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#I just think that FRIENDSHIP TT.TT
vannahfanfics · 1 year
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Hi hi! I go by Sunny online, I use they/them, I'm 5'7, I have decently long brown hair (I'm growing it out as my years of peace and if someone provokes me to anger I'll cut it off and leave it on their doorstep as a cute reference to emperors in ancient China <3) I'm chaotic in nature, I've been described as the literal personification of a d&d bard. Which I'd say is decently true, I'm charismatic and flirty, I'm great and convincing people and I'm the hype person! My go to words/phrases are, "Slay king/queen live your truth" "Have my babies" "Naur/Hyelleur" "I'm gonna beat you up *pretend beats them up* are you dead yet?" All with a funny tone and my excellent autistic timing. I also like to do bits, and one of them includes saying no to a task that's asked of me, then proceeding to do said task. I also like to make hearts with my hands in various ways and poke my tongue out briefly at people like a frog.
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This is my left eye for reference :)
I have an oval face shape with some baby fat, but not too much :P
Also I'm proven to be totally chill and super smooth around people that I find very attractive. I may get a little nervous but no one can tell until after said attractive person leaves. I'm demiromantic and demisexual so it means I don't experience those kinds of attractions without a deep bond. I don't care for gender but women and nb people tend to befriend me and get close so that skews the results some heh.
Good luck with the comissions! I hope I didn't out too little/much information, and buh-byeeeee <3333
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Ahh, Sunny, I apologize for how long it took me to get to this! Between medical school shenanigans, writer's block/my ADHD squirrel-braining, and all that mess, I've just been on a rollercoaster of poor time management over here. TT.TT But, hopefully, you'll find it as having been well worth the wait! Thanks again for commissioning <3
P.S. I also do the thing where I say "no" when someone asks me to do something while immediately moving to perform said task XD
I match you with...
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Ling Yao from FullMetal Alchemist!
Okay, full disclosure, I'm a little biased because Ling was one of my first great manga/anime loves... However, your personal blurb just screamed Ling to me, so I'm going with him anyways! I just think you two would be total peas in a pod—the best or worst chaotic duo, depending on who you ask, muahaha! Here's a few reasons why I think you two would be really compatible:
I think being demiromantic and demisexual works in your favor when it comes to Ling! After all, he's a guy who forms very deep and powerful bonds himself, and his devotion to those he cares about not only influences a lot of his personality but serves as the core of his motivations. I think he'd totally vibe with the idea of needing a strong, meaningful relationship in place already before any feelings beyond friendship develop. He can play at being friends with everyone and seeming like he doesn't form serious attachments, but we know that he does, and those are the relationships he puts the most value in. That being said, he is entirely personable; it would be easy to become friends with him and go from there! He's a lot like you in his extroversion, after all. People are where the party's at, and you are certainly a party people that he'd invite into his life! :)
When it comes to Ling, I feel like physical appearance is something that may be an element of catching his initial interest and cause him to take notice of someone (such as a "hot senator," wink-wink, nudge-nudge) but isn't necessarily the key factor in his decision to pursue somebody. That being said, it's not something he totally ignores, either; the more he falls for you, the more things he falls in love with about you, and that includes appearance. He'll begin to just randomly think about how luscious your hair is, how gorgeous your eyes are, how you look lovely whether you're dressed comfy or to the nines... And if you ask him why he's got a dreamy look on his face while staring at you, he's certainly not shy in telling you exactly what's on his mind! But he'd be unable to pick a favorite part about you because he just adores all of you so much, inside and outside, physical and not. And he'll tell you that, too!
Now, you did mention that you're not really keen on words of affirmation as a love language. It's not Ling's primary love language, but he's not the type to withhold compliments or be shy about his feelings, as I mentioned before. Bear in mind that, to him, they aren't words of affirmation; it's just the truth! He never says things that he doesn't genuinely believe, so it might be hard for him to stifle those urges in the beginning of navigating a relationship with you. But he will try, simply because he doesn't want to upset you or come off as disingenuous. Don't hold it against him if things slip out here and there, though! And he will more than make up for it through his primary love language, which is acts of service. I mean, we've seen what lengths Ling will go to for those he cares about and/or feels responsible for. If you asked this man to pluck the moon out of the sky for you, he'd be searching for the nearest rocketship to commandeer. He'll always try to do things to make you smile, make your day better, make your life easier... Whatever you need at the time and whatever makes you happy! Finally, he's also a lot like you when it comes to physical affection. His desire for it grows as his feelings grow; if it's a serious relationship, he can be a real cuddle monster! He won't want to go two minutes without hugging or kissing or touching you or some way. He isn't even ashamed about admitting that he's a little needy, LOL. He just adores you oh so much! If you're willing to give, why should he be shy about asking? Of course, if you're not in the mood, he can easily pick up on that and won't overstep your boundaries. He'll definitely be a little sad about it, though, and will be a little bit more of a menace when you're ready to accept physical affection from him again! >:)
A lot of the reason that I think you guys work together, as I've alluded to a bit, is that your personalities are so similar! Sometimes, this can actually be a recipe for not being able to enter a relationship with a person, but I don't that'd be the case for you and Ling. I think you two would 100% fuel each other's madness. I mean, tell me that Ling would not also cut off his hair and leave it on the doorstep of someone who provoked him. That is peak petty Ling vibes right there. To further cite your personal blurb, Ling definitely has bard energy—charismatic, shrewd, humorous, free-spirited... A lot of qualities that you also have! I can only imagine the shenanigans that the two of you would get up to. You two will definitely come up with all the chaotic/hilarious bits, witticisms, and the like. The same can be said about your sense of justice and loyalty. Those are values that Ling holds in high regard himself and immensely respects in a person. His ass will be right there with you in the jail cell. And, hello, your love of food? It totally resonates with Ling! So the fact that you like food is your ticket straight to his heart, LMAO! He loves having a good time over a nice meal, and he gets to see you super happy while he's at it? Win-win, baby! And, let's be honest, Ling can be swayed by the dollar signs... so he will definitely respect your dreams of rolling in the dough, haha!
Ling is highly observant, so if you've caught his attention in a way that makes him want to court you, then he's going to make sure to make all the right moves to win your heart <3 So, I figured I'd expound a bit on the kind of things Ling does when he finds out the things that make you happy!:
Ling, 90% of the time, does not do planned dates. This dude just calls and sometimes even shows up out of the blue hoping that you are free so he can spirit you off on an adventure, LOL! He just can't help it; the instant that he wants to talk to your or see you, he just has to, right then and there! Not only that, this guy lives his life by the rule of spontaneity; it's no fun if you plan every second of your day!
Honestly, he'll probably pick up on the fact that you like food during your first meeting. A lot of your friendship will involve food, whether it's you guys going out to eat together or ordering in or just talking about your shared gourmet interests, LOL. But once he gets it in his head that he wants to date you? Man, he kicks it into high gear.
You mention a new restaurant you wanna try? Dress up, love, because he'll be picking you up at seven. Your favorite snacks? He has them on hand anytime the situation could call for it just because he wants to see your face light up. You mention you have nothing to do this weekend? Knock-knock, here's Ling with some take-out and some movies or videogames, ready to waste the night away with you.
At first, Ling's not a guy who cooks. He's got people to do that for him, LMAO. But this man would 100% learn to cook for you. The notion of you enjoying something that he made just for you... Ah! It makes his heart go doki-doki! Like, literally, he might shed a tear of joy the first time because it makes him that happy to know you liked his food.
And if you do the same for him? First it will blow his mind, then he'll get stupid excited because food, and then he'll get all choked up because you did this just for him! It could honestly be burnt or salty or straight up inedible, but this guy will lick the plate clean because you made it and that makes it a five-star meal in his book :)
Real talk, he knows you don't like dishonesty, so he'll be tactfully honest if it wasn't good. But if you try to get him not to eat it, you'll just end up chasing him around the house while he's shoveling food in his mouth. Sometimes his principles overrule his brain, and he would rather die than waste a single bit of a meal you made for him!
Needless to say, eating with you is his favorite activity. He gets to eat some yummy food, whether one or both of your made it or it's from a restaurant, and enjoy quality time with you. And it makes you just as happy! Seriously, what's not to enjoy?
