#I only know 4 maybe even 5 people so this may not be accurate

[solarlunarsstuff]

hello 👀👀👀 may i request an alastor trying to woo lucifer's oldest daughter while the big boss of hell and charlie are watching 👀👀👀

thank you so much and have a wonderful day!!! ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

YIPPEE !! A hazbin Hotel req ! I only watched around 4-5 episodes of the newest show so it might not be accurate ! Enjoy :) !

Alastor x Fem!Reader (FANFIC)

A/n: He might be a little bit obsessed with you, but don't worry, he'll make you quiet if he has to force it. (HUSKERDUST 4 LIFEEEEE)

TW: Fingering, READER IS A HOOKER !!!, semi-public, getting caught, his horn thingies grow, tongue fucking, getting eaten out, dry humping, pet names (slut, whore, baby, doll, ect), you look a little bit like Charlie, dirty talk, nipple play, messy make-outs, overestimating, and edging. Lmk if I missed anything ! 😙

Synopsis: Alastor, the 7'3 radio demon, the overlord of a lot of land in hell. Even though he's shown no sign of wanting to experience intimacy, he can change that rule...

The first daughter of the big boss of hell.

That was your title, ever since you were born. Later on though, you had gotten a little sister.

Charlie Morningstar.

She was a big ray of sunshine despite being born in this hellish place. You loved her, you really did.

The both of you nearly look the same. You did dye your hair to (F/c) so there is quite a difference. You're about 6'9, a few inches taller than her.

You also held that wicked smile from your father, typical.

Anyway, you were in the middle of cleaning your apartment when you heard a knock on your door and the sound of paper falling onto the floor.

You thought it was those stupid kids on floor 4 playing games again, but it wasn't. Turned out to be a letter, signed by... your younger sister?

Of course, having nothing else to do, you ripped it open with your nails and unfolded the neat paper.

It read,

'My dear sister, I know we don't talk much anymore, but I would love it if you paid a visit to the hotel! I also know you probably don't have a job, but dad wanted to see you too. He had just come to the hotel about an hour ago. He was basically pleading to see your pretty face again! So, please, think of this and get back to me as soon as possible.

XOXO, Charlie'

You always loved the way that she signed letters. She's been sending you letters with her sign off like that for years now.

Either way, you sat on your couch, contemplating if you should just go or not.

"Fuck it..." You thought out loud

Choosing something comfortable and not something you wore while hooking up.

Oh, right... You're a hooker. It's a job that's actually nicely paid, paid enough for food and your bills. That's it, that's what you were worried about.

What if one of your clients worked there? What of your dad and sister find out?

One client stood out to you though, what was his name? Did it start with an 'A'? Either way, he was one of those people who would choose a hooker and later on be actually interested.

You? Never, it would ruin your job reputation, not wanting to let your job go, you kindly refused, and he went on with his life.

Until you have gotten various notes from someone, some of them were wholesome? In a way, like, "I miss you" or "Just give me a chance".

Others... others were sort of... sexual... For example, "My cock aches for you" and they even sent a paper that had been covered in lipstick kisses.

But it wasn't lips. It was, uhm, you get the idea. He might have been a little bit crazy for you, but it stopped a couple of years ago.

Maybe he realized that I wasn't interested in something serious? You still thought about it as you took the taxi to the front street of the hotel.

You thanked the driver, but instead of him saying your welcome...

"How about I give you a ten? You know, for your pretty body?" He grinned

"No thanks, you don't seem like the type that I would bother with. Plus, that 10 won't even cover 20 minutes.." You snarled back

He whispered some slur under his breath but drove off anyway.

"People think they can just ask me for -" you stumbled back as you ran into something, more like someone...

Red vest, big deer ears, a staff...

'Oh shit..' You thought to yourself

Maybe he won't remember you?

"Back for round two, love?" He grinned maliciously

'God fucking dammit..' you looked up seeing that stupid radio demon overlord.

"No, I'm not, you sick fuck. I'm here to see my little sister.." You moved around him and continued to walk towards the hotel.

"Ahh, that's why I thought you looked familiar.." his voice had a hint of static to it.

You stayed silent and opened the doors, your sister turned around to see who it was.

"Alastor, I said that you -" she stopped once she saw you.

'That's what his name was...' You smiled a little at how your sister nearly knocked you over as she came and wrapped her arms around you.

"OH MY GOD, Y/N, YOU CAMEE!!!" She jumped up and down while hugging the shit out of you.

"Hah, yep, it's me!" You awkwardly hugged her back, noticing your father talking to the other workers on the lobby couches.

Lucifer turned from the sound of your voice and did the same thing as Charlie.

"MY SWEET GIRL!" He squealed

"Hey, dad." I sighed as he also hugged me

Charlie's personality was mostly taken by your father's side while you to your mother's.

Not really knowing your mom, but you knew you had almost the same personality. The little family bonding was broken by the voice of presumed 'Alastor'.

"Y/n, was it? Pleasure to meet you!~" As if... This fucker is acting as if you've never met before.

"Right..." You went along with it, about to shake his hand, but almost forgot that he is an overlord of souls.

You just smiled lightly at him, seemed like it was the safest option.

[1 hour later]

Nifty was off somewhere cleaning, Angeldust was flirting with Husk, Lucifer and Charlie were laughing at something stupid. And you, you were just sitting on the end of the couch, sipping on your (F/d).

Everything was going lovely until you heard a little bit of static start to form behind you. Everybody else didn't seem to notice, but you did. While turning around, you saw that dumb fucks face.

"Darling, tell me.. Do you like me for the money? Or for how your pretty walls wrapped around my d-" you instantly cut him off, not wanting anybody to hear.

"Shut the fuck up..." You glared at him

He smuggly smiled and sat next to you, squishing you between the armrest and him.

"Could you move-" Your voice stopped in your throat when his hand landed on your thigh.

Alastor kept his hand there, slightly rubbing his hand closer to your cunt.

He paid no mind to your silent pleas. Instead, he started talking with Husk and Angeldust. Thank the gods you were in a blindspot, or everybody would've seen Alastor touching you up.

His hand swiftly slipped into your shorts, rubbing your dampened panties from the outside.

You started to softly buck your hips into his fingers, wanting to gain friction. As if it was obvious, he stopped, grinning from you silently whining.

"Are you okay?" Your father, Lucifer, asked. He noticed how you were twitching.

"Mhm!" Was all you could muster as Alastor started to pump his fingers again.

Your arm flared out, gripping his shoulder. "A-alastor... You..." You couldn't speak for shit.

"Please let me and Miss Y/N excuse ourselves!" Alastor announced to the group.

Before you could speak up, he dragged you a few feet around the corner. "What the fuck-" he cut you off by forcing his lips onto yours.

"You're going to shut the fuck up and take me right here..." He pulled away slightly before diving back in.

A/N: I'm gonna edge yall since I want this to be done before school starts tm!! :3

#hazbin hotel #hazbin alastor #hazbin x reader #hazbin lucifer #lucifer morningstar #charlie morningstar #alastor x reader #alastor #alastor the radio demon #alastor smut #smut #hazbin hotel smut

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for telling my brother his wife is using him?

This may be long but I want to make sure there is enough info for you to give an accurate judgment. TLDR at the end but I encourage reading the full post

I (25f) have an older brother, J (28m). I also have a younger brother (22m), L. J and I were always close when we were younger then grew apart as we got older, the boys always were close. The year J graduated high school we became close again.

J met his gf A (29-31f, I dont even know how old she is but she's older then J) during college. I remember the first time A came home with him, and she was very sweet but very nervous. We clicked and had a good conversation that lasted hours (we all were at our parents house and us girls had to share a room and the boys did too). Anytime there were holidays we stayed at our parents and did this (big holidays that colleges had off like Christmas and Thanksgiving)

We met up a couple of times and all was fine. It was hard as they lived far away from where we grew up (2-4 hours depending on traffic and routes). Then I moved to the country, about 20 minutes away from them. We met up more often, but only maybe about once every 3 months. No big deal, I was busy working. Then J and A got engaged and it felt like everything changed.

I would invite them to hang out or get dinner, but J and A would make excuses. J would be like "A can't come so we won't make it" even when I said "okay but what if only you came? You're my brother?" He would make excuses. The days they agreed to meet up, suddenly day of couldn't go. He was tired after work, she wasn't feeling good, the car wasn't working. Anything and everything you could think of. I did notice whenever L came to visit me and stay, J and A would always be available to meet up, even if it was last minute.

So I figured...it somehow must be me? And then they got married. And it was beautiful.

Or so im told as it was a private ceremony and I wasn't invited :) I actually was originally told the date, which I asked off of work for, but then I got a text a week prior saying "guess what happened tonight" and then was told they got married. L was there. Our parents and myself were not. A did tell me she didn't feel right inviting our parents if her parents weren't there...but why not me? I was told it was a private ceremony and only L was there as a witness, but one of their friend's posted pictures and it had over 5 different people in them

I tried to let it go but honestly it hurt me and pissed me off and everything kept adding onto it. I have zero clue what the hell i did. I have texted J and asked him point blank if he is mad at me, he would deny. I asked for A's number cause he mentioned she was lonely and had lost friends, I said we could go get our nails done since that's something she likes (I dont but I figured I'd extend an olive branch) he refused to give it to me. It seems its me but again I have zero clue why.

It worsened after me and J got into an argument. They canceled again, and I do know A was having a bought of depression at this time. I understood, as someone diagnosed with depression and anxiety. But J told me I never would understand (A was still going out to places and hanging out with friends, meanwhile there were days I couldn't get out of bed and called into work sick. I know we shouldn't compare mental illness but it seemed like an excuse to me. A also would do things that she has said makes her mental health worse, like reading and watching things that triggers her). The whole reason I wanted to hang out is because I had Christmas gifts from our parents and a few of our childhood friends for them (L was out of the country at this time and had mailed a gift to them). They kept bailing and I tried for TWO MONTHS, I finally delivered the items the week after Valentines.

One of our friends was a baker and TOLD THEM she baked them a cake, special for them because A has dietary restrictions due to a chronic disease. They knew this and it spoiled. So I was upset for my friend, and I lied and said they got it to save her the hurt.

But when J finally told me to drop off the items I blew up at him. We stood outside his house and yelled at each other. He flat out told me to stop being so emotional and that I was letting hormones get in the way of thinking, and that I should understand A being depressed. I did! I yelled at him he should get his head out of his ass and that he is letting down not just me but our friends, especially the baker who has a waitlist and made stuff SPECIAL for them. He didn't thank me for my gift, but texted each individual person for theirs.

That was in 2022. A month after I apologized and he said he forgave me. But nothing has changed. Since then they didn't wish me happy birthday (they called L on his, he is now living with me temporarily, but when I pointed out I didn't get a happy birthday from anyone *literally only one friend wished me a happy birthday and L, even my own parents forgot* A told me I needed to get over myself and that birthdays weren't that important to them so I shouldn't take any offense. I didnt expect them to wish me a happy birthday this year because of that, but my true friends and my parents did remember this year),. They didn't come to my college graduation. I stopped texting J and I hadn't heard a response since. We did see each other this past Christmas coincidentally, not planned as they didn't come to our parents. J was pleasant, A said nothing but watched me the whole time, and I made excuses to leave this Christmas party as I didnt even know they knew the person throwing the party.

I came home early from work this past week and J was visiting L (something J claims he can't do during weekdays cause he works 9-5 during the week...allegedly). J gave me a hug and we all chatted for about an hour, it felt like old times, but then his wife called. It was a smooth conversation then I got brought up, and suddenly A needed J back home immediately. He bailed on dinner plans he and L had (L had spent all day cooking a roast, it was delicious btw and yes L was upset J didn't stay).

I had enough. I called J during his "work hours" on his cell. J answered and I chewed him out. I said our brother was hurt and whatever the issue with me is HAS to stop. If he doesn't tell me whats wrong, I CANT fix it. J told me there was nothing wrong with me and I was reading too into it. I pointed out some of the same instances I listed and he told me I was reading into it. He then accidentally let slip that A didn't want us talking. Which I figured. I blew up and told him A was using him. A was turning him against me and our parents *i am too lazy to go back but he stopped talking to our parents the same time he stopped talking to me but he always talked to L*. I mentioned how she is an adult and if she has an issue with me she needs to tell me, but instead she's a fucking coward. J yelled at me that she has anxiety and I yelled back "bitch I do too! I'm on fucking meds for it" which i know she isnt. J hung up on me.

Not only is everything above an issue, A also: doesn't have a job and only J has the income. Claims its because of her illness, the one that causes dietary restrictions, yet EATS said things even though she knows makes her sick. She won't let J meet up with our childhood friends. A also has stsrted getting J to take edibles with her. If J is tested, it will get him fired from his job. But then she complains he's being a loser if he doesn't do edibles with her.

The kicker is this: A solely used to date women. J is NOT a woman, nor does he want to identify as one. J knows A used to date women, and again tells me I should be more considerate seeing as how I am openly bisexual. However, and I havent told J this, one of the conversations I did have with A after they got married, she told me TO MY FACE "yeah, I never imagined marrying a guy yet here I am." Laughed and I kind of was like oh haha, isnt it crazy how things work out, to which she said "I dont even like men!" Slapped my thigh laughing and continued laughing. I was bewildered and when J had returned and asked what we were talking about we both changed the subject.

I did tell L when that happened and he thought it was weird but we couldn't change anything as they were married. I dont know if I should tell J.

But really I do feel as though A is using J, but now im wondering if I should lay it out more clearly WHY. Or if I should stay out of it. They already seem to hate me, so part of me is like why not go for it. But L is talking me off that bridge (my therapist is also testing me for something that isnt solely anxiety and depression) . I know J is hurt as he told L such, and part of me feels bad I yelled, but also the rest of me wants to key his fucking car and tell him to shove it up his ass and ban him from seeing L at my house as it is MY house even though L is living there

AITA?

TLDR: I yelled at my brother his wife is using him as she doesn't have a job, always falls back on her mental and physical illness yet does things to make them worse, and has also told me she doesn't like men (she used to exclusively date women prior to my brother).

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[aquatark]

Okay! So! I'm breaking out the correct capitalization because this news is so insane! The Japanese website for Endless Ocean Luminous received a major update last night, and I want to walk through the biggest new info from it with you! This is gonna be really long, so please bare with me, there's just so much to cover...

Here's the link for people who want to check this themselves: https://www.nintendo.com/jp/switch/a7lka/index.html

The Veiled Sea is random, but not in the way you think

It has been officially confirmed that the Veiled Sea's terrain and creatures will change with each dive, and creatures will likely spawn in accordance to the nearby terrain. But don't panic!

After filling in 80% of an area's map, you will be given a map ID, which you can use to access that exact same map, either by yourself or with friend, whenever you like! Think of them like Minecraft world seeds. An example ID (which can likely be used upon release) is given in the photo above, accompanied by what looks like a photo of the one and only...! Maybe you can reliably encounter her on that map ID?

2. Salvages are back, baybee!!

In what looks to be a system similar to EO1 and the Everblue games, salvages of all sorts can be found under small glints on the ocean floor! The P earned from salvages immediately goes into your current amount once you've picked it up. According to the photo above, salvaging is "essential to unravelling the ocean's mysteries", and another photo states that you may even find traces of "ancient civilizations"...

