#I laughed in disappointment at myself

[chiyobaasama]

yamato is about to be DITCHED i fear

#my art #anko mitarashi #yamato #shizune #shizuanko #ankoshizu #i dont know what the ship name is thats how little content there is #saw there was like near NOTHING to look at #everything i have to do myself around here for good femslash #scorpio/scorpio <3 #sorry to disappoint you if you thought both of these women liked men. dont make me laugh #yamato just wanted to have someone to talk to :( #this is the we all had bad run ins with orochimaru squad if you really think about it

[lyn-ne]

Update: did niigo

#even tho ena is horrible I’ve just been repeating myself that this is realistically how she’d recreate herself in miitopia #I kept laughing so hard at mafuyu #she just looks so disappointed #project sekai #shinonome ena #ena shinonome #mizuki akiyama #akiyama mizuki #mafuyu asahina #asahina mafuyu #kanade yoisaki #yoisaki kanade #25 ji nightcord de #nightcord at 25:00 #nightcord mizuki #nightcord ena #n25 #nightcord mafuyu #nightcord kanade #miitopia

[honey-leemon]

Being in this community I've naturally always dreamed of having a session with someone, but when it actually becomes a possibility I'm like

#what if they dont like my body #or my face #or my laugh #what if im not as ticklish as i thought #you have to be very secure with yourself in order to enjoy a session but idk if thatll ever happen #and i feel like a disappointment to every ler ive ever talked to 😭 #anyways back to hating myself or w/e byeeeeeee

[marfian]

The pavlovian response I had to come to this hellsite to check what was going on with AO3 because I KNEW I would see it trending needs to be studied.

#ao3 #archive of our own #literally as soon as the page was down #I was like #TUMBLR THEY'LL KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENING #and you did #thanks for never disappointing me #unlike my dad lol #also I genuinely changed to my other connections because Ao3 is tealiable enough that it made me doubt of my wifi first and foremost #like what a flex for a site #btw they are under a DDoS attack #I'll definitely have to fulfill my civic duty and donate again #for now I'll fulfill the civic duty of making a post while laughing at myself and telling you not to refresh #stop refreshing #and go to bed early #in case it wasn't clear #ao3 is down #check updates through tumblr our beloved hellsite

[stunkystrut]

I cant edit at ALL but imagine a crowley edit to second best by laufey

“Nightingale singing half-hearted lullabies”

“Well, you swung me around in that midsummer dance”

“Held me in close as you thought of your past” (could be angel!crowley)

“l love way too much, oh, this hurts to confess”

“Oh, you were my everything, I was your second best” (second best to angel!crowley/heaven)

I HURT MY FEELINGS WITH THESE THOUGHTS!

#good omens #ineffable husbands #good omens 2 #crowley #aziracrow #aziraphale #aziraphale and crowley #crowly x aziraphale #ineffable idiots #live laugh love laufey #i’d do it myself #but i think i’d just disappoint everyone

[cursedonyx]

Talking to my work bestie about snakes and how they're colourblind (because Aziraphale dresses in pale colours because Crowley is a snake and it's what he sees in headcanon)

I then wondered aloud if my other favourite snake man was colourblind before I remembered that no Ominis is not colourblind he is full blind and I am a moron

#We laughed too much for it to be acceptable #Fandom clash #hogwarts legacy #ominis gaunt #Snakes #Gomens #aziraphale #Crowley #I am disappointed in myself

[yaoianime]

Soon im rly gonna do it

#🕸️ #sui mention #< in the tags tho cuz it feels nicer to talk abt this in tags than in the post itself cuz to me posts are like talking normally but tags are #like whispering? talking you can tune out if you want but whispering is rather more voluntary to say it doesnt matter however #every single year passes and i wish i didnt live in each and every one of them i feel disconnected dissatisfied empty disappointed every day #it can be a small part of a day or a bigger but its still there clenching onto me like and never letting go im tired of it theres always a #wall between me and otyer ppl im unsure if i put it there or was it put there by other ppl but its there and even if anyone tries to reach #into it do i understand how even if close are we really far away it makes me understand just how much of an abnormality i am and how much i #cant ever be like them no matter how much i try and climb and crawl until i bleed its exhausting its maddening #almost everything i do is shaped by spite i wear one bracelet for years out of spite i dont smoke out of spite i dont shave my hands not #only because im normal abt body hair but also out of spite the more i know ppl the spiteful i get only way for me to truly like someone is #to keep them at a lenght outside that wall if they get in then theres only two choices for them to dislike me or even hate my entire being #or me to shove them back out without ever letting them get in #coworkers say im a nice kind person but im not its all just a facade to make my life easier and to suit myself im hateful but i dont believe #its entirely my fault after all they will to my face make fun of. laugh at. and hate everything of me they would see in other ppl that dont #hide it deep within like i do and then it rly hits me how different abnormal foul disgusting and unnatural i am #im hit with his every talk that goes on too long every word that keeps going every touch every expression every comment made on my behalf #its exhausting to live this way i fear im near my limit i havent reached it but who knows when i will #i sometimes dream of doing it and leaving behind a note wishing nothing but painful suffering to everyone i ever knew irl but i dont want to #do that to my best friends and my dog but who knows how long its left before the thread breaks #thats all like comment and subscribe if you personally would do me a favor by taking me out back and shooting me