And, last but not least, here is the little drabble that comes as part of the Tier III match-up! I am kind of passionate about Ling just being a spontaneous gremlin that somehow is just so sickeningly sweet and heart-throbbing, so, here, have some super cliché and chaotic fluff!:
You should have known better than to talk to Ling about romantic clichés.
It was a trap. Of course it was a trap! You've known the guy forever, and yet he still managed to trick you right into the conversation with that silver tongue of his. You'd only been dating a month, so him bringing up the topic of cliché romantic gestures should have been the biggest warning flag ever. When you managed to miss that, you should have been tipped off by the even more obvious probing about which gestures you found too cheesy and which ones kind of got your heart fluttering. But the bastard was too damn smooth and navigated that conversation leaving you none the wiser.
So, here you are, staring out of your bedroom window with an expression that is a mixture of embarrassment and endearment. Why? Because Ling was sitting in your yard, singing a very off-key rendition of your favorite song while playing an acoustic guitar more terribly than you thought a person could.
Well, as they say: hindsight is 20/20. Still, you don't know how you missed that.
"Ling!" You're laughing as you open your window and lean out to call to him. He had started off looking all seductive-like at you, but very soon he started really feeling himself and now had his head thrown back, yowling to the moon like some deranged cat. In fact, you can hear several cats in the distance responding to his call. He doesn't hear them, nor does he hear you, not with him singing at a pitch that borders on one only dogs can hear. So, after a small fit of giggles, you shout louder, "Ling!"
"Eh?" he cuts off to stare owlishly at you. He then plasters a big, cheesy grin on your face that is so full of enthusiasm and adoration that you can't help but let your heart melt a little.
"Oh, hey! Whatcha think?" Before you can answer, he cocks a brow and flashes you a suggestive smirk. "You're looking a little off-balance there. Did I sweep ya off your feet?"
"I'm off-balance, all right, but only because your singing is so bad that it's given me vertigo!" you rib. "What the hell were you thinking? I bet the neighbors are on the phone with animal control telling them that there's a band of raccoons tearing each other to pieces over here!"
As always, Ling takes your teasing in stride, just offering you a sheepish smile and a little shrug.
"Well, at least I can say I tried. I should have gone for something else, though. I know I can't sing for shit. But I've always wanted to try it, you know? Those guys in the movies make it seem so swoon-worthy." He wastes no time in discarding the guitar in the grass to retrieve later. He walks over to a plastic bag sitting nearby, and when he hefts it up, you recognize the logo of one of your favorite takeout places. "It's a good thing I brought a contingency plan."
"You should have started with that," you laugh as he approaches the window. Dextrous and limber, it's no trouble for him to clamber his way up and perch himself in it, straddling the sill and smiling warmly while he holds out the bag of delicious-smelling food to you.
"Come on. Admit it; you liked it," he goads, playfully yanking the to-go bag out of your reach just when you go to take it. When you pout at him, he wiggles his brows and presses, "Come on. You're telling me that you didn't swoon just the teeniest, tiniest bit?"
You debate lying to him just to do it, but you can't bring yourself to. Underneath his playful expression is genuine eagerness. So, after releasing a little sigh of relent, you admit, "Okay. I did swoon." When his face lights up with happiness, you hastily add, "Just the teeniest, tiniest bit, though."
"Whatever, I'll take it," he chirps and deposits the bag of food in your waiting hands.
You waste no time in tearing it open to get at the boxes of scrumptious goodies within. Like you've often done, you eat there at the window using some nearby furniture as a makeshift table, Ling perched in the window and you in a chair next to him. You melt as soon as you take the first bite, and immediately, Ling's face softens.
"What?" you ask around your mouthful of food.
"Mmm, I'm just glad that at least one of my romantic gestures made you happy," he answers nonchalantly. You roll your eyes, but that hot flush of happiness and nervousness is rushing through you despite your cool-as-a-cucumber outward appearance. And Ling has known you long enough to see right through it, prompting him to add, "Don't care how I do it, as long as I can make you smile."
"You're such a simp," you mumble despite the fact that a stupidly happy smile is growing on your face.
"Ah, but this simp is sitting in your window, so what does that make you?" he challenges. You respond with a playful shove to his shoulder, knowing that he'll catch himself as he slips to the side. He does with a squawk, then responds with an affronted huff and a light shove to your head. "Fine! Next time I try to dazzle you with a romantic cliché, I won't bring takeout!" He even starts acting like he's climbing back out the window to leave.
"Noooooo! I'm sorry! Please don't!" you whine, throwing your arms around his middle even though you know it's an act. You feign that it's just the food you care about, but in reality, it makes you giddy that he likes you enough to embarrass himself with corny displays if only to see you smile. And he knows that, which is why he settles himself back in the window and smiles at you.
In hindsight, maybe talking with Ling about romantic clichés wasn't so bad after all.
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drummergirl231-2 · 3 years
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Don’t mind me, just putting together some new brotps.
Because that's what DuckTales is for me. It's the show of a thousand brotps.
So Dewey and Webby are well established as quite the dynamic duo. Between working together to solve the mystery of Della's disappearance and bonding over their shared love of danger, they definitely developed one of the closest and cutest friendships in the family.
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But now that Webby is a kinda-sorta triplet, where does that leave May and June? Which boys would they bond with most?
Let's start with June because she's small and cute and I know they're all identical so they're all small and cute but this baby you guys!!! TT.TT
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I mentioned in this other post how each of the clones had their own specific wants and goals. Almost all the lines about wanting to discover their purpose were given to May (with the exception of one line in the storage room scene), while all the lines about family were given to June (again, with one exception in the storage room).
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With F.O.W.L. defeated and Donald as their new guardian, I think June will settle in... well, easier than May will. She longed for family, and closeness, and love, and now she has that.
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She seems like such a little cuddle bug. She readily displays physical affection and instantly smiles when someone does the same with her. I can imagine her being the sort to curl up at Donald's side during family movie nights, or if she gets hurt, find hugs to be the most comforting thing.
And I imagine this baby bean will get (mildly) hurt a lot at first. I mean, this kid was just created. She doesn't know anything. She doesn't know waffle irons are hot. She doesn't know bees sting. She doesn't know hand sanitizer doubles as paper cut finder.
She's going to need someone to teach her how to be safe, and someone who can comfort her like Donald would when she gets hurt if Donald isn’t there.
Hmmm now who do we know who can...
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Huey, you're hired. Welcome to my new brotp.
Huey and June are both very family-oriented, and I imagine their relationship will have some strong big-brother-little-sister vibes. He's got the heart of a caretaker just like his uncle Donald, and little June is going to need a lot of care.
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She’s been abused and traumatized, and because she was artificially aged, she acts younger than Webby and the boys. And like I said, she knows next to nothing about the world, and could really use a Woodchuck's expertise in matters of safety. So Huey and June are a new brotp of mine.
Now as for May...
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Her whole thing was about finding out why she was created, and when she did find out why, her dream became a nightmare.
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Her whole life - short as it's been - has been about striving to earn Heron and Bradford's praise, and in the end, she realized she could never get it, because to them, she was only a means to an end. She was disposable in their eyes. And Gyro certainly didn't help with his comment about how replaceable clones are.
She had no goal at this point - no more purpose - what a miserable thing to feel at such a young age. But like most young people who feel useless, her journey didn't end there.
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But I think May is going to have a harder time letting people love her than June. Finding out why she was created could leave her feeling cynical. She might wonder a lot about what her purpose is now, and struggle to find out what she's good at and how she fits into this family.
And we all know who's struggled with those things in the past.
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(I was going to use a more relevant gif but this floof is too important.)
Anyway, Louie went from feeling like he wasn't good at any aspects of adventuring, to finding out he was good at something and then believing he was only good at that one thing, to realizing he has a few talents that he can use for the benefit of his family. He's definitely struggled in the past with feeling like he didn't fit in, and he's wondered how he could possibly be an asset. 
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I can't think of anyone better to help May discover how she fits in, especially since one of Louie's uncovered talents is motivational speaking.
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Let's just hope he doesn't teach her to lie, steal, and manipulate like he taught Webby. lol XD
Angle-spotting Louie will be able to find out May’s strengths and weaknesses, and use those discoveries for her benefit. I wish we could get a Season 4 to explore what her strengths are, but alas, these will forever be speculations. 
OOH unless they make a movie or something! That would be fantastic. *fingers crossed*
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wri0thesley · 2 years
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Hello!!
