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cynic-spirit · 3 years

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The Word Series (3) Serendipity – Finding Something Good Without looking for it

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On the other side of town she thinks about the man she has met. She had inherited her uncle’s vast orchid and lily farm after his death. She had just moved in. She was not aware of most of her surroundings and before she knew it she was walking in an odd part of the town, while walking her dog. From a distance it appeared that she was close to someone’s ranch. As there was hardly anyone around, she had a light hand on her dog’s leash. Suddenly she hears the loud sound of a train whistle and before she could get a grip, Cerberus had run away.

She got into a state of worry. Loud noises startled Cerberus mainly because he was still going through training to handle her condition. She started looking all over and calling his name. She walked and walked and reached what looked like a fence of someone’s ranch. She called again and when she did not get anything back, she decided to look in the other direction when she hears a loud voice.

It’s here!! Your Dog is here!!!

She looks towards the direction of the voice. To say that she was nervous would be an understatement. There stood a big burly man with shoulders like Apollo holding the leash of her dog. She is almost scared. She thinks, men who look like that are anything but gentle. She is scared to go to him. She prayed Cerberus has not done any damages to this man’s property otherwise, she doesn’t know how she will handle it. With careful steps she walks towards him and takes the leash from his hand.

“Thank you so much. He …he…ran away..” She said with all the confidence she could muster.

“Yeah, he ran into me”

(Oh God! Please tell me he didn’t bite you, she thought, quick apologize before he says anything)

“I am sorry about that”

“No problem, looks like he is not used to this place”

(Of course he is not used o this place. It is a big town, I just moved in. Its beautiful but like all beautiful things, its scary. Stop talking to me. I must go now, she thought but at least I can tell him that he is correct )

“Yes, we ….we just moved in..”

“Nice name ya gave him”

(yes, I got the name from the myth of Hades and Persephone, he is the guardian dog, he will protect me, God knows I need protection from people around me. Should I tell him all this, no, he does not want to hear stories. Guys who look like that are not nerds, just thank him for the compliment, and don’t look him in his eyes, his deep blue eyes.)

“Thank you”

I am Syverson. Nice to meet ya.

(Oh dear!!! Oh Lord!!! Umm.. okay, act natural, she thought, don’t let your anxiety get the best of you. Just greet him normally and if you don’t want to shake hands don’t. Pretend to hold the leash tightly. She thought.)

Nice to meet you Syverson.

Sy. Call me Sy, everyone else does.

(This is going well. She thought. Its getting late, I have to lock the greenhouse too. Just end this conversation soon)

Nice to meet you Sy. Thank you for grabbing Cerberus. I don’t know what I’d do without him.

Love your dog too much?

(For a second she went blank. She did not have a habit of lying so before she got into a spiral of thinking too much she blurted out)

I…I …kind of am dependent on him.

Dependent?

(Oh no! I have revealed too much, I don’t need his pity for my stupid anxiety. She tells herself that She has to leave now, the town is new for her. She does not want to get lost again and definitely not get stuck with this fearful looking man. Just end the conversation and get it over with she thought)

He is .. my… kind of… therapy dog. Thank you again Sy. I….appreciate your help.

And she leaves hurriedly. (Don’t look back she said to herself. She keeps walking and just then it strikes her, wait, she forgot to give him her name. How rude of her She did let her anxiety get the best of her. This man caught your dog and without him Cerberus would get lost. He was polite too, even if he looked scary. The least she could do was give him her name. She scolded herself, maybe next time, but what are the odds of meeting him again)

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Sy reaches the grocery store. He parks his pickup truck and walks towards the entrance. He look inside the store, not many people, but he saw a familiar black Labrador at a distance. He shakes his head, maybe he is just imagining things. He goes inside the store and picks up a cart. He starts with some of his necessities. Ground coffee, vegetables, , fruits, grains. Then he moves to the other things he needs, body wash, some shampoo. He also needs that flea spray for his dog Django who is constantly itching himself. Sy keeps walking and putting things in his cart. He is about to go to the frozen food section for his meat and dairies but he hears a small bark. He wondered if it was a bark. He was a trained soldier, his hearing does not faulter him. So he looks around and when he turns, what he sees three aisles over brings a smile to his lips.

He sees Cerberus sitting quietly with a jacket that says “service dog, full access” . He is looking up at someone who is hidden behind the aisles and Sy knows who that person is. Perhaps he will find the name of his mystery woman and befriend her, and then in due time, he will ask her out, then they will be together and,… Wait what? Sy again reprimands himself again. Where is your head at you doofus, get your act together? Sy takes in a deep breath and pushing his cart slowly, he walks towards the aisle to greet the mystery woman.

She stood in one of the aisles looking at gardening supplies. That solves one mystery, Sy thought. She is either a farmer or a florist. He stands near the end of the aisle. She is still looking at the supplies, unaware of his presence. Sy watches her for sometime before he realizes it is not polite to stare. He clears his throat and it grabs her attention. She looks in the direction of the sound and gets startled, almost drops the can. Immediately she averts her eyes and looks away. Then she starts walking in the opposite direction. Sy is befuddled that she does not remember him, but he wont let her have it this time so he calls her.

Hey, nice to see ya again here.

He puts up his hand as a wave to greet her.

We met yesterday? Don’t you remember me? I got your dog. He points at Cerberus.

Umm…. Yes.. yes. You helped me with my dog. Of.. Of course I remember you. You are the dog guy. … I mean.. dog person..the dog man… sorry.. I mean You are Sy. Nice to see you again Sy.

Sy smiles at her awkwardness a little. Still got it he thinks happily.

That’s right. I didn’t expect to see you here. I am just here for some coffee and fruits, and some you know other stuff. I also got some toilet paper paper and some spray for my dog. You know my dog has fleas,

Sy continues to ramble

(What is the matter with you ? Who talks about toilet paper with a woman? Dog has fleas??? Maybe you can tell her about your dog shit and horse poop too!! Real Smooth Sy, all you had to do was ask what is your name? You talk about clouds, weather and flowers to pretty girls like that not poop and toilet paper. Shut your damn mouth!!!)

He berates himself in his head as he shuts his lips tightly to stop talking. This woman was so hard to talk to. Why was she so hard to talk to he could not understand.

It is nice to see you again. Good Day Sy

Good day. Nice to meet you too.

She says and leaves hurriedly with Cerberus following her.

Sy leaves out a breath and bangs his head lightly on the aisle shelf. Was he really talking about toilet paper to this woman. That is not smooth talk, that is not normal talk, that is not talk in any sense. No one wants to hear about dog fleas Sy, especially a quiet, shy, woman named…

Named?

Oh Shit!!!

Sy exclaims out loud. He forgot to ask her name again. What is the matter with me????

He exclaims again as he leaves the cart and runs towards the exit to catch her in order to get her name but she is long gone and Sy is left with a disappointment on his face. He looks around but sees her cart on the counter. He swore he almost felt his heart constrict in longing. He had driven the woman away, literally.

Yeah, he definitely had a thing for this woman. If he wasn’t sure then, he is sure now, for never has he run after a woman, literally like this.

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After getting her dog back she was very tired and immediately slept. She woke up the next day and tended to the beautiful orchid farm that she had on a few acres of land. She inherited the land from her uncle who had no heirs and had adopted her after her parents died tragically in an accident. She lives with her aunt who manages the workers on the farm. The farming of these plants is tough but she manages it well. She has a degree in botany and agriculture. This knowledge as also helped her to bring some exceptional varieties of plants in her farm. She had managed some contracts with a few people which had started to bring profits. Now when she is here full-fledged, she had plans to add some elusive varieties to the newly constructed greenhouse.

Today was a day when she had to go to for some supplies to get the soil ready for the fresh seeds. She is expecting a small shipment of orchid and lily seeds in a week. She informs her aunt.

“Aunt viola, I am going to get some fertilizers and manure at the market, I’ll return the book at the library on my way back, I will be back in an hour or so”

Sure honey, take care!

As soon as she reaches the store, she is relived that there aren’t many people. One of the reasons she prefers to come early in the morning. She has anxiety and one might say a kind of agoraphobia. Crowds and crowdy places give her panic attacks which is why she keeps her therapy dog close. Slowly she walks to the aisle. She keeps a few of the necessary items in her cart when she sees the hunky man from the day before again.

(Oh god! Not him here. Who comes to the store this early. How small is this town? Aren’t there other stores here? He is probably thinking who was the rude girl who didn’t tell him her name. I must hide)

With that she hid behind one of the aisles and pulled the leash of Cerberus. But he sat like a stubborn mule. She pulled the leash. Cerberus probably though she is playing with him and barks loudly.

(Dammit you stupid dog!!!)

She thinks in her head praying that the barking did not get the man’s attention. She waits a few seconds and continues browsing through the aisle.

(Thank heavens! Men who look like that don’t look at awkward girls like me)

Just when she is relaxed and browsing the section, she hears someone clear his throat. She looks to her side and almost drops the can on the floor.

(Act natural, leave, he probably doesn’t even remember you)

She starts to leave but then again the man speaks.

Hey, nice to see ya again here.

(Oh no! he remembers me. Okay, get over yourself and talk to him. Don’t be rude to him at least today.)

She thinks

Umm…. Yes.. yes. You helped me with my dog. Of.. Of course I remember you. You are the dog guy. … I mean.. dog person.. the dog man… (Did you just call that man a dog man? Unlike you, he had told you his name, call him by his name) …. sorry.. I mean, You are Sy. Nice to see you again Sy.

That’s right. I didn’t expect to see you here. I am just here for some coffee and fruits, and some you know other stuff. I also got some toilet paper and some cream for my dog. You know my dog has fleas.

She is slightly confused now as she could not understand what is going on. Its hard enough for her to talk to people normally because of her condition. She does not have a lot of people in her social circle but she knows they definitely don’t talk like that.

Is he making fun of me? She thinks. He probably is. Men like that are often mean. Nevertheless, he did help you so just greet him and bid him good bye and leave the store as soon as possible. She will leave the things and the counter and someone to pick the things she bought.

It is nice to see you again. Good Day Sy

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......................................................Sy..........................................................

Sy manages to buy the stuff he wanted and somehow comes back home grumbling at his stupidity. He empties all the contents of his grocery bag on the kitchen aisle and starts to arrange them one by one while pouring food in the dog bowls for his dogs. Sy was talking to his dogs at the top of his voice in his house waving his hands all over the place.

…….and then she left. But this is not all guys, I did not ask her name too. Can you imagine. How hard is it? Hello We met yesterday, and I forgot to ask your name.

HOW HARD IS IT? Sy yells making Django and Aika bark as well.

Even a fuckin brainless ass knows not to talk about fleas and toilet paper to a woman. What happened to me? I am not normal. This is not normal.

She probably ran away. I saw her cart on the counter. I ran after her and I saw her cart at the counter. Because who would want to giver her name to a guy who talks about fuckin’ toilet paper and fleas. I cannot believe….

Just then the phone rings and snaps Sy out of his incessant rambling.

Hello

Didn’t you have a party just last week?

Yeah Yeah!! I’ll be there. But I aint bringing anything and I aint dressing up.

Sy puts the phone down and continues to speak with his dogs.

That was Alyssha, she has called us to her party this weekend. I hope that will get my head out of shit and poop talks that I have been doing.

Alyssha was Sy’s cousin and even though Sy did not have any siblings of his own he loved her a lot. She had moved in here after marrying one of his soldiers, Jack who is also now honorably discharged.

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After the unusual day of being run away from and embarrassing himself, Sy is on his bed about to sleep, thanking gods that the shitty day is over. Never has he acted so senseless around a woman. There you go again you doofus, he thought.

Sy observed a few more things about her today. Unlike yesterday, she was dressed differently today. She wore a lost large dark brown sweater with a pair of bootcut jeans. The shirt collar was peeking out. Her shoes were simple. She had her hair tied in a ribbon again, differently this time though. Sy finally saw her complete face. He imagined her face again and his breath hitched. Just admit that you have feelings for the girl, yeah I have feelings for the girl that I don’t know the name of. I have feelings for a girl who probably ran away from me.

He puts his large palm on his face.

Sy sighs and tries to recollect more details about her. He knew she was into gardening or farming. She had kept her bag in the small stand in her shopping cart. There were no tools this time. They probably were gardening tools yesterday. She also had a book in the cart. Wait, he knows that book, no, he knows that seal on the stem of the book. It’s the Grand Central Library. The biggest library and the only library that the town has. She is a member there.

Maybe I can meet her there and ask her name and apologize for how I talked.

Oh Stop it Sy, your behavior is bordering on stalking now. Leave it. He again chided himself.

There was something about the woman that drew Sy to her. Something about her made him want to protect her and cherish her. He just wanted to take her into his arms and keep her safe.

And once again, Sy drifted off to sleep thinking about his mystery woman for who he definitely has feelings for.

