#I love them a whole fucking lot <3

[lloydfrontera]

if i think too long about the ending making lloyd leave the home he worked so hard to save behind along with the new found family he sacrificed his life for so he can move to a place he has no emotional connection to where he only knows two people (one of which is actually following him from the aforementioned home) in order to make him get a standard "have a wife and children" 'happy' ending i start wanting to bite people not gonna lie

#i talk a lot <3 #the greatest estate developer #lloyd frontera #it is. such a sucky ending i hate it i'm sorry i cannot stand it #i love charlotte with all my heart and i truly do like alicia #but jesus fuck that ending #the one thing lloyd wants is to have an easy relaxed life surrounded by the people he loves #and then the ending has him become the royal consort to someone we know likes to use people to their best potential #and living permanently away from his parents and all the people he came to care about #except for javier and alicia. and javier is only there because of lloyd anyway. #i just. i hate heteronormative endings so much man. #he didn't need to marry! he could've found his happy ending without having to be romantically involved with anyone!! #there's this whole thing about lloyd thinking to himself that his happy ending will be settling down with a wife and have kids #and then there is this one moment. where he talks about what he really wants. his one true wish. #and he talks about how he just wants a family. a normal family. a family that welcomes him after a day's work. a family that lives a normal #life without worrying about nothing much. he doesn't want big territories or power or an army. he just wants to have a family that loves hi #and enough to keep them safe. #AND FUCKING GUESS WHAT HE GAINS THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE NOVEL #GUESS WHAT THE EMOTIONAL CORE OF THE ENTIRE THING WAS #A FAMILY. PARENTS AND A BROTHER AND A BEST FRIEND THAT CARE FOR HIM AND WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY AND HIM DOING EVERYTHING IN HIS POWER TO KEEP #THEM SAFE. AND HE DOES. EVERYTHING HE DOES WAS TOO KEEP THEM SAFE AND SOUND AND HE GETS HIS WISH. #DO YOU GET IT. DO YOU GET WHAT I MEAN!! #HE DIDN'T NEED TO MARRY BECAUSE HE ALREADY HAD HIS WISH. HE ALREADY HAD HIS HAPPY ENDING. I'M SO MAD KASHDKA #tged

[bitchthefuck1]

"Kaz is Wylan's dad" "Inej is the mom of the group" "Matthias is like their grandpa" can you just let characters care for each other without trying to force it into a weirdly normative nuclear family setup.

#'i love found family' found family is about creating a loving environment with the kind of support you didn't get/dont have from a #traditional family setting because that setting has failed you not about taking a group of people who care for each other and forcing them #to exactly recreate that setting #it's about not confirming to the traditional family narrative! thats the whole point! not just recreating it with non bio-related people #the whole point is that family is more than just a heterosexual couple and their 2.5 kids. not that you should replicate that setup with #new people #also in this case specifically a lot of the time its used to perpetuate ableism and other fucked up stereotypes so like. maybe dont. #six of crows #wylan van eck #inej ghafa #kaz brekker #matthias helvar #nina zenik #jesper fahey #soc #they're also literally all within the same 3 year age range #also i know a grandparent is technically not part of a nuclear family but my point stands

[puppyeared]

for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........