[darkwingsnark]

If there were two ducks on the moon and one of them quacked at the other would that be ducked up or what?

#random thing Mica and I joked about yesterday #as I was losing my mind babysitting #I was going to let it slide then yesterday I randomly said this to mom #and the look of pure disappointment in me as a person made me laugh enough to remind myself to write it down #she doesn't know the meme #she just really hated the pun #or maybe it was the fact I asked that while in the middle of changing a diaper who knows

[lucianinsanity]

I wish art was important

#an is venting #I just wish I didn't have to worry about if I have to take on another studies to make money instead of dedicating myself to art #I just wish I didn't have to worry about the government taking funds away #I just wish I didn't have to fight everyone about why I'm studying art #I just wish I didn't have to see every person that figures I'm studying art make a disappointed face #I just wish saying I'm studying art wasn't met with confusion and laughs #I just wish... #I actually don't know why I keep trying #my parents want me to be hopeful when I'm proven that art is not important all the time #I don't think I'll have a job after graduating #I don't think I'll ever make money from making art #and I think that's a pretty realistic approach to it #I can't hope anymore #it's useless when nobody respects art #it's useless when nobody cares

[social-mockingbird]

When you walk by this tote bag at the yearly art sale and laugh at it and then come back five minutes later to buy it because it will continue to make you laugh 

(creator credit goes to @tea-with-veth​, who is a tote bag genius) 

#see also this bag allows me to play the long game #I get years of enjoyment out of a silly silly bag #and I think of Tea whenever I look at it #but additionally #there will be people who will cringe at it #and when I walk around with my bag and watch people cringe #watch the light go out of their eyes #watch the disappointment set in #I will laugh to myself #I will be gleeful #because that was my plan all along #muahahaha

[solvicrafts]

trick or treat!

both a treat and a trick because again no candy but yay for silly photos?

I THINK I've mentioned before that I have a Loki cutout? I got him back in... I wanna say 2013. And I decorate him for the holidays.

ALSO HE IS VERY TALL AND I AM *VERY* SHORT

bask in this moment for it is the only one where I will ever upload anything remotely resembling a photo of myself lol

#asks #tumblr trick or treat #everyone come point and laugh about what a NERD I used to be and still am just in a completely different way now #the one time I will ever post a photo of myself online and it's just my forehead and eyes #and Loki looking SUPREMELY disappointed and done with life #like I know it's just the lighting but he looks so TIRED in that pic and it makes me giggle whenever I stumble upon it again #also wow my room looked SO different back then #now I've got murals on the walls and ivy and fairy lights and it legitimately looks like you've walked into an enchanted forest #IT'S SO COLORFUL #it's interesting going down memory lane for me here because I didn't really feel free to express myself so much creatively back then #so my room was boring outside of the Loki cutout and looked very 'normal' #now you walk in and you feel like you're in a Legend of Zelda game because I started just letting loose and going WILD with the decor #the rest of the apartment is fairly normal if a bit messy because of my roommate and pets #then you get into my room and it's like stepping through a portal

[yeonban]

I'm sorry but he's genuinely hilarious for this. It's basically his Thing. HMPH. (-> turns away and refuses to elaborate)

#muse: date soma. #I was about to make a post about the very few (if not only) times when Soma's eyes (as an adult post-war) matched expressions #but then I saw this and I fr could NOT abstain from laughing. WHAT IS HE SO EXTRA FOR!!!!!!!!!!! #This man is both so serious and unserious at the same time idk how he manages it #(And Seiroku's so pretty <33 I'm mildly disappointed that I can't make that one joke about 'what do you like most about [x]' 'his husband' #bc I love them both EQUALLY as much. Very unfair on me if I do say so myself)

[andyourhostkristenwiig]

Remember when I was 21, in job training, and had a major crush on the vice mayor aka my 2nd boss who was 12 years older than me?

Well get ready for the sequel where I am 29, in a full-time job in a different town and have a major on crush on the head of my department aka my 1st boss below the mayor, who's 5 years older than me and a friend's cousin.