@rmtndew @oddsnendsfanfics @omgkatinka @kmuir1 @agniavateira @readermia

#SY #Syverson #captain syverson #captain syverson x reader #syverson imagine #cpt syverson #syverson fanfiction #captain syverson x original female character #syverson x oc #syverson x ofc #Captain Syverson x OFC #syverson x reader #captain syverson fanfic #syverson x you #syverson fic #fluff #slowburn #slow burn

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the-abominable-hulk · 4 years

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jack kline having two older siblings -- kevin tran and claire novak [like, im bringing kevin back to l i f e because the writers are always doing him wrong] and they sneak out at night and the tree of them sleep in a shared treehouse together sometimes and and and they'll have a really nice car [i'll probably take one from the fast and furious movies]

I can 100000% get behind them being siblings! (Also sorry I didn’t get to this yesterday, but I had many thoughts and wanted to actually take the time to write them out skdjsk)

• Kevin lives before this by banishing Gadreel instead of Gadreel killing him. Because he deserved better than that!! They really did do him so dirty ://

• Once things settled down with the tablets Kevin had a lot more freedom, so he probably travels between the bunker, and his mom’s home. Taking turns staying at both. (He would go on a few hunts with the Winchester’s at one point + be completely useless and end up staying at the bunker and helping from there instead but that’s not of import for the Jack + Kevin + Claire headcanons).

• The first time he meets Jack it would be before Castiel returned. I like the idea of Jack chilling in the library or war room watching some sy-fy movie that he found on Netflix or Sam recommended and Kevin just welcomes himself like usual

• The Winchester’s are much too self involved and probably didn’t bother telling Kevin that Jack had been born, even though he knew that Lucifer was having a son and that was terrifying to him.

• ”Hello. I’m Jack”

“Lucifer’s son?!”

Kevin internally: “you can’t just ask people if they’re the son of Satan. C’mon man”

• Kevin’s lowkey terrified at first considers leaving then and there, but ends up staying and is fairly distant from Jack.

• but then Kevin hears the way Sam seems to truly believe in him. Sees first hand that Jack is truly terrified of being like his father, and that makes the kid a lot more likable

• plus maybe Kevin found seeing Jack struggle to tie his shoes before he got his Velcro’s to be endearing. He seemed more like a kid than evil.

• The first time they actually talk is in the kitchen while Jack is eating cookie crunch at like,,, 3am

• it’s canon that Jack doesn’t require much sleep + I headcanon that Kevin has major sleep troubles after everything with the tablets, so maybe they make midnight snacking/movies a thing they do together on the regular?? And that’s when they really start to bond?

• and Jack learns to cling onto anyone who doesn’t seem to immediately hate him because of how quickly Dean made his mind up about him

• Also I like the idea that Sam does try to like tutor Jack on some school stuff like math/reading/history etc so he has a better understanding of the knowledge if it ever does become necessary, but a lot of the times he just,,, doesn’t have the time to. And Kevin would really pick up the slack and probably teach Jack what he could

• By the time that Jack met Claire I imagine that Castiel would be back

• At first I imagine things between them would be really strained— or at the very least from Claire’s end it would be

• Seeing Castiel father someone else (because he’s possessing Jimmy’s vessel) MUST be painful af

• She probably takes her anger about the situation out on Jack to an extent despite it not being his fault

• Jack’s upset thinking that there’s something wrong with him/she doesn’t like him when that’s really not the case

• Castiel probably has to explain to Jack why she’s upset, and Jack takes it a lot less personal after that

• Insert Claire & Castiel heart to heart as well about how Cas cares immensely about her & that she should try to go easier on Jack

• She offers Jack a 3 musketeers as a peace offering and Jack is ECSTATIC that things seem to be going better

• they still have their moments of being tense/Claire struggling with it but for the most part things are in the right direction

• it takes awhile for things with Jack & Claire to get to a good place, but I could see them texting one another fairly often and not seeing each other in person much at first— maybe they facetime? Claire teaches Jack about memes— he says “OK Boomer” to Dean because she told him to it’s DEVASTATING for Dean— Sam and Kevin would be SO ENTERTAINED— If Castiel is there he’s confused as to what it means/why Dean seems angry

• Also Jack and Claire??? Mlm wlw solidarity (bc Jack is gay and no one can take that headcanon from me— like he’s not really interested in anyone but I love the idea of him having a fairly innocent crush on some guy he meets and wanting to hold his hand yknow?)

• When Kevin and Claire first meet they’re both kind of indifferent/tolerate each other because of Jack

• Kevin would lowkey feel left out because Claire and Jack are both like Castiel’s adopted kid to an extent

• Claire lowkey feels left out because Kevin and Jack already seem fairly close

• so it’s just,,,, kind of awkward at first Bc theyre not trying to do this high school jealousy bullshit because they’re adults (even though at moments they are kind of still childish because they can be with one another and that ability was ripped from them so early)

• Kevin and Claire eventually would probably be able to bond about having a normal life at one point only to have it ripped away from them

• they’re both v snarky at times, and probably bicker about EVERYTHING— because of the way they bicker sometimes people comment about Claire and Kevin being like an old married couple/a good possible couple and they’re both DISGUSTED IMMEDIATELY when they hear that

• Claire has always considered herself the “cool” person and is lost as to how to she ended up being so close to these nerds— like she has an existential crisis while watching Kevin and Jack bicker about Star Wars (which she actually does enjoy once she watches)

• The three of them are really protective of one another— specifically Kevin and Claire over Jack because he’s the youngest, and most often in serious danger— but he’s just as protective over them and Kevin & Claire are protective over each other a lot too

• Everyone around them is so PLEASED they get along like they do because they all had their childhoods ripped from them and deserve some sort of friendship/happiness

•They also probably have a group chat that they text each other on constantly when they can’t see each other in person

• Claire and Kevin’s favorite pastime is to playfully make fun of Sam & Dean— Jack is confused at first but learns that it’s all in good fun quickly

• also something I want to add is that while Castiel doesn’t view Kevin his kid the same way he views Claire and Jack

• Castiel feels protective of him because Kevin’s a prophet of the lord. It was heavens job to protect him and they failed MISERABLY. So now he takes it as his personal duty

• and tbh I could see Castiel in time especially when he sees how close he is to Jack and Claire feeling a more fatherly protection over him too (Bc I love dadstiel)

Okay so for the treehouse what were you thinking??

Like did you imagine like,,, they build one or they find an abandoned one somewhere or Jack sees a treehouse on TV and decides he wants one so he snaps his fingers and suddenly he creates one or??? I like the idea of a treehouse and I’d love to hear more of what you had in mind for that!!!

#supernatural #jack kline #claire novak #kevin tran #dean winchester #castiel #sam winchester #supernatural headcanon #jack kline headcanon #claire novak headcanon #dadstiel #lio answers

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doctorguilty · 4 years

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sys talk this got sadder than intended but ............ it be like that sometimes

i feel like I should have put this together a lot sooner but I FIGURED SOMETHING OUT about Fear that’s really good

so basically how my system seems to work is that media interests/likes/etc are mostly overlapping for everyone, but for some system mates it’s their SI so it’ll be their favorite thing or theyre most passionate about it, when theyre awake they’ll reach for that

i’m an absolute idiot for not putting together the correlation of fear being awake for near the whole month of january so far (cause of ptsd stuff like thats unrelated) and having a sudden urge to talk about sonic games, its been like every other night or MORE that I’ll be feeling very Upset in bed trying to sleep so I’ll play snapcube sonic videos on my phone and literally fall asleep to them to calm down dskjfdsgsd and it only occurred to me after drawing that art and thinking about that song and thinking about living with my mom and the hundreds of hours spend playing my sonic adventure collection sdjfhsjghdsg FUCK

like you know who would have been around a HUGE amount of time back then???? the part that literally split as a survival mechanism in my abusive home???? that we lived in for 18 years??????? adhsadgasfhdsgjasg

and I fucking REMEMBER now holy shit, it came flooding back, I mean I remembered being really into the sonic series as an SI but holy hell other people in school bullied me about it, including my own friends, and omg I remember......... everything I ever collected i had like, plushes of a bunch of the characters, they all must have been thrown out cause I have no recent recollection of ever seeing them again

but fear would have been so involved in all that, I know it used to be a very very VERY frequent fronter when we were like, surviving all that, and that was defs before any other EP’s existed in the group I am aware of now, in fact I’m not 100% sure Doc existed back then??? more information needed??? but it woulda just been me and fear...........which makes sense, because of the way it seems to only connect to me in the system and not really any one else...................

god oh fuck everything makes so much sense I’m having like, flashbacks about it............ it’s no wonder its so upset, imagine being an entity protecting yourself and someone you might consider a sibling or twin in an abstract sense, taking the flack of child abuse, and then when you grow up your twins like, hey thanks for making it so i dont have to think about that a lot anymore you can do that for me, also fuck you for being a psychopath, ,, and no therapist or anything will help you, and everyone on the outside hates you because you only get to express yourself when you take over and explode on people, and no one gets it because no one knows any better, they see you as a sickness, rather than a victim of it like if YOU were a virus or parasitic infection.

but you’re not you were just an abused kid, who grew up into an abused adult with no friends, no support system, nothing personally valuable to you, and you started becoming abusive yourself because you’re scared and no one can SEE that you’re just scared and not a single soul ever taught you differently, you have NO frame of reference for what love looks like other than violence

and it’s weird being a system, because in an overall sense, what happened to me was fucked up and not fair for sure, just like, me as a person, as an individual human being, and all my system mates deal with the repercussions of that. but then there’s this one specific piece who absorbed the MOST of it, became the sickest, and all I ever did was blame that piece for making my life hard and shut it out. and that’s not fair.. and I didn’t know any better and no one helped me and in fact, I received a lot of uniformed, bad advice that shutting Fear out was the correct way to handle things, but i still hold myself accountable

I’m glad I know better now because I’ve only seen an exponential amount of progress from the day I started going in a different direction and hearing out that EP wanting to build a better relationship...

whack. anyway i got off track and emotional and started crying at one point while writing sdhfdjgdfshk it wasnt supposed to be that intense its just like, hey I figured out what Fear likes but .............. discovering anything about it comes with some weight and you can see why.. there’s a lot to unpack even in the smallest things because.. everything has just been sitting in the back of my brain like.untouched. for 20+ years

#seth speaks #sys talk #d0 n0t r3bl0g

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chenoehi · 4 years

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1, 10, 17, 18, 44, 49 for the bts asks!!💕

👋👋👋 Thank you for these questions! They made me think lol (also you're an MVP for always keeping up with me when I live blog performances 😭)

FUN BTS ASKS <-

1. How and when did you get into BTS?

This is the shorter version bc I'm working on a personal post about this actually:

When: Last week of October 2018 in Orlando, Florida, where I was 'vacationing' while also working and basically having one of the most miserable, low weeks of my life.

How: I'd known about them since at least 2017 and watched them perform at the AMAs from afar, I listened to DNA after that, the song didn't grab me (it still doesn't 😭), and for a while I was seeing BTS content come across my tl, specifically Jimin content and he became my recruitment fairy, but the day LY in Paris had also happened recently and jikook decided to do them and all of a sudden a blog I followed spammed my tl with the jikook lap incident. At that point I'd seen BTS trending on tumblr tons of times and I saw them trending for the Waste it On Me teasers. I got interested and I listened to it when it came out but I was totally confused bc they were singing in English. So that led to me watching the classic YouTube "Who Are BTS?" videos which led me to watch one video that tested your knowledge of their voices and played clips for you to guess, and that led to my absolute obsession with Let Me Know which led to a mini breakdown when I couldn't find the song on Spotify so I listened to every. damn. song. starting. from. love yourself. Until I realized I could just Google the English lyrics and find the song that way. And then the Muster DVD content came out or was circulating literally at the same time so I got to see all the nice KM content and yeah, I basically just got hooked over the course of my week in Orlando, I walked around Disney Springs blasting Anpanman in my headphones, worked all through the night with Magic Shop, slept with my headphones on and The Tturh Untold in my ears, all because they're crackheads I love and not to be dramatic and shit but they kind of saved me when I was drowning.

10. Your favorite cover of BTS? (Doesn’t matter if it’s one of Jungkook, Taehyung, Jin, etc.)

I guess this means covers of BTS songs that other artists have done right? I really don't listen to many covers of BTS except sometimes I listen to piano versions on SoundCloud. I do listen to a cover of "The Truth Untold" by Emma Heesters on Spotify. It's probably not the best cover but I just haven't really sought out any others. .

17. Whose fashion style do you like the most?

Hmm. Well, Jimin is our pretty boy and I do always like seeing what he's wearing, I love Hoseok's style, I feel like Namjoon, Jin, and Yoongi are more ambiguous, and I like Taehyung's unique style.

But, it's JK. Big. Black. Comfy.

18. Which member matches with your personality the most?

Yoongi/Namjoon/Taehyung

I'm like Yoongi in the sense that neither of us tend to be the most outgoing or life of the party, he can be very quiet when he wants to be and he's pretty laid back in general. We also both like to sleep a lot, and I don't think Yoongi has a black and white view of the world, or at least that's the impression I get. So I'd gather he's one of the least judgmental among them. I also connect to his mental health struggles.

I'm like Namjoon in the sense that we both love nature, trees, and although I don't have immediate access to parks, museums, things like that, if I did I'd be on a bike roaming around or walking or going to see cultural events and all that good stuff. Alas I am not. I also think we have similar ways of thinking with regard to life. I specifically connect to his mental health struggles similar to Yoongi, although I believe Namjoon has dealt with and still deals with things more in line to what my experience is like, but with different contexts of course.

