23 April 2023 Sunday ๐ 2:37 am pt
Incubus is seriously killing my brain. He put a lot of acid on it today. I imagine a lot more of it is missing. Iโm going to lose. My younger sister is different from me so maybe ๐ค sheโs not really related to me. They knew b4 conception that they were going to sacrifice me. They knew b4 my older half sister was conceived and sheโs a nurse ๐ฉโโ๏ธ. They knew b4 my cousin Jeremy was conceived. Bcz theyโre all Leo โ๏ธ born in august (Caesar????? Idk ๐คท๐ปโโ๏ธ. But people perceived them as good and have friends and are married. Same as my youngest sister. So if we all share a lot of the same genes ๐งฌ then itโs really only the luck of the draw โ๏ธ that I am sacrificial lamb ๐ cow ๐ฎ ox. My youngest sister thinks sheโs good too. Better than me. Sheโs honest about her feelings. 2:44 am pt. Surrounded by leo โ๏ธ I wrote this many posts ago. Auto save green box ๐ฆ through keyboard โจ๏ธ 2:46 am pt. People make excuses all the time about how to treat someone. 2:46 am pt. 2:47 am pt
2:55 am pt door ๐ช slam.
3:02 3:03 am pt hereโs my intaglio print of radios ๐ป with hearts ๐
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3:53 am pt incubus keeps removing pictures from this post b4 I can save. He is doing it for secretive heinous reasons (teeth ๐ฆทpain 3:55 am pt) thereโs always a secret hurtful reason. It usually is not what I expect Bcz of the way they mislead me. They are not honest to me probably Bcz I wasnโt Honest about my feelings growing up ๐ but they often did confuse me. Like I felt none of the feelings I probably was supposed to feel to say that I love ๐ someone, except for some times when I anticipated ?something like buddy pictures the blooming beautiful blossoming feeling in my heart โฅ๏ธ literally after he said โIโd love toโ and it made me smile in my sleep ๐ in bed ๐ and then I sang in the middle of my sleep ๐ด. 3:59 am pt I sang my heart โฅ๏ธ will go on Bcz we recently saw the titanic. And maybe ๐ค guy with middle name David had a little resemblance to Leonardo do caprio. Hit me now I realized (acid right arm pain 4:01 acid brain ๐ง pain) rose ๐น Kate winslet. ๐ everything is opposite. They mean death โ ๏ธ when they mean life. Vice versa. 4:02 am pt. 4:03 am pt.
5:54 am pt big harsh acid bite inside throat. A lot of random vehicles ๐ have been parking in the street for a few minutes each. This time it was a construction ๐ง dump truck sky ish blue colored. 5:57 am pt when the incubus did the dainty kiss ๐ it was the kiss of death โ ๏ธ. It was intentionally to trick me though. Bcz they donโt mean anything they say to me when itโs nice ๐. When I was nice to people itโs Bcz I was trying to be respectful. Even if I donโt know ๐คท๐ปโโ๏ธ if Iโm going to like ๐ them or not. 6:01 am pt. Incubus tricked me. They are hurting my throat a lot, which was the trickiest move they last did Bcz that felt more romantic and intimate than the ๐ kiss. But it was very odd at the same time. But I was already hurt a lot by them so I needed to think ๐ญ more (left foot ๐ฆถ pain 6:04 am pt) they keep giving me signs ๐ชง of cancer โ๏ธ 69. 6:95 6:05 am pt. 6:96 6:06 am pt it felt as if someone put his/her mouth ๐ below my chin on my neck, (pain forehead bone ๐ฆด 6:07 am pt) mouth ๐ open and slide the lips ๐ closed with out losing contact with the skin. It was weird. But now I know why they toyed with me incubus stuff in 2001 when I talked to Derek and โBrendan.โ Bcz it was their excuse to toy ๐งธ with me s*xually and emotionally. Boys will be boys. Back pain ๐๐ญsharp 6:11 am pt. They will touch whoever they want when they want. They own you like toy ๐งธ inflatable dolls right shin bone ๐ฆด lower back hip? Bone ๐ฆด pain ๐๐ญ๐ค๐ฅต and s/he rubbed that area that they bit into a minute ago 6:15 am pt. It was in the panty region some one (6:16 am pt ๐๐ญ right heel bone ๐ฆด pain) rubbed it in circles I think ๐ญ it was early 2022? Then I found the Adam Noah Levine picture with his hand ๐ค partially disappeared ๐ป . I thought ๐ญ he was saying he was invisible. But now it feels like heโs biting into the bone ๐ฆด to make it disappear. 6:19 am pt. My eyes ๐ were closed for both occasions but they wanted me to believe it was him hence the picture. I posted it a few posts ago here. 6:20 am pt. Jordi died. Heโs calling me his wife and himself incubus Bcz my (acid brain ๐ง skull ๐ pain 6:21 am pt again 6:22 am pt they did it a lot today) name transliterated is chavah with Greek letter nu. And eve did not follow directions ๐งญ like other people Bcz this eve was not accostumed to hearing ๐ (right hip bone ๐ฆด๐๐ญ) him speak to me. But other people clearly hear ๐ him all their life? Why? Luck ?๐๐ญ๐ค๐ฅต๐ค๐ฅต6:26 am pt. All this writing โ๏ธ or talking seems to lead no where. Except to kill me. 6:27 am pt.
