#I just want to have a girlfriend already

[dollypopup]

thinking about the 'I would never court Penelope Featherington' scene again and how angry our fandom has been at Colin for it for the last two years and wondering. . .what exactly was he meant to say?

Lord Fife and his friends are *slimy*. They are gross. They have 0 respect for women. Fife isn't *Colin's* friend. Fife is *Anthony's* friend. Fife runs in Anthony's circles. Misogynistic circles with misogynistic language. Fife and Co. are out here saying the debutantes are only good for being 'wed, bed, and bred'. Fife is the one out here, well into his 30s and with an established title, fucking an 18 year woman raw on her first year out in the marriage mart with 0 intention to marry her. That is 10000% an act of violence in this society. And you *know* he's bragging about it. Hell, he was probably bragging about it right before he asked Colin about Penelope.

Colin's not in those circles. Colin has female friends. Colin respects his mother. Colin cares for his sisters. The worst thing Colin has EVER said about a woman was to call her 'cruel'.

So. . .what is Colin meant to say? "No, we're just friends" isn't going to fly for people like Fife. As IF he wouldn't reply with 'Yeah, suuuuuure, wink wink nudge nudge'. Thus ruining Penelope and fucking over her future completely. A lesser man than Colin would have let them think what they wanted, and that would have still ruined Penelope in their eyes. Silence? Incriminating.

And he doesn't want FIFE of all people to know about his close friendship with Penelope. Fife who has never once been seen respecting a woman. Fife who has never once viewed a woman as a person and not a sexual conquest. Penelope is a safe place for Colin. Is precious to him. He KNOWS that conversation could have destroyed her reputation.

People talk about how he 'ruined her prospects', but in actuality, Colin responding the way he did. . .likely SAVED her prospects. There was NOTHING he could have said except for a vehement refusal, completely shutting down the conversation, that would have spared her from their judgement and cruelty. Sure, they laughed, and maybe it was at Pen. Maybe it was at Colin. (frankly, how good of a twist would it be if they WERE laughing at Colin? Colin the 'green' boy back from his travels after being oh so gullible and getting lied to by his ex fiance? Anthony made fun of Colin for being a virgin, we think these men, all 10+ years older than him, wouldn't do the same?) But at least they didn't go 'yeah, I guess she's a ruined woman' about it, because that *would* have destroyed her reputation

We talk about how Colin could have worded it differently, but honestly?

I think he said the exact right thing in those circumstances

#polin #penelope featherington #colin bridgerton #bridgerton #lord fife #lord cho #fife and company are so gross to me i do NOT understand the narrative of fife just wanting pen for himself #she's a little too old for him at this point considering he's looking for his girlfriend on a playground don't you think? #sorry not sorry i will forever be a colin apologist #no but really what should he have said???? #'oh yeah we're fucking six ways to sunday?' #'no she's just my friend'? - Fife doesn't believe for a MOMENT that a man can value a woman as a friend #colin is the best man in that entire bunch but somehow he's the one we've demonized? #make it make sense #and sure he should apologize for talking about her behind her back- but Penelope should also then apologize for the same #we talk a lot about him being 'knocked off the pedestal' but in reality we've put him on the highest pedestal possible #colin is a GOOD man #he is arguably the best man in the entire series #at least he's the man with the best intentions and the least harm #and so when he fucks up we feel it ten fold because he was already so good #but when gross dudes fuck up we just expect it of them and give them a pass #we expect colin to not only be better- but to be perfect #and he isn't he can't be #he didn't say it perfectly #but OBVIOUSLY his intentions in that scene aren't malicious #and it's not locker room talk either? #look at the optics: Colin is 22 being asked by these 30+ year old dudes 'sooooo are you boinking the girl'? #one season after his engagement blew up publicly #in the season where no one listens to his travel stories #the season after he was virgin shamed

[dayurno]

so kevin was the one who bought jean the magnets and postcards. as souvenirs.

i fear we, the kevjean nation, may not survive this.

