#I know this is a phobia so just

[forestofsprites]

all human and angelic <3

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#the white lilies are sooo on the nose i’m sorry #it amused me #virginity is a construct etc etc but also the angelic connotations of the white lily #i have a flower phobia that lillies are on the cusp of so it was a bit of a nightmare #PS THIS IS FOUR MONTHS OLD… i just spent the morning fixing it to podt #post* i didn’t just. whack it out #i know i’ve been post arting daily and that is not intentional #my art #castiel #spn #supernatural #spn fanart #supernatural fanart #spn art #supernatural art #castiel fanart #castiel art

[dorianbrightmusic]

i'm seeing a lot of Pokémon SV DLC analyses where people say 'Oh, Kieran's fixation on Ogrepon is because he sees it as a path to strength; Carmine's bullied him long enough that his shield against admitting his weakness to himself is adoring a legendary creature'. And don't get me wrong – these interpretations certainly hold water – but I've actually been working from basically the opposite angle for all this time.

By all means, Kieran idolises strength, but he inhabits Carmine's shadow – he's the weak sibling, and probably has been for a long time. Yet, rather than fixate on the fantastical power of the Loyal Three, he identifies himself with Ogrepon – the downtrodden, ostracised creature cast out to eke out a subsistence. A terrible demon that wasn't quite terrible enough to cause anyone any lasting harm. The creature defeated by heroes, rather than the perfect, heroic figureheads themselves. He's enamoured with the downtrodden; he sees himself in its grief, in its being cast out and excluded. He's been cast out and excluded all his life (and he can't be a bad person, right? It's not fair – he's hated senselessly, surely, rather than for some reason?) – he sees himself as harmless; so the ogre, too, must be harmless, mis-blamed. Strength is thus in resistance; in growing a shell to tolerate others' inexplicable cruelty. So Kieran looks to Ogerpon, and he thinks that the meek shall inherit the earth, and it gives him the strength to tolerate long nights with poor company. Others are villains – not him, not this creature – and he's safe in the knowledge that at the end of the day, at least an ogre can go down in mythology as the putative sole survivor of its trials.

In this sense, Kieran's like Penny – he finds himself in a position of weakness, of being victimised, and forms himself an armour of being an underdog, of being the thing that bites back. Yet while Penny's position is that the underdog might muster the strength to bite back and restore justice, Kieran's view is that at least the underdog was worth loving. He's inert and preoccupied with his inertia. He can't understand that maybe he could be a human, with the capacity to grow, the capacity to sin. And when Carmine is cruel to him, he reaffirms his own contrarian mindset more – she says I am worth little for my weakness, so my weakness is all I am worth; my weakness is my strength.

And yet he chases strength, because he has to to survive. So when the player comes by, and supports him, maybe he has the safety to walk away from his preoccupation with being an underdog, to enjoy strength for strength's sake. And then, he starts losing, but this time, there are stakes, since he can't just withdraw and be consoled by the fact that withdrawing is right, is right, is right. Thus, he must get stronger. And then, when Ogerpon turns out to favour Juliana, who's become Kieran's idol for all that strength means, rather than Kieran, who's Kieran's selfsame designated weaklingpatheticscumidiot——well, what can Kieran do but fracture, since his whole ideology, his whole premonition that he might have the right to inherit the earth, has been fractured? And, under stress, he pivots from one extreme to the other. All he knows is that weakness is now unbearable. He must get stronger. Must get stronger. Must get stronger—because otherwise he's doomed, he's nothing. He has no myth to dissolve his identity in any longer, so he reshapes himself around the only other standard he's ever known. And it twists him and it breaks him into tiny pieces, because suddenly, the last thing he can bear to be is Kieran: Kieran, the downtrodden and meek boy. He has to flip on his axis; he must become the designated villain of his story by popular imagination, or else be subsumed in the fact that he's going to die someday without any place in the world. He has to play a part, because he's been consigned to one so long, and he can't think of anything other than heroes and villains, enemies and martyrs. He can't be the bad guy. Strength is now goodness; weakness is now evil. And he can't reconcile who he thought he was with who he must become, and as a result, all he can do is try to destroy the person who's destroyed his ideology.