#my friend actually started this #right when I started working with him she was always talking to me and asking me about him #like she kept asking if I found him attractive #and she read into every nice thing he did for me #and telling me how thrilled she'd be if I became part of her family #but I was all polite and like naaah he's my boss #but...well...I have no pokerface #so SHE KNEW #but I figured this was like a tiny minor crush #and then the other day it sounded like he was really into blondes and I caught myself being disappointed?? #and idk it just went downhill from then on #still going strong on unrealistic crushes #but what can I say...he is very charming and sweet and has a very cute laugh

[yeonghan-bh]

❄️🦃

he turns to spit on the ground before bringing the cigarette to his lips and draws a long breath in. there’s an unamused and disinterested look in his eyes as he offers nothing but a hard stare.

“are you expecting that i do something?” another deep drag before he lets it all out in one breath. the release of tender smoke seems to release the tension in his shoulders as well. however, there’s a small tremor in his hand as he slowly pulls the cigarette away from his mouth- as if he’s struggling to accept the distance. “i’m not responsible for you if we happen to get caught in a snowstorm together.”

his answer comes with a bite and he means it from the depths of his soul. 

the following answer is short and curt. “i don’t have holiday dinners.” 

there’s no space left to insinuate what he does in place of celebrating holidays. it’s not as if there were a line of people wanting to spend their time with someone like rivers. plenty made it clear that they’d prefer to be left unassociated in any way to him lest he stain their image and status in beonhwa’s society. even alone, rivers failed to see the worth and value in celebrating holidays that carried no meaning to him.

#meme ✘ #xiaoli-bh #— the disappointment bec #— i WOULD make an angry muse when the majority of baekhyun gifs are just him smiling or laughing? #— and rivers is?? NOT? #— why do i hate myself

[713-4th-ward-g]

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#now my aunt is in remission... #a lot is happening and i feel the loneliest I've felt since high school #I've only been getting worse since my family denied what i went through and sat there and told me i wasn't probably remembering it correctly #i know what it was like growing up even if it comes back to me in spurts.. #but they really have started to make me doubt myself and its the worse cause they never apologized for the neglect and abuse #and they all took their side and acted like i was mistaken and said “ i never saw it happened do it didn't happen #and now i dont even talk to the only two friends i had cause i dont feel the same #if i don't text them first they never ever message me first or even check on me #and im always the one being there for them and listening to them and im just tired lf it all #i dont want a future anymore and im slowly losing my grip ive held on do tight even at my loneliest and now i feel like im losing #i was never anyone's best friend and everyone of the people ive called friends were always closer to someone else #ive only always had myself but im losing hope for the future and i just feel so extremely empty again #i just want to end this feeling and the weed isnt working anymore and working out doesnt work... i need God ive been so far away from him.. #Im just slowly losing it more and more im tired of being the friend everyone goes to for advice and laughs or enjoyment #im tired of it so much #the only time i feel joy is the bliss i feel when i sleep and even that joy is never truly felt cause i constantly fight my sleep #i only sleep when my body forced it self to cause i can't naturally just go to sleep st s set time anymore.. #im so tired of being people's escape or advice person I'm probably only saying this for the overwhelming feeling #of being a colossal failure and disappointment even so i still try snd try and fail some more #why don't i quit I just dont know why its just something in me that has some glimmer of self hope ive only tried to kms once and failed #maybe ima bit glad i failed but apart of me laughs cause i even failed at kms and find it ironic cause i fail at so many things #im so incapable of salvaging some semblance of normality or consistency #Mr.inconsistent that i am and have been but i refuse to let myself end that way i have to fight for something even in this haze of mine.. #i just want to be better why cant i get better and stay good.. maybe it hurts more than i let on finally speaking of what happened #and for them to deny it may have really affected me a lot snd i am just now seeing it manifest it self now ... #i just gotta live with it and just TRY to do better every single day snd in every single situation snd action i take...

[strawbebyjam]

getting better at loving myself i think. maybe

#sometimes i just look at myself. like. just being. and it's so. interesting? like #i look in the mirror and i feel. interested. not repulsed. not disappointed. not angry #it sounds silly and vain but it's so far from the way i would feel looking in the mirror when i was younger #i feel like i'm developing a fondness for myself that i didn't think was possible for me #and it's so. reassuring? #that it's possible to feel like. true true care and love for myself. and not just pity or like. idk #mano.mindtalk #i will say it makes me. a little bit sad still. that i can't seem to find a natural 'resting smile' face. like #smiling doesn't ever feel natural to me #laughing sure. but smiling. like