… and Sophocles’ Elektra… DEF Sophocles’ Elektra) #(there are links to all of these for free floating around!!) #but YEAH. #hhhhhhhhhhh #you know how it is

[ashxxgyu]

My mandu is live 🥺

#just his voice and he sounds so sweet but I can’t concentrate hhhh #♡₊˚ princess’s diary・₊✧🧸

[tiredsadpeach]

It’s so busy at work today and I dropped someone’s order in FRONF OF THEM almost cried lmao

#it also popped two of my nails off and I can’t find one and I’m scared it’s like sitting with the retail #first set I put on on my own and I fuck up at work in them slay #idk why but today I’m just more hhhh then I’ve been since she passed #it’s not fun at least work is almost over #2 more hours

[flowercrowngods]

hi, a while ago when you asked for people to send soft things I sent an anon about my best friend and I looking at the stars and thinking about each other and your reply to that was so kind, it really meant a lot to me after sharing a thing that’s so important to me but I didn’t know how it would be taken since I’m a stranger on anon. Like, I thought it’d be nice and knew it’s something I’d enjoy getting but beyond that I couldn’t say, like it’s hard to judge with things so close to you and you never know what’s just important to you and what other people might enjoy too right? But the reply was so heartfelt and validating and lovely and I would like you to know that now when I go and look at the stars I think of my friend and I also think of you. I think about you and the kindness of strangers, I think about you saying you were gonna go tell your best friend you loved her in the tags of your reply and how that made me all soft and how sharing your love and the beauty you see and find in life can be so good and important. So thank you for being kind and thank you for adding this extra thing to my stargazing <3

✨ the original ask mentioned (if anyone wants to feel really really soft)

hi 🥹 i’m. i genuinely teared up reading this, i’m so. i’m a little speechless i think. first and foremost i’m glad i could give you that notion of appreciation and like it was worth it, telling me this wonderful thing about yourself and your friend ✨ i get that this would feel very vulnerable telling a stranger — because i’m one to you just as much as you’re one to me — so i’m really really glad you felt validated and that it was worth it 🤍

but also 🥺😭 that is so!! i am so!! 😭😭 god. i don’t even have words. but i’m tearing up again. and i’m just gonna hold this very very close to my heart. i can’t see the stars right now because they’re a raging thunder storm outside but above the clouds, there they are, and here you are, and some things are good.

thank you for being good, and kind, and. stargazing. i’m. that’s. yeah. 🥺

#sorry i’m really not eloquent right now because what do you even say to something as wonderful as this?? 🥺😭 i’m just. you’re just. hhhh. #i can’t believe i get to exist like that for you. that’s. i don’t think words that would be applicable have been invented yet #so just take my love and appreciation and speechlessness and add the silence to your stargazing too 🤍✨ #stargazing anon ✨ #asks #not st

[goldenhypen]

so you jus gonna hide them jake glasses pics or?🧍‍♂️

kim !! i’m so happy you asked 😌 you don’t know how long it took me to narrow it down to just 10 pictures of him 😭 i have too many and i love them all sjsnsjsj but for now i’ll give you some of my favourites 😌 SKNSJSJWNSJSBSJ I LOVE HIM I CANT OMG

like look at him !!!!

omg what a good looking man oh my-

AND THESE LAST TWO LIKE OMG THIS LOOK- OMG T H I S LOOK IS EVERYTHING TO ME OMG JUST LOOK AT HIM 🥹 and the last pic oh my look how cute and precious pls omg and his smile in the second-last one pls i love him i love him i love him-

#i’m weak for men in specs especially jake #uGHSNSNSNSKSN THE LAST TWO ARE MY ABSOLUTE FAVOURITES PLS OMG #hhhh i can’t tell you enough how much i love the look of him in glasses #i jUST- SJSNSJSJSJJSS #HES TOO GOOD TO BE REAL #ok i’m sorry i’m a lil too excited rn 🥹😭 sjsjsj #thank you for giving me the opportunity to let this out dkdnsjsn #em answers #kim! <3 #lovely moots #♡

[celestialbabysworld]

wanna hurt her so bad ugh

#m sick but can’t stop thinking about forcefully taking her innocence away hmp #want tears rolling down her face and she tells me it hurts and she wants me to stop #gonna shove two fingers in even if she isn’t that wet and gonna make her take it #will have her wet in no time #the best part of fucking of a girl is feeling the way her vaginal canal opens to accommodate you hhhh #ik that’s disgusting but i just love girls #love pussy so so much

[byakuyasdarling]