#ngl the more i dive into kieran's character the more i worry about his mental health. #i do have a specific diagnosis in mind but it's not one i have and it's a stigmatised one so i wanna be really really careful here #still: let's just say 'black and white thinking' 'mutable identity' 'abandonment phobia' 'very rash when angry' 'emptiness' #and 'very verrrry reactive mood' – well if you know you know #anyway. he's my blorbo and he breaks my heart #pokemon sv #teal mask #the teal mask #kieran #pokemon kieran #pokémon #scarvio #scarvi #SV #scarlet and violet #pokémon scarlet #pokémon violet #pokemon scarlet #pokemon violet

[dilutedbeanibeans]

what’s up with this guy

#this is supposed to kinda match my angel terra drawing #angel crash ???? idk #wanted 2 take the eyes thing from angels and do something w it #my design of crash has freckles and they all turned into eyes ig #didn’t know if making his chest gem a giant eye would’ve looked stupid so I just did whatever with it😭 #might do more #if anyone read all this send any requests for some robots I’ll try 2 whip up something #crashman #crash man #megaman #mega man #eyes #tw eyes #eye tw #tw holes #? #it kinda looks like holes idk #I have that phobia and this doesn’t bother me much but just in case yeah #rockman #not a art tag

[robotpussy]

i wish ppl would just shut up when ppl say they're afraid of something i don't care if you think it's stupid or unnecessary or the thing they're afraid of is already widely disliked by many people you don't understand where ppls trauma is coming from and even if there isn't any trauma causing the fear just shut up and move on

#people do this to me about spiders theyre always like omg it wont do anything to you but thats the fucking thing #that annoys me so much i know it wont do anything to me i know they are important to the environment but im still fucking scared #of spiders they just look scary and i literally freeze up and cry when i see a huge one like i genuinely get scared #i dont care that its smaller than me i dont care that you think theyre cute i dont care that youre tired of ppl hating #spiders. im scared of them because i am you dont neee to give me biology 101 to try and get me to not be scared leave me alone #i feel the same way abt ppl who laugh at ppl for being scared of dogs #'oh? ur scared of the 4 yr old dog is barking at you?' like so what if this is the case? shut up!!!! it doesn't matter that u think its #stupid alot of these fears that ppl think are stupid aren't a open door for u to ne patronising just shut the fuck up #there is a girl i know who has a phobia of crisps/chips and ppl think its stupid and inconvenient #like. who cares if u think its stupid there is a real trauma behind her fear and even if there wasnt literally. calm down and go somewhere #else and eat the crisps like omfg

[sharkneto]

I haven't seen a warning for it going around so TUA S3 EP10, a warning for trypophobia at about the 32:30 mark and a quicker moment at about 34:20

#not tagging s/poilers because cw #im not bothered by trypophobia but i know that's a really common phobia so just a friendly heads up #tua #the umbrella academy

[batwynn]

Me, immunocompromised and blessed with Emetophobia, reading that the new COVID variant includes 2-5 days of barfing and that everyone’s seen someone doing that in stores and in the middle of the road and at work and—

#COVID #emetophobia #immunocompromised #tw: vomit #I just #I just uh #listen I struggle a lot already because I ended up with gastroparesis and I live with a constant nausea and other issues #that trigger severe panic attacks #because you know the phobia #I also can. not. handle. seeing. people. vomit #or being seen #I’m already scared of getting COVID because I’m immunosuppressed and it could very easily kill me #plus a ton of other health issues #so I don’t go anywhere unmasked ANYWAY #but now?? #NOW? #i don’t think my body can handle the level of anxiety it just reached

[severedbananastranger]

Alan Wake is a game about a guy going to hell for screaming at his wife.

#alan wake #alan wake american nightmare #gaming #alan wake 2 #ok thats not really what happened #so basically this guy has like the worst writer block ever #and he cant like write anymore #and so basically his wife plan a vacatio to this town that has a fuckass psychiatric clinic #to treat his proble but he doesnt know #so when he sees that his wife brought a typewriter to their vacation #he flips out & scream at her #oh yeah i forgot the wife had a phobia of darkness so when he left the cursed cabin #it got dark & then she fell to the lake & drowned #shit happened & then he managed to save his wife but got stucl at this place which is just like hell ithink.... #you should just play the game #remedy

[darkgunslinger]

INVADER ZIM FANFICTION STUFF ! (angst too I guess)

I am terrible at art, so I have got nothing to go with this, but please give it a read if you have time. I noticed I haven't posted anything in a while, so here's a little something!

Oh and Happy Halloween!

#invader zim #dib07 #fanfiction #I dunno I just write stuff #yeah I know it's like that other one cuz SZ won't leave me in peace! #Dib man you're so rude! #hope you don't have any water phobias I know I do #I didn't know how to end it lol

[stressfulsloth]

I think that what the disco elysium people said about Harry and Kim was the best way to put it. "Somewhere in the multiverse, Kim and Harry kiss." Because they're both so full of *potential*, both for wonderful and terrible things, and you *know* that in some worlds they full on hate each other. Harry can be a full on fascist; he's definitely been aggressive/racist/homophobic before the amnesia, there's no way Kim's entertaining his bullshit in that kind of playthrough if he makes no effort to change. And on the other side, Kim can be an absolute terror despite his calm facade- repressed, unflexible, patient with Harry only because he's a fellow cop, a committed *ex-moralist*. There are so many potential outcomes, so many different ways for them to fuck up, so many new and unique ways for them to be terrible together.

