#I just wanna vanish

[testing-tranquility]

i think this is the worst I’ve felt in a While

#vent tag #ok sorry look away I’m just complaining again #i think I might lose it. as a treat. tee hee and whatever #idk how to cope #I just wanna sleep all the time like god why am I awake #i feel sick w stress. or maybe I’m just sick who knows who cares lol I still haven’t seen a doctor and I guess it’s my fault #I’m like rly giving up on life recently I think #like whatever it’s literally all my own fault and i can’t manage it on my own #idk #i just wanna vanish #god I need help #Tristan talks

[hollytanaka]

@giftober 2023 | day 15: grief + HALO 4 (2012)

– Chief, I won't pretend to know how you feel. I've lost people I care about, but… never anything like you're going through. – Our duty, as soldiers, is to protect humanity. Whatever the cost.

#giftober2023 #also steve downes yesterday at HaloWC said he loved this scene ok byee #haloedit #halo series #halo 4 #gamingedit #videogameedit #vgedit #fpsource #usertravelllar #userkayluh #thomas lasky #cortana #john 117 #master chief #343 industries #*halo #** #lasky walked away in between the gifs; he didn't vanish; i just didn't wanna gif that lol #scheduled

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

why do spiders exist and how can i get rid of them. permanently. with no damage to the ecosystem just cut and delete

#currently posting from the tenuous safety of my bathtub as it was by the door #and now its probably in my clean change of clothes #can i shower in peace??? hm??? can i? Can I? #big ass fucking harvestman. vanished in a blink #i turned away for One Second #fuck fuck fuck it was On the light switch #why is my life? #its always fuckin somethin smh.... #if someone could just snipe me real quick thatd be great. dont wanna deal with this #i gotta start keeping my killing stick in the bathroom stg theres always a spider in here #absolutely unprompted #im gonna look down and its gonna by crawling up my towel #that is a valid fear its happened Before #and also yes i know harvestmen arent spiders. but they look like it so they count in my fear #NOW THERES A FUCKING SILVERFISH???? WHAT IS THIS? MINECRAFT????? #i am soooooo going to bed early tonight. hard reset. im done w today #gonna use my extra towel to whip the shit outta my surroundings #'take a shower' they said. 'youll feel better' they said #its always. fucking. Something.

[ohhiplumbob]

Casandra Goth’s bedroom 🖤

#ts4 #the sims #the sims 4 #simblr #goth #the goths #might delete later #idk #today we're playing is it depression or just pms #and i wanna delete all of my mods and all of my blog posts #and just vanish #because I never feel good enough #haha that got deeper than i meant it to #ily i hope you're having a good day

[saline-coelacanth]

I was randomly thinking about the ninja's parents earlier and now I wanna make a poll

I put them into pairs instead of as individuals because idk I felt like it I guess

#ninjago #lego ninjago #polls #i'm too lazy to tag all the characters #also none of the dr ninja because #we've barely seen arin's parents #sora's parents are terrible everyone hates them #wyldfyre is the only one who has parents that we really get to see who aren't shitty #those being heatwave and that robot who just sort of vanished i guess #seriously what happened to them i wanna see them again #but anyway it would feel weird to include wyldfyre but not the other two i guess

[mister13eyond]

honestly i love this stupid kirby meme for the dumbest reason:

which is that "i want to dead" has lodged itself as permanent echolalia in my brain, so when i'm Spiraling it becomes the despair mantra my mind is chanting, which like

WOULD be harrowing, but i keep picturing this sad little low poly kirby saying it and i'm just patting his angular little head like "i know kirby, i know, but the horrors persist and so must my juicy ass"

#externalizing my impulsive spiral thoughts as a separate entity was only step one #step two was making that entity a charmingly pathetic little guy who must be treated with compassion #broke: yelling at the imaginary personification of your suicidal thoughts for being a loud dick #woke: seeing this sad little kirby and sagely comforting him #tw sui ideation #mental health #also it's worth noting that like #i've come far enough that these days 'i want to dead' doesnt carry nearly the weight it used to #like yeah it's bouncing around my brain like a frantic echolalia every time i'm upset and overwhelmed #but i know low poly kirby doesnt ACTUALLY want to dead #he want to turn down the volume of everything happening and it's the only way he knows to express it #the kneejerk impulse will probably never go away #i spent too long with my immediate reaction to every struggle being 'i wanna die' for the habit to ever fully vanish #but i can't get mad at my brain for saying it #it's just a sad little low poly kirby ok #be nice to him. he's so low poly

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Au idea: Little Naruto raised by a shulk, Kurama made contact very early and kept the boy company and eventually Naruto disappeared into the forest to live with fox summons. He only ever really showed up to steal or pull pranks but he disappeared right into the summons realm before anyone could catch him.