3. A diving rank system has been revealed, along with fishy friends

As you discover new creatures and treasures, you will unlock all sorts of things, and your dive rank will increase! Higher dive ranks have access to more suit colors (which side note omg i'm loving the options), as well as larger creatures following you, and more creatures following at the same time! What does that mean? Well... you know EO1's friendship system, where if you're friendly enough to a fish, it'll follow you around? This seems to be returning, but reworked! The creatures that follow you depends on your dive rank: at a low rank, only small fish will follow you, but as your rank increases, you can have dolphins and even huge whales tag along with you!

4. Behold a whole new range of underwater environments

I already showed pictures of them in my previous post, so I won't here to save photo space, but to list a few, underwater magma flows, shipwrecks in the abyss, polar areas, freshwater caves, and active hydrothermal vent fields have all been shown off here!

5. Different missions will be available each dive

Not much elaboration is needed here, but each dive, you will be given special missions (such as seeking out a location or creature). We don't yet know what reward these will give us, but it's gotta be good, right?

6. A new method of identifying creatures

Creatures you have yet to identify will glow, and pressing the L button while near these creatures will unlock their information. Multiple creatures' info can be acquired this way at the same time, making for easy scanning of big groups! This info will then be available in the marine encyclopedia, which can be accessed at any time.

The encyclopedia will also record the creature's behavior, habits, and the largest/smallest sizes of it you have found.

7. Creature variants have been introduced

Though the site did not elaborate on this, it did showcase a picture of a creature labelled "variant".

This one is especially interesting, because though the scientific name here is accurate, the Japanese text below it reads... "Coco Maharaja", which is this EO2 legendary's Japanese name! Will we be able to encounter the exact legendary specimens from EO2 again in the Veiled Sea, or are these simply colored variants named after them? Either way, the creature variant system is going to be awesome, I can tell!

8. Photography is back, and better than ever!

Photos will be sent to the Nintendo Switch's album when taken. What purpose they will serve in the greater game has yet to be seen, but you can take photos with yourself in them!

9. Multiplayer and singleplayer options

I know some people were worried about multiplayer being the only mode, but this is not the case! Players can dive either solo, or with a group over the internet with the "Dive Together" option. When diving together, up to 10 random players can play... or, when diving with friends, up to 30 people can!

Additional multiplayer reveals include the ability to use tons of emotes to communicate, adding emojis to creatures or treasures you find which can be seen on the map for others to check out (the Cacao Maharaja photo showcases a bunch of these emojis), being able to teleport to any player in your current dive, and more!

10. A new mythical creature...?

The array of photos shown of new creature models is absolutely astounding... but one in particular that caught my eye is the set of new prehistoric creatures!

One of these things is not like the others though... what could "Raja Emas" be...? Can prehistoric creatures be mythical too?

This update has made me more hyped than ever for this game! I'd be curious to hear your thoughts too~ :>

#endless ocean #endlessocean #endless ocean 3 #endless ocean luminous

[tytoalbatross]

Ranking BG3 Companions Based On Whether I Think They Give Good Advice

1. Halsin

in all honesty, i would put halsin and jaheira tied for first place because it really depends on the way you like advice being given to you. halsin will first drag you outside on a nice hiking trail for The Talk, and depending on whether or not you like the outdoors will greatly impact his placement (at least compared to the other first-place). but his advice is extremely good ! he'll walk you through whatever you're going through (as well as the not-so-well-beaten path in the Woods) and give you ideas for how to approach it based on your personal experience. even if you didn't want to go on the walk and was upset about being dragged on a walk, you'll be even more angry after the walk that it actually kinda worked. 10/10

2. Jaheira

on the other hand, if you want (very good) advice being given to you closer to home, jaheira is undoubtedly your best bet. both she and halsin have the age and the life experience to help you, and she will especially be incredible at being both considerate of your side of things while also giving you brutal honesty whenever necessary. the only downside i can think of is that the whole thing will feel like you're being sat down and being given "a chat" by your usually very cool aunt. another 10/10 though

3. Wyll

what wyll ravenguard doesn't have in years he has in his wide range of experiences and whatever the faerûn equivalent is of binge reading sappy reddit stories. he's Very easy to talk to and even if he doesn't know exactly what to say to you after, he'll definitely sound like he knows what he's talking about. gives pretty general, safe advice and knows the ins and outs of a healthy relationship! however, wyll's advice will lack some credibility because he just. does not follow his own advice. especially regarding family problems

4. Gale

i'd like to mention that i'm rating these characters PURELY on advice. i'm not factoring comfort into the rankings whatsoever. however, if you're looking for comfort AND advice, gale might be decidedly awkward about the former depending on your relationship. which is understandable, considering he barely had any human interactions for a whole a year. no, tara does not count. for advice, gale will listen very intently to your entire problem, and you can see the gears turning in his head. "what" you ask. "well, i can't help but think--" and he just goes ahead and posits an entire gameplan to you. a very pragmatic and thorough plan, yes, but it may not actually be viable for you (pretty hit or miss)

5. Minsc

do i mean minsc or minsc and boo? i couldnt decide on a reliable ranking with boo involved, so this is assuming you caught minsc on the rare occasion that he's without boo. maybe he's taking a nap. minsc almost always suggests you go punch a wall about it. or punch the cause of your problems. it's not the best advice, but you might actually feel better after punching a wall. or punching the cause of your problems. and if he does give you specific advice based on your problem, it can either be surprisingly wise or a good blueprint of what not to do. win-win

6. Shadowheart

all of you people who immediately place shadowheart as the "mom friend" or caretaker of the group simply because she is a cleric and a woman; i am hitting you very hard on the head with a steel bat. shadowheart is unfortunately not socialized beyond her interactions with other sharrans (not an accurate representation of the average group of people), and depending on when in her character arc you ask her for advice, she may not even care to help you. even if she could. however, assuming she is trying to give you advice, she would do her very best to at least talk through the issue with you and suggest some. possibly questionable things. at the end of the conversation it just kinda feels like the blind leading the blind

7. Karlach

karlach is only so low on the list because i think she just wouldn't try to give you advice, at least not in any definitive way. she'd first and foremost trust whatever decision you'll make for yourself (even pre-emptively), and her first priority would be comfort. she'll do her damnedest to give you a hug (which depends on the status of her heart), and she will also suggest punching things. and she will join you ! you solved nothing but you do feel much better at least

8. Astarion

whether astarion even makes an attempt at giving you advice depends entirely on how much he cares about you. if he barely registers your existence, he'll actually try to tell you to do something, but it's godawful advice. closer to a shitty one-liner. if he does care about you though, his "advice" is actually more outlandish and ridiculous. regardless of whether there's another person involved, "have you considered just killing the guy?" and you stare at him like he just grew another head. but hey, you're not upset anymore! he might even be trying to get you to laugh and gape at him because "hey no normal fucking person does that" "but it would work?" etc. and you're even surprised into laughing because what the fuck. astarion will not give you good advice but, like karlach, you will feel at least a little better than you did before the conversation

9. Lae'zel

it even baffles lae'zel that you'd go to her for advice. you trot up to her tent at camp, with everyone else above fully ready and available, asking her for advice. "bold choice." then she proceeds to give you the most brutal, does-not-apply-to-non-gith advice you've ever heard in your life. is she trying? probably. is she used to giving advice beyond simply speaking her mind? not at all. if you're looking for her specific brand of "advice" or you're in the market for combat pointers, you might get something out of the conversation, but otherwise the whole thing just leaves you concerned about how gith society works.

#i could be persuaded to a higher lae'zel ranking if i see a funnier idea than what i had #honestly ? if i see a funnier idea for any of them PERIOD i will probably just take that as fact #i wasnt entirely serious about this besides what i said about shadowheart. you know who you are. #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #halsin #jaheira #wyll ravenguard #gale dekarios #minsc #shadowheart #karlach #astarion #lae'zel #oh shit right . i didnt include minthara bc i havent had her in any of my saves yet so i couldnt think of anything #tyto speaks

[monoc1ca]

Murder Drones Theories/Observations !!!

I'm sure any Murder Drones fans(myself included) are excited for the final episodes to be released soon! But, I've made some observations from the currently existing episodes that I'm not sure if anyone has brought up yet. Here are my points!

(Brace yourself, this may get lengthy)

Let's get into the longer stuff first. In episode 5, we are taken into N's memories and see what life was like for them while they worked for Tessa's rich family. I think it's worth noting that the disassembly drones that we know in the present time have yellow eyes. However, in these past memories, they have white eyes.

Pay attention to the glow of the eyes, since it can get difficult to tell sometimes. Even if the yellow appears white sometimes, you can see the blurred yellow glow if you look closely. Here's a better comparison with past CYN and N:

Maybe they(N, J, and V) haven't become disassembly drones yet? Honestly I don't think we even know what a disassembly drone is. Actually wait, N actually says exactly that: "Aren't you worried we have no idea what we even are?!" (from episode 3, time 4:22)

On the subject of eyes, I see people commonly confusing some colours with others. Doll has orange eyes, and Alice's eye colour sits somewhere in between Doll's colour and the disassembly drone colour.

Idk it's like a copper?? Or they're the same and Doll's eyes are just dimmer than Alice's. The point is, they don't have yellow eyes. I'm mentioning this because the only drones we've seen associated with the colour yellow are the disassembly drones. Moving on!

At the end of episode 1, the last shot we see is this:

You can probably see that this resembles the symbol of the absolute solver. Of course, I don't know what these devices are - satellites, cannons, or even landing pods or whatever - but this makes me think that the solver originates from off the planet and operates remotely. Additionally, it's been said that the Absolute Solver "took CYN as a host". So CYN and the Solver are not the same; they are separate entities. Or at least, they were. (We don't see CYN acting as a normal drone at any point, only as taken over by Solver.)

+ Other small details I noticed!

1- The lace headpiece that J, V, and CYN wear in episode 5 all have eyeball patterns on them. (resembling the Solver's signature tubular eye cameras)

2- The binary code around the window says "01101110 1110101 1101100 1101100". Using a conversion site translates it to "null"

3- The Copper system appears to be the furthest from Earth(based on what is shown), and at least 2 colonized planets excluding Copper 9 have been taken over by Solver. Earth has also been taken over/destroyed by the Solver.

(the distance shown is not accurate to distance between planets, these are merely how I put the separate frames next to each other)

4- V is a zombie drone? Her eye screen displayed a 'Fatal Error' message earlier in episode 5 like other drones in the library, after which she ends up sporting the same wings and crazed state that Uzi had in episode 4.

Adding onto this, while she is in her zombie mode her lights are yellow. After Uzi hacks into the Solver's body and lets go of V, her eyes are back to white and her behaviour is normal. - This is visible from a little before 18:00 mins. into episode 5 and the seconds that follow.

5- Tessa and CYN have the same hairstyle.

I don't personally think this holds deeper meaning, since it's said that Tessa gives her favourite drones their hair. Oh I just noticed, CYN has the bow too!

6- The doll that CYN disassembles.

I don't understand why this was shown in great focus in episode 5. The only thing I can possibly think of is that it implies that the Solver can take control of biological beings, like humans? I'm not really convinced on this, but this and my previous observation about CYN and Tessa could add on to the theory that's been going around that Tessa is being controlled by the Solver. Maybe if we saw present Tessa with her helmet off we could se what colour her eyes are?

lol jk I know the humans being silhouettes is a stylistic choice.

And that's the end! Feel free to correct me or add on to anything I've theorized about here.

Thanks for reading!

#murder drones #murder drones n #glitch productions #indie animation #murder drones theory

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my personal take on the todd anderson hair color debate from a hairstylist perspective

~ alr y’all time to analyze this shit cuz i’m going back to my second year of beauty school in september and also i’ll be bored away from home so i’m not styling any clients at the moment

lemme just start off with the fact that this boy is very beautiful but not only is his anxiety making him look like a confused ass goldfish at times but also it’s making his hair confused cause like in some shots, he does look like a bit of a brunette-

but then there’s other shots especially when he’s outside or under a lot of bright lighting where i see more yellow/golden undertones seen within blonde hair

so ofc i had to whip out more photos from other movies and like…

he looks more like he has brown hair but there’s a few blonde streaks in there like- give me a goddamn break

overall, i’m judging by the level system (as hairstylists are usually taught in school) and of course overall knowledge of undertones and other colors out there. there’s multiple conclusions i’ve come to:

1. he has lightest brown hair (level 5) ( i can’t put a link to the exact image i’m using but you can search up “level system hair color” if you wanna see what i’m referencing to, however depending on the brand of hair color/company the level system is from, there might be slight alterations due to the way that brand formulates their haircolor and how it interacts with the natural colors so not every image will match the names i’m using )

from certain shots, he has overwhelmingly more red undertones in his hair which is the undertones that are exposed more in brunettes. it looks more like a golden brown or possibly coppery brown color in some instances.

2. he has dark blonde hair (level 6)

if my eyes aren’t tricking me, there’s also shots where the undertones that are exposed are more orange-coppery/yellow-golden-leaning which indicate more blonde hair but it’s definitely a darker blonde no doubt.

3. bro has mixed melanin

yes there are people who have hair that naturally has more than one color. the most common example we see is those who have grey recently coming in or salt and pepper hair, however, this can also happen with other natural hair colors like browns, blondes, and gingers. he very well may have more brown hair but then there’s streaks or even patches of dark blonde hair mixed in there.

4. he has changing hair color ⭐️

there are people i’ve met whose hair color has changed overtime and typically blondes are more susceptible to it. especially when seasons change, sun exposure can affect hair color and make it so your hair lightens in the summer but darkens in the winter (just look up sun bleaching like why tf does a star from that far away have that effect??). however, this still means he has some sort of hair color whether it’s more blonde or brunette leaning—that’s up to you to decide from the hair colors above.

as you can see, i starred it cause i personally believe this the most. ( i also believe this happens to his brother jeffrey as well to a different extent )

5. he could’ve had his hair dyed

i don’t personally believe this but it’s a possibility i put on the table from a hairstyling perspective (plus the actors could’ve gotten hair done before shooting the movie which i mean they did get their hair cut so who knows what else they could’ve gotten touched up on their hair- maybe even chemical services🤷‍♀️). it could possibly be highlights that are starting to fade but even then it doesn’t look like it to me.

^ this conclusion is hard to tell just from photos at times and lighting/editing/cameras used in movies could mess around with it more :/

it’s much more accurate to just analyze hair in person.

~ so that’s my take + other options if you can’t come to a conclusion or believe something else.

planning on posting random headcanons soon :))

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yo i played persona 5 for the first time (III)

Alright, so this post (previous one here and first post in the chain here) is going to be about my general final notes and about Hina as a character.

Despite all my gripes, I did end up enjoying the game. I wouldn't have poured 230 hours into it if I'd hated it.

But most of the enjoyment I wrung from it was a result of the mod and the personal headcanon I spent the whole game developing. I really don't think this game would've been for me without that, which is why I don't intend on playing Persona 4 (well, at least until that game's female protagonist mod gets off the ground). I might play Persona 3 Portable as that game's female protagonist after a little break, though.

The final tally of Hina's Confidants:

Sorry to all the Yusuke fans.

Everyone's final stats:

In 2017, this would be about 88,000 dollars? Which is an absurd amount of money for her to just have on hand.