But then there's the multiverse where everything works out and nobody says the awful things they're thinking and maybe instead of pushing beyond Kim's boundaries by trying to can-open him, Harry helps him work through the repression and fear of change, and on the other side maybe Kim doesn't get frustrated by Harry's sheer chaos and just tries to be some stability in his life instead. They have *fun* together. They're playing board games. They wear matching jackets and sit on swings together whistling. And in that universe, maybe they get to be happy.

#for the last 22 years at least #oof #idk this is just my thoughts bc i keep seeing so many people like how could kim ever hate harry or thinking he has infinite patience #but thats not true lol in some playthroughs he fucking hates him #the racisl slur?? the fascism?? the homo-phobia?? #and then on the other hand a Harry whose seriously all about communism might not be too keen on mr moralist stickinthemud #disco elysium #kim kitsuragi #harry du bois #ywah idk why i try to come up with coherent meta when im sick #also in some universes they fuck real nasty 👍 i dont know #DE rambling

[clown-eating-pig]

Just out of curiosity, where do you think the fear of demons would fall entity-wise within the tma universe? The stranger maybe?

#tma #the magnus archives #asking this as someone who had a genuinely crippling phobia of demons until I was 18/19 #im thinking the stranger bc a lot of that fear came from the feeling of something being off #combined with the concept of possession being like….this person that you DO know is suddenly someone that you don’t #but I think the eye might fall into it a bit as well? #like….i was always scared that I was being watched by the demons and that they knew I was scared of them #sort of thing #so that feels very beholding to me #but idk #just asking bc I think this sort of random speculation is fun lol #and I’m over my fear now #so it’s actually funny to talk about

[dxringred]

thinking about how. robin screamed after nancy when she went into the lake, then highkey went catatonic before diving in backwards after her despite having poor coordination. how nancy was concerned when robin wandered off ahead in the upside down because she remembered being told about said poor coordination. how nancy squeezed robin's hand back and told her it would be okay then immediately went for those vines with the blunt end of a shotgun after they strung robin up, and it suddenly wasn't okay.

how steve was seemingly unaffected by eddie's death. (small timeskip? yes, but his uncle and dustin were both still broken about it, and the loss of a friend should hit you for longer than a few days anyway.) how there's no scene, that i know of, where they comfort each other or come to the other's rescue. (don't say demobats. they were all there. eddie would've looked like a total dick if he'd just stood there while ronance did all the work.)

how "A and B acting married for X minutes" videos are twice as long for ronance, and the ste/ddie ones include scenes where they aren't even interacting and/or are literally just acknowledging each other's existence.

and yet, somehow, the latter pairing is vastly more popular. i want science to explain this one to me.

#ronance #like i literally just watched a ste/ddie video for this #and it deadass was mostly dustin talking to steve about eddie #them saying similar things #or steve nodding his head in greeting IN THE BACKGROUND #this while popularity disparity gives me a headache #like i dont understand it at all #i do not know what ste/ddie is supposed to have #to make it That much more popular #apart from. u know. wlw-phobia (new term just dropped) #BOO these two women like each other #haha so scary

[r0semultiverse]

Buggy Jumpscare 🤡

#he's just a little guy #look at this little guy go! #I actually don't mind this ad tbh but I know some ppl got clown phobias so they should have chosen Luffy or someone else #im not into clowns but he's kinda cute in the live action i'm NGL #mine #op #tw clowns #captain buggy #one piece

[bitegore]

So seriously: if you have a serious recoil/disgust factor at uncommonly eaten parts of an animal being in any kind of food context (eg: whole fish being served at a table) and you want to work on minimizing that reaction, I really really recommend eating "normal" versions of those unusual foods, like for example deli-sliced tongue. I know I'm talking out of my ass here, but things like liver and haggis (organ meat), tongue (tongue), and probably a whole lot of others I've never had can be pretty easily made into forms that taste real good and don't look much like a weird lump of flesh you can recognize, and being able to get from "that's weird and gross but I want to get it" to "that's weird but it tastes really good and I want to get it" will probably make building up momentum easier when you move on to less "common" pastures.

Good luck, by the way. I believe in you.