I just wanted to drop by and express my love for 'the machinist and the faerie' because OH MY GOD???? IT WAS SUCH A GOOD AND LOVELY FIC???!
the way you set up the beginning, like just reader being lonely, like just the way you wrote it, you can feel this deep sense of loneliness within the reader, and I think it does a really good job of setting up how the reader will meet Gojou and then fall for him!
And then when reader finally meets Gojou, and Gojou is all 'you shouldn't pick those, you know!' pls he's so cute but also like know it all, I loved it so much! and then the passage 'he is merely your ilk...he is just like you' and '... is afraid of being feared like that' PLS I SOBBED
And the way you setup how the reader will run away to the forest, the worrying parents, the marriage prospects, the never really fitting into the village and townspeople, it's just so brilliant the way you wrote that cuz I'm just reading this and sitting here thinking like what is the thing, the final straw, that's going to push reader to Gojou and just leave everything behind
Also, the way you describe the etherealness and otherworldliness of faerie Gojou is just too good, like the picture it paints in my head is so vivid, and gosh he's just too pretty and handsome AND also the way you wrote in his like eccentric and loud and energetic behaviour is just so good the whole '...fascinated as always by all of the little ways that haumsnkind works...' like just ASDIAHFIUSADGHA
And the way you write how they are falling for one another?!!? '...emerges from the bushes is more than mere friendship' AND 'a hand on your shoulder (once...' AND 'a quirk of his lips...' AND '...staring at you, utterly engrossed in the way your hands move...' IM LOSING MY WHOLE MIND
AND THEN THE FIRST KISS I JUST *SOBS* ASGDAFKJAHFDDASJ But then just the devotion/stubbornness of the reader to not give up on seeing Gojou and just the faith and love, and the promise to tell him how the sewing machine works LIKE IM- ASAIAUGHUAIFDHDS
And then when reader finally runs away, iaghoaufh I know the reader's parents meant well, but LOL the forced marriage thing and just picking on reader for not being married made me so upset on reader's behalf, and so when they ranaway, I was like YES!!!!!!!!!! AND then when Gojou tackles reader to save them!! Like !!!!! like Gojou loves reader too much, and its no surprise that he keeps an eye on reader even if he doesn't show his face to them TT.TT
And the 'I learnt how the seeing machine works...' I'M CRYING NAT CRYING !!!!! AND '...not that I didn't like you being pathetic over me.' PLS HES SUCH A MENACE IM-
BUT THEN HES ALL SOFT 'you have a family,” he says, all quiet. “You deserved to live out that life. I didn’t want to steal all of those joys away from you...' HES JUST SO ASJHADFHJDGSJV AND their banter !!! "I'm ever going to call you 'your majesty'...'to your execution first' AND 'I've had patience'...'your invocation...' PLS THEY ARE SO CUTE !!!
AND THE SMUT NAT YOUR SMUT NEVER MISSES!!! THE PRAISE!! THE ADORATION FROM GOJOU!! THE DEVOTION!! THE CALLING HIM SATORU!!!! IM SCREAMING AND CRYING AND LOSING MY WHOLE MIND NAT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And then the ending!!! 'Gojou thinks your rewritten version...bard even so.' pls he's down SO BAD for reader, its so cute and just so him!!!! IM SO IN LOVEEEE
Sorry, this ask got so long, I just wanted to express my adoration for this lovely fic, it was so fun to read!! I know that you've been having a hard time with writing, but I just wanted to let you know that you did an amazing job with this fic, the way you wrote the entire fantasy setting was so great, I felt like I stepped into a different world, and the way you captured Gojou's character as a faeries was sooo on point, like my mind is blown! When I got the notification for this fic, I got SOOO EXCITED cuz I remember you making a post about how you wanted to write this concept with Gojou, and like I can honestly say that it was worth the wait and that this is honestly one of my favourite Gojou fics ever!! (⋈◍>◡<◍)。✧♡
- @ame-791
AME.... this message is SO NICE thank you so much!!! it means so much to me that you took the time to not only read the fic but reply and pull out lines and i am just so!!! VFKJNBGDJNKGFKJN....
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missskzbiased · 3 years
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I Hate That I’m Afraid to Love You (3)
Genre: Romance, Friendship, Angst, Hurt /Confort , Suggestive, Fluff College Au, Enemies to Friends to Lovers Au, REALLY Slow burn, Love Square (?)
Pairing: Hyunjin X Fem!Reader  X Han X OC
WC: ~ 5,0K
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Warnings (general*): Language, Mentions of (Physical abuse, Death/ Loss of Loved One, Child Abandonment/Neglect, Divorce, Toxic Parents, Cancer, Mental disorder, Anxiety Attack)
Notes: I hope you guys like it. Chapter 2’s tags didn’t work TT.TT so I hope this time the tags works… *Sigh* Anyway! This and the next 2 chapters will have more of an angsty feeling to them. If you guys feel that I should put a warning or something like this, please let me know! [Although I think I listed everything on the general warnings]
I’m opened to any feedback! It’s my first fic like this so I know I have a lot to learn yet. Any tips or suggestions are welcomed!
REMINDER: I’m neither a psychologist nor a psychology student.
The next chapters will have some things related to psychology BUT IT’S ALL FROM MY MIND. Please don’t consider it as something a therapist would say.
Also, don’t consider it as a good way to handle any mental illness.
Just as a note, the MC will realize she needs therapy at some point [~chap10], so I’m not trying to show friendship, love or whatever as the solution to mental illness [Though those kind of things can help you out, consider doing therapy if it’s possible]  
Updates: I’ll update it once a week [Tuesdays] because I still have to write the chapters to come and review the ones I already wrote
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    If you knew all it took to get Hyunjin’s head out of his ass was confront him, you would have done it way too sooner.
   You knew you got on his nerve when he came into the classroom without sparing you a glance, his usual mocking self nowhere to be seen. He walked straight ahead to his seat, gliding, his chin slightly upraised as if he felt like a royal member himself, lips quirked up in a carefree way that you knew he was feigning. You shouldn’t feel too good about it, but you felt it anyway.
   Paris noticed something was wrong, her eyes following him amazed, noticing he didn’t try to flirt or tease you at all.
   “Is it just me or he just ignored you?” She asked surprised, her eyes glued to him even when he was already settled on his seat “He didn’t even look here!” Her eyes shot at you, mischievous “What did you do?” she grinned devilishly.
   “Nothing” You shrugged, struggling to keep your smirk off of your face.
    You always said you didn’t really hate Hyunjin and you meant it, but it didn’t mean you were anywhere near to be fond of him in any way. You knew you were being petty and childish, but you couldn’t help it. You weren’t obliged to put up with his guts! He had this infuriating aura around him like he was some kind of god, and it just upsets you to the point you wanted to punch him sometimes. He did nothing wrong, but that was exactly the issue! You hated these kinda movies that pictured the male lead as a perfect little thing that could do all he wanted because he was just amazing... People like this didn’t exist.
   Except that he almost fit that image.
   Now, you weren’t saying he was perfect! He was way too far from that if your opinion had any importance at all. The thing is that he is rich. Okay... But being rich is enough to make you hostile towards someone? Well, it is when this someone doesn’t put a damn effort into anything and you have to work your ass off to get the same results as him. So maybe you were envious? Yeah, maybe. Whatever. You felt wronged when you knew you had to be all work and no play while he could play whenever he wants because he was blessed with a good family.
   It was infuriating.
   Of course, you would be able to get good scores at everything without putting any effort into it if you were tutored back in high school like he was... Of course, you would be able to look charismatic and sassy if you had the time to sleep after your work, instead of studying your ass off so you could keep up your grades and your scholarship... Of course, you would be able to have fun and be relaxed, hence being able to absorb all the information your professors spat out if you didn’t have to live up to everyone’s expectations! And, of course, you would be able to have a good relationship with the university if you were a hell out of a rich girl that could give your damn money to the university and get on everyone’s good side.  
   So maybe it wasn’t Hyunjin’s fault to be able to do things you couldn’t do even if you worked your fingers to the bone... But he and his shitty personality didn’t help his case at all. Maybe if he was a kind guy or something like this, but he was an asshole! He knew how you hated all those things about him, and he would still rub it to your face. He got off on the fact you were miserable compared to him! Every time he could bring up how he was better than you in every aspect (which he wasn’t, really!), he would. Every time he could show you how the professors got on his side just because, he would. Every time he could do something that made you pissed off, he would.