Favorite characters? I guess I'll list the characters:

Hina (cop-out, i know, but I like her a lot)

Futaba

Haru

Lavenza/the twins

Sojiro

Sumire

Ann

Ryuji

Akechi (he really jumped up in the last arc)

Hifumi

Sae

Morgana (he really jumped very late in the game as well)

Yusuke (sorry, Yusuke fans)

Iwai (I feel like I'd like him more if I'd got further in his Confidant)

Chihaya (same as Iwai)

Makoto (a sudden and incredible fall)

Maruki (he's the worst therapist ever, but he's pretty interesting when he's not talking way too much and his final scenes are really good)

Skilled Gamer (gonna be real, I don't remember his name)

Ohya

Takemi

Mishima (would have preferred if he was removed entirely)

Hina never met Kawakami outside of class and never spoke to that politician.

Anyway, as for Hina...

She's maybe my favorite player character in any video game ever. The slight jankiness of her implementation lent her so much charm, and characterizing her was a ton of fun, especially with how close my trans headcanon seemed to the game's reality. Does that affection transfer to Akira/Ren, or other people's genderswapped Jokers? Well, no, not really. I can't say I'm an expert on the way people view Joker as a character, but from a cursory glance, I feel like Hina's distinct enough from the popular interpretation that she's basically an entirely different person slotted into the role of protagonist. Maybe that's conceited of me.

Hina has the most common family name in Japan, and I thought Hina was the most popular given name in Japan in 1999, the year she was probably born. Turns out that wasn't the case, Hina is actually much more popular recently. The actual most popular name for 1999? Miku. So if I'd had accurate data, she may well have been called Miku Satou. Probably not though.

Hina didn't have friends in her hometown, partially because she was really quiet as a kid and partially because everyone started avoiding her after she started coming to school in a girls' uniform.

Hina's parents have been supportive from the beginning. In fact, her name is from them (she requested it). Also, they sent her to Tokyo with a maid outfit in her box of stuff, which is extremely funny. She calls them once a week, early on Sundays. She doesn't tell them about her phantom thief activities.

Hina's legal name is changed, but not her legal gender (people only ever call her Hina, even in situations where they'd have only read her name off legal forms, so her name must legally be Hina).

Hina largely doesn't react when people misgender her because she's used to it.

When Maruki mentioned that Hina might make a good counselor herself someday, the headcanon wheels started turning in my head and I realized that that's really fucking good. Hina wants to go to university to become a youth counselor, because she saw what happens when someone has the worst counselor ever. Not to mention Hina wanting to help kids like her who might not react well to an authority figure telling them how to live is really sweet.

Hina's trying to create a real version of her Phantom Thief outfit she can wear casually. She has red gloves in her winter school outfit! Why else would she have those? She's going to get white glasses frames next.

Hina isn't good at talking to people, but she comes off as confident because she also has a hard time speaking in any particular tone, so she almost always seems to be talking without reservations.

Hina is an only child. (Fairly sure this is an element of most people's imagined Jokers. No way does this person have siblings.)

I don't think most of the harsh things I put in quotes to indicate that Hina said them are things she actually would say. I think she's probably thinking them.

Hina has a gaming PC in her hometown. Her buying that laptop was because she was going stir-crazy from not having access to a desktop computer.

Hina likes Morgana much more than I do. She doesn't think of him as a big brother (lmao), but she does love him like a brother.

In contrast, I think Hina has exactly as much disdain for Mishima as I have.

Hina isn't really invested in Akechi. She thinks he's a terrible weirdo who she wishes would stop talking to her. When she learns about his actual motivations, that switches to thinking of him as kind of pathetic. She wishes he would have talked to her about his issues at all, because she probably could have helped him deal with them like she helps literally everyone else, but she's not so broken up about him not being in her life anymore. (In contrast, I actually quite like Akechi now that I get what they were going for with him.)

Hina is good at schoolwork, but she's lacking in common sense.

Takemi actually never misgendered Hina, and Maruki only did so once. It's pretty funny how the medical professionals are consistently the least transphobic people in the game. I wonder why that is? 🤔

Hina got really good at making coffee and curry in the year she spent at Leblanc.

Hina being shorter than regular Joker is especially funny because her animation speed has to be adjusted, so she walks really fast in cutscenes where she moves places. She has to move that fast to keep up with people.

Hina's relationship with Haru is going to cause an absolutely awful scandal if it ever becomes public. I have no idea how they're going to deal with that, but hopefully they'll figure it out.

Hina doesn't really find any new friends when she moves back home, but she's alright with keeping to herself and focusing on her studies while having friends she can talk to online and a cat who can talk.

Hina might be rejected from a lot of universities for her criminal record or her transness. She might've had her record expunged, but she still spent time in juvie, not to mention the heavily political implications of her actions might risk scandal for any university that she enrolls in. She might end up having to apply to universities abroad, where the Phantom Thieves and the events surrounding them weren't so much in the public consciousness.

Anyway, that's Hina Satou. I might write fic for her someday? But she requires a lot of context to really understand her. I care about her a lot, and people understanding her is important to me for some reason.

And finally: some of my favorite screenshots of Hina.

#persona 5 #post series #p5r #persona 5 royal #p5r spoilers #persona 5 spoilers #joker persona 5 #trans joker persona 5 #hina satou #satou hina #modding #postmortem #trans headcanon #akira kurusu #ren amamiya #persona #rambly #very rambly #extremely rambly

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transcription of george's stream

I wanted to put this somewhere so that people could access it, any spelling mistakes are my own error, i tried my best.

George states that he pre-recorded this due to several screenshots he has that add to his points and due to the fact that he wanted this to be done as perfectly accurate as it happened. He says he’s telling the whole story, so while some things may seem irrelevant, he’s including them to lay out all the facts.

TRANSCRIPT

Okay, so, this is my side of the story of the 2 times that I ever interacted with caiti in real life. So the first time that I met her it  was in Dream’s hotel room at vidcon . To give context about Dream’s hotel room, essentially it was a bigger room than average, it’s not just a bed in a room like a typical hotel room is. Essentially it’s, there was a living room, there was a table, and the bedroom was separated from it. And for this reason we used his hotel room essentially as a place where all of our friends would hang out in. Vidcon is a 4 day long event, so we actually used it quite frequently throughout these four days, and we had creators, friends, in and out of these rooms throughout the whole event.

The first night that I actually met caiti, I was with Dream in his hotel room, and Dream was in a groupchat with 5 other people. These 5 people include: caitibugs, her best friend, and three other of her friends. Now, these five people, they were at an official vidcon afterparty and they wanted to, they wanted Dream to go meet up with them and hang out with them. But Dream didn’t actually want to hang out with them, and the reason is because at the time he was wearing his Dream mask a lot and he felt uncomfortable wearing it, because it’s just, the whole mask on your face, so he just didn’t wanna go to the party particularly. He even suggested that they shouldn't come because he was assuming that they were having more fun where they were.

[Image 1 appears on camera at this point, at the left side of the screen. It’s a screenshot from a text conversation (presumably twitter), though it doesn’t specify who the messages are from. Transcriptor will be referring to the person sending messages to the phone as 1 and the person whose phone it is as 2. It reads:

1- what if ghostie and caitie come back w me too

2 - maybe

idk what my friendos are up to

i’m still at corn dogs with some friends

but leaving shortly

1- wanna play that game from last night

2- it might just be us 4

for a bit at least

1- well make it fun

2- I don’t want to take them away from the party

The last message from 2 is highlighted. End image 1 ID.]

They reassured him that that wasn’t the case, they were bored, and they wanted to come.

[Image 2 appears on the screen. More messages, presumably same people as image 1.

2- are ghost and caiti having fun

1- not rly

[short message censored by a red bar]

would u be ok if we come over?

End image 2 ID.]

So now these 5 people are trying to come to the hotel, but the problem with that is, to get into the hotel you need to have a vidcon creator badge and only 2 of the people in the groupchat actually had this badge, that was Caitie and her best friend.

[Image 3 appears on screen. A vidcon creator badge is shown. End ID.]

[Image 4 appears on screen. Text messages from someone whose name and pic are blocked with a red bar. Their texts read: passed to the hyatt? passes? 2 out of 5. End ID.]

So eventually what happened is Caitie and two of her other friends came to Dream’s hotel room. This was my first time actually meeting them in real life, I didn’t even know who they were before meeting them. And then we essentially just were playing drinking games in the hotel room, we were just having fun, talking with each other, nothing crazy in particular.

Now one thing Caitie said retrospectivly, looking back at the scenario, is that I was flirting with her throughout the night and that she was uncomfortable with this because of our age difference. At the time she was 18 and I was 26. She actually assumed I didn’t know her age because she had never said it but then later I had DM’d her on Instagram and because of this she said that it is confirmed that I know her age. To give context to this scenario and to why I didn’t know her age, my perspective of things is that I am with people that are over the age of 21, in a scenario where we are doing things that people over the age of 21 are doing, like drinking, and also the people that came, came from an event where they have very heavy security.

This was an official vidcon afterparty and with previous vidcon afterparties I’ve even had problems getting into these events. There was one time where they didn’t let me in because they couldn’t confirm the legitimacy of my UK ID, they said they weren’t trained to look at foreign IDs, so they didn’t even let me in despite me being 26 at the time.

And also since caiti’s stream, I’ve gone back and reviewed texts from that time, and there was actually a picture where it was shown that they have this 21+ wristband on one of their wrists.

[Image 5 appears on screen. It is a cropped picture of someone’s arm with a wristband reading “Over 21” . End picture 5 ID.]

So from my perspective, it’s a bunch of 21+ year olds… hanging out. I had no reason to think otherwise. Other than her Instagram bio, but I just didn’t see it. But anyway, nothing actually particularly happened at this first night that we were hanging out, everything was very friendly, we went our separate ways, and that was the end of the first night.

Then the second time that we hung out was the next night after this. So we wake up the next day, we do vidcon stuff, after we’re done that’s the final day of vidcon, so vidcon is now technically over but we have one more night at the hotel before we need to leave next morning. And actually at this point I actually had a friend that I’d only known online meet up with me for the first time. And the whole time I had known him he had lived in a different country, he was actually living in Japan. And I told him I was going to vidcon and he actually just happened to be in California at the same date so the dates aligned and we made plans to meet up.

[Image 6. Screenshots of a text conversation between George and his friend. They will be referred to as G and F. Texts read:

G- I think you’re probably good to come but possibly if we go somewhere you won’t be able to get in and that would be an L lol

I have an extra bed in my room so you can stay extra if you want (winky face emoji)

I’m busy until like 5pm but should be good after that

F- Fuck yea ill be there sat

End image 6 ID.]

Now, he arrived early evening, I think it was around 5-6 pm. We were just hanging out in my room. Dream messaged me “I’m bored”, “can you come to my room, let’s hang out” essentially.

[Image 7. Screenshots of texts between Dream and George. Texts read:

Dream – or we can do something else rn

George – I have my friend with me

Japanese guy from TeamSpeak lol

lmd what we do

Dream – who’re you with now

George – Just my friend

Dream – are you just in your room

George – Yeah

Dream – do you wanna come to mine

1607

End image 7 ID.]

That’s what we did; me and my friend, that I just met- physically, I mean I knew him online- went up to Dream’s room and we were hanging out. And again, the same scenario happens from the night before. They are trying to get him to go out to another party that they were at, and same story, Dream didn’t wanna go but was open to them coming here.

[Image 8. Screenshots of a text conversation. Two people’s names are censored by red and blue bars, but Dream is presumably person being texted. Texts read:

Red  – clay.

i can’t believe you didn’t come.

this is devastating.

Dream – the ops are here

are you still there

Blue -L

come

End image 8 ID.]

And again, that is what happened. This time, the friends were actually all able to get in, I don’t know how they did it. But Caitie, her best friend, and three other of her friends ended up coming to the room which had me, Dream, and my online friend that I’d just met. So eight people total in this room at this point.

This night was very similar to the one before, we were just hanging out, playing games, drinking, and just having a good time. There’s another thing I wanna point out before I continue with the rest of the story, it’s the way that she phrases some things in her story. Instead of saying that her and the rest of her friends had wanted to come to the hotel to come hang out with us, she said that one friend was invited by Dream but she didn’t want to go alone. So then they decided to go along with her because they were willing to go anywhere.

[Image 9. A screenshot of a series of texts between someone censored by a red bar and the person receiving the texts, presumably Dream. The first person will be nicknamed Red for brevity.

Dream -  could you borrow a pass or two

Red – YES

[censored] JUST GOT ONE

LMFAOOO

Dream – try and get one for [censored]

Red – on a mission

(Saluting emoji)

End image 9 ID.

I just think that it’s important to know already that their story is slightly different from the reality of it and I’ll be mentioning this a few more times throughout the rest of the story.

[Image 10. Screenshots between four people; three are censored with light blue, red, and blue respectively, and the last is receiving the messages, presumably Dream. They will be nicknamed L, R and B respectively for brevity.

L – we’ll keep u updated if they removed the barriers

R – clay i need to piss SO BAD so whatever we are doing

we gotta speedrun it

B – that might be easier for us to get them in

HAHAHHA

Dream – yeah it’ll be quick

End image 10 ID.]

[Image 11. Screenshot of a single text censored by read. It reads [censored] and caiti coming back to hyatt. End image 11 ID.]

[Image 12. Screenshot of a text conversation between five people, four censored by different colors and the receiver, Dream. They will be nicknamed red, blue, green and light blue (R, B, G and L) for the sake of brevity. Texts read:

R – 13 min

our guy is speeding (skull emoji)

B – LMAOO

Dream – you guys are going to the parking lot, or where? we need to discretely give [censored light blue] a pass

R – idek

G – lets strat

L – kewl sounds splendid to me

G – good shit ok

R – my GOAT

Last text is cut off slightly. End image 12 ID.]

You can see in these screenshots from their texts at the time that they were all trying to come to the hotel and it wasn’t just “oh, we need to follow her” essentially. They were all in the groupchat, and part of the discussion to go to the hotel.

I also chose to mention my online friend, it doesn’t add to the story but she never chose to mention him or the eight person [at this point the words “she actually didn’t mention the 6th, 7th, or 8th person” appear on screen.] that she brought with. So, I’m just saying it because that’s how it happened, and I want to make sure the story’s straight.

Another thing that she talks about is how I insisted that she drinks more and that we insisted on playing drinking games when this isn’t the case. Again, they’d already been drinking at this party before they arrived to the hotel room, and they’d also been the ones that were asking to play the drinking games. Instead of us insisting that we play it, they were the ones that were asking us. And you can see that in the screenshots here.

[Image 13 ID. Screenshot of a text conversation between someone censored in red, Dream, and caiti. Texts read:

Red – clay what was that app you were using for the most likely to game

Dream – it’s my secret app that you can only access on my phone with me

ya know

Red – WOWWWW

caiti – stfu

i’ll find it

red – okay we’re going to the hotel right now to steal ur phone u fuck

caiti – (screenshot of the app Most Likely To)

End of image 13 ID.]

They actually texted multiple times, specifically wanting to play this drinking game that we’d played the night before.

[Image 14. Screenshot of a single text reading “wanna play that game from last night”. End image 14 ID.]

And at this point I was pretty drunk and so was basically everyone in this room. It was the last night of vidcon, vidcon’s a pretty stressful time, and honestly a lot of people are happy when it’s over. Not that they didn’t like it, but it’s just a stressful event, there’s a lot that you have to do, and when it’s over you’re just happy and you wanna celebrate.