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I tried to put 10. They took out 7. 6:34 am pt
7:02 am pt Backstreet Boys song as long as you love me. Makes me think ๐ญ that incubus really means that. With Q. With garrido. With s*x offenders who are his friends. Etc. maybe ๐ค if that one guy who I think ๐ญ he was Jon benet Ramseyโs kindergarten teacher ๐จ๐ปโ๐ซ? Didnโt really do it, and it was some one else more normal, then we still donโt know. It seems even if youโre a thief and murder he still likes/loves you more than me. He (acid throat pain 7:07 am pt) he let garrido keep dugard. Even though it was wrong. But garrido didnโt murder. 7:08 am pt. So maybe did that save him? He allowed himself to be caught with dugard in public. (Right hip bone ๐ฆด pain minute ago 7:09 am pt) 7:10 am pt. Incubus said in 2018? The purpose of life is to be a parent/apparent (definition?). . 7:11 am pt b4 that I think ๐ญ I might have been trying to get comfortable with the idea ๐ก of giving him a child ๐ถ when he was trying? To trick me into thinking ๐ญ he loved ๐ฅฐ me. Probably b4 the Q thing happened. I (๐๐ญpain right heel 7:13 am pt) it might have (chest stabbing pain 7:13 am pt) b4 he started tearing away at hip bone ๐ฆด. When I was 16 years old I feared pregnancy ๐คฐ Bcz I thought ๐ญ it would hurt too much. 7:15 am pt. I m not sure anymore about chronology (acid mouth ๐ pain 7:16 am pt. I figure thatโs maybe the order of events. I have a lot of shame about year end of 2017 w/ Q stuff. But that was probably the worst thing I did to Q, besides not having the courage to detach from her sooner when I had conflicting feelings that I had hoped would go away. 7:19 am pt I told her to make as many friends as possible so she would not be alone if and when I decided to end our friendship. 7:20 am pt
8:41 am pt yup ๐ theyโre still killing me. I asked them to stop ๐ burning ๐ฅ me Bcz Iโm so tired I think ๐ญ Iโm going to die they hit me with more acid in my brain ๐ง . 8:43 am pt I canโt stand to do dishes w/o my butt hurting again! Right foot ๐ฆถ arch pain = arch enemy? If you hurt me duh ๐. 8:44 am pt heโs the dragon ๐ and Iโm chavah/hoshiana/hosanna = Jesus. Burning ๐ฅ butt stings 8:46 am pt. When I die it means more apocalyptic bowls heinous activities child rape human s*x trafficking. Incubus justified it. I will be dead โ ๏ธ and heโs going to say itโs peopleโs fault itโs my fault ๐คฆโโ๏ธ Bcz heโs going to say Iโm sitting ๐ช on the throne opening the scrolls ๐ releasing the horses ๐ด. 8 billion people. 8:48 am pt. The signs ๐ชง say it all. But then he is going to say forgive everyone yadda yadda. 8:49 am pt back and forth flip flop ๐ฉด fake outs. 8:50 am pt something on the tv ๐บ about Disney land tax... acid brain ๐ง pain 8:51 am pt autocorrect pregnant pretty. I donโt know ๐คท๐ปโโ๏ธ why itโs saying that. 8:51 am pt Iโm not pregnant ๐คฐ. They did weird stuff to me when they told me that I was pregnant ๐คฐ last year they were pushing in my gut while I was sleeping ๐ด and made my head flop back and forth (right knee sharp pain ๐๐ญ 8:54 am pt) I forget how hard they were doing it if it hurt but I donโt like that they did that to me. 8:55 am pt they showed a lack of maturity and made me think ๐ญ they were trying to give me an abortion I guess. 8:56 am pt it might have been abusive but theyโre good at taking away memory of pain. And they poured acid on my brain ๐ง after stroh and Maryka came out with news ๐ฐ. 8:57 am pt tummy ache ๐ diarrhea???? ๐ญ๐ซ๐ฉ 8:58 am pt
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now Iโm having cold feet ๐ฆถ. That the incubus really messed with my mind. 9:39 am pt but I have my print. 9:40 am pt but is anyone really looking and interested? 9:41 am pt and joe blocked me on Instagram. ๐๐๐ญ๐ญ๐ฅต๐ค๐ฅต 9:41 am pt
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