#I mean I’m new here

[lyoneve]

When you’re trying to get some work done but your co-captain distracts you ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#i was so close to drawing stede in a white shirt again #but i came to my senses and undressed him instead #it was high time for a shirtless stede #i’m quickly realising i like drawing nobeard more than blackbeard #ofmd fanart #ofmd #our flag means death #gentlebeard #blackbonnet #stede x ed #ed teach #stede bonnet #blackbeard #edward teach #my art #this was going to just be a quick drawing but i decided to learn a new perspective drawing technique and now here we are

[gravesaint]

unfollowing and blocking left right and center because y’all can’t do something as simple as boycotting and leaving your shitty shows at the door

#this is about our flag means death and hazbin hotel to be clear #and percy jackson #and the same will go if I see anything about eurovision in the coming months #also we’ve known for YEARS that the creator of HH is racist and continues to act as such #my stuff #it’s so frustrating like not watching something is literally a nonaction #pirate it if you’re that fucking spineless and keep it to yourself #I know I’m not saying anything new here but I’ve been unfollowing longtime mutuals on the daily it seems like

[gelljc]

the gift of more time

#because it’s october #and october is for shinhamu #(is that their main shipname i’m new here LOL) #persona 3 #persona 3 portable #p3p #p3p femc #kotone shiomi #minako arisato #shinjiro aragaki #foolmoon #my art #before playing p3p #i had been spoiled for what happens but october fourth?? shinjiro and femc’s relationship??? #fucking heartwrenching #rewired my brain permanently #it just means a lot to me that #as brief as your time is with shinjiro #and even regardless of him surviving #he was given this little pocket of time with kotone/minako to be Happy #i have a lot of thoughts about them LOL #spoilers

[pyjamacryptid]

I haven’t watched strange new worlds yet but I have seen it all over tumblr and [bursts into the snw room, jumps onto the couch, huge smoothie in hand] YOU’RE TELLING ME THOSE LOSERS HELD H A N D S WHEN THEY FIRST MET?????????? … IN PUBLIC? who knew first contact got an encore

#by those losers I obviously mean Kirk and Spock #I KNOW YOU KNOW WHAT YOU’RE DOING JAMES TIBERIUS #… SPOCK CERTAINLY DOES #moving fast boys #I hope this post has the vibe I’m going for: here for the drama #k/s #kirk x spock #star trek #strange new worlds #star trek snw #SNW #kirk #spock #s’chn t’gai spock #james t kirk #snw spoilers #space husbands

[knitepercival]

🎉 🎊Happy New Year! 🎊 🎉

#crime and cricket #raffles #aj raffles #bunny manders #happy new year #ahhhhh I know i’m late but i burned my fingertips on a damn sparkler and i couldn’t finish it in time 😭 #BUT ITS HERE NOW #thank you all so much for following my work this year! #you all leave such wonderful tags and it truly means a lot to me 🥹 #art #fanart #digital art #my art

[crybaby-bkg]

cw: this got long sorry 😔 but creepy/perv bakugou, recording, film major bkg x art major reader, masturbation, coercion, dubcon before it just becomes con, voyeurism/exhibitionism

as an art major, you typically did some works for a few students on campus; for their plays, as background pieces while they danced, a cover for their released songs. it wasn’t out of the ordinary for people to ask you to create something for them, and you enjoyed it more often than not. but, you weren’t usually the art itself.

Bakugou is a friend’s friend that you’ve seen a few times, ran into at the library or at coffee shops. he’s a film major, and always looks so unhappy about the whole thing, as if he didn’t choose it himself. you joke to Mina that you think he’ll graduate and become one of those directors that hate everything and yell at the actors constantly and later on get sued for being a dickhead. you never say it to him though—you’ve never spoken more than a couple words to the man.

it’s why it shocks you when he approaches you one day. it’s after one of your painting classes, and he stands outside the door with a frown and his hands shoved in his pockets, his eyebrows scrunched as if pissed at the mere sight of you. he asks you, in that low and gruff tone of his, if you could star in his final project for the semester. says it’s supposed to be a film made with this criteria and that, but, you’ve kind of checked out on the conversation after the first sentence.

“You mean, you want me to create something and that be the star of your film?” you ask him, feeling so intimidated at his stature. he always seems to loom, his hair shadowing the lights above, creates a cast over a portion of his face, makes his eyes look…unsettling. like they’re looking straight through your flesh, can find the marrow in your bones. he scoffs like you’ve offended him, rolling his eyes into his skull, mouth pulled tight.