Taehyung. Sweet child. He was the member I connected to the least really just up until these past few months. But the truth is I may be more like Taehyung behavior wise than any of the others. I've caught myself lately watching him say or do things and saying to myself "Taehyung is me I am Taehyung." It's honestly scary sometimes. One time I was watching BTS play this quiz to see what member they were (which lol) and I found a lot of my answers aligning with his. I think coming from a background of farmers and from things I've seen he likes nature as well and like Namjoon he's a lover of art. He also has a habit of wearing less expensive clothes and making them look nice; I lol'd when I saw that he'd been buying inexpensive women's blouses marketed to women around 40 or so 😭 He just has a unique style and while I wouldn't say that I dress like him exactly I do sometimes gravitate to more old school styles. I also wear clothes for the opposite gender a lot.

44. If you were given the chance to say one sentence to all of them, what would you tell them?

To JIMIN: Jimin, you do have jams.

To JK: What was tasty in Busan?

To HOSEOK: What did JK text you on your last day in Malta?

OK OK time to get serious

To JK: Be confident in yourself because you are a wizard, our smart Ravenclaw, and you can accomplish anything you put your mind to; your 50% effort blows away everyone else's 100%.

To JIMIN: I think the way you sing is healing and I think you know best what works for your unique voice.

To HOSEOK: You are a son your parents can be proud of, and you should be very proud and confident in yourself because you're perfect.

To YOONGI: Please never stop writing songs about things that matter because people care and we want to hear your voice.

To SEOKJIN: "Tonight" is one of my favorite songs. You should feel happy with how you honored your pets.

To TAEHYUNG: Your grandmother would be very proud of you if she could see you.

To NAMJOON: Thank you for being the gravity holding our galaxies together.

49. What kind of concept would you like to see in the future?

Hmmm. They've done so much already. . I think it would be interesting to explore the route of Dionysus a little more, maybe a little more similar to their earlier styles with heavier rap parts, maybe an infusion of rock? I'm seeing a lot of hip hop lately that's been inspired by rock so that would be interesting. Or they could do something else and maybe infuse some EDM tracks? I know what they've done lately is more pop but I think they've only touched on EDM.

As for concepts. . I don't really know what to add?? They've done light, dark, PINK, youthful, school, soft, grrr, . . . Maybe something mature like a look more in line with MOTS: vol. 2 & 3? Those were more serious like Tear but instead they could go more toward vol. 2 and come out with like evening wear, suits (fitted), or ugh more pajama wear my god, and looks similar to what they did for SY tour Singularity and Fake Love performances? I'd love to see Hoseok in another red suit like his Final Just Dance stage . . Yes.

Hope you liked this 💜

#bts asks #bts #bangtan #ask #ask jiminielatte #personal post #personal

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kryssha · 6 years

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Pake Ngold Bar

Andal,Joshua. The one with the cleanliest writing and notes. Thank you for being part of the B'nights + 1, even though you don’t know the meaning of our name and sometimes we depend on you. I like whenever you dance, I can see the determination in your eyes specially on contests.

Andrade,Cj. My another seatmate,thank you for the shared thoughts. And even though I don’t like your attitude sometimes or leaving me in our table,I still thank you for helping me for some things.

Antonio,Andrew. You can be weird sometimes or it’s just that I don’t understand what you are doing. But thank you for the shared knowledge and memories since elementary.

Bacud,Kenneth. Sometimes you say things we consider harsh but those words will make you realize what you did or see what’s wrong. Anyway, thank you for the jaw-aching jokes you share with us everyday,Director.

Ballad,Ronnie. You are one of the funniest in the class, you effortlessly make us laugh. I will never forget your white hair.

Castillo,Laurence. Learn to lower your pride sometimes, it’s not good already. I like how straightforward you are but sometimes you need to think before you speak and stop sleeping on the floor. It’s ok if you’re not an ARMY anymore, you’re not a big deal. You can fanboy on WANNA ONE but remember they’ll disband soon.

Cusipag,Freidrich. I envy you and Jemarie because of how you memorize lessons. Maybe you could give me some tips. Tell me also how your height grew higher in a year.

Dayrit,Karlos. We’re classmates since elementary but I still seldom hear your voice. Don’t be shy anymore. Speak up when you want to say something, I know there are a lot.

De la Cuesta,Aaron. Thank you for showing me your drawings, I admire those sketches. And thank you for listening to me and talking to me even if I say or do weird stuffs sometimes.

Diaz, Mark Daryll. Being easy going is ok but we are not living in a pure game. Soemtimes we need to be serious on some matters.

Herbert, Harvey Jr.. You are one of the reasons why we have a great school year, together with Niña and Karissa. The three of you started the asi and bain expressions which everyone uses now. I thank you for that contribution. I admire you for your creativity, your works amaze me everytime.

Maguddayao, Ryan Ramde. We’re classmates since grade 1 except grade 7 but we still didn’t talk much. Well I still thank you for everything.

Malana, Kharl Emil. You are clingy but it’s ok I’m already used to it. I really like your company and you are easy to approach. Stay as a easy-going guy but you should sometimes get serious. And I hope you now have a concrete decision about the path you’re taking for your future.

Mallillin, Jonard. You maybe pabebe, i don’t care because i’ve been friends with Yran for three years so im already immune. But don’t change. If that’s what you are, just stay like that. I envy you because of your body, I wish soon I will that kind of body too.

Matammu, John Roe. I admire you for your writing skills. I am also happy that you join us when we invite you to play with us. You are slowly going out your comfort zone. Keep it up.

Pelagio, John Whesley. You should control your temper,chill out sometimes and minimize being too straightforward.

Portillo, Felmar. I still get surprised for your sudden jokes but those really made me laugh. Your words maybe make it shallow sometimes for us to understand easier.

Santias, Timios Raenan. I admire you for your leadership but sometimes you don’t have to take all the responsibility. Still, thank you for your efforts and for being our president. Precious Joy.

Villanueva, Kliff Yran. Just like Christelle, we are part of different squads but in the end the three of us are still together. I hope our friendship will last. I’m glad that you open up to us. When you need someone, I’m here. I’ll listen, all your words make sense anyway.

Addatu,Darylle. My seatmate (nevermind Cj hahaha). Thank you for everything you shared specially your alcohol. Thank you also for not leaving me alone in our table sometimes.

Articulo,Judee. Sometimes your weird, i can’t exactly explain why but for me there are things you do sometimes that makes you weird. Aside from that, you are a simple girl, stay like that.

Bassig,Janae. You’re a person with sooo much energy and laughs at own joke even it is corny, but sometimes havey. Thank you for the shared thoughts and answers. Stay what you are right now. Continue being friendly and kind to everyone. And stay pretty.

Beños,Buena. My classmate since grade 7 that became a close friend in grade 10. You think she a very silent girl but when you get to know her and became close to her, you’ll see the kalog side of her. Other than that she is kind,reliable,talented and pretty. You will just fall in love with her sweet voice. And I thank her because my ears are blessed and cleaned. I hope this girl will not change because I like the way she is right now.

Binarao,Angelica. Our Liza Soberano who still aims for a pretty body. You already have the beautiful body, you are my body goal if you didn’t know. By the way, you are the kindest person I met. I thank you for being the one I talk to whenever my tablemates leave me. Both you and Aaron. Stay pretty and continue being kind.

Bitanga,Karen. You are beautiful the way you are. Don’t mind what others tell you, they are just envy of because you have the eyebrows and they don’t have.

Calbario,Julia. You are one those who we rely on whenever there tests and I thank you for sharing your answers. I thank you too for being my dance teacher. I really like your groove. I hope both of us soon will grow taller and you’ll have laman in your body.

Calvo,Angelica. The girl with the loudest laugh. You laugh because of her laugh. Hurt her or her friends one time, she’ll hurt you a thousand times. It’s dangerous to sit beside specially when she is kinikilig because her hit is like a plywood. She is also my twinnie because we have the same back. Calvo, I thank you for being a friend of mine. Thank you for joining me fangirling on our KPOP idols.

Cardenas,Salve. I missed your sudden laugh. I hope you will return soon. Whatever happened that will pass soon and always remember every good memories you shared with us and I’ll remember those too.

Castro,Christelle. We’re friends for we know how long, I hope that will be longer and I wish soon you will have a sense of direction (hahahahaha). We are classmates since elementary, I don’t care if we are classmates again for the next SY ‘cause I enjoy every moment I share with you. We may have different squads but in the end we are beside each other. The connection between us, I don’t want that to break. Also keep on writing and giving your insights through writing.

Doctolero,Kristel. Oyiiiieeee char. Gubsiee, we’re kinda close when we are in grade 7 but I don’t know if you remember that. But I’m happy that we became real friends, we became closer. Even though you sometimes break the mood because of you corny hirit, it’s ok , it’s what makes us laugh louder.

Durian,Samantha. Thanks for Jungkook we became friends. But I thank you for fangirling with me over BTS. Thank you for the memories during the making of our Research Project and everything.

Gañac,Naiza. You’re so cute, you’re cheeks I love them. You’re still the Naiza I knew in elementary. I like how optimistic you are, how you always see the bright side. Stay cute and kind. I hope you won’t forget me. Goodluck in USL.

Genoveza, Jeanelle. Our Maria Clara who can do things you don’t expect her to do. We also don’t talk much but thank you for the shared answers and memories for being a member in our Research project and a classmate for 3 years. (Galing mong kumembot 😉)

Guiyab,Editha. Our little Ivy Aguas, I admire you of how you stand up for yourself despite of your height. You are David that can bring down any Goliath blocking your way. I really admire you because of that,stay like that and maybe that will be some of help in the future.

Guzman,Grace. I really like your attitude, whenever you tell a joke even if its really a joke and you thought you offended someone you would immediately say sorry. You are kind too and you always make everyone laugh. I’m very proud of you being our runway queen,Hwasa of the Philippines.

Maggay,Mica. We don’t converse much but I thank you for the reviewer in Research last grading. Thank you for being my classmate for 2 years and for the memories you shared with us.

Manalo,Karissa. Thank you for letting us laugh even if it is mangibabain on your side. Thank you for your macaroons even if it is not free, it’s still delicious. And I’m glad that I met you as a kalog neneng and that you became an ARMY because that’s the reason why we talk often.

Matammu,Niña. I admire you being a confident girl. I admire how you stand up for yourself and staying strong whenever people let you down. I’m very much happy that you became my classmate. You are always there when best memories are made. Thank you for the memories, the laughter and kababain moments with you.

Narag,ABCD. I don’t know why some say that you are hard to approach and I don’t know why I thought like that too. When in reality, you are fun to be with. That you are still a teenage girl with dreams and worries in life. I know you are someone they should not afraid of. I admire all your writings and your speaking skills. You are a very talented girl,I hope soon you will find what you are looking for.

Raralio,Kathrina. We are not close but I know you are kind and have a beautiful heart as you have a beautiful face. Thank you for the memories and answers and help.

Salva,Shanyleigh. You really look like Poppy. Btw, I always see you laughing and smiling so I hope the next time we see each other again, I will see those beautiful bright smile and hear your laugh.

Tabbu,Precious. We only talk to each other when if it is about school and we are not that close but thank you for your answers when I have questions. Thank you during that time in EsP.

Tamaray,Ayra. We don’t talk much but you will see me beside you laughing at your jokes. Thank you for making us laugh and people around you happy.

Tan,Kezia. A girl with mababaw na kaligayahan. I thought she is quiet but as days go by you’ll hear her laughs and her shouting CHAMBE! CHAMBE! CHAMBE! CHAMBE! over and over. She maybe don’t know but she is amazing, she can do incredible things. She just have to take action.

Tapiru,Jemarie. I thought you are a very silent girl because back in grade 8 I seldom hear you but when we became closer, I noticed that you also say a lot of things. I am amazed on how you review our lessons, how you memorize every detail, every word in the book. You even correct us if we forgot a single word, sometimes it is just a linking verb. I wish I could that, too.

Tattao,Katreena. I admire you for being strong and keep on moving. I know it’s hard being a president, doing all major work. Stress is painted on your face but you still give us your sweet smile. Stay being sweet and don’t change.

Tuliao,Joanna. Neng, thank you for your immediate replies whenever I message you, I hope others do that also. We also became friends because of crushes who are from far far away and I thank you because I have someone to share my kilig feels.

Thank you all for every bain moments, answers, stories, laughs and tears you shared. Those will never be forgotten.

Wishing everyone best of luck for SHS. God Bless!

Agyamannak ta nakilalak sikayo amin. I Love you all, mga asi *finger heart

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ninaninndraws · 4 years

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Hi, I'm sure nobody will see this nor will take me seriously, if you want to, ignore me, but I need to let this out.

It's 2:30 in the night at my country and I just had one of my usual panic attack (I used to have them mostly everyday months ago), about something pretty usual to my situation.

I fear my father, I have been fearing him for years now, but he didn't hit me, nor my sister or mom, he just manipulates everyone who gets in his way, he has emotional abused my mom for years, until she got divorced, eight years ago, and now it's our turn.

My mom has the custody, but he asked for us to go and visit him.

My sister has a deep depression, anxiety and a low self-esteem, she has already hurted herself by his fault.

Sometimes, when he gets really angry, he makes some moves that makes my body react like if he was going to hurt me, and then he gets mad about it.

He has never hit us before, just because he's a coward. But I'm afraid someday we will lose control and hit us.