   So maybe it wasn’t Hyunjin’s fault he had everything you worked for.
   But his good for nothing personality was solely his fault.
   And you would hold on it for your dear life.
   “Y/N, could you refresh my memory? What was your feeling’s choice?” Your professor, Mr.Lee, asked in a quiet tone before scratching his white beard, his eyes focused on yours, analyzing your every move. It was kind of invasive every time he looked at you as if he could see your soul, and you wondered if someday you would be like him.
   “It was Hate, sir” You answered firmly, your eyes sharp as a knife when you returned his gaze.
    “Would you care to enlighten us about your choice? Is it too personal?” He asked in a kind tone, letting it be your call. You didn’t understand why he was beating around the bush like this, but you shrugged it off.
    “As I said last week, sir, I think hate can move people to do dreadful things without thinking about the consequences… I believe nothing can beat hate. Not time. Not love” You looked in Paris’ way with an apologetic smile “I guess I made my point clear enough last time” You added, a tight smile on your lips.
   “Yes. Yes, You did… I remember a lot of raising hands to agree with your plea” He acknowledged, his eyes darting to Hyunjin this time “And you, Hyunjin? I believe your answer was also quite defended last Friday” He encouraged. Hyunjin looked back at him, still averting his eyes from you at all costs.
   Your smirk made its way to your lips as you felt superiority’s sweet taste.
   “Yes, it was, sir” He agreed. Even though he didn’t feel like talking to you and seemed… Tense, his voice still hung that endearing power he had, getting everyone’s attention as he opened his mouth to repeat what he said before “Fear is clearly stronger than Hate as it can paralyze people, make them give up on everything… If hate makes you do things you regret, fear also makes you regret things you can’t do” He seemed off as he spoke it, his eyes too focused, his jaw clenched slightly… His arguments got better too, maybe he thought about it since Friday?
   Probably not.                                                                                                                                                                    
   “And I believe no one could agree with Paris, since the classes ended in the best part of our discussion! Paris had a good argument, though, and I happened to hear from Hyunjin himself, that it beat his own” He sang, Paris chirped excitedly, making you chuckle “If any of you were too hungry and lost to remember, she said Love was the strongest feeling because it could beat any other… You could beat fear and hate with it, you could do something out of love or sacrifice yourself by not doing something in the name of love…” His voice hung there, purposely pulling an imaginary string, getting everyone attention as he looked around, the cliffhanger being too hard to ignore.
     “So who was right?” You heard someone asks from the back, your eyes glued to your professor’s smirk as you waited, your breathing withhold on your chest, hoping you could be the one to be right, or at least Paris…
   “No one and every one of them” He announced, proudly. It was needless to say all the holding breaths came out as disappointed sighs, an unknown winner standing for the title you would never get “This exercise isn’t about who is right or wrong… There is no such thing as the most powerful feeling! Every single feeling has a full meaning for that one person that holds it” You rolled your eyes, thinking about how Mr.Lee could be such a good professor and such a bad one. He was bullshitting all of you, and to speak of which—
   “That’s bullshit!” A girl uttered in the front row “Are you saying a patient in love is the same as a patient who wants to kill themselves?! Someone who hates themselves so much they want to be dead… You can’t say it’s not as powerful as some lovesick bast—I mean, person” Okay, so maybe that girl had some hate issues? You saw his eyes lit up as if he was expecting a tantrum.
   “You can’t see a patient who hates himself and say he’s more important than that one fearing something to the point he can’t even get away from his own house… Nor say the one who’s healing themselves with love ─ this being self-love or someone else’s love ─ isn’t as important as your other patient… Every single human being is a full universe, and a good professional has to be able to see it clearly! The most important feeling to you may not be the most important feeling to this patient, you have to think ahead of yourself” He smiled at the end of his speech, clearly proud of the marveled looks on your face.
   You thought it was kinda cute how he stood there giving these same classes probably for… twenty? Thirty years? And still got so excited to see how all of you would react. You let a smile flicker over your face, and you felt Paris beam at your side ─probably relating it with music in her head─ but Hyunjin wasn’t so impressed, raising his hand promptly, getting a nod from Mr.Lee who was giving him the word.
   “What did you make us suggest them for? If the whole point was to make us understand every feeling matters, I can’t understand why we lost one day debating it” You turned your head from Hyunjin to Mr.Lee, expecting what kind of answer he would give.
   He grinned again, glad things were going on his way.
   “That’s a great question” He agreed “The thing is, my fellow students, you guys tend to state the most important feeling to you… I think it should be no surprise that you are all adults struggling with things along your way, and by this simple debate, I can tell you, Mr.Hyunjin, struggle with a great fear of something… I can tell Ms.Paris healed herself with great love… If you want me to be more specific, I do remember her statement about love being protective, and her examples were about a mother protecting her child and a soldier… Would I be wrong if I guess your mom’s love moved her to do great things to protect you from something really dangerous, Ms.Paris? Perhaps something as violent as a war?” Holy shit! You felt as you were on a ‘Now You See Me’ movie, all hidden things getting a spotlight right in front of you.
    “No, sir! You would be totally right!” She agreed blissfully, getting a humming from him.
    “I thought so too” He joked, laughing to himself “Do you have any more questions, Mr.Hyunjin?” His voice held this knowing tone when you just knew you have nailed it.
   You felt the urge to clap, excited at all this.
   Then you felt the urge to hide.
   You struggled with hate, and now it was unfolded there for anyone who wanted to see it.
   You couldn’t focus on your classes anymore, your mind wandering around some stuff you didn’t really want to remember right now, your childhood unfolding there like a really long movie that you didn’t want to watch at all. Paris seemed to notice your absentminded self, her hand resting on top of yours, reassuringly squeezing your own before you smiled weakly at her, the soft contact dragging you out of your thoughts.
   “I’m fine” You guaranteed, receiving a nod as a response.
    Her hand never left yours though.
    There are times, such as this, your mind just gets numb.
    It’s almost like a TV snowing, the soft noise sounding like numbness at the back of your mind, nothing really getting there, even though your eyes were opened and looking straight ahead, you didn’t take in any images. You weren’t quite sure what was on your mind when the loud alarm sounded through your brain, getting you startled, your eyes snapping back to whatever was happening in front of you: A sea of students wiping their stuff into their bags and scattering around. You looked around, confused when you finally noticed the class had ended.
   How long were you thinking? Were you even thinking? What was Mr.Lee saying?
   You sighed heavily, looking at the blank pages on your notebook, and you could almost feel like he stared back at you, disappointed. Paris rested her hand on your shoulder, burying your head with a worried look that made you say the first thing coming across your head “Classes ended already”, Oh, well… That was a poor statement… You got a sympathetically look as an answer, “Han must be almost here, we should get ready” You added, a more useful wording this time, getting your stuff and standing up, your hand finally away from hers.
    She got up as well, letting you go just like this. You couldn’t be more grateful for her understanding right now. You merged into the crowd getting out of the class, taking short steps and stretching your neck, trying to get air and have a vision around, searching for Han in the hallways. As soon as you got out, you felt a hand grab your wrist, pulling you to the sides, colliding with a warm chest that made you frown annoyed, glaring at the boy who turned out to be Han himself.
   “Are you blind?” He laughed, ruffling your hair, getting a chuckle from Paris.
   “No, you’re just too small” You mocked, his whining making you and Paris laugh. The three of you made your way through the crowded hallways, heading to the dining hall, ready to eat whatever was being served there. You looked around the Quad, expecting to see Chan there waiting for Hyunjin and wave at him, since you knew they both use to have lunch together on Tuesdays.
   What you didn’t expect was to catch a glance at an odd woman, her flashy fashion getting your attention immediately and making you feel dizzy.
   You would bet you were pale as a ghost.
   “Hey, are you okay?” You heard Han ask, glancing over the area you were staring “You seem kinda… Off” He stated worried, getting Paris attention as well, making her stop her blabbering about today’s class and look at you concerned.
   “I’m just hungry” You uttered, looking at them with a tight smile “Let’s go quickly before I pass out” You said hurriedly, pulling them by their wrists, eager to get out of there.
   They let you hurry them, exchanging a look before shrugging it off.
                                                          ////
   You felt your heart slamming on your chest, your lungs seeming too small to handle your need for air. Although you weren’t running for real, your steps were quick and wide, your head swivels as you tried to find Chan on campus, your legs burning as you walked fast and your neck hurting to move around searching for him. You felt a hand on your shoulder, grabbing it with much more strength than needed, and you shut your eyes closed, defeat washing over you.
