#I need to find it online or something

[eerna]

pls recommend me some fantasy romance!

#all rec lists lead me to a dead end pls help me out i am CRAVING so BADLY #and you know my taste so you won't recommend me whatever is recommended online when i try to find books similar to an enchantment of ravens #recs #i'm dying over a school project and still have 2 whole pages of comicing to do i NEED something romantic to get me through it #should have waited a bit longer to read emily wilde huh

[puppyeared]

if escape rooms as team building exercises became popular im not sure if id be more excited or terrified

#if it isnt already anyway.. i can see it happening as a school frosh thing. idk if it would catch on as a workplace thing #i kind of find the concept of being locked in with strangers and working to find a way out weirdly exhilarating though #at least compared to icebreakers cause i dont have to spend 10 minutes racking my brain for something to blurt out abt myself #as a bonus u could like. put people into groups and give prizes to whoever escapes first second third etc. apparently they also do themed #escape rooms.. maybe let people pick a theme? or voluntary sign up? actually this would be really fun for smth like a blind friend date #although if i found out i was locked in a room with an online friend id be too excited to actually escape LOL #ive never done an escape room before so sadly i cant speak from experience. its like up there on things i want to try next to rug tufting #workshop and visiting new art exhibits or conventions. i seriously need to get out more if it wasnt for the horrors <- school and anxiety #i was planning to invite cass to a drop-in art workshop in town but neither of us could go bc typography is making us go thru hell and back #AND THEY HAD A BUTTON MACHINE TOO #im nostalgic bc i miss working in groups and not being awkward abt it or worrying abt schedule conflicts #i realized that i learn best in groups and its a little corny but i like sharing ideas and talking through a problem #in elementary i could just sit down with friends for review and come out of it energized *and* more familiar with the material #and i could technically still do it now. but as adults we're more picky abt who we work with on top of being way more busy outside school #maybe im lonely. im shy and grew up not talking to ppl unless i absolutely have to so its hard to make friends on my own i guess #only thing getting me thru it is telling myself that humans like helping and that my cringe is overblown in my head. but its hard #hence the escape rooms. i have been able to talk to 2(!!) people though!! mostly abt school stuff but im glad to be on friendly terms #i dont really know how to be happy these days cause im constantly scaring myself abt my portfolio and finding places to work #not being ambitious is part of not wanting to put energy into something that wont work out while also not having the passion to do literall #anything else.. i should probably talk to my counsellor ugh #yapping

[vitamin-zeeth]

Pros of playing a changeling in dnd: unique character with super useful and fun mechanics and lots of opportunity for roleplay!!

Cons of playing a changeling in dnd: I CANT USE ANY OF THE FUCKING ONLINE CHARACTER MAKERS WITHOUT PAYING FOR EXTRA PACKS

#HELP I CANT FIND FUNCTIONAL SITES I CAN USE THAT HAVE CHANGELINGS ON THERE #i use online ones cause i always feel like ill forget something doing it manually and also i dont have any character sheets so i just have #tp use normal paper cause i also dobt own a printer :(( but i think ill just deal witn it #cause its easier to alter and other people still need to make theirs and also theres some homebrew items and mechanics so yk #anyway yeah i like changelings im naming mine frankie after the monster high character i literally have no reason i just felt like it #gonna so a scifi train heist B) #wet floor sign #dnd #changeling #dnd changeling #dnd 5e

[aroacehanzawa]

does anyone else have this thing where they need to be just the right amount of fixated on something in their free time in order to actually be productive outside their free time, but not too much so it affects your productivity, but also not not fixated on anything because otherwise you just waste time trying to find that something instead of being productive or enjoying your free time

#does this make any sense? #like i need to start studying for exams but i don't have any specific thing to fall back on when i'm done studying for the day #so instead of actually focusing on studying i just keep pickup up books/manga/series and dropping them because i can't find something that #holds my attention just the right amount #but when i was reading witch hat atelier the last few days that was too much because i wouldn't do anything else #i think the last few years it was always a webnovel that i read over exam season because they're light and entertaining enough but because #it's words instead of visuals it's less.. consuming? yknow? #anyway idk what to read #well i've been reading can ci pin but it's a bit too serious and slow especially the part i'm on rn #might start the earth is online. maybe