#MOTHER FFFFUCKER #to be fair. my doc said I could stop taking them while im on break since i wouldnt need to be constantly pumped on stimulants #im not sure if it was a side effect but i managed to take like 3 different naps in one day and STILL managed to sleep thru the whole night #at least 2 days into my break. the weird thing is i didnt feel more or less rested afterwards. but mentally i think im in a good place rn #to really put the level of awakeness im at rn i feel weirdly confident i could start one piece. also bc of that sick new opening it BANGS #the song is really good and im in love with the animation style. did some digging and it seems one of the lead animators is masato mori #but i could be wrong. it seems he also did some work on mp100 which could explain a lot lol.. he uses smear frames really well to convey #consistent movement and fluidity!!! someone else might have done color design but it works really really well esp with odas style!! #just love the overall vibe and aesthetic and id really love to study it and incorporate a bit of it into my art.. especially the thick #outlines which i think helps to separate characters and objects on screen. though i have to say the style is definitely more suited to #animation bc of the simpleness and smears. maybe that will help me explore shapes and perspective when i draw... i wanna get better #at drawing poses and angles but i have a hard time wrapping my head around space and using perspective guide lines NGHHHH #i wonder if it has to do with my dogshit ability to judge distance. not depth perception but like. judge how far smth is in metres etc #im also wearing an N95 for the first couple weeks back bc of the wave. absolutely NO BODY is wearing a mask its so fucking over #where im sitting ive heard 5 different people coughing probably not into their elbows!!! and im just. head in my fucking hands #there was a kid sitting a couple seats away in class coughing as he pleases and i wanted to grab him in a chokehold so badly. PLEASEE #ive been annoying my family by asking them to mask up and reminding them to bring masks when they go out and showing them news articles #but at least its working bc we ordered some KN95s and my mom is at least taking me seriously so. please dont be afraid to speak up abt your #health. take care of yourself and others however u can!! wear that mask indoors at your maskless friends house!!! stay home when u can!! #im wearing a surgical mask at home too bc my parents have '''a dry throat cough''' and they are so bad at coughing into their sleeves #also im pretty sure dry throat isnt transmissible bc my brother started coughing too so.. i also tested negative but they havent tested yet #im also not a doctor but i have to keep reminding ppl whenever i can that covid and flu work differently. covid is new and too recent to #have nearly as much research done on it. it seems its also compounding so instead of building immunity it weakens the body and spreads to #to other systems which might explain brain fog and muscle weakness. i remember someone early in the pandemic got infected and it messed up #their smell/taste receptors so bad that they cant eat most foods and that stays in the front of my mind when i think abt covid. christ #yapping

[woundedheartwithin]

Okay, the absolute trust Kiryu has in Majima though

Like the truck. He didn’t even flinch. In his mind, there was simply no reality in which Majima ran him over, accidentally or otherwise

We see these moments where that trust is called into question, sometimes rightfully so, and every single time, despite what either of them say, Kiryu trusts Majima implicitly and without question

Asking Majima to watch out for Daigo. Pushing back against Date’s suspicions. Not believing a single picture holds the whole story and going by himself to confront Majima on the man’s own turf. Expecting him to tell him the truth. Entrusting the Kazama family to him. Telling Date to tell Majima everything if he doesn’t make it back. The list goes on and on. And each time, Majima does as he’s asked. The fighting doesn’t matter. That’s just for fun, and Kiryu knows it. All the talk about staying alive because only Majima can kill him, and Kiryu agreeing every time. They both know what that means, and they show it time and time again. Each time Kiryu places his trust in Majima. Each time Majima makes a promise and keeps it. Each time Majima risks everything to save Kiryu’s life

But Majima riding to Kiryu’s rescue, fucking terrified he’d accidentally killed him, and Kiryu not even concerned or even really all that surprised? Of course Majima came barreling into the Diet Building courtyard in a pink fucking dump truck and ran over a bunch of government security guards. Putting it sideways and stopping right in front of Kiryu? Clearly all part of nii-san’s plan! He didn’t think to move or to run or to even be afraid. He just trusted him, just like he always does. That’s the kinda shit I live for in media y’all

#yakuza #yakuza 3 #kiryu kazuma #majima goro #kazumaji #yakuza 3 spoilers #spoiler #Somehow it was funnier when they were watching it on the TV at Serena lmfao #I was laughing so fucking hard #had to go back and watch the cutscene with mine again cuz I laughed all the way through it #I thought I was good and then I just started laughing again #anyway I just love them a whole lot #this game is old #and I have feelings #😂😂😂 #she speaks

[goldiipond]

thinking about how easily ray was willing to make an exception to his firm ‘i can only save emma and norman’ stance once don and gilda are actually in on the escape. the fact that, during his ‘deal’ with norman in ep 5��‘we can bring don and gilda too’ isnt a condition norman had that ray begrudgingly agreed to but rather one that ray brought up completely unprompted.

ray has spent years coming to terms with the fact that saving everyone is impossible, years putting emma and norman over everyone else because they were the most precious people in his life and because risking a bigger escape could get everyone killed. he thought it was better for the others to live ignorant, happy lives until their shipment than to get killed on the outside. 

ray never had that same ignorant bliss the others had, emma and norman lost it after seeing conny, and while don and gilda aren’t given the full truth at first, they are given enough to have that illusion shattered for them as well. i just think a lot about how ray knows what it’s like to be trapped in that house without that happy illusion, and the moment don and gilda lose it, he can’t allow himself to push them away anymore.