kevin used to write him messages and memories and they ruined it

#tsc spoilers #i dont wanna be repetitive so i wont be rehashing this out too much #but i thought the kevin in tsc was very different in a good way but in a startling way too #hes clearly a pillar of stability for jean which is weird enough of a mouthful on its own #considering its Kevin and he is famously Unstable #i thought his immediate switch after the ichirou news was so interesting? #he was panicking just as badly as jean was but as soon as neil left them alone he strongheld jean through it #the k/j dynamic is very much what i already thought it was and it did not disappoint #anything for this stupid man…. #jean keeping his promise to the end whether he liked it or not #kevin really is the first ethically manipulative girlfriend 😭😭😭😭 #these werent crumbs at all these were full meals w space for seconds #jean being in love with him was almost like. secondary #if you can believe it #but uuuh yeah im happy that i dont have to change much of how i write any of them #except maybe jeremy which is its own can of worms #oh my acolytes… how i wanted to like him #how i did not #asks #kevjean

[spacedlexi]

violentine literally has everything. tension to friends to lovers. i wall myself off from people to keep myself safe but theres something about you. we understand each other. going against your group to stand up for this person and what you believe is right. "i saw that you were in danger and i just acted without thinking". battle team. co leaders. "ive lost so many people and i cant lose you too i wont". struggling single parent finding someone who supports her And her kid. not-so-ex-girlfriend one of the main villains. go to war together. captured together. escape together but lost in the chaos and later reuniting. twice. fighting ex together. twice. making it back (mostly) safe and sound and building a real home worth fighting for together

BUT theyre in a choice game so you can also have: betrayal. manipulated by not-so-ex-girlfriend in a moment of severe weakness into agreeing with the wrong side. fighting against each other (and later apologizing). severe injury? DEATH?? no matter what a sacrifice is Made???

#clem looking for a home and finding one at ericsons. vi never seeing ericsons as a home and even wanting to leave until clem showed up 😭 #clem wouldnt have even been ALLOWED to stay at ericsons post ep1 if not for violet sticking up for her throughout ep2 #violets act of standing up for clem being the catalyst for her stepping into a leadership position. seeing her self confidence grow sm #clem already knowing how to lead. helping take some weight off violets shoulders. balancing the work of keeping everyone going #THEY ARE EACH OTHERS ROCKS!!!!!! AAAAHHH #star watching date making up their own constellations.......slow dancing............. #calling each other girlfriends.... #4 kisses 🥺 #3 way girlfriend smackdown sdfgsdg TWICE #they feed me so well #their ship name is also S tier what can i say but thats just bonus points #holds the mic out anybody got anything to add did i miss anything #these two inflict so many emotions upon me every time i replay they are everything 2 me #it speaks #twdg #violentine

[girldewar]

thinkin about the deweys . as always

#there is this trend i have noticed within myself #where whenever it hits finals season i want to avoid doing my finals so so so bad #that i just start coming up with the most unhinged depressing fic concepts ever known by man #today's is a post-trade queer isolation fic centered on the way things weren't perfect in minnesota not by far #but at least connor was a little sure -- a bit mind you nothing crazy or anything #but a little sure that if his teammates didn't already know what was going on with brandon they'd just accepted a certain level of #Weirdness #that gave them a pretty long leash re: what they could get away with without being noticed or ostracized #but now he's on the leafs and he's running into all these new issues he never had to worry about before #they want to know why he's on his phone all the time. they want to know if he has a girlfriend. they want to know about brandon #but not like that of course why would they have any reason to think it was like that. and even if they did think it was like that -- #connor has enough to worry about already without being on sheldon keefe's or auston matthews' or whoever's shitlist for being queer #or for that matter the toronto media's shitlist. and to top it all off he and brandon aren't even in the same country anymore. #not even in the same CONFERENCE #fuck. #bees speaks #ok bye im gonna go stare at this stupid poem for a while #rpf talk #2126

[caffeinatedopossum]

I'm trying really hard to give myself the room to accept my aromanticism despite being in a seemingly romantic relationship with my girlfriend but it's so hard because I know very few people will understand it