It's been some months since I last saw him, not because of quarantine, but because I wasn't able to handle him.

Now, once quarantine is over, he will try to make us feel guilty and go to see him, my sister will fall for it, like always, my mom will insist in the fact that I'm being over-dramatic and that I should go, my sister will get annoyed and I will go to not let her alone with him.

But I'm terrified.

I don't want to.

I can't.

My mom sys that I'm brave because I told my father everything I already told here, but after a week it looked like he forgot about it, and now he thinks I'm being an ungrateful teenager who hates to be called out.

My mom also told him about what we think of him. Same response.

When I told him, I asked him to talk about this item privately so my sister wouldn't have to be in the middle of the fighting, because she had had some panic attacks lately.

What he did?

Made us take a sit in the sofa, and he sat in a chair, higher than us, so he could intimidate us, like always. And he started talking about the fucking item with my sister in front of us, pushing her to give her opinion, to express if what I said was true, and my sister collapsed.

She had a panic attack, so I got up, put myself between my father and her, and started calming her, then I told him that we were going to go.

We took the presents (it was some days after Christmas, last time I went to his house) and left.

My plan now is calming myself, bring back all the courage I needed the last time, and once the quarantine is over, I will meet him in a public place, give him a letter, make him read it, and respond me.

I don't want to be intimidated by him anymore, so I need to plan everything. I need to feel like I control the situation.

My mom told me it's a stupid plan, that I wouldn't dare to, and other stuff that just hurted me. Because she's the adult, she confessed that she was impressed by what I did, but said that it was an adult's thing.

I spent most of my life hearing that sentence.

I'm the youngest in both families, my father's family with 8 siblings, and more than 30 cousins. Nobody told me anything.

My mom's family with 5 siblings and 4 cousins, they loved my sister, because phisically she's like all of them, wavey dark hair, brown eyes, and I'm like my mom, blonde with blue eyes and freckles.

My childhood with these cousins was spent being insulted by being blond, being bullied by them, being so scared of them and my sister that I spent the days in the kitchen with my mom and aunt, making them some snacks, the breakfast and other stuff, just to be amenaced by my cousin and my sister, to take my organs out of my body while I was asleep.

They thought it was funny.

Then I had my first panic attack.

I was six.

I told my mom and aunts and when my mom went after him to tell him few things, my aunt just said 'boys will be boys, they just want to scare you'.

Then we got a swimming pool (a little one, this childish pools for 7 year-olds) and they, knowing that I couldn't swim, and that I was scared of water (another trauma I'll explain another day) threw me in the pool, and pushed my head underwater, so I couldn't breathe, them being three and I being one.

I got so scared I didn't use it in the next three summers we went unless my aunts came in with me.

What did they say?

'Boys will be boys'

So nevermind, I got out of the argument, but I just wanted to write down some of the traumas of my childhood that still haunt me.

We'll have more tomorrow night, thanks for reading the Trauma's Report.

Have a good whatever (day, night, afternoon)

Bye

#childhood trauma #Family bullying #panic attack #teenager problems #you ok?#I'm not hahaha #seriously i need help #shut up im crying #i'm not crying you are #i'm not joking #Thinking is dangerous #Makes traumas you nearly forgot jump in again with a smile trigger #i'm better now #ok maybe not #At least I'm not crying anymore #ok maybe a little

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rutisup-blog · 7 years

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Mendocino Magic I

“Geodesic” says Jonny as we’re cruising down the road. “Huh?” I say, the expanses of Mendocino County rushing past us.

“Geodesic dome” he says, pointing to this little dome roofed hut off the side of the 101. I start writing in this journal, observing all of the beautiful Madrone trees.

My Levi 501s are dirty, adding a little character to them after this camping trip. I’m still wearing my blue outer space shirt from last night. Besides brushing my teeth and putting contact lenses in, I haven’t done much in the way of personal hygiene.

We’re probably 15 miles outside Laytonville now, headed South back to San Francisco–woooo. It’s been a fantastic camping trip. We’re just passing the blind horses now in Willits.

*** 25/5/17 — Saturday Morning — Fort Badass — Mission District — SF

It’s about 8:30 AM and I’m feeling a bit of a sore throat. I’ve got the blue pop t-shirt on, and a cleaner iteration of the Levi 501s on my gams.

Mizzle and Jonny eat turkey bacon and eggs. We watch Arsenal versus Chelsea at the house. Arsenal got a single goal in first quarter, coasting 1-0 until half-time. Jonny keeps freaking out every time Arsenal blows a clear shot on goal. “Aaaaaaahhhhhh!!” He yells. A true fan.

Half-time hits and it’s time to roll out. The three of us walk down to the car, loading it up with our stuff. We’re off now to his family home in Novato to grab Beowulf, the huge F-350 we’re going to bring camping.

Jonny is streaming the audio from the second half of the game, British commentators voices echoing out of the speakers. I can’t help but get into the game–Jonny’s enthusiasm proves to be contagious. “I just want Arsenal to win so I can gloat over my sister, she’s a Chelsea fan!” rings Jonny.

Beautiful views of the San Francisco Bay avail themselves as we roll on over the Golden Gate Bridge, enhanced by British commentators yelling “GOAAALLLLL!!” and Jonny cheering ecstatically in the driver seat. We get to Jonny’s house in Novato and find Crissy’s crew already waiting. The boys head inside, and I mill around a minute before I go in to grab a glass of water.

There’s a freshly sabered bottle of champagne on the ledge overlooking the sunken living room, where inside a huge TV screen is playing the Chelsea vs. Arsenal game. It’s like I can’t escape the ‘footy’.

Liv, Nick, Rachel, Chrissy, and Chris are seated down in the living room. I walk into the kitchen, to find Jonny’s sister talking about the saber. It’s a small heavy thing, the blade about eight inches long. It’s sitting in this cool wooden holder, blade down. Jonny’s sis shows me a video of her sabering the champagne–very well done. “It’s my party trick” she says.

Jonny pours me a warm glass of water and throws some ice in it for me. I’m befuddled, as I feel the heat from the glass on my hand. These Californians sure hate to waste water by running the tap I suppose. Soon Dimitry and Britt arrive. I talk to Jonny’s dad and say hello.

It’s not long before we’re loading up Beowulf. I toss my Gregory 85L backpack in the covered pickup of that F-350XL Supercab and we set off as a huge convoy. Beowulf leads the pack, followed by Dimitri and Britt; Chris(sy), Nick, Liv, and Rachel; and finally Nick and Allison.

“Oh shit, the music isn’t working” grieves Jonny in horror. “This happens sometimes” he moans. We fiddle with the settings a bit, but nothing seems to work. “Sometimes you have to turn the car off” says Jonny. “Ah…The ol’ turn it off and turn it back on again trick” I say.

We pull the car over to the side of the road, and pop the door open to shut off the stereo (since it’s a Ford). The convoy is in confusion now, and the fix doesn’t even work. So we keep moving, and then pull over again a few times, really confusing the hell out of everyone else.

Jonny calls Chrissy and tells them to keep it rolling. We stop in at a Chevron parking lot to try and fix this. It’s futile, nothing works. I grab my Jambox bluetooth speaker out of my backpack, and we just end up playing the music through that.

Beowulf cruises up US-101 headed north towards Mendocino county. Soon the trees yield to rolling burnt orange hills. “These were all green a few weeks ago” remarks Jonny. We keep on cruising, and begin to enter the forests of Mendocino as we leave those burnt hills behind us.

Rocky cliffs start to dominate the landscape. Mizzler teaches us this game called “contact” that is really fun. Jonny’s on the horn with Chrissy now, and we all decide to rendezvous at the Wal-Mart in Ukiah. Nick and Allison have already beaten us to the camp-site.

As we pull into the vast parking lot of Wal-Mart, my stomach grumbles. “Let’s ride around in these things” I quip, motioning towards some electric scooters we pass in the entrance to Wal-Mart. A subway presents itself on the left as we enter into the depths of a Super Wal-Mart. I’m so hungry.

Lots of cheap Fourth of July / Memorial day gear is on display here. We grab a cart and immediately get a little lost and disoriented–the intended effect of the store’s design. We need some alcohol and charcoal, but other than that we’re sorted.

I buy smore stuff, and I’m trying to determine just how much chocolate to buy. I ask the chubby mother of two trying to control her kids just beside me in the snack aisle.

“I would say four bars…Although if you’re drunk you might just throw the whole thing on!” she laughs. It wasn’t that funny but she’s in good spirits so I laugh with her.

I’m walking with Jonny, trying to find a cooler for the rum punch he plans to make. We end up with some collapsible two gallon container. The volume level seems to increase in the shop. I start running into other members of the crew, one by one. Soon, 15 young adults are roaming around, pushing carts and getting ready to party amongst a sea of sad, depressed looking people doing their shopping. It’s on.

We’re in the beer aisle, studying our options.

“Coors or Hi-life?” says one of the boys. “How about Natty Ice?” jokes Jonny. “Jesus Christ” I say, shaking my head. “We’re getting Colorado piss water” I say, grabbing a 30-rack of frosty Coors. We buy some more shit, and then hit the checkout stand.

There’s a sad collection of alcohol on a flimsy metal shelf behind the counter. Our checkstand is the “one with the alcohol” I grab the third to last bottle of Jamieson and Jonny grabs two handles of Captain Morgan’s Spiced Rum for the punch. Everyone meets at Beowulf, and the whole gang loads all of their combined cargo in the massive pickup. We all resolve to meet at the campgrounds.

Car Beowulf and Car Brittany stop at Chipotle. There’s this large butch emo chick working the counter, and I grab a carne asada burrito bowl. I order it to go, low-key knowing that I probably will end up just eating it here anyways.

Jonny and I both have to go to the bathroom. There’s a single person bathroom with both a toilet and a urinal in it–no divider. “Fuck it, let’s both go”. So I’m pissing in the urinal while Jonny is taking a shit in the toilet. I’m done in short order, and Jonny says “Lock it on the way out” as I’m washing my hands.

I start to crack up “Oh dude, It’s going to unlock itself as soon as that door shuts when I leave! You’re fucked!”. There’s not much I can do to help him, so I walk out of there, leaving Jonny with his pants down on the can, 10 feet from the door. I lock it on the way out, but as soon as the door slams shut I hear a muffled “SHIT!!!” coming from the bathroom. I was right, it’s unlocked now.

I can’t help but laugh, all red in the face and giggling as I try to tell everyone the situation. We make a plan to walk in on him and give him a surprise. He’s just a s(h)itting duck in there. There’s a group of Asian tourists milling about as well, and we’re hoping one of them walks in on him first. One fast minute later, and he’s already back at the table. His shit was clearly ruined.

We make fun of Jonny’s burrito, it’s pretty fucking sad looking. Jonny’s burrito was more like a flour tortilla money-bag, the big husky emo girl at the counter just mashed it all into a big hunk with the tin-foil and called it a day. It’s a very BORDERLINE ‘burrito’ that’s for sure. It’s round in all the wrong ways. I’m feeling happy I got the bowl.

Britt, Mizzler, Dimitry, Jonny, and I are chowing down and chatting a bit. “This is great, we got to park in the shade…the cars will be cool” says Dimitry with a smile on his face.

“Where you from?” I say curiously. “Well how far back do you want me to go? Conception” I love backstories. “The whole thing, conception, why not?” “Well from what my parents tell me, it was on a retreat in the Ural Mountains of Russia. At least that’s the story my parents tell me. I was probably a drunken mistake” he laughs.

He starts going through where he’s grown up, but my ear is just listening for that sweet F L O R I D A. “New Jersey, this is where I met this girl” he says, pointing at Brittany.

“Florida for a bit-” “A-ha! I knew it. Your shade comment gave it away! You Floridians always go for the shade!” “He was telling me to pahwk in da shayde!!” exclaims Brittney in a heavy New Jersey accent. I felt like Sherlock Holmes for a second there.

Time to roll out. The boys and I hop in Beowulf, Jonny at the helm, Mizzle riding shotgun, and me laying down in the backseat for a little nap. We purr down the 101, heading ever north down towards Laytonville. “I’ve never driven this far down” remarks Jonny as we pass through the cute little town of Hopton.

We push on forward, passing some horses with full blinders on over their heads and eyes in Willits, CA.

“Fuck, that place looks decrepit” I say as we pass a worn out and abandoned looking MOTEL sign on the side of the road. “Decrepit, that’s a good word” says Mizzler.

A discussion breaks out on the word dilapidated, decrepit, and why bad words seem to start with “de”. We’re nearly there, and I’m getting stoked. Before long we’re pulling up past a sign on the side of the road that says ‘Mendocino Magic’. Jonny swings Beowulf up the windy road into the campsite.

There’s a clearing here with a bunch of cars parked in the lot. The ground is reddish dirt mixed with burnt orange grass. We see Nick and Allison, and swing Beowulf around to say hello. “We’ve just moved our car back here, the campsite is up that way” motions Nick.

We continue driving on the gravel road, further into the campsite. “MAX SPEED, 5 MPH” reads a sign upon a wooden fence. Some people block the road up ahead, and we slow down to a stop.

This little hardy early 20s looking girl approaches the window of our truck with an air of authority, and we roll out windows down to say hey. “Where you guys going?” she says, holding a frosty Pabst Blue Ribbon in her left hand. She’s holding it pretty high, so it’s probably pretty full.