So at this point we then move to the couch, there was a couch in the room, and I sit next to caiti. She also says looking back on the scenario that she confused her nerves for excitement when I sat next to her, but again at this moment in time everything was friendly, nothing sexual’d happened, I’m just literally sitting next to her on a couch. And during this she was laughing, smiling, gave no indication that she was uncomfortable with me sitting this close to her.

She also mentions that she was thinking about my age and that I was a lot older than her, again she was 18 and I was 26 at the time, and again to clarify I actually didn’t know how old she was, despite her claiming that I did just because it was in her bio. And it was clear to everyone there that she was not uncomfortable with me sitting next to her.

And eventually two of the people that came to the hotel room left. Then it was just down to me, Dream, my online friend, caiti, caiti’s best friend, and a 6th mutual friend. Next she says, this is a quote, “resorted to playing games on her phone to avoid the awkward situation”. Now I just don’t see how this is the case. She’s implying that she’s using her phone to essentially escape, y’know, such an awkward scenario that she’s in but that’s just not how it happened. And this is why. She brought up the phone game as a kind of a point. The game was a, honestly the central point of the interaction at this part of the night.

It was a very social thing, y’know, she was moving, passing the phone around, we’re all playing the game, and bantering about it, just having fun with the game. So I don’t see how she resorted to it and was using it in that context. She wasn’t being awkward at all, there was no sense of uncomfortablility from her, she was laughing and playing with everyone. And yeah, I’m not really sure why she phrased it like this.

[Image 15. Three images of George playing the game that they were playing at the party, his score, and a text of the image of him sent to caiti. End image 15 ID.]

We actually continued to send each other high score updates even weeks after the event. To add further context to this moment, we were all actually sitting on this couch in the hotel room playing this game on her phone. And during this, me and caiti were at the far end of the couch, we were cuddling together. We had been cuddling for, I’d say around an hour, at this point. Playing the game, talking, and just having fun. And for clarity I had my hand around her waist above her butt. So with her statement where she’s saying that she was resorting to playing games on her phone I just don’t really understand it and I think that the picture that she’s painting is really dark when in reality she seemed very happy with the situation. Just having a good time.

I also wanna address the fact that she claimed that confirmed that I would know her age, she said that she had answered a question about her age during a drinking game, that we were talking about sex and that she’d admitted to everyone in the room that she was 18 and a virgin at the time. I just don’t remember this happening, I’m not saying this to justpretend like it didn’thappen, I did not hear it happen.  We’re not just all sitting down and not moving, you know, it’s a chaotic environment, I could’ve been getting a drink, I could’ve been talking to someone else, I just did not know that that was said.

Another quote from her stream I wanna address, she said “there was more alcohol in the room and we were encouraged to drink some more as they offered the bottles to us. They said they would join us in drinking and insisted on drinking games.” They had already been drinking before they arrived, they were drunk. And the way this is phrased makes us out to look like we’re kind of preying on them, and like forcing them to drink when they didn’t want to. When that’s not the case and as I mentioned earlier, they were even the ones asking to play the drinking games by the texts, before they even arrived.

But then this is when her most important claim happens, I’m just gonna read the quote, she says “Out of nowhere I felt him slipping his hand into my clothes, sitting next to him on the couch, in front of everyone. He disguised it with a simple ‘are you ticklish’, I coughed out a ‘no’ still staring at my phone. I was overly aware of the fact that we were in front of other people. The fact that everyone else was sitting around us, watching us, including my best friend, that his hand was inching further to places I hadn’t asked it to be.” Again, as I mentioned before, we’d previously been cuddling on this couch, for around an hour. But I did place my hand on her waist under her shirt. The way it was phrased makes it sound like it just happened out of nowhere when in reality we’d been cuddling for over an hour at this point and it was not out of nowhere.

It was also around until I started moving my hand further up and the way it’s phrased makes it seem like it happened pretty instantly and pretty quickly. There was nothing quick about it, it was very slow, and I was very cautious about it and making sure she was comfortable throughout the process. Me and caiti were very touchy, very cuddly, and very slowly got more intimate. I’ve always been overly cautious with consent and this is not just because I’m a creator. I’ve been like this since before I was a creator and I think this is just the way I am, just the way it should be. Nothing came out of nowhere, everything progressed very slowly, throughout the night. And also before I continue I wanna make it clear that the furthest anything ever got was under the shirt touching and cuddling.

Obviously people don’t typically ask if everything is okay, even such as touching someone on the waist under their shirt before they do it. But in this case I was extremely slow and she was engaging with me the entire time, laughing, cuddling with me, and even playfully fighting me through the game that we were playing. The quote that she said, “he disguised it with a simple ‘are you ticklish’, I coughed out a ‘no’”. She’s implying that I, with malicious intent, touched her and ‘she coughed out a no’ would imply that I should be able to tell that she was uncomfortable with it. She says “Later, he made it a game out of my embarrassment, where he would touch me in certain areas to make me lose the game I was playing.” Now, I actually remember this quite vividly, I remember she was playing the game and there were parts where it would be very easy to lose if you were distracted; and she’s right, I did do that. There were points where she was playing the game and there were points where it was easy for her to mess up, and I would tickle her, or like squeeze her and when I did this she would laugh, she would turn around and smile at me, or she would play-fight with me because I’d just made her lose the game.

She also says how, quote, “I didn’t speak or move, I remember being afraid to even breathe. I stayed there for a while hoping my stillness could make me disappear.” Now to reiterate, any time that I did this it was met with her either smiling, laughing, play-fighting with me, and there was no reason for me to believe that she was uncomfortable with it. She was not ‘not moving’, she was not ‘not speaking’. Of course, I don’t believe that silence is consent. I just want to make sure it is abundantly clear. She was visibly and physically responding well to everything that we were doing.

I also want to comment on how she said that she had to stand up after many minutes for it to stop. She did get up, multiple times, throughout the night, for example to go to the bathroom, to get a drink, also when her friends left she got up to say goodbye to them, and she would come back to the same scenario.

I also want to point out that her best friend was here throughout this whole… process, then afterwards he had to leave. And I think it is important to know that she made the choice to stay behind many hours more, and as I mentioned before, she did get up, say goodbye to them, and came back. They were even talking about staying up to 11 am which was the checkout time of the hotel, and because it was the final day we were like “oh I don’t know we wanna go to sleep for a few hours, might as well just stay up.” But that was not what ended up happening, and it’s at this time that caiti says, this is a quote, “I went to leave and the older guy then decided to leave too”. This is phrased in a way that makes me out to look kinda creepy, to be honest. She’s basically saying she left, so I decided to leave too, which is not the case. What actually happened is Dream had decided he was too tired and was going to bed, so the night was over and we all left.

She then goes on to tell a story about the elevator, and how I joked about it being broken to try to get her to go in with me. So caiti actually had her own hotel room on the same floor as Dream, so she actually walked over straight to the elevator when she didn’t have to, and said goodbye to me, which was nice of her. I did joke with her about coming in the elevator by pretending it was broken, I essentially went in to the elevator, the doors closed, and I would press the doors open button to make them open again. I did this a few times, and she didn’t go along with it, which I respect took, and I ended up going down to my room. She didn’t have to take the elevator yet she chose to walk with me to the elevator to say goodnight to me, which I think is interesting given how she’s saying how she was so upset with it.

But I also think these are comments of her looking back on the night and not her actual feelings at the time, and that’s essentially the end of the story, that’s what, she, the last time I’ve seen her in person was after those elevator doors closed.

We messaged for a bit after, through insta dms and snapchat and the way we talked to each other was pretty banterous, for example after the first time that we hung out but before the second she actually texted me and said “you better not be in Dream’s room tonight or I’m gonna shoot your leg”. Obviously she’s not gonna shoot my leg, we’re just messing around with each other. And I actually responded to her and said “guess what well I’m actually here right now”.

[Image 16. A single screenshot, timestamped for 3:31 AM. It reads: me [censored] and caiti coming back to hyatt. End image 16 ID.]

[Image 17. A screenshot of texts between caiti and George, timestamped for JUN 25 at 3:36 AM. Texts read:

caiti – if u come to dreams hotel again tonight i’m shooting ur leg

so don’t

George – Oh awkward

I’m in his room now

You’re not gunna do shit

The last message has been reacted to with a thumbs down. End image 17 ID.]

 And yeah, after this we texted for a bit, sometimes daily, sometimes we would take a few days break, even a few weeks at some point. And at some point after vidcon we were actually both in London at the same time, and she let me know this through her DMs.

[Image 18. A screenshot of messages between caiti and George. Texts read:

George – (image of caiti’s contact. Underneath are the words “Business chat”. A Book now button appears.)

Stfu business

I can literally book you (skull emoji)

Caiti – WHAT

yeah i’m gonna need $10 bucks for this convo

please and thanks

George – I wouldn’t even pay $0.01 for this stupid conversation

You are a BAD business

caiti – yet your still here talking to my ass

dickhead

End image 18 ID.]

Now I will say she didn’t come out outright and say “I’m in London” but she did say that she’d gone to a place that was known to be a London thing, and I commented on that and asked her what she was doing in London.

[Image 19 ID. A screenshot of texts between caiti and George. Texts read:

George – You can’t say dickhead

That’s only for English people to say

Caiti – i just drank at spoons last night

I’d say i’m British enough

George – Oh shit maybe your are British wtf

Well I drank at Simmons bar last night and you probably don’t even know what that is so you’re less British than me

What are you doing in England

Caiti -  rue said simmons bar was gay so.. awkward

and i’m living life!! The British way

parting cubbing.. etc

George -  Using gay as insult

Typical from stupid business like u (rolling eyes emoji)

End image 19 ID.]

Just to clarify we did not meet up while in London nor make plans to do so. It was always extremely friendly to me, I was friendly to her, and honestly I was shocked to hear her say the things that she did say during her stream.

When I first opened up her stream it was after she’d already streamed it but not long after, so people hadn’t yet made the connection that it was connected to me, and when watching it I was like, I was actually interested in it, I was like okay, what’s this gonna be about? And then when she started saying more and more details I realized wait, this is about me. I was very, very confused, very shocked, and didn’t quite know what to think given I had no impression of any wrongdoing throughout this whole relationship that I had with her. Not at all, it was, if anything it was the opposite. I thought we had a pretty good relationship.

Despite the fact that we actually hadn’t talked in a while, I thought if I’d seen her in real life again, everything would be fine and we would be friends. It was actually around this point after vidcoin was finished that we were messaging and I found out her age. And since than I never pursued anything going forward, and essentially stopped messaging her. Our last message was august 1st, 2023 and I haven’t replied to her since then.

[Image 20. Screenshot of texts between caiti and George. Texts read:

George – (Image that reads “Your inquiry is pending”, scheduled for 2028)

Ok I scheduled an appointment for my next available time slot

See you then (thumbs up emoji)

caiti (sent at august 1st) – (two fuck you emojis). (Edited are the words “sarcasm” with an arrow pointed to the emojis.)

End image 20 ID.]

After I watched her stream I was pretty confused, I didn’t understand how her account of the story had been so different from what actually happened. A lot of the facts of what she said just didn’t happen at all, or were phrased in ways that just made me look as bad as possible. Saying things like “I insisted on her playing drinking games”, or that “she was frozen in place”, or that she was scared. She was having fun, she was enjoying herself, she was saying this with her body language, with the way that she smiled, with the way that she laughed, and just her overall general demeanor.

One thing that I think is very important to differentiate in here is that I do believe that she regrets being affectionate with me, and that really does make me feel terrible, I never want to make anyone feel uncomfortable or regret their interactions with me, or anything along those lines. Regardless of if it’s sexual or not, I am truly, really sorry if I’ve contributed towards that.  But it’s important to differentiate that she was uncomfortable with this after the fact and not during. She says, quote, “at the time, I convinced myself that I was lucky. I was lucky that it had happened to me. I was exited to be around such big creators, to be at that convention in general”. I actually had a similar scenario to this, where I was in a sexual, I had a sexual experience with someone where in the moment, I was perfectly happy with it happening but afterwards I regretted it. And I’m not saying this to get any form of sympathy, I’m not looking for that, that is not the case at all, I’m just simply saying this because I can see this similarities in the situation.

Now, I’m not mad at the person I was in this situation with at all, I have no negative thoughts on them, I simply did not like how it ended up and if I could go back and not do it, I wouldn’t have. I wanted to do it in the moment but then changed my mind later. Which is completely valid, you’re completely allowed to feel that way. But what isn’t okay and I feel is completely unfair is to act as if I am the bad person in this scenario because you changed your mind later.

I also want to separate this from abuse and certain scenarios that other people have dealt with recently or just in general. I think it’s completely fine to come to terms with your abuse over time and realize that it was bad for you and a terrible situation to be in and then look badly back on that person. That is completely valid but this is completely different. Again, this all happened within a four hour period, three-four hour period and I was not given any signs of discomfort, unhappiness or anything along those lines. And again, it was the opposite of that. She was happy, she was smiling, she was laughing, and as far as I know everyone else in the room would’ve thought the same at the time.

So now what I’m thinking is why would she come out and say it like this, why is she saying this. Now I don’t think that she’s purposefully being malicious, or trying to hurt me, or ruin my career or anything like that. What I do think is that she is surrounded by a friend group that completely despises me and my friend group. And this is quite a specific scenario that probably doesn’t happen that much, especially in public, so it’s kind of weird, it’s kind of hard to talk about it. But I think after vidcon she, obviously told some of her friends about what happened, whether or not that was in a negative connotation I do not know, I wasn’t part of these conversations of course, but she fully told them about this scenario. And when these people who are around you all completely despise me and my friends, they’re obviously going to look on this poorly.

To add context in all of this she actually mentions in her stream, I’ll just quote it, “I remember a friend seeing me in the lobby on the way and they were worried about the way I was acting and asked if I was okay. I was really drunk and it was really feeling like they could sense something was wrong.” Now, this person is in caiti’s friend group, and they were concerned that a group of 5 people were going up to Dream’s room to join up 3 additional people. Which is an interesting concern to have, I actually heard from another source that overheard this conversation and thought it was quite strange that she was worried this. I think it feels very likely that after 8 months of you being around friends that hate me and my friends and are constantly talking badly about us publicly as well and privately, don’t know what they say privately but can’t be any better than what they say publicly, obviously that is going to affect the way that you look at that experience. And it’s going to make you look at it a bit differently, you’re going to second guess it, you’re going to be thinking about it, and clearly it changed the way that she thought about it. And I think it’s completely unfair to judge me and my actions based on how you feel about it now, 8 months later, vs how you feel about it at the time. Because at the time, you were not uncomfortable with it, and I know I’m repeating myself a million times but I have to, you were smiling, happy, laughing, playing along with it, everythting.  

And that’s all I really have to say on the matter. Still keep supporting victims.

#georgenotfound #this is to provide info if you come to me for opinions or say shit i dislike in tags you're getting banned #transcription

[moonmanatee]

Twenty Questions for Fic Writers

sweet @saintgarbanzo tagged me even though he knows I’ve got but the one lil fic! then it got lost in my drafts. this might be a bit silly but cool to see where I’m starting, maybe. thank you, chickpea! you can find his lovely answers here 🥰

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

just one: Sun Shower!