[coquelicoq]

Do you mind sharing your brand for ear plugs and noise canceling headphones? I’ve tried so many different kinds but have had trouble finding ones that work well or are also comfortable. I know our needs might be different but it would be worth a try! Ty <3

for earplugs i just use the kroger brand foam ones for sleeping and going to concerts. i really only need two things from earplugs: 1) they don't fall out and 2) they reduce noise somewhat. these work well enough so i haven't really shopped around for other options.

i don't actually like my noise-cancelling headphones, they're pretty uncomfortable on my head. they often give me a headache, and they make my ears all sweaty. but there are frequently very loud events on my street, and for a while there my neighbor was having a lot of noisy sex that i really didn't want to hear, and i was kind of losing my mind. so i asked for some headphones for christmas and am just using whatever random pair i was given. i think they're skullcandy brand.

i hope you have better luck soon!

#it sucks to have to hear the bad sounds all the time so i really hope you find something that works for you <3 #i wish i had better headphones but i'm allergic to shopping. when i need something i haven't gotten before i just wait until christmas #and make someone else figure it out. unfortunately this means whatever they get me is sometimes not what i wanted #or doesn't work or is uncomfortable. but i use it anyway. because what else am i gonna do look for it myself??? #<-incidentally this is a large part of why i haven't moved yet even though i've known for a couple years that i need to #what do you mean i have to look at apartments online? can't i outsource this??? #asks #anon

[droodlebug]

i think most people need to expand their idea of art so dipshits can stop saying ai art is actually good for physically disabled people who cant do art. what do you mean when you say art? can we ask that question? if you say that word and all you mean is a pretty portrait or an oil painting, then you need to open yourself up.

art at a base level is just something you made with some kind of strong emotion – some kind of passion – behind it. yes a hyper rendered portrait can still be art. a sketchy pen drawing is art. a mess of colors making shapes on a canvas is art. painting a huge canvas in paintstakingly light layers of a single color so that the end result is perfectly smooth is art.

a song on the speakers in a store is art. an underground indie song you love is art. singing a single sentence song with small children is art. voice acting is art. beading is art. jewlery is art. decorating your home is art. making a house or a person in the sims is art. making dumb ass tiktoks can be art. stuffed animals are art. resin crafting is art. sculpting is art. making little dioramas is art. collecting and cleaning dolls and figures is art. meticulously organizing your desktop and phone layouts is art. getting bored and spraypainting a shelf a new color is art. writing about your favorite show, whether theories or as a fanfiction, is art.

technology is art. engineering is art. architecture is art. science is art. sewing, modding, dress up games, hoke renovations, dancing, singing, fingerpainting, cooking, cross stitching, baking, making a blog or an essay about something you love, or hate, cmor care about, dearly, rearranging store shelves, crochet, making people laugh, icing a box mix cake, the way scientists talk about their field, literary analysis, printing shirts, personalizing your car, sex work, editing a picture to print, scrapbooking, getting really into planners, putting stickers on your things. its all art

when i say ai art isnt art, and it isnt a good tool for disabled people to make art. im not saying you have to be like me, who is physically disabled, and fingerpaint or that you have to learn to paint and draw with your mouth or toes or whatever. i mean art is something you are passionate about, and you need to find the kind of art that speaks to you and lets you express yourself. if that means you push your disabled (or abled) body to draw portraits of people like yours truly, then thats wonderful. if that just is not your art, thats wonderful too. theres so much out there to try.

you dont have to limit yourself to the first kind of art that pops in your head when you hear the word. and always remember. it doesnt have to be good or marketable. it just has to be yours

#idk im just thinking about some notes i saw on an ai post #about another disabled person saying something like..m well i shouldnt have to learn how to paint with my teeth to make art #and i agree. but thats not an excuse to take advantage of a skeevy ai program dubiously using art posted online. #it just means you need to find your outlet. if you arent willing to find your workaround to paint then dont paint. find other art #its okay to be dissappointed about that. its not okay to choose to let that hurt other people #its okay to yearn for something you cant do. im shit at any kind of fiber art and it hurts my physically and i wish it wasnt like that #but i do just have to accept its not the avenue for me and that is okay #conversely it does cause my pain to sit up and paint and i cant always hold a brush without pain and using needles bends back my fingers #but its what i need to do to express myself. so i keep working witg it and finding ways to make it accessible to me #im just not willing to do that with crochet or knitting #if you arent willing to find ways to do it. then it is worth thinking about if its something you need and really want to do. or if its just #a nice idea and something that would be cool.