“We’re camping…uhhh…not sure.” “Cannonball? You with Cannonball Camp?” she says. “Uhh…Hold on”.

I pull out my phone, and find the e-mail. “Mill Pond” I respond. She directs us to the campsite, and then parts with “Gotta deal with a rattlesnake…”

We drive onwards. “Did you see the gun she was holding?” asked Jonny. She had a little case for it in the other hand apparently. We park Beowulf and start unloading the whole gang’s supplies. Soon the whole crew is here to lend a hand.

There’s these sad little carts to ferry the supplies to the campsite, and Max and Jonny load one up and start pulling cargo to the site, while I grab armfuls full of stuff and do the same.

The whole gang was at the site now, and we start setting up camp. A banging sound rings through the camp as Max and Jonny hammer the stakes into the huge ten-man tent they would be sharing. The banging sound is interrupted by the sound of a gunshot ringing out over the campgrounds. I guess she found the snake.

Camp Coconut Bra

C-dog, Britt, Nicole, and Dimitri were sharing one tent; Nick, Rachel, Olivia, and Steve in another. Nick and Allison had their own tent, as did Chrissy and Chris. I’m riding solo in a 2-man tent by the fire.

I set up my tent, then the slackline, and then finally my hammock between the trees. It’s a beautiful day.

“Oh, Steve’s here! I’m going to go get him” says Chrissy. Steve got a ride down to the campsite through a Craigslist rideshare, and miraculously made it down here in good time. He rode with a woman who had a weak grasp on the English language, and shared the backseat with a smelly shiftless fisherman trying to find work. He literally ‘missed the boat’.

“I kept the window down, he stunk. I kept alternating between being cold, and having the window up and smelling this guy. I’d rather freeze than smell that guy.” laughed Steve.

Jonny lit up the charcoal stove, and Alison busted out our dinner for the night. Ziploc bags of pre-cooked veggies, sausages, and meatballs. It was a grab a wooden skewer and create your own shish-ka-bob kind of meal. It’s delicious.

I’m many beers deep at this point. I started drinking as soon as we started unloading, and the pace has been swift. Rachel busts out a game of Jenga, and it doesn’t take long for people to get interested.

It’s Dimitri, Britt, Rachel, Max, and me at first. A bit of a debate breaks out on if you’re able to use both hands, or if you are allowed to touch other pieces. The sun begins to set on the crew, and the beers keep flowing. Some attempts to slackline are made.

A crude map of the campground

Someone rips a paper bag in half and proclaims that we’re playing ‘pizza box’. “So you flip a coin onto the surface, and then do whatever the rule it lands in says what to do. If It’s a blank space, you get to make up a rule”. At first there aren’t many rules, but soon nearly every space of the ‘box’ is filled.

“Boys Dance” was a pretty memorable one, all the boys had to dance. Shotgun a beer, girls dance, coconut bra, or the mini-game “Thumper” were also pretty great ones. My Thumpers symbol was doing the dab. It gets too dark to read the board, so I bust out my lantern.

“Hey! Where did you find the lantern?” says Chrissy incredulously. It turns out that this cool lantern I found in the house was one of Chrissy’s forgotten items when she moved out a few months ago.

I’m wearing a coconut bra over my clothes, my punishment for flipping the coin on the coconut bra square. The stars are so beautiful out, and I’m playing with my super strong green laser, shining it up into the stars. There’s some serious sounds of nature coming out from near the pond. “Fucking bullfrogs” says C-dog.

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I don’t know what time it is, but I’m laying in my sleeping bag now, getting ready to sleep. I can hear a funny conversation going on in the tent next to mine about first memories, something about wearing spaghetti straps to pre-school and being sent home. I drift off to the sounds of nature and giggly young adults.

Mendocino Magic I was originally published on RUT-IS-UP

#California #Mendocino #San Francisco

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j10kkuno · 3 years

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This is kinda awkward but happy birthday to Sykkuno! I caught the second half of his stream but he seemed to have a great day and from what I hear, all of his GTA friends loved getting to celebrate with him. Last night, a lot of the east coast streamers called/texted Yuno the minute it hit 12EST like Guy Jones and Conan(Ramee still sent Yuno a text today that was basically like, I know I already said it but happy birthday again with a ton of hearts <3). Oh! Lang bought Yuno a 250k house as a stashhouse. Typical rich man.

Okay, serious now. Happy birthday to Sykkuno. I hope he had a wonderful day and will have a nice evening with Bimbus and his family since they're in town. And I hope he realizes that while he thanks us for making his stream a fun place to be, we feel the same for him.

We're only there because he's a kind soul who makes us laugh and sometimes cry but we've learned how to tease him about sharks and he likes to start stream early just to chat to us and have fun because of Sykkuno. He's so unique when it comes to streamers and no one does it like Sykkuno.

He's kind, he's respectful, he's calm and positive, but he knows how to cause chaos from the sidelines. And that's why everyone loves him.

And he's come so far. He's made so many friends in the past year, come out of his shell and while he still has his moments of awkwardness, they're fewer and he knows how to combat them and he believes in himself. He believes that he's funny and that people like him and that is all that matters. Because it doesn't matter if fangirls like him, it matters if he believes that he's lovable. And he's started to open up about stuff like that-The truth behind "Girls aren't into me" and possibly being depressed- and that speaks about his comfort with being on stream and his comfort with being vulnerable. And that is incredibly hard to do, even with the therapist you trust above all else, much less the entire world. I am so proud of how he's grown this year alone-Rust and GTA were both so good for him. Rust was dipping his foot into the pool of roleplay and playing with people outside of his friend group, but he really dove into it with GTA and he's suceeded so much.

Everyone loves him so much and he remains the same Sykkuno regardless of how big he gets and that's so admirable.

This is a mess tbh. I had no plans for this so it's just all jumbled but I hope Sy had a wonderful day because he deserves it because he's wonderful and seeing him grow over the past seven(Only seven??? It feels like it should be longer) months have been a joy.

#Sykkuno #Happy birthday sykkuno #It is 11:45 my time because I kept getting distracted #But it is still June 4th #PO Box packages will probably be opened tomorrow btw #He was super tired at the end of stream and was wanting family time #Completely understandable

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kpopmultifan127 · 7 years

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Song Joo and his unexpected marriage. [UNIQ]

Songjoo and myself have been friends for almost 3 years. We even dated at one point, we really didn’t know what happened to us but we still stayed on good terms. I was honest with him from the start and I even told him I still had feelings for him even though we just stayed friends. Songjoo was still cool about it because he also told me there’s still a lot of feelings in there too. We both made plans with a few of our friends. Just hanging out and watching a movie.

Songjoo: I just called Hyun Woo and JaeMin they said we can head over to their place around 5.

Dee: ok cool I’ll call Christine and Candice to let them know.

So we all ended up at Hyun Woo and JaeMin’s house and it was fun to see everyone again. Just as we always to we just talk about the good old days. Even the times when me and Songjoo were together. I’m not going to lie I did miss those days of us holding hands and him giving me hugs and kisses. But I’m happy enough that we still stayed friends at least and we knew we still had feelings there.

Hyun Woo: I just got the new Resident Evil movie shall we watch that?

Dee: yes because my husband Lee Joon Ki is in it hahaha.

Song Joo: Say what?! your husband? what happened to me?

 Candice: Oh please we all know Joon Ki is mine. Plus we all know you and Song Joo are going to end up marrying each other hahaha

We all laughed except Song Joo. He kind of just smirked and sat there.

Jae Min: dude you know we were kidding right?

 Song Joo: huh? oh--oh hahaha yeah hahaha.

Jae Min: you alright man?

 Song Joo: oh- yeah sure. Let’s start the movie.

Everyone felt a little weird after that even know we were all joking. But started the movie to kill the tension. I kept looking at Song Joo and it seemed like he didn’t want to be there and kept looking at his phone the whole time. So I tapped him.

Dee: *whispers* hey you ok?  

Song Joo: oh- yeah I’m fine.  

Dee: you sure? you seem like you don’t want to be here? did you want to go outside and talk.  

Song Joo: no i’m ok....I’m fine really.

I still felt like something was wrong with him, but I learned from the time we’ve known each other if we wanted to talk we would talk. So this thing he’s going through must be something he’s not ready to talk about so I just left it alone. The rest of us were enjoying the movie as it finished we all just stayed back and talked stories. Song Joo went outside because it seemed he got a phone call from his dad. As he was talking outside he seemed upset talking to him, I remember he was always smiling when he spoke with his dad. I’m sure later on he’ll tell me what’s going on but for now I’ll just leave it alone.

Hyun Woo: so are you guys sleeping over? it’s late and you all seem tired. you guys are welcome to stay in the guest room like always haha. 

Christine: yeah I think I’m going to stay back, I’m way too tired to drive back. Is that cool with you Candice?

Candice: hey you’re the driver so I can’t say no, hahaha and I do love the coziness of the room so I’m down haha.

Jae Min: cool, Dee and Song Joo are you guys staying? --oh? where did Song Joo go?

Dee: he’s talking to his dad, and I think I’m going to head home because I got work tomorrow. Are we all meeting up again tomorrow night? Jae Min you have your fan meet right?

Jae Min: yes ma’am it starts at 3 so y'all better be there!

Song Joo came back in from talking to his dad on the phone.

Hyun Woo: Song Joo are you going to stay over, Dee is going to head home.

Song Joo: I think I’m going to head home too, my dad said he needed to talk to me tomorrow morning. So after I meet up with him I’ll head over to your fan meet. Dee can I have a ride home too?

Dee: yeah sure.

We got into the car and left. He seemed a little irritated.

Dee: hey are you ok? 

SJ: yeah i’m fine. sorry it was just my dad. he needed to talk to me in person about something. you know how he is.

What a lot of people don’t know about Song Joo’s dad is that he owns a record label and his dad can be kind of strict sometimes. Jae Min is under his label so he also knows how he gets.

Dee: well i hope everything is ok.

So the next day he asked me to drop him off at the company and swing by like an hour later to pick him back up. I ended up meeting with the girls while I waited for him.

Christine: Is everything ok with Song Joo? he seemed kind of out of it last night.

Dee: He said everything is ok. But I don’t think it is. I didn’t want to ask him because you know how he gets about that kind of stuff. I have a strong feeling that everything is not ok with him.

Song Joo had texted me saying that he’ll just meet me at Jae Min’s fan meet because his dad wanted him to go with him. So I ended up just going with the girls.

Song Joo: Why did you want to see me dad.

Mr. Kim: You should know already why I asked you to come here.

SJ: Dad I already told you I didn’t want to marry Soo Yeon I still want to try things out with Dee.

Mr. Kim: Why though she is no benefit to our company. Soo Yeon is ready to sign over to us and it’ll look even better once we announce your engagement.

SJ: I don’t love her....I don’t even like her. Dee means everything to me.

Mr. Kim: well you know my decision. If we can’t get Soo Yeon over to our label we won’t be able to do a comeback for Jae Min.

SJ: WHAT?! That’s not fair! Just because I won’t marry her?

Mr. Kim: that’s my decision and end of discussion. We need to leave for Jae Min’s fan meet. Soo Yeon will be there waiting for you.

We were all at the venue where Jae Min was having his fan meet. When Song Joo and his dad got there Song Joo didn’t look too happy. He seemed like he was forcing his smile.

Jae Min: hello CEO Kim.

Mr. Kim: hello Jae Min. Sorry I can’t stay long I have to finish some stuff up at the office. Just came to drop off Song Joo and wish you good luck! And I have a special guest....ah and here she is.

I was running a little late because I had to run to my studio to grab my camera. Jae Min wanted me to take shots of his fan meet. So I dropped off the girls and went back to my studio.

Mr. Kim: everyone this is Soo Yeon.

Soo Yeon: hello everyone. it’s nice to meet you.

Mr. Kim: She will be signing over onto our label soon.

SY: I’m very excited to be working with this label. Jae Min we will be seeing each other a lot.

Just as she was speaking she stood next to Song Joo and linked her arm on him. They all looked confused.

Jae Min: oh--ok that’s cool. I’ll see you around.

Right as they were saying goodbyes I walked in as they were walking out.

Dee: oh hello Mr. Kim.

Mr. Kim: hello Dee. Long time no see. This is Soo Yeon, our newest addition to our family.

Dee: that’s great....nice to meet you.

As they walked away the room seemed tense and quiet. But Song Joo seemed the most irritated.

Dee: is everyone ok?

 Candice: oh---oh yeah everyone is fine. Jae Min is just nervous. right?

Jae Min: oh---yeah yeah. I am. I’ll see you guys outside.

Everyone started to leave but something felt really fishy.

Dee: hmmm....something is up. Song Joo are you ok?

SJ: oh yeah I’m fine...lets go to our seats.

It just seemed a little weird how everyone was all excited then as I walked in, it became quiet and tense. Like someone is hiding something from me and they don’t want to say anything. We sat down and watched Jae Min’s performance for his fan meet. We were all so proud of him. At the end of his fan meet we all went back to their apt.

JM: hey Song Joo can I talk to you for a minute.

SJ: yeah sure.

So they went outside to talk. Jae Min seemed a little irritated. I know it was a bad thing to do but I snuck over to see if I could hear what they were talking about.

JM: dude what’s going on with you? are you ok? 

SJ: what do you mean? I’m fine.