“No.” his voice is firm, gaze concentrated only on you, like the halls are empty and you’re the focus of his lens. “I want you to star in it.”

his words confuse you—you’ve never presented yourself as an actor before, never alluded to wanting to be in the spotlight if not for what you create with your hands. but he shuffles on his feet, looks desperate even. there’s some hemming and hawing for a minute or so—why not choose Mina?—she’s busy—why choose me?—‘cause you’d be perfect for my short film—what’s it about?—you’ll find out once you get the script.

and even after you hesitantly agree and get the script—you still don’t understand what you’re doing. why you’re here, why you’re the only person, why it has to be a solo film, why there’s damn near zero lines in the entirety of the have-to-be forty five minute film.

the scenes are all so long, and maybe it’s because movies aren’t your forte or chosen major, but you just don’t get it. one scene; you’re staring at yourself in the mirror while Bakugou holds a small, black camera over your shoulder. he’s eerily quiet behind you, whispers out a faint fuckin’ go when you have to wash your face in the sink, makes you do it over because your movements are too jerky and unnatural.

the rest of the scenes go that way; you doing regular at home activities, being put under a lens, quietly barked at to do this and move that way and fix your hair and remember to frown.

“Isn’t there another way to film this?” you ask him on the fifth day of shooting in his spacious loft. there’s a bubble bath scene coming up, one you dont understand the importance of, but Bakugou tells you it’s the most necessary part of the entire thing.

“No,” he grunts out, looking at you from under his lashes as he sits on the lid of the toilet. “But I’ll make it soapy, so the camera won’t see much.” the camera? much? you weren’t worried so much about what the camera captured as you were the man behind it. he looks at you with such intensity, you feel naked already despite the robe you wear that’s suspiciously already your size.

he leaves the bathroom when you sink in the hot water, returns before you can say it’s okay, hears the water splashing and thinks that’s good enough. he kneels on the floor beside you, camera pointed directly in your face, makes your chest hot and your skin feel prickly. the scene passes on regularly enough; you run the water over your arms, tilt your head back as you sigh, whisper the few lines scripted, lean back and close your eyes, sigh again. it’s almost relaxing, makes you forget about the friend of a friend recording you naked right now. almost.

“Touch yourself.” Bakugou suddenly demands, hushed and quiet behind the camera. your eyes immediately shoot open, looking to him in question, how he’s eerily still in his spot hovering over you.

“Huh?” you ask, unsure if you heard him correctly, looking around the rounded lens in your face, trying to ignore the red blinking light. but Bakugou only frowns.

“It’s a masturbation scene. Touch yourself.” he repeats, voice louder, more demanding this time. your stomach twists at the thought of doing something so intimate in front of him. he’s a handsome guy, for sure, even made you consider asking him out after this, figured he was just serious about his work and awkward about certain things. but…something had been off about this entire thing since the start.

“But—but I don’t, I’m not,” you stutter, sitting up a little, the bubbles covering your chest starting to disperse with your movements. but Bakugou only sits a little higher on his knees, finally pulling the camera away from his face for the first time since he’s asked you to do this for him.

“You want me to fail?” he asks, booming voice eerily quiet in the silent bathroom, carmine eyes dull, shaded over with something terrible. “Then do it.” he tells you when you shake your head quickly.

you stare at him until he gets back into position again, camera back pointed at you. when he doesn’t say anything else, you swallow thickly, wondering if the art that will come out of this will be worth it. so you listen, sneak a hand under the water, start touching yourself in a way you never have in front of anyone.

is it bad to say that it’s exhilarating? being watched and recorded by someone who breathes so heavily every time your voice hiccups? being directed to touch your chest next when the suds start to disappear and your nipples start to peek through? is it bad that you want him to send you this portion of his film, only, just so you can watch yourself again and again? make a portrait of yourself with your fingers on your nipples and your knees raising from the water and your head thrown back from the intensity in oil pastels?

“That’s a wrap.” Bakugou announces when you finish, head spinning and still panting. you look over to him, how he closes the camera, the obvious bulge in his pants. “I’ll get you a towel.”

you wonder when’s the next time he’ll need you. or better yet—maybe he could be the star in your final drawing project? you had finished it already but, what was the harm in starting over with him as your muse? as naked as you are? camera not blocking his face so you can paint the similarities of his blushing cheeks and eyes when you direct him to look at you? to touch his chest? to play with himself just like that?

