it is all chaos and entropy. the thing is that the chaos and entropy make it beautiful and lovely.
yes, it's true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is terrifying. i have lived through some of the unfairness - i got born like this, with my body caving into itself, with this ironic love of dance when i sometimes can't stand up for longer than 15 minutes. i am a poet with hands that are slowly shutting down - i can't hold a pen some days. recently i found a dead bird on our front porch. she had no visible injuries. she had just died, the way things die sometimes.
it is also true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is wonderful. the sheer happenstance that makes rain turn into a rainbow. the impossible coincidence of finding your best friend. i have made so many mistakes and i have let myself down and i have harmed other people by accident. nature moves anyway. on the worst day of my life she delivers me an orange juice sunset, as if she is saying try again tomorrow.
how vast and unknowing the universe! how small we are! isn't that lovely. the universe has given us flowers and harp strings and the shape of clouds. how massive our lives are in comparison to a grasshopper. the world so bright, still undiscovered. even after 30 years of being on this earth, i learned about a new type of animal today: the dhole.
chance echoing in my life like a harmony between two people talking. do you think you and i, living in different worlds but connected through the internet - do you think we've ever seen the same butterfly? they migrate thousands of miles. it's possible, right?
how beautiful the ways we fill the vastness of space. i love that when large amounts of people are applauding in a room, they all start clapping at the same time. i love that the ocean reminds us of our mother's heartbeat. i love that out of all the colors, chlorophyll chose green. i love the coincidences. i love the places where science says i don't know, but it just happens.
"the universe doesn't care about you!" oh, i know. that's okay. i care about the universe. i will put my big stupid heart out into it and watch the universe feast on it. it is not painful. it is strange - the more love you pour into the unfeeling world, the more it feels the world loves you in return. i know it's confirmation bias. i think i'm okay if my proof of kindness is just my own body and my own spirit.
i buried the bird from our porch deep in the woods. that same day, an old friend reaches out to me and says i miss you. wherever you go, no matter how bad it gets - you try to do good.
|| You never saw me on the right side ||
|| You never saw me on the wrong ||
|| You never saw me on the right side ||
|| You never saw me coming ||
Lately I've been kinda obsessed with "Gloves" by Saint Punk, and whenever I'm kinda obsessed with a song for a specific character, I'd ideally love to make a music video... but since I currently don't have the time for that, I opted for an edit based on the lyrics. I don't think I've ever done anything comparable, or at least it's been a long while, but I really had so much fun with this xD I might do more for the rest of the song, because there's some more lines in there that just hit hard and that I'd like to visualize wit VP 👀
Also, in general, I see such cool more graphic-y edits by others in the fandom all the time (especially @pinkyjulien and @chevvy-yates come to mind, like... your stuff is *so good*), I wanted to try something along those lines myself with this xD
I just really really love the intro lines so much, because it reflects so many aspects of Vince as a character, I'm going feral just thinking about it... How neither his corpo-past nor his merc career are better or worse than the other (same shit, just a slightly different packaging, to him at least), how he himself is always kind of morally grey and a little unpredictable in whose side he's gonna end up on, how he never really fits in where he goes, but uses being underestimated because of that to his advantage, how he rose from a nobody to an Afterlife legend through sheer spite and determination, and so on!! asjdökfjdfaöjsf I love him so much and I love that song XD
Saw you
In a dream
Are you who you seem?
Was it always in the cards for me
To be aimless?
No direction, nothing pulling me down
From the sky it seems like I always get too
High
Oh the air is cold, I don’t know how to breathe
I’m begging, can you
Chorus
Guide my way
Out of this place?
Verse 2
Open wide
You were born to hypnotize them all
They said their prayers
Can you (can you) hear me up there?
What survives
After all the dust has gone?
Were you there till the end (the end)?
Were you at least called a friend?
Otherside,
Did you mean to make me half or whole?
Will I ever be (complete)
When will I become all of me?
Chorus
Guide my way
Out of this place
Bridge
I can’t define
Would it even be enough to change my mind?
Your memory ever-lasting at war with my foolish pride
What is left?
I know it’s you and I, when I look inside
I’ll be who you were and I’ll be even more
Bridge 2
A moment of quiet is all it takes
To reclaim a life and a promise made
I am the reflection of who prevails
I’m what inspired the fairytale
A moment of quiet is all it takes
To reclaim a life and a promise made
I am the reflection of who prevails
I’m what inspired the fairytale
I’m what inspired the fairytale
Chorus
Guide my way out
Of this place
(I can guide me, I can guide my way out)
Guide my way out
Of this place
i will make the rvb whump i wish to see…the rebels post-war collectively freaked out over thunderstorms being louder and more violent than they remember after living underground in the mining outpost base for who knows how long. the rebels are holed up in their housing centers and popping into businesses and offices and such to take refuge from the storm and they’re all shaking like chihuahuas…maybe some compassitionate feds try to comfort the rebels, or some mean feds making fun of the rebels…or both >:3c