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

5950

3. What fandoms do you write for?

so far just HP, but I’ve got some drafts of other stuff (some SOC, AML, etc) that I may or may not keep working on. I did just cannibalize my favorite line from a wesper wip for a drarry one sooo we shall see

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

haha! sun shower

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I do - commenting is probably my most favorite part of being a fic reader, so the comments section is important to me. there’s so much to love out there, and the comments are my favorite place to express it

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

none! don’t think I’m angst guy, really. I have some wips with pining, with complicated family feelings, with hurt, but it doesn’t quite feel like angst. and certainly won’t end that way!

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

well, surprise: sun shower has a pretty sweet ending. it feels like a beginning more than an ending, though.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I haven’t! does it count if my partner is like ‘noooo, abandoning me for the laptop again’

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

hmm, I think my smut is overwhelming and reverent and enthusiastic and honest and probably a little excessive. and WANT. and kinky. once I share some you’ll have to let me know if this is accurate

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

my mind is always thinking in connections, but that usually comes out in AU form (drarry: grace & frankie! parent trap!! the beckhams!! wesper princess diaries 2 AU!!!), rather than like everyone showing up in the same scene. so no, i guess.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

nope!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

nope!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

not yet, but I think I would really love this. I feel so much love about other people’s writing and so excited to share in ideas, so I feel like this format would be such a delight for me.

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

I don’t think I have one all-time, because once I love something I love it forever. so I just keep collecting more all-time favorites. but drarry I feel the most immense about and committed to, which is saying something because there’s very little I love that I don’t love immensely. and to be honest, my commitment to drarry is certainly because I love them as characters, but it is also about the community being so wonderful. so thank you, y’all, it’s really special here.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but probably never will?

so I had this completely bonkers idea that I call “avada banana tag” which is when someone dies everyone they avada-ed comes back to life, like banana tag. i.e. when Molly kills Bellatrix, we get Sirius back, etc (yes I know that only happens in the movie but bear with me for goofy concept reasons). like, the spell only holds as long as they do? makes it a pretty short-sighted way of killing someone. but that’s as far as the idea goes because it’s so absurd and messy, and I don’t think canon rewrites are something I’d know how to do justice. but I think it’s so funny and fascinating, so if anyone wants to run with it please feel free

16. What are your biggest writing strengths?

100% it’s coming up with ideas. you should see my idea dump document, it’s abundant in there. and maybe description, I hope, and sensory experiences

17. What are your biggest writing weaknesses?

I won’t call it a weakness but I have less experience with plotty things, and get really stuck in dialogue that feels off.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language?

I’m not fluent enough in anything else that I think I could do this myself, but as a reader I really love it, both when I do and don’t understand what’s going on. and I like communicating that they’re speaking in another language without just translating. I think I’d love to incorporate my other languages (spanish and ASL) into fic, and I also love when Draco speaks french. when it’s well done I think it’s so impactful!

19. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

I think it was actually someone else’s OCs, what feels like forever ago

20. What is your favorite fic you’ve written?

the one that’s still in my brain that I think about most days… it’s so very beautiful. I hope one day it makes it out of there!

though I love sun shower too. my first real guy, feels like a big deal, I’m proud of myself for doing it and actually sharing it!

I will tag @elskanellis, @getawayfox, @saintlupin, @rockingrobin69 if you want and haven’t already!!

#tag games #so many ideas so little time

[feeisamarshmallow]

✨ 2023 Writing Year In Review ✨

Dug up this format from last year because I love doing this every year.

1. Number of stories posted to AO3: 7 new fics, 1 updated fic, 1 playlist, and 1 updated collection of meta.

2. Word count posted for the year: 50,705, but that’s including the word count for my entire meta collection, which was actually written over almost 10 years. So more accurately it’s around 30,000.  

3. Fandoms I wrote for: Brooklyn Nine Nine, Veronica Mars, and It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia

4. Pairings: Most of the stuff I wrote is very genfic, but my b99 fic everything’s changed explore Jake Peralta’s relationships with the whole squad and focuses particularly on his relationship with his daughter, my OC Willa Peralta. I also wrote fics focusing on Charlie Kelly & Mac McDonald, Charlie Kelly & Dennis Reynolds, and a little bit of Charlie Kelly & Dee Reynolds. Oh and I wrote some Mac McDonald/Dennis Reynolds in my boyband episode fic!

5. Story with the most:

Kudos: into your lungs (the things you don’t trust) (B99) – 73 Kudos

Bookmarks: everything’s changed (but I feel the same inside) (B99) – 20 bookmarks

Comments: everything’s changed (but I feel the same inside) (B99) – 11 comment threads

6. Work I’m most proud of (and why):

I’m most proud of everything’s changed (but I feel the same inside). It’s the longest fic I wrote this year, but it’s also by far the broadest in scope. I’m proud of the way I handled the growth of Jake throughout the years. The structure of telling a story through vignettes over a long period of time is one I’ve used lots when writing b99 fic, and I feel like this fic is really the culmination of me honing this style. Although I may go back and write more b99 fic, this fic also feels like a farewell in many ways. It deals with Jake (and tangentially all the characters) moving on from the 99, and I’m really proud of the story I constructed for them all.

7. Work I’m least proud of (and why):

Out of My Depth (at a Public Beach). I like this fic, but I don’t love it. I feel like I didn’t totally get at what I wanted to about Dennis’ character. I like, but don’t love, the ‘waves’ metaphor. I wish I had more of a through-line of plot woven throughout the character study. But I still stand by all the character analysis in this piece, and it does have my favourite title from this year.

8. Share or describe a favorite review you received:

I got a lot of really lovely reviews on everything’s changed. I especially cherished the ones who told me they related to my fic in some way. A few people told me they saw their own experiences of having ADHD in my portrayal of Jake’s experiences. Those are about the most gratifying comments you can get. (I also always have to shout-out @impossiblyizzy, who always leaves really lovely comments).

I also got a comment from @musiclover2732 on Not Worth It, after he had listened to a song I said reminded me of the fic (Song in E by Julien Baker, particularly the line I wish you’d hurt me / it’s the mercy I can’t take). I was just so touched that not only did he go listen to the song I recommended, but also then read my fic AND commented about all of it. The best <3

9. A time when writing was really, really hard:

I’m so much busier nowadays! It’s much harder to find time to write in general. It just means that fics come a bit slower than they used to. And I’m not sure when I’ll write my next longfic. I do want to tackle something longer, but maybe not next year either.

10. A scene or character you wrote that surprised you: 

I didn’t know I was going to get into Always Sunny this year, so writing my four IASIP fics was a surprise! Although I did know that I was gonna write angsty fanfic once I started watching the show. It just has all the things I love (sitcom that is funny on the surface but super angsty if you take it seriously). And then my first Always Sunny fic has some CharDee subtext to it, which was even more surprising because that’s not one of the ships I tend to be drawn to (although I am super multi-ship about this show).

11. A favorite excerpt of your writing:

From everything’s changed (but I feel the same inside). Spoiler warning this is the end scene:

"I've read your books, you know. I'll be excited to be able to own them in hard copy." It takes him a minute to properly process her words. Janine isn't here to see Willa. She's here for him. "You….I…I don't know what to say." "You don't have to say anything." "You're the reason…when you were so kind to Willa in second grade and then so kind to me when I came in for the parent teacher conference…you stopped me to talk after…I had quit the NYPD and I didn't know what I was doing and I…that was kinda the beginning of my writing…and I do have ADHD. And a MFA. Lots of letters now! But what I'm trying to say—" "Jake, you don't have to explain it all to me." She cuts off his rambling. "Let's just go in. Willa said there would be cake." Usually, it would drive Jake crazy not to be able to explain himself to someone. But Janine Baker seems to have a knack for just understanding. So instead he just holds the door open and follows her down the hall of the centre towards the multipurpose room. The community centre floor has been painted to look like a garden pathway, so that as they walk down the hall, they follow a painted cobblestone path with colourful flowers sprouting along the edges. It all reminds Jake of something that he thought years ago, back when the kids were young, before he was a writer, when he was first researching about ADHD. He had thought that maybe there was another path. At the time, it was a hypothetical thought, an imagining of a future that could have been, but wasn't. It wasn't hypothetical anymore. There were no maybes. There was a new path. And it had led him to publishing a novel, to finishing his college degree, to getting an ADHD diagnosis. It had led him to spinning legendary stories for Mac and Willa that they still reminisced about today, as adults. It had led him to discovering a love of the library. It had led him to learning more about himself. And this path was only one of many. If Jake Peralta, ex-cop and college dropout, could become Jake Peralta, MFA and published author, what other iterations of himself did he contain, all wrapped up in one another, waiting to be discovered?

From I’m Just Like You (A Little Messed Up and Blue). TW: brief mentions of childhood sexual assault:

“Well maybe…” Mac starts and then trails off. Maybe you’re all messed up because you were molested as a child seems too mean to say. “Maybe it’s because of like my childhood or whatever?” “Yeah,” Mac says softly. “Maybe,” Charlie says. He’s sounded near tears this whole conversation, but now they start flowing down his cheeks. Every one of Mac’s instincts is telling him to find something to get Charlie to stop crying. Charlie crying is one step away from Charlie flying out of control. Charlie crying means it’s easier for the schoolyard bullies to shove him into a locker or steal his prized new comic book or kick him in the stomach. He wishes he could reach out and hug Charlie. Tell him it’s okay and he’ll find the perfect girl one day. But those are words and gestures for normal people, not for the two of them. Not for two forty-year old men with a failing bar and not a single successful relationship between the two of them. Instead he says, “Maybe it’s just the way you are.” He hopes it sounds comforting, and not like he thinks there’s something wrong with Charlie. Because, honestly, there are a lot of things wrong with Charlie. And not just the molestation. Or the alcoholism. Charlie’s…not like most people. Charlie sniffs and wipes his face. “Yeah,” he says. But he sounds a bit calmer. Mac feels the tension in his chest lessen a bit too. “There’s nothing wrong with being who you are, you know,” he says again. The words feel wooden in his mouth. Like he doesn’t really believe them, and maybe he doesn’t. Like maybe, even though God’s love is unconditional and He doesn’t make mistakes, He made a mistake when He made Mac gay. “I’m glad you’re gay now,” Charlie says all of a sudden, completely sincerely. It catches Mac off-guard. Charlie is so oblivious most of the time, but right now it’s like he’s seeing right through Mac’s bulging muscles and black cut-off tee and right into his soul.

12. How did you grow as a writer this year: 

Last year I felt like I grew a lot. This year I feel like my growth was less noticeable, but still there. I think I continued to work on how to tackle themes in a fic with subtlety. How to write around an idea. How to take a theme and just leave it there for the reader to find instead of leading them right to it. I’m still working on it. I can be a bit on-the-nose as a writer (and part of that is just my style!), but I’m going to continue on working to refine my writing.

13. How do you hope to grow next year:

I still want to work on editing more. I still haven’t really done that. I hope I can tackle something a bit longer for Always Sunny next year. Otherwise, I want to just keep writing and reading and letting the experience of doing it help me grow as it always does.

14. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc): 

@impossiblyizzy as always, my sometimes-beta and always-friend <3

Also everyone I’ve met through Always Sunny in the latter half of this year who have commented on my fics or interacted with me here on tumblr, you all know who you are <3

15. Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year:

Always. I can’t not write myself into my fics. I wrote about asexuality for the first time (shocking it’s taken this long) in Hey I’m Just Like You, because I have such a strong conviction in my ace!Charlie headcanon. There’s a lot of me in that fic.

Also, and this might be a little too revealing, but there’s a fair bit of me in the two Dennis fics I wrote. (Always a humbling experience to see yourself in Dennis Reynolds).

Finally, I think I was so drawn to writing everything’s changed because the themes of growing up and moving on and finding new routines and hobbies and interests. I think I was (and am) in a place of moving onto the next ‘stage’ of life, so-to-speak, and so even though I am much younger than Jake in that fic, the themes resonated a lot. (I’ve also spent a fair bit of this year reflecting on how my own brain works and how that impacts me, and that’s also a big theme in this fic with Jake figuring out he has ADHD and reflecting on his experiences).

16. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers:

Above all, writing should be fun! This is a hobby for us, and it should bring you joy! Write the same tropes over and over (just look at how many hurt/comfort elements are in the fics I wrote this year). Write short fics. Write obscure fics. Write non-shippy fics. Write whatever you want. The audience will find it, and even if they don’t, you’ll enjoy the process of creating it.

Also, don’t get sucked into any fandom drama. (And yes commenting as an outsider on said fandom drama is part of getting sucked in). It’s never worth it in my books.

17. Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year:

I’ve been tossing around the idea of an Always Sunny fic I’ve been called The Gang Gets Better, which would be a look at what it would take for each of the characters to grow, learn, and/or heal. I think I would maybe do a different (hypothetical?) scenario for each character. But it’ll be a lot of work, I think, to do it justice. So we’ll see if I get to it. I may have to take many liberties with how social services and systems work in Pennsylvania if I don’t want to end up down a months-long research rabbit hole.

I’d also love to get around to writing another chapter of Under a Blood Red Sky this coming year.

And I still have a 1D hockey AU kicking around (and now plotted!), so maybe that will see some light this year?

Or who knows? I always tend to surprise myself with what I end up writing!

18. Tag some writers whose answers you’d like to read.

Tagging anyone who would like to do this!

(@quelsentiment you tagged me in this last year, do you wanna do it again this year?)

#writing year in review #my writing

[sharkrightsactivist]

Hello again! It’s been a while. Thought this time I would share some ways to greet someone in Russian!

Today, I will be trying to use a formality scale to help you understand when each phrase would be appropriate to use. (1-5 with 1 being least formal, and maybe even rude, and 5 being most formal). I will also give a loose equivalent of each one, though they are not completely 1 to 1 accurate.

! This post requires knowledge of the Cyrillic alphabet !

Здорóво (1) – Hey/Howdy – also meaning “healthy”, it’s a very casual way to greet someone, probably the most casual one. Generally, only used between friends/people you know well, even using to strangers of the same age would be a bit too familiar.

Привет (2) – Hi – You would usually use this with a friend or someone of the same age. Probably the most common way to say hello in Russian people are taught.

Приветик/Приветики (1.5) – Hi – an even more casual way to say hi, two diminutive forms of привет.

Приветствую (lit. I greet you) (3 but can be 1-2) – Greetings – pretty self-explanatory. This is one of the less common used ones in my experience, at least in a formal way.

Здравствуй (3) – Hello/Greetings – A slightly formal way to say hello to someone who is your age but you don’t know well, a coworker for example.

Здравствуйте (4) – Hello (everyone)/Greetings – Most common formal way to say hello, can be used with anyone who’s older than you or to greet a group.

Здрасте/Драсьте (1-4) – Heya/Hello – this one is interesting because it is formed from здравствуйте, but shortened by getting rid of some sounds that, in quick speech, wouldn’t be heard well anyway, which makes it sound less formal, despite still having the ‘respectful’ -те verb* ending. Because of the speech thing I mentioned earlier, it’s often (intentionally or not) used in place of здравствуйте, but can also be used in a joking manner between friends.

*Interesting fact: Здравствуй/те would loosely translate to “(may you) be well” from the old word for health/wellbeing (now здоровье) – здравие.

Доброе утро, Добрый день, Добрый вечер (1-5) – Good morning, Good afternoon, Good evening – Pretty self-explanatory. Can be used in just about any situation with anyone!