   “Holy shit, where were you?!” Chan’s voice sounded alarmed and your disappointment switched to relief.
   “Oh, thank god!” You chirped, turning around and hugging him out of reflex “Where were you?! Did you see her?” You asked worried, his face giving all the answers you needed “Is it bad?” Your voice sounded weak even to your ears, thin and trembling.
   Fragile.
   “It’s… Well, it’s not good” He mused, averting his eyes “It could be worst I guess… She wants to talk to you” He explained, his hand squeezing your shoulder “I told her I would ask you to meet her at the yard… It was the least crowded place I could think of… ” He sighed, looking tired; he must have been worried, running around like this just to find you “Where the hell is your phone? Why can’t you pick up my call, woman” He complained, trying to light up the mood, but you couldn’t find his teasing amusing right now.
   “I forgot it at the dorm… I will pick it up later, before work” You answered, kinda absent-minded, your mind wandering around a hundred thoughts at the same time, your breathing starting to falter. You felt his arms wrapping you up, embracing you tightly and soothing something on your ear as he stroke your hair gently, his sudden touch getting your attention back to him “Thank you” You muttered against his chest, clearing your throat before pushing him away gently “Lord, stop being cheesy” You joked, making him scoff in disbelief.
   “I run around this damn place because you can’t take your phone with you like a grown-up ass and you call me cheesy?” He snorted, feigning to be hurt as his hand rose to his chest “I even ditched Hyunjin for you…” He added, swiping imaginary tears as he looked at you.
   “Hyunjin was with you?” You asked exhausted “Great… Did she say anything in front of him?” He was quick to shake his head, denying, and you let a relieved sigh “Well, that’s good then”
   “I asked him to wait where we were, guided your mom, and came for you… I don’t think he connected the dots yet, although he will ask about it for sure” He explained briefly and you nodded in response “I think you should go talk to her before she comes back” He reasoned, and you nodded in agreement, squeezing his shoulder in silent gratefulness before smiling gently at him, getting a small smile back.
    If you had one thing in this world you could always count on it would be Chan.
    You picked up your pace, trying to reach the yard as fast as possible, using all your strength to gather your thoughts together; worry washing over you as you got closer to your destination. You couldn’t be distracted; you had to keep calm, to be understanding, to be focused. As soon as your eyes landed on her, you felt your heart pang. She was beautiful, of course, her blond dyed hair suited her well, and her sunglasses matched well her style, the flowery dress giving a girly and young vibe to her.
    How long had it been since you saw her like this?
    She seemed to notice you, taking her glasses off and flashing you a bright smile, getting up from the bench she was sitting on, and coming to meet you halfway. You looked around, checking for people you knew, before sighing in relief as you made sure the yard was indeed pretty vacant, just like Chan predicted, and opened your arms so she could hug you like she made mention to do.
   “Long time no see!” She chirped, hugging you tightly, and you seized the moment for a bit, her warm embrace making you smile homesickly “You never come back home! We miss you” There was it. You nodded, not really agreeing with her, and broke away from her, a tight smile adorning your lips.
   “Yeah… We just have a lot to do here” You lied “How is it back home? Why are you here?” You asked genuinely curious. She shrugged, grabbing your wrist and guiding you to the bench she was sitting before, sitting down and patting it so you would do the same.
   “I think I will get back with your father” She beamed “He’s in love with me! I wanted you to be the first one to know” You closed your eyes, sighing before you opened them again, looking straight into hers. She looked exactly as you remembered in your childhood… Delusional.
   “Mom, he doesn’t love you…” You said cautiously, searching for any signs of rage on her face, but all you got for an answer was a scoff “He abandoned you, mom… He’s back now, but he doesn’t love you… Please, don’t make a big deal out of it” You pleaded, but now her disgust was plastered all around her face.
   “You were always like this… You never loved him!” She uttered, her voice rising just for a bit, but it made your heart race anyway, afraid she could get out of control “That was exactly why he left us!” She added, her rage made you shrink your shoulders, your eyes unconsciously scanning around to see if anyone was looking, shame imbuing every part of your body.
    “I wasn’t the reason he left” You muttered, her gasp getting your attention again, her eyes accusing you silently.
    “Are you saying I was the reason he left us?” She asked, hatred dripping from her words.
     Yes.
     “No, of course not!” You rushed to say, your lie tasting bitter on your throat, the dry gulp inevitable “We’re not to blame… It was his own fault” You reassured her, your hand making its way to her shoulder before she swapped it away, huffing.
    “You’re unbelievable” She snickered “He came back for me, he has been with me for three years! You can’t understand how much he loves me! How much we belong together!” Her voice was loud now, and you were sure anyone who happened to go through the yard would be watching you “He loved you, Y/N… He even had your photo! Did you know that? He had that tiny photo of you… He never stopped loving you, and you can’t be grateful for what you have!” You bit your lower lip, trying to stay calm, to be the responsible one.
   Again.
   “Are you taking your meds?” You asked tired, your back curved as if you had aged fifty years in this few minutes of talk “Is he giving you your meds?” You asked again, looking in her eyes. She looked at you like you were a bug annoying her, her brows frown as she leaned closer to your face.
   “I don’t need the pills” She spat angrily, her eyes shooting yours “I can take care of myself! Look at me, I’m here, ain’t I? I came here by myself! I don’t need to be enclosed! I’m okay!” She got up from the bench, yelling at you. Finally, some people seemed to notice the commotion, and you could only avert your eyes…
  You could handle it, you always did it.
 “I can take care of myself just like I took care of you!”
   No, you couldn’t.
  “I took care of you” You uttered, your eyes burying in hers “Do you know who didn’t take care of you?! Who didn’t take care of me?!” You yelled back, angry “Him! He didn’t take care of you! He didn’t love you! He doesn’t love you now!” You got up from the bench as well, gesticulating widely as shame and anger mixed up on your guts, the solid presence of eyes fixed on you in the back of your head, fueling it.
   Way to go, Y/N! Just what she needed right now!
   You felt the sting on your cheek before you could process what happened.
   “You don’t even see him at home, you know nothing” She spat, her hand still raised in the air, no signs of regret in her eyes. You felt the tears prickling, your hand trailing to your face slowly before caressing the hot skin, the pain in your chest deeper than what you felt on your face. You didn’t dare to look around, to check people’s reaction, so you just stood there, looking her in the eyes as your vision blurred.
   “Oh my god” You heard a male voice, startled.
   You could recognize it even if you didn’t hear it for three whole years, even if before that you haven’t heard it for a whole ten years of your life… You could recognize it anywhere because it was his voice, the voice who answered you when you first learned to say daddy, the voice that soothed you before sleep, the voice who supported your mother through her depression, the voice that yelled at her when she was being a maniac, the voice that vanished from your life… That voice belonged to the one who had only one task… And failed it.
   “Honey!” Your mother beamed; his eyes landed on her confused before turning to you. He was accompanied by a man in uniform, a Hospital logo on his chest that you promptly recognized as Chan’s family business, he walked over to your mother, guiding her away gently.
   Of course, it was Chan, even when your father showed up to do something useful, it wasn’t his initiative.
   “You suck” You said as you got closer to him, rage bubbling inside you “You just needed to take care of her… Can you do at least one thing right? Can you take care of anyone at all?” You asked exhausted, stopping right in front of him, your eyes held a disappointment that made him shrink.
   “I’m giving it to her… I don’t know what is happening” He defended himself, making you scoff.
   “Did you look under her tongue? Are you sure she’s taking it? Maybe, if you were there you would have known that she may hide the pills and sometimes refuses to take them…” You laughed humorlessly “It’s funny because I learned it at… ten years? And you don’t seem to learn anything at your forties or whatever!” You snorted, pissed off and bitter,”I should know something was wrong though… Her messages were different…“ You mused, drowning in your guilty.
   “I tried to reach for you, but you didn’t pick up…I was hoping she would get better” He admitted and you could only roll your eyes, looking away before averting them back to him in a cold-steel glare.
   “Yeah, because it’s my fault you can’t handle something that I handled just fine as a kid” You spat, disbelief in your eyes “I can see how invested you are in this” You gestured between yourselves, scoffing as he averted his eyes ashamed. You prepared to make your way to your room but as soon as you got past him, he turned around, calling you.