[thomastoldmeitcantbethatbad]

can't believe y'all are sleeping on Adult Adoption (2022). if you loved Kajillionaire get ready for Old Dolio's younger Canadian sister except she's an orphan and works at a bank and is pastel-and-rainbow-autistic-coded instead of trash-gremlin-autistic-coded

#ok i mean i can believe that y'all are sleeping on it #like no one sees weird cancon #but also i just wanted to find a gif or something #i need that moment when Rosie was like 'you gave me something and not everything which is worse than giving me nothing' #we'll see if I use my work's adobe account to make some gifs #but I'd have to find the film online first #goddamn indie canadian shit #adult adoption #ellie moon #kajillionaire

[karlobears]

I miss Spectrobes man, that series was dope af

Back when Disney wasn’t you know, as fucked up as it is today. The designs were dope, the gameplay was just so nice to my little childhood adhd. Wish it had its popularity and name spread about. There’s no chance in hell it’d ever make it to Switch. But a dog can hope.

#Spectrobes #please I want that fun series to come back #I need to find a Wii emulator online to play it or something just itching to play the game again

[running-in-the-dark]

oh, great! I cleaned out all my fountain pens before we moved, and then chose just a few to take with me. plus ink, obviously.

except someone took the damn ink out of the bag I had put it in. sooo it's probably in the storage unit now and I won't see it again until April 🙃

#no I know this is fine and not a problem etc etc #BUT #I need to write shit down 😭 I'm feeling baaad and that means it's time to write in my diary and I CAN'T because none of my pens HAVE #ANY INK IN THEM!! #even my bullet journal fountain pen is allllmost out of ink! and I didn't bring any gel pens because why would I??? #oooh I am mad rn. #the local stationery shop closed last year soo. I will have to order ink online if I can't find mine. 🙃 #yes I know I could use a fucking ballpoint pen or something like a caveman (sorry) but everything but fountain pens hurts my wrist 😭 #this is a 'need to write 20 pages that will inevitably turn into 'oh I am so sad because I cannot touch this fictional man' very quickly and #nothing else will help' situation 😭😭😭😭 #sooo I will now start figuring out which ink I am going to buy. maybe I'll manage to just get one. hahahaha that was a good joke :') #personal #oh my GOD I just realised I didn't even pack any syringes OR CONVERTERS OR EMPTY CARTRIDGES EITHER #fuck this I just ruined my whole damn day

[ricoka]

sometimes I wish you could post an opinion on a fandom blog without inviting a whole witch hunt or being accused of causing drama but alas

#I've not done anything and i won't do anything #it's just something that's annoying?? that you can't say anything without someone doing a bad faith interpretation of it #or projecting it on themselves or getting offended on behalf of a fictional character #the few times i saw someone actually say something slightly controversial all hell broke loose every time #like great that you're passionate but not everything is about you #not everything needs your opinion - especially if you can only give it like a lecture #not everything has malicious intentions #people disagreeing with you have a right to their opinions as well - as long as you respect theirs they should respect yours #the thing is - i don't think I've ever been in a fandom that didn't have to deal with like ship wars or someone doing hate campaigns #of a character or ship - i guess that's just the way it is?? #but here it feels especially tiring because people don't usually disagree on ships #people are literally fighting and hating each other mainly over the same two characters!!! and their different interpretations of them #people disagree over what the right and moral way is to portray and ship those characters #and it creates so much tension because you can't associate with those people because they're doing it wrong #and are acting fucking awful about it #but those people are very exclusionary and if you don't agree with all of their points they don't want to talk to you either #you just float along hoping that you'll find some people who have a similar interpretation and will actually talk to you #it's so weird??? it's so isolating too?? #and it feels like you entered a political landscape in your online fandom space #i will probably delete this and I'm not even sure my thoughts make sense #my thoughts spiralled a bit from thinking how some fan interpretations annoy me into disliking a character hahaha