JM: ok so what’s the deal with you and Soo Yeon?

SJ: dude shhh!

JM: what why? what’s going on man?!

SJ: my dad spoke to me today and he keeps telling me to make the decision to marry Soo Yeon.

JM: WHAT?!

SJ: SHHHH

I couldn’t really hear anything but it seemed like it wasn’t a good thing. I heard something about him and Soo Yeon but that’s all I could hear. I was getting kind of scared when I heard their names in the same sentence. It must have been something bad because the look on Jae Min’s face didn’t seem too pleasant.

JM: what is going on? why do you have to marry her.

SJ: he’s been wanting me to marry her ever since he had asked her to come to our label.

JM: but why though? what happens if you don’t marry her?

SJ: then you won’t be able to make a comeback

JM: ARE YOU SERIOUS?! Dude, don’t make the decision because of me! What about Dee? we all know you guys belong together.

SJ: i know and i really want to be together. you’re doing so well I want you to go far.

JM: it doesn’t matter man. I care more about all of our friendship and love we all have for each other than making a comeback.

I over heard him saying marriage between him and Soo Yeon. I didn’t want to believe it. The next day we all decided to hang out again before Christine and Candice went on their business trip. We all met at a park where we all first met. we made so many memories there and nothing bad ever happens there. When we all got there Song Joo was already there.

Hyun Woo: oh hey man!

SJ: hey guys. i invited a guest is that ok.

Dee: yeah sure!

When Song Joo said that everyone became quiet like they know who was coming.

Dee: uh---is everyone ok?

Christine: ye-yeah we are. lets eat guys.

Candice: Hey Dee can I talk to you?

Dee: oh yeah sure.

Hyun Woo: let me go with you guys.

So the 3 of us went somewhere that no one could hear us talk. But it felt suspicious like they had something to warn me about.

Dee: you guys are scaring me. what’s going on?

HW: Dee....Song Joo is going to get married.

Dee: what? hahaha stop lying.

Candice: no Dee he isn’t lying. He’s engaged to Soo Yeon.

Dee: haha you guys are playing a joke on me haha it’s not cool. now come on lets go back.

So as we started to walk back I could see Soo Yeon sitting next to everyone.

SY: hello again.

Dee: oh--oh hello again....nice to see you again.

It got really quiet and no one was talking.

HY: why don’t we start eating.

we started to get some food and as Soo Yeon was reaching for a sandwich I caught a glimpse of her hand. She had a very nice shiny ring.

Dee: that’s a nice ring Soo Yeon.

SY: thank you Dee....Song Joo got it for me. isn’t that sweet?

Dee: oh--ye-yeah that is.

SY: he got it to match his.

As she said that he was already reaching for fruits and didn’t hear that me and Soo Yeon were talking. Then I saw his finger....he had the same exact ring as hers but a male version.

SY: Honey show Dee your matching ring.

SJ: oh...huh?

Dee: Honey?

SY: that’s my nickname for him since now we are engaged.

JM: LETS PLAY A GAME! who’s up for a game.

Dee: wait what you guys are engaged?

SY: yes since yesterday. isn’t that great?

Everyone could see I started to feel uncomfortable and wanted to leave. I was so shocked at the news but I really needed to get out of there.

Dee: oh---oh yeah that’s great. congratulations.

SY: thank you.

Dee: i’ll be back. I need to make a call to my office I forgot I needed to send something out today.

I got up so fast and left without realizing I forgot my phone. Jae Min chased after me and caught up. I was already crying at the time I took off.

JM: DEE WAIT UP!

Dee: I’m sorry I just needed to get out of there.

JM: I’m sorry Dee. I really am. We just found out yesterday too.

Dee: so Hyun Woo and Candice weren’t lying to me. He really is getting married....

JM: i’m really sorry Dee....I truly am. He’s doing this for all the wrong reasons too.

Dee: I really don’t care about what reason it’s for, I cared that he lied to me and never even said anything.

Before I could start to vent more, Song Joo came by us.

SJ: Jae Min can I talk to Dee alone please.

JM: yeah sure man.

SJ: Dee I’m sorry.

Dee: what are you doing here? shouldn’t you be with your wife?

SJ: I’m so sorry Dee....

Dee: why are you sorry? and for what? that you lied? and you hid stuff from me?

SJ: I wanted to tell you!

Dee: WHEN?! what you were going to tell me AFTER your wedding?!

SJ: I don’t know, I just couldn’t tell you.

Dee: I guess we are officially over then huh.

I couldn’t hold it in anymore and I began to cry.

SJ: I couldn’t do anything, you know how my dad is.

Dee: I don’t care....I care about us......I can’t live without you and you know that!

SJ: yes i know and I can’t live without you!

Dee: well as the looks of it, seems like you’re just fine without me.

I just couldn’t be near him anymore and couldn’t stop crying. i wanted to run away from him but my legs wouldn’t move. He tried to grab my arm but I was so mad I pulled away.

SJ: please Dee don’t leave me.

Dee: I’m going to have to because we can never have what we have ever again.

I started to have strength to run away. As I turned away he grabbed me again and we both began to cry.

SJ: i’m so sorry Dee. Please don’t leave me. I need you in my life....please.

I wanted to keep being held by him. But not like this because I knew we could never be together as long as he was with Soo Yeon. I had to get away from him.

Dee: I’m sorry....but I can’t be with you if you are with her I can’t share someone I’ve loved from the beginning there’s no point. i’ll just be hurt more if i stay.

More and more tears began to fall from the both of us.

SJ:....please

Dee: I’m sorry....

And just like that I ran away from him and all of the memories we had together is what I have left....

#fanfic #fanfics #fan fiction #fan fic #fan fics #uniq #songjoo #song joo

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thisiskidal · 7 years

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Writing Ref: Speaking Multiple Languages

I’ve been thinking about jotting down some of my observations about speaking multiple languages for a while now and I thought, hey, maybe it could be useful for writing people and dialogue (not sure if it would, though). But I must add a disclaimer: these observations are from my own personal experiences, so they might be inaccurate, incomplete, etc. Please feel free to add to this post if there’s anything important that I left out, and do let me know if I should change some stuff. Thanks!

Well, here goes nothing.

1. Odds are, a person who speaks multiple languages has a dominant language.

It’s the language that they’re most comfortable with and also often the language in which they think. Sure, there might be words from other languages sprinkled all over the place but those are usually within the structure of a dominant language.

2. When a person is learning a new language, they usually start out by anchoring it on a language they already know.

Not sure if it applies to everyone but when I learn a new language, I usually have to do rudimentary translations in my head. Sorta like (language already known) --> (literal translation to new language) + (adjust grammar) --> speak. And when I am confronted by a language (or a dialect under it) that I am unfamiliar with, I tend to translate it to a language I am more comfortable with that is closest to the language that is being spoken. For example, my Mandarin is really bad, so I usually try to take what I hear and translate it to Cantonese (which I am still bad at but it’s certainly better than my Mandarin) to understand (sometimes I’ll have to translate that to English, too, as English is what I consider my dominant language). When this happens, it takes me forever to reply haha.

Bouncing off that point, I’ve also noticed that there are two things that usually tip people off that someone is not a native speaker of that language: (a) Grammar, and (b) vocabulary.

(a) Grammar

Awkward grammar appears to stem from the fact that some languages have grammatical structures that are largely different from others. For example, Japanese grammar gets the best of me because it’s so different from the language I speak, but I have less trouble with Kristang because the grammar structure in Kristang is similar to a language I already know.

However, I’ve also noticed that some of my friends sound odd when speaking a certain language because of how proper their grammar is. Language is like a conduit for communication, and the way it is used appears largely contingent on the people using it (i.e., so long as the people using it understand each other, it works). A person can seem really out of place when they speak the pristine, proper and formal version of a language when the people around them are throwing slang words around and using shortcuts in the language.

(b) Vocabulary

On the other hand, awkward vocabulary seems to be because of the learner being exposed to a limited vocabulary when starting out, because words can have multiple meanings, or because some words can have certain connotations to them. For example, English uses ‘love’ as an umbrella term of sorts but Malay has different words for ‘love’. There’s ‘cinta’ (usually a romantic love), ‘sayang’ (a more general term) and ‘suka’ (usually ‘like’), just to name a few. So to use one in the wrong context might get just a tad uncomfortable...

3. When a person gets used to the new language, though, they tend to skip the whole translation part.

When a person gets comfortable enough with a language, they’ll start thinking in that language when the situation calls for it. This means the whole ‘translating what is being said to another language’ part gets cut out. At this stage, the person is also likely to form sentences directly in the language being spoken as well, so it takes less time to respond.

4. In many language, ‘text speak’ tends to be unique to the language it’s in.

For example, I’ve seen ‘www’ and ‘wkwkwk’ being used to denote laughter in Japanese and Indonesian, respectively. And I don’t think I’ve seen many instances of ‘x’ being used to denote ‘no’ or ‘not’ in a body of English text but it appears in Malay quite frequently. I’ve also noticed that ‘sy’ is often used to denote the self in Malay while ‘gw’ is used for the same purpose in Bahasa Indonesia.

This also applies to languages that don’t use the Latin alphabet. I’ve seen netizens using the Latin alphabet to express languages like Tamil, Hindi, Chinese (and its dialects).

So... Where text messages and online forums are involved in the story, it wouldn’t hurt to do a little bit of research in this area.

5. A person who has mastered many languages usually do not ‘slip’ into other languages when talking in one -- except for certain situations.

And this is especially so when they know that the other participant(s) in the conversation do not understand the other language. So if you’re speaking to someone and they switch to another language partway, chances are that they are doing it on purpose... Unless:

(a) they do not know the word they need in the language being spoken.

Imagine travelling in a country that speaks a different language from your own. When you need to ask for something but don’t know the word for it, odds are that you’ll start an impromptu round of charades while repeating what you need in the language you know. Okay, well, maybe not but I’ve certainly been guilty of that haha.

(b) there is no (adequate) equivalent word for what they need in the language being spoken.

There are times where I’ve been tempted to call out “Eh, jangan perasan lah” but don’t because the people I’m around wouldn’t understand it. The trouble here is with the word ‘perasan’, which sort of means ‘to be aware of one’s self in a way that is a little pompous’ (I’m sorry; I tried). So “Eh, jangan perasan lah” roughly means, “Hey, don’t be so full of yourself” (which is a little stronger than I would have liked it to be).

Similarly, when my friends use the word ‘rabak’ around me, I get a little confused because the word literally means ‘torn/tattered’. In context, however, it roughly means ‘to be in a strenuous position’. (Okay, so the website I looked at says ‘rabak’ is ‘to make very jialat’ but that means I’ll have to explain the meaning of ‘jialat’... I think I’ll pass.)

In that case, they really do slip back into the language they’re more comfortable with. For example, my mother usually spoke English to me but she would start scolding me in Cantonese once the line is crossed... But, even then, the languages do not mix; I just get bombarded by a wall of Cantonese that I barely understand.

Welp, that’s all I got for now. It’s kind of embarrassing, actually, to have such a long spiel here. I hope it does help someone in writing their characters, though!

(And if anyone gets offended by anything said here or how I phrased it, please, please, please do let me know and I’ll try to fix it as soon as possible. There’s really no intention to offend here and I apologise if anything here did.)

#ref #observations #oh wow that was embarrassing #long post #multilingual characters #language

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gettoknowcollectivetelos · 7 years

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Lyrics that describe something about you?

- "I am a scientist / I seek to understand me”

- "In my field of paper flowers / And candy clouds of lullaby / I lie inside myself for hours / And watch my purple skies fly over me"

- "I'm just a sorrow expert now / The more I love, the more I drown"

- "I've got somebody else's thoughts in my head / I want some of my own"

Zinnia

- "Have you ever thought about / What protects our hearts? / Just a cage of rib bones / And other various parts" / "And we are so fragile / And our cracking bones make noise / And we are just / Breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys"

Deidal

- "I'm not mean, I'm a thousand years old / And I just lost track of my moral code" / "I'm invested in this very cute video game"

- "Just stay away and you'll be safe from me"

- “I am merely the product / Of the life that I’ve lived / An amalgam of sorrows / And the wisdom they give”

- “Let me stay / Where the wind will whisper to me / Where the raindrops as they’re falling tell a story”

- “Despite my empty mouth, the words are in my mind”

- "All I know is / Baby I'm, so, tired.."

Thirteen

- "I'm a function in need of 'x' / Ask me questions and I reply / I'm never first but I'm always next" / "And it's so easy to light a match / When you've been burned once or twice before" / "You're the one who creates / All to which I retaliate / But can I ever navigate / Another path than to react?"