When the Genin are ready to graduate Naruto is just there, with his wild hair and fox aunt.

Iruka doesn’t know how to respond to this, he’s blue screened.

:-)

#u would have to have him vanish maybe within a year of thr Uchiha massicure #say he was in danger. the seal gets messed up so his 9 tails chakra goes all weird andand idk kurama calls in a bunch of foxes to get him #outta there. and bc im an iruka simp we can say iruka was on his way to help but wasnt fast enough. but they still have the existing #relationship bc Iruka's been his teacher for like almost 2 years and has treated him like a human #then he spends like 3yrs? with the foxes. learning from stollen scrolls. and shows up for the genin exam #and they say he can take the exam if he spends a few days in class with the other kids and iruka deems him eligible #then he passes so u dont get the big mizuki scene bit iruka keeps hanging around bc he felt so horrible abt naruto disappearing #so naruto is more competent earlier bc kurama is working with him. but is more influenced by the 9tails anger and has to be drawn away #from thst by iruka and team 7. lol there. thats how i would justify this #naruto #uzumaki naruto #umino iruka #also i just like the idea of foxes buying ramen with money and teuchi just being like. sure. ok. i guess i serve carry out to foxes now #also i feel like fox summons just like normal foxes and only communicate in the heads of those they wanna talk to #sneaky telepaths

[wutheringdevotion]

here i am, once again interrupting your scrolling to bring nothing of absolute importance to you!! i hate to know i have been (and still am) making people wait so under the cut is a list of all the 1 + month old replies i owe. please, let me know how you feel about them! if you want to keep the thread going, if you have lost interest after so long (understandly), if you want to drop them all or keep some in the case of multiple threads. I'm down for starting something new with the same ship or something new in general. thanks so much in advance!

@finclgicls - lucas and seren, freddie and olive, oliver and adalia, maaya and florence, maggie and adrian, thiago and lake, orion and nomi

@mocnlighted - thiago and juniper, lola and lincoln, naya and theodore, simone and xiomena

@seolinah vincent and bernie, dakota and kayla.

@thedevilsbckbone - adrian and gwen (X2), evan and evie.

@thewolfruns - selena and freddie

@missmvrder - naya and satya

@midnightrainrp - evan and reyna

@daringsunflowers - enrique and talia, evan and jasmine.

@godstrayed - angel and mal-chin

@myxticdoubts - mateo and adrita

@persephonyed - simone and flora

#ooc* #this is not the complete list because anything under the one month wait will get replied to #i just wanna know people's instance on these because it took me fucking long and i understand interest vanishing

[cleromancy]

dick stans who feel threatened by like. literally any other dc character than bruce are so goofy like... you dont need to. i promise you dont need to. youre biting your nails anxious defensive staring at the 2nd-3rd horses lagging halfway down the track in a race your guy's *already won*. like please be serious

#''like sure my guy has more merch appearances history adaptations and is overall treated by canon with more consistency and respect'' #''but what if the 40 year head start vanished overnight bc everyone started liking the other guy more'' #i dont think you gotta worry about that man. #and my condolences about the ric arc bruce stealing his robin tts everything etc but it could b worse: #ur fav could be practically any other dc character. #however. its also pretty funny of me to say this as a jason todd guy who was originally a dick grayson guy so #maybe you should feel threatened actually 🤷 #anyway dickie ilu im kissimg your little forehead. dont listen to ur stans all ur friends and family love u #i always just wind up pretending the person was actually channeling dicks insecurities like #😱😱 what if donna DID start loving jason more what if tim DID replace me what if roy HATES ME now bc jason was telling him LIES #and then whatever annoying thing i saw circles back around to being funny. #like even in the cases of roy and tim briefly liking jason more in canon that. is already getting phased out and also at least for *roy* if+ #that makes you madder than any of the other ways his character got slamdunked in the trash i dont wanna fuckin hear it from u

[iconsumeheadcanons]

cub aint special. i turn into the sculk every time i have a migraine. he just needs some coffee and this possession will be over with

#skxmxmdmd i love when the hermits get possessed. they are normal people #cubs ep just makes me think he would fit right in w the empires smp if he ever wanted to #not that im in charge. but hes got the right energy. #cubfan135 #empires #hermitcraft #empires smp #boop.txt #i might wanna make a list if hermits i think would do really good empires on esmp #and maybe what theme i think theyd build on #also i wish my migraines would vanish w coffee ;; ive got the stupid ones that r resistant to meds aaaaaaaaa