I’m so anxious about tomorrow ,,,

#I don’t have enough bus money to get to work!! I can still get on the bus but if an officer comes on - #- (which they’re doing a lot recently) I get fined $300!! #you know… to the service that doesn’t fucking work!! that’s always 15-20 mins late!! that sometimes never shows up!! #and they have the nerve to try to find people for one-offs when their service in consistently shit? #they’re lucky they’re a necessity. #knowing my luck I will get caught hhhh #I will be refunding this shirt tomorrow for bus money but I actuslly have to get to work #it should cover everything until my next pay #I just woke up at 3am and I can’t get back to sleep now

[dahldahlbills]

juggling three different writing projects in my head rn i feel like im going insane

#this is why I try to avoid working on multiple wips at the same time hhhh #love having ideas but I hate bouncing between them and feeling like I can’t keep any of it straight #two of them are fics and ones an original project #what makes things worse is that im incapable of writing anything Short or Uncomplicated #noooo it always has to be a 100k+ fantasy saga of some sort with room for spin-offs #like im happy but also Sterssed #bc 1) there’s no time to actually work on these so it all just festers I’m my noggin #*in #and 2) I am SO SLOW so the longer the project means the none of these will see the light of day for at least a decade #esp when I’m splitting my time between all three #I could drop one of the fics but I’ve already been working on it for over a year I’m too committed #and if I put it on hold now I’ll never come back to it #other fic is jojo related and I wanted it to be SHORT AND SWEET but brain said no <3 #and my brainrot consumes me so I must indulge #I’ve put off the original project for over a year already #and I need to like .. make progress on that if I want writing/art to be a serious career choice #so yeah fun stuff 👍 #im literally sitting at my desk talking to my figurines trying to sort all my thoughts #they’re great listeners <3 #but hey im having ideas so that’s great at least #blahblahbills #AND DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON ART WIPS

[galariangengar]

Bruh, I’m a little pissed cuz an hour into my shift today, this older lady that works in fulfillment passed out bottled waters to everyone BUT ME. Like bitch what the fuck?? I was here earlier than all the people you trained on how to package shit in mailers

#tbh I kinda miss being in women’s shoes cuz the people there were hella chill #I miss working in the back room of women’s shoes and scanning/putting boxes away cuz those people were hella cool #hhhh and also idk why but outta the blue I kinda developed a mini crush on this one guy that works in the back of women’s shoes #idk why I just can’t stop thinking about him but also like I haven’t socialized with this many people in like 3 years #jazz uses curse! 💜

[rozugold]

Hmnggfjg

#I’ve been tired and overwhelmed and embarrassed over nothing for days now #it’s frustrating because I’ve got things to do but I just can’t get myself to start anything #and when I do I give up right away cuz it feels like too much #hhhh #I need my brain batteries changed #rozu thoughts

[gaylotusthatexists]

if i could like. go to sleep maybe that would be wonderful. sleep gods please i need this rn.

#thing is right i’m not tired. i don’t need to sleep. #but my alarm goes off in two hours and i can’t even get away with sleeping in the morning instead bc i have a fucking train to catch #and then like. post train i won’t be able to sleep either. bc i have ti go do family things. hhhh. #please sleep gods i am begging even just two hours of sleep would be lovely pls

[decembermoonskz]

rain I’m still so embarrassed about complimenting myself I wanna hide under a blanket and not come out for a while hhhhhhhhh

#izzy.txt★ #I can’t handle it anymore hhhhhh #like it’s not an actual issue ofc just hhhh I’m so shy

[rad-rat-boy]

I want to feel like desired. I think. I want people to look at me and get happy. Or like I want to feel like I’m worth like,,,, chasing after? I guess. I want to feel pretty and desirable and worthy of attention.

#i can’t explain myself but hhhh #like I want to feel like people want me #i want to #but like it’s never going to happen because I’m just generally not? like I’m undesirable #but like I look fine. and I’m ok to be around in small amounts. like people can stand me. #but like nothing more #which is the part that sucks #because I know that no matter how much effort and time I put into whatever it’ll just be disposable #so many friends. people I care about who just idk I am quiet a lot. i get it but it still hurts

[megatraven]

Might be able to get some work doodles in today :) I hope

#meg speaks #just have to think of what to draw #gotta be without ref bc I can’t have my phone out hhhh

[what-even-is-sleep]

Forgot how much adhd medication helps my adhd cause my adhd

#iykyk #adhd #just adhd things #hhhh #been trying to get this paper done by Monday night #and kept struggling like ‘I researched so much it’s all scattered! I can’t put the thoughts together!’ #would’ve thunk that was my adhd partially?? #and that when I took some meds at dinner I lich rally slammed out the whole paper in 7hrs #(I did hella pre-research too tho) #and LMFAO it should NOT have taken 7 hours it was literally a 750 word research paper (that I already did most of the research on) #yeah the bibliography took time but bruh #should not b taking me this long #mypost