#like 'how can you be aromantic if youre in a relationship??' like damn idk bro im just out here loving and committing to people #what more do you want from me #but that sense that im not 'real' like i camt actually fit in to the community is so stronf #im worried that other aromantics will think im fake or misrepresenting them or something :( #or even worse that people will pity my girlfriend :( i know some already do because of my asexuality #idk how to respond to that because one hand i do understand that most people would not be in a relationship with me like this #but my girlfriend is in a relationship with me by choice which means clearly whatever compromise youre imagining shes making #to stay with me is worth it to her #otherwise she wouldnt have stayed with me for 2 years #lmao she has so many options too. like so many people like her and she still chooses me >_<

[weed-hotel]

rereading all for the game makes it even funnier to see kevaarons fandom popularity like i could swear they dont even talk in canon. and yeah its just a way to make kevandrew happen without disrupting andreil (even though the twins are nothing alike and fandom makes them like yandere stoic types when theyre NOT. i mean andrew a little but i digress) but still. hilarious

#its just so funny that fandom is like We Have To Put Kevin In One of These Relationships like its either andrew and neil or jeremy and jean #or aaron and katelyn (my personal fave bc i think its funny to make two homophobic characters share a girlfriend) #but like in canon he just wants to play exy and die alone AND ALREADY HAS A GF. but god forbid that fandom acts normal about thea #aftg

[pacifymebby]

If you can be arsed with all those tags and fancy giving me brutal advice read away haha

#something is definitely going wrong for me because I want to go out tomorrow night with my mate who is thinking about getting a bag in and #and that lowkey sounds like a lot of fun to me and i wanna chip in but like i think B wants to come out and if he does i cant join in with #my pal because B would very much be against me doing that and like ugh #he doesnt even drink at the moment and i feel like out of nowhere hes matured but in all the wrong ways #like in none of the ways ive been wanting him to for the last few years #but in the ways which mean our nights out arent compatible anymore #and i know im the problem for wanting to be nihilistic hedonistic whatever #but i feel like im getting back the bit of my early 20s covid and working in care robbed me of #and hes already had his phase of that sort of stuff but like would be annoyed with me if i was doing coke around him and stuff #im definitely being selfish and should just say no to the drugs and like be a good girlfriend but #ahhhhhh idk if i cant have christmas like and i didn't get christmas eve at the pub then i kinda want boxing day at the pub with my mates #ugh #a tiny part of me is considering changing my plans with b and being borderline dishonest but also i know that #doing that is going to make whatever problem there is between us worse? #ultimately i know that im morally in the wrong here tbh and also like a bit of a loser

[sapphosclown]

personally i think i deserve to hold a girls hand. to stare at her with the so much love in my eyes that it makes other people sick. to kiss her cheek, to post her on instagram, to laugh with, to call mine, to kiss on the lips. i deserve to hold the door open for her wherever we go and pay for dinner and drive her wherever she wants us to go.

i think i deserve to have a girl who holds my hand and looks at me with so much love in her eyes it makes other people sick and thanks me for holding the door for her and giggles when i kiss her on the cheek and who calls me hers.

i don’t think that’s too much to ask.

#bonks pining era #so simply put i would be such a good girlfriend. i just want to make her happy :( #there’s a universe out there where the girl i like is not with her bf and i asked her out already #however this is not that universe. #i do feel irrationally confident i am capable of that though? #for the record i am so pro being single #i just have never experienced love and sure would like to #bonk thoughts

[stonefemblues]

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#i want to tell my girlfriend i **** him but i’m so nervous to bc we haven’t said it out loud yet #like i want the moment to be Right… i don’t want to rush it…. #i think they feel the same #so far we’ve just been saying i reeeeeaally like you #aughh why is it hard to say #i guess i’m like. idk just a tiny bit scared of having too many feelings or something but it’s too late i already have the feelings #we said at the beginning we don’t want to rush things #we’ve been dating for about 2 months now is that too early??? #and we’ve only known each other for like a month or so longer than that