[wifeyana]

Thinking about how I used to have vivid hallucinations and wondering if I'm okay

#i be teleporting and shit #and i have never been high #yet #literally vanish into a different universe #and i would literally zone out just to get fucked while I stare at a wall #i can't explain it the way i wanna #but they're so vivid i swear i can feel the characters my brain conjures #like their skin and shit #they're alive to me #maybe I'm not normal #idk #you tell me

[guideaus]

hearing anything abt israel really makes me wanna go crazy :/ you've got endless footage of them proudly recording their own crimes for each other's entertainment (with them at most being like "maybe we shouldn't share it... we might get in trouble..."), and then here in the west the people in charge are comfortable enough to just flat out ignore all the people here and blame the victims there, and It's so....

#personal #that article abt the telegram channel in israel... how evil do these people have to be #meanwhile i see my state's organization speaks to their gov and not a single person thats supposed to be listening is #they all look like bored kids in class or customers that hate the workers and wish they'd vanish. our representatives!! #the UN can apparently finally pull out a desperate action of finally voting against 'veto everything' US and israel doesnt even have to #listen... #idk just hearing any news makes me feel like im gonna go nuts. why is it so backwards!! no one in charge cares!! #and ppl STILL wanna say the 'vote blue no matter who' shit?? when we already know from 2016 voting does not matter #thats not how it works! i just feel soo frustrated

[tracle0]

Bvvvvvv

#Art #Artist #artist on tumblr #original art #digital art #tw eyestrain #my art #hello I’m still alive I’m just easing off social media usage #Still around somewhat but much less than before yknow? Yknow #Don’t wanna vanish but also don’t wanna have my automatic bored response be to scroll on tumblr so I’m stopping for a while and reading #Currently on the Stormlight archives book 3 that’s cool! #Here’s this! It’s unrelated to the books. I think I was trying for a Cain vibe at first #And then a Theo vibe #But I think it’s too relaxed and serene for either of them so. Who knows #Once again inspired by James fenner you should check him out his stuff is gorgeous #And I don’t think I like how the pine trees in the background are. I think they need to be taller or. More? Maybe denser. They just seem. #Odd I suppose. Hmm. Oh well! #I’ve got therapy in. Oh! Half an hour. Better get cracking. Have a good day you! #Trade-marked

[solarpunkani]

listening to the aesthetic week spotify playlist (more on that later) and got jumpscared (read: almost teared up) by Undertale by Toby Fox, a song that I added.

#out of queue #ani rambles #not solarpunk #but also its the solarpunk aesthetic week playlist so it kinda is #listen. you didn't hear it from me. but. #none of us know punk music. or even solarpunk music. #we just put what vibes with solarpunk for US #so rn its mostly lofi and acoustics and folky tunes with maybe 2 green day songs and 1 jimmy eat world #i might go in and add some yellowcard faves but uh. you get the gist #if you're reading this and you wanna participate in solarpunk aesthetic week. and you know some nice solarpunky songs or even punky songs #add that shit to the community playlist when we share the link #this is not an order but this is a strong request i wanna hear new tunes #*vanishes into the ether*

[saltynsassy31]

See this? This is what not to do during a splatfest

This is the exact type of people that make splatfests not fun :/

Like, I wouldn't even care if we lost if people didn't make stuff like this, act like they're better and all that, it's devastating that people will do this

Every spaltfest I fear of people like this and they always resurface from the depth of hell to torment the poor people, and then they ask why we are upset about a "silly squid game" like they aren't the ones actively causing the rage

#salty rants #like seriously #i wish people like this would just vanish and let us enjoy the game #altho ive seen more toxic stuff on twitter #like always #tumblr has its faid share #which is a shame #but its easier to dodge #i simply just blocked them and i also dont wanna show their user bame #like i dont have a big influence but putting them on blast is not my intention and i dont wanna single them out #im just showing one example of stuff ive been seeing every splatfest #if you come across this posr just block please for the love of cod TwT #splatoon 3 #splatoon #splatfest #vanilla vs strawberry vs mint chip

[wanders-in-stars]

"Who's next?"

#sprucing up Tamar's wardrobe. this one's gonna be her fancy ceremonial Dragonborn outfit #as in. post-sovngarde main quest stuff #also gave her a twinblade instead of a quarterstaff for it. felt like a natural progression for her #i imagine the horns are trophies from a dragon. i wanna say alduin but i can't recall if he turns into a skeleton or just vanishes #skyrim #skyrim oc #oc: tamar