   “I missed you” He muttered, making you spin on your heels.
   “I bet you did” You smiled bitterly “You’re a professional at missing things… You missed a lot of them all this time, didn’t you? I bet you missed me so much! You missed my birthdays a lot!” You laughed bitterly, clasping your hands together and tilting your head “You missed my graduation… You missed all the therapy mom had to take because of you! You even missed the only thing you had to do to try to redeem yourself!” You scoffed, shaking your head in contempt “You missed a lot of things, dad… You’re twelve years too late to miss me now, though” You sighed, turning away from him and walking straight ahead to your dorm.
    As you walked through the yard, heading to the dorms, you could only feel all of your emotions boiling up, tightening your chest, blocking your throat, and turning into tears before you shot your head up, a failed attempt to stop the tears falling down your face as you walked. People didn’t seem to mind your crying though, as you should have expected, since college students were fated to cry about their terms, essays, and all of the troubles college brought to their lives. You could only feel relief as you lowered your head and quickened your pace, people ignoring you.
    As soon as you opened your door, slamming it open in your stupor, you regretted your crying, and your poor choice of place to go, watching as Han and Paris widened their eyes at you, startled by your state. You closed the door behind you, closing your eyes and clearing your throat, your hands hurriedly wiping your tears away before you turned around to look at them with a clearly fake smile that you knew that looked more like a grimace.
   “Sorry for interrupting” You said, voice almost steady “I… Will be in my room” You added, fast walking.
   “I think you should go…” You heard Paris telling him “Y/N, come here, let’s talk” She pleaded. You heard both of them getting up from the couch. You locked your door right after you got to your room and sat on the floor, head burying in your knees as you hugged them. You heard a door opening, probably Han going away, and as soon Paris knocked on your door you started to cry again.
   “I saw them again… She came to talk to me” You blurted, trying to say something coherent but failing it “She said he loves her… She said it’s my fault they got away from each other… She slapped me…” You sobbed now and then, and even though you tried to explain the situation you Knew Paris must feel lost there, not knowing what to say “He said he missed me… I fought with him again, Paris… I’m just like him! I will abandon everyone around me…” You cried hard this time, trying to recompose yourself miserably, grabbing your ears and swinging back and forth, trying to calm down.
  As you hushed yourself, you missed the door closing with a loud bang.
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This is from a headcanon I saw.
Venti wants to be the only Archon in your life. He gets jealous of Zhongli when you're together.
Poor Venti is staring with his arms crossed while silently cursing Zhongli.
Zhongli doesn't even realize Venti is mad at him. TT.TT
Zhongli: what's wrong with the drunkard?
Reader: hmm? * looks over, but he smiles instantly* He's just weird.
Zhongli: *looks at venti but he sticks his tongue out* Yes. He's indeed weird.
Venti: y/n? Come hang out with me. I've a place I'd think you'd love.
Reader: oh, I'm going to with Zhongli today. He's teaching how to properly make my favorite tea. *excited*
Venti: * glares at Zhongli and sighs* Whatever! Tea is boring and gross.
Zhongli: What would a useless drunk like you know about the elegance and flavor of tea?
Arguing starts
Reader is just like ○_○
I simp for their love/hate friendship!!!
UWU- LOTS OF UWU’s
THATS SO CUTE- ASBGK- VENTI BEING JEALOUS OF ZHONGLI AND THEY HAVE A MINI COMPETITION- 🤣😭 YES-
Imagine them kneeling before you with a bump in their heads while you scold them- 🤣🤣 even tho this two are archons,, they still act like children— hshs-
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Being Goku’s little sister would include…
You being my baby sister-in-law. (Yes, I had to.)
Being worse than Raditz. With both your brothers already on their missions, and you not knowing the middle brother had completely forgotten about it, you felt like you had to prove yourself.
After years of listening to "Raditz this" and "Kakarotto that," you striving and becoming the most ruthless of the three.
Going with Raditz to "Eeyarth," as if you were excited to show off to your second brother how strong you've become, since Raditz never really cared. In fact, instead, he despises you for it. 
Being just as baffled and annoyed as Raditz when you see what Kakarotte had turned into, but also being confused by the fact that you were almost relieved to see him so content, as compared to the constant pain most saiyans have to deal with. 
Denying how tempting "Goku's" new life was to join, but only until Raditz kidnapped and threatened to kill your nephew, him suggesting you two take him back home and turn him into another miserable fighter.
"You're calling yourself… what?"
For a long time, not daring to step out of line, and only attacking Raditz when he was finally close to killing Goku. But breaking down when you were too late and Goku still died.
Only then realizing how fake your famous brutality had been and realizing you hated hurting other, and helping Piccolo defeat Raditz.
Still hesitating with helping the humans, who claimed they can bring your big brother back to life (insanity), to defeat Vegeta - YOUR PRINCE - and Nappa.
Actually bonding with Chichi as you all prepare for the battle, but only until she asks you to get her son back from the "green demon" and you actually ending up agreeing with Piccolo. 
That agreement leaving a permanent shatter of you and Chichi's possible friendship.
Jumping Goku into a hug once the battle was over and gushing over how strong he was, saying how it's proof that you can be stronger than your prince too and him cheering you on.
Easily getting annoyed with Goku when he's being a bit stupid, right alongside Vegeta, but quickly melting whenever Goku would dote on you, only annoying Vegeta more.
Goku treating you more like a daughter, since he's never had a sibling, but he's somewhat learned how to be a father.
You two being each other's favorite sparring partners. In fact, you encouraging Goku to train more, but also being the one to reign him in and send him home when he didn't think about how long he's been gone from his family; you always want to preserve the Goku that turned you into the person you've always been deep down inside. 
A lot of Gohan spending weekends at "auntie's place," even thought it's practically just a hut you put together in the forest. Chichi would protest, obviously, but then you'd just kidnap the child. Via the father's permission, of course.
Being fascinated by Gohan's homework and enjoying it when the kid would try to explain some of the stuff to you, despite you not understanding anything.
Never truly settling into the "earth life" and Goku enjoying it, because it would sent you into a lot of cool stories about Saiyans when you'd all gather for parties and such.
You being one of the few friends that Goku would truly be overprotective of and hold dear.
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I don't even know when did I start shipping Kakasaku tbh. I haven't watched every episode of Naruto. Kinda skipped a lot. I'm a busy woman. But when the pairings were out, I was neutral to SasuSaku. Like okay, didn't expect that but okay. And of course I was expecting Sasuke to finally warm up to her and be very sweet after all the shit he put Sakura through. But she just gets a poke in the forehead. What? No kiss? No finally talking to each other?? I'm aware of the importance of that gesture. But if I were her, I won't settle for something like that. And I get so frustrated how her character seems to diminish each time she's with Sasuke. She seems to always put up with him. And I don't recall a time she ever became a better person out of her pining for Sasuke. I also never knew why she loves him too. And it was a red flag for me when she broke her friendship with Ino just because of a love interest. (Yes, I'm aware they're still friends) I never understood what the hell happened when I was a kid. I thought it was just a fun competition between the two. Rewatching it now made me go "huh??" I used to even root for SasuSaku when I was a kid. I didn't understand how annoyed Sasuke was at her. In Naruto Shippuden, the anime makes it look like there's a love triangle-ish going on but not really. Like it's more of a competition between two OP boys. So I was even surprised at first that SasuSaku happened. Then when I saw her interaction with Kakashi at Kaguya arc, it just strucked me like an epiphany. Like hey, they look so good together. And Kakashi is always there for Sakura. He had saved her multiple times and he always know how to make her feel better. I just realized many qualities of Kakashi that Sasuke doesn't have. And then baam!! Another Kakasaku shipper is late to the party. When I ship two fictional characters, I usually look at the chemistry and what they bring out from each other. Kakasaku has sooooo much chemistry. My heart just does a cartwheel whenever they have an interaction together. I also realized that Kakashi can deal with Sakura's temperament oh so well. I can see them being themselves together. I never even thought of them as a couple in all my years watching Naruto. Like most people think, he's her teacher. But love is love. I feel like this ship wasn't even supposed to happen. It's like a by-product of plot. If only Sasuke wasn't that much of an ass. And Kakashi and Sakura being there for each other while those two OP boys have their own world of chasing each other. I don't think I would ever ship them. And Kakashi needs a lot of loving. His backstory breaks my heart to pieces. TT.TT PS I still am low-key hoping for them to be canon because why not. Especially since Sakura is way older now. It can work. Someone just needs to stab Sasuke in his sleep 👀 (just kidding)
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Second Friday YJ appreciation
1-3 ; 4-6 ; 7-9 ; 10-13 ; 14-16 ; 17 ; 18 ; 19 ; 20 ; 21 ; 22 ; 23 ; 24-26
—————————— Private security 
- Will has the dad belly! Lian is cuter and cuter! <3 (But it’s just me or she seems less Asian than in season 2? Where’s Jade?)