[poppies]

2023 was the worst year of my life. not sure what's to come or where to start but i know things have to change, i have to fix things somehow

#i haven't been very active online #last june i experienced something traumatic and i'm stuck in an environment in which i cannot heal #plus chronic pain has inhibited my life to a devastating degree #so all i've done these past months is sink further and further into a sadness and emptiness and pain i can't describe #it's scary to look in the mirror at somebody entirely unrecognizable. i feel hollow and devoid of any traits #i feel i've lost everything that made me 'myself' #lost my family. lost my health. lost myself. lost all the things i cared about once #i don't think i can ever return to the person i was before. so i have no option but to start anew #i need to stop being so terribly nostalgic for the things i can never get back #i can't keep clinging onto broken shards #honestly i know deep down that holding on to the hurt has never served me. and i doubt it ever will #but i'm scared to let go. scared of what will take its place. scared of what i'll find. #i don't think i can heal here #so i'm just enduring. but it's scary how time keeps passing. i've been so dissociated and none of this feels real #i feel so hopelessly lost and trapped and behind. i'm 23 now but it feels so wrong #✩

[devilfruitdyke]

the she/theys vs he/theys and wlw vs mlm posts are symptoms of a larger problem within the queer community 👍

#1. lack of consciousness of beauty standards 2. no grasp of intersectionality 3. focus on online discourse and not queer theory #'discourse' used very literally there. this is not a sick dunk on Minors These Days #anyway we as lgbtq people are very focused on ourselves as oppressed that we dont realize how we are perpetuating/internalizing... #... oppressive beliefs #see how all 'g ender envy' is almost exclusively skinny *white* conventionally attractive cis people #i saw someone say something like 'dont tag as gender envy be yr own person' the other day #and that really opened my eyes ? #we can be so caught up in the politics of being trans (usually as yr only minority group) #that it basically turns into 'skinny white cis men are the ideal of manhood dont ask me why though idk' #its deeply internalized #same goes with the 2 posts i mentioned #ps. i KNOW gender envy is what you personally find enviable and you shouldnt forced to change yr attraction for political reasons #but its the same shit that cishet beauty standards have been for centuries #very similar to how the only models in magazines are skinny white cis women #they dont say that fat people/trans women/woc arent worth their pages. its implied. #we just need to think about what we're implying every day as a community. #also i have a personal thing against gender envy culture because you guys forced me to see FUCKING V OMITBOYX EVERY DAY IN LIKE 2020 #/JOKE I SWAER. unless i get told one more time that im not really trans because i dont want short hair over my eyes. then i snap #<3

[icewindandboringhorror]

Trying to find something to go with these tights? I don’t have a lot of bright clothes that match them, so went more in a mixing it with lighter colors sort of direction, maybe sort of sky themed (rainbow with the blue and white clouds)?

#self #ootd #should I start tagging things as that?? lol.. I mot sure how to tag things like this that are. not costumes really. just outfits. but not a #specific style or anything. just like experimental #I need more cloud print items also.. there just arn't many of them. OR actually. There are not many of them if you're someone like me who #pretty much exclusively gets clothes at places like the bins and thrift stores. All of the cloud print items I have are the small like 0.5% #of my wardrobe gotten from ebay in the past 10 years. I have never seen a cloud print thing out in the wild actually #OR sometimes you finally find stuff that's sky/cloud themed but it's like... a washcloth for babies. instead of a shirt. ... sad #they probably do have them and you can maybe get them at stores sometimes but. hhhh..... #Buying things new is so stinky. everything costs over $10 >:( why.. why cost mony >:( #I think once you get used to everything being like 25 cents an item to MAYBE $8 or something at a real thrift store #going to online or in person stores and seeing stuff like a cloud dress but it's $65 is like.......... I could never. I could never fathom #I mean. I WOULD pay $65 for a dress if it was literally like. Exactly every specific thing I love all in one and I know I would never find #it again in my entire life and could not make it myself and etc. etc. Like a pastel blue and white historical style dress with #puffy sleeves that goes down to the ankles and has a high ruffled collar and also has a pattern with cats and clouds and stars on it and the #sleeves and striped and there's lace and bows and things dangling from the cuffs and part of it is irridescent and there are long buttons or #lacing or some other elaborate details and tassles somewhere also and it's layered and 3 sizes too big for me so it's not tight #or etc. etc. I would pay maybe $80 for that. Perhaps $100 if it came with accessoriy bits (like a ruffled fancy apron or shawl or hisorical #bonnet or matching gloves that also had cats on them etc. ) - but otherwise. No. #ANYWAY. for someone who loves clouds SO much. I have so little actual cloud themed clothing and house things lol #If I had a billion dollars though... >:) I would give 80% of my money to charity obligatory but what I had left I would use to have like. #the most Themed house ever. so much clouds and also cats. rug shaped like clouds. a cloudy sky mural on every cieling. #full wardrobe of cloud print cloaks and stuff. so on and so forth lol