#red rambles #i'm doing this with bugs for the record im not like JUST talking out my ass. I have a full on phobia of dead bugs #I can and have eaten live bugs! I've eaten and really enjoyed cricket-flour chips! I'm working my way up to "whole preserved scorpion in #chocolate'' type desserts but I haven't gotten there yet #so I know for a fact that there's a kind of person who has this sort of instinctive repulsion and also really really REALLY wants to get #over it. and also i didn't even realize this was a thing because i grew up with whitefish and tongue and so on #anyway im not sure if people like. KNOW that you can get like... liver *spread* or prepared tongue or brain or w/e #being able to go 'oh that is actually delicious' is a big thing or at least it is for me! it's very motivating! #you're the only one who is going to really 'push' you on these things- god knows my immediate family and friends mostly wants me to #STOP trying to eat bugs LMFAO (this is due to my behaviors but also like my dad told me I was not to keep cricket snacks in the house) #(so it's a bit of both but mostly because i cannot be trusted not to just eat a random ant because they are delicious these days) #but like at least in my experience the second you step out of the 'culturally normative' fold people stop being like 'yay stop being picky! #and start going 'no stop go back to being picky' so it's really really important to find your own motivators and not rely on other people

[instinctsxbad]

​this may not be very coherent bc I have a narsty cold but it’s something I don’t see talked about much— I’ve been thinking about how much I enjoy the fact that Peter Parker/Spider-Man is kind of creepy. Like. I love that he’s got that freaky “teleport when you’re not looking” ability spiders have, the creepy crawling, the fast and unpredictable movements, the eerie stillness, the hanging, the warning that they’re around with entangling traps or even just dissolving cobwebs that let you know they’re in the area. the kind of animalistic, unnatural, disturbing parts of being a spider that makes spiders, and spider-man, so cool

#spider-man #I got reminded abt this last night w that scene in the first Raimi spider-man movie where Peter is hiding #and everytime someone looks at where he was he’s crawled to another location so fucking quickly EXACTLY like how spiders do #when he crawls around super fast or slowly and it kind of evokes the same ‘oh jeez’ feeling when spiders do it #when he’s just hanging in a corner completely stone still and you know he’s getting ready #I’m sure villains and the like get a little freaked when they see his webs around the same way you’d be like ‘oh god that’s a big spider’ #when you see a new and big ass spider web in the basement #the way he’s got the ability now to just. crawl in such a creepy way #bc his tendons and such are just. mutated in a way now that he can just contort #I think spiders are cool (I have a slight phobia but I fight hard against it bc spiders are cool af) but they have the occupational hazard #of having very fast bug movements that just set off alarm bells in the human brain bc evolution #and I love that Peter has that now. sometimes it’s like it’s just the costume that gives him the spider like stuff #but he’s just Like that. it’s easy to feel like he’s just a normal human guy under there but he’s no longer that at least physically #that’s one of the reasons I absolutely love it when Peter does spider stuff in normal human clothes. it’s like a reminder

[sysig]

Old OC spotlight alert: It’s Nequam! Ft. his girlfriend Ruby (and also Papyrus for funsies lol) (Patreon)

#Doodles #Original #Nequam #Ruby #UT #Papyrus #He's only here because brainworms I mean an outfit swap #Considering this is his second outfit swap with one of my characters so far it might actually be the brainworms. I mean. More than obvious #Lol #He's fun to dress and fun to dress others in his clothes! That's my argument lol #Anyhow ♪ Nequam got too many doodles to fit in with the others! He was a favourite of mine for a while haha #He was retired after losing in a bloodsport comic many years ago so it's been a while since he's been around! #He looks the same to me lol #He's an original species I made at the time so he /was/ designed with my preferences and sensibilities so I guess that makes sense but hm #I kinda expected him to look a Little different lol - I'll just chalk it up to not having been around as my style grew and changed #Defaulting back to his references! Sure lol #He is still a cute lad :) I never really got into his backstory hugely but I know he's got a huge phobia of fire #His face and hands were caught in a fire that ended up killing his parents and permanently scarring and sealing his mouth shut :P #But he ended up being psychic so he could talk and move food as he needed without needing to get cut open so it just - healed like that #It sounds a little different when he speaks psychically but he's not mute! He can only make Sounds with his chest and throat #You can see I was like ''Isn't he self-conscious?? Here have a scarf'' in drawing him again haha - their species is proud so maybe not! #Ruby was designed by an artist I was a fan of and caught a request stream ages ago hehe <3 Ty as always to CuddlesandHuggles ♪ #I love Ruby! She's super pretty and Nequam loves her and she loves him <3 #And then there's the outfit swap lol look this time it was because Papyrus' outfit genuinely reminded me of Neq's! #Red cape/cloak/scarf - red gloves - high boots - white with gold trim! That's both of them!! #Nequam is much beefier lol and I gave him the fabric-over-the-bones look which ended up being cut through anyway lol #This species always shows off their crystals - it's uncomfortable to cover them - so there's holes all over anyway! Haha #Papyrus looks cute in whatever but hghhh he looks especially cute in a hooded cloak!! #The gloves were what really sold it for me haha - everything else was a very happy alignment but red gloves! Yes