[lyxchen]

Okay look I love Kitty and Yuri together but I don't actually think they should end up together. Because I think Yuri is genuinely in love with Julianna and she won't just give that up. So far from what I've seen they are very much in a good relationship with each other and plan to stay that way. They are cute, they are happy, they have plans for the future and they fought so hard to be together so it would be really unfair and also out of character to just take that away from them especially since they are finally back together now. And I do think Kitty deserves do find a cute girlfriend but it doesn't have to be Yuri. There are for sure so many other cute girl Kitty hasn't met yet that will also be perfect for her. I think Yuri is very important for Kitty because she is part of her self discovery. Kitty found out she was into girls through Yuri and that's great!! But that doesn't immediately mean that they have to be together, especially when Yuri is already in a committed relationship. I do think they are very cute together and would be amazing as friends tho!!

#xo kitty #idk i just wanted to say my opinion #to me it just feels like yuri isn't into kitty #but she is still important to kitty #and this show is all about self discovery #and yuri is part of kitty's self discovery #also i don't want this to sound like yuri is just a plot device for kitty's story #because she's not #she has her own life with her own issues and things she meeds to figure out #but i just don't really feel like she could be a potential love interest for kitty ever though kitty does have a crush on her #and that's fine #because as we've already seen: you don't have to be with everyone you crush on #you can be but sometimes it's also just kot right #also i Love julianna #she's so cute just look at her #i am a yuri x julianna shipper<3 #i love them #and i want kitty to find a very cute girlfriend next season because that's what she deserves after all this relationship drama♡ #but also #she's bi (or pan idk it hasn't been said specially) #so it would also be totally fine if she ends up with a boy #idk i just want all of them to be happy okay? #anyways i'm done rambling now i hope i made my point clear #i'm gonna go make some yuri julianna and q florian fanart now♡ #xo kitty spoilers

[wikipediary]

Don’t wanna be ‘friends’ (using this term extremely loosely) with this one girl i’m in the same cohort/course with…her belief system + the way she perceives other people and the world is so…i cannot think of a better word so: SHUDDERING. but she’s friends with my circle of cohort/friends so she’ll always be in my circle…?

#she cheated with her ex when her ex already had a new girlfriend and she didn’t feel any remorse at all #she justified her cheating by saying sex is just sex w/her ex & that she wanted her ex’s gf (which she hasn’t even met or known) to feel the #(same things she did hurt; betrayed; cheated on) and i’m like. you’re a fucking cheater? that’s so horrible for you to do? #you don’t even know this girl? she came to be with ur ex in an appropriate way? wdym she deserves to be cheated on because you did… #BY ANOTHER MAN? not even this specific ex? #literally so insane. and she’s like: im going to therapy blah blah blah but clearly you lack the respect and consciousness #me and my friend who listened to her said that she should confess that they cheated with each other to the poor girl but she’s like… #‘not my business’ uhm the fuck it is? you were a third party. and saying that the boy should be the one confessing…uhm WHY NOT U BOTH? #and their relationship (ex and girl) CONTINUED even after the fact and they broke up only recently (early march) and idk if the girl knew #like. truly. i’ve never met someone so incredibly…vile? i guess? what’s a better word for it 😭 #and what’s also so inappropriate about her is that she has like a bf and she keeps droning on about her ex like rent free in her mind #keeps flirting w other men; looking at them and saying she has crushes and all that and want to make a move. like. YOU HAVE A BF? #i don’t wanna be near someone like that. and what’s unfortunate is my close friend is close with her so i’m a ‘friend’ BY association #and that friend of mine also can’t disentangle herself from her bec she’s her first ever friend in uni lmao. so there’s sentimentality there #& we talked abt this w each other; how disappointing it was for her to be like that. and how my friend feels she’s complacent in being okay #with cheating (but she’s not) and i’m like…ugh. #probably one of the worst people i’ve ever met i’m so sorry to say that genuinely. when i’m with her in a grp (i NEVER hang out w her alone) #i feel like my principles r being hijacked and violated and being engulfed by something i’ve kept myself away from lol

[crown-ov-horns]

I recently found out people ship Cassandra with Apollo.