#skye's ramblings #I DUNNO IM JUST. I HAVE A LOT OF THOUGHTS ABOUT THIS. even before the escape ray cares abt everyone so so much #his whole thing is he wants to minimize their grief. if he cant save them he wants to make sure they dont suffer at all #he pushes them away not just for his own emotions but bc he thinks theyll handle his eventual death better if theyre not close to him #hes just a scared kid who wants to help everyone!!! so so bad!!!! fuuuuuuuuuuck!!!!!!!!!!! #also why the whole situation w phil makes me insane like. ray had no input in that decision. im not sure he wouldve let him stay behind #yeees it was phils choice to stay but rays the only ond who knows what that choice actually fucking means!!!!! fuck!!! #and as ive made abundantly clear. i reaally love ray's apology to don in ep 6 not only for thedevelopment between them #but also bc of the look emma n norman exchange when he does it. they definitely know hes distanced himself from everyone else #even if they dont have every detail at this point. he has made his stance on making sure they escape at any cost abundantly clear #ray means the world to them but they dont want to be his only source of comfort yknow. seeing that brief vulnerability was everything <3 #ohhhhh im so. rays relationship w both don and gilda is everything to me. lying onthe foor

[dennisboobs]

absolute hottest lukewarm take

#ada speaks #untagged #not tagging this but #i am curious to know everyone else's rankings #ive really only seen polls and that doesn't rank them properly bc its like. one vote per person #its hard to rank a lot of the seasons bc like. i fucking love the first two eps of s7 and i think frank's pretty woman is #one of the most solid eps in the entire series #but as a whole i think there are a lot of weak eps in s7 #frank's brother absolutely blows. sorry rcg. i don't particularly care for storm of the century. audited is Fine. ANTI-social is Fine. #9 has a stretch of 3 eps i enjoy and then the rest are meh #15 got fucked over because i. absolutely fucking adore the ireland eps. so much #and even roller rink i enjoyed on its own. its fun if you consider it noncanon. botched continuity and retconning piss me off but. #i dont care for the first two eps of 15 at all though and there are Less eps to like in 15 (because less overall) than smthn like s3

[orcelito]

This is like legit kind of stressing me out. I own all these games, bought them nearly 10 years ago. How are they all worth $100+ each?!?!?

Also yes I know the p2 innocent sin is with the cd soundtrack. That is the version that I have. I still have the cd in a box in my living room 😭

They all still have their booklets, too... if I decided to sell them, I could get a pretty penny for them...

#speculation nation #persona #BUT I WONT bc i still love them very much #seriously considering sticking innocent sin in the psp. i miss eikichi. #like im.not Genuinely stressed but it's just fucking crazy knowing that that first pick has like $600 worth of games in it #over... 3 games. god damn. #the p3p isnt the same version i have but my version is straight up unavailable on there. so. #crazy. wild. fucking astounding. #by just doing nothing i have acrued a great amount of value of video games #I DONT EVEN WANNA THINK ABOUT HOW MUCH MY WHOLE GAME DRAWERS ARE WORTH NOW 😭😭😭 #I HAVE A LOT OF OLD GAMES MAN... IVE BEEN AT THIS SHIT FOR WELL OVER A DECADE... MAN........

[hecksupremechips]

Not only did the Shinjiro social link during the femc route actually pull off whatever the fuck Kanjis entire toxic masculinity arc in p4 was supposed to be, it did it without the homophobia and awful friends