#this got. so long. sowwy #but I thought about this ummmm Sunday night #but I was DRAINED from writing 7k words of scorned past midnight and then having to edit it skdjfkf #so I was like. okay. put this idea in the drafts. NOW ms dory memory #anddddd I love this so very much #would’ve loved to turn this into a full fic #but it’s so exhausting trying to write long fics recently bc of this multichap #I’m just not used to it and I can’t do two things at the same time #and I already have like 9 fics on my list to write!!!! lol #but there is something so alluring about film major bkg 2 me #I think hes awkward and comes off as mean but he really is just that serious about his work #but he’s #also a creep for you LOL #definitely think he agrees to become ur muse for art as like a trade off #and you get that boy into SO many humiliating positions 😵‍💫 #I need. to lie down. anyway. #I wrote this at 1am and was scared to post it then cause I didn’t think anyone would see it #so here it is in the morning :) #bakugou treats! 🍬 #—new treat in the streets! 🍫

[foxgloveinspace]

People jumping ship cause of the new masks is very ahhhh. Telling. Tbh.

#very much so #tell me you where only here cause of the looks without telling me your only here cause of the looks #listen. I miss the old masks already too. that’s not the point. #you can mourn for something without that taking away your joy for it. #‘it’s all moving so fast’ iii has been turning red since July. #‘they’re evolving too fast’ or we just got here later then others. #‘I can’t even listen anymore’ sucks to be you. the music that has been put out hasn’t changed so I don’t understand this one #‘they’re gonna get cancelled over this’ ok. I guess this is just thinning out the people who were real fans and who where fake fans #I’m gonna be a sleep token fan til the end. if this is the way they want their image to go? I’ll follow. if we get heavier music next? #sounds fucking amazing to me. (I listen to heavier stuff anyway). #idk I just think it’s so so so fucking telling. that if your jumping ship cause their Live Performance Aesthetic has changed… you didn’t #mean it when you said sleep token was important to you. #like I’m 100% MOURNING the old masks. I am BMO with Finn’s old hair sobbing about the old masks. #but I know this too shall pass #this is how I fucking felt about Vessel’s mask change #and to everyone going ‘what about Vessel and the Chior!’ #1). VESSEL HAD A MASK CHANGE EARLIER THIS YEAR!!! he isn’t gonna change masks again so fast those fuckers r expensive! #2). the choir did have a change?? they wherent wearing robes at all and where in body chains they looked amazing #I get we are all neurodiverse and hate change but take a deep breath before you renounce all your sleep token love #I’m guessing Vessel will get a new mask in April again. for the kick off show. #tonight was a closing show. and he didn’t FEEL GOOD. I wouldn’t be surprised that if he was gonna do something with a new mask #if he pushed it back because he didn’t feel good. #he performed a whole show while we could TELL his throat was hurting. fuck. #I want to wrap him up in a warm hug and give him hot water with honey in it. #idk I’m rambling. it’s just telling.

[try-set-me-on-fire]

Me: this one will be a slow burn I think

Eddie Diaz: no actually i need to tell him i love him immediately

#calm down sir #i was driving home thinking about how to continue the scene i just posted and was like well what if Eddie’s like. #we’re partners in every other way why not try romantically. haha. (so nervous he’s about to vomit) #you dont have to raise this kid alone because i didnt have to raise my kid alone. i had you. #and buck is like Eddie. Eddie…….. #you have to know I love you but i dont know if i can do that right now #if I’m about to adopt a child- #i mean first i haven’t even been approved yet and I don’t know what a new relationship does to my chances #second everything’s going to a mess for awhile i dont want Us to immediately be put under so much pressure #and they;re just like :( at each other #and buck’s like is it awful to ask you to wait for me #and Eddie’s like of course not. of course i will. #and you’re still not going to be alone. I’ll be here for you however you want me. #and then they have to go back in to the dinner party and try to be normal! good luck!

[frnkiebby]

naturally~🎃

#body shots anyone?? #now? #now i’m void posting #i’m beyond grave posting #i’m pretty sure this one isn’t new or uncommon for you whores but #i die a little more and loose my mind a little more every time i see this tummy frimage #bc i mean #totally just a pool side pic #really totally just that #but jfc i don’t believe for a second that he knew EXACTLY what the fuck he was doing when he took this pic #and subsequently posted this shit ON THE INTERNET #and i’m so here for it #and i so very much love him for it #fuck #fuck fuck fuckfuckfuck #Frank’s Tummy #frnkiebby #frank iero #mcr #frnkiero #frnkie #mcrmy #mcr5 #my chemical romance #my chem #ilhsm

[eternal-moss]

When people continually whitewash my favourite characters.