Bonus:

Алло/Алё – A phone-specific way to say hello. The two are pronounced almost the same, but the second it slightly more casual. The first can be used with anyone as long as it’s over the phone.

Здравия желаю (lit. I wish you health) – (5) – a greeting only used between members of the military/police force, and (usually) only to their superiors.

 These are all I can remember so far. If you have any additions, please leave them in the comments or send them to my ask box!

До новых встреч!

#NEW POST NEW POST ALERT #Russian language #russian vocab #russian langblr #Russian vocabulary #russian expressions #uhhhhh #langblr #language learning #cyrillic #sorry no transcription todayy #my post

[bittersweet-riley]

Angel (Chapter 5)

Pairings: Simon "Ghost" Riley x F!OC!Reader

Summary: When simon's mission went terrible wrong, she was there to save him. So far only her call sign was angel, but maybe she was his angel nonetheless.

"I'm assuming you're good at shooting." Ghost's muscles were tense as he looked at her. His gaze burned her skin. He hesitated for a moment before pulling his gun out of the holster and counting the remaining bullets. "I don't shoot at innocent people."

Warnings: Mention of blood, mention of torture, manipulation, brainwash, weapons, kidnapping, swearing, smut (kind of) in later chapters, mention of medical stuff that may not be true or accurate, description of a reader that may not be like you imagined reader, still use of Y/N, clearly female reader, perhaps bad english, third person view (switching from reader to Simon), multiple chapters

Opening

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 6

They sat together in silence all night. None of them closed their eyes, no matter how tired they were.

Ghost hadn't put his sunglasses on again. Instead, the glasses were in one of the empty pockets of his vest, which was strapped back around his body.

Angel would have loved to stare at his well-built upper body all night long. As soon as she let her mind wander, his body constantly appeared in front of her inner eye. And even though she didn't know his face, he was the most attractive man she had seen in three years.

At some point she brought the suitcase that she had gotten from Flora to Ghost. "Here. In case things get heated." There were weapons in the suitcase. They were all silver and each had a second magazine. Instead of giving Angel one of the weapons, Ghost kept them all himself.

They didn't spoke a word after that. They were too focused on the sounds around them. The fire in the fireplace was now out because the room was warm enough.

Angel wondered how the big soldier had lasted so long in his uniform and the masses of muscle. She wanted to take off her clothes to cool down. On the other hand, she didn't wanted to sit somewhere els to be further away from Ghost.

It would have been a lie if she said she didn't felt safer next to him.

As the first light shone through the windows, Zakir's footsteps could be clearly heard from above. He walked back and forth between rooms several times. Then it was quiet again for a while.

Zakir's noises were like the opening of a conversation, as Ghost studied Angel's face before muttering the first words. "What's the plan?"

She didn't knew herself, which is why she swallowed hard. “We have to wait until it’s safe.”

Now he turned completely to her. Her small form was ridiculous next to his large body. "And then what?" His voice was deep and rough because he hadn't spoken all night.

Angel found it hard to hold his cold gaze. She wished he still had his glasses on. "Like I said, I'll get Max and you go to my grave."

"What am I supposed to explain to my general when I get back? That my wounds magically stitched themselves up? Or that a woman made of skin and bones-" he looked at her puny figure. "-knocked me out before I could take her back to base as a witness?" Angel could hear how annoyed he was.

"How about the true story, up to the point where Nika dies. You killed him and took me hostage. So the story I'll tell Ivanov and the one that his informant might tell Ivanov will match. And then I escaped and you returned to base. Ghost, please don't put our lives in any more danger than they already are."

"It would be better if you came with me." He said as if he really wanted to have the last word in the discussion. But Angel couldn't help him any further. His rescue was already a flaw in her original plan. He now had the choice to be part of her plan or to betray her like someone had done before.

Footsteps on the stairs finally made Angel stand up. Zakir went into the kitchen and turned on the coffee machine. "You look like shit, Angel."

"Good morning to you too, Doc." She replied with a playful eye roll.

Zakir placed three cups on the dining table. “Does your friend drink coffee too?”

Angel looked questioningly at Ghost, who had gotten up as well and was standing in a corner again as if Zakir was going to attack him with a baseball bat at any second. "Looks like he needs something stronger. Do you have vodka?"

Zakir grinned. "Unfortunately not." He poured the fresh coffee into the cups. Angel then took two of the cups and brought one to Ghost, who didn't rebel as she handed him the warm liquid with a slight smile. Then she sat on the kitchen table. She warmed her hands on the cup.

"My son is coming over today. He's bringing gas for the car. I hope it's okay that he knows about you." Zakir then confessed into the silent room.

Angel sat on the kitchen table and blew her hot drink. "You shouldn't drag him into this." She was now indebted to a lot of people. But she had promised herself that she would eventually pay everyone back for the help she got.

And as if on cue, there was a knock on the door. "That'll probably be him." Zakir said, but it gave Angel a strange feeling. She put her cup down where she had been sitting before and looked at Ghost, who was already holding his gun in his hand, the cup sat ontop of the mantelshelf of the fireplace. His posture was as tense as her own. She was relieved when Ghost left his corner and stood next to her.

Zakir opened the door. "Sem. Nice to see you." The father hugged his son and then let him into the house. "Angel, Ghost, this is Semyon, my son."

The blonde-haired man smiled and raised his hand in greeting. "So you're the infamous Angel. The old man told me a few things. Only for my safety, of course." Sem explained, giving Angel a too-wide smile as he held out his hand to her.

A strange humming noise escaped Angel's throat. Ghost still held his gun. He had straightened up further as he took a step forward, causing Sem to look at Ghost and withdraw his hand.

It wasn't that Angel didn't trust Zakir, but the last time someone talked about her behind her back, Y/N had died and Angel had to rise from the ashes.

"Cool mask, bro." Semyon clicked his tongue and then showed his white teeth in a wide grin. "I wore something similar to play paintball back then. It is attached to my rearview mirror of my car as a souvenir." Ghost didn't react to the young man, aside from tightening his grip on the gun.

"Stop joking, Sem. Better take care of Angel's car." Zakir rolled his eyes but there was a hint of a smile on his lips.

His son breathed a small "Fine." before he then took the key from Zakir and went out the front door again.

"Sorry for his behavior. He's trying to lighten the mood a bit, but his humor is weird." Zakir tried to explain, but his sense of humor wasn't really what worried Angel.

"How much does he know?" Angel asked with a cold look in her eyes.

Shrugging his shoulders, Zakir put his cup to his lips and took a sip. "Having secrets is sometimes more dangerous than simply telling the truth. In order for Sem to be protected from Ivanov, he first had to know about him. And in order to even explain how I was able to escape from Ivanov, I had to tell him about you. I'm sorry, Angel, but everyone protects their family in a different way."

The red haired woman nodded dully. "It's okay, it was just..." she searched for the right words. "-unexpectedly."

After the incident, Angel didn't felt like drinking coffee anymore and Ghost didn't seemed to let his gun out of his hands either, even though Sem hadn't been there for a while and they were sitting at the table with Zakir.

"Sem has got a special radio. He can block certain channels and only send out signals where it is supposed to reach. We should be able to reach the base more quickly without waiting until Ivanov has given up hope of finding you. If they come to pick up Ghost, there's an abandoned parking garage an hour away from here. A helicopter could land there without attracting immediate attention." Zakir pointed to a map he had spread out on the table. Since Ghost and Angel were both sitting on the same side of the table, Zakir turned the map towards them after circling an area in red.

Angel looked at Ghost who briefly studied the map and then returned his attention to the entire room. "That should work. How long does your unit take to get here after you contacted them?" She then asked him.

Ghost's dark brown eyes settled on Angel. "A few hours, if there are no complications due to air strikes."

Angel shook her head. "Ivanov won't expect us to leave the country. He's probably still waiting for a deal for my trade." The soldier didn't seemed happy with the answer.

"Are you going with him?" Zakir asked. Worry lines lingered on his forehead as he studied Angel.

She nervously rubbed her tattoo until the skin turned red. "You know I have to go back."

Zakir's shoulders droped in disappointment. "I know, I was hoping you'd change your mind." He took a deep breath.

Angel's heart sank into her stomach at the thought of returning back to Ivanov. "It has to be believable if I go back. I need something to prove that I was a hostage."

Zakir sighed heavily and rubbed his forehead. "What do you mean? You don't have enough blood on you to pass as a hostage yet?"

Silently, Angel bit the inside of her cheek. She felt Ghost's piercing gaze on her skin. "There has to be more." She replied quietly.

The doctor pushed back in his chair. "Angel-" he replied sternly. It was almost a warning. However, there were no further words from him and he just shook his head.

"It makes sense. His gunshot wound could have been from me. If I tell Ivanov that I tought I killed him and the informant tells that Ghost survived his injury, our stories match and are realistic at the same time." Angel explained. "I just need something to prove that I really was a hostage."

Angel watched as Zakir opposed the plan with every cell in his body. He looked at Ghost. “Could this work out?”

The soldier thought quietly for a while. "It's our best chance." The tall man murmured back, causing Zakir to rub his hands over his face and then sigh in surrender.

"All right. Fine." He replied through gritted teeth. "You're killing me, kid."

Angel gave him a sad smile at the nickname. She reached for his hand across the table and squeezed it lightly. "I know."

Angel quickly withdrew her hand as the front door opened and Sem rushed in with a large radio. "Surprise!" He placed the radio on the kitchen counter and pulled the toaster out of the socket to plug in the device.

Zakir and Sem fiddled with the radio for a while. Ghost was still sitting at the table with Angel. They were silent most of the time and the young woman thought for a while about what she could do to demonstrate a more plausible hostage. She relied on a clean bullet wound. It was the only wound that resulted from one of Ghost's weapons. But a second idea popped into her head.

"Why?" He asked. His voice was as cold as his eyes.

"I need something personal from you to prove that you really were my captor." She said quietly. At first she thought her voice would be lost in the static of the radio, but he looked at her with a hard look.

Angel broke eye contact as quickly as it was made. "I just think that it would be proof that we didn't work together. If I had something of yours that you would never have given away voluntarily, your team won't notice that you're lying. We could also find out how close the spy is to you at the same time." She pushed her explanation out from unter her breath and rubbed her tattoo again as if it would make it disappear.

Their brief conversation died out, only the noise and arguing of the Korovin men echoed through the room as they tried to get the device to work.

She knew that Ghost hadn't taken his eyes off her yet. She nervously sucked the soft flesh of her lower lip between her teeth.

"My mask." He said at some point and Angel looked up in surprise. There was a popping sound as her lip slipped out of her mouth.

"Huh?" A sound of confusion escaped her throat before she could stop it. Her big eyes examined his balaclava. The white paint in the shape of a skull was peeling off in some places.

"I'll give you my mask. They wouldn't expect it." His deep voice vibrated in Angel's ears. She assumed he wouldn't give up his identity easily, which was confirmed when he made no move to remove his mask.

“Sem, you were talking about the mask in your car earlier, right?” Angel asked as her eyes slowly left Ghost's and swung to the man being addressed.

He turned his attention to Angel and nodded. "Yes, my paintball mask."

The young woman had to force a friendly smile onto her lips. "Can I see it?"

Sem fished his car keys out of his pocket. "Sure, wait a minute." It didn't took long before Sem was back with his mask.

Angel took it. Conceptually, it was almost like Ghost's mask. The main material was a black balaclava, but instead of a skull print like Ghost had, there was a plastic skull sewn onto the material. She ran her finger over the cold, soft plastic. With her touch, the plastic adjusted to her body temperature almost immediately. She looked at Sem with a half-smile. “Can I keep it?”

"Go ahead." Sem replied politely. "I don't need them anymore anyway." There was a slightly annoyed expression on his face as Angel passed the mask to Ghost.

The soldier changed his mask in the bathroom and when he came out of the bathroom, Angel's breath caught in her throat. "Oh..." She breathed. "Looks like the mask was made for you."

"It looked ridiculous on Sem. Seems like the mask was always meant for a higher purpose." Zakir laughed as Sem rolled his eyes with an annoyed snort.

"The radio works now." Sem pointed at the device and then crossed his arms over his chest as he leaned against the fridge.

Ghost contacted his base in England and requested a rescue team. He announced that his entire team was dead and he was the only survivor who hadn't made it back to the agreed pickup point in time. Since they wanted to send a helicopter from Germany rather than a plane, Ghost was able to provide the coordinates for the abandoned parking garage.

After a quick farewell to Flora and Sem, Ghost and Angel stood at the refueled car. Zakir's face was lined with worry, as he passed the map to Angel.

"Where do you think it should be?" Angel asked the doctor, who then shook his head again.

"Don't get a plug shot, then you'll die on the way back. The shoulder would be okay, but the chance of permanent nerve damage is high. You shouldn't hit the subclavian artery either, otherwise you'll bleed to death." Zakir sounded like he was trying to talk Angel out of the idea, but she knew that Ivanov would do much worse to her if he found out what really happened. "Just be careful. Angel isn't immortal either."

Instead of saying more, the girl pulled him into a goodbye hug before getting into the car and leaving the property with Ghost.

The journey only took an hour, just like Zakir had said. Angel left the car at the entrance to the parking garage. The street was just as dilapidated as the old parking garage. There used to be a shopping center next to the parking garage, but it was torn down and since then there has only been an empty fenced-in area next to the parking garage. There was a poster hanging on a piece of the fence with the plans for a new shopping center, but there were no construction vehicles in the empty space, and it didn't looked like the poster would ever become reality.

"Here we are." Angel muttered as she looked up at the parking garage. It only had three floors, but it was large. The roof should be big enough for the helicopter. Despite Angel getting out of the car, she stayed her ground not to go with Ghost. "I should be gone before your team gets here."

"Please come with me." Ghost said. She noticed that his instruction was expressed as a plea.

"We've already had that conversation. I don't like repeating myself." Angel spoke as she opened the car door again, but this time she took a pen from the side compartment. She turned the car's side mirror so that she could see herself and took off her leather jacket. She pushed the top aside and inspected her shoulder before sighing and circling a spot on her skin with the pen. "I'm assuming you're good at shooting."

Ghost's muscles were tensed as he looked at her. His gaze burned her skin. He hesitated for a moment before pulling his gun out of the holster and counting the remaining bullets. "I don't shoot at innocent people."

"I'm not innocent. Please, Ghost, let me stop what makes us guilty in the first place." She had placed her hands together in a begging gesture. "I can't do this without your help."

And the shot came much faster than Angel had expected.

#call of duty #cod x oc #john soap mactavish #kyle gaz garrick #price mw2 #simon ghost riley #simon ghost riley x reader #soap mw2 #cod mwii #simon x reader #könig mw2 #ghost x reader #ghost mw2 #john price #john soap mctaviah

[kris-the-yan]

Neurodivergent characters in Super Monkey Ball

Only one of these has a canon name for their disorder, the rest are implied so much that they may potentially be canon too

1. Doctor

-> Out of everyone, Doctor is the only character who has a label for his disorder, which is amnesia. And although it isn't entirely accurate representation of amnesia, it also isn't terrible as they don't portray him in a way that creates a mockery of amnesiac people in general.