#persona #persona 3 #shinjiro aragaki #yeah this is my piping hot take friendship with kanji ended shinji is my friend now #but no really if you want an arc about toxic masculinity thats done well the shinji social link is so much better #he comes off as very scary and has this whole edgy persona (ha) that he puts out #but hes actually super sweet and kind and he has a lot of stereotypical feminine interests #most notably cooking #but hes kinda nervous and secretive about that stuff since it conflicts with his scary edgy persona #but as he gets more comfortable with the sees gang he comes out of his shell a bit #and kotone and fuuka encourage his interests and he helps them out using his talents #eventually leading to him cooking a big dinner for everyone in the dorm #and hes really nervous about it but everyone is so happy and supportive of him because theyre his FRIENDS #AND THEY LOVE HIM AND THEYRE PROUD OF HIM THEY SUPPORT HIM NO MATTER WHAT #see the key thing here is that shinji actually has friends who dont treat him like shit for his biggest insecurity like kanji #this post is mostly just an excuse for me to gush about how much i love shinji and the femc route and the sees gang in general #while delivering a big fuck you to the other game #plus i dont have to fight for my life to say shinji gay i can just slap him with gay AND THERES NOTHING YOU BASTARDS CAN DO BWAHAHA 😈

[carry-on-every-neverland-magic]

Guardians of the galaxy 3 initial review:

DO NOT TOUCH ME

#gotg spoilers #guardians of the galaxy #guardians of the galaxy spoilers #THE INTERNET IS A LYING FUCK aside from one scene I had spoiled #it didn't ruin that entire scene #plus the thing I was worried about happening didn't #although now its kinda sadder and gives me war flashbacks to toy story 4 #I AM NEVER RECOVERING #ill do a proper review later but fuck gotg 3 was fucking perfect #beautiful hilarious sad as fuck and epic as fuck and its the reason why I love films and the movie theatres exist #also Id die for Cosmo and tbh the whole insane lot of them #I MISS THEM ALREADY #im overwhelmed what a fucking fun adventure that was #dont wanna be in real life I wanna be there

[hella1975]

hey guys :)

#MY EXAMS AR EOVER HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII #IT WENT AWFULLY AND I LITERALLY LEFT EARLY BC I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA BE SICK LMFAOOOO #I WASNT WHICH WAS ACTUALLY EVEN MORE ANNOYING #i was like looking in the bathroom mirror like 'you did this for what? nothing?' #and then a random girl i have LITERALLY never met before goes 'hey how did you find the econ exam?' #so either i am more memorable than i think or she is just very bravely assuming everyone on campus sat the macro exam #either way she was super nice and we both immediately bonded over how awful it was lmao #i think ive at least passed though which is all i wanted #and me and my mates got celebratory maccies and my one friend played rizzle kicks the whole time bc she knows i love them #im now having a 3 hour nap to prepare for later #or at least i would be if maintenance weren't choosing EXAM SEASON to drill off all of the fucking doors #im prepared to get absolutely mangled tonight like properly obliterated #not blackout bc i hate being blackout (who LIKES being blackout? baffles me) #but i still deserve to reach ungodly levels of intoxicated #STUDENT NIGHT WEDNESDAYS IVE MISSED YOU BABYGIRL #THREE MONTHS OF SUMMER HERE I COME #hella goes to uni #also like ty guys for dealing with me lmao? ive felt really annoying and negative these past few months #bc exams just Get Me Down and you guys have just been really helpful even if you dont realise #like even humouring me and sending me a shit ton of econ questions idk it's just really nice and it means a lot #yuck it up whatever moving ON i am HOT and FUNNY and definitelygoingtohavetoretakeatleastoneexam and HOT

[azol-otl]

Not Reverse Robins or Scrambled Birds but a secret third thing: A Step to the Left.

Not  Dick > Jason > Tim > Steph > Damian, 

but Jason > Tim > Steph > Damian > Dick*.

But not only them. Every sidekick with a legacy name gets shifted one spot. (No I’m not counting the Golden Age because I’m not combing through that ).

This means that Jason’s Titans team is him, Mia (Speedy), Jackson (Aqualad), Cassie (Wonder Girl), and Bart (Impulse but y’know he was KF II in the comics).

The NTT team including Starfire, Changeling, Raven, and Cyborg stays the same since they’re the only ones with those names. Cass gets lumped in here because Jason actually wants to do college/is becoming disillusioned about cape life and the idea of Kori learning Cass's body language is too good to pass up.

Tim gets one (1) cape friend (because Jason only got one) and it’s Zachary Zatara because it has to be a d-lister who deals with that disaster Teen Titans era.

Stephanie gets Jon (Superboy), Yara (Wonder Girl II now), and Irey (Because guess what it’s Impulse on the team and not KF which means we get Impulse II). Secret, Cissie, Anita, Slobo etc. all stay the same.

