i hope that Edward Francis Kaspbrak, who, if he eats a cashew, could realistically die and who, as soon as his stupid crush said that the shower caps were ridiculous, took his off instantly and who, in spite of drinking only water with his meal, decided to act like he was drunk enough that he could say shit like, "let's take our shirts off and kiss!!" to the won't-admit-it love of his life without fear and who laughs through the fear of his childhood bully stabbing him in the face and who talks to himself to cope and calls himself Eds when he's afraid because that's what Richie calls him, Richie who says he's, "braver than you think" and who would die for his friends again and again, knows that he has my entire fucking heart.
I confuse people. I have a happy personality & a sad soul. I go from feeling confident to terribly insecure. I love hard but at times feel heartless. I'm outgoing yet prefer to be alone. I'm healing & hurting at the same time. I'm still trying to find balance, & that's ok!
I once dated this abusive guy who would sometimes take a plastic bag and put it around my head while fucking me so I had no choice but to passout no matter how hard I tried to fight back.
HI MY LOVE you’re so wonderful you’re like a sunshine to me. im so glad we stayed mutuals after all these years you’re someone i think so fondly of and im so proud of the person you’re becoming.And also the serizawa is so fucking real
I have had bouts before. Mania, depressiveness, autopilot experiences. I have managed.
But I wonder if there is a point of no return. It was a point that somebody I knew crossed... Not out of any of his own fault—but the trials, they pushed him, and even aside from the physical damages, living with it was terrible—eventually he...
A good connection can be ruined over the simple fact you miscommunicated, or chose to not communicate at all. A good connection can be easily lost, because you chose to ghost instead of speaking on your fears, feelings, and intentions. Just think about that.
So I tried. Went back that way today an' saw Shinichiro. I called out but he didn't respond. I wanted to say I was sorry for everything. An' how I wished he could've been part of this whole grand plan Mikey had.
How do yah figure none of this shit is my fault? I didn't stop 'Tora an' I fed his delusions to the point I believed them too. Look at what is cost me. I lost everything.
*sniffles and wipes face with my coat sleeve*
Please tell me a cat story. Would rather think about animals than this heavy heavy guilt.
👻baji
Well the reason I don't think it's your fault is cos it was an accident, you were kids. Had it been anyone else I'd have said the same. And really I don't think shinichiro would have held it against you either y'know. You know what kinda person he was. Mikey forgave you, you know this. You ought to forgive yourself too.
But hm....a cat story.
How about this. One time I had a cat who used to take up a whole sofa by himself. And if you sat on it while he was there he'd get annoyed and try scratching you, he really behaved like was a king and the funniest thing is, his name was, literally translates to "lion"
if anyone in my household hears me silent screaming "he's a BABY" in my room, it's because I'm looking at pics of old men in their 20s when they still looked fresh out of high school