- Lucas Carr! :D (For those who don’t remember him, he appeared in the first YJ comic book and in season 2 when he teachs Gar at Mount Justice.)
-  Why Dr Jace stays at Luthor Grande Hotel, in Metropolis! 
- Bowhunter Security! With orignal Roy/Arsenal, clone Roy Will/Red Arrow and clone Jim Harper/Guardian (So if he’s Guardian again, what about Mal? He’s still a hero? Which one?) I love the dynamic of the Harper family and Roy calls Will bro!! He has finally dealt with his trauma (he seems to) and considers Will like he’s older brother! :3 
- Dick in a security costum! Just like in Titans with the policer costume. He has a new outfit every Friday! 
- “An old soul in an young body” Another clue for the Motherbox theory! So the first Halo is still alive inside or gone for good?
- Zatanna! TT.TT
- American genetically modified beef! xD
- Am I the only one who sees Jeff x Dr Jace miles away?
- “To the SUV!” My new war cry! 
- Now Brick has red skin, it means he activated his metagene. How did he get out of jail by the way?
- I love how they show the Prince’s not understanding. He asks questions instead of jugement and “it’s a machine. I don’t understand.” instead of “You’re dumb” or something.  
- I’m kind of afraid of Wolf sleeping. Don’t tell me he’s getting old and will die soon :( 
- All Halo knows from her post life is violence, torture and hatred. No wonder she doesn’t want to remember... 
- Don’t forget the clipboard! xD Will is more loyal to it than to his hat! 
- OMG! Giovanni aged so much in just 7-8 years! He’s what? Between only 40-50! Side effect of Dr Fate’s control?
-  “Wall” My heart, why? TT.TT So heartbreaking than Dick is too afraid to be part of a team because he lost Jason and Wally and Barbara gets injured.
- “I’m older than Jim.” So Jim was made after Will. interesting!
- Harper’s family business! Need more episodes with those 3!
- I really loves the humour in this episode! xD 
—————————— Away Mission
- Forager! Orion! Wait, what a bastard! :o 
- Gregor tries to protect his little twin brother and has compassion for the Quracis refugies. I love him! 
- Bear! Wait there’s a thing between him and Dreamer?! The notebook with the photos! The nostalgia!
- So the New Gods use metaslaves? O.o 
- Traci, Jaime and Bart! :D And Jaime finally talks! Now Scarab’s turn! “There’s no sound in space. The physics on the show is so messed up!” It’s Jaime or Scarab who speaks? Or Jaime took the comment habit of his bug friend? I definitely see Scarab saying something like that! xD So Traci watches the shw for the story or for Gar? “Hello Megan!” Their ringtone for the missions is the generic of this show! So cute! 
- Cassie and Tim have a conversation without yelling at each other. That’s an healthy relationship. So I hope they won’t break up :( “Awkward...” Sorry Virgil, you seem pretty alone :(  
- Jaime, why do you massage your side? Bart didn’t hit you that hard, did he? And he calls him amigo, sorry Bluepulse shippers... (Well, at least it isn’t hermano, so maybe Bart’s just pinning, whatever that means.) I was expected Scarab to yells “Incompatible!” to the boom tube... “Who watch the show for the physics? Who uses a boom tube for the physics?” I love the dynamic of this trio! And Traci is so adorable! Bart’s haircut changes every frame or what?
- “I hacked the Justice League’s computer!” That’s my boy! xD And G designation is for Grayson right?
- M’gann and Cassie are two mad girlfriends, poor guys (Jaime, Bart and Virgil) they didn’t do anything wrong :/ “Superoblivious!” xD 
- “Excuse me?” xD The Yj comic reference with Lucas Carr! Brion who wants to impress Halo.
- Even in bug form, M’gann is still white! :) It’s me or Blue just growls?
- Guys, stop stressing Brion, you gonna make him fail :( What did I say? —‘ “My trees” So Lucas Carr is a neightboor or something? “Excuse me?!” New color for Halo: Yellow is for attacking. I want to see what the green does!
- I love how M’gann put down her little brother like the older sister she is. So she used to hide behind a green form and her little brother behind a beast? You can see M’gann growth throught the comparison with her brother. “I have been dealing with the red and green oppression.” Wait, so there are red martians too? And is for Darkseid he made the bugs made at the New Gods? So they have less allies against him?
- Every metateens we saw so far doesn’t look human anymore. I don’t know if thee Light are doing that on purpose so we could not recognize them anymore or it’s because the forced evolution is too much for their body :(
- Is Halo healing herself like a reflexe or does Sphere help the processus to begin? Violet? That’s so cute! Wait, another supermartian parallel!
- Bart still has the same energy! (I hope this is not an act this time...) I love the Team dynamic: Virgil helping Cassie and thir hand five, Bart trying to stop the bugs from attacking Jaime, Cassie rescuing Jaime, Jaime helping Traci :3 The weapon has to be similar to Genesis tech to hurt Blue however...
- Baby martians look... cute? I think when he kills the green martian, it was on the mental plane and not a memory since he has that beast form. The nostalgia! Everyone is back in season 1 and with their season 1 version of themselves, except Artemis and... why do you have to bring Wally in every single damn episode?? Conner is M’gann shield! 
- And two more metateens dead TT.TT Wait, failsafe? Poor Forager! He just wants justice and kindness :( I love how Cassie and Jaime jump on his side and M’gann adds two arms to adapt to his appearance. I’m sure M’gann’brother made the green bug mad telepathically, because Mantis already knew Forager brought the Earthlings and Bear on New Genesis when he first stopped the bugs’ attack.
- I need more of the trio Traci/Jaime/Bart to see their friendship, Traci’s story. And more Cassie and Virgil screentime because we barely saw them in season 2 and in this episode :( 
- Why Blue seems so angry all the time? He had like one positive line in this episode. Is he still dealing with his trauma in season 2? Is he angry at himself? I don’t know if it’s anger, frustration or self-hatred :( I just want him to be happy after the nightmare in season 2 :( But I think it would be more human if he still has to deal with himself after being mindcontrolled for months... 
—————————— Rescue Op
- Black Spider and Terra. The goggles have to much screen time to not have an importance after. Who was Jackie? “All the bosses will be proud” So Shadows + Light + Darkseid?
- So Barbara is indeed in a wheelchair :( I love how she still can push Dick down :) And barbdick are a new couple :) We need another ship name, a more YJ like one :)
- The Outsiders trio is so cool! So Forager don’t use pronouns so much. So he’s a he, she or them? Wow, Halo knows a lot about New Genesis. Another clue for the Motherbox theory. M’gann is so done to explain she’s not a earthling: “I’m not from Earth” “I’m from Mars!” “Brion is the alien to Forager” this is so true. Thanks for putting this! I love how Brion is so enthousiastic to meet aliens :) He looks like a kid! So bioship is in a car camouflage. Maybe that’s why Halo hurt herself so bad :( Mars town xD “That’s what we were thinking too. We? Uh Me” (and Oracle xD) So is Tara controled, brainwashed, has her memories rewritten? Or is she willingly working for the Shadows?
- Why I think Forager x bioship will become a... ship? xD Like Will x clipboard xD
- Dick, if you don’t want them to go to the Shadows, why did you show Brion their localisation? --’
- Halo’s enthousiasm is so cute! Forager’s too! 
- Why it feels like Sensei is manipulating Brion with words just to make him mad? I’m sure he’s lying.
- Can we talk about Brion’s extreme reaction to Halo’s death? Parallel to Spitfire maybe? And can we please stop killing Halo? I know she will ressurect but it’s still painful :( 
- Why the ninja fighting style reminds me of Robin? Like an older Damian?
- It’s indeed Sphere who starts the healing processus. “Is Halo a new god?” Another clue for the theory?