Damian doesn’t get anyone until he becomes Batgirl.

Duke literally gets Damian’s exact canon team but it’s Kon instead of Jon and probably won’t end with them committing war crimes.

If the character in that placement dies in canon then the new character in that placement also dies (i.e. Jason dies so Tim will die/ Kon dies so Jon will die).

But there will be changes because these are different characters so not all of them would react the same.

For example, Jason and Cass are the first Robin and Batgirl, but Cass becomes Nightwing while Jason becomes Oracle because I feel like Jason generally fits Barbara’s character better than Cass does (which is a fucking shame because Oracle being someone named Cassandra should be a no brainer but yeah).

 Or how Barbara should be Batgirl number three, but it’s actually Damian because Cass would see their similarities between them and offer him Batgirl (which he refuses at first but after his disastrous run as Robin he sees how Batgirl would fit his strengths better).

 Also I refuse to believe that Jason and Cass would let Dick out as Robin so young so he’s benched until later and his place is taken up by Duke and instead of Leviathan it’s Gnomon.

#I actually have a lot of thoughts about this but I didn't want to word vomit it all up like I normally do #No lie Damian becoming Batgirl III was not planned but because it started off with Cass it honestly felt right #So now him and Stephanie parallel each other so much more than I planned with the whole 3 identities cycle of Original > R > BG> OG #Also Robins 1 3 and 5 (the ones who were actually focused on for a time) are all Gotham natives with strong ties to the people #So that feels right #Also also Mia and Jason both being on the same team and having similar traumas while comics were finally starting to tackle these things #Tim has to deal with all the shit Jason did including starting off as a Blonde Jason clone (hey Timmy Todd) #Being victim blamed for his death for nearly 20 years and brought back as a villain #Then left with writers who hate him and made him ugly *and* stupid #then left with Lobdell and having the fans of his teammates blame him and his fans for things that they had no control over #other notes I didn't put in include Cass's cover is that she's Jason's cousin via Willis who was adopted and it turns out to be true #Stephanie 'Ambiguously Gay' Brown with her team full of Women who can crush her like a bug #Cass 'Are you sure she's straight' Wayne and her Gal Pal Koriand'r #Jason and Bart's wild 50 years where they surprise everyone including the writers and editors #since none of their love interests stuck but the chemistry they had with each other was off the charts #so their friendship read more as a slow-burn annoyances to friends to lovers that was totally on purpose guys and became canon p52 #like right before the reboot because the writer was like "Fuck it we're rebooting anyways! #if you feel like it's unfair that Tim and Damian gets no friends remember that I didn't shift teams at all only the people in them #so they get dealt Jason and Stephanie's canon hands #Don't come at me with 'uhm Robin is DICK'S nam'e' that retcon happened 50 years after the character #I can do the exact same with any character #great another essay in the tags #azol's posts

[arolesbianism]

Wendy and Abby fuck me up so bad just like in general but what keeps coming back to haunt me is wondering how long they had to go through it all just them two. How many times did Wendy die, how many times did Abby watch the light fading from the eyes of her twin. How many times was it slow, how many times was it in a split moment, how many times were they together when it happened, how many times did Wendy die completely alone. It's just like god damn no wonder Wendy talks Like That not only did Abby die but poor kid has been forced to become accustomed with death in a much more direct way than even adults are built to handle

#rat rambles #dst #and like if I may read more into these characters than was probably intended #I feel like a lot of abby's in game behavior just clicks once you look at her from a oh this kid has watched her sibling die a Lot #like no wonder shes so protective #also love how abby's constant wandering and twirling also adds up like yeah shes a bored kid with too much energy #but yeah I think ppl tend to not realize just how big a part being stuck in the constant is in regards to hashtag wendy depression moments #although its reasonable since not everyone has read all of this brats dialogue like me <3 #dont read all of wendy's dialogue you will feel your brain melting like 5 minutes in #but yeah wendy brings up the whole being stuck in the constant thing a Lot #and wendy is under no illusion that death is an escape in fact he brings up the fact that its not quite a bit too #oh and I think ppl get the flavor of wendy's suicidal thoughts wrong most of the time #hes currently much more in the go to sleep and not wake up flavor than the I want to be with my lost loved one flavor #its less abt wanting to die and more abt wanting to stop being able to be in pain #luckily thing have technically gotten better for the both of them #like ofc theyre still fucked up and traumatized and still Being traumatized but at least theyre not alone #theres some sense of normalcy. wendy has friends now and in theory so does abby. #they can afford to just be kids again. not always unfortunately but much more than before #shit still sucks but at least they have the other survivors now