[kirinoha]

.

#holy christ I just saw THEEEE most chronically online never felt the gentle warmth of a nice sunny day on your skin take I think ever posted #PARAGRAPHS AND PARAGRAPHS AND PARAGRAPHS when a simple 'why do you care' would have sufficed #its astounding what matters to you people and i mean that with malice #touching grass is not enough you people need new organs to create a shift dynamic enough to break you out of these cycles #maybe a full blood transfusion with someone whose life doesn't revolve around performative anger or dunking on internet strangers #i just genuinely want to know where you get the energy to CARE about something so fucking innocuous #how do you maintain friends with this constant anger burning in your heart there's no way it doesn't bleed into the rest of your life #I was gonna stay up and read for a bit but just seeing the depths this person went to emptied my reserves good NIGHT #i hope that op finds joy in the mundane someday or dies like one of the two

[parkeryangs]

WIP Tag Game

Rules: Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it!

Tag as many people as you have WIPs!

tumblr told me @falloutcoys tagged me but then it didn't show up?? i have no idea lol. funcional webbed site

malevolent

he's not gay he's just dead

is this what resident evil is like

miskatonic world tour (real) (not clickbait)

you were the last thing i had that was good (published wip)

woe.begone

let matt cause problems

mad scientist x literally just a guy

felix needs therapy

ibuprofen i guess????

open tag !!!! :D

#there's something in me thats just hardwired to give my wips dumb names. idk what it is #i used to have an online friend that would title all her works like: untitled [date] #which is possibly the scariest thing ever. so ig im endeavoring to do the opposite lol #finch chirps #tbh i need more writer friends GUYS u know where to find me :)

[monokumis]

Communication is so important in relationships. I know I’ve struggled with it before in the past because I was made to feel like I was making things up or getting ignored. But if you tell me you value communication, I expect you to actually listen to me when I communicate with you. Do not play the victim, do not say I am unfairly judging you, if there is an issue I will come to you and say it. I wouldn’t be doing this if I didn’t think you could improve and become a better person. I poured my all into you and loved you so much, what a shame that you never cared half as much as I did and hated me for even trying. I’m doing the responsible thing of realizing enough is enough and that I need to let you go, even if it hurts. I refuse to stay in an abusive relationship with someone who can’t communicate why they hate me. As much as I hate what you did to me, I also realized my own self worth. I shouldn’t let others walk all over me just so they won’t leave, so they’ll like me. My life has so much more value than that. I went into this relationship hating myself, but I’m leaving it now full of love for both myself and the people in my life who want and appreciate my love. I’m so grateful to them, and I’m grateful to you for showing me how much other people love me. I’d wish you the best in life, but you already had it.

#Vent #I usually don’t vent online because I don’t want it to seem like I’m talking bad about another person because I hate doing that #But I really did need to get this off my chest. I was hurt horribly by a group of people who I thought I could trust and love #But they never wanted my love #they never communicated that with me #so I stayed #But I now know I was never appreciated #I’m going to move on and find something better for myself #I already have so many people who love me and want the best for me #and I am eternally grateful to them #I refuse to be someone who never changes because I am afraid of change #if I am the problem #I will work on improving myself #I just hope you can do the same for yourself