[ID: A black and white, rough digital drawing of someone sitting at a desk and clutching their head in their hands. End ID.]

^thank you @describe-things

#This is mainly about Noé Archiviste. But also I will not forget what some people did to Simon Petrikov either when I was watching f&c #I’m so desperate for drawings of them. But for the love of God，is it that difficult? Somehow every other hexadecimal of their #Character design is exactly on model other than their skin. Just. . #OH YEAH I FORGOT KAEYA. FFS. Somehow it’s always the K**luc-ers that always do it. Which makes sense because they disregard his entire char #And with the new influx of atla fans people have been whitewashing Katara too! And I mean drawings of the original show too #probably delete later #And no one seems to have any problems with it? Especially if it’s sexualised art *talking more about Kaeya & Noé here. #People who whitewash the few (and when I say few I literally mean 5/82 playable characters) darker genshin characters. Actually fuck off #If I see ‘it’s just my art style’ or ‘it’s just the lighting’ *every other colour than the skin hasn’t been lightened in the slightest* #One more time-i’m going to explode #Oh and while I’m on this topic! Fuck Bochum for whitewashing literally the entire starlight express cast! Electra being the first ever #non binary character in musical theatre while also being played by black actors. And then Bochum happened. #When was the last time Pearl or Rusty had actors who weren’t white? Literally the last character who hasn’t been replaced is Momma/Poppa. #And being black is so integral to their character and music. You quite physically couldn’t #I really really hope the casting for the London performance this year is like the 1984 cast again. Please.

[faggymutt]

Hey! Dyke is a slur against lesbians and is theirs to reclaim, I recommend looking up the history behind it before trying to claim a slur against people you don’t identify with. It’s not a label for anyone to use and it’s not a silly fun word, it’s a literal slur that’s been used against us for decades and something we’ve finally reclaimed and made part of our culture. I understand gender and identity are hard but using a label you literally admit to not relating to in the slightest because you like the way the word sounds just feels weird and a little offensive.

okay tumblr anon, ill be sure to remember that whenever i’m having insane dyke sex with my boyfriend using my dyke strap and my dyke fingers and my dyke tongue and my dyke-

#dex says #hi hi hi anon!! #sorry ur probably new here! i don’t care about slur discourse LOL #also just bc i’m not a woman or a lesbian doesn’t mean i don’t relate to dykes lmfao go off transphobe #trans men dykes 🤝 lesbian dykes #why are we fighting when we could be making out sloppy style?

[mumblesplash]

man i’ve had pretty serious art block before in the past but it was always more a lack of inspiration/irl stuff draining all my energy, currently Not having art block but getting hit by my first bout EVER of feeling like i just straight up can’t make anything that’s good enough and oh my god how do people deal with this

#i have zero mental defenses against this bc it’s never happened to me #like i know i’m being stupid here bc i feel like everything ive ever drawn is somehow worse than anything anyone else has ever drawn #which first of all cannot possibly be the case bc art is subjective and also i’m not that special #and second of all ‘this means i’m bad at everything’ is not a reaction i have EVER had to art i consider ‘better’ than mine #i’ve always just been excited by the opportunity to learn how to do a new cool art thing i couldn’t do before #like what is happening here why did my brain broke #on the bright side this doesn’t seem to be even slowing me down from writing and drawing things and posting them anyway #but i could really do without the accompanying dramatics in the back of my head #‘you can’t post this you are an affront to art history and the whole of humanity’ shut Up brain it’s literally minecraft fanart for fun #anyway all this to say. thank you everyone being nice in the notes of my silly lil poems you’re gonna make me cry #mumbling

[simgerale]

me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

#hi everyone #I’m going around hugging you all #okay now that we are gathered here today #i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best #i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time #and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol #but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine #literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything #I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake…. #I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour #then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it #and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again #I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do #so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour. #I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday #y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts #I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story #I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my #own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing? #y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents #.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire #but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself #I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump #I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions #I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well #I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day. #but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it #I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing #I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!! #I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time

[been-around-seen-things]

It’s so fascinating and important to me how Oluwande provides a kind of a moral center for the show. From the very beginning, he at least tries to help Stede understand that pirating is a necessity, not a choice, for the rest of them, even if Stede’s not quite able to grasp that fact. He’s the one who literally shakes sense into Stede and prevents his tenure as pirate captain from being exceedingly short. So, it’s only fitting that he’s the one who spots Stede and ends up speaking the final line in the season finale.