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#christ. so i was selected as the top candidate for the program i interviewed with on Friday #and im very annoyed and very pleased and also annoyed that im pleased #im pleased bc it means that they were impressed with what ive done to this point and they think i communicate well. which is cool #and the project is very very cool and id love to work on it #am annoyed bc this does put pressure on me to accept bc they can only put one student forward so if i dip out then thats it for them #which i find extremely stressful. and everything is just so much more complicated if i go to the uk for a phd #and i dont get the luxury of faffing about and taking a bunch of classes like i could in the us. ugh but it would b so cool to go back to #the uk and i wouldn't have to fucking drive. ugh. this project. #ugh its like my boss said #sometimes the project is more worth it than the school. id have crazy cool opportunities to learn things on this project #but at the cost of taking a lot of classes in the us. but every project is what u make of it #but im so fucking dyslexic thst its hard to learn outside a classroom bc i cant concentrate and i dont have a person talking me thru the #info. so idk idk. hopefully when i visit the other school ill kno how i feel #god but i loved living in the uk. and i could travel so much more freely there bc the trains and all that. im so fucking restricted bc im #so terrified of driving. i dont have good reaction speed and i space out too much and i get intrusive thoughts #sigh... but id be a whole 24hrs of travel away from my family instead of the 10hrs thst i am now #so id probably only get to see them once a year maybe? in contrast to 2 or 3 times #and im just worried something terrible will happen and then ill be like fuck i wasted all my time making myself miserable so far away #idk. im so tired. we had like a mile abd a half hike out to a site one way and we left at 7.30 got back at like 4 #it was a long fucking day. and im tried. and i have no filter. and when i talk too much it really annoys me #also! i got confirmation that i fucking suck at recording data. wow im so shocked. its basically designed for me to be terrible at #but its still slightly embarrassing. like srry i fucked up ur data. i cant write words correctly #literally i kept writing my Ls upside down today. why? idk that not how i see them. my brain just cant make Language right lol #whatever. my parents r calling tomorrow and i can info dump at them abt my dyslexia knowledge and my academic knowledge of biblical history #bc instead of listening to anything useful to my job. i choose to listen to lectures on neurology and theology. bc fucking idk #its interesting im relearning my bible lore from a non religious perspective. theology is fucking fascinating. ugh anyway #i shoulf sleep im so fucking tried #unrelated

[notagaybastard]

I think I am finally In love

#this is kinda weird but whenever i had a crush on someone it was just like #i would only think about them when i was almost falling asleep at 4 am and during the day they mesnt nothing to me #and now i dream about him and i think about him during every period of the day #and when he says bye to me after class or just look at me and say “schmidt :D” or stands in front of me #in a line i have to hold myself so i won't start crying and hug him because we don't have inyimacy at all #and i miss it so much when we did every project together and everyday he asked me if i was allright and i should have told him the truth #and months ago he asked me to do a project with him again but that one friend of mine who i recently stopped talking with told him that #i was already doing the project with her #an obviously lie #and he never texted me again #and i have never been jealous but i noticed hes been talking a lot to her and he barely talks to me and he doesnt know she lies all the tim #about everything and he doesnt know i wanted to accept his feelings last march but i couldn't even get out of bed that would've hurt him #and i still think i would hurt him but i want him more than ever #and hes everything i want and everything i want to be and look #and he is smart as fuck and he is funny but never offends anyone with his jokes and he never offended anyone actually #he is the sweetest person to ever exist #and my mom and aunt adore him #and who doesnt? #it hurts so bad that he isnt in love with me again and i want to work out things and i want to be good for him #last year he dated like 3 people but hes been single for almost the whole year and if he starts dating someone again #before i manage to get better ill be so sad #and i need him i need him i love his thin arms and i need him to wrap me with then and i need to rest my head on his shoulder #and i want to play minecraft with him like we used to and i want him to know i like him but i cant do it all of sudden #i need to be friends with him again but i have no idea how #i need him to like #i changed so much in the last year he probably thinks im weird and stupid but he won't say it because he is the coolest person ever #and he is so pretty and i want to adjust his glasses and kiss his hands #and i want to ask him if hes ok too #and i want to make him feel better #and i want to sit next to him