-> besides that, he's also incredibly smart, so his IQ has to be through the roof practically, so maybe giftedness? Either way, he is portrayed as someone who is well-respected among individuals (hence the name Doctor, which was given by the public) (also I imagine when he was in school he was super popular due to his high intelligence)

2. YanYan

Probably not canon, but then again she litterally shows these in the games so it may be so

To start I would say she possibly shows **a few** signs of autism and although they never said anything about her having it, I feel like she probably does

-> For one thing, she **absolutely cannot sit still, AT ALL.** as seen in the games, she's constantly moving around, even when sitting down, something some sensory-seeking autistic people experience

-> Another thing, she is canonically described as being "fearless," which gets me thinking, maybe she doesn't fear anything even when it potentially puts her life in danger (for example a moving car headed her direction) (they probably mean she doesn't fear any bad guy she faces, but still).

-> Oh yeah SUPER MONKEY BALL BOUNCE AND she's the only one out of everyone who cries when she was kidnapped. Not just teary, watery eyes, I mean FULL ON WAILING which is kind of surprising because for someone who's supposedly "fearless," she's just there letting her emotions out. But why does she cry this much? Maybe it was the feeling of that green gooey web that she's tied up with, perhaps she hates the feeling of it and it upset her to the point of crying?

-> Also she's apparently shy, which honestly contradicts her actually being "fearless," but anyway, some autistic people are shy (depends on where they are on the spectrum), and although not all shy people are autistic, she could be since she experiences some of the other things (the constantly moving around is a big thing)

-> Also I think she has a lack of social awareness because she canonically has a crush on AiAi and even flirts with him even though their biological son is **right there** so shouldn't she be aware of that already? My prediction is that they throw hints and cues that any allistic person would understand and go "ok so I guess I can't date him because he's married and they have a son from the future" but YanYan doesn't seem to understand any of that, instead thinks she can still have a chance with him

3. Jam

-> Ok so this one's rather short but absentmindedness and hyperactivity are both signs of ADHD and since Jam shows both of these... :)

4. Pospos

-> I've went in-depth with this but he canonically shows signs of anomic aphasia or dysmonia, which is when you have trouble retrieving the correct words from memory, which happens to him a lot. He has trouble remembering names, which actually interferes with his job and ability to communicate overall. This is shown in-game when he struggles to remember the names of people he has to deliver mail to. He also seems to not make very good eye contact and shows signs of being shy, which I believe his disorder leads to.

5. Sisi

-> So, normally people wouldn't have to have pictures of everyone they meet to tell whether or not they exist, but just that one like tells everything ("I take pictures of everybody I meet, it's the only way I know they really exist"). The only explanation I can think of is he deals with hallucinations, specifically people. It may be only one line but he could possibly be schizo-spec because again, that piece of dialogue implies he hallucinates people and therefore takes pictures of everyone as the only real way of knowing whether they're real or not

#kris talks #super monkey ball #yanyan #sisi #pospos #doctor #jam #dereality tw #<- just in case for the last paragraph #i litterally had this in my head this morning

[littlerosetrove]

Bucks Death & Resurrection - Impactful or Nah?

I have a couple things I want to point out here, but the overall theme of my thoughts are that the writing for season 6 was overall unfulfilling and unsatisfying.

I chose this example, the arc of Buck's death, to help highlight how, not just for Buck, but for all of the characters, the writing fell short in allowing the audience to even understand what the characters were thinking and feeling way too often. I’ve mentioned before that “telling and not showing” was especially prevalent in season 6, but nothing new (I’d argue it’s been getting worse since season 4). As well, this big and important arc is a great example to show why the writing in season 6 felt spotty and unfulfilling.

I may not be 100% accurate about which episodes certain things took place, but you’ll get the idea. So, to break down Bucks arc of dealing with dying but surviving it went something like this:

6x11 or 6x12 (I think it was 12) → Dr. Salazar, while clearing Buck for firefighting duty physically, lets him know that his death may affect him mentally and emotionally in ways he may not expect. So be thoughtful and mindful of this, Mr. Buckley. Buck looks contemplative. 6x12 → Buck both tries to not process his death, and makes light of it, despite his 118 family (hell even Connor) asking how he is. → At the end of the episode we get our first concrete understanding of how Buck is feeling when he admits to Eddie that he’s unsure how to feel. 6x13 → We see hints of Buck looking unsure, a bit uneasy, but nothing more. Buddie fans at least assume that a big reason Eddie took Buck to play poker was to make Buck feel better. 6x14 → Buck again tries to make light of his death, coming across as just wanting move on from it already, when Bobby brings it up in one scene. 6x15 → Nothing here beyond Buck being intrigued by the death doula, Natalia, at the end of the episode. Again he kinda makes light of his death. I believe he referred to death as “an old friend” or something similar. (which… something something about Evan “passively suicidal since season one” Buckley never getting to properly confront and heal from this trauma/aspect. this death arc doesn’t acknowledge it, despite being a perfect opportunity, but anyway.) 6x16 → Buck admits to Eddie, near the end of the episode (??), that he feels like he has to act like “the same old Buck” (which we were shown little to no evidence of. if there was evidence it was, i think, too subtle for most people to catch, even me.) And in that same conversation - after apparently having a revelation in talking to Natalia (predominantly offscreen) once - says “every day is a gift.” And thus concludes Buck’s death and resurrection arc.

Not very satisfying is it?

We mostly got a small handful of quick moments of Buck just trying to brush past his death, only two brief moments of Buck actually being honest with Eddie specifically, in how he feels, but in that second conversation with Eddie, I had to make a guess that Buck’s comment on “every day is a gift” as Buck telling Eddie and us the audience that he’s good now. Thus this momentous event was, apparently, concluded in 4-5 episodes in a very scattershot way. And maybe it’s because my brain is low-key just trying to forget most of season 6, but I don’t remember Buck or anyone else talking about him dying and then living past episode 6x16.

In 4-5 episodes we only had Buck, twice, actually saying out loud how he felt, but even then it was to essentially say that he felt unsure how to even feel or act. We didn’t get to hear at all from Buck how he went from feeling lost to - off screen with a character we all just met - providing Buck with the key piece of information in understanding that “he’s good now actually.” For 4-5 episodes we were only shown Buck struggling with his death, to boom. Being told, poorly, that an offscreen conversation with Natalia is what made Buck feel settled with everything. I guess. 🙃

(side-ish note, but another way the writing, i’d say, failed even Natalia is that we were only ever shown that she’s almost weirdly fascinated by death. to me and i know others, she gave the vibe of her wanting to experience near death, just to see what it’s like. i’ll never forget her calling Buck’s death “so cool” when in contrast we had the 118 being devastated by Buck’s death. being worried about Buck post resurrection. so it made me question, “this is the person that’s going to help Buck process his death???”)

And I must emphasize, I don’t even know how many people even realize that the conversation Buck and Eddie had in the graveyard was the apparent conclusion to Buck's dying and resurrection arc. It took me something like 3-4 days post the finale to have a “wait a moment” epiphany.

So… So did Buck’s death and resurrection change Buck in any way? Not really. Did he learn and grow from it? Um, not that I can tell. Buck may have said “every day is a gift” but after that scene, idk, Buck was still Buck.

In case people bring this up: → Yes, Buck was able to keep cool during the finale rescue, but I don’t see how his experience with death is connected to this. His leadership arc went from A to Z with basically nothing in between to connect it. Plus we only ever got Bobby, once or twice, not having Buck do a harness rescue once he was back at work. To those paying attention, I think we can correctly interpret this as Bobby being extra careful with Buck. I think there was one or two rescues, again to those paying close attention, could tell that Buck did seem to be a little more careful than he may have been before he died. Both subtle things that not everyone may even notice. (although I don’t recall Buck being in any way reckless even in 6A at work, so.......) → Buck going through the 5 stages of grief in 3 seconds before handing over the baby to Kameron. It has been told and shown to us through all of 6B that Buck’s “totally fine, he never had an issue with donating. Idk what you guys are talking about.” Buck’s death was something separate from that storyline, and in any case neither one affected the other.

In conclusion? The writing for this arc was so scattered, mishandled, and unclear. The same can absolutely be applied to the entire season. But yeah, as for Buck’s death arc, considering how they handled it, I - really can’t say that it felt all that impactful, definitely not in the long run. 

@lovecolibri​ stated in tags on a post of mine that honestly summed up a big flaw in the writing of season 6: #and because the firefam are never talking to each other about things or feelings most of the time #i not only don't feel the found family aspect as much but also don't feel like i understand what anyone is thinking or feeling #which disconnects the audience from the emotional beats the show is trying to hit

^^ This issue was present even in season 5, but I think has gotten worse in season 6.

...

me any time I think about season 6:

#911 discourse #911 critical #911 meta #911 spoilers #Evan Buckley #hello I continue to be baffled how season 6 #managed to fail on so many levels #my thoughts #long post

[icravebooks]

Yoonseon era

Summary: spending with yoongi was not on agenda but it seems like the more you try to run away from him, the more he runs towards you. Having a meal with yoongi is surprisingly more educating than you would expect it to be however when your answer seem to put some lives on line you are not sure if you should be scared or be nervous.

Warnings:none as of now would probably have more of it when the story proceeds, will probably have smut because why not, angst yes maybe, fluff oh Hella dozen of it, soft yoongi yes that's a Warning because I know most of us are gonna end up being delulu because of it, will contain death and a few more darker scenes in the near future, I swear I will try to keep the theme light for this one.

This specific chapter has mention of gore not much but brief, intended mention of death. That would be it and a glimpse of caring yoongi.

Word count: 3.4k

Side note: i kinda did some heavy editing and sorry for not uploading on the schedule date, i happen to mess up when given a deadline also I actually kinda rewrote the coming chapters so anything you are gonna see is heavily edited. The story was about 2k words but I felt it was lacking which lead to the whole two weeks haitus, i apologise for that also, expect to see two more chapters of this series by tonight and I am also going to update troubled paradise part three today, for anyone who is reading that please look up to it.

I probably will be uploading the other new series I was about start which is an ot7.

So yay! Happy reading

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Life and death are said to be like two different sides of the same coin. But is that really an accurate description, if life and death were the same thing then shouldn't have death not scared people ? Perhaps it is rather accurate to say that life and death is a vicous circle you must enter death to be reborn as energy again in what form may not be a concern because being back to life might be the only ..

. "Why aren't you eating?" Yoongi's voice snapped you out of your thoughts, you looked up at him blinking your eyes trying to recollect what he was talking about, ofcourse he wasn't talking about your whole life and death theory, you had to make your brain register what he was saying or rather what his question was.

"do you not like the food?" He questioned raising a brow reminding your still a little hazy brain about what he intended to talk about, not wanting to give him another reason to have an opinion about you,  you shook your head keeping your lips pressed in a straight line, your mind contemplating if you should let out the real details to him or not, your eyes were fixed on the thing that was the very cause you went into that reviere of yours in the first place. Your eyes glaring dagger at the wooden chopsticks that was the reason of all your trouble.

But you didn't had much choice, one way or the other you had to let those words out so you closed your eyes drawing in a deep breathe, face feeling a little too hot because of the very much obvious stare.

"I don't know how to use chopsticks."

There you said it,

eyes not moving from the object at fault as You confessed, feeling a little ashamed even though you were not sure why, it shouldn't be an embarrassment to you, you never thought of it that way ever before but what was it about this handsome cat- no human stranger, damn him for being hot.

"do people not use them in your time ?" He asked after a long moment of silence, you were a little dumbfound because you mind was currently in the gutter admiring the man in front of you, yoongi's head was slightly tilted raw emotions expressing clear curiosity available in his eyes, his words drew you out once again making you chuckle heartily a warm sensation igniting in your sense something that made you want to squeeze him, god  how cute he sounded like a 5 years old trying to know all the mysterious this universe seemed to Carry.

"They do, well not everyone, the part I grew up in and have lived in doesn't uses chopsticks." You clarified making him mouth out an oh, he nodded his head before looking back at you. Your heart skipping a beat because how utterly foolish you were to feel weird things just at the very eyes contact, a whole zoo was released in your stomach when He grabbed your hand and held in positioning the chopsticks correctly in between your fingers and showing you how to use them.

It was simple gesture , a simple touch and yet it all seem to drive you on the verge, your mind paying way too much attention to the warmth his hands were  radiating or just how rough they were not soft like most would expect but rather the kind of hard working rough, you once watched a movie which had a particular scene where the heroine's father rejected the guy and when the girl asked why he said that when he shook hands with the hero his hands were soft, 'those are not the hands of a man who knows responsibilities'.

It had stricken you a little more than it should have although you knew that was a vintager classic movie but still look how you actually found that advice worthy.

you thanked him once he withdrew his hand, personally disliking it to some point but logically thankful because atleast your brain was functioning properly now, yoongi proceeded with his own food waving your thanks with a simple nod, finding it somehow embrassing and not wanting to get your face anymore warmer You tried to bring the food close to your mouth using the chopstick only for it to fall back down making you pout as you glare at the wasted food. Your competitive side rearing it's head had You again taking some more of it bring it close to your mouth for it to again fall down and make you whine in frustration.

Yoongi who was silently Watching you broke out into hysterical silent laughter, his shoulders shaking as he laughed at your expense making you glare at him while pouted ashamed. "It's not even funny." You stated looking at him with wide eyes , your own lips twitched seeing him laugh like that, there was something so pure about him laughing his heart out that even the slightest bit of embarrassment you had felt was gone.

If his closeness had stole your breathe away the moment he flashed you that gummy smile of his you were sure your heart toppled down some. A blush coated your cheeks as he calmed down and went back to eating leaving your mind buzzing with thoughts, you were sure now you were attracted to him not just simply attracted it was not a crush type of thing but there was something hypnotic about him. Something you couldn't seem to find an antidote too.

You tried your best to keep yourself from saying anything through out the whole time you guys were eating cause you clearly weren't ready to destroy the serene you felt in that silence that engulfed you both.

Finally when you were done and were about to leave yoongi stopped you and suggested taking a walk in his garden, you were quite surprised to learn that he takes care of the garden by himself and some how being there felt as if seeing parts of him, he didn't shared with the world. It made a sense of stupid pride rise something about knowing him somehow better, it was pure nuisance but it seem to matter to your soul and God you really thought that maybe it had to do with all the villan loving stories you read.

You were watching the small rose plants and some other flower that you found adorable, a smile graced your lips as you bend down to observe them from near. It was better to be mesmerized by the view than to pay attention to the man beside you, there was a knot in your stomach with how much nervous you were about this whole conversation, Yoongi cleared his throat drawing your attention towards him, you were hesitant not really sure what to expect, maybe you weren't the only one feeling that way because yoongi seemed a lot more unsure than you, your eyes had somehow courage to look at him meanwhile he looked anywhere but not towards you.

"You might be wondering why I am keeping you here." He voiced out making you press your lips together into a thin line while you clawed at your hand trying to control your nerves, your stomach dropping when the serious in his voice got registered in your brain, this was insane but you found even this behaviour of his hot. you stood straight giving him a nod in affirmation, not sure if you could trust yours mouth to form words when it felt so heavy to even move your lips. Yoongi had voiced one of your biggest questions and God did you want to know the answer?, hell yes but were you partially scared yup definitely.

"I want you.." he trailed off, your whole world stopped for a second, your heart restarted and had it been a comedy show of something you were sure there would have been the sound of a computer shutting off in the background. Finally when your brain restarted and you registered his words your eyes widen thinking you might have heard him wrong, do people back in time also said things like these to just anyone?,isn't it like weird that those words sound so foreign, you have never had sexual experience not that you didn't know what all happened, you knew far more well thanks to all the wattpad and books you read. But hearing someone who you have no idea how made your heart race made your stomach tie into knots, your thoughts were cut sort when he continued.