- When Ra’s mention “the Detective”, Dick growls. Is he mad at Batman? Or at the comment? Ra’s isn’t with the Light and at the head of the Shadows anymore. So who? Sportmaster? Cheshire or Deathstroke would be good clues! Ra’s should be mad at Jade with how he said “Get out!”
- Talia with Damian? So who is... Jason?? An amnesic Jason. Ok. I’m fine. I just need to... WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT???? (I don’t like the deisgn of Talia which is too close from the animated movies: no bra is definitely not a good idea to fight and she looks too white for an Arabic person :/ Damian is ok I guess?) Do Ra’s want to “return” Jason when he will have his memories back or to use him against the batfamily? Jason should have been trained by Sensei for Dick to not recognize his fighting style.
- Brion really looks like Conner’s mentee with his clothes xD The parallel with the first trio (Robin, KF and Aqualad) Why are you breaking my heart like this? Except they did save Superboy when we don’t have intel of where Tara is :( Dick is still so sensitive when we talk about Wally :( And he looks so much like Batman now: same speech. Same situation, same result: another team is born! Poor Violet :( And the guy with the spiderweb tatoo could work with the Shadows? Or am I confusing with RWBY? xD 
3 episodes = 3 trio. I love it! :D I know we will have more scenes with the Outisders but I also need the other trios: more screetime with the Harperfamily (the bowfamily?) and the Team!  
I guess we will see the Batman Incorporation next week? Since we didn’t see them at all in 6 episodes. And more second season team would be great too, they only have one episode so far :( 
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Aslaug, Siggy and Helga for the character meme
Aslaug
do I like them: Lol, I don’t think I need to answer this one.5 good qualities: She’s courageous, motherly, diplomatic when it comes to her kingdom, wise and tenacious.3 bad qualities: She’s very insecure (she went through a lot so idk if we can blame her for it but she is) and entitled (though I do think that changed as time went on, she was so… defeated towards the end) and she was probably an alcoholic though she seemed really well functioning.favourite episode/etc: 4x12 was really great for Aslaug, it had a lot of important moments and I loved itotp: Aslaug x Harald because that should have been a thing!!!brotp: Aslaug and Thorunn really got me in the feels, I wish they had kept that as a thing.ot3: Aslaug x Siggy x Helga AND NOW THEY’RE ALL GONE TT.TTnotp: Fucking Harbard and Aslaug should not have happened once, let alone twice.best quote: Her verbal smackdown of Lagertha’s invasion in 4x14 was perfect.head canon: She grew up in the court of her foster-father heimr, who never stopped telling her stories of her parents (because this Aslaug clearly didn’t grow up in poverty) though he died before she married Ragnar. Which is good for Ragnar because Heimr would have gone to war if he heard about how badly Aslaug was treated.
Siggy
do I like them: Yes, I love her, she’s a true queen.5 good qualities: She’s clever, strong, and politically savvy. She’s also… like, she may be slow to trust someone (for good reason) but once she does she’s fiercely loyal and protective.3 bad qualities: She oscillates between being too straightforward and too vague with her words sometimes. She can also be quite cold sometimes, but it’s not for a lack of compassion. IDK, I’m having a hard time coming up with bad qualities for her. I’ve said it before, but for all the coding the show and the fans did of her as a “scheming woman” who got “redeemed” (FOR WHAT) she really didn’t do anything wrong and she was in most cases, just a woman in a difficult position constantly.favourite episode/etc: Oh god, hmm, well… I think 2x02 or 2x03? Like, can I just say those two episodes? Because that stretch I think was really great for showing us some of her inner complexities, from her conversation with Aslaug to taking up arms to fight on the beach.otp: … Rollo x Siggy in like the weirdest way, because I mean… she did so much for Rollo, she propped him up so many times. Like, before the show went for a very literal interpretation of Floki/Helga as Loki/Sigyn, Rollo/Siggy were the Loki/Sigyn of the show. It’s in the promo, with Siggy throwing out the bowl of poison. It made me sad how Clive in an interview was like “Siggy was just out for herself” because, no she fucking wasn’t, if she was she would’ve dropped Rollo’s ass after his 2nd crisis. brotp: Siggy and Lagertha in season 1&2 were nice, but equally I love how straighforward she was in her friendship with Aslaug.ot3: ^^ See my answer to the Aslaug sectionnotp: Rollo/Siggy - I told you it’s a complicated relationshipbest quote: “ I want my old position back. I am bitter and I am angry. Everything I had, everything I possessed, everything that I was has been stripped away from me. And my anger is like a stone… A stone that I carry inside me that… Weighs me down. I… I cannot lift it. [In some ways, you are still fortunate. Ragnar could have had you killed at the same time as your husband.] I am supposed to be eternally grateful to my husband’s killer?” I don’t think we realized how complex and wonderful Siggy was till we lost her.head canon: She’s drinking and living like a queen with her family in the afterlife, it’s canon.
Helga
do I like them: Yes, of course, she’s such a cupcake of a person!5 good qualities: She’s kind, generous and openly loving. She’s deeply empathetic and understanding of everyone.3 bad qualities: I mean, her season 4b storyline… I know she was really suffering but just like with Aslaug(’s insecurity) and bb Siggy, we can’t ignore the affects she had on others. She completely ignored Tanaruz’s personhood and kidnapped her away and just, did not help her at all. favourite episode/etc: 2x07? Her wedding to Floki was so pretty and I loved how happy they were.otp: Floki/Helgabrotp: … Helga and Aslaug? I’m not sure, Helga kind of got turned into wallpaper who was disconnected from everyone except Floki in season 4.ot3: Season 3 was so awful for giving me Helga x Aslaug x Siggy for like 3 minutes and then TEARING THEM AWAY FROM ME.notp: Ragnar/Helga… I saw some people talk about that because of Ragnar’s scenes with them in 4x11 and just… no.best quote: Her goodbye speech to Floki was really beautiful and sad.head canon: Helga goes off into the woods alone sometimes for her “me” time, or into Kattegat, where she has a whole bunch of friends that we never see.
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plankton-in-space · 7 years
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Journal, in a way
Just some news, mostly personal stuff.
It’s been a very weird period for me. I’ve been doing some thinking about my behaviour, my choices, my obsessions, my dreams. Keeping a journal really helped since I reconsidered so much of what I thought I was, in a good way. I found the root of some problems and I finally decided it’s time to visit a psychologist. I think that I get stuck in loops and can’t get out of them for the same things and I really need some help that isn’t my friends. I am very very thankful for them, but they can only do so much and they have their own lives.
Also, I gave some thought to my sexuality. I still identify as ace, but I think I am more demisexual? in a way? Also, definitely still biromantic, leaning a bit more to girls (like, 70-30). And I need to take this into account when looking for a psychologist, because it’s something I want to be able to talk openly about.
I’ve been feeling more lonely i guess? and i want to find someone too, to cuddle and share secrets. Not necessarily a girlfriend, since for me close friendships are very satisfying too, but I’m at that age when my friends start to get married/engaged/in long term relationships, and the loneliness strikes more deeply. At 20, it didn’t even register. Now i feel like i will die alone, sob, sob. Then again, I didn’t really want a relationship when i was younger. I didn’t need it then. Now, I want companionship more.
I am a very introverted person, though. So, i’ve been trying to go out more and meet new people, but it’s so HARD for me. My schedule is a bit tight and the things I enjoy the most are all solitary (like drawing/reading/movies). Something has to give, and i haven’t found that balance yet. I am working on it. Or, more accurately, I was, because now I am sick and I can do nothing TT.TT
So far, I’ve started swimming at the local swimming pool (didn’t help in the friends department, since almost everyone is middle aged, but i enjoy it SO MUCH) and drawing at cafes (i’m still hoping to meet a fellow nerd there). It’s very nice, it gets me out of the house, but i need more time to meet people there. It’s been a bit more than a month, after all.
Generally, life has gotten too much for me. I undertook so much stuff in such a short period of time that I am constantly tired and behind on something. My webcomic (and drawing in general) has taken a back seat and more important things like eating/sleeping are getting harder and harder to do. I think I may have bitten off more than I can chew. Proof? I got sick with the flu, even though i take care of myself, and I can’t seem to get better.
I think i need a break, but everything i’m doing right now is too important to stop. So, i am trying to at least pace myself. Each day, a different thing has priority. Why did no one tell me that adulthood was so hard?
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