[arts-i-enjoy]

Something I've noticed from subbing to just a couple of very small patreons (like fewer than 50 members) is how SHY people are about talking to the creator that they are paying! What's up with that? I wonder if it's because most of these patrons come via tumblr, where there is the culture of talking in the tags/reblogs and comments being your "outdoor voice"/basically it being RUDE to talk to people.

I think that's fucked up, especially in the context of artists (just to be clear every time I say artists that is inclusive of writers). Like these are people that are making a thing and showing it to you, they don't just want silent nods of approval by way of reblogs/likes. They want FEEDBACK. They want CONNECTION. I think a fundamental part of creating and sharing art is the goal of connection. And I don't think people realize how truly disheartening it is to post something and then get completely silent likes/reblogs.

For the love of God they are TALKING TO YOU. TALK BACK!!!!

#i love you arts-i-enjoy where i can post thoughts direct from my brain and trust that no one will ever see it 😌 #this post brought to you by: me #i get we're on tumblr where most of the interactions we see are people saying the most batshit things #but literally just be nice and respectful and i swear to you i promise you people will be happy you commented #talking in the tags is good!!! i do that a lot on art and stuff! but also on platforms like ao3 or patreon where the only option is comment #DO THAT. THAT IS WAY BETTER THAN NOTHING. #maybe im projecting but i Always love it when people talk to me as long as they are kind #i just. think we could be nicer to each other. and make each other happier #also thinking about the times ive trained people are my job and my friend who is a Trainer for their job #and how absolutely soul crushing it is to talk and talk and know that people are there and are choosing not to talk back to you #like the people in training that just. laugh at my dumb little light hearted comment. i owe them everything #oof throw back to the day i spent 8 hours training 15 people in a class together and i think the whole time 2 of them came of mute ever #destroy your voice and also your enthusiasm with this one easy 8 hour trick! you will want to sleep for three days! #god im such a fucking people person how did i ever think i was a hardcore “”“”introvert“”“” #nooo baby youre just completely socially isolated and depressed meet some people you actually like and you will see the light baby girl #this week is gonna fucking kill me. my last local friends are moving to a different state. im gonna be alone. in florida #gahhhhhhhhh #anyways yeah talk to people about the stuff they make itll enrich both of you <3

[ambreiiigns]

yesterday i watched intruder 1989 btw funniest shit i ever seen

#oh nay #i've picked back up on my slasher watching recently a few weeks ago i watched #the final girls 2015 (cried the WHOLE time then immediately got my period) the burning 1981 (i love a friday ripoff) and stage fright #aka deliria 1987 (italian + sososo pretty) #INTRUDER THO i was so immediately charmed by the setting (stuck in a little grocery store overnight.... i love when it's cramped up #in a little space esp when it's familiar and comforting) #it felt like. it was ok but so clearly could have been better it's painful. but i enjoyed it a lot #the camerawork and framing and stuff was SOOO creative and fun #and the kills were fun fun fun fun the sfx were slay i think there might have been like 3 different fake heads that got cut in half #and the likes #i ALWAYS love that so much #was a bit slow but it was fine it had a bit of a. my bloody valentine vibe to it. the bloodbags were cute i cared them enough #the killer felt a bit..... eh......... but it was done well enough i did Not suspect a thing but also i don't even try to figure stuff out #so who knows #i have DECIDED that evil dead & child's play WILL be watched closer to halloween this year so there's that but i've gathered a huge fuckin #list of Other Stuff until then #man I WATCHED TOURIST TRAP 1979 IT WAS SO INSANE???????? IT WAS SO FUCKED UP SILLY I'M OBSESSED W IT????? #how can something feel SO MUCH like texas chainsaw but actually be SO DIFFERENT SO MUCH THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION IT WAS!!!!!!!!