"I want you to teach me about your world." He declared making your mouth slightly fall agape both in disappointment and disbelief at the same time while you were sure your face was red. You wanted to slap yourself for feeling disappointed, damn this was getting out of hand but you didn't had time to think about that, he had made a request to you that was what required your attention at the moment, your stupid thoughts could wait.

"Sure." You answered as you cocked your head to the side and gave him a tight lip smile secretly you were praying for him to not see just how red you were, if he did see it and find you weird he didn't say it or show it, his face was relaxed not really happy but there was something about his feature. He looked almost blank as if he had no emotions within him but then again you clearly remember how his face lit up when you guys were eating or when you had made a complete fool of yourself with the chopsticks incident. You hoped you could find a crack in his hard exterior but he had expert it in years while you were too lousy to break through so quick.

This made you wonder, did he really was bad like you have heard from everyone within a day. You weren't quick to judge, you didn't liked being judgmental about anyone. You were a person who would rather try to defend someone from people's judgment and this had you thinking that maybe he wasn't how people thought he was. There was a lot more you had to hear about him,. Maybe it the effect of all the books you have read but you wanted to know him personally, you wanted to see what those eyes were hiding, you wanted to see that smile of his again. It was going to be a hard journey but you were going to get there.

The maids were not quite open for discussion about this very person but you knew you could get them to speak all you needed was to get a little close with them first.

"Then I will be leaving." He declared a little awkward and you realised you spaced out again giving him the impression that this all was awkward, well it was supposed to be awkward but all you felt was comfort. You just nodded your head in agreement really not knowing what to say at this moment and he turned around had taken few steps away from you when a particular thing came to your mind.

"Yoongi wait!" You exclaimed trying to rush towards him to catch up with him, your voice made him turn around right at same time when you managed to trip once again over the dress and would have landed face first if it wasn't for Yoongi's quick reflexes.

He was quick to grab you by your forearm steadying you and saving you from the fall as your eyes met his, you could hear your heart drumming at the very cliche moment that would have made you cringe had it not been this particular man saving your ass from farther embarrassment. You swear you heart was in your throat, you had to stop yourself from awing at how beautiful he was from up close.

"Are you always this clumsy?" He teased with an amused smile dancing on his lips making you frown as all those notorious thoughts turned into annoyance and a pinch of embarrassment along. You bit your inner cheek stop yourself from saying something that would not be nice enough, you were sure you could beat a tomato at being red in this moment, a little stubborn to admit his accusation was correct you huffed glaring at him.

"I am not clumsy it's the stupid dress." You blamed as you pulled away from him and took a step back stomping your feet like a little kid in annoyance, the fact that an amused smile kept playing on his lips at your distress wasn't helping in bringing your anger fit down.

"You are enjoying this aren't you?" You accused while jabbing a finger at his chest making him chuckle while you pouted crossing your arms, clearly too stupid of overcome with anger to realise just how many boundaries you were crossing by behaving the way you were behaving. However your mind was to messed up and you were a little too pissed by his teasing comments that you didn't think of any possible reasoning.

"do you even know how much of a pain this very clothing is?, gosh I had been tripping ever since the morning and not just that what was her name... .yeah Ms. Shin she wouldn't even let me walk a step without nagging about how my way of walking is not lady like how I shouldn't hunch up my dress, how it is inappropriate to walk like that ..this that .." you were ranting out complaining frustrated as you paced around infront of him.

Yoongi just stood there watching you make faces as you threw your hands in the air and continued talking, if he was smiling before he was grinning by now. You were interesting according to him, he had never felt this way before, he hasn't even smiled like this ever before. "Honestly.." you started coming to a stop infront of him and giving him an assessing look, he felt his heart skip a bit when he saw how you smiled mischievously once the wheels inside your head stop turning.

"Can you just do me a favor?" You requested him , your eyes turned shiny and you gave him your most innocent look, he raised an eyebrow moving back slightly while he eyed you with suspicion and gave you a hesitant nod of his head. "Could you just please tell the maids to not be so damn stubborn, i told them I didn't needed their help but they literally forced me to get nake-" you stopped as you realised that wasn't appropriate kind of information to share but how else were you supposed to tell him what happened the very  morning.

You hesitantly looked up to his face to see his cheeks were tainted a slight pink and his lips were pressed in a straight line as he looked at something behind you clearing avoiding meeting your eyes, you cleared your throat hopping it  would also some how clear the awkward tension that has been caused by the slip of your tongue.

"all i am trying to say is that the maids are way to uptight and won't let me be, and also I know how to do things for myself so it's quite weird for me when they insist on helping." You completed rubbing the back of your neck as you sighed bitting your lower lip, "they are doing their job, I pay them for doing the very same thing you aforementioned." Yoongi quipped and suddenly you weren't exactly interested in being nice to him, feeling a little more pissed by his cocky statement had it been not your life on line you would have probably tried choking him for this but that wasn't a suitable option so you settled for glaring at him instead, while you scoffed.

"I gather well what you mean but I certainly am not ready to 'act' like how lady are supposed to be like, so I would be really be grateful to you if you instruct them to not be so extremely obligated to count every breathe i take." You added trying to make it sound a little gentle but you were so close to snapping that you were sure your words were anything but gentle and it wasn't like you could be blamed, trying making someone stand in your show and then say you were wrong if someone still did say you were wrong they were clearly lying.

"What will I gain by doing so?" He suddenly blurted out making you blink, your opened your mouth to say something but lacked words so just closed it back. He smirked at your speechless state leaning down suddenly making you look at him with wide eyes while you tried to step up only to be pulled towards him by his hand that snaked towards your back. Okay, he needs to be careful of what he wants to bring in on himself because you as hell were minutes away from losing your mind and doing some inane things to him, you had to try thinking this wasn't helping, yoongi wasn't helping.

"You are a king aren't you supposed to be generous?" You tried to reason meanwhile you wiggled a little in his hold taking a little step back  trying to maintain distance between you both by placing your hands on his chest and pushing him away. God his smell drove you crazy and clearly you didn't wanted to be drunk on hormones that would probably end up making you lose some important card of yours.

He scoffed as his eyes traveled towards your lips making you gulp while you bit the inside of your cheek, he shouldn't be playing you like this, you weren't sure if you wanted to punch him or kiss him, this was so weird. "Don't you know by now what type of a king i am?" He shot back while his dark eyes searched your face, you were trying your best to keep your gaze on either his Chin or his nose definitely avoiding his eyes.

Your body was already heating up, not just that the heat radiating from him wasn't helping at all, "what do you want from me?" You voiced out finally gaining the courage to met his eyes only regretting when you found him already looking at you with such intensity that made your toes curled. You cursed inside your head, his face was enchanting the more you looked the more that scar made your hands itch.

You wanted to see how it would feel beneath your finger tips, many thoughts clouding your mind as you started to imagine various scenes that were high inappropriate. "I do not know right now but I will need a promise from you that you would grant it when i ask of you so." He conditioned making your mouth fall slightly agape as you gave it a thought, you didn't miss how his eyes fell to your lips or how his hold tighten around you slightly.

"Okay ..you have my words." You stated a little hesitant as you closed your eyes, your voice came out breathy as you were mentally trying to think about anything else other than how close you both were, realizing seconds later that this just seemed even more like you were expecting him to kiss you.

"Very well then." You heard his husky voice from somewhere very close, his minty breathe hitting your face and seconds later it was all gone. His warmth, his hold on you all too soon, you stopped yourself from whining at the loss of him as you opened your eyes to see him now at a decent amount of distance from you. He is a tease that's all you could conclude by his behaviour and that stupid smirk of his.

"See you at lunch time then." He stated giving you a slight nod of his head making you hum in response, you just stood there watching him leave, which he did but not before leaving a comment. "You look beautiful in a hanbok." He had said and left rather quickly not giving you much chance to even utter a thank you but you were glad he left cause your couldn't control the stupid smile that spread across your face.

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Gotham Knights predictions for the finale! 

I've made guesses throughout the season for how things might progress with characters and plot - most were wrong, which I love because I was pleasantly surprised, but some were right: like fugue!Harvey being Duela's real father and I truly love that twist so much! My point: this show delivers every week on the twists so I'm gonna put my theories here knowing they're probably not accurate and we'll probably be pleasantly surprised yet again, but it helps to lay everything out (heads up: I'm only focusing on Harvey, Rebecca and Duela in this post).

re: Harvey + Rebecca + Duela 

Harvey has been captured by the Talons/Rebecca. So has Duela? 

1. I'm so curious to see whether Rebecca tries to wake dark!Harvey hoping he'll join her side, because he did spin that being with Rebecca was for Harvey's benefit so maybe he knows she's evil but doesn't care? Or whether Harvey will invite dark!Harvey to take over so he can stop Rebecca and save them - but I wonder if dark!Harvey will then choose to side with Rebecca? 

2. In the trailer we hear Rebecca say Look who's come out to play, and since she knows Harvey's musical trigger she's probably the one to bring out dark!Harvey. The question is: why? Does she want to offer him the chance to join her side in her evil plan? It stands to reason that dark!Harvey knew about her because she let him out and he was still down to fool around. Perhaps she sees dark!Harvey as more of a wild card, harder to control, but he could still be a strong ally [re:pawn] if she helps get him relected as DA and/or Mayor. 

3. In any case: what happens when dark!Harvey takes control? Given his self proclaimed status as Harvey's protector - specifically against the court - it doesn't really make sense that he would join dangerous Rebecca (and keep control just to spite him) but Harvey did 'kill' him so maybe he takes some time to be selfish, which could include Rebecca offering him the same deal of immortality and maybe even a way to stay in control indefinitely? 

4. In the trailer for 1x13 we see dark!Harvey laughing in the same owl hall Rebecca is in. Has she set him free? Is he setting his own double-cross plan in motion? Another snippet shows (presumably) dark!Harvey holding a gun: it's pointed to the ground along with his eyesight so whoever/whatever he's shooting at is on the ground and honestly I have no idea aside from him needing to wound/kill someone (but he told harvey in their dream convo that neither of them were killers, so is this their first kill?) but maybe something is more likely. 

5. Though it makes some sense, personally I don't want dark!Harvey to side with Rebecca because he's not a villain (yet). I want her to try and sell him immortality (and possibly control) but he refuses - but may also play her for a bit first? Maybe he agrees to her plan if only to be freed of his restraints. In any case, things get complicated with Duela.. 

6. Duela is bound in a warmly-lit room that looks to be the same place as Rebecca (pointing a gun at her?*) and dark!Harvey (laughing at her?*) beside a ticking bomb. Tens of thousands of people will die, Duela argues and the flip of the former Joker's daughter and small-time criminal wanting to save innocent people while the former white knight DA of Gotham is now an unhinged adversary is top-notch storytelling. 

* 6b. it could be that dark!Harvey is laughing at Rebecca, and at a separate point she is pointing the gun at Harvey (who is now back in control): warning him not to try and save his own daughter, making him choose and making her choose between having dark!Harvey at her side or killing Harvey (because he doesn't have any Electrum in him yet so he can't heal from a gunshot and will likely be left behind to be blown to bits alongside Duela). 

7. It's unclear how Duela came to be where she is. Her mother would only betray her for a high price - at the end of 1x12 we see her drug Duela and say the money is just too good, so perhaps she intends to collect on the ransom for the last fugitive. Does Duela escape? But before she can help free her friends a Talon captures her and brings her to Rebecca? As for the bomb: I'm guessing Rebecca is trying to set Duela up to take the fall, and in the aftermath she (and perhaps dark!Harvey) will rebuild Gotham to her liking. 

8. But this is the finale and we know what's coming: Harvey's disfigurement is imminent. As the summary mentions: Harvey is faced with an impossible decision that could have devastating consequences. Which brings me back to both Harveys and Duela: 

9. How dark!Harvey feels about Duela is unknown. Did he know about her existence? This matters because of context: Duela is bound next to a bomb that will kill her while Rebecca does her evil monologue and dark!Harvey stands at her side. The summary mentions an 'impossible decision' with 'devastating consequences': I'm guessing Rebecca can't shoot Duela because that would prove (in the rubble and remains of the bomb blast) that she was a victim not the perpetrator, but she needs Duela to die in the blast. Perhaps we will see Harvey fight for control over dark!Harvey in order to save his daughter - which would be a beautiful contrast to Duela 'killing' him - and in so doing Rebecca decides he's not worth it and leaves them both to die? Or maybe Harvey shoots Rebecca? (and she can't die because of the Electrum so maybe while he's not looking she gets away). 

10. There's also the question of whether Duela remains with Harvey or leaves to help her friends fight the Talons coming to kill them. Does Rebecca trap them both? In any case, It seems pretty likely that Harvey's disfigurement will be caused by the bomb blast, from him trying to stop or escape the bomb (I think Harvey would try to stop it while also making sure his daughter was safe, while dark!Harvey would get the hell out of there - but I think by this plot point Harvey will definitely be back in control). Perhaps he saves Duela, but with the blast supposedly being so deadly it begs the question: are we looking at the reality of a high civilian death toll, and if so how does Harvey survive? 

11. I'm also very curious to see how Duela reacts to dark!Harvey, and whether he or Harvey gets the chance to talk to her. I think if he does know about her he'll definitely confirm he's her bio dad, but at the very least he'll confirm being involved with her mom, and maybe even clarify that Harvey didn't know about her because he didn't even know about him (this could be telling, separating Harvey from his deeds in yet another protective move, meaning he still cares about Harvey). Seeing might be believing, so she might observe dark!Harvey and side with the whole double-persona thing rather than believe her mom - who just turned her in for a stack of cash. Poor Duela. I really hope she gets a nice bonding moment with Harvey before everything goes to hell, she deserves some positive, sincere parental memories. 

What about season 2?

Sadly, GK was cancelled. But we can still discuss, and create, and spread our enthusiasm and appreciation for this awesome show!

We know the finale will give us Two-Face. So is immortal!Rebecca dead? Because a bomb blast seems like a good way to make sure an immortal person stays dead. Or was she slated to re-emerge in season 2 as Two-Face's first nemisis? That idea has potential, especially given she's now an established villain. Or were the plans for season 2 to make Two-Face the new villain? Perhaps the season would open six months after the blast that devestated Gotham, meanwhile the Bat Brats' names have been cleared and they've taken up the official savior role as the Gotham Knights. And in the shadows Two-Face takes advantage of the city's chaos. 

Throughout season 1 Duela came to truly care about her friends, so despite whatever happens in the finale with Harvey, her newly emerged goodness has me thinking she'd stick with her savior friends moving forward. But I still love the idea of her somehow being involved with or just simply fascinated by Two-Face, especially considering that's her father - proven, not some fairytale about the Joker. Like every Bat Brat, she has some serious parental issues, and part of her character journey is about discovering and defining her own self rather than be shaped by her parents, so it might not make sense for her to stay in contact with Two-Face, but I can see the fic playing out in my mind and I love it. 

I'm not sure how it works with cancelled shows, whether the showrunner and writers and cast can share what-could-have-been, but I think once the finale airs we'll get a good idea what direction they were planning to take the story. 

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