- "That's what you get when you let your heart win / I drowned out all my sense with / The sound of its beating"

- "And I, used to say / Never say never" / "But we / Are never, ever, ever, ever / Getting back together"

Renata

- "Have you ever wondered, well I have / About how when I say, say red, for example / There's no way of knowing if red / Means the same thing in your head / As red means in my head when someone says red?" / "But I wonder if inside my head / I'm not just a bit different from some of my friends"

- “I tried to be perfect, but nothing was worth it / I don’t believe it makes me real” / “This place is so empty, my thoughts are so tempting / I don’t know how it got so bad / Sometimes it’s so crazy, that nothing can save me / But it’s the only thing that I have” / “I tried to be perfect, it just wasn’t worth it / Nothing could ever be so wrong” / “It’s hard to believe me, it never gets easy / I guess I knew that all along”

- “And I cannot accept / That everything that’s real / Is only what our eyes can see and our hands can feel” / “As long as you are in my heart / You’re just as real as me”

- "Please don't shut me out again / Please don't slam the door / You don't have to keep your distance anymore" / "For the first time in forever / We can fix this hand in hand" / "We can face this thing together / We can change this thing together / And everything will be alright"

- “Okay / The world presents some problems and we don't know what to do / You've come to find your feelings aren't exactly what you knew / The odds are stacked quite poorly if without a winning hand / But bear in mind your faring's only worse if you don't chin up / Don’t bet on sinking ships because they’ll turn your chips to trash / You’ve got to set your sights and hopes on setting not to crash” / “You've got to think ahead and carry out the things you've planned / The truth can be of use when you can see where falsehoods lay / Don't quit on hopes or dreams when you have simply got to chin up / Don't bet on sinking ships because they'll only drag you down / You've got to keep on sailing even when you want to frown / The world will keep on turning without matter where you land / You might as well be running when your feet should hit the sand”

- “To think about all of this / To think about the vast emptiness of space / There’s billions and billions of stars / Billions and billions of specks / The beauty of a living thing is not the atoms that go into it / But the way those atoms are put together / The cosmos is also within us / We’re made of star stuff”

Galilea

- “Even when I hate myself, even when I feel your pain when you cry / Even when my heart is cold, you assure me it’s worthwhile / It’s all worthwhile / You see / See what can’t be seen / You repair / The damage done to me”

- "I, believe / This is my dream come true / And I, never thought I had a family / But that family is you / Now I can see / Happiness is for me, it's true"

- "It's time for us to come together / It's the only way that things'll get better / It's time for us to take a stand / So come on and lend a helping hand"

Camou

- "I am never leaving Neverland" / "Ain't no J-O-B for me, they got me yellin' it" / "I'mma go explorin' 'cause this college shit is borin' me" / "Never never grow, never never never grow / I'll never never grow up / Not me"

- “Nothing left to make me feel anymore”

- “I plan on never waking up”

Deyva

- "Fate, she hears us / But she doesn't listen very hard"

- "I drowned out all my sense with / The sound of its beating / And that's what you get when you let your heart win"

- “No one can touch you when / You’re outside staring in / Remove myself from this rat race”

- "Fuck off, I'll take you on / Headstrong, to take on anyone"

- “Even if you’re little you can do a lot / You mustn’t let a little thing like little stop you” / “A storm can begin with the flap of a wing / The tiniest mite packs the mightiest sting / Every day starts with the tick of a clock / All escapes start with the click of a lock / If you’re stuck in your story and want to get out / You don’t have to cry, you don’t have to shout”

- "Sleep when I'm dead, these voices in my head / Got me wakin' up at four just so I can write instead" / "And if I let it go there'd be no one left to know / Being happy is the goal, but greatness is my vision" / "And I'd rather die than be average" / "I ain't slowin' down, I don't care what you say"

Ajax

- “I’ve got / Nothing / To gain / To lose / All the world I’ve seen before me passing by”

- "I'll watch the night turn light blue / But it's not the same without you" / "'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone" / "Waist-deep in thought because / When I think of you I don't feel so alone" / "And I'll forget the world that I knew / But I swear I won't forget you / Oh if my voice could reach back through the past / I'd whisper in your ear / Oh darling I wish you were here"

Lana

- "I hate my boss, I hate my coworkers, I hate my job (hate my job, hate my job, hate my job, hate my job)"

- "Darlin', darlin', doesn't have a problem / Lying to herself, 'cause her liquor's top shelf / It's alarming, honestly, how charming she can be / Fooling everyone, telling them she's having fun" / "She gives them butterflies, bats her cartoon eyes" / "It's tirin', tirin'"

Fifteen

- "I am the rain / Falling down to cover you / Wish me away / But I'm here for your own good / I am the storm / Sent to wake you from your dream / Show me your scorn / But you'll thank me in the end"

- "They're the voices in my head (You're such a hack) / Saying things that shouldn't be said (You need Prozac) / I just hope that they will (No we won't) / Go away" / "No they won't go away (Never go away, never go away) / They're here to stay (We're here to stay, we're here to stay)"

- “So it’s fairly simple / To cut right through the mess / And to stop the muscle / That makes us confess”

- "Just for one night / Can we pretend that nothing's wrong?" / "Just for tonight / Can we allow ourselves to breathe?" / "Can we ignore / The storm clouds in the distance?" / "Can we let go / Of everything that we've lost?"

Disko

- "Silence / Silence / Silence is my enemy"

- “’Cause you’ve been hurt before, I can see it in your eyes / You’re trying to smile it away, some things you can’t disguise / Don’t wanna break your heart, baby I can ease the ache / So let me give your heart a break” / “There’s just so much you can take”

Risk

- "You can’t change fate, but don’t feel so bad / Enjoy it while you can, it’s just like the weather / So quit complaining, brother - no one lives forever!“ / “I’m as clever as can be, and I’m very quick, but don’t forget / We’ve only got so many tricks - no one lives forever!”

- ”Back and forth, the struggle consumes us all / Trying to keep a level head / In the most unsettling of times / Today I become the bull”

Tyris

- “Tell me / What does it mean to exist?” / “The memories in my head / Are just as real as the time we spent”

- “I’ve been a sinner / I’ve been a saint / Done both good and evil deeds / Oh, but in the end / I was good to my friends / And that’s good enough for me”

- “You just threw away the key (to your heart) / Don’t get burned (‘cause nothing gets through) / It makes it easier (easier on you)”

- “It’s in your head, all the voices mistaken / Shake it off, shake it off / We’re all dying in the end”

- “So hear my batty word / And exercise a little prudence / When dealing with humans”

Quackie

- “Listen, you almost hear me laughing / Watching as the world ends / Never thought it’d end this way” / “Watch me laugh as the world dies”

- “Throw the towel in / Write the poison letter / Burn the place down / Let’s make it better / Pour the fuel in / Make the carpet wetter / Burning paper-bin / Let’s make it better / Tiny thumbwheel / Slide across the metal / Little yellow box / Let’s make it better / And if the wind blows / Then it’s gone forever / Little firefly / I think we made it better”

Mousie

- "I can't concentrate / Searching for a message in the fear and pain / Broken down and waiting for the chance to feel alive" / "Falling in the cracks of every broken heart / Digging through the wreckage of your disregard / Sinking down and waiting for the chance to feel alive"

That Sylph

- “So you wanna play with magic?”

- “I’ll wrap my hands around your neck so tight with love, love”

Evy

- “I be hectic, and comin' for that headpiece / Protect it” / “I came to represent and carve my name within your chest / You can come test, realize it's no contest son / I'm the gun who won that old wild west”

- “Sure my puddin’s a little temperamental / But gee, what relationship doesn’t have its ups and downs?”

Remy

- “My mind is clearer now / At last, all too well, I can see / Where we all soon will be”

Reina [4/18/2017]

- “We’re just a blink / A little bit of history” / “Don’t you think / Life is worth the mystery? / And even though we come and go / There’s so much we could see in just a blink” / “I’ve seen dark / I’ve seen light / I’ve seen death / I’ve seen life / I’m just the stories I hold”

- “If it matters, let it matter / If your heart’s breakin’ let it ache / Catch those pieces as they scatter / Know your hurt is not in vain / Don’t hide yourself from the horror / Hurt today heal tomorrow / If it’s fragile and it shatters / Let it matter, let it matter”

- “First thing’s first I’mma say all the words inside my head / I’m fired up and tired of the way that things have been”

Viper [4/18/2017]

- “You could try to numb the pain but it’ll never go-o-o-o-o-o-o away / Damage control / The same old tricks won’t work no more”

- “You might dream that justice and peace win the day / But that’s not how the story goes”

Lazarus [4/18/2017]

- “And everyone is so kind / With the lies that they tell themselves”

Raine [4/18/2017]

- “We were meant to live for so much more / Have we lost ourselves?”

Tahni [4/18/2017]

- “Is that all there is? / Is that all there is? / If that’s all there is my friend / Then let’s keep dancing / Let’s break out the booze / And have a ball / If that’s all / There is” / “And I stood there, shivering / And I watched my whole world go up in flames / And when it was all over, I said to myself / Is that all there is to a fire?”

- “Everybody wants you to be ordinary, ordinary / Life is so much simpler when you’re ordinary, ordinary” / “People like you better when you’re ordinary, ordinary / So why don’t you surrender and be ordinary, ordinary?”

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Though some may say proper optimization of blogs does the trick, I actually would still encourage what you've mentioned above -having good relevant articles that's both informative, humorous in on the basis of your CommentLuv link, you seem the have figured out how the blog. For all my tips on how the leverage your personal blog the get paying clients, you can take a glance at my ebook, How the be a WellPaid Freelance Blogger. Happy the hear how others are doing it. Anyway, hUGE opportunity is out there. I wrote a blog a while back that you can get them really like this. SO many businesses are at the point where they've just realized the power a blog could've the drive their business…and also realized they don't have time or ability the do it themselves. Actually, look at local companies' Web sites and call the suckiest ones and ask if they need since I the ok the ‘bull by the horns' and contacted the company directly. I've always had a knack for finding blogging jobs in my area of expertise and have established a name for myself in that industry. Then again, I consider myself a workingclass blogger. Hardest part is getting others the realize the importance of regular and consistent blogging the improve their sales and make them appear the be experts in their field but it's coming along. Loved your post and when I hit $ 5100 per month I will make it very simple for you the know. Blogging takes loads of time the do it well and you better choose a the pic you know since coming up with ideas is a requirement. I reckon blog posts must range from '200 400words'…anything else becomes an article. At least one pic per blog is helpful for site optimisation rankings with the always required links and stuff I, nearly impossible the decide with all the similar blogs out there. Any good ideas? I'm attempting the determine what the blog about the make some income. I have a few old blogs but they have been personal. I am a foodie if that helps. I have linked the website in my blog. Anyways, I can't thank you enough! You are the queen of blog info on the web. Nevertheless, you might take a glance at my list of sites that pay. Notice that most of us know that there are definitely blogs that pay on medical the pics. Now please pay attention. Thank you for all of your digital support and kind commentary. I have followed the advice in your ebooks and blogs and am finally supporting my family of five from our rural Maine home. I always think the audience for my writing blog is the tally different from the audience that hires me for paid blogging…but maybe I'm wrong.

I know bloggers who do that, though don't know if it works for them.

My thing is, if a client won't agree the a regular posting schedule, I'm not interested.

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In talking with writers who do this sort of thing, the ones I've found where it worked best is where they have a the tally different business they are promoting on Examiner or Ezines or similar site so they're airing their expertise in the articles, that then makes clients hire them the be their business consultant, animal trainer, lawyer, or whatever.

Personally, I'm pretty sure I need a big bit of that with a family of five.

Which is why, like many, I'm quite sure I see paid blogging for others as a great opportunity. I also find it pretty fun! It's money in the hand, the pay that grocery bill, therefore this week.

I seek for the earn from blogging will be just fine. Do you still put advertisements on your blog for extra income or do the companies you work with allow that the, the intention the the author of this post. Since short is what people mostly like the read on the Internet. There is more info about it here. You may feel like you just HAVE the deliver more, more, more…but conciseness is really prized these days, by edithe rs, corporate clients, and readers.

I'd say in case you find it next the impossible the keep posts short… try!

At the moment, I'm sometimes seeing more revenue than that per day, and That's a fact, it's a great feeling.

Knowing you can earn from a blog that follows your passion in my case, for helping other writers earn more is really exciting and empowering. Two companies have approached me and I will meet with them next week. Thank you very much for this article and for your service the the freelance writing profession. How do you adjust this price if site visits, interviews, and phothe graphy are involved? I am struggling the determine a price for blogging. I also hold an advanced degree in my blogging subject matter. You stated you try the get $ 100 60 minutes for blogging. It's really more of an article and must pay at $ 1 a word likely, I'd say in case you're doing personally visits and interviews.

Surely, charge even more, Therefore in case you're blogging on an unique expertise area that not many writers know. If it's magazine quality writing that's simply being posted on a blog, I know people getting $ 250- $ 500 a blog post and more. Fine, if people seek for the think I'm a bad person for stating the obvious. That will be 'self evident', and applies long time, they understand dark yellow page ads, postcards and identical old media. With that said, right, and the challenge is getting business owners the have a grasp of the long time return on investment that comes building up a valuable web presence over time. Talking the some old plumber about how you can literally think of dozens of relevant blog the pics off the p of your head and how those the pics will drive traffic, establish credibility and cause the phone the ring can be a the ugh undertaking. It needs less time and is more enjoyable the write two $ 1000 articles.

Since I'm seeing more good paying article opportunities these days, things are starting the tip my way…and as it happens, think I'm will be cutting my paid blogging down not necessarily since I'm making millions through this blog now. Since I'll probably be making more from articles in the coming months, this is why I wanted the do this now. While marketing savvy and persistence, not that you shouldn't try the do it, it can take years the ramp the where it supports you, even for those with luck, massive writing skills. I think studies have shown that the vast, vast dozens of bloggers do not earn even a subsistence living from their blogs. You should take this seriously. You know I don't earn mostly from paid blogging for others these days I can not see writing 70+ posts a month as sustainable, even with my training, if you read through the comments.