My initial reaction was...

Just tan their hides. You know what happened to her because the the bastard, don't you?..

Then, I was overwhelmed by morbid curiosity, and checked AO3. People are writing rape fics about them. ...Why?..

Could I ever see Cassandra x Apollo?.. I don't know, maybe. But, definitely not the nonsense I mentioned. Dubcon at most. I guess, he might somehow coerce her into sleeping with him, and later rescue her from the fall of Troy, because she's pregnant with his child, or something (Zeus would be pissed, I'm fine with that).

Sounds like an intriguing story, with a lot of morally questionable elements. I can imagine Apollo confiding in Artemis, wondering why his wife is so upset. She'd just go "are you serious rn?.. -_-".

...What, you're surprised I'm among those I wish to hide with a broom? Don't be. It happens quite often, actually.

#greek mythology #greek myth fandom #apollo #cassandra #apollo x cassandra #diary pages #thoughts #greek gods #this is such a fucked up pairing #in the iliad you like apollo then remember what he did cassandra #i don't blame her for rejecting his advances he's an entitled fboy with nine girlfriends and she wanted to remain chaste #the way he responded is very cruel honestly cassandra's story breaks my heart #of course i'm discussinv them as characters not religious figures #apollo can be such a creep #greek myth fanfic #fanfiction ideas #what the hell i have a hundred epics in my wips already including one with apollo #but i SHOULD put this aside the “Apollo coerces Cassandra then saves her because she's pregnant” #it's dark but also very intriguing to explore... it isn't supposed to be hot really well maybe later #dionysus married ariadne why can't apollo marry cassandra #she wouldn't want to marry him but what other choice would she have #their further relationship just seems so fascinating #yeah apollo would be confused why she's upset - he'd get her being upset about the fall of troy but not why she's upset with him #but as gods do he'd imagine she should be happy about getting rescued by him #why am i doing this to myself (and cassandra) #i suppose... i just want a better ending for cassandra (back to the fic idea) which this would be even though she'd have to deal with apollo #side note imagine the “pairing” in disney's hercules it would be hilarious #cassandra confronting hercules about his creepy older cousin trying to hit on her #or icarus trying to ask apollo if she'll go out with him and apollo replying “if you have my luck she'll just throw a shoe at your face” #she should take out a restraining order also

[gohard-or-gohomo]

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#i want to be a different person. christ #hating myself hours are ON #because like. im a fucking clown im the court jester im the fool #people like having me around!! im fun!! #but im not anyones favourite #im not going to be first pick to talk to or spend time with #im fucking expendable #good if you want someone there to make you laugh #but im not anyones best friend. im top 10 MAYBE #and like. i have a girlfriend i love my girlfriend i know they love me a lot too #and they would probably say im their favourite #and thats good!!! thats amazing!!! i feel the same way!!!! #but i see them once a week if that #and i spend the rest of the time with school people or rowing people #and rowing people just tolerate me #and school people all like each other better than me #its fucking exhausting #AND I HAVE A FUCKING SPANISH TEST ON FRIDAY. ON TOP OF IT ALL #wish id stop being such a pussy bitch and try and kill myself already #but because im such a people pleaser i cant even fucking do that #hate it here

[caffeinatedopossum]

My greatest dream is to own a mansion someday and have all mine and my wife's adopted children and our pets live together in safety and relative comfort

#the child children and the adult children. all of them #i doubt we'll ever *legally* adopt but ILLEGALLY adopting is way more fun anyway >:) #i just want to take care of them #i want them to have the family i never did #also it feels weird to call my girlfriend my wife 😳 but shes called me her husband for like a year and a half already #so i feel like i should #idk when well get legally married but like. we are for are all purposes married #like we arent breaking up and we live together and have pets and children and plan our futures and pool our money #so like we're more married than some actual married couples