But Oluwande doesn’t just fulfill a narrative purpose; he’s a fully rounded character who is sometimes ridiculous (no one can make him lose his head like Jim) as well as a source of stability and reason—the obvious choice to be captain while Stede and Ed are out of the picture. And his racial identity isn’t just happenstance—Ep2 shows how being part of the BI in BIPOC creates ground for solidarity, and Olu’s identity clearly shapes how he moves through the world (Ep5 in particular also, of course). That he is not only not white, but also the darkest-skinned character on the show, makes him being the center of gravity of goodness extra moving, for me. I want to cheer when I think about it!

I just love the writing on this show—how complex and woven together everything is, and how seen it makes me feel, even if my own racial identity is not directly represented. It’s beautiful.

#I’m sure I’m not breaking new ground here #But I love Oluwande and needed to say this #ofmd #our flag means death #omfd meta #oluwande boodhari

[ryryryryryryryryry]

Another new blog… it’s been about a year since I deleted my blog. The one I’ve had since I was 18. The one I grew up with. The one I vented on, posted countless pictures of myself, learned about myself. And holy fuck, the amount of shit that has happened in the last year is intense.

I got divorced. C put me through the wringer. I didn’t know if I would make it out, but I’m doing so much better than I ever imagined. He continues to show his true colors - he got engaged less than a year after we separated, his fiancée has attempted to get into a yelling match with me, he continues to put our daughter at risk, amongst a whole list of things he’s done. I’ve learned the art of disengagement and it’s so healing (also, I finished therapy and my therapist told me how much healthier I am now mentally)

I got a new job. I think this happened prior to me deleting my old tumblr. Doesn’t matter as much. BUT I work when I want, and can spend any and all my time with my daughter which has been a complete life changer. Leaving the only job I’ve known for 10 years hurt more than I expected, especially since it wasn’t planned, and I was basically booted out of there due to them just absolutely trying to destroy me, but it was such a godsend of a misfortune.

I sold my house. C’s only claim to hurt me was the house (other than our daughter that we share). He didn’t own it, but wanted a piece of it in the divorce because it was worth a lot in equity. I just said fuck it, sold it, rebuilt my life, and I’m now looking at houses with my partner.

I got a new boyfriend. He’s an absolute gem of a human. He’s made me realize what I want in a partner. He’s made me realize I’m not nonmonogamous. He’s made me realize that I can have a partner that fulfills me in every sense of the term. He loves me, he loves my daughter, and he puts up with the crazy that occurs in my life.

I don’t know if I’ll actually be on tumblr like I used to be. I deleted all social media, except Instagram, because I found out C was stalking me (and even after I locked all my accounts, he made fake ones - which, at 30 years old and as the man who wanted to end the relationship and was cheating on me, is a little obsessive). I just wanted to restart fresh. I’m so happy with life, I’ve never been so full of love and hope and just life in general, and thus, I’m back, I guess?

#I’m trying to find everyone I used to follow before but I don’t want to be weird about following back people #er I mean following people #I left abruptly and had such a community of people on here that I cared about even if I didn’t talk to you all #and I’ve been really missing it #plus I have a lot of thoughts always #my new partner is great because he wants to talk all the time #C never wanted to but N loves listening to me so it’s really unnecessary to actually vent on here or post on here but I still enjoy it #I’m ranting sorry #there’s been a lot more than what I’ve posted but these are my #big bullet points

[relaxxattack]

im getting really tired of all the most random bullshit bills being brought to the forefront of american politics… book bans, drag bans, and now tiktok bans? why are we letting people debate this shit when children are actively being shot up in schools? when the housing-cost-to-minimum-wage ratio is completely unlivable? what the fuck? why does this feel like we’re being toyed with and distracted? why is this suddenly happening now more than ever? i’m tired of it. i’m tired of the circus show that is american politics and i’m tired of living through historical events.

#let me be clear that i understand all of these bans are awful and a huge infringement on rights to freedom and privacy #i’m just so fucking mad that republicans keep coming up with the most BULLSHIT laws to try to pass to distract us from any real issues #they have us playing fucking defense out here #i’m scared of what that means for america and i’m so fucking tired of it #this is ok to rb by the way. hopefully someone will eventually give me good news #politics #negative