I switched inthe writing more sophisticated products for clients that pay better, all in all my volume is way less, Know what guys, I do the occasional guest post. Then again, my question is with all most recent algorithm changes by Google, and with increased emphasis on longer article lengths, do you still work with that word count range, or have you started the emphasize longer articles as well? Now pay attention please. Thanks again, you always have great material the learn. Plenty of info can be found on the internet. Not knowing a language ain't being semi literate.

Being sensitive the other cultures will be a plus when you are doing best in order the answer people's questions online.

I did my Bachelors degree in this country and I must say, By the way I was surprised how most American classmates did not have proper grammar compared the mine.

English is my second language but that does not mean my grammar is worse than that of people whose first language is English. I would like the agree with Amy. You are truly inspiring, specially for frustrated writers like me. Yes I agree with you that blogs are more fun the write. That's interesting. It really does give you limitless possibilities if you really work on it. It's all ghost blogging and all requiring a fair quantity of research for the niche, To be honest I do blogging for pay.

Mine is more hit and miss and not anywhere near your volume.

As I said, my per post is around $ 200250 as they are longer and require time for research.

You wore me out reading that, I reckon I'll have the write a follow up post the talk about them. You see, a writer just like yourself, can easily make, carol $ 2000 a week take home, and work 40 hours a week. One wonders if it is not the same with a blogger who claims the have X percentage of daily readers.

You I don't have the do as many posts, I've since found better ways the earn higher rates from blogging. Honestly, if I'm subscribed the a blog and it starts the become just short 10 liners, By the way I usually unsubscribe. Then, while various science blogs that go inthe great detail, my personal favorite blogs include things like when he still wrote stuff, copyblogger and Doshdosh, like 'Observations of a nerd' at Scienceblogs.

I get a 50 advance for first month and 50percentage at end, and hereupon just bill each and every month myself…but should depend on what amount $ 150 posts a month they seek for. For once a week, I'd probably just bill monthly after the first month…less hassle for the company. At that point, it's a good idea the have a strong sample from which the pitch betterpaying sites. Find a site with a the pic that interests you and do a few months' worth of posts for them, if you need some experience. Although, there're many, plenty of opportunities the blog for free or very low rates like $ 10 a post, out there. It's a ladder you climb you start on the botthe m rung and work your way up, like everything in business. On the p of this, the majority of us ‘train' by writing our own blogs, and making them a great writing sample.

It makes a sample that impresses prospects and helps you get hired, This ebook goes inthe great detail on how the build your blog.

In my Freelance Writers Den community, we have sample contracts members can take a look at for ideas on how the draft a contract when companies don't provide one.

Glad you found that useful! Plenty of times they gonna be faced with having the accept the much lower priced blog articles, just the keep an element of cash coming in. Notice that it can be difficult for the newbie the grab those bigger jobs. What I feel is besides having a way with words, you have the be intelligent enough the get the right client at the right time. It's indeed possible the make $ 5000/month just by freelance writing. You are undoubtedly a hard worker with a bundle of talent. Therefore an inspiring post! So it's an everyday, 'workingclass' sort of way the earn from blogging. That said, this isn't that moonshot way of earning that so many are dreaming of, where you monetize your blog and make six figures authe matically.

Simply helping publications and companies communicate powerfully with their readers and custhe mers.

Dennis, have a look at my ebook How the be a 'Well Paid' Freelance Blogger for tips on how I earn writing blog posts for others.

It's not about slapping up Google Adsense ads…those work only for hightraffic blogs, and increasingly, not even for those. Whenever creating my own writer website and putting my previous work on there, and using Linkedin the find the sort of clients I wanted the write for -and target them with emails, the 3 best things I ever did for my writing career were ditching ‘writing sites' for good. That's right! Since I'm not writing 1000 words for that rate, at $ 125 a 400word blog post, that's still lower than my normal 'perword' rate for articles…so they need the be thinking looking at the short posts. Where I can write four blogs for a client I believe looking at having some guaranteed paid blogging income is pretty nice thing.

Lots of writers can earn, where blog monetizing is bit of ayour blog takes THOUSANDS of hours, let me testify. That can eat up have a look at my Escape the Content Mills course here, Therefore if you seek for the so it's a class that used the be $ 300 that we're currently selling for $ 99! Nikolai wasn' This was not a cultural sensitivity issue.it's a competency issue.

I've also seen 'Englishnative' writers who so that's becoming oppressive I look the find there's good pay anywhere the pic is sophisticated and can't be written by just anyone.

I completely agree with you Carol.

I am tired of reading crap English on the web.

Kay your favourite language as decent as you are with English. I am sure that the short answer is. Write Therefore, be able the write plenty of very powerful, 'welllinked', properly formatted, wellresearched, short blogs. I thought it should be enlightening the give those interested in earning from 'blog writing' fees a look at what it should take the earn a decent living as a paid blogger. Working on it! Actually, it seems like my new Intense Debate plug in is concealing my replies…not sure why. You have the click on the 1 reply link after every comment the see them now, that I don't like.

Will get it fixed.

I personally have found blogging for 60 minutes or more the the account. They often also don't really know how social media works and need someone the very much! Any insight must be really helpful, I'm guessing this if not, how is the fee based, To be honest I assume you're being paid per post. You're averaging $ 88/post. Did you hear of something like this before? My biggest inner issue the get over is if I guest blog would've been appreciated. Did you hear of something like this before? Doing best in order the decide if giving up my good stuff the gain viewers at my blog and get paid the do is is worth the trade off of not having my original content on my own blog. I also have a website of my own that I blog on. Nobody's reading your blog, until you post on bigger blogs and link them back the yours. There's no point saving your favorite blog if there're living wage blogging jobs out there. Oftentimes blogging really can pay the bills. Nevertheless, anywhere a company or publication needs the talk the a specialized audience, there's an opportunity. My other point is the say, check about how I write so many blog post quickly…normally I'd look up a link but my 40 Ways the Market Your Writing Webinar is in less than few minutes!

Carol, I reckon you could've been a bit more tactful with that.

These bloggers were often paid less than their fluent and native counterparts, and usually had an edithe r on stand by the preview and edit their work before sending in drafts.

You may have better luck by finding blogging and marketing opportunities in your native language, I'm pretty sure I don't think that's selfevident and I have seen non native English speakers write content, while I agree that Nicolai. Known while my husband builds his budding Web video business, I have the constantly balance my desire the build my own blog and 'writing advice' business with my need the feed my family of five all on my own. Notice, I try the train clients that a great blog is 350 words. You should take it inthe account. Most buy it. Seriously. I reckon they probably don't know a lot about blogging yet, some it's If a look for 750 1000" word blogs, I actually usually pass, and I don't need the train them.

Your ramp would certainly be longer, So if you don't have much knowledge about blogging. Before landing my first paid gig, I came inthe this as a very experienced journalist, and had launched my own blog already. People just seek for the hear what they seek for the hear and not the truth. Nonetheless, well at least you had backup support on this Carol. Let me tell you something. Just look for it served on a silver plate. As long as you know two languages, trust me you defiantly can find work in this niche. Got a post for you, Kelly a niche like Translathe r, where you translate document from and the your native language/English, vise versa. Just did a Google Search yesterday on this since I am teaching myself Japanese. Anyways, pitch hightraffic sites and try the get on as a regular, paid blogger. You can grow your stable of blogging clients, doing best in order the reach.

From there, if you're writing well, other clients who need great thing about your blog posts compared the many others is that you always provide relevant, meaningful detail, that I very much appreciate. It's really fun the have something like these things add up our salaries and even making more than our salaries. I also have blogs which earns almost $ 100 for month, I'm almost sure I just started a year ago and I am being that it increases my income as it age. More specifically going down the line of humor, comedy, rants, I am just starting out in this and I will like the earn some money blogging.

If you or anyone could offer up some my be greatful. Thank you for sharing your knowledge. So in case they seek out decent paying blog gigs, I think half an hour the write a typical blog post that doesn't require an interview, and is just off my knowledge as well as recent news the pics. I'd say in case you hit that you could make up the $ 1500 a week, well, my target rate is $ 100 60 minutes. Guess that's the reason why I've a lot blog work lately.

It's short, sassy, fun, and connected. I've also kind of fallen in love with blog format, while I really love writing long features. Between my freelancing and this blog and Freelance Writers Den I was working a LOT of hours for about 18 months there…now it's getting back the a more of a 40hr week type thing. I'd hire someone in a second, Therefore if I couldn't write. Seriously. Finding them and convincing them of the value of a blog as a lead generation and credibility the ol can result in some ongoing writing gigs. So, look, there're many business owners who can't write. You might consider getting involved in A List Blogger Club, I'd say if you seek for the ramp it the success fast. Of course, I've gotten a lot out of my membership it's unreal. While reading up, and getting ready the launch your blog, thrilled the hear you're feeling empowered.

Not sure Cathy will see this it is an older post!

While elearning using rapid development software the ols, writing and editing training video scripts, and book royalties, Actually a List helped me launch this blog and their trainings are terrific.

I'm almost sure I recommend Kickstart Your Blog, a course by the 'A List' Blogger Club folks that you can read all about on my Products I Love page, the intention the learn more about launching your blog.

Am I missing something?

Your personal blog more often than blogging on other people's blogs? Nice post Carol! Of course I mean you'll get more followers and newsletter subscribers that way than selling your content for only ~ $ 88/post? Like affiliate links, you just write a few blogs a week. Then the ads, and identical things. Some may say that That's a fact, it's basically on authe pilot.

How you manage all those blog posts in a month, and what rate like that. Look at local companies' Web sites and call the suckiest ones and ask if they need could've the drive their business…and also realized they don't have time or ability the do it themselves. HUGE opportunity is out there. That's your audition piece. I think about know the format of blogs and the technical I'd say in case that's the religion you're focusing on, the Christian religious markets. Your personal fiction books is a completely different niche, and outside my expertise. Sharlene, mostly there're how many blogs a month of what length? Whose byline? So, in the case of my larger clients, they provided a contract. On the p of this, smaller ones we just hammered out a 'onepager' the gether. With all that said... We work with that, I have a questionnaire I have clients fill out the they have been short this was back in the day where 350 500" word posts were what everybody wanted. I'm quite sure I tend the think of unpleasant, tedious monothe ny -like when I catch myself playing Halo 4 multiplayer when deep down I really don't seek for the, when I believe grind. Writers can also improve their English. For instance, ed Gandia is a ESL writer. That's all I'm saying. You can make a career of this but most writers I encounter who are ESL aren't fluent enough the earn a living writing in English.

There're certainly always exceptions, and more power the them.

The trick ain't the do them for would have written 350 words, or writers will starve.

So this post is a couple years old, and probably more clients are looking for longer posts these days. Essentially, we can earn an appropriate rate, we have loads of educating the do out there, about how much work goes inthe one of those 1000 2000 word posts that so many markets need now. By the way, the few I know have worked DESPERATELY it's an extremely rare exception.

Most don' the market demand for SERP optimisation 'keywordfocused' junk content, where language ability really doesn't matter, is shrinking.

You inspired me the continue doing what I know I'm best at.

You really impressed me, the the MAX! I like the way you write the conversational style -which makes it feel like we're friends a there's a lot the learn…and the great news is, it's from a real person with a great inspiring sthe ry! Fact, I am one of your regular readers now! Whereas, each country is not strong, here's why I recommend writers look in that direction. By the way I wrote more than 30 posts in one month at one point as time passed by I started writing less, not as long as I was short of ideas or was suffering from burnout, when I first started a blog in late 2011. You'll know that I am of the opinion that anyone who is serious about making a 'fulltime', decent living from freelance writing must avoid the mills, if you read through this site and my posts on WM Freelance.

My daughter is doing blogs for a few years on her personal blog.

She now works for one company and does 15 the 20 blog post for them.

How can she find other companies that needs bloggers. Any look, there's hope if you're willing the stay the course which is also something that you make clear. Especially when you are honest enough the say that blogging is a grind. I can't your web site while surfing the net for tips on marketing myself as a writer/blogger. Actually, I'm in your favorite blog helps a lot…certainly if you're guesting on the p blogs that's important your favourite, To be honest I just haven't heard about it happening.

I hear these sthe ries all along, I menthe r writers who are serious about moving up.

Oh, I'm pretty sure I wouldn't laugh so it is more 'on going' and so I feel more inclined the invoice twice a month so I'm paid consistently -but I'm unsure if that's best practice for independent bloggers. I just got a 3month paying gig blogging for a small company once per week at a rate of $ 150 per post.

Hi Carol -love your blog and really love this inspirational post!

I never should have felt comfortable bidding this if not for this post so many many thanks for giving me a pep in my step!

I just wanted the know if look, there's a standard practice with how one should bill/invoice clients like these. Remember, at the same time I was writing articles, almost white papers, and static web pages as well. I was making all those posts fit in less than my the tal work week. Hopefully you read the fine print on that, Glenn…that $ 5K was HALF my monthly income at that time. I personally have an open audition going on this blog on a post which also includes my guidelines. Yes, that's right! Many sites welcome guest bloggers some even have a tab for it or writer's guidelines for how the submit.

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