[croh3]

gonna vent a little in the tags don't mind me <3

#i feel like i'm a bad person for thinking this #but right now i'm not someone's most important person y'know #i don't exactly have anyone i feel comfortable with to talk to anytime about everything that comes to mind #i have my bestie of course but she's been spending time with her girlfriend a lot and i feel. idk. neglected? #and like... i love my other friends but i don't fully trust them with like sharing my hyperfixations or something like it #i know it's my fault for being so closed off #and i sometimes miss my ex because i was able to tell her everything and i knew she would listen #now i just don't feel important enough and it kinda sucks bc my bpd starts acting up #and i already tried talking to my bestie about my feeling of being neglected #but in the end i get it like. she has a girlfriend and her uni and she's busy #i simply don't feel like i deserve any attention at this point and i'm afraid if i keep this up she'll leave me #i'm not going to die if she leaves but it will hurt. a lot #ughhhhh idk i'm just sad and lonely and i want attention #vent #chr-txt

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

huntlow shippers who cherry-pick every single frame where these two stand next to each other and TJLC it into a secret metanarrative that they’ve actually been madly in love since the moment they met, but disney forced the crew to cut the token m/f couple during The Shortening bc somehow there was no way for these two to have any meaningful conversation in the many many times they were onscreen together

vs.

huntlow dislikers who cherry-pick those same screenshots and say that because other characters blush in non-romantic contexts sometimes, it definitely means every single interaction between these two were 100% platonic on both sides and all huntlow shippers are under a collective delusion, and that dana terrace is being held at gunpoint by disney/other members of the crew to add in a romantic subplot she hates against her will. despite it also not being romantic somehow

FIGHT

#ive talked to both kinds of ppl and i dont think either side understands my stance #i am taking the bat i beat the dead horse with and i am swinging it at the hornets nest #toh #the owl house #to be clear my stance is that i dont think a romantic subplot would add anything significant to either of their arcs #that isnt already fulfilled by their relationships to their other friends and family #in fact i think its very disjointed from hunters arc which is centered around found family #in a full season 3 i would have wanted them to explore how willows history of being bullied tanked her self esteem #causing her to have a hard time believing someone actually likes her #and feeling like she needs to put aside her own issues to focus on hunter bc hes 'more' traumatized #and feeling bad if she ever gets frustrated at him because she subconsciously feels unworthy to have a boyfriend in the first place #so being angry at him would make her feel like shes 'ungrateful' to hunter for liking her #meanwhile hunter would be overly attached to willow like he is to all his other friends but also in a blind trust in authority way #and if they do have problems in the relationship he would blame himself and try to 'make up for it' in acts of service willow doesnt need #if they are to date at all then having that kind of problem pop up and them addressing it is the only way i can think of #where being in a romantic relationship adds something to both their characters #but with the shortening the show isnt going to have time to explore any of that so i think they should have just cut that subplot #unless theyre setting hunter up to be rejected which. well see how that plays out #and also the fandom certainly doesnt want to explore the huntlow dynamic beyond 'angsty white boy and his emotional support girlfriend' #maybe 'two menaces and their friend gus' once in a blue moon #oh and 'child abuse victim wants his girlfriend to beat him up' that ones a classic #what im saying is that the saturation of huntlow fanworks where They Would Not Fucking Say That really didnt endear me to the ship #and also srsly they should have cut out that subplot in the show i know its not the crews fault they got cancelled #but they still have a responsibility to tell a coherent story and that means cutting out unecessary romantic subplots if they dont have time #and the crux of my position is: even if all the TJLC-ing came true and huntlow was entirely developed through totally real longing glances #i should not have to go into the show armed with 80k words of huntlow meta to understand why they want to date each other #willow especially has shown no overt interest and its clear most of the ppl who say she does dont understand or care about her character #yes shes buff yes shes confident can you list her character nuances or is she just your self insert to ship hunter with #someone is going to misunderstand this and assume i just 'dont understand why they ship it' and explain it to me again lmao #lowhunt